Holy cow you guys, you NEED to go enter into this (if you are a guy that wouldn't mind a pic with another very sexy guy o////o)

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7204138/

Go here, check it out, and enter :D -> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7129214/

Go here quick! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17995999/

So yes, I have depression and anxiety...but why? I don't know anymore. I can't seem to stay positive, everyone tells me that if I just stay positive and act positive then I will be positive...but I can't do that, it's being fake. I have a loving mate (who will probably be really worried after reading this journal), been dating 2 years, working on moving in together, and marriage? When I'm with him I'm the happiest guy in the world; I don't want to leave his side. When I'm with him, he is all I have to worry about, and when I'm not with him the reality of my life sets in. I need to find a psychiatrist that will work with me (and the fact that I don't have a job and insurance is through parents and it is really shitty insurance but I don't pay for the thing so it's better than nothing), I need to find a job (which I know that if I'm not on medication I'm gonna start having serious panic attacks, like straight up freak outs), I have to student debt that I have to start paying back because I couldn't keep affording to go to school and live (a story for another day), I have car insurance that need to pay (my mate bought the car off of my birth father ... which I still feel horrible about), and so much more I'm sure I could come up with but everything listed is what has me stressed out right now.

While on anti-anxiety medication I was still depressed, but not as severe as it is right now. I got on the medication when I realized I needed to get some kind of help; I was having severe panic attacks, I was gonna kill myself. Now, having been off the stuff for about a month and half because of the damn insurance changing, is step-father's work insurance, I'm having panic attacks, not as bad as before but still bad. I'm scared because of how serious I am thinking about suicide ... but I don't want to. I know a lot of people will find that weird, that someone who is wanting to kill themselves but doesn't want to, but it's because of my mate. The love I have for him is so strong that I can't let go. While love is keeping me from killing myself, it doesn't help me to get out of bed, to sleep, to eat.

I had hit the lowest, most dark part of my life when I had attempted suicide. Since then, I climbed back to even ground, and then I climbed a small mountain when I started to date my mate and was at the highest when he said he loved me too. Now, I feel like I'm back in the dark pit I climbed out of so long ago; this time, the walls unclimbable. I felt myself start to make my way back out of that pit with the help of a rope ladder (my medication), but since I had to stop, I feel that the rope has been cut, and I'm on the floor of that dark, damp pit, wrapped in a fetal position, constantly crying.

I know that with medication, I will be able to get out of such a pit, but it will be with a rope ladder; and I can climb that ladder back to where I was at my highest, and maybe even higher than that! However, I'll always be using that rope ladder, and a rope can be cut. The higher I am when that rope is cut, the harder I will fall and hit that dark damp floor in my pit of despair.

So here's the question, that I need help with: How can someone, who's grown up being taught to always be negative and self loathing, become a person who is positive? Become someone who is worthy of the mate he already has? Become someone who no longer has to struggle with the desire to end his life?

Riley is being auctioned off in a piece to be done by  touchofsnow. The winner of the auction can do just about whatever with Riley that they so do please, aside from water sports, cubs, and any other TOSs the artist will not draw.

-Payment HAS to be through PayPal, no exceptions.
-The payment is within 48 hours of winning the auction.
-Detail for the commission are due within 48 hours of winning the auction.
-Remember this is a fund raiser for a nice fur and close friend of mine.
-And an opportunity like this will never arise again for some furs!

Happy Auctioning! :D


*To the Auction Page*: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6992846/

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MAN!


It's a Birthday Celebration for  Pecon who is turning the big 21! (also, he reached 2k page views! I'll be joining him shortly it seems :D)

Any who, here's the journal where you can enter: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6993721/

Here's what you need to know for Pecon's raffle
Raffle Rules:

1. Have to follow when the raffle ends, if I check my followers list and you are not on there, thats no good

2. You will need to post your ref in the comment, preferably flat color

3. You can gain an additional entry number if you post a link to your journal boosting this raffle

4. Cause I am a fan of codewords and people reading rules, please say cake in your post
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Have fun! Hope you win...hope I win O.O

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17195088/ <- Check it out! Plenty of extra ticket opportunities for you to enter! Also REALLY CUTE ART DOES DRAW :D Enter while you can!

Hey everyone, just pimping out this free art raffle that Ritka is doing!

First off, here is the link to the journal where you can enter: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6870766/

Next, here are the basic rules to enter, copied and pasted from the journal itself~

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IT REALLY HAPPENDS!
I GET 1000 WATCHERS BY DRAWING ONLY CLEAN STUFF AND MOSTLY ONLY FERALS!

YOU ARE AMAZING GUYS!

Im feeling extremly NOTICED by you, so here is a chance to win FULL PAINTING ART

[examples of my paintings]
♥1♦ 2 ♣3♠ 4♦

-> If more than 100 people enter the raffle, there'll be also chance to win full detailed headshot

I will add one more prize for raffle with every 100. :3 OFC every person can win only ONE prize!

Rules:

♥ Watch my account! New watchers welcome! :3
♥ Leave in comment link to your character (only images please!). I will replay with your lottery number~

About Prize:

♥ I will create art that you want to get! But remember Im clean artist.
anthro/feral/taur/everything
♥ I can draw it on private stream
♥ I will start drawing after EF (it means after 24th of august)
♥ I will paint the background
♥ Full art could be changed for something other if winner wish to

How to get an extra entry:

♥ Post journal about my raffle ♥

Raffle ends at 14th of July and will be recorded :3

♥♥♥
Special thanks to Rosalie.! She was the 1000 watcher so she gets 2 entries already! Just like FreeyaWolf, girl that comissioned me a lot of times!~
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Thanks so much! Im feeling so special now!

Soooo yeah, theres an art collab raffle going on, y'all should enter in and try to win ;)

Link -> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16393069/

Hello everyone, long time since I posted anything, I know. Anyways, I'm here today to enter an art raffle but this guy ->  stoges

Here's a link to his Journal for the Epic art Raffle! = http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5244359/

Rules of this contest are pretty basic:

-You have to be watching Stoges in order to enter.
-You need to pimp out(advertise) his raffle by creating a journal of your own telling everyone about the raffle.
-After you've done the first two, you then need to comment in the journal with a link to YOUR journal that is promoting his raffle.

That's it, pretty basic.

*OH! You do NOT need a reference sheet in order to enter, but it would be nice if you did have one.*

WOOOO!!!! GOING TO MY FIRST FURRY CONVENTION!
Anyone I know going to be there?! :D

hey all you crazy and shmexy felines, come check this out ;)http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4389564/

I am feeling better now. Yesterday's journal was very depressing and such but I am alright now. I thought I was going into another depressic episode...but I guess it was just a one day thing. Some times I just write stuff like yesterdays journal as a way of putting pent up thoughts and emotions out there. A friend actually text me after reading the journal and asked if I was just being a good writer or if I was actually feeling depressed. *shrug* who knew that depression increased one's writing ability? :P

I don’t know what to do. There is just so much that goes on, so much that I can’t keep up with, so much that I am afraid of. My whole being hurts! My head, my heart, my chest, my arms, my legs, every fiber of my being, my whole soul is in pain. I can’t explain how it hurts. No, moving does not hurt. No, whenever I am touched I do not hurt. I feel like breaking down into tears, but for what reason?

There are so many great and amazing friends I have made in school…but I hardly talk to any of them anymore. I have made so many new friends on this site, ones that I want to keep…and yet I hardly get to talk to them. So many people from my past, ones I thought I had lost have all started to come back to me at the SAME time! Everyone is so different. A once sweet and lovable young sir is now a tall, handsome sex crazed man. I promised myself so long ago to never send pictures of ‘myself’ to anyone ever again…and yet, here I am falling into the old habit with another strikingly handsome fellow. What am I to do?

The world is such a big and scary place. I know that I will have to eventually move on and grow up in such a world, but I am scared of it; so much so that wicked and evil thoughts that have long been dormant are now resurfacing. I fear this world so much that the thoughts of eventually just escaping it flood my mind. I try to fight it, I really do, but nothing I do works…and I drown in these thoughts.

Further and further I fall into the empty abyss. Am I really falling? Am I moving in slow motion? I cannot tell. I just wish someone, anyone, would save me. One person to save me from my thoughts, from myself and my fears. I have so many people who I want to talk to, but none of their words seem to get through to me.

I am lying in a hospital bed, the IV has run dry, and the heart monitor is beeping less and less. The hospital is abandoned, and I feel alone. Can anyone save me? Am I worth being saved?

. Are you single or taken?
Single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Neither

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
cry in a corner

4. Do you like anyone?
I did...but not anymore

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
Psh, you kidding? Course I-....No -_-

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
Anyone

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
I try not to but somehow end up doing so.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Not as far as I know

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Yeah...but I don't know if I would be able to give it to them

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
No

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
No...they go out...so do my siblings...I'm all alone :'(

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
No

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Only if they are the SweetTart ones

14. What is something you got last Valentines?
Nothing...I have never had a valentine

15. Is Valentines depressing?
Yes........very

16. How is your love life?
Nobody seems to notice me, never asks me out...nothing...soooooooo ITS AMAZING! *in the most gayest and sarcastic voice I can possibly make*

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
No...have you not been paying attention?

18. How many roses would you want to receive?
...one would be enough

19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
...chances are...NO...unless some miracle happens in the next 2 days

20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
no...why should I? Just depressing

21. Who was your last Valentine from?
I have never recieved a valentine

22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
No one ...

23. What would you most like to receive most on Valentine?
Someone to confess their love to me...and...maybe...my first kiss :/

24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
Have sent out 40 already...HOMEMADE ones

25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
just my whole life

26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
....did you not read the question above?

27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
....seriously...read the last two questions...

28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
Once...to make a girl feel as if there was someone who cared about her

29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
No

30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
I haven't received anything...and yes, it is true we gave them out to eachother back in elementary school...but it was required and we had to give one to EVERYONE in the class...doesn't count

31. What was the worst?
.......not gonna answer this cuz you know the answer

32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
I haven't been in any relationship my whole life so what makes you think I would have dated someone on valentines day?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4259321/

YOU! You need to enter this raffle O.O....EPIC ARTIST, SEVERAL CHANCES TO WIN, what more could be asked of?

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4197676/
follow the link and u'll understand hehe

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4115919/
ppssssssssst....................psssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssttttttt....................................ppppssssssss*throws a rock at the person that keeps trying to get your attention* "I'M TRYING TO TELL THEM SOMETHING SO GET LOST! *sighs* some people I swear. Ok so yeah, there's another free art raffle going on. This one is being done as a collab between to different artists. Should be pretty neat so check it out" PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS *Punches them in the face and knocks them out*

You there! Yes, you reading my pimpage journal! Rotarr is having a free art raffle. That's right, I said FREE!!!!! It's a really rare opportunity because she has never had a free art raffle before! If you havent seen her stuff then you really should check it out! At first I checked to see how many people had entered and after seeing soooooo many I thought I wouldn't enter but after seeing some of her work.....yeah just...QUIT READING AND ENTER! She giving a 1st 2nd and 3rd place winners!

link-> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4114867/

~staindwolf94 and I had a litter of pipts ;) (pups+kits=pipts) A white furred girl with more puppy like features, a boy with the same colored fur as his other daddy and he looks more like a cat but with german shepherd markings, and a black furred boy that is an equal mix of the both of us. ^^ hehe he doesn't know what he is getting himself into ;)

Calling all fuzzy butts, calling ALL fuzzy butts. Hey everyone! So I’ve been thinking lately. I always want to get some pics done for my sonna Ciel, but I can’t pay for them. “Awwww” goes the crowd sadly. Yes, yes, I know, it’s so saddening. However, lately I have been seeing a lot of pic trades between artists. This got me thinking, ‘If I could do that, I could get pics done for me! But…I can’t do anything that good.’ Then it hit me, ‘I CAN WRITE! :O’

Yes, I’m a writer! :D

Anyways, I have always tried doing story series in the past for my characters, but I always used a name of some crush I had and then they decide to be *********s (let you figure that word out yourself), and then I hated their name and I couldn’t write anymore; plus, story series are hard thing to keep up with.
So, I decided to start doing short story commissions for people! *The audience starts to applaud* Oh stop it yous. ^\\\\^

For me to be able to do this type of trade, I need to get my work out there for people to read. Now for the big news *drum rolls* I’M DOING A FREE STORY RAFFLE! *Ta-da music plays*

Of course, there are always rules to these sorts of things so here are some of them:
1) You have to be watching me ^_^
2) You need to create a journal with a link back to this raffle…yes, that’s right, you gots ta pimp me out! And then post the link to your journal.
3) A Title! –You need to think long and hard of a good title, think of a title you would want your story to be called…of course I will offer some suggestions if you win but if you come up with what I consider to be a catchy title, then I will enter you in TWICE!
4) The theme of your story.
5) A short description of what your story is about.
6) A list of Main Characters.
7) To Yiff or NOT to Yiff –tell me if this story of yours will include a Yiffy scene and if so indicate whether M/M or M/F…or if you’re into more than two at a time add more Ms or Fs to the indication.

Now, those are the rules. Also, in my Tags of this journal, there are several different words. If you can pick out one word from the tags, and post it in your entry, I will give you ANOTHER entry into the raffle. So really, you can be entered in the raffle THREE, that’s right THREE times! You can only guess one word however, and you will either be right or wrong.

As of now I only will accept one winner, but if there is a lot of interest in my raffle I will add maybe a second and third spot for winners. I will give this raffle…THREE days! So, on November 30, 2012, I shall use a random number generator to select the winner(s).

So, come one, come all! Try your best to win a free story written by CielKliendell, the demon Kitty! You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, you may even want to wet your pants. xD


Stop reading already and enter you silly fuzzbuttz!

Hey, I got a Tumblr, do you have a Tumblr? I want some more followers, seeing as I just joined today and only have one follower (the friend that made me make one right then and there) I would like some more. If you have a Tumblr then send me a Note titled "Tumblr" and in the message have your URL/Username!

If you don't have a Tumblr, I highly suggest you check it out. Some may say "oh, it's a waste of time" but really...well, ok it is a waste of time but in a good way. It's used for blogging and passing the time when you really just want time to go by.

Please, if you could, create a quick journal linking your followers back to this journal, I would greatly appreciate it and would love you forever! =:^_^:=

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4043426/ check it out, ID raffle :P pretty neat

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4043285/ check it out you'll want to enter ^^ <3<3<3

hahaha jk, nothing palooza about it but.....Silent_sniper art raffle! Get your favorite song ready and ENTER....if you dare ;)
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4037909/