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Lights OFF!!! (Art or Treat 2019) (thanks so much)
Posted 6 years agoIt's that time of year again! FREE ART TIME!!!!
This year I'm doing BUSTS! They'll look something like this: Example
Comment with a Ref of your character and what they'd like to be for Halloween!
Idk how many I'll take so we'll just sorta see how this goes!
This year I'm doing BUSTS! They'll look something like this: Example
Comment with a Ref of your character and what they'd like to be for Halloween!
Idk how many I'll take so we'll just sorta see how this goes!
So... We uh.... need to talk about some stuff
Posted 6 years agoHeya it's Cookie and uh... It's been a really long time.
A little over a year ago I uh. Did some shit I shouldn't have. I lashed out at people just trying to care for me and I refused and just wanted to be sad all the time. I was worried about everyone and I didn't show it right and when that wasn't accepted by them, I pushed them away out of frustration.
That was shit of me. And I haven't forgiven myself.
Fortunately, I wasn't given up on? Like, I definitely should have been let go by all these people, my mate most of all? And he refused to let me be garbage. I was so angry and I still am but at myself and not at anyone else anymore. I'm tired.
What does this mean? I'm gonna be a better person and better friend. I'm a fucking adult and I should be able to handle problems in a way that's not totally toxic.
What does this mean for my art? I'm starting over. All the NSFW stuff is gone, I don't really wanna... do that anymore for myself. It's nice I guess to get commissions and stuff but I won't do that anymore. All my angry art is gone too, as well as some of my really really old art.
I'm going to be better and even if no one likes me anymore after all the stuff I've done, that's fair, but at least I'll have tried.
A little over a year ago I uh. Did some shit I shouldn't have. I lashed out at people just trying to care for me and I refused and just wanted to be sad all the time. I was worried about everyone and I didn't show it right and when that wasn't accepted by them, I pushed them away out of frustration.
That was shit of me. And I haven't forgiven myself.
Fortunately, I wasn't given up on? Like, I definitely should have been let go by all these people, my mate most of all? And he refused to let me be garbage. I was so angry and I still am but at myself and not at anyone else anymore. I'm tired.
What does this mean? I'm gonna be a better person and better friend. I'm a fucking adult and I should be able to handle problems in a way that's not totally toxic.
What does this mean for my art? I'm starting over. All the NSFW stuff is gone, I don't really wanna... do that anymore for myself. It's nice I guess to get commissions and stuff but I won't do that anymore. All my angry art is gone too, as well as some of my really really old art.
I'm going to be better and even if no one likes me anymore after all the stuff I've done, that's fair, but at least I'll have tried.
A Life Upd8
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! I just noticed the last thing I posted was from a month or 2 ago so I figured I should explain what's going on in my life rn.
1. I'm not dead, physically. Emotionally? Recovering and doing ok. Juju is back and is studying generator repair stuff and we're talking basically every day so things are good there. We're talking a lot about what's gonna happen once he's out of AIT and back home in Idaho... possibly moving in together in the future??? Idk hehehe. I'm definitely gonna visit him when he's home. Work is stressful and stuff and everyone's stressed out but we're managing haha.
2. I've still been doing art! It's just not furry art, so I didn't think it was relevant lol. If you wanna see what I've been up to, my TUMBLR is where I'm posting all my non-furry stuff. It's mostly screenshot re-draws, but I just did my first speedpainting video, so that's on there too! I'll be switching back and forth between furry and non-furry art stuff, but just because I'm not posting doesn't mean I'm not here!
3. I'm re-working my commissions! I probably won't be open for a while as I experiment with different art types but y'all can look forward to that! I'm really excited tbh haha...
But yea! I'm not dead and still doing art, and that's never gonna stop don't worry! Thanks for sticking around lol.
1. I'm not dead, physically. Emotionally? Recovering and doing ok. Juju is back and is studying generator repair stuff and we're talking basically every day so things are good there. We're talking a lot about what's gonna happen once he's out of AIT and back home in Idaho... possibly moving in together in the future??? Idk hehehe. I'm definitely gonna visit him when he's home. Work is stressful and stuff and everyone's stressed out but we're managing haha.
2. I've still been doing art! It's just not furry art, so I didn't think it was relevant lol. If you wanna see what I've been up to, my TUMBLR is where I'm posting all my non-furry stuff. It's mostly screenshot re-draws, but I just did my first speedpainting video, so that's on there too! I'll be switching back and forth between furry and non-furry art stuff, but just because I'm not posting doesn't mean I'm not here!
3. I'm re-working my commissions! I probably won't be open for a while as I experiment with different art types but y'all can look forward to that! I'm really excited tbh haha...
But yea! I'm not dead and still doing art, and that's never gonna stop don't worry! Thanks for sticking around lol.
Life Updates and Stuff
Posted 8 years agoThere's been a lot of shit in my life lately. A lot of stuff has hurt me and a lot of stuff has made me better. My heart is still healing from a lot of things that have happened and I think I just need to take some time to myself. Commissions and trades are closed indefinitely until I can find the inspiration and will to draw again. My heart has a /lot/ of healing to do and I keep accidently opening the wounds over and over and so I just need a break. Idk, I just want my boyfriend to come back from basic already. Things are rough without him and everything's so different now since he left it's only been like 2 1/2 months but like???? everything is so different and I'm worried how he's gonna react to some of the decisions I've made.
Shout out to
blitzening for being a good friend during this rough period of time. My heart hurts, but his does too and so we can talk about it together (when neither of us are at work and we're both awake lol)
I've been fucking sick for three days now, and it huuuuuurts cuz I'm not being checked up on every second of the day like Juju does... Ugh I miss him so much...
I should sleep.
Shout out to
blitzening for being a good friend during this rough period of time. My heart hurts, but his does too and so we can talk about it together (when neither of us are at work and we're both awake lol) I've been fucking sick for three days now, and it huuuuuurts cuz I'm not being checked up on every second of the day like Juju does... Ugh I miss him so much...
I should sleep.
Light's OFF!! (Thanks for stopping by!)
Posted 8 years agoCurrently accepting Trick or Treaters for some free art stuffs!
Comment below with "Trick or Treat!", as well as your character ref and a costume idea or reference! Colored sketch busts will be handed out as my treats! (example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25285021/ )
Light will remain on until Nov. 1st at 12am PST, or until I run out of treats! Happy Halloween! (WILL BE COMPLETED BY NOVEMBER 1ST AT 12AM AS WELL!)
Treats Claimed:
1.
wolfydearest
2.
castfox
3.
fox-rachel
4.
ceresbaistat
5.
taylee
6.
inkypawprint
7.
8.
9.
10.
(Thanks to
felisrandomis for the concept!)
Comment below with "Trick or Treat!", as well as your character ref and a costume idea or reference! Colored sketch busts will be handed out as my treats! (example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25285021/ )
Light will remain on until Nov. 1st at 12am PST, or until I run out of treats! Happy Halloween! (WILL BE COMPLETED BY NOVEMBER 1ST AT 12AM AS WELL!)
Treats Claimed:
1.
wolfydearest2.
castfox 3.
fox-rachel4.
ceresbaistat5.
taylee6.
inkypawprint7.
8.
9.
10.
(Thanks to
felisrandomis for the concept!) Art or Treat!
Posted 8 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8441480/ Read more about it here!
Keep an eye out for my Light's On journal if you want some silly sketches!
Keep an eye out for my Light's On journal if you want some silly sketches!
A List of Goals
Posted 8 years ago1) Move tf out! This is at the top because it is the most important and the one that costs the most (around $10,000, give or take a couple thousand) I have people in mind?? but like gotta save up first ya know?
2) Get more than 10 likes on my drawings CONSISTANTLY. I'm going to be drawing a loooot more to make this happen but when it does I will actually cry.
3) Do 1 commission every couple months. Again, improvement through more art all the time.
4) Get myself enough money to buy a fursuit head for Cake. I just wanna do dance competitions and try that out. dance is good but I wanna do it like...anonymously? I don't wanna embarrass myself.
And obviously "be happy with what I have" is obvious but I didn't know where to put it in the list.
2) Get more than 10 likes on my drawings CONSISTANTLY. I'm going to be drawing a loooot more to make this happen but when it does I will actually cry.
3) Do 1 commission every couple months. Again, improvement through more art all the time.
4) Get myself enough money to buy a fursuit head for Cake. I just wanna do dance competitions and try that out. dance is good but I wanna do it like...anonymously? I don't wanna embarrass myself.
And obviously "be happy with what I have" is obvious but I didn't know where to put it in the list.
A Realization
Posted 8 years agoI've been doing a lot of thinking about my art an what it means to me, as well as the way I conduct myself on here. I've pestered my friends for things that were really inappropriate ("why won't you buy my commissions *whiiiine*?) and I used to be sorry but I didn't really see it as my fault. I'm only 20 and I've got a LOT of growing up to do still, but I realized that I don't need commissions. While it would be nice, my friends need to take care of themselves first. Food is a heck of a lot more important than "supporting" your friends and art in general. The fact that I used to post so often and whine so much is just a testament to how immature I was. There's a lot of growing pains going on right now, but I'm growing and I think that's what matters. So I honestly want to apologize to those I've harassed. It was really rude and scummy of me and I'm sorry. I'm not gonna make excuses about meds or my mental health in general because it doesn't excuse what I did. I know I'm probably making this a bigger deal than it actually is; HOWEVER, I'm really trying to show that I know I messed up and you're gonna start seeing a very different Cookie from now on. I'm only gonna post YCH reminders once a day, maybe once every two days. I'm not gonna post commission reminders. I'm going to focus on art for the sake of doing art. I'm gonna do some experimentation with art styles and lines and shading. It's gonna look messy as heck, but I'm gonna do it because I can't grow unless I try new things.
Getting a job has really helped me gain confidence in myself. I'm doing things that I never would've done 4 months ago. I'm starting to finally understand myself and figure out who I am and what I mean to myself. Yeah, my art isn't the best, but everyone has to start somewhere, and I'm a lot better than I used to be. My lines are clean, my shading actually has a purpose now, and I'm so much better at coloring! I'm proud of myself and how far I've come, and I guess I'm saying this for myself. I never thought I'd feel this way about myself, and honestly I'm crying a little because I'm so happy.
For once, very little actually sucks about my life, and I'm thankful to everyone I know.
Getting a job has really helped me gain confidence in myself. I'm doing things that I never would've done 4 months ago. I'm starting to finally understand myself and figure out who I am and what I mean to myself. Yeah, my art isn't the best, but everyone has to start somewhere, and I'm a lot better than I used to be. My lines are clean, my shading actually has a purpose now, and I'm so much better at coloring! I'm proud of myself and how far I've come, and I guess I'm saying this for myself. I never thought I'd feel this way about myself, and honestly I'm crying a little because I'm so happy.
For once, very little actually sucks about my life, and I'm thankful to everyone I know.
ART FIGHT 2017
Posted 8 years agoSo I heard about this Art Fight thing through Furry Amino, and decided that it was a good way to get in some drawing practice!
http://artfight.net/~CookieTheCat
I highly encourage you join! http://artfight.net/
http://artfight.net/~CookieTheCat
I highly encourage you join! http://artfight.net/
COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN AGAIN!
Posted 8 years agoYes you heard that right; I'm 100% OPEN for commissions again! They're a little different from the past stuff I've done, so if you wanna know more, please go HERE!
I've been struggling with rent and junk, which is causing me to stress so much more than normal, so I'm trying to supplement my job with small art projects so I can buy some fun things and be able to relax a little. It'd mean the WORLD to me if you could boost this!
I've been struggling with rent and junk, which is causing me to stress so much more than normal, so I'm trying to supplement my job with small art projects so I can buy some fun things and be able to relax a little. It'd mean the WORLD to me if you could boost this!
New Accounts
Posted 8 years agoSofurry: cookiedacat.sofurry.com
Deviantart: babykiwisart.deviantart.com/
Furry Network: beta.furrynetwork.com/cookiedacat/
Weasyl: ~www.weasyl.com/~cookiedacat
WOW LOOK AT ALL THIS STUFF that's not done yet. They'll be updated and stuff within the next week or so... Not feeling great.
Deviantart: babykiwisart.deviantart.com/
Furry Network: beta.furrynetwork.com/cookiedacat/
Weasyl: ~www.weasyl.com/~cookiedacat
WOW LOOK AT ALL THIS STUFF that's not done yet. They'll be updated and stuff within the next week or so... Not feeling great.
Hello! Yes, am back.
Posted 8 years agoGot to talk with parents today with therapist lady. It went well and I got my computer back so yay! +100 happiness. Will be posting some stuff soon hopefully cuz heck I have so many things I wanna do and I missed 2 friend's birthdays and hhhhhhheck that's no good. Commissions and stuff are still closed until further notice :3c
On Commissions and My Situation: An Explanation
Posted 8 years agoAs of today, commissions are closed. I know what it says on my page but they're closed rn. Requests and trades are closed too. Why? I don't have my computer. The landlords i begrudgingly call my parents have decided that, despite already talking at me about this, since I'm not doing "my part" in the house, I can't have nice things. Despite me paying to live here and utilities and my phone and car among other things. So I'm basically unable to do anything except post journal updates and reply to notes. Friends have been helping me try to find a really cheap apartment, but I'd still probably need a roommate just so I don't have to scrape by. If I could get out of my situation today, I would, but I can't. The keyboard and power cable for my computer will be held by my male landlord until I "prove myself".
In terms of my mental health, work has been stressful and even though I know it's out of my control, the fact that they're cutting everyone's hours seems like my fault. That's causing my depression to flare up, so I sleep more. Despite me explaining this to them, they are unwilling to understand and are punishing me for napping for an hour or two some days (maybe most days, but not every day). So I'm stressed because things are tense at home, tense at work, and I'm worried about my best friend cuz his roommate, my boyfriend, moved out. Everything is either triggering my depression or anxiety and honestly I tried to get in with my therapist last week but she was gone and booked for all the times I was available. I see her tomorrow at 10am, which I guess is good but it's only like an hour appointment and idk if I'm gonna survive it or be able to tell her all of the things that are bothering me. I have a list but I'm still worried. +10 anxiety.
I understand that yes I haven't been doing all the things I signed I would do in my lease agreement, but they talked to me and I've been doing better this week. Apparently, better within a week is not enough improvement for these people, and therefore punishment. I'm angry and scared and constantly on the verge of tears, and my relationships with everyone are suffering. I feel like I'm just burdening my friends with my problems at this point and it doesn't feel good. Juju and I have been fighting a lot recently and I feel like it's both of our faults but especially mine. I'm more irritable than normal and it's frustrating to both of us.
If you actually read all this, hey thanks. It's a lot and I'm glad you care. Sorry if anyone wanted trades or commissions from me; it's gonna be a while. I'll post something tomorrow regarding how my therapy went and how the situation progresses from there. I love all of you for reading this far and I really appreciate the watches and favorites and stuff. And posting the art I give you; it means the absolute world to me.
Talk soon,
Cookie <3
In terms of my mental health, work has been stressful and even though I know it's out of my control, the fact that they're cutting everyone's hours seems like my fault. That's causing my depression to flare up, so I sleep more. Despite me explaining this to them, they are unwilling to understand and are punishing me for napping for an hour or two some days (maybe most days, but not every day). So I'm stressed because things are tense at home, tense at work, and I'm worried about my best friend cuz his roommate, my boyfriend, moved out. Everything is either triggering my depression or anxiety and honestly I tried to get in with my therapist last week but she was gone and booked for all the times I was available. I see her tomorrow at 10am, which I guess is good but it's only like an hour appointment and idk if I'm gonna survive it or be able to tell her all of the things that are bothering me. I have a list but I'm still worried. +10 anxiety.
I understand that yes I haven't been doing all the things I signed I would do in my lease agreement, but they talked to me and I've been doing better this week. Apparently, better within a week is not enough improvement for these people, and therefore punishment. I'm angry and scared and constantly on the verge of tears, and my relationships with everyone are suffering. I feel like I'm just burdening my friends with my problems at this point and it doesn't feel good. Juju and I have been fighting a lot recently and I feel like it's both of our faults but especially mine. I'm more irritable than normal and it's frustrating to both of us.
If you actually read all this, hey thanks. It's a lot and I'm glad you care. Sorry if anyone wanted trades or commissions from me; it's gonna be a while. I'll post something tomorrow regarding how my therapy went and how the situation progresses from there. I love all of you for reading this far and I really appreciate the watches and favorites and stuff. And posting the art I give you; it means the absolute world to me.
Talk soon,
Cookie <3
Birthday or Whatever
Posted 8 years agoIt was my birthday a couple days ago and I spent it hanging out with a bunch of nice people. Also spent it with a UTI after getting laid for the first time in months -____- so that happened.
Anyways it's been 2 decades since I was born, and things have definitely not been perfect, but I hope at least the next year is at least good.
Anyways it's been 2 decades since I was born, and things have definitely not been perfect, but I hope at least the next year is at least good.
Wanna talk? [telegram]
Posted 8 years agoI'm bored and too worried about bothering my friends to talk to me, so if anyone wants to talk I'm down. My telegram is: CookusvonFlaumig
(I've got work from 6:30-10:30 PST tonight (in about 3 hours of this journal going up) so if I don't respond, that's why :3
(I've got work from 6:30-10:30 PST tonight (in about 3 hours of this journal going up) so if I don't respond, that's why :3
Something
Posted 8 years agoI literally cannot stand it when I'm told I get to be my own person and then I'm babied by those same people. I keep getting told what to and not to do and it's like... can't I figure it out on my own?? They keep making me pick up shifts and then she got mad at me because I picked up a shift because I felt like I had to say yes. It's not my fault you raised me like this??? My whole body hurts because I'm not used to working and I'm exhausted all the time and I'm so fucking angry at myself. I'm starting to hate everything I draw again. Getting paid is good but not when it's not something you wanna do for the rest of your life; especially if they're just gonna take it all away. Rent is $500 and then another $300 for phone and utilities and car insurance. I'm honestly thinking about just living out of my car somewhere far away because I cannot live here much longer. They're trying to be nice to me but I'm so stressed about barely making rent and everything else like I'm drifting away from all my friends and I just feel so alone and everything hurts. They told me that I'd make friends at my job, but so far I have maybe 2 and I don't really even know them? I mean it's only been a couple weeks, it'll get better right? Right? Sometimes I don't think so. I want to die, and I know that's gonna be hard for some of you to read but it's the truth. I'm unhappy and I keep messing up at work and I keep thinking "maybe I'd be better off dead. No one would care about me until I was dead, and then time would pass and everyone would forget again." Everything just fucking hurts and I'm sorry. Maybe I shouldn't post this shit here but I guess this is a cry for help more than anything. Honestly, the person on amino who commissioned me and my boyfriend and his aussie friend are the only ones who actively seek out my attention. Everyone else I feel like I'm annoying, even the person I thought was my best friend; I'm honestly not sure anymore at this point. I don't mean to be passive aggressive so if I come off that way I'm really sorry.
God, everything always comes back to that with me, doesn't it? "I'm sorry"? I think that's the thing I hate most about myself; being so worried about hurting someone else that I actively sabotage myself. My anxiety is through the roof and at this point meds can't do anything. I've tried sleeping/relaxing like how my therapists have all told me but I can't just go outside for a few minutes at my job; work requires work. And I get it, but that doesn't mean it's not hard.
Everything hurts again.
God, everything always comes back to that with me, doesn't it? "I'm sorry"? I think that's the thing I hate most about myself; being so worried about hurting someone else that I actively sabotage myself. My anxiety is through the roof and at this point meds can't do anything. I've tried sleeping/relaxing like how my therapists have all told me but I can't just go outside for a few minutes at my job; work requires work. And I get it, but that doesn't mean it's not hard.
Everything hurts again.
COMMISSION SALE INFORMATION!
Posted 8 years agoWelcome to the Long Version of my sale! Like I said, EVERYTHING COMES IN COLOR! THERE ARE NO 'JUST LINES' ANYMORE!!!
Sketch w/color: $1 per character!!!!
Clean lines: $5 per character!!!!
Ref Sheet: $15 for SFW, $20 for NSFW!!!!
My TOS are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7930862/
Please note me if you have any questions or would like to commission me!
Sketch w/color: $1 per character!!!!
Clean lines: $5 per character!!!!
Ref Sheet: $15 for SFW, $20 for NSFW!!!!
My TOS are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7930862/
Please note me if you have any questions or would like to commission me!
COMMISSION SALE INFORMATION!
Posted 8 years agoWelcome to the Long Version of my sale! Like I said, EVERYTHING COMES IN COLOR! THERE ARE NO 'JUST LINES' ANYMORE!!!
Sketch w/color: $1 per character!!!!
Clean lines: $5 per character!!!!
Ref Sheet: $15 for SFW, $20 for NSFW!!!!
My TOS are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7930862/
Please note me if you have any questions or would like to commission me!
Sketch w/color: $1 per character!!!!
Clean lines: $5 per character!!!!
Ref Sheet: $15 for SFW, $20 for NSFW!!!!
My TOS are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7930862/
Please note me if you have any questions or would like to commission me!
Suna is now Vivir!!!
Posted 8 years agoMy dutchie has never been happy with his name, and neither have I... So WE CHANGED IT!! His design might get some slight-ish updates, but he'll mostly look exactly the same! New name, same floof baby. His folder is also changed now to say "Vivir" instead of "Suna", but his ref sheets still say Suna on them. It prolly won't be changed; but just know he's Vivir not Suna.
I chose it because I traded for him in AZ, and spanish is a language that I've always wanted to learn, and have kinda picked up on from living here in CA. It's a really beautiful language... Oh heck all languages are beautiful...
Anyways, Vivir is the conjugated version of "to live" and I liked the sound of it. I really like it a lot, and so does my sweet floof baby.
Go ahead and lemme know what you think about his new name! :3c
I chose it because I traded for him in AZ, and spanish is a language that I've always wanted to learn, and have kinda picked up on from living here in CA. It's a really beautiful language... Oh heck all languages are beautiful...
Anyways, Vivir is the conjugated version of "to live" and I liked the sound of it. I really like it a lot, and so does my sweet floof baby.
Go ahead and lemme know what you think about his new name! :3c
Update!
Posted 8 years agoHey! sorry for lack of art; been busy with Disney training classes and stuff... Will post asap...... whenever that happens to be..
Relationship Meme (aka: I get mushy)
Posted 9 years agoI got this from 
and I thought it was really cute and I wanted to do it too :3c
1) What's their name?
Josh
possiblyhuman
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
Mostly all the time, yes.
4) How old is the person?
He's almost 20
5) Has/have he/she/they ever cooked for you?
Lol no #collegelyfe
6) Is this person the same age as you?
Roughly yes
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
So many times
8.) Have you ever laughed for longer than 2 minutes?
Yes!
10) Are you really close to them?
Soooooo close
11) Nicknames?
Babe, love, sweetie
12) Do they have a nickname for you?
Baby girl, Kitten
13) Have you and this person been outside the country?
Not together noh
14) Do you think they will repost this?
Eh, maybe (I hope so lol)
15) Could you live with this person?
I'd be doing that right now if i could.
16) Why did you pick this person?
He was nice and we just sorta clicked after meeting each other. It just sorta...happened.
17) How long have you known this person?
A little over a year :3c
18) What's your favorite thing to do with this person?
Play video games, do arts, talk about different things, smooch a lot, hug, do the sex thing *blush*
19) Can you name one favorite memory with this person?
When we kissed for the first time (for real, cuz the first few times didnt count XD)
20) Have you ever joint bought something?
We moreso buy things for each other. He's bought me video games, I've bought him hella food (and condoms)
21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
I miss him every waking moment...
22) Have you ever written a song with this person?
Lol no I just sing stupid songs with him :P
23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
...I'm not gonna say. You might be able to get it out of him tho... ;3c
24) How many piercings does this person have?
0
25) Would you date this person's siblings?
Lol no?
26) Have you ever made something with this person?
We've made gingerbread houses together :3
27) Have you ever cried with this person?
I cry a lot, and he's like the only person I can cry comfortably around.
28) Have you and this person ever got into a fight?
Yes, but we realize that it's dumb pretty quickly and fix it.
29) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?.
No but I wish! XD
30) Write something only they will understand.
(we couldn't think of anything...)
31) What's something special you share?
Our connection to each other on a deep spiritual level.
32) What's the nicest thing they've ever given you?
He's bought me so many things but the digital painting he gave me for my birthday last year was the best cuz he worked SO hard on it and I cried...
33) Have you ever worn this person's clothes?
I take his shirts and pj pants all the time. Also have a couple pairs of his boxers.
34) What's this person's favorite food?
A burger with bbq sauce, jalapenos and bacon.
35) If it was "freaky Friday" would you switch bodies with this person?
Hell yes! I'd get to be tall for once >:3c
36) Have you ever heard this person sing?
Yes lol
37) Do you and this person frequently get drunk?
No, I don't drink.
38) Have you ever stolen anything from this person?
Not without his knowing, so it's not really "stealing" I guess...
39) Have you ever gone dancing with this person?
yesh o3o!!! I love dancing with him
40) If this person were a color, what would they be?
Bluish green.
41) Whens the next time you will see this person?
Lord knows when...
42) Does this person have brothers and/or sisters?
Yes. Too many lol XD
43) If you could spend a day anywhere in the world with this person, where would you go?
Fuck, wherever he is tbh. Maybe Hawaii cuz it's so pretty there uwu
44) What are you looking forward to be doing with this person?
Seeing him and giving him lots of kisses and snuggles. (also maybe moving in together wayyyyy down the line...)
45) What makes this person feel happy?
Me! And playing video games with his friends and brothers.
46) Do you and this person talk a lot?
All day every day.
47) Can you describe this person in one word?
Passionate
48) If you were to make a film of this person's life, what would you call it?
Probs something artsy like "Awake"
49) Do you want to go out with this person?
Hell yea
50) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
Yes please holy shit
51) What are your names?
Kiera and Josh
53) Cool! What are your favorite colors?
Mine: Aqua
His: White, Black, Blue
54) What's your song?
"What does the fox say"-Ylvis
55) What is your movie?
Fucking probably Dr. Strange, aka Magic Bullshit: The Movie
56) What is an accessory you both wear all the time?
We both have rings (not matching, but significant to each of us)
57) How long have you been together?
A little over a year.
58) What are your favorite animals?
Literally all of them
59) Okkkkk, What are your hobbies?
Drawing, 3D modeling, video games
60) Do you own any pets together?
Hopefully someday :3c
61) What's your favorite books?
Gregor the Overlander (all of them)
62) Favorite bands?
Yes (they vary)
63) Are you in love?
Yes
64) Where was your first kiss?
The first real one was in my car after our first "real" date.
65) How you you hold hands? Entwined fingers or non?
Depends honestly.
66) Anything unique about your relationship?
We're linked somehow; through souls or something, but I can feel what he's feeling and vice versa.
67) Can you guys sing?
...We like to sing, does that count? XD
68) Dance?
I can, he can't but I wanna teach him soooo bad!
This was sooooooooo much fun! Y'all can do it too! :3c
and I thought it was really cute and I wanted to do it too :3c1) What's their name?
Josh
possiblyhuman 3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
Mostly all the time, yes.
4) How old is the person?
He's almost 20
5) Has/have he/she/they ever cooked for you?
Lol no #collegelyfe
6) Is this person the same age as you?
Roughly yes
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
So many times
8.) Have you ever laughed for longer than 2 minutes?
Yes!
10) Are you really close to them?
Soooooo close
11) Nicknames?
Babe, love, sweetie
12) Do they have a nickname for you?
Baby girl, Kitten
13) Have you and this person been outside the country?
Not together noh
14) Do you think they will repost this?
Eh, maybe (I hope so lol)
15) Could you live with this person?
I'd be doing that right now if i could.
16) Why did you pick this person?
He was nice and we just sorta clicked after meeting each other. It just sorta...happened.
17) How long have you known this person?
A little over a year :3c
18) What's your favorite thing to do with this person?
Play video games, do arts, talk about different things, smooch a lot, hug, do the sex thing *blush*
19) Can you name one favorite memory with this person?
When we kissed for the first time (for real, cuz the first few times didnt count XD)
20) Have you ever joint bought something?
We moreso buy things for each other. He's bought me video games, I've bought him hella food (and condoms)
21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
I miss him every waking moment...
22) Have you ever written a song with this person?
Lol no I just sing stupid songs with him :P
23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
...I'm not gonna say. You might be able to get it out of him tho... ;3c
24) How many piercings does this person have?
0
25) Would you date this person's siblings?
Lol no?
26) Have you ever made something with this person?
We've made gingerbread houses together :3
27) Have you ever cried with this person?
I cry a lot, and he's like the only person I can cry comfortably around.
28) Have you and this person ever got into a fight?
Yes, but we realize that it's dumb pretty quickly and fix it.
29) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?.
No but I wish! XD
30) Write something only they will understand.
(we couldn't think of anything...)
31) What's something special you share?
Our connection to each other on a deep spiritual level.
32) What's the nicest thing they've ever given you?
He's bought me so many things but the digital painting he gave me for my birthday last year was the best cuz he worked SO hard on it and I cried...
33) Have you ever worn this person's clothes?
I take his shirts and pj pants all the time. Also have a couple pairs of his boxers.
34) What's this person's favorite food?
A burger with bbq sauce, jalapenos and bacon.
35) If it was "freaky Friday" would you switch bodies with this person?
Hell yes! I'd get to be tall for once >:3c
36) Have you ever heard this person sing?
Yes lol
37) Do you and this person frequently get drunk?
No, I don't drink.
38) Have you ever stolen anything from this person?
Not without his knowing, so it's not really "stealing" I guess...
39) Have you ever gone dancing with this person?
yesh o3o!!! I love dancing with him
40) If this person were a color, what would they be?
Bluish green.
41) Whens the next time you will see this person?
Lord knows when...
42) Does this person have brothers and/or sisters?
Yes. Too many lol XD
43) If you could spend a day anywhere in the world with this person, where would you go?
Fuck, wherever he is tbh. Maybe Hawaii cuz it's so pretty there uwu
44) What are you looking forward to be doing with this person?
Seeing him and giving him lots of kisses and snuggles. (also maybe moving in together wayyyyy down the line...)
45) What makes this person feel happy?
Me! And playing video games with his friends and brothers.
46) Do you and this person talk a lot?
All day every day.
47) Can you describe this person in one word?
Passionate
48) If you were to make a film of this person's life, what would you call it?
Probs something artsy like "Awake"
49) Do you want to go out with this person?
Hell yea
50) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
Yes please holy shit
51) What are your names?
Kiera and Josh
53) Cool! What are your favorite colors?
Mine: Aqua
His: White, Black, Blue
54) What's your song?
"What does the fox say"-Ylvis
55) What is your movie?
Fucking probably Dr. Strange, aka Magic Bullshit: The Movie
56) What is an accessory you both wear all the time?
We both have rings (not matching, but significant to each of us)
57) How long have you been together?
A little over a year.
58) What are your favorite animals?
Literally all of them
59) Okkkkk, What are your hobbies?
Drawing, 3D modeling, video games
60) Do you own any pets together?
Hopefully someday :3c
61) What's your favorite books?
Gregor the Overlander (all of them)
62) Favorite bands?
Yes (they vary)
63) Are you in love?
Yes
64) Where was your first kiss?
The first real one was in my car after our first "real" date.
65) How you you hold hands? Entwined fingers or non?
Depends honestly.
66) Anything unique about your relationship?
We're linked somehow; through souls or something, but I can feel what he's feeling and vice versa.
67) Can you guys sing?
...We like to sing, does that count? XD
68) Dance?
I can, he can't but I wanna teach him soooo bad!
This was sooooooooo much fun! Y'all can do it too! :3c
A Bio Thing for Me and Cookie alike
Posted 9 years agoI thought this would be a fun little thing to do or whatever. This is for both Cookie and IRL me, cuz we're both mostly the same I think.
Name: Cookie
Age: 19, 20 in April
Sex: Female
Species: Ragdoll Cat
Height: 5'7'
Weight: 160
Appearance:
- Hair and fur: Light brown with grey and white markings
- Markings: Grey cookie-shaped marking on her left eye, http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21754510/ for more info
- Eye color: Aqua
- Other features: Poof of fur on forehead that starts on the top of her head and swoops down to above her eyes.
Behavior and Personality: Kind, tries her best to fix everything even if they aren't her fault.
Skills: Drawing
Weaknesses: Anxiety
Likes: Soft things, sweets, sex
Dislikes: Blood, other people hurting
Clothing/Personal Style: Varies between very revealing to very casual and conservative. She wears what she feels like.
Picture: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21754510/
Goal: To make enough money to raise a family well.
Profession: Student
Personal quote: "Why are you like this?"-me
Theme song: Starships-Nicki Minaj
Birthdate: 4/22
Star sign: Taurus
Favorite food: Pineapple pizza
Favorite drink: Lemonade
Favorite location: Home, wherever that is
Favorite weather: Slightly overcast
Favorite color: Aqua
Least liked food: Onions
Least liked drink: Anything super bubbly or bitter
Least liked location: Anywhere without water
Least liked weather: Unbearable heat
Favorite person: My boyfriend, Juju
Least liked person: Idk probably Hitler?
Friends: possiblyhuman 
ichiro-hiroyuki 
felicitytor
Enemies: Hopefully none??
Significant other: possiblyhuman (I love him so much)
Orientation: Bisexual
Name: Cookie
Age: 19, 20 in April
Sex: Female
Species: Ragdoll Cat
Height: 5'7'
Weight: 160
Appearance:
- Hair and fur: Light brown with grey and white markings
- Markings: Grey cookie-shaped marking on her left eye, http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21754510/ for more info
- Eye color: Aqua
- Other features: Poof of fur on forehead that starts on the top of her head and swoops down to above her eyes.
Behavior and Personality: Kind, tries her best to fix everything even if they aren't her fault.
Skills: Drawing
Weaknesses: Anxiety
Likes: Soft things, sweets, sex
Dislikes: Blood, other people hurting
Clothing/Personal Style: Varies between very revealing to very casual and conservative. She wears what she feels like.
Picture: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21754510/
Goal: To make enough money to raise a family well.
Profession: Student
Personal quote: "Why are you like this?"-me
Theme song: Starships-Nicki Minaj
Birthdate: 4/22
Star sign: Taurus
Favorite food: Pineapple pizza
Favorite drink: Lemonade
Favorite location: Home, wherever that is
Favorite weather: Slightly overcast
Favorite color: Aqua
Least liked food: Onions
Least liked drink: Anything super bubbly or bitter
Least liked location: Anywhere without water
Least liked weather: Unbearable heat
Favorite person: My boyfriend, Juju
Least liked person: Idk probably Hitler?
Friends:
possiblyhuman 
ichiro-hiroyuki 
felicitytor Enemies: Hopefully none??
Significant other:
possiblyhuman (I love him so much)Orientation: Bisexual
Commission Info! [OPEN]
Posted 9 years agoYou can find a handy-dandy price sheet here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23843890/ Terms of Service:By commissioning me, you agree to the following terms:
-The art is mine, the characters are yours. (Duh)
-Payment must be made before I start working on your piece. This ensures you actually have the money and I'm not wasting my time.
-Do not edit the commission unless otherwise agreed upon.
-You can post it wherever you want, as long as you give me credit.
I do not draw:
-Gore
-Scat/Piss
-Vore
-Rape
-Heavy Bondage (Cuz I'm not good at it yet)
-Hyper
-Anything I don't want to
I have the right to decline any commission for any reason. If I need to stop your commission for any reason after the initial sketch phase, I will refund you 80%. After that, I do not offer refunds. I provide many examples of my art, so you should know what you're getting from the beginning.
If your character is especially complex, expect an extra charge of anywhere from $1-$4, depending on the type of commission and complexity of character.
I have the right to change these ToS at any time, as often as I want.
I look forward to working with you! :3c
Everything Sucks, Except When it Doen't
Posted 9 years agoPls excuse the babbling you don't gotta read this if you don't want to. I'm trying, and I need you to believe me. I am trying. Trying is all I seem to be doing these days, but I am trying. I'm trying to do my work, to take my medicine, to be a friend, and to not die. Trying is hard sometimes but I am trying. The meds don't work so I don't take them anymore. Plus, I ran out of muns to get them and didn't want to ask my parent's for more.
Mom said yes to helping fund my fursuit, but she didn't ask dad first so it's a no now. I now have to contact the maker and be like "Hey sorry I can't do this anymore".
I asked to take a semester off but I can't do that either because mom doesn't like the idea of me being here and not going to school. I told her it'd be so I could work and maybe get some experience or whatever but nope if I want to do that I have to come home. She specifically acts like she doesn't want me away. Well mom, it's been a year. I have a family here that actually understands what is happening. They don't yell at me here. They don't yell at me. THEY DON'T YELL AT ME HERE. They're better to me then you ever have been and the only reason I'm still talking to you is because I need money to go to college. I love it here and I can't go home but if my parents keep acting the way they do, I'm gonna feel pressured to go home. I'm pressured to go home to make THEM happier. Not me. Because her life is so hard without me. Because my sister is being mean to her. Maybe it's because she's learning to not take your shit anymore. It's better than I did.
The depression/anxiety cocktail has only become more saturated in my brain and I can't stop it. I need different meds but I'm scared to go to a doctor. Scared to cry in front of them. I can't cry in front of the one I love most because I'm too scared because mom told me to stop crying all the time. Crying in public is embarrassing to your mother and everyone else; you don't want to be an embarrassment, do you?
No. No I don't. But I feel like I am.
