Hey there everyone, how're things going?

Well, it's been quite the interesting year, but here we are, the last day of 2017... At least in this timezone XD. Heh, that's one of the things I've been running into since becoming a part of this fandom and meeting new people through it, different timezones where people are either an hour to a full day ahead or behind me. *Shrugs,* But hey, things you get used to when you make new friends ^^.

While this year wasn't the absolute best by far, I will say that it did have its moments for sure. Obviously, the most recent stand out has to be my figuring out which fursona feels the most like me, that being my lioness-patterned chakat Cloudwalker. Other than that, I would say that just getting more involved with the fandom and making new friends has been one of the more enjoyable highlights of the year, as getting to know these people and stay in contact with them has helped me through some rather rough moments in my life this last year.

With new things happening on the horizon, I have no idea of where I'll end up by this time at the end of the coming year. However, as I stand to meet 2018 on four paws instead of two, I'm content to know that come what may, I've had at least some good moments in the past 364 days.

Thanks again to everyone who's stuck with me since I came to this fandom . I appreciate all the support and advice that you've given me, and all the fun times as well. Here's to another year!

Tail high,

- Corinth Alexander Chakat Cloudwalker.

https://youtu.be/EL-VHe_4GmE

Yes, that is Mark Hamil being kidnapped by Mark Hamil and Mark Hamil, tricking them into quarreling with each other long enough to be saved by Mark Hamil, lol XP

Just something funny I stumbled on that I thought I'd share is all .

Seasons greatings, everyone ^^.

Not much to say this time, just wanted to share a little of what's been going on "behind the scenes" as it were in regrads to something I mentioned in my last journal a month ago. Heh, it's funny how things can change after hours or days of deliberation and indecision- something I've regularly struggled with in the past with things like stories, characters, etcetera. And yet, it's also amazing how going through all of that can manage to somehow make things clearer when you get to what seems like the lowest point, the absolute pit where you feel like you're getting smothered by so many idea and possibilities, so many things you want to try or see brough to light that it feels like they're swallowing you.

And then, a break comes through the clouds, letting a little bit of enlightenment in, and you realize a constant's been there all along. You feel a weight come off your shoulders, off your chest, off your mind, and you breathe a little easier as it settles in... Not a burden like before, but an overwhelming sense of familiarity, comfort, and stability. A feeling that, in the storm of your own mind, racing through the tumultuous torments of the day, you've found a place of respite, a sanctuary...

You've found "home."

And it may have taken some time to find, a couple different possibilities considered, some changes in design come and gone, but when you've finally found your place, your safe haven, and for the first time you feel like that's where you belong...

Gosh, it's an incredible feeling .

Just recently, I've come to realize, for me, Chakat Cloudwalker, my lovely lioness taur self, shi is my home. Whenever I interact with my FA friends, whether here or on Discord or wherever else we chat, shi's the form I constantly gravitate towards, the "me" that I feel the most comfortable in, the person that I wish I could be, who I retreat to and find comfort in at the end of the day.

So this Christmas, I think I've already got the best gift of all, really. Hehehe, it just took me a while to realize it I guess XD.

The gift of "home".

Like I said, just something I wanted to share, a bit of sappiness if you will :P.

Thanks for being there for me on this journey of mine, gang. I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season, however you celebrate.

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Joyous Kwanzaa, Good Yule, Spectacular Saturnalia, Agreeable Festivus, and happy holidays one and all ^^.

Tail high,

- Corinth Alexander Chakat Cloudwalker

Hey everybody, how's it going?

Heh, I know I promised to update more frequently, and I'm sorry I've been quiet these past four months- in terms of journals at least; been +Faving and commenting on and off- but there's been some interesting developments as of late that have had me distracted. That, and spending more time chatting with friends on Discord has given me something to do too XD. Not that I'm complaining mind you, I think that it's actually helped a lot mentally by having someone there to shoot the breeze with on occasion.

Good news with this update though, a couple of things actually. First, I finally got them to adjust my work schedule so that my days off are back-to-back now, instead of split up like they've been since I left college XP. Don't know why I kept my college schedule for so long after graduating, but I'm glad to be free of it now. I can finally sleep late a couple days a week without having to worry about getting up for work the next day, and this year marks the first time in eight years that I'll get to spend Thanksgiving with my family ! I'm really looking forward to it, and so is everyone else . Hehe, plus, I don't have to deal with helping set up stuff for Black Friday this year, so that's always a good thing :P.

Secondly, I may have a ray of hope in the whole job hunting ordeal. I may have the opportunity to get an Alternative Placement Certification in Teaching with my state- basically a path to receive certification if you haven't gotten a degree in Education. Nothing's set in stone just yet, I still have to take and pass two tests- one for Gen. Ed., and the other for my chosen field (i.e. English)- but if I can get that done, then all I have to do is take some courses within three years time and then take the official certification and I'll be able to apply for a teaching job!

Not sure how well this will turn out, but I have a bit of hope and I'm going to do my best to make this happen.

Really, that's all I've got to share this time around. Aside from those two big changes, nothing much has happened recently. I'm brainstorming another character/sona to play around with as far as TFTG stuff and general fun/shenanigans goes- though I'm not planning to leave Cloudwalker just yet XD. As far as Cloud's story is concerned, I've taking a bit of a break from it due to all the distractions of late, but intend to return to hir tale as soon as I'm able. I've also picked up the Fate/Grand Order game and am enjoying it as well. Don't play that much, but what I have played I'm really liking, both as a fan of the Fate franchise and a casual gamer.

Anyhow, I hope that this journal finds you all well and in good spirits. I'll try to post more regularly in the days to come as I'm able. Wish me luck on the testing front ^^. Heh, with my previous test anxiety and my crap skills with math, I get the feeling I'm gonna need it, lol XD. Until next time then, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends!

Tail high,

- Corinth Alexander.

Like the subject line says, I discovered this the other day and immediately fell in love with it, so I thought I'd share. "Beneath The Mask" is one of the best tracks in Persona 5, and set to RainyMood like this with the Kirohaze pixel from Behance creates what I'd consider to be the ideal aesthetic/mood for relaxing and unwinding after a long day. Or just for when you feel like sitting for a bit and letting the world pass you by, enjoying a moment to chill and perhaps enjoy a nice cup of coffee (or tea, or hot cocoa). The person who made this vid also has a 10 hour version of it up on their channel as well, just fyi. Anyhow, I've talked it up enough, here's the vid in question:

https://youtu.be/tuxoXwy9a4M

Hey guys, how's it going?

Sorry it's been (looks at date of last Journal), Wow, a month?! Really? Damn, time certainly flies.

I know I said that I'd try to be more active here on FA, but given that I'm still in a writing slump and the general tiredness from my day job doesn't help, I've been pressed to really contribute anything as of late. Aside from that though, not much has really happened that's worthy of note actualy. Still, I thought I should at least say something so that you guys know I'm alive and all that jazz, lol XP.

Hopefully inspiration will strike my brain and I'll be able to write something new soon. Regardless, I hope you're all doing well, and I'll look forward to chatting with you again soon. Until then, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, everyone .

- Corinth/Gwen/Saoirse.

The subject line says it all; I'm so glad I decided to come back to FA after so long ^^.

While I may not always post stuff here, write journals regularly, or even submit a lot of my own art/writing much of the time (though I have been tossing around the idea of offering writing commissions at some point XP), I'm still hanging around in some fashion or another, enjoying being here and talking to you guys again.

As some of you know, I've been taking an extended hiatus from social media, in light of the chaos currently enveloping the world and the craziness of people's reactions to it. Tumblr in particular, with it's up-and-down and at times viciously insane brand of political correctness and activism, was a contributing factor in this decision, causing my already heavy feelings of anxiety and helplessness in regards to my current situation and place in the world to grow even more unbearable to the point where I felt like I was going to snap. I knew that I needed to get away from it for a while, even if that meant pushing away some people I'd come to know and like over there, some of their posts and reblogs being a contributing factor to my eroding mental state. But, I knew that I didn't want to become a complete hermit, and I wanted to see some cool, fun, cute, uplifting artwork from time to time.

And the first place that came to mind was FA.

It's strange, being back here again, even after all this time and my recent change in sonas, it feels like I never left. There's a kindness here that you just don't find in other parts of the web, and returning here, I felt a sense of ease and acceptance that's done nothing but warm my heart since. It's like coming home after a long day at work, or leaving an uncomfortable socially exhausting situation/setting; you get a sense of belonging and happiness at returning to a place you know and love, where you feel that you can be you and not have to worry for a while.

Since coming back, I've also gotten to meet up with some old friends, and even find some new ones as well. I'd discovered that chatting with them has really helped me improve my overall outlook on things, and getting to spend time with them is one of the more anticipated moments of the day, even if we're dog-tired and can only manage a quick back-and-forth before having to head to bed because of a time-zone difference or something. Even sporadic Note sending has been fun as well, even if I feel bad for life getting in the way of replying as fast as I would like XP.

I guess I just wanted to get that out there, you know? Let you guys know how glad I am that I came back and let you know how much this has meant to me . I don't think I'll keep my hiatus up forever, there are still some people over on Tumblr that I want to commission art from at the very least (lol XP). But for now, I'm content to enjoy where I'm at, with my fellow furry friends here on FA.

- Corinth/Gwen/Saoirse.

GET HYYYYYYYYYYYYYYPE!!!!

https://youtu.be/v7MGUNV8MxU

So... Yeah, last night/this morning was no fun.

Like the title says, I've got something of a love/hate relationship with Spring. I love rainy/overcast days, don't know why persay, I just like the aesthetic of it for some reason. Heh, it's probably why I'm drawn to cyberpunk stories :P. However, my sinuses can't really handle dramatic shifts in barometric pressure, meaning whenever the weather shifts dramatically, like a sudden coldsnap or something, I end up getting MAJOR headaches. They usually start in my head, then ping-pong between that and my neck, like a vice is alternating it's grip between the two.

And early this morning was the worst one yet.

I took some Aleve for it, and even though it eventually worked, before then, it was incredibly painful. As in, curled up in the fetal position, clutching my head, tears streaming down my face, begging for someone to make it stop and let me sleep, kind of painful.

Thankfully it did, and I managed to get some shut-eye. Now, I have to contend with a different kind of headache: work (lol XP). But yeah, it's been a while since I've had one that bad. Hopefully, it's even longer before the next one *knocks on wood*.

An update of sorts in regards to yesterday's Journal about my search for a new fursona. I took the liberty of looking over my initial list of possible candidates for a new me, and decided to sit down and write a more indepth list. Hashing out the Pros and Cons of each species, things that I liked and things that I thought might be a hassle to deal with or anything that caused me to feel unsure about choosing them as my new sona, you know, that sort of thing. I think that this really helped, as I managed to pare down the list from twenty to nine. As it stands, this is what my current lineup for possibilities looks like:

- Folf (fox/wolf hybrid).
- Kangaroo.
- Kangaroo/Wolf hybrid (Kangolf? Wolgaroo? Either way, primarily has wolf features for the face/muzzle and fluffy fur, but is otherwise all roo; think this only female and less buff XP).
- Wokapiroo (hybrid of wolf, okapi, and kangaroo; has primarily wolf features as far as the face/muzzle is concerned and fluffy fur, while being mostly kangaroo, with okapi patterns on the legs and hips, and a long, prehensile okapi tongue).
- Lucario (The only Pokemon on the list; still up-in-the-air about choosing them though, primarily due to those spikes and how I feel they might be a nuisance).
- Red Panda.
- Meerkat.
- Armadillo.
- Wildebeest (I know I said I wanted to try something without hooves, but if I do decide to stick with an ungulate, it'll likely be this one; also this one wasn't on yesterday's list because I wasn't considering them at the moment).

Hopefully I'll have this culled even further before my turn on  scissorsrunner's list XP. Anyhow, like I said, just thought I'd give you guys an update on how the process is going. Hope you're all doing well, and I'll look forward to hearing from you again when you're able. Until then, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the great work, everyone!

- Corinth.

Like I said in my previous journal, I'm doing some new stuff this year, and one of those new things involves trying to find a new sona. Don't get me wrong, I love Gwen so much; she's allowed me to meet so many new, wonderful people here, and got me to open up a little, get out of my comfort zone, try new things, etcetera. So don't worry, she's not going anywhere anytime soon :-D. I just feel like I want to go a different direction now is all, find someone I connect with in regards to who I am now instead of who I was when I first made Gwen, and even Corinth/Corina for that matter.

Needless to say, that's easier said than done. Both because I guess I don't really know myself and what species would best reflect me, and because my brain is teh fickle and I can't really make up my mind between so many cool ideas and options, lol XP. Also, I'm torn between going for something deep and meaningful- like I said, a reflection of me- and going with something/someone that would just be fun to be for a while. I had a similar problem about a year ago when I created Gwen, if memory serves.

I thought I had it figured out a while back, had a species (deer/wolf hybrid) and a name ("Saoirse" (pronounced "Sear-sha") which is Celtic for "Freedom")... But then I realized that one of the things I felt I'd missed as Gwen was having feet/bring able to wiggle my toes (she has cervine hooves and Saoirse was going to as well), and I though having antlers- because there are some species of deer where females do grow antlers (like Caribou)- so I felt that I should try something different that wasn't as outlandish, hybrid, and somewhat inconvenient (I feel like doors would be an issue with a rack of antlers, lol :P). So then, I thought about going for a wolverine, since they're pretty cool, their fur pattern is nice, and they're actually pretty cute... And then I remembered I live in the Southern Central USA, and I'd quickly overheat in the summer from that thick coat, so that's feeling like it's out the door now too.

Right now I'm bouncing around a few more ideas in my head, trying to find which one fits, which one I'd enjoy being and maybe which may reflect me better. Suffice to say, this new girl is hard to nail down. Which is quite the pickle because I'd commissioned a ref sheet and TFTG sequence from the consistently  scissorsrunner of her and me turning into her respectfully, and while I'm not up on her list just yet, I will be soon, so though I have time I need to figure this out before that happens.

As of this moment, the list of possibles consists of:

- Wolverine (I still might keep her), Coyote, Griffin/Gryphon, Wolf, Armadillo, Hyena, Beaver, African Wild Dog, Red Panda, Black-Backed Jackal, Kangaroo, Wolf-Dragon (ala  auradragon12's Conor), Meerkat, a Pokemon of some sort (even though I rarely play nowadays XD; probably a canid like Lucario, Arcanine, Sylveon, etc, or feline like Incineroar), Tigerdillo (tiger/armadillo hybrid from the ATLA/LOK universe), Lynx, Bunny, aaaaaaaand Folf (fox/wolf).

So... Yeaaah, like I said before, my brain doesn't know how to stick with one idea or pick between several competing ones that it likes at the moment XD. But anyhow, just thought I should write this out for the sake of getting it off my chest. Hope you guys enjoyed my little emotion vomit (lol XP), and hopefully I'll be able to figure this out soon, preferrably before it's my turn on  scissorsrunner's commissions list XD. I hope you're all doing well, and I'll look forward to hearing from you guys when you're able. Until then, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the awesome work, everyone !!

- Corinth.

Hey everybody, guess what? I'M NOT DEAD, HUZZAH! (lol XP)

All joking aside though, it's great to be back. Sorry about the hiatus, I've been all kinds of busy and distracted in the interim. However, I hope I can do better as the new year progresses and I find myself trying to adapt to whatever new challenges it throws my way. I'm already doing a few things that will hopefully make it a bit more interesting.

This week, I've started a new routine of going to the gym on Mondays with a friend of mine and one of their friends from work. I'm too terribly out of shape persay, I'm just not all that strong and lack the kind of stamina I'd like to have to not get tired easily. So, I decided that I'll accompany them on their regular workout for a while, see if I can't get a little more in shape than I am. To that end, I've also started trying to adopt a healthier diet. My current food budget makes it a bit difficult, but I'm hoping I can find a way to make it work.

Another thing I'm trying to figure out is a change to my work schedule. I've been stuck on the same schedule for the past couple of years, so I think it's a good time to shake things up a little. Plus, to be honest, I want to find a day where I might be able to find a group on Roll20 or somewhere to play  severus's HC SVNT DRACONES. I really like the setting of the game, and I'd love to be able to play, but unfortunately, I don't have a lot of friends IRL, much less ones who would be open to the idea of an anthro/furry tabletop or learning how to play/GM it. So hopefully, when I figure out a day, I can find a nice group to play with and experience the world Severus has so masterfully crafted. I may even buy a custom mini for the sake of having one XP.

I'm still looking for gainful employment, but given the current state of the economy/political climate and where I live, I'm not finding anything outside of retail, sadly. And, what interviews I have had in the past couple months have gone no where, so I doubt I'll find anything good soon, even though I don't plan on giving up just yet.

And lastly, I'm working on a new 'sona that I plan to hopefully introduce soon. More on her later though, gotta have some secrets, after all (lol XP).

Anyhow, that's just a quick overview of how things are going here on my end of things. New Year, new things to try, new normals to try and create, and hopefully more of me around FA. I hope you guys are doing well, and that I didn't scare you too badly by dropping off the face of the earth like that XD. I'll try not to let it happen again in the future, and especially not for so long. Until next we speak, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends!

Having a hard time deciding on some world-building elements for an idea I've been bouncing around in my head for a while now that I want to actually try and pen this time. I'm thinking of writing a cyber/biopunk themed story set in a futuristic Seattle- yeah, a place I've never been before, we'll see how that goes (lol XP)- heavily inspired by GitS: SAC and Deus Ex: Human Revolution, as well as the Takeshi Korvacs Trilogy.

The basic idea revolves around a rag-tag group of misfits, refugees in a time where the US has been split into different nations, who were hand-picked by a wealthy entrepreneur whose company created the first functional, vat-grown anthropomorphic hybrid FBP (Full-Body Prosthetic) to be released to the mass market. They were given the opportunity for a better life through a new line of combat-oriented FBPs, provided they pay off the FBP's cost by working with him as part of a defense contract he holds with the Seattle-Vancouver Sprawl. However, as you can imagine, not everyone is thrilled by the idea of genetic hybrids, let alone cyborgs. Neo-Luddites want to keep this technology from advancing any further, seeing it as a perversion of humanity and "the natural order." On the opposite side of the spectrum, are those who see these new hybrids as the next step in human evolution and self-expression, and who are willing to go to any length to steal a body of their own.

Like I said though, I'm not sure how the transference process should be handled in terms of the individuals' mind being put into the aforementioned FBPs. The cyberbrain route seems to be the most logical, but the concept of the cortical stack has merit as well. I also feel I should mention that these full-body prosthetics are not 100% cybernetic. They're vat-grown organic bodies, brought to a specific age and given unique abilities thanks to the LEGO Genetics trope (lol XP). Certain cybernetics are added for the sake of either practicality (such as a subvocalization node along the mastoid bone, paired with a cochlear implant for silent communication) or personal preference, but for the most part, the brave misfits of "Menagerie-1" are mostly organic.

So, in my internal discourse, I thought I would pitch this idea to you fine people and see what you thought on the subject, as well as any suggestions for some of the difficulties I'm having with world building at the moment.

Hey everyone, what's up?

Sorry I've been gone for so long, I've been really distracted since I last logged in, but I'm hopefully back.

The hack that hit FA kinda scared me off for a bit, so I haven't logged in out of fear that my account might still be effected by it. My comment's notification still shows that I have more comments than I really have, so it makes me wonder...

But, regardless, I'll be popping in every once in a while to see how things are going and to say "hi" when I can. I'll also try and get back to writing if at all possible, seeing as I still have a story that needs finishing here, along with some narration for a few commissions I managed to get whilst I was away. Again, I'm really sorry that I've been gone for so long, but hopefully, this tend of my disappearing like I've done in the past won't continue for long.

I hope everyone is doing well out there and I look forward to chatting with you again soon. Until next time, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends !!

- Corinth.

I can't remember the last time I was this on edge in terms of how the weather was shaping up; so nerve-wracking!

This is one of the things I dislike about living in Oklahoma: the weather here is insane! It's great if you're a meteorologist, but I've been glued to the local channels and the Weather channel since 4pm, watching these storms aftert seeing the watch put out earlier. It's been cancelled now, but jeez, for a minute there I was seriously worried for myself and Jake (our Golden Retriever). Everything around us and headed for where we're at has been downgraded as it lost some of it's bluster, so here's hoping there's nothing more exciting like that in store for us for the rest of the week.

I don't think my everything can much more stress at this point XP.

Freakout aside, I hope everyone out there is doing well and that you guys are staying safe.

- Corinth.

So far, this has been an awesome week for me in terms of video games. I got into the Overwatch open beta two days early, thanks to my preorder, my copy of Battleborn came in the may yesterday, I have all of next week off of work to play them both, and now the latest trailer and announcement for Persona 5 has dropped from ATLUS. New characters, new bosses, new persona's and finally a concrete release date for Japan (September 15th, 2016) with a global release soon to follow- I assume.

https://youtu.be/L1mo4KSIg_8

ALL ABOARD THE HYPE TRAIN!! XD

Greetings all, I've finally managed to get around to logging back in to FA! Huzzah!

Sadly, these last two months have been really busy and weird, both for me and for my folks. They've been in the market for a new house, and luckily managed to find something with in their price range that they'll be moving into by the end of the month. Plus, for the first time since my sister and I were little, we have a dog! His name is "Jake," and he's a Golden Retriever. He's also a major cuddle-monster and attention-lover, not to mention a big baby when it comes to storms- Dad's taken to calling him "Thunder Chicken" (lol XP).

Aside from that move, I'll also be changing residences by the end of the month as well. The internet where they'll be moving to is going to be slower than molassas in January, so I've had to find my own place. Sadly, even though I've been preapproved for a mortgage, the housing market here isn't in that good of shape, so I've had to settle for an apartment in the interim. It's a nice place for $600 a month, and it has the fastest internet available from Cox (Gigablast), so I'll be able to go through with the idea I've been toying with about starting a Lets Play YouTube channel. Money'll be tight for a while, but that'll just have to be extra motivation to find a better place and a better job.

Lastly, the general distractions of the internet have sadly kept me from this wonderful place and you wonderful people XP. Tumblr is a black hole you can fall into without meaning to, and the same goes for YouTube XP.

And now you know everything (lol XP). Again, I'm really sorry I've been gone for so long, but I'll do my best to log back in more often in the coming months. I'll also try and get back to that Gwen/Etch story I promised you guys a while back, since I'll hopefully be able to do some writing these next few weeks without too much distraction, seeing as my folks will be on vacation and so will I, meaning I'll have the house to myself. Anyhow, thanks again for all the love in the mean time, and I hope to hear from you all again soon. Until then, stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends .

- Corinth/Gwen.

Sorry for another round of silence, my friends, but the universe seems bound and determined to kick me while I'm down this month. Seems a sudden warm front/snap has decided to grace my state, causing Spring to come early and everything to be in bloom- not to mention kick up a lot of irritants and stuff with more wind and the like. Thus, every allergy sufferer like myself has been, well, suffering this past week, with sinus and allergy-related problems gallore.

Myself? Well, after two/three days of feeling like absolute shit, I'm still not out of the woods just yet. I may feel fine physically, but my face is essentially a faucet of mucus and phlegm, with little sign of letting up. But, at least I can go back to work- oh joy oh happiness, I'm a wage slave again (sarcasm)- and I can stand up/sit down without feeling like my head's in a vice about to be crushed.

Hopefully this all blows over sound and I can get back to my writing. I haven't forgotten that I still owe you guys a story for those commissions I got from  malificus, though these past couple of weeks have thrown a proverbial monkey wrench into my creative process and made it hard to write anything. But, I still mean to finish it, and with any luck, I'll be back in the saddle and writing again.

Sorry it's taken so long again, and sorry I dropped off the site for a bit there. Here's hoping things get better soon.

Bad news everyone, looks like I'm not getting my new, better job like I thought I would be .

Turns out they neglected to tell me that, instead of getting a raise from what I currently make at my current position by transferring, I'd have to take a substantial pay-cut for an unknown amount of time while the company got it's financial ducks in a row regarding the new payment structure for it's employees. And if that wasn't bad enough, when they finally did get that figured out, I wouldn't be making that much more than what I currently make now, only a few paltry cents more than what I had to work seven years to get to, instead of the raise I was pretty much promised from the get-go because of my seniority with the company.

So, as the title of this Journal/Update says, it looks like this has been a case of three steps forward, three steps back. Not only do I all but have to stay in my current job- which I'm thankful to even have after all the miscommunication that happened all around, by the way- but I'm going to have to wait for the finiancial big wigs to pull their heads out of their asses so we can all get a boost in pay, and even then I'm still stuck in retail for who knows how long while I scrimp and save to afford to move to Washington at some point in the unforseen future, so that I might have at least some chance at garnering employment that doesn't leave me drained, empty, and feeling like I spent 6 years earning my degree for absolutely fuck-all as it sits there useless on my shelf like the knowledge sits useless in my brain.

Needless to say, I've been kinda peeved about the whole thing. That, and a momentary roadblock in my brain have been the reason for my absence this last week or so, and why the story I've promised you guys has been delayed. Sorry about that, by the way . Hopefully though, I can get some creative momentum back and grind the last bits out that I need to finish and post something light-hearted and fun amidst the storm that is my current situation.

Hey there everyone, I'm back... Hopefully. (lol XP)

Sorry for the month of silence, I had a lot of stuff to deal with IRL. Between the usual holiday stuff, work being work, managing my Monster Musume forum over on Fanfiction.net, moving into a new room of the house, and a truckload of other stuff, it's been an interesting month. Thankfully, that all seems to be quieting down for the moment, so hopefully I'll be able to check in more often this year.

Providing I have time, and my brain actually remembers I still have this account and I have a 'Sona to RP over here that people love, that is (lol).

Anyhow, on to the good news. My MonMusu forum's doing well, acquired several new members in the last couple of weeks, and discussions are producing good results for people's characters and stories. Hell, I've finally managed to crawl out of my writing slump I've been in for months and actually start writing on my own MonMusu fanfic again ! YAY! Hopefully, that's good news for some of the stuff I was planning to write her for Gwen too, as I know I've kept you guys waiting on those ideas and I'm really sorry about that.

Also, I got a new job! Granted, I'm still working in the same company only moving to a different branch, but it's so much better than the one I'm currently in. The pay is a heck of a lot better, the hours are much more agreeable (more time to spend doing things I love, i.e. writing and talking to you guys), I get holidays off and weekend hours are shorter, and like I mentioned in a comment on my previous journal, after a 6 month/year period, I can tranasfer to a store in North Seattle and work there while I look for a job in my degree-field if I wanted. Ahhhhh, it's so good! I've been needing a change of pace, even if it's something minor like this, so I'm excited to see how this pans out.

Anyhow, sorry again for dropping off the grid like that for as long as I did. I'll try to check in more often now that I'll be having some more free time, hopefully. Thanks to everyone for all the love and support you sent my way in my absence, and I can't wait to hear from you again.

Until then though, remember to stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends.

- Corinth/Gwen.

Ugh, nothing's more discouraging than apartment hunting for a place to live in a state/city you've never been to before.

Like I said before, I'm looking to move to Seattle some time before summer of next year. So, I've been occasionally searching for apartments on the various websites, as well as Craigslist and the Seattle sub-reddit. I'm starting to regret that now, as now I have doubts that I'll even be able to make that happen. Everything's just so expensive or has something wrong with it in a review, it's all very disheartening. I still haven't gotten any call-backs from the plethora of jobs I've applied for up there- or the ones here in OKC- so that's another hurtle in my way, which will just make it that much worse to find a place to rent when I move up there, if I even get to now. It's starting to look like circumstances/fate is conspiring against me to keep me from going up there.

That, and all of these disheartening facts that keep piling up are doubtlessly causing some anxiety flare-ups, but that's a different animal entirely (lol XP).

I was thinking about making a character tum-blog for Gwen- sort of like an ask-blog like  chalodillo's Ask The High Prime, but with little artwork since I can't really draw (meaning the only art that'd be up there would be stuff I commission of her or stuff she might like). What do you guys think? Sound like something that might be interesting to do/try? Part of me thinks it might be a good writing exercise, a way for me to write everyday- or every other day- so that I don't get rusty.

Hey gang, what's up?

Sorry about not having updated in a while, but I've been kinda busy IRL. A couple of weeks ago, I had something of a breakdown regarding my mental state in terms of my anxiety and feeling of hopelessness and dissatisfaction with my existence and how things are going with my life. It was a really dark moment for me, probably the first time I've ever felt that messed up in my whole life. *shivers*

But, thankfully, that darkness has ebbed, and I'm feeling much better now. Yup, back to our regularly scheduled chaos, already in progress (lol XP). But seriously, I'm a tad more optimistic about things going forward, and have been trying to figure out a way to be more positive about things in my life and about myself as a person. It isn't easy, as I'm my own worst critic/enemy most of the time, but I'm still going to try.

On a separate note, that being the second half of the subject line (lol XP), I'm trying to come up with a new 'sona/OC to represent myself that I'd like to use here on FA (and possibly other places like tumblr, regardless of the fact that my talents are limited to the written word instead of visual art). Don't get me wrong, I like Corinth/Corina just fine, it's just that the more I think about it, the less I feel like they fit me as a person. Plus there's also the fact that I didn't have that much lined up for them as characters when I commissioned  potionmastercernun. I just had a vague idea, and if you know me (and have seen my world building stuff), then you know I like to write stuff out- sometimes in character sheets/profiles and other times from stories I've worked on. I didn't really do that with Corinth/Corina, so I guess I don't feel as attached to them as I should.

The problem is, I don't really know what I'm looking for in regards to making a fursona; or maybe, I don't know what I should be looking for. I've already got a pokesona all lined up and what not- TJ the Dewott morph- but I still want to have something unique, something that I feel a connection to, something that isn't connected to a licensed property (like pokemon, who are connected to Nintendo). I've worked with the latter idea for most of my "career" as a fan fiction writer, so I want to try something new, something original.

I know that they'll likely start off as a human, then be transformed into their anthro/furry form that's the opposite gender via magic- as I really like gender bender/tftg stuff and especially when magic's the catalyst (and probably wouldn't mind being subjected to it if it were real, lol XP) - but aside from that, I'm kinda stuck. If anyone has any ideas that might help me with the creation process or ordering my thoughts to help me focus on something that I resonate with, then I'd greatly appreciate it.

Anyhow, that's all I've really got for you guys this time around. I hope you all are doing well wherever you are, and I'll look forward to hearing from you again when you're able. Until next time, stay safe ouf there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends !

- Corinth.

Hello to all of my followers out there! (Corina: Hello, my lovelies! ) Hush, you (lol XP).

Well, I still haven't heard back from the person I'm commissioning from about the detail that caused my latest bout of anxiety to flare up, but I'm sure I'll hear from them eventually. I'm going to wait a couple more days (Wednesday maybe, as it's one of my days off) until I message them again, give them some breathing room and iron out some stuff on my end of things. I'll probably write up a new character sheet from the one I gave them that fills in some of the things I felt that I hadn't thought of when I first commissioned them, just to cover any bases I feel like I may have left out now after some introspection. And, seeing as payday is this week, I might think about adding another commission to the list if they're up for it, as I'll have more information for them to work with this time- as well as a better idea of what I'm doing (lol XP).

On a separate note, I'm feeling better in terms of that snap of barometric pressure that did a number on my sinuses the other day. It didn't really help that I was worrying about the above when it was happening, on top of having to work my usual 9 hour shift in Hell (i.e. retail), so there's that.

Aside from that, I've finally settled on when I'm going to go on my "fact-finding trip" to Seattle, WA with my Dad. We're going sometime mid-March, the plan being to talk to some recruiters while we're there in hopes of finding me a job early or for when I move up there in June. We'll also be looking into apartments and neighborhoods that're safe and all that good stuff, on top of checking out some tourist places and the food scene. My dad's really interested in going to Quinn's Pub on 10th and Pike for a wild boar sloppy joe, thanks to watching Anthony Bourdain's The Layover. (lol XP)

And, that's about it for the current goings on. I'll probably have some more Omnifarie stuff to upload later this week, as well as some character profiles and what not. Until then, thanks for reading, and I look forward to hearing from you guys soon. Remember to stay safe out there, stay awesome, and keep up the amazing work, my friends!

- Corinth.

Uuugh. I hate my brain.

Okay, so it's been about *counts on fingers* three, maybe three and a half years, since I last let myself commission something from an artist? The last things I remember commissioning are those pictures of Corinth/Corina I got from  Tanks and  PotionMasterCernun. So yeah, I'm a little rusty when it comes to commissioning stuff, and waaay out of practice in exercising patience and reining in my thoughts when it comes to commissioning things like OCs and 'Sonas. I don't know why, but every time I think that I've figured out what I want, something comes to mind that makes the original idea sound cliche or not work logically with the character's body-type, personality, species, etc.

Not only that, but I stress out over whether or not I gave a clear enough picture of what I was going for when I sent the initial form/sheet to this person, and feel the urge to send them a Note or an email or something to make sure I didn't accidentally mess things up in that way, making it so that they have to undo all of their hard work just because I didn't put down enough info. I do a lot of my own editing for my stories, and I tend to be verbose with imagery, so I always feel like, when it comes to these things, I've messed up in some way.

On top of that, working with OCs is way different than working with pre-established characters, especially when describing them to an artist over the Internet. It's hard to write out in a way for them to visualize, and you worry about whether or not what you said makes sense- well, you do if you're me. And then, just when you think you've got everything figured out, BAM! A new wave of doubt and over-analyzing hits you, and you start freaking out. You want to tell this person about the thing you're freaking out about, want to keep them from having to undo all of their hard work just because you were indecisive, but at the same time, you don't want to annoy them with your constant stream of Notes or emails of you fretting and fussing over every little detail your brain tells you that you need to get right.

And its even worse when you think that you've already offended/annoyed them because Paypal's changed up the way their system works when it comes to sending payments and you accidentally sent it to them wrong, which meant they had to refund your money for you to send it properly and you feel like such an idiot and you want to apologize up and down but it doesn't seem like it's enough and you're afraid you're going to come across as annoying again and...

You see what I'm talking about? My brain sucks.

The long and short of it, I've commissioned some things from an awesome artist here on FA, and all of the above stuff's what's been going on since we first talked. It's for a new 'sona- a Dewott pokesona- and I keep thinking of things that may or may not work for the character that I didn't mention in the first Note because I didn't think of it at the time and I want to let the artist know about it, but then again I don't want them to think I'm annoying and hate me for it because I really love their artwork and think they're an awesome person. But at the same time, my brain won't shut up about all the what-ifs and the worse case scenarios and how I need to let them know what I'm thinking about the character but that if I do then I might make them hate me for bugging them so much and they might never take a commission from me again and/or blacklist me on their user-page and suggest other people not take commissions from me.

It's a vicious cycle. And one that utterly sucks to deal with on top of having a massive sinus headache and neck-ache due to a recent, sudden drop in barometric pressure where I live.

Any advice, gang?

EDIT: Okay, so I broke down and messaged them about the latest worry. Still haven't heard back from them, but I know from the inbox that they got it (at least, think that's what it means when the Note title stops being bolded). Now I'm back to worrying about whether or not they're angry/annoyed with me again. Anxiety's wonderful, huh? (<-- Sarcasm)