As a lot of you know, just from looking at some of my pieces and my favourites I am very much into the whole macro/micro vore and footpaw thing but I have started thinking lately, am I too much into it and does it make me seem perverted and weird?

I don't know what it is about the thought of being micro and stepped on, eaten, (the list goes on) by anthros, maybe it comes from a domination thing and I see it as the ultimate domination, the thing is it also has to be an anthro for me, just seeing a footpaw, maw or large anthro and to be completely dominated by that really turns me on, but I'm going on, you all get the idea!


The thing is I'm starting to think my love for this fetish is turning into an addiction, sorry for being TMI but I can jack off to this stuff a lot in one day and its everyday, I mean really, I just come on FA to look at this stuff most of the time, it really is starting to feel like an addiction.

What worries me most though is that I'm worried people see me as a pervert and a freak, and it feels like people have been avoiding me lately, even some people I consider good friends, I don't want to be seen as a perverted freak, (by the way I'm not saying anyone who is into this stuff is just it feels to me like I am).

so really what I want to ask you all is, do I have a problem?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugbs.....D8kRbqZo7MyscQ

XD

Well on Tuesday the 29th of July I am going to be turning the grand age of 26.

Old Alligator is old!!!


D;

So I bought myself a Wii U the other day and got Mario kart 8 with it

feel free to add me, my username is Tane_Neox


^.=.^

*shrinks himself down and lays back waiting for all the paw stompings*

^.=.^

So yeah, I think its time to find a good home for my old German Shepherd fursuit I don't suit as much as I used too and with me having a different fursona now I doubt I would be dressing up as GSD anymore.

Another reason I will be selling my fursuit is to help me with university costs although maybe I will just use that money to commission an Alligator suit.

I am looking for at least £500 for my fursuit, I think that's a pretty reasonable price to ask its still in good condition and I have had it for quite a few years, the only wear on it is on the underside of the footpaws.

The suit was originally made by noblewolf but it doesn't have the attachment I'm afraid.


I thought I would post this message here to ask for advice on selling it or see if anyone is interested in taking it of my hands, so any advice would be appreiated

you can find a picture of my suit here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10573386/

Tane

Hey all!

I'm back home for 2 weeks and have bought myself Elder Scrolls Online and so far I'm enjoying it, who else has the game?

If you would like to add me my character name is Tane Neox and i am ebonheart alliance

Hope to see you on there!

Tane

Hey all

Im going to look into getting a commission of my fursona shrunken and was wondering if anyone would like to have their fursona interact with him such as stomping or vore etc, and if anyone knows an artist who could do the commision.

I also might look into writing a story of tane as a micro so if anyone wants to role play it let me know.

feel free to note me or reply to this journal if you are interested ^^

Commander Tane Shepard

I have decided to switch back to my old fursona ever since I changed to raptor I felt like I have been drifting away from the fandom and my friends.

I guess the reason I changed is because I felt like I had to make a change in my life to try and get better with my depression but it hasn't worked and now I just feel like a stranger in the fandom, however when I was my old fursona even though I was fighting depression I felt like I had loads of people around me but because I have changed I feel like I have lost that, I don't know its complicated I guess I feel like Commander Tane fits me better and I shouldn't of run away from it to try and be something I'm not.




University is going well but is hard at times, unfortunately I had the misfortune of making friends with a group of girls who I thought were my friends and turned out they we rent and betrayed that friendship, oh well their loss but I have met quite a few good friends at university who have been there for me so its not all bad.

I'm still working on my depression but I'm getting better had a few bad spells but I see a councilor every week now and I have completely cut alcohol and caffeine out of my diet, been 2 weeks without it.

so to sum it all up yes I'm Commander Tane Shepard again and things are going great!

Hope everyone else is OK!

Hey all

Sorry it has been a while, I have been busy with university life but now I am back home for Christmas, back to my PC and 30mb internet connection.

How have you all been, not missed me too much I hope? :P

Tane

So two weeks ago I moved out and started university studying Animal Conservation science, I'm really happy to be moving forward with my life, however the only problem I'm having is that I'm starting to feel like a bit of an outcast, I have tried my hardest to get to know people but I dunno, maybe I'm just to different.

Ah well its still early days and will be getting to know people from my course soon so I hope to meet some like minded individuals, I have applied to be a student ambassador and going to see about becoming course rep so that should help as well.

I have been doing a bit of voluntary work with the Wildlife Conservation Trust restoring hay meadows, I will upload a pic later!

Anyway just thought I would update you all, I'm probably not going to be on as much but if I get chance I will make another Gmod Comic.

Tane ^.=.^

So I have been thinking about the back story for my fursona and I have come to two possible options, I would really appreciate any feedback you all have and which one you think i should go for.

Both are pretty similar except for the time period


Option A

Millions of years ago a cataclysm happens and I end up frozen in the ice and found in the present day, scientists then thaw me out and I have to come to terms and be accepted in the modern world.


Option B

It wasn't a meteor which wiped out the dinosaurs, it was the reapers, they apparently left our planet alone but really they wiped out the dinosaurs in order for another race to evolve as they saw us inferior, OR because the protheans visited our world to try and warn us the reapers wiped us out.

if anyone remembers from the 1st mass effect you come across a prothean orb which explains how they visited our planet and tried to communicate with a caveman, well what if it wasn't a caveman they were speaking to it was my raptor fursona, and the reapers found out about this and wiped out my kind, however I managed to escape but ended up frozen and discovered during the events of mass effect.

I could even write Commander Tane Shepard in this story.


Anyway those are my options, like I say I would appreciate any feedback and which you think is the best one ^.=.^

I'm looking for people to roleplay with so I can start on tane's back story, if you are interested or want to know more send me a message ^.=.^

I shouldn't be doing this to myself, I am a good person who has just done some bad things, those bad things being that I have pushed people away but that shouldn't stop me from making new friends and cause me to leave the fandom.

I am sick to death of going through this same cycle and I'm sure a lot of other people are getting sick of these same kind of journals, its ruining my life and it needs to stop.

So I need to pull myself up from this and just carry on, if I have lost people in my life I have lost them that's life I owe it to a lot of people including myself to not give up.

So ignore that last journal, this is not goodbye I'm going to get a grip and push forward, like I have always done, but this time I'm not going to stop pushing forward

I have reinstalled garrys mod so I will be making more comics I owe it to my watchers and I'm going to have a go at writing Tane's back story and getting some artwork done.

I just wanna say thank you to the people who have always given me words of encouragement whenever I post a journal like that, it really means a lot that you would take the time to help me, I cant waste that, and I'm sorry you have all had to see journals like this.

I don't think I can be with the fandom anymore, there is too much history here for me now, I have hurt so many people and lost so many friends all because deep down I'm just a horrible person, I really don't want to leave but I just don't want to hurt anyone anymore, but I cant get close to anyone because I'm just a fucking monster!

I'm just so sorry for all the people I have hurt, you know who you are I never meant for it...

I have caused so much pain for people ever since joining this fandom, but no more, there's nothing left here for me anymore and its all my fault, I will give people a few days to save my art, and then I will delete it and I wont be a nuisance to anyone anymore, goodbye...

Seriously who am I kidding with this fursona, I'm not commander Shepard I'm a weak pathetic nobody with really bad anxiety and depression and cant live a happy normal life...

When I was younger I tried to be like my oldest brother because I saw him as tough, now I'm trying to be like Commander Shepard because I see him the same way and just want to be like that, but lets face it I will never be like that with how damaged I am...

Well since my love for transformers has been re ignited and I really like mass effect I have decided to look at getting a commission combining the two!

But I'm not 100% sure of which of the vehicles from Mass Effect should be a transformer however I have come up with 3, so which would people rather see Commander Tane Shepard with?


Normandy Transformer - This was my first idea and I think it would be awesome as when you think of mass effect you think of the Normandy and I think it would be cool to see my fursona stood alongside a transformed Normandy, It would have to be edi though the downfall to this idea however is the thing of, well what about all the crew inside when she transforms, plus she would be massive hmmm...

Mako Transformer - This is my second choice, its more logical I suppose as you don't have to worry about what happens to all the crew, plus it would be about the regular size of a transformer

Hammer Head Transformer - Same deal with the Mako really


Anyway those are my choices, feel free to add your own ideas and I will look into it, but I would really love some feedback from you all ^_^

well I'm 25 today, half way to 50! :( ah well, maybe I can fight the reapers off with my walking stick!

I have to admit, I am really starting to miss my fursona being Commander Tane Shepard, as much as I like this new Velociraptor fursona I felt more attached to Commander Tane.

To be truthful after all the crap and depression I'm going through I felt like I needed to change my fursona to give me a sense of change when in fact I don't need to change, sure I have lost a few friends and done some things I'm not proud of but deep down I'm a good person who will always help people, and changing my fursona has only made me feel like a new person with the same problems but feeling more alone.

I know some people have suggested having multiple fursonas but honestly that's not me, for me a fursona should represent who you are and I cant do that with different fursonas, lately I have been staying away from anything mass effect related because it reminded me of Commander Tane to much, but I cant keep running from myself.

So I have decided to change my fursona back to Commander Tane Shepard and face my problems head on.

and I'm sorry for anyone I messed about by changing my fursona, I know a few people out there really liked Commander Tane, but now hes back and hes staying for good.

I cant fight this alone and I really need people who care about me to help me get through this, I'm having real difficulty seeing the good things about me right now and I only concentrate on the bad.

It would really mean a lot if people could post one or two positive things about me.

Thankyou

also I would really like to thank ember for suggesting this idea for me, it really means a lot that you are helping

I cant live like this anymore, all I do is hurt people and drive them away, ever since I joined the fandom I have been suffering with depression and I have hurt so many people and lost friendships and relationships.

but you know what, maybe its not depression, maybe its just me, maybe I am a monster who just manipulates people and hurts them, all I know is I cant take living like this anymore feeling alone and scared...

I know people don't like me, but I could really use some friends right now, never felt so alone in all my life

As much as it would pain me to do so, im thinking of selling my german shepherd fursuit made by noble wolf, with my fursona change i wouldnt feel right wearing it anymore, plus the money i got for it would help towards uni, but i dont know as I have also used it to raise money for a lot of charaties, just wondering how much I would get for it roughly.

Well now I have my new fursona created I think its time to get a commission done of him, any artists out there looking for work or know someone looking for work?

Most I am willing to pay is £20 as money is an issue at the moment >_>