<< A repost from my BlueSky, but it feels right to share here as well 🐾 >>

Howdy folkses. I hope everybody is doing OK.

Recently I've been doing a lot of working towards self-acceptance regarding everything I do here. Cookiepawz was created to sort of help me in that direction, while keeping my normal work and my kink work in their own separate respective corners. I feel like a lot of folks kinda knew this already (wasn't exactly hiding!),  thetony is normal regular little ol' me. With some help from my friends, I have been slowly working on bridging the gap between these safe spaces.

I'm not going to be changing anything here - This is still going to be where all of my blatantly fetishy stuff goes. Though, I've been slowly settling in to posting occasional cute stuff with my original kittydog caline fursona on my main. ✨ Doing so has been incredibly feeling, and I am happy.

I appreciate everybody in the furry feet/tickle community welcoming me and my work with such open arms all this time. It has meant the world~ ✨ I will continue to do cute stuff here! But I'm not going to stress/worry about identity anymore. I think I'm finally where my mind needed to be 💚

(( This all is probably very silly to most who don't even know me personally, but this does mean a lot to someone like me who has a history of worrying too much about other people's opinions/approval 💦 I'm glad to finally be comfortable after all this time. 🐾 ))

making a journal to help me track progress, and also help folks see where i'm at with regards to this commission project right here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58758873/

(UPDATE 12/19/2024)

we have a single slot left available with the next wave, if you would want that last slot, then please check the original submission for details! - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58758873/

current queue status:

1.  Orangeput33 - [TENTATIVE]
2. Nephilim (Offsite) - [In Discussion]
3. Saturn_Yeen (Offsite) - [In Discussion]
4.  drpepper12 - [In Discussion]
5. [Empty]

a couple of notes:
- 'TBD' means a discussion is underway regarding the slot but won't be taken until everything has been finalized between myself and the interested parties
- current max is 5. if all get filled up, i will only make more available once everything else has been completed.

if anyone has any questions, please dont hesitate to let me know

greetins folks

things have slowed down and its primarily been due to stress from work. but in addition to work being incredibly busy for me this time of year, the people who i work for essentially dropped a bombshell on me last week that i was being let go at the end of the month due to what i can only perceive as budgetary concerns that have nothing to do with me. outside of the height of the pandemic in 2020, i have never been laid off or fired in my life, so naturally, this has been doing a number on my general mental health, and it has been admittedly hard to work on current items as i try to figure out what i did wrong/IF i did something wrong/how good i actually am at my trade/etc. it's a whole thing, and it is not something i can shut down so easily. brain too loud, won't be quiet.

i humbly request patience as i try to navigate whatever comes next. i'm gonna finish what's currently owed, and after that, im not sure i'm gonna feel comfortable taking on any additional orders for anything until i can get my personal shit sorted out. i have no intention on leadin people on just because i'm taking on water IRL, i would much rather get stabilized before i do anything else. honestly, i dont even know if i could really focus otherwise.

so in the coming days i'm gonna try to get through the remainder of the YCHs that are left, as best as i can, and i do apologize that it's taking way more time than i intended. i appreciate everyone bein so patient with me, and i am once again sorry that it had to be this way.

had no idea that my job was hangin so precariously, that's the messed up part, i think. no warning. shit, man..

hi

💚

there have been so many new watchers of this here page that i've been unable to really keep up so i just wanted to make a quick journal to thank each and every one of you all who have recently found me and decided i was worth hitting that +watch button 💚🐾🐾 thankyou so much.

i'm working on the current YCHs in-queue, but i'm also touching up some personal works that have been in the background way too long, so i hope yall will enjoy those when they finally go up

this has been a super exciting time for me and i look forward to sharing more of this work verysoon 💚

all yall have a pleasant week coming up, see yall on the next posting ~

5/20/2024 Update: i'm still getting knocked around a little bit but i'm making progress. Latest WIP check-in is underway, sketching has started on second slot and the check-in for that one will be happening soon.

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making a journal to help me track progress, and also help folks see where i'm at

at present, i'm working on a couple of slots for this YCH: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56220821/

current queue is as follows

1.  Orangeput33 - Overall - 33% / Sketch Phase 100% (WIP Check-in: In Progress)
2. --empty--
3. --empty--
4. --empty--
5. --empty--

a couple of notes:
- 'TBD' means a discussion is underway regarding the slot but won't be taken until everything has been finalized between myself and the interested parties
- current max is 5. if all get filled up, i will only make more available once everything else has been completed.

if anyone has any questions, please dont hesitate to let me know

hey folks

i've been having a lot of fun doing art for this account, and i have more personal pieces on the way. that being said, i want to get to a point to where i will be open to trades with fellow artists, if any of you would be interested in doing something like that with me

i dont want to flip the switch just yet, because i want to see about maybe getting some decent reference images done first. and, a key thing i have to factor in is the amount of time that i have to get things done. with a full time job, on top of other obligations on my plate that I can't ignore, i can't promise a quick turnaround time with anything right now.

but, i'm hoping to become more involved with the community, especially considering all of the support and kindness that i've been given, and art trades seem like a good way to contribute to things and show support for fellow creators. i'm still kind of blown away by the general reception from everyone, i dont think i can ever thank yall enough

anyway, that should do it. i just wanted to talk about that for a sec. peace ya'll 💚

i promise i'm not gonna just do this every other day, but it's hard to overstate how appreciative i am of the general reception to the account and the art i've shared since i opened this all back up.

those who have known me personally know how hard it's always been for me to just simply accept myself and the things that i enjoy. i've always had this anxiety in my mind fueling shame about something that was an irremovable part of me. while many others in my life sharing similar interests long accepted theirs, and proceeded to enjoy their lives, i always felt like i was stuck in place, unable to get over the self-conscious feelings that always judged me for this stuff.

this isn't to say i'll ever be 100% over it, but, having the support from others in the community, as well as that of those close to me, is something that is certainly helping me out. and maybe it's also because i'm older and am starting to care less about what others think of me, and maybe that process just started later for me than other people, lol. everybody's different, after all.

anyway. i wasn't trying to ramble, but, it happens. i may take a tiny break from the mad dash of making stuff so that i don't get too burnt out, but, i'm working on a couple of fun things that'll be done soon enough, i'm excited to share them.

thanks everybody, for all the watches, the favorites, the comments, all of that stuff. it's helped this cookie feel good about things.

peace ☕ 💚

a lot of ppl really seemed to enjoy the sort-of-kind-of-a-comic i posted yesterday (which, thank you all very much for the kindness, my goodness), so now i'm considering making some actual comic pages for some short, fun tickle stories

i can't promise anything b/c comics are really hard to do but i'm writing ideas down just in case i can get to them

thank yall so much for the continued kindness, i'm kind of blown away by the general reception to the account 💚

there's been a ton of favorites, watches, and general support from folks after i opened back up and started posting things, and that genuinely means a lot. i just wanted to quickly throw out a quick Thank You to everybody, i greatly appreciate it all.

i'm already working on some for-fun stuff that's new, and not just reposts, so, hopefully i'll be able to share real soon

thanks ya, everyone

a handful of folks that find this page will probably recognize either my art style, or even some of the older pieces that ultimately get reuploaded. My previous account was ZacharyBOOM, just a simple foot/tickle gallery, separated from my main art page, though at this time, it's no longer available.

when posting stuff to that account, i struggled to just, like.. enjoy myself, and got too self-conscious about everything. so the account in question was scrubbed clean, and so were the pieces i did for it. Anxiety over how 'weird' i am seems to be a recurring obstacle that my mind seems to run into often.

after some time away, and some time to think, i'm now doing my best to get over this mental hurdle that has prevented me from simply enjoying harmless kinky stuff for a long time. hopefully, i am able to do that now with this account, and i can just move forward with drawing and being happy with expressin myself.

for ppl who have no clue who i am, then i wouldn't worry about all this stuff. just know that i appreciate you bein here anyway, and hope that the art is fun to look at.

thanks ya