Welp, its been 9 whole months annnnnnnnd I've failed really badly with my new years resolution of chatting with others. I let my shyness get to me, and hold me back from chatting with some really amazing and interesting people here, and its both a bit saddening and embarrassing that I've missed out on making some amazing new friends (Or worse, said hi to people, talked a little then got extra shy right after and not talking for months, making it even harder to talk with the person every day that goes by).

HOWEVER! I'm not giving up, yes there are only 3 months left in the year but I'm gonna try my damnedest to talk with at least a few peeps over the coming weeks, no matter how intimidating it may get! I don't want to miss out on making so many new friends and connections with other peeps, and I'm not going to be my own biggest obstacle to meeting new people!

So watch out! There are going to be a few messages, dm's and notes from me flying about over the next few weeks, with an extra dose of awkwardness to them all (These are messages written by me after all haha) to some peeps who've reached out to me or I've talked with a bit in the past before getting too shy with. I'm going to do my best, and hopefully by the time I'm making my resolutions for next year I will have been able to talk and make freinds with some of you awesome peeps out there!

Heyo, don't want to bother, I'm just putting this here as a personal reminder to make an extra effort to reach out and chat with peeps!

I've had several opptunties to chat with people who's messaged me or I've met and my shyness has gotten to me so many damn times, but I'm going to set myself an early new years resolution, to push myself and actually chat with some of the people I have the amazing oppertunity to meet and talk with! No more getting too spooked to talk with peeps because I think I may annoy them or mess up, I'm going to chat awkwardness be damned! Haha!

Give me a little time and I'll get down to it, and a really big sorry from me to anyone who's messaged me or I've tried to chat with that I didn't message back on, it's never you (TBH I think your all awesome!) I'm just to shy for my own good! Wishing you all the best and a very merry Christmas!

Well this is a first for using Journals for me, lets see how I do hehe

So I've finally been able to finish college over here in the UK! I may be 4 years late on something that should only take 2 but I've done it and I cant be happier! Its been quite the long and bumpy road, and at several points I was quite low, and really didn't think I would make it due to the stress, course swapping, having to miss 2 years and the sheer amount of work that bordered on ludicrous at some stages, especially the last 4 months where we had a years worth of work during that time XD.

However, its all been worth it, I've managed to get a BTEC in computer science, at the grade I set myself 3 years ago and I'm going to the Uni that I never thought I would be good enough to get into this summer!

So yeah, happy times all around, I'm really hoping that with my new free time I will be able to both write a bit more, and more importantly get back in contact with peeps. I will admit its a bit intimidating to be reaching back out after months of being too stressed out and focusing on college, but I love to chat with my friends and spend time with them, and I cant wait to get back into doing so!

Wish yall all the best this summer and hope yall can feel as happy and as exited as I am right now this summer as well! Yall take great care of yourselves!!!