Yesterday was a wonderful day. I finally took my first shot of Testosterone. Im finally becoming what i always wanted to be...Male...well at least on the outside ill start to look more how I always felt.

6 years i've waited. 25 years ive been trapped dealing with "Miss", "Madam", "Ma'am", "She", "Her" ect....finally it all will end. it'll be more "Mister", "Him", "Sir", "He".....sigh....so much relief.

All the pint up anger at the world...seems to have gone from me....im so calm its like a dream...so weird....

BUT thats my update. Have a wonderful day everyone.

So if any are interested on whats been going on in my life here's a minor update.

currently single again -_-" cause i'm just fucking cursed with horrendous bad luck and a bad temper i guess.

I work a cheap minimal wage job delivering pizza (which i kind of like doing anyways). I still perform in DC, actually got 2 shows lined up soon.

but the really good news is, that since i have no one to take care of any more or to distract me, i finally decided to get in gear and start my transition. I already talk to the Therp and he approved, so i got two more doc visits and i'll be able to take my first shot of T ^-^ IM SO EXCITED. I cant wait for my voice to drop, and grow a nice beard ^-^ ~sigh.... no more waiting

my goal for the summer is to have enough $ saved that'll be moving to CA, and start a new life, and pursue my dream jorb there.

Title Says it all, just go to the listed link http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2711100/

Have fun and good luck

So I've been trying find a harness for myself....and my partner...I found that i like the H harnesses, but everything is so expensive. If i could figure out how to make one i would. Anyone have a suggestion?

So i went to this thing called Fetfest. AND IT WAS....FREAKING....AWSOME!

Was camping with a bunch of interesting ppl, saw a bunch of interesting things, and was a human campfire, and my friends roasted their marshmallows off of me to make yummy smores. Impossible? Nope, it literally happened.

Is it bad when i feel an earthquake for the first time, the first thought that runs through my little head is, "Oh shit, the neighbors are finally falling through my roof!"

I live in a flimsy apartment where you can hear pretty much everything, though its kind of funny when there's sexing happening, but ya my upstairs neighbors are infamous for fighting, and no offense are on the heavy side. So ya, i literally thought they we're falling through the floor, aka my ceiling lol.

And of course my roommate comes slinking out of her room, panty's and all (and me trying not to have a nose bleed)....and says "for a second i thought the neighbors we're falling through the ceiling" lol so im not the only one. and then of course she says, "Maybe the world really is gonna end by 2012".

-_-'' welcome to my life.

So i got a call this morning confirming i'll be working for the Spirits Halloween store down where i live. Freaking Awsome i think!

i figured i'd share my excitement lol

YUP its a free art raffle, and maybe luck will be on your side. The Inkyjinx will draw on the 8th of August. thus Click here for details

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2584407/

Good Luck!

so i disappeared again...and was gone for 2 years...i had to get a new laptop >.<

and now i've returned......I HAVE 39563 new messages FREAKING MESSAGES TO GO THRU.

oh well its good to be back.

Much Love
Your every day commontrixter



ps....i feel bad for having to nuke everything, BUT THERE WAS JUST TOO MUCH....im only mortal shesh...
I will try to see how everythings developed laters

ok so im sure some of you are WTF did CT just die or something?

wellllll i didnt have internet for the longest time....and my price for that is having 4108 submissions to look at....huzzah for something to occupy myself with....

soooooooo now im back for as long as i can pick up internet from my boss "gay"rage, which i now live in. ^-^

alots happened so im gonna do a quick summery...this is the worst year of my life but the most interesting. Im part of the DC Kings now going by the performing name "Mason Tunite"...i'll send a link of my first performance when i get the dvd back. My dogs had 8 puppies....i got my own place, and then was illegally evicted. I had a girlfriend for a while, who was stolen by my co-worker. gotten into many fights, had lots of "play". and now i live in the garage at my bosses place, and its called the gayrage cause its decked out with rainbows and stuff...its pretty awsome. oh! and my truck keeps getting broken down and at one point towed away and now its fixed. i got new pix that i'll probably post soon. and thats that.

I went, i saw, i raved!

i donno how much i ever expressed my feelings on raving...but it is my number 1 zin...I WIN!

I had a shit load of fun, dispite minor tiffs and flares of anger and annoyance.

I got in the circles many times and a had a few cheers as i performed my rave style to the masses of sweaty glowing ppl...soooo much fun....sooo much after math pain.

I was soooo sore from raving the next couple of days cause i've been lazy for sooo long and havent done much raving or exercise for that matter, that not only did i sweat a storm (which is normal), my muscles screamed at me to do the slightest movement. lol

well i uploaded on of the few pix of me on here. if you want more, just go to my myspace, and click the album labeled 2009

myspace.com/noonespet

I'll be at Katsukon! Woot Woot!

if your gonna be there look for me...give me a big ol' hug if you plz lol

http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/ind.....ageID=52041219
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/ind.....ageID=53543808

up yup thats me!

well, it happened a bit too soon. My kids, Kylik and Miya, live with my ex...she just called me and said they made contact tonight....so we're gonna have puppies. Im happy and worried cause...it happened a bit too soon. So those who wants puppies, take your bids now!

I was checking email on my yahoo and i see this....

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Removing cats to protect birds backfires on island

By MICHAEL CASEY, AP Environmental Writer Michael Casey, Ap Environmental Writer – Tue Jan 13, 9:18 am ET

BANGKOK, Thailand – It seemed like a good idea at the time: Remove all the feral cats from a famous Australian island to save the native seabirds.

But the decision to eradicate the felines from Macquarie island allowed the rabbit population to explode and, in turn, destroy much of its fragile vegetation that birds depend on for cover, researchers said Tuesday.

Removing the cats from Macquarie "caused environmental devastation" that will cost authorities 24 million Australian dollars ($16.2 million) to remedy, Dana Bergstrom of the Australian Antarctic Division and her colleagues wrote in the British Ecological Society's Journal of Applied Ecology.

"Our study shows that between 2000 and 2007, there has been widespread ecosystem devastation and decades of conservation effort compromised," Bergstrom said in a statement.

The unintended consequences of the cat-removal project show the dangers of meddling with an ecosystem — even with the best of intentions — without thinking long and hard, the study said.

"The lessons for conservation agencies globally is that interventions should be comprehensive, and include risk assessments to explicitly consider and plan for indirect effects, or face substantial subsequent costs," Bergstrom said.

Located about halfway between Australia and the Antarctic continent, Macquarie was designated a World Heritage site in 1997 as the world's only island composed entirely of oceanic crust. It is known for its wind-swept landscape, and about 3.5 million seabirds and 80,000 elephant seals arrive there each year to breed.

The cats, rabbits, rats and mice are all nonnative species to Macquarie, probably introduced in the past 100 years by passing ships. Authorities have struggled for decades to remove them.

The invader predators menaced the native seabirds, some of them threatened species. So in 1995, the Parks and Wildlife Service of Tasmania that manages Macquarie tried to undo the damage by removing most of the cats.

Several conservation groups including the International Union for Conservation of Nature and Birds Australia said the problem was not the original eradication effort itself — but that it didn't go far enough. They said the project should have taken aim at all the invasive mammals on the island at once.

"What was wrong was that the rabbits were not eradicated at the same time as the cats," University of Auckland Prof. Mick Clout, who also is a member of the Union's invasive species specialist group. "It would have been ideal if the cats and rabbits were eradicated at the same time, or the rabbits first and the cats subsequently."

Liz Wren, a spokeswoman for the Parks and Wildlife Service of Tasmania, said authorities were aware from the beginning that removing the feral cats would increase the rabbit population. But at the time, researchers argued it was worth the risk considering the damage the cats were doing to the seabird populations.

"The alternative was to accept the known and extensive impacts of cats and not do anything for fear of other unknown impacts," Wren said. "Since cats were eradicated, the grey petrel successfully bred on the island for the first time in a century and the recovery of Antarctic prions has continued since the eradication of feral cats."

Now, the parks service has a new plan to finish the job, using technology and poisons that weren't available a decade ago.

Wren said plans to eradicate both rabbits as well as rats and mice from the island will begin in 2010. Helicopters using global positioning systems will drop poisonous bait that targets all three pests. Later, teams will shoot, fumigate and trap the remaining rabbits, she said.

Some of the earlier critics are now behind this latest eradication effort, saying it should help the island's ecosystem fully recover because it would remove the last remaining invasive species.

"Without this action, there will be serious long-term consequences for the majestic seabirds which nest on the island including the four threatened albatross species, and for the health of the island ecosystem as a whole," said Dean Ingwersen, Bird Australia's threatened bird network coordinator.

"We believe that the process they are going to follow uses best practice for this type of work," Ingwersen said. "And that all possible ramifications have now been considered."

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DUMB FUCKING IDIOTS YOU DONT REMOVE SPECIES!!!

Yes it helped the birds alot, and yes the cats, rats and rabbits were invasive but still they should of known better. The animals where there for bout 100 years or more, so that means "in my mind" that they should stay there. If they wanted to limit the cats, then fine, but not get rid of them...and NOW to cover up their mess their gonna poison the rabbits and rats....I think this is screwed.

but who knows, maybe im over reacting.

Key: [x]=yes 1 full point, [/]=somewhat 1/2 point, [ ]=no 0 points

(My personal commentary is added in parentheses. Some of it I didn't even change from what MoodyFerret wrote, cause I feel the same way.)

[/] public speaking
[x] staying single forever
[/] Rejection
[/] being a parent
[/] giving birth
[/] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[X] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] that Scary guy...
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[/] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[X] clowns
[X] dolls
[/] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[X] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[X] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[/] ghosts
[/] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[/] being alone
[/] becoming blind
[/] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[X] creepy noises in the night
[/] bee stings
[/] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[/] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secret

Final Total: 17.5

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Common Trixter's Stats:

Age: 21
Gender: generally Female, but can be whatever she pleases
Sexual preferance: Butch Females mostly, but doesnt mind a male on rare occasions.
Species: Fox/Beauceron Shepard - Demi Human
Place of Birth: A Relm that is a cross between Renaissance and the FAR FAR future. With a mix of Romen Empire.
Eyes : One Blue, One Green
Hieght: 5ft exact
Wieght: 100lbs
Body Structure: Well Muscled but Slender and Sleek. Breasts are small 34B.
Furr: Very very soft, like plush.
Furr Color: Dark brown, light orangish brown, Red, and white

Clothing: She always wears dark baggy torn clothes and/or belly shirts. She also wears either a white, grey, or black beeder underneath her shirt, and always wears boxers. She perfers to have her trade mark vest with her golden symbol on the back of it. She Loves to wear chains and belts. She is always wearing a necklace made out of chain mail that has 3 rings on it. She occasionally wears a dark blue play boy bunny baseball hat or a camo military hat. She has 2 gold earings in her left and 1 in her right. She never wears shoes. EVERY THING SHE WEARS HAS A POCKET SOMEWHERE. She absosultly loves to have as many pockets as possible.

Weapons: A 3ft Neon Green Lead Pipe (keeps in the back of her pants, letting her boxers hold it), and Buck Knife that has a handle colored like the orange tiger stripes and the blade comeing out of a tigers roaring mouth (stays hidden under her pant leg).

Other physical Features: She has a scar on her right arm, 3 slash scar marks on her right side. a light brown mark under her right breast. Shes permintly missing her right canine tooth, and the left one sticks out. She has black tuffs of furr on her elbows, and extra tuffs of fur on her knees and heels. From the back of her head a trail of thin fur that changes from red to a dark brown goes down her spin. Her Legs are anthro with black claws. Her symbol is tattooed on her right back shoulder blade. Has two tails that can function individually and are strong enough to pick up items.

Mentallity: Stable for the most part but tends to be some what sadistic and homicidal. A little above average intellegence.

Abilities: Shes an illusionists, and uses common tricks (hence the name). She can create images that you can inter act with, images that the more you think is real, the more real it becomes. She can jump up to 16ft. She is very skilled in combat and her tolerance to pain is high, but not to sickness (such as a sore throat). Her ears are senitive to sound, allowing her to hear a pin drop 10miles away, but only if she focus's on to it. Lastly she doesnt age as fast, more of a reverse dog life. Every 7 years she'll age, (so whatever age she says she is, is actually how much she actually aged). She is capable of teleporting to different relms, but this can only happen no more then 2 times a year.

Likes:
Music: Rock/Alternitive/Techno/Drum & Bass/a lil bit of rap/ very lil country
Food: MEAT! and pasta, potatoes, some vegitable and fruits. Especially Strawberries, green apples, beef ribs.
Items: keys, bells, spheres, glow sticks, silver, gold, emoralds
Butch Girls (bois)
Canines
Swimming
violens
summer

Dislikes:
Amphibian anthros
Most Reptile Anthros
Spiders
Food: Pork products except bacon, really spicy foods, raw tomatoes, peas, sea food except tuna
Male cum
Ignorant people
Winter

Personailty: Shes very cocky but generally wont run her mouth bout anything unlesss she knows she can back it up. She is adventerous and loves a thrill, even if it means getting more then she bargined for. In new places or round new people she becomes quiet and will observe and study everything before acting. She loves being adored and almost worshiped. She loves to be sexual and tease others, but at the same time she is reserved.

If she likes something or some one enough she will go out of her way to protect it or make it happy. She is quick to get angry, and wont hesitate to break some ones jaw. She does like to joke and cause pranks but anything refering to her hieght she will automatically beat them sense less with her lead pipe.

She is very protective over little kids and goes into extreme mother mode when they are around. But if thier over the age of 10 she starts to care less, and at age 13 she'll treat them as any other person.

She doesnt like to stay in one spot and has a tendency to wonder around. She refers to herself as a stray, since that is what she really is. Trying to find a place to call home with some one to love her, but always finds herself wondering the streets.

She doesnt drink much, and only perfers to drink things that are sweet in taste (like Smirronoff Apple). When shes drunk shes very agreeable and likes to snuggle more. If you try to take her drink from her, she will growl and snarl at you, but can be easily tricked into giving it up. She very rarely will do a drug or two, but only if shes around a group she can trust. When she is high, depending on what from, she tends to think shes imvinisible and needs to be watched carefully (shes known to try to take more drugs and to try to pick loosing fights). She loves to have fun, and be apart of the club scene.

Above all she is a devoted and loyal friend, but a fiercem enemy. Crossing her will be the last thing you do, if she has any say bout it. Head strong, Fool Hearty, kind, loving, and spiteful.

History:
CT was the runt out of 2 brothers (Malinko and Seggen). When she was born the cord was wrapped around her neck, and was said to not live very long. But obviously she lived. She had a mother and father, but they ended up being devorsed and her father took over the raising. Her Brothers was handed over to other care takers.

Her father wanted her strong, and had hired masters of various martail arts to train her. Mai Tae & Kick Boxing being her strong suits. He would also make her fight larger being then her to strengthen her defense against them as well. "Your hieght is no excuse for losing" He would tell her.

At age 17 (119 in human years) her father passed away. Her mother was unable to take her in, so she decided to join the military and become a gaurd for the empire. CT often visited her brother Malinko as well, and would tell him everything.

She served them well, and was always a delight for the nobles to be around. Especially a certain noble known as Soiyyer (Soy-yer). Soiyyer was the daughter of the one Ruler she gaurded. Her skin was a olive tan, bright green eyes, short dark brown hair that had a blue streak, 5'2'', and had a charm about her that every one loved.

Soiyyer never really made it known she liked CT out right, but would do random things, such as give her trinkets, extra money, and personal lessions of things that only nobles are sapposed to know, such as relm traveling. At Balls or major events, she would always ask CT to dance with her.

On CTs 20th (140th) birthday, Soiyyer asked her to come with her to the room for a special gift.

"you do enough for me, you dont really have to give me anything" CT says as she stands strieght and with a weak crooked smile.

"I know sweety...But come here" Soiyyer says waving her over to come closer. CT does as she is commanded to, she tried not to show that she was trembling a bit. Soiyyer laughed a bit, then grabbed CT and quickly kissed her before she knew what hit her.

Thier romance was cut off, when Soiyyers father came in search for his daughter, saw the two having passionate sex. He was disgusted at the act and he felt betrayed. The enraged Ruler shouted and had CT arrested. She was called a traiter to the Empire, and thrown in jail to wait.

The following day she was taken to the arena, chained in the middle. Everyone who could pack themselves in, looked on at her as the Ruler ordered the gaurds to strip her bare of her clothes, and be ravaged. The citizens laughed and cursed CT, as they watched her scream and unheard pleads to stop. The gaurds were brutal to her, they'd beat her as they continued thier deed. 2 of them she was thought to be her friends. When the ruler finally spoke to stop it all, he turned to the daughter, and said "Tell me you love this beast, and i'll let her go...let you both go...you and her can live together in poverty"....Soiyyer said nothing...nor looked at CT.

CT pleaded to Soiyyer to tell...but no answer..."Kill the the traitor" the Ruler anounced. The bullet of saddness had struck threw CT, which the wound filled with rage. Hidden within her mind a new strength, her heart pounded a new beat, and a devilish roar bellowed out her mouth. Breaking her chains she slaughtered ruthlessly the gaurds, covering skin in thier blood. She charges at the Noble's, who quickly casted a transport spell upon her to throw her into a random relm.The rough transfer sent her flying into a tree, knocking her unconcious.

Waking the next day, she curled into a ball, and cried remember the humiliation, and the pain of not being recongized. She screamed as she pulled her hair. Suddenly her tears and shouts came to a stop, and it was nothing but her breathing was heard. Her breaths turned into a slight chuckle. An idea...A beautiful thought...Revenge....

She pulled herself up, and started walking. No real direction, but to build herself up. Start over from scratch, build a loyal army, stengthen herself, and over throw the Nobles and make them suffer the same pain...ALL OF THEM.

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An incounter:

Walking down the darkening city streets, CT heads towards a local club, with her hands in pocket and lead pipe in the back of her pants. She can smell the excitement and alcohal in the air.

She approachs the door, and walks in with her tails flickering as she feels the heavy bass beats begin to course threw her. The bouncers card her, and places a bracelet on her, and she continues to walk on threw, strieght to the bar. She remains silent, while observing the crowd. The neon lights flashing and dancing around on the fur and skin of the people there.

"Smirronoff" She orders, and quickly takes the drink and tips the bar tender. She takes a swig and looks closer at everyone around her. Her two tone eyes flash from body to body, gathering information on everyones mood, and body language...

When she finishes her bottle, she places it on the bar, then pulls out the green and blue glow sticks out of her pockets that shes been saving. Snaping them with her 3 main fingers from each hand, the neon glow becomes brighter...She strolls into the crowd, with a sway, and finds a perfect spot. She waits for the secound wave of the music the pick up bass, and starts the to dance. Her movements flowing rapidly and full of force, the neon trailing behind her. She flips in the air, and bounces the sticks off the floor, tribal mixed with new age.

In the midst of a back flip, a female has caught her eye...A beautiful pure breed 5''5' Beauceron Shepard, with steel gray eyes...Upon landing, she had already gained the scent...The scent made her mouth water. Her mood switched into a preditor of sort. She merged herself with the crowd and circled around the girl, observing her...She had two peircings in her right ear, and one in her left, a black leather collar with a gold plate, a military styled hat, blue middrift sleeveless hoodie, black baggy jeans with a chain on one side. She danced rhythmically and seemed to be in a world of her own.

CT waited for another wave to kick in again to make her move. She slinked next to the canine, and brushed up her back side in rhythem with her movements. The girl slowed and turned her head to see who'd deared to enter her world of music. She didnt say anything, her eyes said it all..she was shocked and happy to find a female. Thier pace picked up to the music again, and CT placed her hands on the girls hips. Together they danced, thier bodies simutanicly moved with one another, as if programed to. CT's hands runing up her body or down her body, both getting lost in the music and ecstasy of thier bodies touch.

Getting bolder, CT kisses the back of the girls neck, as she quivers with delight of CT's gentle lips. The kiss turned to a domanit bite. The girl let out a slight moan that only the two could hear. The girl presses her body as close as she can to CT's. CT now runs a hand on the girls belly, and then down and ran her fingers along the pants line. They still move to the beat of the music, but thier tails are trying to wrap around them.

The girl holds CT from behind, and CT smells that sweet scent that she had been waiting for. The scent that gave signal. CT slide her hand down into the girls pants, and found her way to the cunt that was awaiting wet. She rubbed it feverishly, and the girl moaned more. Moans that were drowned out by the loud music.

CT thrusted in a digit and pumped it in and out to the booming bass, and the females grip became tighter on CT's sides. Within the climax of the music, the girl lifts her head and lets out a howl of pleasure.

MORE EPICNESS!

thats right my fellow readers of my life that seems to become part of this epic insaneness....Just when you thought life couldnt get any more intense....err..my life that is....

OK SO! let us begin my story of THIS weekend. I promise you its not gonna be a super long read like last time.

Well, since last weekend me and Maria are like in awe of each other. its crazy really. and she for some reason swears im the best, and now its becoming hard for me to go to bed because she'll txt me very very intense things....and thus it makes my cunt throb cause theres nothing (or im willing) to do about it. So i told her i'll make her pay for it, lmao

Well Anime USA was around, and she convinced me to go on friday. But Thurs night she was coming to pick me up....muwaha...So to pass the time while i wait for her to come get me all the way down here in MD, i decide to hang out with my friends Angel and Ben. Got there and they had a huge fit of who gets to cuddle with me. again with the pulling of my body back and forth until they finally decide to share...ugh..

Well Ben was barrowing a fast car again, and thus I HAD TO DRIVE! Me + stick shift + fast = orgasim. and thus i got to drive....and boy did i pull a rabid orgasim as i drove....mmmm....speed....sorry i had to add this in here.

anywho, when she finally got down here, she calls me and is like come out to the car. i get to the window and say "so why are you still in the car?" and she tells me "cause we might wanna go somewhere dark again"...heehee OH YEAH...so totally went to the spot i picked out last time...and me and her were back to being rabbits in heat and omfg it was such a relief from her earlier torturings with the txting. and you all know what...shes fucking awsome cause she has basically the same mind set as i do, as far as getting into trouble. Cause for a while we thought a cop was heading in our direction to see what was going on (in case someone called them), but thankfully it was just headlights from a nieghbor leaving to head to work, but during the whole time she just kept going, lmao.

OF course though we had to cut our fun time cause well, we needed to get to her place, cetch some sleep and then go to Anime USA.

So off we go to her place....and well i guess i never told anyone that im a really bad person to have in your car if i like you and you like me. Why is this? cause i'll do things to you while your driving...so yesh, my hand was down her pants when she was driving...lmao. Again i was another first. she never had that happen to her before, and she loved it.

we get there, and we crashed. the next day we get her sister and her sisters friend and we go to DC for the con. This is my first time going to anything like this, and it was sooo crazy and a bit over whelming but so fucking awsome. i wish i was rich cause there was so many things i wanted to get. BUT i did get something. leather handcuffs. muwahhahahahaha. Anywho her sister and friend disappeared, which is what we wanted, and she was showing me around and i was like having more orgasims cause it was so freaking awsome. Of course it didnt help that we'd grab each others crotches when we had the chance. lmao At one point she had to go to the bathroom. heehee...Im so bad...after she went and washed her hands, lucky me realized no one was in there. and thus i pushed her back into the stall (which btw the bathrooms there were actually kinda nice), and fucked against the wall. which was more fun cause ppl came in, so she had to be quite. lmao. AGAIN another first for her. im such a bad example/roll model.

so around 8pm we had to run back to the car cause there was a ball starting to happen and you had to dress nicely for it (no jeans and such). of course we tried to keep ourselves from pawing each other, but that didnt exactly work...though it didnt happen like it would of cause we were way in plain site, and way to many ppl and kids were walking round...soo we had to keep it minimal.

We go to the ball, and laugh our asses off cause it was soo flippin gay, and ya, we realized we dont know how to ball room dance...lmao but we tried and laughed at our fail. lmao

After that we had to go back to the car, AGAIN, try not to paw but did AGAIN, changed our clothes and then go to eat...cause we were getting really hungry by then...while eating her friend reachul called and normally i dont like reachul cause shes been a real ass towards Maria, but she got back in my good graces cause she talked to me...and wow shes got a very sexy voice.....mmmm...

So after that, ran back to the car to get the glow sticks and then on ward to the RAVE! OMFG I LOVE RAVING. AND IT WAS BLOODY FREAKING AWSOME! there was a circle where ppl do thier awsome shit, and well i got pulled into it...and apperantly im better then i thought cause they all loved. During the whole time we were there i got these hot girls to dance with us and just AAGHGHHG! i love it

It was getting late, and we had to drive back to my place, so thus we had to take our bows and leave. Got home, we were sooooooo exhuasted that we just crashed.

So yesterday (Saterday), we woke up, and take a shower together...ANOTHER FIRST for her, cause she never took a shower with anyone, ever. but anywho, got out, went back to the spare room (cause i didnt know who'd be coming in or out where i normally sleep). Well. Long story short, we had more epic fun for 3 hours, got to use my cuffs (and yesh another first with her...). She had to leave cause was going back to the Con and well i couldnt go cause i couldnt talk my way out of getting trashed by my family.

Well i ate food and took a nap cause i was still pretty tired. 8pm rolls around and its show time. everyone shows up, and we all pile in the van. and believe it or not the monkey was there too...i did want her to come, but i also invited her sister in law (who is also hot...im sorry i cant help it but shes just soo cute)...anyways i got trashed out the ass. what did it to me was when my brother made me take a shot of Gold Slogger (which is sooo wierd cause it has gold flakes in it...AND YOU DRINK IT...WTF?), and well....i couldnt stand...

Lisa (the monkey), had to help me into the van, and put me to bed...good cause i miss her so dear...bad cause i told her everything i didnt want her to know bout how i feel bout her and i thought this whole situation was bullshit. I was so drunk she had to help me go to piss...ugh...so bad..

but either way i had lots of fun...and im sorry i didnt realize it'd be this long of a story....but ya...and guess what...NEXT WEEKEND I MAY HAVE A 4SOME omfg...Cause Reachul and Debbi (Maria's friends) want to meet me, and they are smoking hot...and according to Maria, they so totally want me...

ISo, here's how it works:
1. Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Songs:


Opening Credits:
Tears to Roses - Skillet

Waking Up:
Dream on - Areo Smith

First Day At School:
Tainted Love - Marylin Manson

Falling In love:
Patients - Guns'N'Roses

Fight Song:
Wild side - Motley Crue

Breaking Up:
I just wont you - Ozzy

Prom:
Shut up and Drive - Rhihanna

Life's OK:
Do it all night - Dh Pulsa vs DJ XtC

Mental Breakdown:
Circles - Hollywood Undead

Driving:
St. Louis - Nelly

Flashback:
Hehind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit

Getting Back Together:
Shut Me Up - Mindless Self Indugence

Wedding:
Brick House 2000 - Rob Zombie

Birth of Child:
Giving up the Ghost - Dj Shadow

Final Battle:
S.E.X. - DJ Caffeine

Death Scene:
Nemo - Nightwish

Funeral Song:
Nth Degree - Morning Wood

End Credits:
Echelon - 30 seconds to Mars

ANY OF YOU GOING? cause if you are, do you think you'd let me and my friend Maria stay with you guys friday night? as long as you dont mind epicness of things....hell if your lucky we might let you join...but females only bout the joining thing, lmao.

But ya...we'll be good if you dont want any of the epicness around, we'll just go out some where else, and come back. dont need a bed, just a roof. lmao....

*yawn....*.... ok so where was i in my tale of crazyness to begin?

Kissing in the car for the first time with Maria...mmmm....Maria.... *cough* anyways

Ok so ya, i donno what possessed me to be the one to start ANY thing, but i did. And like i mentioned, mmmmmy gowd she kisses good. Though i soon found out that any roughness is something shes not used to. Cause when i kiss, like to to bite the bottom lip or nip at the tongue. she liked it, but she was like "wow, my lip feels a bit sore haha". i appologized, she said no, do it some more.

It was so funny cause we'd talk and some how end up kissing, and there was ppl walking by the car (well HELLOOO we're in DC), and they were all like "Omg, ppl are fucking around in that car" or "Is that too girls kissing, holy shit" or "OMG thats insane" or ppl would just stop and stare at us with thier jaws touching the ground. It was awsome.

Well during one of our convos, i was telling her how happy i am, and i never been this happy and its all thanx to her. And she said well just wait till 12am cause then the real fun begins cause you'll be drinking and in the club. so i said literally "Well when its 12am, IM GOING TO HUMP YOU. i dont care if we're in the middle of the street im going to hump you." she laughed and was like sure whatever.

So ya while waiting for 12am, we got into a really heated kiss, and boom my hand was in a place that was making the windows start to fog. lmao! But anywho, i stoped cause i couldnt help but laugh at the random passer byers. I looked down, its 12am on the dot. And without missing a beat, i jumped on her in the driver seat of her car and humped her. lmao she was like "OMFG YOUR CRAZY, BUT I LOVE IT!" So after a brief laughter it was time to roll in the joint.

Got iin there and it was packed with Lez's and it was just like almost overwhelming. I was like i donno what to do. Plus i thought the place would be bigger, but really its tiny, but it still was interestingly awsomage. She asked me what i like, and so i got a drink called "The Blue Betty", which is Smirronoff Ice with this blue shit in it that makes it taste like punch, and it tasted awsome. she also gave me a sip of her Kamakazi, which tasted interestly odd but good enough to still drink, and thus i drank half her glass, lol. She laughed at me cause appearently there was a lot of high % of alcohol in there and its going to get me fucked up faster. So whatever

The music was good enough to dance to, even the DJ that night was an idiot, but we go to the floor, with drinks in our hands and have our time a ball dancing. And during the time im throwing my drinks back like no tomarrow. At one point when we take a break from dancing to get another drink, she orders me a red headed slut shot. She gets one too, tells me to down it. I down 90% of it. OMG THAT TASTED AWFUL, but it got me more fucked up, lmao. Plus those shot glasses are not shot glasses, its more like a shot bowl, lmao.

So back to the dance floor. At one point these two hot black girls started to dance with us. One behind her, and one behind me. And Its like crazy fucking hot, one or two shy steps away to being a four fuck fest, hot. It was just amazing. Especially since behind us, err in front of me behind Maria was a huge mirror...yaaaa oh so hot.

After that, we walked to a booth sorta place, and sat down chilling and talking and all that jazz. The girls that danced with us, saw us and was like awsome to talk to. i told bout how i draw tattoos, and since my work is on my body i showed her, and she was like "i gotta get your number", and so now i have to get business cards cause she started telling everyone and thier all like, hells yeah.

So we needed a brake from this club, and decided to head to her car again to chill and cool down. Which turned into a very passionate adventure. wat was even funnier was that a cop was sitting not that far from us the whole time. HE/SHE HAD TO KNOW what we were doing cause well lets face it, the windows were fogged to high hell and the noises, and im sure the car rocked. lmao

In our break we looked at the time and it was basically closing time for the club, and then i looked out the window. I saw the friends we meet there, and as they were walkin by Maria's car, i open the door, without realize i was on top of Maria still. They laughed and said "your fucking awsome, keep having a great 21st bday"

So yeah, its safe to say we didnt stop till round 4:30am, when realized we were sober enough head back to my place, and in need of a real bed. So off on the way to my place we go. We talk and laugh bout everything, and i cant stop smiling at all, and shes like "so you having a good bday or what?" and i told her i was having the best bday ever and never been this happy in my whole life. She said "i know, im the same way and its not even my bday" lmao

On the way home we realize we're too tired to drive so we head to one of her best friends house who lives in MD, and was right where we were at the time. So we park in front of her best friends house and sleep in the back...When daylight shows i get up and she gets up. we talk some more, and call her friend bunch of times trying to figure out what her deal was. So we run over to Duncon donuts and grab a dozen and head back. Maria knocks on her friends door and is a like "WTF why havent you been answering the calls" lol...her friend was funny and just entertaining. So after that i realize we could of had mapquest directions cause Maria's cell has the internet on it. lmao But we were actually on the right track to getting to my place.

We get there, i have to take a shower, and so i do while she takes a short nap. I come back to my area/couch i call a room, and i lay next to her...things start getting passionate again. but she keeps not wanting to fallow threw cause she want to take a shower and clean up. totally understandable. Plus according to her she has to change underwear and pants cause she's soaked right threw. roflmao

So i let her and she feeling MUCH better, we pick up were we left off and omfg we just didnt want to stop. And at one point she requested to see Buck (for those who dont know who Buck is, thats who i become when i pack and bind...my male alter ego). I was a little unsure bout this cause she told me bout her previous experience with a cock, and that it just hurt her. but she wanted it some kind of bad, so i had to oblige her. AND SHE LOVED IT!

Now normally i'd get worn out and stop being able to take anything sexual at a certain point, BUT OMFG! i dont know what is so special with this chick or what. and shes the same way bout getting worn out and stuff, but again we donno what the hell was going on, cause we couldnt stop ourselves and we didnt want to. And this was like mind blowing crazy cool insane sex. And this is the ONLY time im happy the Football game was on, cause no one was home, so yeaaaa....wow

Though we did take a break round 10ish, cause we needed food. We gots chinese food. yum...and funny thing, the chinese food tasted way better then it normally did. WTF? Well, we started watching one of the comedy specials i have on my laptop, while we ate. Her cell goes off and its this girl who is her ex, but still has alot of feelings for. Maria got sad cause she feels the way bout this girl, like i do bout my monkey. I consuled her and held her, and some how she just felt better and i could feel that she was so happy i was round to help her calm her down and everything.

Well, we started back up after our food settled and the show was over..though i was a little iffy bout it cause i didnt want her to be messing with me so she'd be distracted from her ex and all that jazz. BUT she did reassure me that it has nothing to do with that. She didnt tell me like that or anything...its one of those situations threw normal convo and actions and feelings that ya, you dont have to say it, ya know?

BUT as things we're picking up ~CLICK CLACK~ the front door was opening. everyone was coming home from watching the game. I quickly button my pants and sit up strieght. My mother comes down stairs, and figured out whats been going on. probably since both our faces where beat red and we're a lil sweaty. She just laughed, and we had a small convo with her, and my aunt that was entertaining as all fuck. I LOVE MY MOTHER! lmao

My mom was like "well im gonna go to my room...im gonna make sure i shut the door" lmao...ok this was sooo awkard cause 1) she kinda caught us and 2) i never seen my mother handle something like so well, normally she freaks the fuck out and is all grrr...but i guess after finally excepting the way i am and stopped viewing me as just her daughter and more of a human being like her, she just laughed it off.

Well, Maria didnt waste time to pick up where we left off, buuuut every time she'd get close either my Aunt or my mother would walk by, to either get more beer or go to the bathroom, lmao. So i told Maria lets just go to your car and park at the end of the rd i live on cause its dark, and we can be as loud as we want and not worry bout anything. she agreed and wow...

Just omfg wow...we didnt want to stop! we've been at it all day like rabbits and now, with no interuptions or anything we need like food or water, we just did not stop. and it was so amazing. And on top of it all, she did this one thing to me that made me feel like im on E, like litterally. and just...i donno what to say, its just that when we calculated from when we started fucking around to when we stoped, it was litterally 25hrs strieght. NEVER HAVE I EVER FUCKED THAT LONG WITH BARELY AT LEAST 3HRS REST...the total time we rested maybe added to an hour. If she didnt have to go home today, she would of just stayed and we'd probably be going at it still. it was earth shattering amazing.

And whats even more amazing, she thinks im the best EVER in bed, im the first to crissen her car, im the one who pop the public sex cherry, i made her cum in so many ways ppl havent or couldnt do, I gave her the first rapid fire of multipul orgasims, and was the first for her to have rough sex without it hurting. Thats an amazing feet to happen within 24hrs.

OMFG, I DONNO IF IM GONNA RECOVER!

ok, so those who've been loyal and like actually read my beautiful journals, you all know that the 5th was my 21st, and that my was of celebrating it was to go to DC on the 4th, meet up with a friend, and go to this lesbian club called Phase One at 12am and get drunk....Right? right.......

Well before i get into the juicy bits, a lil back ground i've left out. My friend i was meeting, i've been talking to for a few weeks, really nice girl, very cute my type for the most part (boyish but not like scary boyish, likes the same things i do, blah blah blah). she lives in VA (bummer), but gots these beautiful brown (normally i dont care bout brown, but hers was like a purrty brown) puppy dog eyes PERFECT HIEGHT, shes sapposidly an inch taller then me but i think shes either an inch shorter or same hieght. And of course shes been saying all these sexual things thats like OMG OMG OMG soooo hot...or maybe it was cause i stand up streight...anywho...She was treating me to the whole bday thing, all i needed to do was get a ride there. And she'll be taking me home. Oh by the way her name is Maria (MA-RE-UH), god forbid if you say it wrong she'll get annoyed

So i found a ride with my body guard/trainer to take me up to DC. Who happens to be someone who doesnt have a cell phone and doesnt ever plan on getting one...but is always good on his word...he says a time he'll be there and he'll be there on the dot and generally calls to let you know when he's on his way threw pay phone. Though alot of retard want him dead...its strange really...

Ok now thats out of the way. I will begin the story of the most amazing time of my life.


At first i was all excited, bouncing round the house cause i knew this was going to be interesting if not anything else. But for a short period i was so fucking worried. my ride hasnt called me, told me it'd be 7pm that we leave, and he doesnt show up. I begin to pace and get a bit upset cause i swear im cursed. I call anyone who maybe has seen or talked to him. No luck....i start to worry maybe some one actually succeeded in killing him. But at the same time i was pissed cause i was like omfg my night is fucking dead. So i txt Maria that things might be turned out for bad. She calls me, listens to my rant...and tells me "look, im going to take a shower, if your friend doesnt show when i get out and call you, i will drive all they way down to MD (which is a 2hr drive from where she lives) and pick up, and take you to Phase. (which is 1hr 30min drive)"....i couldnt let her do this. she just meet me really, and shes being so kind to take me to phase and buy me drinks and take me home and everything...this would be asking to much. so i told her this. She said "Look, its your 21st bday, and i will not let it go bad. I has to be a great day for you, i refuse to let you be sad. So i will do this weather you like it or not" Im in shock. Shes so kind...never have i meet someone this kind that lives near me...i mean, this is just wow.

so, i agreed after several minutes of beckering that i cant let her do that. Luckly, she didnt have to. Finally found my ride again, turns out he just over slept. Im not mad at him, cause the poor guy gets maybe 3hr sleep in 3 days, i dont blame him for over sleeping. I tell Maria, and tell her that im just going to be an hr late. She said good cause im going to be late to, lmao.

Now we're rollin on up to DC. My home boy barrowed a fast german car and was doing speedy illegal things but it was all cool. And Vince his right hand man was with them, and we had interestingly hysterical convos bout god nows what, and my happy happy joy joy juices are kicking in. Something just stirring within telling me this is going to be rememberable.

I get there, and im actually on the other side of the street from the club. I call Maria say "Bitch where you at" lmao, and she says "im inside, let me pound this one down real quick". no big, i need time to settle my nerves anyways..so im standing there leaning on the crossing sign pole, she calls me trying to figure where im at, i tell her and see her walking on the bar side of the street, and she looks and see me, and i can tell shes pleased with what i look like in real life. She stands on the other side of the crosswalk, and waiting for the cars to clear. She waves me over, and im like nahuh (cause im a shy person)...and shes like spazing a bit cause she's all like OMG shes so cute...and so i realize im gonna have to be the one to start or we'd be standing there all night blushing at each other. So i put my mood on, and run a cross the street, not caring bout the cars thats charging down the road...

Instently a spark btw us. she hugs me and we talk a brief moment trying to figure out what to do before 12am hits and we go to Phase. We decide to chill and talk in her car. and im like laying my "mac" down real hard cause im just like wow shes so awsome and cute and just wow...shes sharing music i like it, we're swaping stories, and then i pull a move i never thought i'd ever do that lead us to a passionate kiss. AND HOLY SHIT! ok first off im not really big into kissing cause for some reason ppl tend to turn my off by the way they kiss, not that thier bad its just something always throws me off. My monkey did occasionally. But ya, she was different.

but before i continue...i have to go to sleep..cause i havent slept really since Friday night (Oct. 3)...and its 5:30am Oct. 6 now...so when i wake up, i promise to have part 2 written, err typed

ok, i swear IF ONE MORE PERSON CALLS ME A MIDGET IM GOING TO SHANK THEM...HUNT THEM DOWN AND STAB THEM!! >.<

GOD IM ONLY FUCKING 5FT, THAT DOES NOT MAKE ME A MIDGET YOU BLOODY FREAKING ASSHOLES >.<''

YOU SOME PPL WONT DATE ME CAUSE IM THAT SHORT, ITS BAD ENOUGH THAT THE KIND OF PPL I LIKE WONT LIKE ME BACK CAUSE IM TO BOYISH, ITS WORSE CAUSE IM SHORT >.<

grrr


ok im done ranting...BASTARDS.....ok this time i mean it....

Well anyone whose been paying attention knows my bday is coming up...the only reason i give a shit is cause its my 21st. Its this sunday ^-^

SO! this saterday im going to DC to hang out with my friend, until 12am (which makes me legally 21), in which she is going to take me to this gay bar called Phase 1. IM GONNA GET TRASHED!

Dear: mansonsdragon

I don't really know how to tell you this, but i dislike you. I think I realized it when i quoted santa, at the mental hospital and I saw you carve your initials Donald Duck. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that im allergic to your hamster. I'm returning our matching snoopy-bibs to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when i think of the incarnation as an eskimo .

greeting to your frog leonard,
Commontrixter

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Dear:(the last person who left a comment on your journal:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ____1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-


1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked


11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics


12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

LMAO alright everyone...every once in a while someone comes to me and says "OMG i just heard a song/i have a song that reminds me of you!" and alot of times after listening or reading the lyrics, it fits me quite well. SO, the newest one is just like me to a T.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqIk-f8DSTA

well im gonna go start a fight now, cetch ya later...maybe if your lucky i might let you lick my wounds ~_^''

OH by the way, PINK IS THE HOTTNESS XD