It's frickin' christmas this week and I didn't even THINk of attempting to do a relevant picture of me ;-;

D:

I am a DEER who can FLY and I didn't think to do a christmas drawing e_e

I wish I was better at drawing so I could draw something special. :(

I'm reading Kate Beaton's comics and laughing, but I feel sad.

I beat Kingdom Hearts and just beat Kingdom Hearts 2. I played them one after another. There are lots of things about finishing a game that makes me sad, and I don't feel like getting into it here, but I now feel sad in various ways and lonely in various ways.

I am upset that I have nobody to hold me and make me feel better, honestly. I don't like feeling this way around christmas. It's gonna make me sad that I don't have someone special for christmas.

I don't mean to use FA as a place to be sad, I just felt like...I dunno.

I nuked my stuff so I dont know who is new.

<_<

Thanks for watching :p I love comments so comment on everything I ever post e_e

ULTRA SPECS TIME except copy/pasted from my order list since I don't know computers:

640GB 7200 RPM 16MB Cache HDD
4GB Ram
Radeon HD 4870 1GB 256-bit video
"AMD Phenom II X3 720 2.8GHz 3 x 512KB L2 Cache 6MB L3 Cache Socket AM3 95W Triple-Core" Processor

and a power supply motherboard and case

woooooooo

I don't know if I will get to build it before christmas :(

She was going crazy last night, I think she could tell my dad was worried.

But they did it today and she just kinda slept around, and she seems weird. IDK if it's because she was knocked out or if it's normal or what. D: I thought only boy dogs acted weird when they got fixed.

Last month marks a year since I kissed/cuddled and next month marks a year since I had a job(even if it was only 11 hours total. Hooray seasonal jobs.).

Two things I want and am scared to have and cannot find.

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I miss feeling like I matter.

i dont think that is even the definition of meme, I think it's called being a mindless sheep who does things as long as something says to :(

shut UP fa stop posting pictures ;____;

You should know that I am always ONLINE but I am not always ONLINE. It is a matter of habit. I never bother to go offline. "Available" means "IMable", not "Available" :p

So I'm not being a jerk if I don't get an IM. I'm just not paying attention or here :p

Jeez, it seems like overnight I have 80 more watchers and get a million comments and the like in seconds. Where the heck did you guys all come from? @_@

Whatever! :D It's fun!

Also I am not all that confident in my abilities to write a sexy story. Especially a sexy story about diapers.

But I wanna :( What should I do?

This is not actually a meme but if I say it is then it magically is

anyway I wondered what a picture containing all my fetishes would be, so I thought about it and made a list of criteria. You should do it too because it is fun and gives SUPER INTERESTING INSIGHT into etc blah blah

Tarzan
Tarzan movements and poses
In a kilt
Visible diaper
pouty that he has to wear a diaper
Fairy wings
Deer ears
Deer tail
Antlers
size changing, from normal height to tiny action figure height
In goth boots
Eyeliner
Missing left arm
Helpless re: things that require two arms
Collar
Pacifier
Leash
Fingerless Glove
Victorian style male ponytail with large ribbon holding it in place
very vocal during sex

i am so bored

Exponentially.

But everyone seems scared to comment.

Though I can guarantee that it increases them significantly. I highly recommend it, it is hilarious to see how many views something gets just from the short time it is on the main page, simply because of that. :3

I accidentally deleted the old journal. LUCKILY I had my cheesy loser profile saved.

I thought it'd be fun to write up a character profile. So...I'm gonna. OKAY?! I don't care if you don't care! Well I care a little. ;-; idk, people usually have profiles for their characters, right?



Cervidanti (Nickname Cervi, pronounced sir-vee)
19 Years old
6'4"(not counting antlers)
Weight: Pretty damn heavy, considering he's a freaking deer-thing, and he's got a tummy on top of that.

Cervi is a deer slash thing. "Thing" parts including fingers and paws instead of hooves, plus a head of full hair. He's got soft brown fur with a light tan tummy and snout, with white dots on his cheeks, back, arms, butt, and as a sort of happy trail. These are cuz he's still a fawn, even though he's full grown. His eyes resemble those of vintage cartoons- solid ovals with a pie slice slit in them.

He wears pink or purple or white diapers(always) and big flowy goth pants(usually) and a t-shirt(sometimes). He's always got on his collar and earring, both of which have a bell.

He's super tall, has a few extra pounds, and has poorly developed antlers. They're strong, but small and devoid of many branches. Despite that he's pretty intimidating for his height and is even friends with a canids or two. Intimidating or not, he's afraid of everything, mostly spiders and the dark.

He is gay and single.

He is mostly incontinent. He doesn't wear diapers for fun, he has to. That doesn't change, however, that he wears pink ones or super thick ones just for fun. But only disposables! And the kind with tapes! Sometimes he'll wear pull ups, but they gotta be thick. He likes wearing them and using them, and will even if he can tell he has to go. His house does not have a toilet. Also as a result of unknown circumstance(PERHAPS MAGIC????) his messes don't really smell too strongly which is cool because he messes a lot. This has something to do with being afraid of everything- the slightest spook might make Cervi lose control.

Cervi plays lots of video games and will often play for hours, appreciative of the fact that he never has to get up to go to the bathroom.

He cannot drive at night because if there are cars in the oncoming lane he slams on the brakes and won't go until there are no more cars. By that point there are cars in his mirror so he is stuck until somebody comes and gets him.

He's very strong and can easily lift an adult fur and carry them around.

He's got a thing for sugar and sugar licks and drinks slurpees all the time. Cervi loves "nomming" on stuff, particularly tails, and is fond of licking those he likes. This can be avoided by sticking a pacifier or a bottle in his mouth, since he's quick to act like a fawn if the conditions are right, even though he isn't often an AB. His bed is a giant crib, despite that. He likes the security of it.

Aaaaaaaand some people say he has the power to make anyone he can see mess their pants, but this is unconfirmed. Also rumored that he's got a super villain alter ego. BUT NOBODY KNOWS




<_<

Yeah. I'm awesome.

And I'm going to TGI fridays today! And I got a cool shirt and some vidja games! And cool people drew stuff for me!

Woohoo!

Im starting to get nervous.

Wish me luck @_@ Hope I pass and get my license before turning 19....Tomorrow!

GASP I feel special. 1000 is usually a big deal! Maybe I'll draw something for it. I don't feel like i deserve 1000 pageviews. >_>

Get a screep cap of the 1000th view and I'll give you a um hug i guess

Reply with 3 words and if you're lucky I'll draw something based on them. ;D

 xxjackmeoffxx

He wants more exposure. And I think he deserves it! But he needs cleaner lines instead of sketches, but his tablet pen is broken so its excusable.

Lots of muscly guys and most of em are diapered. :O I love them. <3

A while back I drew Stephen Colbert in diapers, because of something he said on his show.

Well...

http://img27.imageshack.us/img27/2017/colbert.png

:O

It's funny. It's happened a couple times so far.

I'm sorry that I told you about flaws in your work ;-; pwease fogive me :(((

pft. Fine, keep drawing squished faces and gigantic foreheads. Don't say nobody informed you that you suck at drawing faces now. :3

This makes me feel special.

My stupid little art got posted on fchan! Hooray! :3

Boast boast boast

This is mostly to push that other journal off my page. Stretches teh damn thing. :p

I have an interview wednesday for meijer! The guy said to go to the photo lab, but it wasnt the manager of the photo lab...so it might not be for the photo lab. :( I'd like it better if it was.

BUT

BUT

FREAKING JOB POSSIBILITY HOLY CRAP

:DDD

I'll be able to afford diapers! <3
And uh all that other stuff :p

This is in response to another journal. A journal by someone who blocked me, for giving constructive criticism on what is, quite frankly, the worst thing I have ever seen here.

YOU DO NOT NEED TALENT to post things on FA. Even the most childlike of drawings are good, and gladly accepted. But this image was full of clashing, horrible texturing made with photoshop filters and effects gradients, and...a flashing siezure-inducing background. It wasn't bad lineart, just horrible coloring. So a friend who ive been showing the images to made an account just to comment on it. He was somewhat rude, and was blocked immediately by this guy. I responded to tell him he can't say "You arent an artist, so you cant have an opinion!" and gave constructive criticism on his work. I was blocked after being given a long talking-to that basically said "I HAET CRITICISM STOP TALKING 2 ME". Another person later commented and got an ENORMOUS response that was...just one of the worst excuses for an argument and the most delusional thing ive ever seen.

They made a journal about the comments my friend and I made.

Here, for the sake of it being out there so im not SITTING HERE WITH THIS STUCK INSIDE ME, is my response :3

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We're not trolls. The image we commented on is horrible, and we explained why, and tried to help you get better. You're terribly deluded. I only wish you had linked to the image in question in this journal so people could see how completely immature and ass-backwards you are.

You constantly said "MY comments ection"

Yknow what makes up YOUR comment section?

OTHER PEOPLE'S COMMENTS.

If you don't want negative responses, try to improve. Don't block people who try to help you improve.

The fact that you try and associate our comments with some unrelated event makes this even worse. You really don't think that, possibly, we were actually trying to help, and actually found flaw in your work?

Why cast us off immediately as trolls? You put your art out in the open. You put it there for consideration. We have every right to comment on it, and you do NOT have the right to act like we are terrible people for being constructive and trying to tell you what is wrong with it.

That makes you a pretty bad person. Immediately assuming someone is a troll because they say your art is less than great and it needs work. DO you know the difference? The difference is that we tried to help you do better.

We backed up what we said.

We gave criticism.

We gave tips for how to get better.

And your response is "YOU are a troll! And this is MY comment section! Stop filling it with comments!"

I'm sorry if you've lived a sheltered life here and you can't handle negative comments. But what you posted was an offense to the eyes and an offense to anyone who considers themselves an artist. It has major flaws, and you refuse to fix them or even care about input in regards to tehm.

If you dont want comments on them, why do you post them here?

DO NOT call troll on anyone who tries to help you improve. You seem to be unable to grasp the idea of constructive criticism. It is nitended to H ELP.

Denying helpful criticism is the absolute worst thing you can do for yourself.

Don't worry- I have nothing more to say to you after this. You needed to hear this, however. You need to stop plugging your ears and making noise to ignore those who are trying to HELP YOU IMPROVE.

You put us in a negative light when all we did was try to help...only to have you explode on us and call us trolls, before blocking us and keeping us from even backing ourselves up.

I do not appreciate being put in such a negative light for giving constructive criticism.

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There we go. :D Feels good.

I hope I dont look obsessive because of this, I just had to get that out. >___> Move along, nothing to see~

Every time I go to draw something I get discouraged ;-; I can never get it right unless I'm basing it off a picture of someone. Even then, I have to redo lines all over constantly to get it really right. I'm tempted to go back to MSpaint just because working pixel-by-pixel makes it so much easier to smooth lines out properly ._.

I wanna draw more stuff but I keep messing up and it's very discouraging. ;__:

On top of that I started to draw something and, since it's valentines soon and i've been thinking about not having a boyfriend a lot, I started to feel bad because I thought "What the hell will I do if I get a boyfriend who is disgusted by furries or diapers or both?!" and then I stopped again.

;__________; I wish I could just imagine something and print it out from my head.