So it is looking like this move in May is going to be harder then I thought. I won't find out until at least June if I have been accepted for disability or not (plus time for appeal if declined). So I really need to save a good amount to live off until that change is made.

My starting goal is $2000. I would like to reach $3000 because I may have to fight an appeal to get the change made and I need to make sure I can afford to eat until then.

This will also be covering moving costs, internet set up, and any other adjustments that may be needed.

If I reach at least $2000 (from commissions etc.) I will post the uncensored version of this piece: www.furaffinity.net/view/18358032/
as well as hold a bonus raffle for a hip length bust done by me by anyone who helped out of a character of their choice.

So now is the time to get your commissions in. I am slowly hacking through things about as quick as I get them. Also hoping to have some adopts out this week (yes they count to the raffle) and maybe try another YCH soon with a character of my own (still deciding).

Everyone who helps between now and my move on May 1st will be added to the raffle for each purchase or donation made for a bonus piece of art from me as a thank you during this stressful time.

For the raffle here is a recap of how you can get an entry:
- stream commissions
- donations
- patreon
- commissions
- adopts
- YCH's

If I reach $2000 I will hold another raffle at $3000, so there is potential for 2 busts. The amount goal is so high because I will have to live off this money for a few months for food etc as well as bills outside of rent. Welfare will only give me enough for rent if I take out of the living expenses so I have to make that back. Also last month's rent for the new place isn't covered by them. So I need the help.

Funding Progress

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I am still open for commissions. I am 1/4 to my goal for saving for my move in May. All donations and income from commissions go towards saving for the emergency that my financial aid isn't settled in time since I have no choice in this move. I need to be ready for rent and moving costs so please, commission me, everyone who has so far save 2 have their sketches already approved and I should have most of them finished in the next couple weeks depending how much worse this cold gets. I am back to back commissions right now, and streaming. Every bit helps. this is really important. I wouldn't keep banging pots about this but I am really worried I won't make it. So very stressed about this.

To those who have already commissioned, thank you. I hope to have more done by the end of the week. Thanks for your patience.

Details are here: http://sketchnomancer.tumblr.com/po.....e-this-through

Happy New Year! I have a very positive feeling about the year to come, I am sure it will have its more stressful moments as I am still in a transitional period in life but I feel resolved to face them with a straight back and a strong heart. You might even say with....determination?

Bad references aside I have a lot planned for the next year, lots I am really hoping to tackle. My comic being the big one, it is already in the works but as it is in the plot stages there is nothing to show. I am hoping to change that before 2017. I also want to hopefully have the alpha of my first book written by the end of the year.

My biggest resolution is to stress less and let things be. I want to post more and learn to love my art again.

Now for the audience participation.
I've noticed my streams are pretty quiet as of late. Is there a better time to be running them? Typically it is after 6pm EST that I do them during the week.
Where do you think I can improve? Do you have an particular criticism I should address? Things you want to see more of; like themes or adopts etc. that I have done in the past and you miss? Mostly just trying to get an idea to structure things better.

Thanks for your support and responses in advance.

I am open for commissions!
I also have a Patreon!

Every bit helps keep me going and afloat as I chase these crazy dreams of mine. If you cannot help directly spread the word, that is just as helpful. Leave comments, I love to hear from you.

Things have calmed down a bit here, we still need to talk but we are putting that on hold until after the holidays. Looks like things are back to me leaving in May as originally agreed but nothing is in stone until the talk I suppose. My heart finally slowed to normal at least. See what time brings.

Well looks like I have to find a new place. AGAIN. I have to be out by February 1st. Problem is I do not have the money to be paying rent higher then what I had here. And it is unlikely I will find a place by myself in the pricerange of what I get.

So that means I have to throw my money that goes to feeding me and my cat into the mix to pay rent every month. IF I can find a place during the holiday season...and the new year...which is...going to be fun.

YAY MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS!

Oh geez its been a month so far. Just so much going on.

Working towards getting on ODSP for various reasons. Stared on a new anxiety medication which is making me really spacey and tired. Things have been quiet on the commission front (due to holidays I am sure) so I have been using the time to work on my Pathfinder module...and trying to get my comic going. Just still learning how it comes together/ Deciding on plot.

Ugh I am so sleepy, I think part of it is my weird sleep schedule but I find myself drifting off a lot in thought or forgetting what I am doing. Or just struggling to feel awake, it's not like drugged dozing off like my last meds I used to take but I find I am napping a lot to get functional.


Ugh. Yeah things have been weird.

Also it looks like I will need to figure out a move around May or so. Not 100% on what the situation is yet but if ODSP goes through then maybe I can get help there. Or at least I have a better idea of what I am able to do.

Taking all categories of commissions, first come first serve. To make sure things keep moving, if I haven't received payment in 24 hours (unless previously agreed) then you will go on a wait list. Let me know if this is going to be an issue in the note sent.

Note me the following (copy past as a form if you like):

Email: (for sketch approval)
Type of commission: (sketch, full color etc)
Refs of characters: (just relevant to commission type please)
Description:
Paypal Name: (So i can crosscheck payments have come in, I just need who itll be from)

Remember all holiday themed or gifts for others get $5 off!

If you cannot commission me please plug or link this journal, if you miss the queue (which I doubt) no worries I will be contacting any overflow as spaces open up. Sale details are in the link above.

Streams should be starting around 6pm every week day. Watch for submission going up or check out picarto.tv/cooper around that time. I will be taking listed (in commission info area on stream) commission types on site.

Slots:
1] - monochrome - laying color
2] - full color pinup - paid
3]
4]
5]

I will be on a break starting November 6th and will return probably November 16th. I will not be taking commissions between those dates.

The 7th to 8th is the Extra Life charity event.
I will be taking part. I will be accepting donations here! Even a dollar donated helps!
All money goes to aid sick children to get the medical help they need.

My twitch is here! and will be running during those times (provided I
can game and stream everything we will be playing)

I should be resurrecting my youtube during my absence as one of the projects I get to do for myself. The aim is to spend energy on things for myself so I can learn to love my art again.

I will still check messages but if you wish for commissions I will be streaming the rest of this week and after I return, otherwise once I am back (there will be a journal) you can note me if you wish to order anything.

Just putting all the info in one place.

Sooo I am waiting on approval for the last couple pieces I have to finish. Hoping to have them all wrapped up before the 6th so i have some time to stream next week. After that I am going to take week or so off. I really need some time to defuse and adjust as I have been going nonstop between commissions and other things since of the move and breakup.

I just haven't had the time to straighten out my head and I find I am getting really bitter about my art. I need some time where I am not worrying over owed work and can just work on things for myself a bit. By no means am I just gonna sit on my ass and do nothing (Save maybe a couple days for fallout 4) I just need some time to not stress over my art and fall in love with it again. Maybe work on my novel a bit.

I'm hoping to stream all next week before the Extra Life event on the weekend. Try and put some money aside for the break and towards all the things that still need sorting out. These will be all day streams where I take multiple tiers of work, listed on the stream. Basically from $25-$75!

Speaking of which November 7th to 8th is a 24 Hour game stream marathon that I will be taking part in! All proceeds go to help sick children get the medical care they need. So if you can please donate! Even a dollar can help save a life. Link and information can be found here!

People I need to finish work for:
- ink!
- on hold

Ugh ok so I have been staring at this damned blank journal for so long now. I'm dead tired as anyone who follows me on Twitter can attest to.

Saturday was the big move, I got all my shit out of my ex's place and into my new apartment that I am sharing with the lovely and .

I am still unpacking. But in the 3 days I have been at it I have made a lot of progress. I have to finish setting up my desk but at least my PC is back up and running, just gotta organize all the office stuff and knickknacks.

I am so so thankful for these two taking me in and being so patient with my pacing, mess, and uselessness as an adult. This breakup has taught me a lot about myself and how I view relationships both platonic and romantic. Truth me told I am terrified. There is a lot I do not know how to do, basic adult things others have known for years. Problem was because of anxiety and just how I grew up I was very codependent. This is a chance for me to force myself into independence and I am actually looking forward to where I will end up. The biggest thing the limited space I have now has taught me is how to let go, both in physical things, and things internally.

That said I really do need to get back on track. Money is sort of a priority right now as I have to feed myself and pay bills etc. I am currently on welfare but I want to get to a point where I do not need it anymore. I just feel like I have a lot of growing to do as an artist and as a person so the help is...well...helpful. But it really isn't enough to live on by itself and it seems to be penning be in. So I will be wanting to get back into streaming etc. soon. Hopefully now that I have more space to myself I can get more work done, and maybe even some things for myself to post more.

A big part of my struggle is my total lack of muse, I just have no interest or ideas for myself to work on lately. And I really do not want to post all my scribbly practice because its really just to keep me in the motions. I hope I can break that soon and maybe regain some love for what I do. But while I am still stressed and panicking about life and funds and adult junk I don't think that is possible. We'll see.

All in all I am really tired, not that heart weary tired I was before. Just straight physical exhaustion, once the unpacking and hauling is done that should pass. And now since I walk everywhere I should become more physically sound which may give me more energy to work with as I adjust.

Not sure on the point of this journal. Just updating you patient folks on how I am. I hope in the next while once I am back in full force I can find some way to broaden my range as an artist, learn and polish, grow out of the rut I am in and become more sound professionally. I am willing to do the work and to learn, see where that gets me.

In other news I will also probably be starting up a vlog over on youtube, I will post more about it after I get that going. It will be slow until I get more of a life all in all, but who knows. I also want to revive my gaming channel soon, just gotta decide what I want to play. Links will be forthcoming once I redo my profile etc.

That's all really. Now to go back to unpacking my desk.

Just thought I would give an update to peeps. Still open for commissions, still working on commissions. Allbeit slowly. Been battling depression off and on this month and that mixed with the anxiety and stress of prepping for the move has be pretty tapped out. I haven't been sleeping all that well either. Throw PCD and a bit of con crud in the mix and I am a cocktail of snail when it comes to getting through pics. It is going, just slow.

I am still open for more if you guys are interested. Especially my cheap (starting at $20) sketches since they help with the funk.

Queue:

Other:
1] - full color piece - paid
2] - AOB w BG - Paid
3]
4]
5]

Sketches:
1]
2]
3]
4]
5]

I am moving on October 3rd. So now is the crunch to make enough for furniture/expenses/etc. This is a reminder that I am still open for commissions. Prices are in my Commission Info. Queue is below!

EDIT: This move is not my choice, I finally found a place but I need to make sure I can cover all the eventuals, like getting pet supplies etc. I know this is kinda crunch last minute but I have been scrimping since the breakup and I still need some help to get things settled. So any help, donations or commissions, is a life saver. Thanks to those who have already contributed.

Queue:

Other:
1] - AOB w BG - sketching
2] - AOB w/o BG - Paid
3] - koopa girl - flats time!
4] - AOB w BG - Paid
5]

Sketches:
1] - 1 - Paid
2]
3]
4]
5]

I updated my prices on my price page. Due to needing to get moved for September I need to start saving money for the move, etc.
If I can make about $1000 then I will have enough for first and last, and a bed maybe. Depends how plans turn out.
Below will be a meter showing where I am at. If I can reach my goal in time I will have a bit of freedom to relax and do something fun. Still debating what that will be, I may try my hands at a freebie comic, something smutty maybe.
The big issue is that I am squatting at a friends place and I cannot work at full capacity. Namely I cannot do anything NSFW, because kids. Also the lack of my streaming PC is cutting me off from doing sketch streams. I am competing with noise/ other plans/ the people around me, but I have no choice but to open.
So as long as it is SFW hit me up with your commission requests. Queue and status of each commission is listed below.

Also for you budget savvy folks. I offer quick sketches for $20+ Something like this. Price subject to change a little based on difficulty of character, number of characters, etc. This Sale is in place until I am settled in a new place.

Current Savings: $400/$1000

Queue:

Other:
1] - Adventure Bust With BG - sketching
2] - AOB without BG - Paid
3] - koopa girl - paid
4] - AOB w BG - Paid
5]

Sketches:
1] - 2 - Pending
2] - 1 - Paid
3]
4]
5]

In the last few weeks I have managed to pull the pieces together to a manageable level of alive and I am working towards getting a place with a friend, moving on as it were. Problem is I am starting from scratch. I have little to nothing to my name. I need to save for my share of first and last, any other start up bills like insurance, internet, etc, I do not even own a bed. I will have to take care of myself from here on and I am okay with that, I am willing to do the work and I have Ontario Works (welfare) helping me out a bit for now. That being said I am not above asking for help when I am at my lowest. I do not expect it, but the faster I get up and running the sooner I will be able to get back to life and making sweet sweet furry art for you guys on a regular basis!

So I am opening up for $30 rough sketches, and Adventure or Bust!, the thigh busts will be full color $50 with no background, $75 with a background, OR $40 plain inks no background! They will be of the following themes: fantasy adventure or beach time fun! (Add half the price again for additional characters, price may vary if a character is overly complicated)

I have two commissions left to do but in my current residence I cannot finish them, they are bigger pieces and my focus is shattered by screaming children. So they are on pause until I settle into a new place.

ALSO! If I can get into a new place and such in a timely manner I will have some time for maybe streaming doodle requests! So the more help I get now the more I can give back later! I should also have some more adopts and such coming your way soon!

Note that right now I cannot offer adult work, there are minors in my work space at almost all times. Once I get my own place I can resume those.

Any questions note me, if interested also note me! Again, I do not expect any handouts but any help I can get right now will get me on my feet that much faster. (Maybe I will do something to say thank you, if I can think of something worthy sometime). Starting five at a time to keep things managable.

Queue:
Busts:
1] - With BG - Paid, Waiting approval for inks.
2]
3]
4]
5]

Sketches:
1] - Paid
2]
3]
4]
5]

As you all are aware now I am sure I am going through a breakup. That is all I am going to say on the matter. The rest is personal.

That said I am currently living on a friend's couch and have to find a place of my own. With how little I make on art as a rule that makes things harder then I would like. I went and checked with Ontario Works (Welfare) for help financially but I have to find a place and let them know what my rent cost is before they will help at all with housing. At least I have some help with day to day expenses like my medication.

I've been taking my time working on my mental health, trying to get finances settled, and making an action plan to get back into the work stream with commissions. Now that I am on my own I have a lot of work ahead of me if I am going to survive. I've seriously debated just throwing in the towel and getting any old job but with where my anxiety/depression levels are I do not think that is wise.

The biggest problem is my doctor refuses to acknowledge my mental health problems or mobility problems to get me disability, so I have to fend for myself. That said I am starting to hunt for a roommate or some other option. I don't know where I am going to live and I cannot stay here forever.

I am overly thankful for my friends helping where they can, taking me into their home in my darkest hour, but I really need to get things settled to get back to work fully (A lot of limitations with two children around).

I will be opening for more commissions once I know where things are going. I just don't have enough answers for a goal or anything right now. IDK. I am not okay.

I am debating streaming this week to get back into the swing of art. I've been so off because of all that has been going on. I really do need to get back into the swing.

Debating offering cheap, loose sketches to start and then when more warmed up I will work on some of the art I owe.

What do you guys think? Would you come out if I held streams?? Would any of you want said sketches, thinking like $20-$30, depends on the day and how rough/neat I feel I can be. Still gotta reorganize my pricing.

Probably through picarto cuz I want to try it out. Not sure yet.

Just canvasing for interest?

Let me know!

Okay so I have rewritten this journal so many times. I still do not know how to word this whole thing without it sounding like some whiny excuse.

So whatever here goes.


I have been having a lot of trouble this winter. I just have been really struggling with a lot of things; motivation, energy, sleep, health, creativity, just to name a few. This feeling where I cannot seem to make myself do anything, I pick at the things on my list but nothing ever really gets DONE, and I grow more aware that I really just do not enjoy art as much as I used to.

It recently got a bit better since sleep is starting to get more regulated and I am back into trying to get the short backlog done, it's just very slow.

For years now I have been struggling with anxiety, and a sense of insecurity. I never feel like I am "enough" whether it is good enough or smart enough etc. I started seeing a therapist when it reached a really damaging, dark place and I just felt like I couldn't keep living like this. So I am about 10 sessions in and only now am I starting to understand my head-space and the causes of those feelings.

I still struggle on the art front, if it isn't work for you guys I do not even feel like drawing, and even then I am really having a hard time keeping the energy up to get through it. Since the snow began all I have been doing pretty much is being sick, sleeping, and struggling to get through things.

I've been focusing on getting my mental health in order, because its a real thing that is standing between me and functionality and happiness. I do not know what I want out of my career, or what I want to do with my art anymore. I am trying to figure out what is just my anxiety talking and which is really things I need to work on.


I don't know I am rambling.


I'm spending time figuring out what I want, what makes ME happy. Trying to bring back some of the spark of doing my art like I used to have.

I do not believe in using the term "art block" . I could force out art, but it just wouldn't be all that it could be. I am just not motivated. I am feeling a large range of things that make me question where I am and where I am going. Things that make me question my self worth.

Therapy is helping me look at these things realistically and with a balanced perspective.

So give me some time folks, I am still trying but to be at my HAPPIEST and HEALTHIEST I need to do things in the time they need to be set right. Things are coming along more and more but really I cannot promise anything until I have more solid ground under me.

Once this list is clear (it is thankfully short) I will be opening for very small amounts of commissions. I do not get many as it is but I need to help the house how I can. At least until I have a better idea what I want to do. It will probably be a lot of gimmicky things based on what I am feeling up to.

Right idk, bye!

So MWFF was kinda nuts. I am sure by now you heard about the attack and yes me and mine are fine! We spent a good chunk of the night huddled in the convention center while the authorities figured out if it was safe to come back in. Nothing major happened to my group though a few people I care for got it worse. They are alright or so I hear so I am resting easier on the topic.

As for cons in general I think this may be my last for a while. I am still on the fence about Furnal Equinox. The people I see there I can see really any time so it isn't that important to me con-wise. I have some fun but cons are mostly business and getting in touch with distant friends for me. I have been giving it a lot of thought and I really think I may forego cons for a little while. Not that I won't miss parts of it but it just isn't financially smart for me.

Most of my problem is the income that I get back in turn, it is never worth all that I spend to go to begin with. Secondly I have a sort of underlying stress and depression that sort of taints the whole thing for me. It isn't has fun and satisfying as it used to be and it just leaves me feeling very tired and invisible.

That said I love meeting everyone and seeing people at my table. Running into old friends is also always wonderful. That is why I am not writing them off altogether I may just take some time off to work on myself and my little corner of the fandom. I think I just need to figure out where I fit and make it more profitable for myself, this is after all my job.

I am going to for now be focusing more on getting the comic off the ground and getting more things posted here for all of you lovely watchers. I am sure I will be back to cons sooner then later but I really cannot afford to force it if it just isn't working out.

I will definitely not be going to Anthrocon this year. It is too big to enjoy my time with the people I would want to see, and just not profitable enough for me to excuse the $600+ tag on me going right now [between room etc]. MWFF is always dear to me but we will see what the next year brings.

But yes, me and mine are okay. I should be starting back into my rhythm soon, just very tired.

So I have been having some real struggle with my art lately. While I still try to sketch a bit each day I am just having a bad time getting going. I just can't seem to motivate myself to work on anything. Been dealing with a lot of depression and stress lately.

With it slowly dying down I want to get back to posting more regularly but I think I need something more to do between commissions, and I think it would help if I did more art just for the fun of it.

Of what you guys have seen of my work, and the things I do for myself especially. What would you like to see more of? I have a lot of things I like drawing I guess just having some kind of prompts might help me get the ball rolling.

So feel free to make suggestions [please don't just ask for requests of your own characters] and it might give me something to work with. I feel like I sorta just poofed from the fandom and I am trying to get back on the wagon here. I just need a little help.

Is there a character of mine you want to see more of? Is there a subject or theme I have done you want me to draw more of? Just things like that.

Did you guys know I was starting a youtube gaming channel? No? Neither did I until the bug hit me recently.

Only one episode up so far but I really needed a project outside of art to relax with/ cheer myself up so I started recording let's plays. Right now I am trying for one ep a week, it depends how my pace with editing gets.

I have quite a few recorded they just need fine tuning.

Channel is HERE~!

Feel free to follow me there if you want to see my shenanigans.

So I really want to do something festive for Halloween. With September almost over and October hurtling towards us I really do want to do something to the theme.

So here is what I am offering!

Sketches!
Busts!
Chibis of all kinds!

I am taking a bit of a break from full color full pieces for now because they really wear my out but I still have to pay my bills [plus save for MFF and Christmas, I am an Aunt now yo] so this might at least give opportunity to people with a smaller budget.

Prices are here!

As for the two sitting in my queue I am still waiting on a reply on one and only now getting one for the other, I will be doing those up first but I wanted to get the journal up for people to be aware while I do!

Feel free to note me if you are interested in any of the above commission types!

I feel like I haven't written a journal in a while so I thought I would touch base with you guys a bit.

So by now you have probably noticed I am posting again. Things seem to be back on track for the most part *knocks on wood*. While my health is not at 100% [lots of doctor stuff still going on to figure out what is wrong] I have been relatively well enough to work so I am trying to get everything out that I owe before September. I would like to start the "school year" with a clean slate if I can.

I plan to do a lot more eggdoptables and maybe some normal adopts this month. I am still taking commissions just not in the mass quantity I aimed for before [not that I ever got very many at one time]. I will be trying really hard to stay on top of things better this time, all things willing, since there are no more cons and such till November. So if you like the eggs keep an eye out, I want to do more adopts to kinda cement how I will do them as I am still figuring that out.

That said feel free to note me if you want work once these last few are done, I will be posting my to do list below so that people know where I stand. I am almost always accepting work as now I have a clear amount I need to save to each month [we just redid our budget]. So I will be working my butt off to reach it so that I can be more of a financial help then I have been. I feel terrible when things are not going well, and I want to try and minimize my hand in that if I can.

I also hope to stream more and post more personal art. When it comes to the subject of personal art I am at a bit of a standstill, I am working mostly on secret comic design materials that will never get past my hard drive, stuff I can reference as I work on the actual comic itself. Which I hope to be doing soon. I just really do not know what to work on that I can post, I have very few personal ideas that I really find worth sharing. Otherwise outside work I am never really sure what to draw, beyond practice sketches anyhow, and most of those are just basic gesture work or life drawing.

As for my health, it is kind of up and down over the course of the week. It never really wants to stay in one place as far as good or bad. Lots of headaches, sinus pain, tummy trouble, and hip soreness for the most part. Heartburn and depression have been acting up as of recent but those typically are not as much of an obstacle to getting work done. I have some blood work to get done and an ultrasound to go to to see if they can figure out what is wrong. Thankfully now all my dental BS is out of the way until my next cleaning. I am just really hoping nothing to major hits that will take a toll financially, the rest works out in time.

Okay I promised an updated to do list:

To Do:
1] - Sketch - Paid
2] Anonymous - Full Color - Paid
3] - Full color - Sketched
4] Old Apollo YCH [omg I am sorry] - Sketched [I redrew it because I was not happy with it and I felt horrible it has taken so long. I must find a better way of doing these.]
5]
6]
7]
8]
9]
10]

If I missed anything someone please let me know. I want to thank you guys again for your patience this last while. The last couple years have not been overly kind to me and it's been an uphill battle to get work done as I have wanted. But things are slowly ironing out I just have to try really hard not to overburden myself all at one time, I may take things a bit slower. I have a concrete schedule now to stick to so I know how much work I owe myself each week. As long as I meet that quota I am happy and things should stay on track.

Here is to wishing for a better time of it.

I have been thinking a lot lately on how slow this account gets sometimes, I do not do a lot of art outside commissions but I would like to do more.

Anything I post you guys wanna see more of from me on my own time?

Anything you guys want to know about myself or my characters?

I guess I wanted to make this an open forum to give me your thoughts.

So have at it?

Tablet: Monoprice 8x5 inch graphic drawing tablet, 4000 LPI, 200RPS, 2048 Levels
Laptop: Alienware 14inch laptop with windows 8
Program: Manga Studio 5

So I got my new laptop and I have been trying to get used to arting on it [so I can use it when I travel or when I am away from home]

Problem is the drivers allow the tablet to move the pointer right but I have no pressure sensitivity. I might for like a minute or so when I boot up but after that I do not. [usually after the cursor lags or freezes or I change windows to something else then back]. I have tried re-installing, the company showed me alternate updated drivers which solved my calibration issues but now pressure is wonky. Rebooting the pen [this pen turns on and off with a button on it] lags out the cursor but doesn't help. Rebooting PC doesn't help for long either.

IDK if any of you have experienced similar problems at all and have solutions or what but talking to their chat does nothing, they are kind of useless. They just have you re-install and then it is the same problem minutes later.

Any advice? I would really like this to work properly.