This weekend was very eventful but not for the fun eventful weekend everyone wants. Our ferret Pepper past away. He was able to live a normal ferret life away from a shelter at least. That is what makes me feel happier everyday. Knowing that my mate and I gave him a great last year of his life.

Also on another note, my grandmother also past away this weekend... Very sad weekend indeed.

I know I am not on here often, mainly cause I am busy with other stuff, but I lost 2 watchers in the past few days. Sad sad ferret. Oh well! Room for more watchers I suppose.

I looked at my FA just now and saw I have 1 new submission, 1 comment, 1 new journal, and 1 new favorite. It would be really funny if I also had 1 new watch but I saw I have several. Anyways on another note I am on spring break!

This trip to Maui was really fun but also at the same time it was really annoying. My family is hard to deal with at times, even though I love them all to death, they really do piss me off at times. This week was long and during it I got sick and I am very angry about that. On the up side my mate  Blitzkrieg_fox and I will be together finally without being separated by the army. We plan on getting a new dresser and or possibly a bed frame. We will also be going to AC 2013! So we will see you all there.

Just one more full day plus some and I will be heading home. I can't wait to hold my mate again.

Last night was suckish. It was raining and I was very depressed and was missing my mate like crazy. I couldn't sleep well at all but this morning I felt better. Today was relaxing and fun despite the rain but even when it was raining the weather still felt great. It was amazing sitting outside on the beach soaking wet with a hard on. It was cold toward the end of the day because of the fucking wind. Snorkeling was great of course and the rain didn't matter because the ocean was actually a bit warmer than the rain. I think the funniest thing that happened was when my mother and my brother got pooped on by the same bird. My brother got it a bit later on but I know it was the same little fucker. Hope he tastes good tonight.

Anyways, we are going to have bird Tacos.

oh and I am joking about the bird being dead.

I decided to keep track of my trip to Maui. Unfortunately my mate is not coming with. That's OK I guess. I miss the fuck out of him right now.

Anyways. It's 6:50 am and we leave for the airport at 9 am so in about two hours. I regret having to stay the night over at my parents and not with my mate but it seemed like that would be really hard to do. Especially in the morning when I would have to leave right away.

The flight is actually going to be 7 hours long x.x not looking forward to that at all. Oh well at least we don't have to stop, we will just fly all the way. Well I will probably post another journal some time after we land. Til then.

So most of the people in my contact lists on chat are always online. Unless things have changed in the past 2 years with chat and IM, it seems like most people just log on and then don't actually chat. So why would you log on and then not chat? What is the point?

Its been over a year now since my mate and I got together. He has shown me so much and opened my eyes to new possibilities. I am able to see how beautiful life really is. How impossible it is to comprehend the mass amounts of time that has passed here on earth and for life itself.
I've also changed into a new person whom I am enjoying. I feel more confident in myself and feel like I can take on the world along side with him. I can't wait until we are living together fully. We will have another amazing awesome Über-tastic year.

I love you Dustin/Blitz.

Yup, weed is legal for recreational use in Colorado. For those of you who may say weed is bad, then please let me say don't. There's plenty of things in the world that are much worse. I am of course pro for this because of how much it has helped my mate and I. At least enough to give him the relief he so desperately needs. For those who may not know he has a pretty fucked up back. Ask him yourself and he will say that this simple drug is able to help him with some pretty shitty back pain.

As for me it has helped me able to walk again for more than 10 minutes on flat terrain. And of course to put it out there, you don't need to be blazed for the pain relief.

As for recreational use, I say if liquor is going to be legal, a substance capable of killing you with overdose vs. the substance that is not toxic and would require a substantial amount to actually kill you, then weed should be legal as well.

Just sayin hello to everyone. I haven't been on FA alot lately, so sorry. But I also wanted to share that our ferret Chili is in a dead sleep on my lap right now. Such a cute furball.

https://youtu.be/ke8apO_kc5c

Took me a million times to get this video up.. anyways enjoy!

To me that seems like a unique number to point out on my page views.

hmm, maybe create a question thing?

4 questions 2 answers 4 people answer 2 people ask a question to match the 2 answers.

If the 4242 is finished then you win.. or something.

I've made the final move into my new home with my good friend Jamie. It will be a blast! I can't wait to see what comes our way in the future. Anyways I've been cleaning up the remains of the previous roommate. Just finished cleaning the bathroom, which was pretty nasty. I will be soaping the carpets too. The last person had a cat so I need to clean the hell out of this carpet. Hopefully soon I can hang out with my friends more often too now that I am closer to Denver.

Last weekend my mate and I were sparing with a 1'x1/2' or so pieces of wood. My mate bagged my hands a few times and topped it off by lunging forward and hitting me on the bottom of my nose and up. I was ok, and after taking some "medicine" and lots of blood later, it went numb. So I was ok, but today I finally was able to push on my nose to the side and it popped a little! Oh it was orgasmic, being able to move my nose after so many days has been amazing! haha who knew? But my love if you are reading this, just know it's ok ^_^

I has found interwebs! *Surfs at the speed of interwebness*

I am currently in the transition stage of moving in with my friend Jamie, also at the same time my parents have moved into a new town home. I am currently staying there and sleeping on their couch and what not. I have no interwebs yet so there is no way for me to check anything on here. Hopefully I can move in with Jamie here soon cause doing school and living on my parents couch is annoying. Anyways gotta go to class!

Great how some people in this world just suck.

That's all!

Oh and this is just to say people suck. Except those who actually have a brain in their skull.

It's amazing how people would go through your personal items. Not only go through your personal items but assuming what each item is used for. Like my brother this weekend, stayed over for a few nights but while I was gone, he went through my drawers and threw away a few things, i.e. condoms and lube. and something else that goes with a toy my mate owns, but its not apparent to what it is used for. If you are so damned curious just ask. in fact, you wouldn't even need to ask if you weren't snooping around someone else's private life in the first place. No one has any right to do that.

Hooray!! \o/ less than 3 weeks of summer vacation starts! *is being sarcastic* if only it was longer T_T, but for now for this

https://youtu.be/Bcpq506XCIg

So I met some pretty cool people last night, or this morning on skype. Got to finally meet . crazy guy :3 and then met a few others like <- funny guy, my mate was there too, and then 2 others that I don't have an FA for... I can't remember right now... I have a harsh hang over. Drank beer, wine, and some sake. which was very old and gross. so i threw it out. Anyways thanks for the entertained night, I needed that from this past week!

It's finally come to where spring is really here. The thunderstorm that just went over our house was amazing. It's still raining but the lightning and thunder was great. I love this kind of weather from time to time because you can sit on your porch and watch the lightning and feel the cool breeze and smell the fresh moist air from the rain. This journal is actually just more of a reflection on myself right now. School is getting ruff. It always does near the end. Right now the next few months are very uncertain, but also at the same time are. Our house is under contract right now, faster than I thought would happen. That means I'll be moving soon. It wont be the only time I will be moving either. One more move after that and I will be settled for a while hopefully. I hope that the rest of this year will work

Stolen from  HarleyBadger

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?
I decline to answer :3

2. How tall are you?
5'10'

3. Natural hair color?
dark brown

3. What about eye color?
between light and dark blue?

4. What orientation are you?
Gay

5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Yar for being taken :3

6. What do you do in your spare time?
I play with my universe sandbox, program what ever is on my mind or problem that seems interesting enough to work on, and as of now, try to spend time with my mate.

7. What's your job?
I am a student at Metro State.

8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I have enormous empathy.

9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
I sometimes don't try harder when it is needed.

10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
I have no idea :3

11. Of what faith/religion are you (if any at all?)
I am a non-denominational Christian. Just like Harley butt :Ð

12. Do you drink?
yar

13. Do you smoke weed?
when I am able to. It's a miracle plant for those in physical pain.

14. What are your fears?
"Loosing the ones that I love, being alone and forgotten."-Harley and also failing.

15. What are your dreams/goals?
My goal is too simple, have my life dream of being in computer science and mathematics, and being with that special someone to fill my desire to spend our life together.

16. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
I have 4 ex's, and crushes in the past? that's... alot for the past that is.

17. Who's your best bud?
errr. I hate that kind of question.

18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
lol anything salty, sweet, crunchy, gooey, what ever my mood is in. :3

19. Favorite drink?
As in? Liquor, I don't really have one, I favor the good beers over hard liquor. and Dr. Pepper c:

20. Favorite color?
Blue

21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
To bend the elements to my will! (Not talking about water, wind, fire etc. those aren't elements!)

22. Favorite movie?
Really hard to answer! Past? current?

23. Least favorite food?
I don't like bland things, so really any kind of food with flavor, I will eat ;Ð

24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
More about food? uhh. Phos rare steak!

25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
I kinda don't care what I am drinking, as long as I can get from point A to point -A

26. Most disliked bug?
Spiders, well actually, most of them, especially centipedes, *squirms!*

27. Most hated pet peeves?
People with out the ability to give and expect nothing in return, or at least enjoy what ever one can give back in return.

28. Dislike in life?
Dumb people. closed and one track minded people! Ð:<

29. Most annoying?
"People who cannot understand that they either need to drive properly or GTFO the road." Ditto Harley!

30. Most disliked TV show?
I disklike most TV shows, they all fucking suck! Nothing but retarded drama mixed in with a bit of reality TV. come on guys. WTF???!!!

So I've had my fursuit out of commission for a while now. Mainly cause I hate my old head, I can't see out of it and the eyes piss me off. I decided to make a new head but oddly I made a different character and species o.O

Knowing that would not work, I kept at it for a while. Then a few days ago I was looking at my old head and made the choice to rip his eyes out. SO I did. Viciously. I also ripped his face off. Then I noticed that the eyes on my new head would fit great on my old head. So I put them on my old head and redid the face. The markings are the same, just newer fur. I also chopped off the bottom jaw so that it can also be redone.

Anyways, this weekend at the FoxTrot, I will be making the appearance with my updated head. New eyes, new face, (fur and foam), teeth, and a new jaw. It pretty much looks the same, just better, from the last one.

Just got home from seeing Bill Nye the Science guy at UCCS with my mate. It was awesome, that guy is super funny and very smart. If only I was able to get a picture with him and my mate together, that would have made my year.

I assure you this wont be too sappy to read, however, I feel I must share this with my other friends here on FA. I don't want to sound like I'm bragging or showing off some shiny new trophy I have, but to share what it means to find someone very special in your life.

There are many words that can describe what I, or we, feel about someone. I am not a person who can come up with such words. To me it's pretty amazing to have such strong emotions that sometimes the most beautifully profound words out there, that can match your emotions just right, don't seem to fit. They don't seem to really feel like they are worthy of what you are feeling.

Of course emotions are as much physical as they are emotional, you can break down the science right down to the chemicals that balance our brain out to give us these emotions, and learn why they are there. But non of that matters because being human is to feel emotions, like empathy. To have imaginary bonds that look like steal cables that cannot be broken. To love another person who's name is the word that can describe your connection with them.

It is true though that it doesn't matter how the science behind it works. It works and that's perfect enough for me to leave on. Besides, it's those people you love and care about who are in your life that define who you are. My closest friend Harley said that if you remove everything from your life, your money, your house, your car, your belongings, your job or career, and leave the people in your life where they are, what is it that you then really have? You have their love and they have yours. If I go to paradise alone, I would rather not exist than to not share that paradise with those in my life.

I hope that some people out there will see, how important friends and family really are. More of so is the love of your life, the one who loves you with all their being.