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UM COOL so today was the day of embarrassment that ended in me falling off my horse WHILE AT A GALLOP UP HELLO I think I did a good job of tucking and rolling my shoulder and back took most of it but not hard I mostly rolled, hit my head a little but not hard. You know I stood right back up. Thankfully I didn't break anything goddamn lol. The road burn is the worst of it. I'm most worried about a concussion. But I don't think I've got one? My anxious ass wants to go to the ER but I have to work tomorrow.

I appear to have injured my finger while hand sewing. Repetitive strain injury, I assume? I don't remember explicitly injuring my finger. I thought it was going to heal on its own but since it hasn't, my doctor wants to take a look at it. It hurts at like a 2 on a scale of 10 so it's more of an annoyance than excruciating pain. What's more, it clicks when I bend it, but doesn't stick like trigger finger. I'm not sure what's wrong exactly but I did not want to have more medical bills in case I need an X-ray and whatever else. I splint it myself for a bit. But ugh. And it doesn't get worse, or better. It just stays the same.

I'm really craving some art of my OC Sara with some of the demons from Obey Me! Shall We Date but of course I also want them to be like eating/stuffing kink related :')

I was super on the fence about going because anxiety and money is tight. But now that I decided I REALLY want to go, I can't. My fiance usually drives us, but his family friends are coming in that weekend so he won't go.
I'm too scared to drive by myself even though I'm sure I'd do fine. I've never gotten a hotel all by myself either. And, my anxious ass would keep in the room.
A friend offered to pick me up which is nice, but there is still the issue of trying to afford a hotel and such on my own.
I'm bumming out hardcore, especially with the PCD from Colossalcon being over. I just... don't have a lot of luck when it comes to furry things. :/

Sooo another $200 in vet bills yet again as my youngest guinea pig has parasites and needs medicine on top of his eye drops for conjunctivitis. Poor guy! He's still quite new and warming up to us anyway so it's hard to grab him to administer medication sometimes. I'm glad we took him in tho because they said he is more at risk being so young still. And the financial strain is....really getting to me. I can't seem to save no matter what I do. 😭 It's stressed me out so much. But hoping for a quick recovery for baby Harold, he is finally gaining weight at last and I am becoming very attached to him too.

Bra shopping. Need I say more?
I don't think I need to say much more than bra shopping and RIP the tattered remains of my 10 year old bras. 🤣

I hate vertigo I had it all night every time I moved my head or got up to use the restroom. I had to take off today because I don't feel safe driving my car like this when any little thing can trigger it. Nausea and tremors accompany it. I just have to be careful until the silly little crystals in my ear fix themselves back into their proper place lol. But until then the world is spinning. 😵‍💫

ChatGPT is like free therapy when you can't currently afford it
Don't ask me how much time I've dedicated to communicating with an AI over the last few days

Would love any and all Mayternity ideas to write about!! So lay em on me!

Tw: depression and su*c*de mention

I took a nap and the whole village though I was dead or injured lol. It is nice to know how many people in my life care about me so much. While I am depressed, I'm not suicidal and I just laid down after a shower and fell asleep. I woke up to pounding on the door and several missed calls and texts from fiance, parents, and my aunt. I also started a new medication so I can see why they were worried. But I was just stressed after work and wanted to not think about it and so I guess my body said I wanted to take a nap. And of course I'm on my period so that's a whole other thing lmao. But I am fine and I will be letting them know the next time I have the potential to fall asleep. I just thought it was a very nice moment. I also felt bad that I worried them so much!

I take comfort in knowing that one day at the Rainbow Bridge, I will see a herd of guinea pigs, dogs, fish, a lizard, hermit crabs, and more running to me. Especially the herd of guinea pigs. Just the thought of my (currently 12 with number 13 being still with me) pass guinea pigs bouncing towards me is making me want to cry happy tears. I wonder how many more guinea pigs I will have in life. They are very special animals to me, as I got my first guinea pig after my father passed away. My mom wanted me to have my very own pet to help me heal and let me tell you it worked and it continues to work.

So I disabled my fursuit account, retrieving-with-josh. I won't say why but what I can say is I might re enable it....someday.

Tw: pet loss
I woke up to check on Beanie and he has crossed the rainbow bridge...I feel absolutely torn apart right now, this guinea pig was everything to me. I'm hurting so much. The shock is still setting in but I... It's going to take me a while to get over this loss...

I'm trying to find someone to do a few belly related or vore related stickers for Telegram, like a YCH pack type situation, but my search results aren't bringing much up. Idk if I just don't know what to search or if it's something more typically offered on Twitter. Was wondering if anyone knew where I could find someone who does something like that? Thanks so much!

I support peace. But I am not anti-Israel. To be anti-Israel would be against my fiance and his history. You can unfollow me or bash me or block me if you want, I don't care anymore. I just want the fucking fighting to end! Neither side should be wiped off the map or anything like that. I was supposed to go visit the home country of my fiance, my beloved, when the war broke out. Now I worry about his (soon to be my) family daily. I haven't been the same since our trip was cancelled, for obviously a lot of different and various reasons with a lot of complicated feelings. Idk where else I'm trying to go with this, but I wanted to be very blunt in case people wanted to cut ties with me.
Thank you, that's all from me.

I went to my dentist today and after the cleaning I asked them to remove the tonsil stones. They were able to suction them out and it still is sore but I can tell the stones are gone. I still feel incredibly fatigued and I'm now on day 11 or 12 of my cycle which...sucks. I'm hoping it stops soon because I'm tired of bleeding constantly. 🤪

Send helpppp I have tonsil stones and it appears I am too squeamish to remove them myself. I'm going to my dentist tomorrow evening luckily and I'll ask them to remove them but damn it hurts it feels like I'm swallowing nails every time I swallow. I'm also probably anemic I am on day freaking 11 of my cycle which has not happened while I've been on birth control and it's been nonstop and I feel so fatigued I can barely sit up. I feel awful.

I'm DESPERATE to get out of my current job situation before I have a total meltdown and quit. I'm trying to find remote work but everything is either a scam or doesn't exist when I look for it. I don't want to do customer service anymore unless it's text based and I have a psych degree but I don't think psych is for me at all.... I think I'm great at writing and creativity but I can't find anything I'm qualified for. Or it's something like paid per project which sounds like a no from me. I've been browsing flexjobs but I can't find anything I'm qualified for. Idk what to do anymore but my job environment right now is so stressful I have barely ate or slept all week and my BP was high. It's never been high, ever. Idk what to do anymore I'm breaking apart mentally and physically.

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Not off to a great start already and now I learn that fiance has invited monster in law to the rec center tonight after work. I just want to exercise in peace not in pieces x.x I don't know why he did that my mom and I don't want to see her
Oh and if she says anything about my overweight mom I'm going to go berserk. My mom is strong as fuck and works out despite having a bad ankle and missing a literal bone in said ankle. I know monster in law is fatphobic.

Me: I'm not going to be right there if they decide to come back after all that's happened. I've hardened my heart. 😤
Them: hey, I know it's been a while but can I come over? I want to reconnect!
Me: Y-you do? 🥺👉👈 cOME OVER RIGHT NOW I DONT CARE THAT IT'S MIDNIGHT

Lol

In all seriousness tho I'm so excited

I could use anyone and everyone's input on this! Whether you have experience with this situation or not.

My fiance and I are getting married next year. Just a little over a year from now.

His mother has said, years before our engagement even, that she would not attend our wedding. That's all well and good, the mother of the maid of honor is a close family friend and is stoked to stand in as his mother.

We decided we would invite his mother and her friend who is a man, to the wedding just so she can't say oh you didn't even invite me.

Here's where I'm in a pickle. What if she objects or otherwise acts a nuisance as per her character? Sure, she'd be kicked out IMMEDIATELY. But I don't want that in the first place!!!

I'm in a bind here. I want to minimize the stress of getting married. I'm fully aware that sress will exist no matter what we do, but I want to *minimize* it.

Any advice thoughts opinions sympathies would be greatly appreciated!!

When you want nothing but to come home and play your comforting dinosaur game but then finally come home only to feel way too tired to play said comfort game
Idk third world problems

I feel trapped in my new job, already. It feels like the more rapidly I get new jobs, the faster I feel stuck in them and want to leave. I no longer think I'm cut out for social work. I really think I have some antisocial tendencies. I can't do it anymore. I'm also needing to take a step back from some things to avoid being triggered, as when I feel stuck, I start to have bad thoughts.

The good news is I talked to my fiance and my mom. They recommended I stick it out for a bit longer since I am still brand new. But to be looking out for another line of work. Sucks that I won't be using my psych degree as intended but...

Additionally, there is a possibility an opportunity for me to accept a bridge being built towards me. That is to say, a friend wishes to reconnect to me after some unsavory things from both sides. This would greatly improve my world if we do reconnect.

And I might even say fuck it and apply to my fiances job. I would work from home full-time. I'm just going to try to hang in there, just like my mom always reminds me I am no quitter.