Well, artwork, I'm back to making "Look I can animate" type stuff for my portfolio. After seeing more of the competition, I found that I still have a ways to go for my pro portfolio to compete to get my next job. Meantime, I'm living off on unemployment and my retirement savings. This has been the longest I've ever been unemployed. I'm thankful that I've got till the summer or fall for something to happen, but still it can get depressing. Since I live in driving distance to LA, I'm also looking into jobs that involves playing drums. So far the best I can find are of low wadges, but with my 3d animation carrier on hiatus with the bad economy, I can find myself working low wadge in a job I hate doing if I don't get anything going. Meantime, I'm playing in a local band to see what will happen with that. The problem with starting out with a local original band is that it takes a long time for it to get to carrier level, which I may not have the time with unemployment benefits lasting till the fall. Well, that's all about where I'm at in life at the moment.

Well, I'm still hanging in there. I'm still out of work and looking. After finishing my big animation I went and did some new porn animation. I'm presently working on another. I'm thinking about starting the experiment up again but still figuring out what the approach should be. But what I'll need in the experiment are more people with psychic abilities. We'll, that's it for now. Cheers

Well, because of the coming election, I decided to publicly express my opinions publicly among friends. The status quo of the system and our society does suck. People do want change from it, but nether Obama nor McCain are going to change it for the better. The potential for better change will have to come first as a revolution of the mind. The mainstream culture will have to wake up, take responsibility for their individual well beginnings, being respectful of the well beings of others, and not accept anything less -no matter what. - The mainstream culture has to pay attention to the surroundings that effects each individual’s life and not relax the responsibility of their individual well beings to an outside party, whenever it’s politicians, groups, friends, their jobs, or even their belief in God or religion. People by nature have their own interests and well being as their priority. The wise ones want good for the well beings of others to support their own well being. But a lot of people are not wise to that. Yes, we may have to compromise to live among with others, but we must not sell out ourselves for the long term and become dependents, or we all become slaves and have to live with the knowledge of someone else getting to live well, have the money, get laid, and while suffering in deprivation because of power being surrendered to someone else in hope that person will take care of us, but takes that power for only that one’s well being, and the well being of that one’s circle of friends. It’s happened before, and will happen again until most of us wake up. I'll let you interpretate what political parties this refers to.

(Other then that, I'm still working on my big animation. I hope I'll have the whole thing finished instead of a compromised short version, but something will come out one way or another.)

Hello. I posted another behind the scenes here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SaTvJ0fTV4

Been keeping myself busy with that project. Looks like I may be done by late November. At least that's the aim. Hopefully I'll have work again with Sony in late November. But also I'll accept any next good gig offer.

Here's some other YouTube posts.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ndxm.....amp;amp;fmt=18 (I play drums)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nnmf.....amp;amp;fmt=18 (I play everything/No video)

Cheers!

Well, here's an update on what's happening with me up up to date. The temp animation gig at Sony ended very well. Till the next job happens, I'll be working on a new animation full time-ish. Hopefully, there won't be issues of YouTube banning it but it's still going to be bit edgy in it's content. I posted some links of some of the stuff I finished so far,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEWHV2WY_FY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkZXQaPYtso
At the moment, I'm working on post animation 3d storybording that can be later recycled for animation use. So far, I'm up to the first verse. (Yes, they are going to sing!) It's going to be another attempt at comedy.

To help add on the mystery on what this animation will be like, some of the influences are on my favorites list on my youtube page. Cheers.

I've been tagged by darktalbain64 Didn't mean to take so long with this Dark but it was difficult finding a 4th person to interview. Thanks^_^

Character Questioning

1. choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. make them answer the following questions.
3. then tag three people.

Characters:
Krotsgier (fictional version), Corro, Gekvidge

How old are you?
Krosgier; There’s no space and time on the astral so it can’t be measured.

What's your height?
All around 5-8 ft

Are you a virgin?
Krotsgier; (purrs) uh-uh
Corro; What’s a virgin?
Gekvidge; Are you one?

Do you have any kids?
Krotsgier; Well, Corro and Gekvidge evolved out of me, so yes in a way, I do.
Corro: Wanna help me make one?
Gekvidge: No.


What's your favorite food?
Krotsgier; Sex energy and sometimes fear.
Corro; Sex energy
Gekvidge; Fear

What's your favorite ice-cream flavor?
Krotsgier; I tasted ice-cream through my creator. Chocolate would be my pick.
Corro; The white looking stuff
Gekvidge; I don’t care. Maybe some with your blood.

Have you killed anyone?
Krotsgier: Yes. I came across a few enemies.
Corro; Maybe accidently. He came really hard.
Gekvidge; Yes. I have it down to a pure art form.

Do you hate anyone?
Krotsgier; No
Corro; Whats that?
Gekvidge; Everyone!

Have any secrets?
Krotsgier; Nope
Corro; I can’t think of any
Gekvidge; If I tell you, I’ll have to kill you. Wanna here it?

Do you love anyone?
Krotsgier; Yes I do (purrs)
Corro; Still looking
Gekvidge; yes, myself when I’ll make you dread of what’s to come in the mist of your pain and pleasure.

What is your job?
Krotsgier; Mine is to love and please my creator.
Corro; Share my energy with Krotsgier. I get a lot of energy when I make people cum.
Gekvidge; I share my energy to Krotsgier too, but I don’t always make people cum. Hehehe.

Boy or Girl?
Krotsgier: I am of female energy, but I can take on many forms also.
Corro: Female
Gekvidge; You want to look and find out?

What do you do to relax?
Krotsgier; Get laid first
Corro; I don’t think I can relax
Gekvidge; You would want me to relax would you. GRRRRR.

What do you think your life expectancy is?
All thee; Forever!

What is your favorite song?
Krotsgier; Mr Postman performed by the Beatles
Corro; Lucy Leave by Pink Floyd
Gekvidge; I Want To Kill You, GG Allen.

[Shadow's Add] And how do you interact with the others?
Krotsgier; I appear in people’s dreams.
Corro; same here
Gekvidge; One day I will physically manifest and get you.



[D.Talbain's add] What species are each of you?

Krotsgier; I just see myself as a cute dwagee!
Corro; same here
Gekvidge; GRRRR (Shows her teeth) Do I look cute?

[Ryuu's add] What do you find most embarrassing about yourself?
Krotsgier; I don’t know.
Corro; (Giggles)
Gekvidge; I let myself watch Corro get a golden shower.
Krotsgier; Interview has ended everyone! Bye!

I’m going to need some opinions on this. Well, I started this FA account to explore different ideals as well as showing off my not-so-public art. The “experiment” was one of those ideals that instead of just falling flat after the first couple of posts, it took off and led me on a different yet better path. But as this furry fandom and this web sight gets more popular and more “regular” people are getting into it, so it may soon become an unsafe or unwelcome environment for me to express such ideals. (In other words, go back in the closet to flee the ignorant and prejudice masses as they move in the neighborhood.) Another reason for closing is that I believe that this experiment has come full circle. I believe that the original questions of this experiment has been answered and that the events revolving around the experiment has become an evolving long path instead of an experience anyone can just jump in and be a part off.

In the long run I do like this sight to be part of my artistic outlet and if time and circumstances allow me, to continue to create stimulating art. But the question I am pondering on: should I leave the experiment journals up or should I remove them to let this sight be just about art and not to mix it up with explorations to gain different experiences, like through spiritualism, lucid dreaming, ex? Of course, I’ll repost the pics as just pics. All feedback is welcome.

I’m going to need some opinions on this. Well, I started this FA account to explore different ideals as well as showing off my not-so-public art. The “experiment” was one of those ideals that instead of just falling flat after the first couple of posts, it took off and led me on a different yet better path. But as this furry fandom and this web sight gets more popular and more “regular” people are getting into it, so it may soon become an unsafe or unwelcome environment for me to express such ideals. (In other words, go back in the closet to flee the ignorant and prejudice masses as they move in the neighborhood.) Another reason for closing is that I believe that this experiment has come full circle. I believe that the original questions of this experiment has been answered and that the events revolving around the experiment has become an evolving long path instead of an experience anyone can just jump in and be a part off.

In the long run I do like this sight to be part of my artistic outlet and if time and circumstances allow me, to continue to create stimulating art. But the question I am pondering on: should I leave the experiment journals up or should I remove them to let this sight be just about art and not to mix it up with explorations to gain different experiences, like through spiritualism, lucid dreaming, ex? Of course, I’ll repost the pics as just pics. All feedback is welcome.

Hello. Well, after a really busy week at work I finally got a moment off to myself. Here's some updates for those who are interested. There's a change for the better in the Thought Form experiment involving Krotsgier. For those who are involved, watch out for K imposters in the astral. I may get around to an updated journal/post on what's going on. Some in the circle who's talked to me on IM already knows what's going on. Typically, when a major change happens in this, I'd like to give it time to make sure it's a more of a solid deal cause false info and contacts do happen. As I'm growing and learning as a psychic, more truth gets reviled to me. As for my art, I am getting frustrated as that I'm not getting the free time needed to do any new serious projects. Maybe new poses of my current characters but that's it. You're welcome to make and post fan art of my characters to fill in the void. So far so good, the new job is going well. Since it's only a temp job that ends this fall, I'm going to be busy doing what ever to make sure I'll get new employment after this gig. I may try another shot at the studio ideal I posted about earlier. But with the reccesion kicking in, I don't know how well the donations would work out. What could work is if at least over a thousand people can pitch in a few bucks a month, it could work out. Unfortunately, living in California is more expensive then living in Reno because of the income tax and cost of living, so the financial goals would have to be set higher. We'll see. I'm also hopeing to make it at this year's Comic Con since it's happening where I live at. If any of you guys are there and recognize me, you're welcome to say hi. (There's pics of me on my myspace page.)
Let's see. I 'm also in another band here too. They're called the Abrasives. They're a local street punk rock band. Hopefully, later this month I'll start playing live shows around southern California. That's it for now. Cheers!

Well. It’s official. I’m moving go San Diego California. I’ve got accepted to do some work for Sony Interactive. I’m going to miss Reno and the friends I’ve made here. If it wasn’t for the unemployment thing, I would be staying here. Unfortunately, it’s going to delay me executing the ideal for the animation studio I posted about. What I have is only a 9 month gig so there is still the potential of me trying out the ideal. Wish me luck!

Well, Here I go again. Right before last month, almost the whole game company I worked for got laid off. So for now, I am living off unemployment. Hopefully a new animation job will kick in before the benefits run out or els it will get scary. Meantime, I am working on new media for myself and for my portfolio. Here's a music video I just made today.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tF_ZdbK3kJw

Hello. Just here to keep in touch with all the watchers here. I’m sure it looked like I disappeared for a while. Last month was a tough one. The game company I work for was pushing to finish it’s game (SWAT Target Liberty) and I’ve been working extended hours. Last few weeks, I had to pull 12 to 20 hr work days. On top of that, the band I’m in (Shockbox) has been working on making a new record. Including a whole weekend in Oakland California to record it. Hopefully this month, things will go back to a more steady pace. Unfortunately, most of the lack of free time I have for doing art has to go to learning new software and updating my demo reel.

As for the Thought Form Entity experiment involving Krotsgier, I had to stop doing channeling using my subconscious. I found that it’s been unreliable and deceptive. But don’t worry. It’s not ending there. I’m still taking classes at the psychic institute in Reno so I’m developing my clairvoyant abilities and I’m starting to catch up. So far, what I have been learning has helped relived my lucid dreaming dry spell, which is also believed to be a form of astral projection, and I still get to have some encounters with Krotsgier that way.

Well, hopefully, after I’m done going through another survival/changing life mode, I’ll have time to do more art to post up here. Till then, hang in there. Cheers!

Well. Good news. I’ve been getting better. Slowly but surly. I was wrong about the diagnosis. It was not schizophrenia, it was psychosis, which is temporary. I believe that things that lead to me going to the hospital was a crash and burn from allowing my mind to be a genii pig for this thought-form entity experiment. The pills I got never stopped the effects I got from the abilities I gained while participating in this experiment. Lots of different things have happened to my belief system over the past months, but during those times, I’m picking up on what’s real and what’s not. Like, what’s been in my head, what was deception, and what was real in the spirit world. I’ve pretty much hit a point of no return. I found that there are dangers in experimenting with things of the occult and new age practices and I’ve been learning things the hard way. But I’m pulling through. I recently finished taking meditation classes and now taking clairvoyant classes. The practices I learned from them has been helping me learn other things. Like protecting myself. I’d like to thank the friends I met here and online for sticking around and your support. Things still are only getting started.

It’s been over a month since I did anything with the thought-form experiment involving Krotsgier. Last month, I got sent to the hospital and got diagnosed with schizophrenia. So as of now, it’s tough for me to be involved in the experiment since I’m in a state that’s tough for me to judge the reality of things, such as the existence of spirits and such. So far, I’m fortunate to still have my job after being stuck in the hospital for around a week. Plus it took me a while to adjust to the medication. Because of this, it’s been hard to get the motivation to work on more dragoness art after work and such. Well, that’s it for now. I’m hoping this phase will be temporarily and I’ll be back on more work for this sight again. Till then, have patience and cheers!