In the past 2 years, I moved from the Northeastern US to the Southwestern US to live with my boyfriend and the love of all my lifetimes, with less than $1000 to my name, no driver's license, and no guaranteed place to go once I got here. That happened all because my bf surprised me with a plane ticket for a Christmas present to come stay with him and his family for a month, which was also the first time I was able to meet his family who not only accepted me into their family immediately but welcomed me in as if I had been apart of it all along. This truly changed my life, not only did I find my true family, something I had never had before, but they gave me the confidence I needed to grab a singular suitcase full of belongings and spontaneously move across the country, leaving behind my undescribeably toxic family. I wasn't able to completely cut contact with my family, but things started improving so much for me once I got here.
My bf and I moved in together, and although I had no driver's license, I was beyond blessed to immediately get hired at a plant nursery just a 10 minute bike ride from my house, which was so incredible to me because even before I moved here I had wanted to learn more about plants, and this business is literally the closest business to where I live. Just insane odds. I can only believe it was all fate.
Not only did I quickly find an amazing job, but my depression seemed to disappear over night. I started to find my spirituality, and began to mend so many mental wounds that my family had embedded in my mind since childhood. I've started to repair myself, retrain my thoughts to be loving and kind towards myself instead of hateful, shameful and guilted.
I, obviously, began to excersize more - to work, at work, from work, to the store, from the store, anywhere I needed to go became a task I had to want to do without the luxury of a car. My diet began to change. I started to try new foods, something I was petrified to do before my bf due to some serious food allergies. (Various nuts, and most fruits due to a ragweed allergy) where I once ate meat every day when living with my toxic family, I now found vegetarian alternatives, almost completely ridding meat from my diet altogether.
I've also began to drink much, much more water, something I NEVER drank while living with my toxic family. I was young, I liked the taste of Mountain Dew, and my parents bought it for me. When it was gone, they bought more. I lived on the stuff. I only hope I can clense my body of all that poison now, before it truly affects me.
Not only did I start drinking more water, I almost completely eliminated soda in general. I do still drink it on very rare occasions, mostly just when I can afford a dinner date with my bf. I've also switched from drinking/using cows milk to only vanilla almond milk.
I'm proud of who I'm becoming... I've worked really hard, and still continue to work hard every day.
For 2019, my goals are to limit sugar, processed snacks and cheese from my diet as much as possible.
I want to continue to repair the mental damage that's been done to me, face my fears and work through them.
I want to become more comfortable interacting with people I need to; phone calls, doctors appointments, ect.
I want to start my process of getting my bf and I work visas to NZ, so that we can start planning our future move to another country.
I want improve my art, and get myself out there more.
But most of all,
I'm going to finally cut cords with my toxic family all together. I'm going to free myself. It won't be pretty and sometimes I worry about my own safety... but I have great supportive people now. I'm ready to be free.
I'd love to hear from you all about your past years accomplishments and also about your New Year's resolutions!! Wishing you all the very best New Year <3
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