classic or modern

i cannot handle modern it looks so bad ngl

you still got furries uploading entirely unattractive irl feet pics to furaffinity

wow

it's been hard to work on things, I want to do big projects but that requires predictability and safety and my current situation doesn't really have that peace of mind

but I'm tired of working on augenblicken of random characters doing this or that and

honestly engagement been real low here so I'm not super invested in making stuff

but I miss making stuff exist

I'd like to try to make more things exist

im basically a grandma

call me grandma thanks

get anything i write get looked at lol

it's so tiring to have to spend twice as long on everything i do because i need to accopmany it with a doodle lol

is going, do i have a right to tell that story at all

do the moment-glimpses of a character's life form sufficient enough meaning, or is the value of a life/story determined solely by the resolution of its arc and the ultimate shape its structure makes at a distance

should i keep working on sasfsets' dumb bumbling adventures despite them not having a concrete ending--clarification, they have a projected direction and intent, but it's one that's largely about the journey and the destination isn't set, but the condition of the cars as they arrive is something i have figured out

am i spinning my fucking wheels

i keep trying but it's never satisfying anymore lol

wouldn't it be great if i created a story and kept through with it to uuthe end instead of just doing a few flashlight images of it and then never concluding it haha

wouldn't it be great if i felt relaxed enough to create antyhing at all lol

fuuck you ill fight you come fight me inthe comments

i do have my actual computer back at last

now that lowtax has been canceled is it still ok to quote doom house and say "boy, moving in sure is hard work!"

see title

leave your suggestions here! thanks

well i still have like 1/30th of everything i own here rn but moving will happen again soon anyway and THEN then i will have all my shit and be settled in but right now i am vaguely settled in so i kinda exist so you can hold me to that by whatever extent you normally can which is lol not at all

irl not fa obv

super super fucky tense stressful panic fuck fuck

so

if i'm not around excuse me i am dying fuck

the site's just been making me miserable and i got enough things to make me misreable i don't need a live feed of reasons to feel bad

so now i'm down to just FA as like the only website i'm on pretty much so enjoy

if you're here you're basically stuck at the mercy of my imagination's wandering and i don't even care

you wanna know where sasfsets' story goes? too bad i'm not in the mood for it

this isn't my job it isn't even my skill this is my escapist hobby from a frequently trash world

sometimes i wonder why i put stuff up here at all but sometimes people read the things i make and that's satisfying enough

i dont really want this to be my job i don't want creating things to be my side hussle

imagine not being allowed to have hobbies anymore becuase i'd have to hold everything to the standards of "how can i make money from this"

i have so much respect for people who can put out like brand selves and update their webcomics weekly and get their stuff published but honestly if i turned creating things into a job i'd be entirely out of things i did to satisfy myself

im not marketing myself i got over 1000 followers and im pretty sure at least 700 of those are dead accounts that aren't manned anymore

im ok with being henry darger

i dont wanna be rich and famous and have to hide every expression of my sexuality or be beholden to maintaining a marketable brand i'm not here to sell myself this is just a place where things end up and if you enjoy it that's cool

i know at least 7 secrets of reality and have achieved unity with the godhead, i am beholden to nothing and am everything

or i never knew in the first place probabably

and apparently this bug has existed since folders were introduced in 2015

like, twitter is even LESS artist friendly, so that's a no-go

weasyl is dead

i forgot sofurry even exists

inkbunny is weird

... bring back tumblr? please? that was the last bastion of the old internet and i miss it

is that okay with you

thank you for indulging my sudden desire to be horny on main as my hormones went fucking insane post surgery, however, your services in telling me i'm prey are satisfied and no longer desired

not every submission i draw requires it and i have been in fact dating people for over a year now so i'm good

you can all stop now

Sure I'm down some organs and spent the past week in pain and actual hallucinatory insanity, but I'm still here! Or I am here again

Time to go wild and--get like another two weeks of bedrest wow

10

Turns out having your organs replaced with sand is gruesome and painful

It's actually several hours away but I am on the edge of becoming inedibly efficient

This is not a typo

I will return a later time

unless something goes catastrophically wrong soon the doctors are going to take out all my organs and replace them with sand, which is more efficient

i probably won't be around much for a week or two, unless it turns out i needed all those organs, in which case i won't be around ever again

however, i have been reassured that sand is significantly more efficient than organs, so i'm pretty confident

i might draw one or two more things but after that you will be deprived of your dear delightful sasfsets, i apologize that my ability to channel realities is dependent on the function of a flesh-body rather than the eternal glory of the infinitely complex coils of my true self

it wouldn't be a problem if the rest of you were ready to shed your flesh-bodies and join me in the cosmic concordance of worlds but i'll take what i can get until then, and what i can get is sand instead of organs

because it's more efficient

i hope you are enjoying the amoral adventures of a business executive who decided to fuck off onto the ocean and slut it up and get into fight scenes rather than do real business

in the same way that indiana jones is an archeologist, sasfsets is a corporate executive

i didn't intend for this at first to be a linear story but i guess it's being roughly linear

ask me questions about sasfsets and i will answer it in character, that is your special treat for clicking this journal

it's okay, i know no one reads journals

i added more gallery folders to organize by-character for settings where there are multiple character stories going on simultaneously

you can now view what exists of sasfsets' and aleika's stories independently from one another and the main setting folder


i'm so sorry that all i do is constant in media res snippets of these people's lives

i am an archeology site, you have to dig out what pieces you can and try to connect the stories together i guess


i am the furry henry darger