Well I told my parents about a month ago about the “costuming” I have been doing and frankly they are not happy about it. They did the research and now they think I’m in some kind of cult. Before I told them, they were thinking I was into drugs or something, which is shocking to me that they would think I would even do that. I was totally open and honest about everything I have been doing this past 6 months which actually felt kind of good to get off my chest because I never really lied to my parents about anything before. There were few lies I had to tell them to cover up furry conventions.

So here I am thinking I’m doing some good lifting the veil of secrecy to calm my parent’s nerves but it backfired with lead to more frustration and confusion but I think I found the underlining cause of it all. It was the simple fact that I have not been home as much as I used to. So I tried to spend more time with family this past week or so and it seems to smooth things out so far. So now everything just boils down to a barrage of wolf jokes aimed at me. Also what helped is they finally realized I’m in this whole furry thing just for laughs and nothing sexual which is probably what they initially thought.

So they know about it now. They may not understand it and they think I’m out of my damn mind but at least there is no more wondering. Honestly I can’t blame them, I mean there are plenty of times when reality kicks in when I’m fursuiting and I’m thinking to myself WTF am I doing? Rest assured I am NOT leaving the fandom! These past 6 months so far I have been an absolute blast and I am having the time of my life. I have met so many interesting people and made a lot of awesome new friends. I’m not going anywhere!

RULES:
1. Put your MP3 player, iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
5. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Move Your Feet - Junior Senior (Yes, move them your stepping on mine!)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF
Sunrise - Scooter (Thats about right. Usually the first one up annoying the crap outta everybody else.)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Tumble in the Rough - Stone Temple Pilots (I'd like to tumble in her rough if ya know what I mean ;) )

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hello, Hello -Sopwith Camel (Greetings to all!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
How Much is the Fish? - Scooter (Hey, you can't wander though life without knowing how much things cost!)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Get To The Gone - Static-X (Scram, ya bother me!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Surfing with the Alien - Joe Satriani (Actually, surfing with an alien would make more sense than hanging out with me)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Homesick - Train (Maybe, since I'm never home now due to all the furry happenings.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Crystal - Stevie Nicks (Sell that shit on Ebay!)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Ass Like That - Eninem (Is that right? I dunno. I suck at math!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Until It Sleeps - Metallica (Yes, until they sleep then you'll know what I think of them. Mwa ha ha ha!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Montage -Team America:World Police (Theres no better way to tell a life story)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Paranoid - Black Sabbath (Um, yeah. I'm grown up and thats right.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Victims of the Revolution - Bad Religion (Hey! I like you! I feel sorry for you :( )

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Wynona's Big Brown Beaver - Primus (Knowing me, thats about right!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Mysterious Ways - U2 (Ha Ha! Well thats what my family and non-furry friends will think anyway.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTERESTS?
Let's Dance - David Bowie (Eh, close. I'm working on it.)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Splash Mountain Medley - WDW Splash Mountain (Hey, don't laugh! Thats a pretty big drop!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
People Are Strange - The Doors (Uh, I don't think thats a secret. Thats a fact!)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Kill - Jimmy Eat World (WOW! Don't piss off the guy wearing the dog costume.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO FOR A LIVING?
Take These Chains from My Heart - Hank Williams (Awww, my endless pursuit for a sweet girl to call my own.)

WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Heliosphan - Aphex Twin (It's really nice this time of year.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR FUTURE KIDS?
Chain Me Baby - Du-Droppers (Yup thats right! I wan't my baby to have the ability to chain me on command! Lets see your kid do that!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF SHORT PEOPLE?
December - Static-X (Sorry, they just remind me of Christmas elves. Sooo cute :) )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF TALL PEOPLE?
I Tipped My Hat - Art Lund ( I tip my hat to you good sir for your acomplishment in growing slightly larger than the rest of us.)

SONG FOR MALES:
Off the Hook - Jinx Da Juvy (Damn right! Us guys can get away with anything!)

SONG FOR FEMALES:
All These Things That I've Done - The Killers (You filthy whores! Tisk tisk!)

YOUR THEME SONG:
I'm Mean - Popeye The Movie Soundtrack (Ha ha! Wow, eh maybe somtimes)

TITLE OF THIS JOURNAL:
Voices Carry - Til Tuesday (That the title she be! Arr!)

Wow, I can't even image what my parents would do if they found out I wear fursuits. I'm getting ripped a new one just by getting my regular Halloween costume together. Its just a barrage of insults from my father while my mother is questioning my sanity. Well this is totally out of the norm for me. I really haven't done anything for Halloween in the past 4 years and they are starting to question me. Another big deal is the 4 days I'll be missing for FurFright. They are going to want to know where the hell I am. I just slipped in during a conversation that I'm going to a large 2 day Halloween party and maybe later stay at Foxwoods. That seemed to gloss over ok with them, so hopefully no more questions.

Ahh this is so frustrating! I got my new partial wolf fursuit this tuesday and I can't even wear it dammit! I got to wear it at Zero and Crays place the day I got it but now want to wear it my place. A simple thing like taking the fursuit out of the car and bringing it into the house is a major ordeal. With my work hours there is absolutely no way for me to be home and not my parents. I used to be able to bring furry stuff in and out of the house during the night because my parents slept on the backside of house but now my father sleeps at the front of the house now. Every time I step foot outside during the night he pops his head out the window and asks what I'm doing.
Why the hell does everything need a goddamn excuse in this place?! Why am I always explaining myself to my parents all the time? It could be the most stupidest little thing like getting a cd out of the car or something and they ask a million questions. Where are you going? What are you doing in the driveway? What cd is that?
My parents are not asking questions now because of all the weird hours Im gone due to the fandom, they were always like this. It just makes it so damn hard to do anything around here with out them knowing. I have absolutely no privacy! Hell I can't even bring a girl back to my place, I don't have a frigging door on my bedroom! Ahh I am so pissed right now. Why do they have to be like this. Who gives a shit what I do. I'm screwed, there is no way for me to get anything into the house now, with my dad sleeping near the window. Its like a goddamn watchtower at a prison.
This really sucks! All I wanted to do tonight was get the suit in the house, put that sucker on and stare at myself for hours in the mirror but no everything has to get all shitted up. Nights like these, I really do want to move out.

-I posted this in my LJ but it just blew my frigging mind tonight so I'm posting it here too.

Man oh man! I did it again! What am I doing?! I told someone else I was a furry today. Ahh! Now this person I told is not just a friend but someone I see every single day of my life. I told my sister! Yes, that's right, my one and only sibling. I was pulling my fur out about this. I was really on the fence on this one. From day one I didn't know if I should tell her or not. Somedays, I told myself absolutely no way and other days I almost did but chicken out. Today was the day though. Actually we just got done watching some of the footage I had from anthrocon. We didn't finish it all because she had to go somewhere but I tell ya, my frigging hands are shaking like crazy right now and I'm jittery as hell! It really is a goddamn adrenaline rush!

It all started when we were watching tv a few hours ago and they were talking about restaurants in Pittsburgh PA. I was thinking to myself "oh man, I saw that; I was there!" So I say to my sister "Can you keep a huge, huge, huge secret? It's nothing bad, but it's a bit odd and mom and dad would totally not get it and they would be all upset and pissed at me about it." So she promised not to tell anyone and we thumb sweared on it, like we were little kids or somthing. I heard of a pinky swear but never a thumb swear. She said it's better then a pinky swear because thumbs are stronger than pinkies.

So anyway, after she promised, I went and grabbed my Anthrocon 2009 shirt and I showed it to her. What she said when she saw the shirt was music to my ears. She said "That's awesome! I would have went with you." I was like holy crap, thank god she is cool with it. Then she started asking me all about the convention and I proceeded to tell her how frigging sweet it was. Then we went through the bag of goodies and all the other stuff I got from the convention. I was showing her all this crap and my hands were all shaky and what not. The real kicker is she was looking though the 3 con books I have and she was like "oh this is Blotch's work and this is so and so". She even knows a few furry artists on deviant art.

I don't know if I could consider my sister a total fur or not, but she has had quite some exposure to the fandom and knows her stuff. I don't know if I mentioned this before or not but I showed her a lot of fursuit vids on you tube. At first we did it for laughs but the more and more videos she saw I think she really started to like it. Also she is an artist herself and draws cartoon style wolves. Nothing anthro, that I know of though but her art is really good. Hmm, she did say she would like to go with me to a convention though. My god, I can't even think how nuts it would be having her at a con with me. Hell, and if she got into fursuiting, that would be like the most awesome thing ever. Can you imagine the insanity that could unfold with the two of us running around like fursuiting maniacs?

Where was I? Oh yes, so she was totally digging my Anthrocon goodies. Then I was like ok, time to take out the big guns. It's movie time! So I showed her the "everybody messing with me" video and she saw it from start to finish and she said "Where where you? I didn't see you." I pointed with mouse and I was like "that's me in the fursuit". She totally could not believe it. Now what happend next was so funny to me I lol'd right in her face.

Immediately after she discovered I was a fursuiter the first words out of her mouth were "OMG did you see JD Puppy when you were there?" I was dieing after she said that! I was like "Did I SEE him, DID I SEE HIM?! I'm frigging friends with guy and I have lunch with him!" Her jaw just dropped after that, it was so awesome. Then she asked about the furry with the slime (Tilt). And again I was like "hell yeah! I'm buds with him too! I was drinking with him at AC!" Then the next big question was "Where is the fursuit? I want to see it!" I showed her just the head and one of the feet really fast, but now she knows of the top secret fursuit location. I can totally trust her though, now that I know she is on my side of the furry fandom.

Well this whole separate furry life thing is just blowing up my face. I've got non-furry friends knowing I'm furry, my furry friends meeting my non-furry friends and now a family member knowing that I'm a furry with the potential of becoming a furry themselves. Ahh, what am I doing?! I'm breaking all my goddamn rules! I do think it was a good idea to tell her though. Now, I can talk to her about all sorts of furry stuff and were not both pretending not to know too much about the fandom. Best of all we might be able to rock fur cons together.