EDIT: I was already aware that onions are toxic to dogs. I just haven't lived with my parents dog for over 3 years, so this kind of thing happened to slip my mind in the moment because people were arriving and I was feeling naturally my social anxiety. I saw someone trying to feed Jax (parents Jack Russell) a chip, which she can't eat hard stuff anymore because of her teeth. I looked for the softest food on the table, onion rings. A few minutes later I was like SHIT I know that onions are toxic to dogs and it had slipped my mind. Several of my family members who are very aware of dogs since they have them currently, watched me feed her a small piece of onion ring and did not remind me.

When I move out of my shitty apartment and can have the space for a dog like I've always wanted, I will have a list of toxic food on the fridge/somewhere I can reference like I do with my current pets at home, guinea pigs.

For the record, I have lived with a dog every since shortly before my dad passed away, up until I moved out with my fiance a few years ago. But I have lived around dogs for 95% of my life so far. I know what is toxic to them. But I had a slip of the mind. Why anyone didn't warn me in that moment I'll never know, but I am not blaming them and just thank the gods that Jax is a tank and is totally fine.

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First of all, thank you to everyone who expressed their concern and sympathy yesterday, after I accidentally fed my parents dog what amounted to half of a small onion ring.
She is doing completely fine today! I think she knew I was scared because last night when I said goodbye, she followed me out into the kitchen. She had been asleep in her dog bed in my parents bedroom and wouldn't usually get up unless there was food or she had to pee. She was like see I'm fine don't worry about me. XD
I won't be making that mistake again!

I accidentally fed my parents dog a little bit of onion. Everyones insisting she'll be fine but I am PETRIFIED I would never forgive myself if the old girl ..well...

I hesitate to join raffles because I have won some before...and then never heard back x.x

Just a small reminder that my fiance is Israeli and I just want the fighting to end. I just want to go visit my fiances family for the first time ever. I want to go over and practice my Hebrew. I just want his family to stay safe. His cousin was just sent to fight. I just want it to end. This is just my side right now. I do not support anti semitism. Unfollow me if you want I don't care but I will never back down in my support for Israel and being directly impacted family wise.

Wow, goodbye Funimation. Back in my day.... XD
And glad for the reminder as to why I greatly prefer physical copies over digital content, they can't bash down my door and take back my physical copies lmao. Still very strange to think about and frustrating for those who will lose their digital library.
Funimation *whispers* you can't be watching

CW: accident, fire, unalive

I wasn't going to talk about this because I didn't see a point and felt like rambling to the air but maybe that's what I need. And it's got me in a weird place.

This morning a tanker truck fell off a bridge and exploded. There was a massive fire and diesel spill. I drove by the area a little after it happened it smelled bad. It's been over 12 hours and the freeway is still close.

I was hoping the driver would live....but he didn't. I guess the good thing is that there weren't any cars close enough to the bridge for it to fall on.

I'm also concerned since all that diesel went right into a stream and towards a waterfall. It also spread the fire.

It was a chaotic scene and it messed with my head a little bit. It was quite near where my parents live too.

Anyway, that's about it. Just an eventful day is all. I also had lunch with my maid of honor and it was nice.

Serious questions because looking this up online is so confusing.

If you draw something that is completely your original art and then submit it to a printing site (like Shutterfly) is that okay?

And vice versa, less likely, if you get a commission from someone, can you print it just keep for yourself? On a site or just on your own printer. (I do not think so because copyright, right? But I'm just curious.)

Thanks!!

Just heard about that influencer who lied about having sickle cell anemia when she really just got a BBL, and gives a weak ""apology."" Just, why lie that fucking big?

As someone with an invisible defect/disorder/disability that comes with frustrating complications, it's infuriating! It's hard enough getting people to believe you have something if you don't show physical signs of being ill or disabled. I'm reluctant to try for aids that might help make things a little easier for me in fear of being judged or harassed by someone in public. This kinda shit doesn't help lol. It also generates a lot of distrust in me towards large influencers.

Just a random small rant but yeah had to get it out of my head.

Does anyone else remember a lot of their dreams? I've filled up so many dreams journals!!! I even have prophetic dreams sometimes. My dreams are many, vivid, and sometimes lucid as well. I've recognized patterns and recurring dreams, and I've astral projected. I love to interpret dreams. My most common dream? Being at a convention, or something to do with frogs and or toads! Just some interesting thoughts

Please help these lovely people and their fur babies out!!!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55237642/

Just when I thought everything was going good... I feel crappy again. I don't want to take care of myself. I just want to sleep all day but of course I can't.

is having a raffle! Check them out c:

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is having a raffle! Check it out :D
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55156825/
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I'm stoked to announce I'm going to make another fursuit. I'm not going to reveal him yet because I'm afraid of someone stealing my idea LOL but I'm going to bring a funny childhood character to life! He will be toony, non digitigrade, and feature my favorite color too. Can't wait!

I think I'm an empath -maybe- but seeing so many people around me going through such dark times, worse than I could imagine, wears on me and slaps me in the face with "your own problems are small potatoes compared to what they go through." And I'm like what reason do I have to feel sad or betrayed or lonely - I have a job, I have a fiance, a home. And yet I still have bad thoughts and high anxiety.
And it goes to show how the thoughts mess with your head because I'm a huge advocator of different issues affecting different people in different ways big or small.
I'm a listener and I want to help but then I just feel inadequate. And I feel like it all builds up in me and suddenly I'm crying for no reason. Whenever my fiance feels a certain emotion I suddenly feel it like twice as much it's strange and gets exhausting like I'm holding the world on my psyche. Even if it's a positive emotion it gets amplified and exhausts me either way.

Anyway idk where I'm going with this.

It's officially the new Year where I live!
I'm low-key upset with a family member for like damning the year where I got engaged in :( I know it's been a tough year...but I'm not going to say I wanted it over so badly. Well whatever I'm in rare form, it's like I've said my seasonal depression is horrible this year.

Does anyone have any fun ideas for some Sawsbuck vore?

Still struggling. Feeling damn near invisible to most people in my life. Most. I'm not saying all, and it's mostly irl people or people I've known a long time. Cousins growing up and all that. Not hearing from your maid of honor or your supposed friend since highschool. Whys it so damn hard to make friends as an adult. It's got some very dark thoughts swirling in my head so I'm trying to avoid alone time which is usually the last thing I'd ever want. But when I'm like this I can't typically be alone. Or rather shouldn't. But. Anyway. Im lurking.

Why does the nuke submission button exist?!?! 😭😭😭😭💔 I lost so much AGAIN LOL

Tis the year of being forgotten
Best friend didn't wish me happy birthday
Cousin forgot my presents
Not that I care about presents but being forgotten
Ghosted by so many people
It shouldn't bother me, it shouldn't. It really should not.
But something about this year got me feelin a certain way. A very bad headspace I am in. Very. Very.

Hhhhh I miss doing Christmas/holiday rps. So bad. Back in the good ole days

I'm taking one of my guinea pigs to the emergency vet today, after recommendation from his regular vet. I have a feeling this is about to get very expensive...but Beanie is my baby. I'm bringing him. He's having some breathing irregularities.
It took several calls to find someone who can take him. More emergency vets for exotics please!!
Im experiencing some high anxiety with this. He's about 3 years old, I would guess. I hate seeing my pets age but he hasn't yet shown his age.
Get well soon and fast please Beanie.

It really sucks when someone you considered a best friend doesn't reach out or wish you happy birthday, but I'm trying not to focus on this. I must acknowledge that I am growing and healing and I can't dwell on the past or how things used to be. I was surrounded by people who love and care about me and that is what matters. I just wanted to get it out, so I don't dwell on it as I tend to do. Im hoping with this new job that I'll be able to afford therapy again!

Ah yes, the annual day of changing my age from 26 to 27 on all platforms 🤣 level 27 baby!

Today's my birthday! But, it was also my dad's birthday! Happy birthday dad, from your daughter on earth to her daddy up in heaven. Send some snow down for me and momma, okay? Thanks dad for everything you did to build our family and instilling curiosity and kindness into me at a young age. 🥰

Okay
Note to self:
DO NOT ASK AN AI TO GENERATE IMAGES OF THE PARALYSING NIGHTMARE YOU HAD 5 MINUTES AGO, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT