I no longer update here.
All updates are located at
 foxshine

thanks for lookin tho.

any commission info and
requests will be located there
as this account is now dead.

Hey all, i wanna say thanks for the support the last couple of days
 severed-blades,  hildarayner, and  notanhonestman
it means a lot you would lend even a little support for someone you
don't even know. thank you all.

No, i didnt forget  pixiewings
She's my most completeliest awesometastic friend ever and she
knows I appreciate her, cuz I tell her every time i talk to her lol
now everyone go bother her at her page and fav-spam her
awesome poetry.

I've made my new account and already have stuff uploaded already.
find me at  foxshine
Its gonna be a lot of stuff pertaining to a video game project im
starting on. Im working on fleshing Kali a little bit more, something
more action-y. then i really need to start cracking on the other characters.

lots has happened.

wife left, and found out our relationship was built entirely upon her lies.
in the middle of a divorce at the moment. its a several month process, unfortunately.
5 minutes to get married, 6 months minimum to divorce, go figure.

oh well, i guess. Feel like shit though. won't have to deal with always being left
in the background anymore, so there's a plus. but it's hard to keep thinking that way
after having bonded yourself to someone to greatly.

all her excuses hurt. repeatedly. deeply.
and then she could turn around and, with another guy, do everything she made
excuses for, no problems at all. bullshit. but bullshit that hurts like a gaping wound.
then she -still- made excuses, and lied saying nothing was going on.

and in doing so broke every promise she ever made to me, and rendered our marriage
a complete and utter lie.

5 years of my life, devoted to a lie.

5 years soul bonded to a liar.

5 years of hurt piled up and dropped on me all at once.

I've lost my love, my home, my job, and can only see my only child half of the year now.
My entire life shattered in less than a year. completely and utterly.

who would have thought unconditional love and complete faithfulness meant nothing?

not me. guess i know now.

every love has been built on lies, or is completely star-crossed and doomed to failure.

yes.. i know... a lot of BAWing in this journal. please forgive me. but its why ive been so
lackluster in my postings the last....um... length of time.

custody battles with the deck stacked against me even when circumstances align in my
favor, an impending divorce, an attempt at a relationship with a wonderful woman who
will now forever be out of reach from my meager, accident prone, hopeless hands
because I seem destined to always desire but never obtain love.

im in a very dark place.

prolly going to close this account anyway, and start fresh.
there is too much assossiation with my ex-wife in the art and characters linked to this
account, and i simply cannot deal with it well.

all my unposted art has nothing to do with these characters or their world. they were
inspired by the lies told by the creature i had married and once trusted with my life.

everything that inspired them in completely gone.

STOLEN FROM  PixieWings

Appearance:
[-] = You have blue/green eyes.
[+] = You blush a lot. (yes and no)
[+] = You giggle. (>.>;; so??)
[+] = You're quiet.(I tend to space out a lot, so yes XD)
[+] = You say random silly things. (That's my bread and butter :o)
[-] = You have a baby face. (lol, no way XD)
[+] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[+] = You don't wear halter tops or anything to showy. (Id look so stupid in them DX)
[-] = Your under 5 feet 6 inches tall. (just shy of 6`)
TOTAL SO FAR: 6

Innocence:
[-] = You're a virgin. (i have a son lol)
[-] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush. (not in the least XD)
[+] = Your idea of a date is really romantic. (>_>;; SO?!)
[+] = You sleep with a stuffed animal. (...sometimes <_<)
[+] = You like to cuddle. (OMGYUS)
[+] = You've never played the Nervous game. (um... wut?)
[+] = You don't even know what the nervous game is. (see above lol)

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

Colors:
[+] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[-] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors. (nu.. my skin complexion is whack for bright colors TnT)

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

Personality:
[+] = You can be ignorant/oblivious. (im sorry, you were talking? rofl)
[+] = You'd consider yourself shy.(...sometimes >.<)
[+] = You like happy upbeat music.
[+] = You like "Cutesy" music.

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

What YOU think is cute:
[+] = You like small animals
[+] = You like babies a lot.
[-] = Small/mini versions of things make you go (not unless the original size thing was cute in the first place)

TOTAL: 16

Multiply how many you got by 4
Repost as: "I'm ____% Cute"
16 x 4 = 64%

uh... really? nearly 2/3 cute?? D:

broken meme is broken >_>

It'll be at least 5.5 months before things can really settle down.
and even if my current fiasco ends on time, there's another disaster ahead lol

I need a fresh start. I feel I need to recreate myself, in a sense.
I feel like all my resources here are gone.

I always wanted to move to the west coast.

Not California, I need someplace less bankrupt and definitely less on fire. I may
want to get out of the boonies, California looks like another planet sometimes rofl

I got a great friend out near where I would like to go to. Always sweet and understanding,
I've loved this person since we met. This person knows more about me than myself
sometimes, and is my greatest ally, always dependable.

But that's a LONG way off, yet. That is a lot of money to save, and it will take a
great amount of effort and patience.

If anyone still keeps an eye on this account, I want to thank you.

Thank you for your patience and understanding. I know I haven't been the
greatest producer of work while a member of this place, but I haven't abandoned it.
I just need a new muse, I need to quit taking so much of my actual life and imbibing
my art and worlds with it.

Currently, I have very little motivation to draw anything from SIREN because of it.
I'm sure the characters will live on, reincarnated, even if i scrap the project, because
I've put so much of myself into it.

I really do want to get back here, fully. I'm just so emotionally askew from life that
it is difficult to self-motivate. And anyone that has watched me for any significant
amount of time knows how difficult I can find that, normally.

Again, thank you all for your continued patience.

[EDIT] Speaking of fresh starts, please send requests/commission inquiries to  fennecstudios which I will be using as a more professionally run acct, and less personal and nutty like this one[/EDIT]

A lot will be happening in the future.

A WHOLE lot.

kinda pissy right now, but no point in going on about it. if anyone really wants to know, they can grab me by MSN (i think i have that listed, if not, i will soon)

What this basically means is this:

The way i've drawn Jasmine and company is linked closely to my personal life. not all of the characters are based off of real people, but some of them were based off of what i would like to have happened, in a way.

This 'potential' ive drawn from is quickly being reduced to rubble (im in that "anger step right now, so the way im saying certain things will be rather infused with anger). So unless a small miracle happenes, and trust is restored, Jasmine's universe my begin to look very very different, and soon. or it may not, entirely. right now i feel like wiping everything and starting over, but i know that isn't possible, on some levels, and it won't do any good. If certain situations with Jasmine change, however, it very likely reflects certain situations i find myself in.

that is, if i remember to freaking UPLOAD ANYTHING *facedesk*

well, its not like i -dont- have the time anymore, now i just need to work past my current emotional issues so i can draw again. I wanna start commisions, or at least requests so that i can get used to doing pictures for others in a timely manner. I can't lie to myself anymore, and need the extra income. but thats yet another story that i wont bother anyone with unless they wanna hear it.

Thanks for letting me vent, everyone. just needed a space to get this out.

I know i've been horrible about uploading, but over the last several months, there have been too many issues outside of art to focus on it.

...

Right now, all i know is that she needs time. I know, in time, she will return to her family. she loves us, and we love her. with all our hearts. Some things are wrong right now, yes, but nothing will be right until she comes back.

I just need to keep faith that she will do whats best for all of us, and make our family complete again. Nothing can be fixed without her with us.

...

Digging through LapFoxTrax I found this.

It is apparently a multi-national attempt to control various forms of piracy across many, or all, forms of media.
Some draft rules include holding providers responsible for the actions of their customers.
The decisions about such rules are being held secretly between top government leaders across the world, with little or no input from media providers and their customers.

While I'm not against debating rules for piracy and such, the fact that there is very little transparency to the issue disturbs me.
international law cannot be introduced without international input. It flies in the face of the democracy they claim to practice.

needless to say, check it out yourself. make your own opinion on it, and don't be afraid to share.

yeah... it was totally correct.

In other news, I learned that the word "meme" is pronouced "meem" not "me me" like it always looked like to me lol
-1 derp points for me, only a billion trillion to go :D

in other other news, contemplating opening shop with Mysoti, if you've seen my newest image, you know about this.

I would like feedback from both sides of the table, from people who hoark stuff on MySoti, and from those who buy stuff from them.

Any good? Any other suggestions? totally open to ideas here. I wanna open up a source of income outside my crappy wally world job, even if it is only minor.
It seems like a decent way to do it, since i can do images when i have time, then post them there to make something out of it.
Don't think i could manage commisions right now, need to work on my inability to focus on something other than my Wii, DS, or computer games.
Really gotta work on that. Trying to give myself more time to draw right now tho. I've been terrible about it, and I feel really bad about it. :(

anywho, heres to good feedback, good doodles, and good everything else, cuz its about damn time for some good stuff to come everyone's way.

L8r g8rs X3

yeah. im still alive, i tend to be a terrible person when it comes to updating this site. between work, my son, and the clusterfuck that school has been lately, I've been pretty offbeat. even for me lol.

I have a slew of stuff to upload, I just need to get some time to do it, which is difficult because I can't keep an eye on our son and do anything on the computer because of where we have to locate it.

I'm still scanning stuff to upload, for a grand total of 4 hours and counting over 4 days (not a whole lot of spare time, as I said, but be mindful this is just scanning shit in, not even doing anything to it after Its in the computer besides saving it.)

I'm not going to be promising anything, primarily because I've said stuff is going to be coming up, and not delivering on it. I've been pretty terrible to what little fan base I have, and it makes me feel terrible. I apologize to anyone whose hopes I've lifted only to pull the rug out from under their feet. I appreciate any understanding any of you may have, but I can't ask for forgiveness because I haven't been able to correct this bad trend. My best hopes are that I can, and soon.

Stolen from  Ashi >:3

Male side:

[ ] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers.

Male Points Total= 10

Female side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice. [I go to my sis, too. I'll admit it for the rest of us, boys are stupid >:( ]
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport. [This shit is hard believe it or not.]
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. [no one would want to be near my feet]
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. [They would be, if only my wobbly fleshy bits weren't downstairs.]
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories. [no make-up here, but i can definitely commandeer a shower for longer than I probably should]
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like. [if you got the hair, you gotta take care of it.]
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear. [... SUPPORT dammit. junk sticks together down there]
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Female Points Total= 13

So i got this penis like, over 20 years ago. I'd like to trade it in for a large pair of breasts and a vagina. Yeah, sure Its... WHERE THE FUCK DID MY RECEIPT GO? Dammit, ya always lose something when ya move.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1042021/

oh... my... gods...

the potential.... so much drama, so much lol to be had...

I KNOW i know, i like, do nothing around here

I HAVE BEEN WORKING!! it just doesnt look like it.

7/10 pages of comic done before i start posting.
From this point on, Im going to try for at least a page a week.

Gonna post pencils, cleaned up a bit. I'll probably ink and color them later,
and use them for print that I may sell (if i do the colors lol)

I'll begin work on page 8 tomorrow, with breaks to work on the rest of the travel costumes for the cast.
Also, i need to write more of the script, too. lol.

Once I can get a good rythm down for the comics, I might open up a few commision slots.
I've been meaning to do that forever now, but I can be the laziest dickhead on earth sometimes.

Ask  angelfennec, she knows ALL about it rofl. (check her out, while your at it, she will eat me if you don't lol)
She's... slowly working on stuff. She wears the pants in the family, so she's usually pretty busy keeping me from
spending all of our bill moneys.

Also, our roommate  albinobunny has been rather active on FA lately
(read: holy freakin hel, content tsunami).
She does a lot of amateur photo work, and some more traditional arts like painting too.

Anywho, that's all for now. Later gaters!!

[-] smoked
[+] consumed alcohol
[+] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex (MARRIED DURR 9w6)
[-] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[-] kissed someone of the same sex
[+] had sex (We had a kid, while still on BC. Guess what THAT tells ya :o)
[+] had someone in your room other than family
[+] watched porn
[+] bought porn
[-] tried drugs

[+] taken painkillers (like, Tylenol and Excedrin, for headaches/migraines)
[-] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[+] lied to your parents (who HASN'T =\)
[-] lied to a friend (My PARENTS were ass hats, my friends weren't lol)
[+] snuck out of the house
[-] done something illegal
[+] felt hurt
[+] hurt someone (I think everyone has. Whoever DOESN'T check this is lying =\)
[+] wished someone to die (Ooooooooh yeah... >_>;;)
[-] seen someone die (I don't count the internet)

[-] missed curfew
[+] stayed out all night
[+] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[-] been to a therapist
[+] received a ticket
[-] been to rehab
[+] dyed your hair
[+] been in an accident
[-] been to a club
[+] been to a bar

[-] been to a wild party
[-] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[-] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night (I got to two and a half wine coolers, then got a headache lol)
[-] had a spring break in Florida
[-] sniffed anything
[-] wore black nail polish
[+] wore arm bands
[+] wore t-shirts with band names
[+] listened to rap (only recently lol)
[-] owned a 50 Cent CD (Not his rap. He sucks =\. LEARN TO SING)

[+] dressed gothic
[-] dressed girly
[-] dressed punk
[?] dressed grunge (Maybe?)
[+] stole something
[-] been too drunk to remember anything (remember the beverage count? yeah... no lol)
[-] blacked out
[-] fainted
[-] had a crush on a neighbour

[+] had a crush on a friend
[+] been to a concert
[-] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[+] been called a slut (not seriously lol)
[+] called someone a slut (Again, not seriously)
[+] installed speakers in a car
[+] broken a mirror
[+] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[+] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush (Does my wife count? XD)

[-] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper (Get with 50cent on those singing lessons =\)
[+] seen an R-rated movie
[+] cruised the mall
[+] skipped school
[-] had surgery
[-] had an injury
[+] gone to court (for an accident I wound up causing =\. For the ticket, not because the guy pressed charges lol)
[-] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping (The waiters are NOT paid enough, even at high class places. They get less than minimum since they get tips)
[+] caught something on fire
[-] lied about your age

[+] owned/rented an apartment/house
[-] broke the law in the police's presence
[+] made out with someone who had a GF/BF (Learned I was the "other guy" AFTERwards >=[)
[+] got in trouble with the police (miscellaneous tickets)
[+] talked to a stranger (Im a cashier =\)
[-] hugged a stranger
[-] kissed a stranger
[-] rode in the car with a stranger
[-] been harassed
[+] been verbally harassed

[+] met face-to-face with someone you met online (Still gotta go see sis ;_;)
[+] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[+] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[+] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[+] been to a fair
[-] been called a bad influence
[-] drank and drove
[-] prank-called someone
[+] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[-] cheated on a test

My total? 45 or 46, depending on the "Grunge" thing.

Wow, I made it to "Very Bad Influence" XD

Tag: Anyone who reads this. GOH DU EET

Expect to see new stuff over the next two days, since i have them off from work. Gonna upload some more pencil work. Hope you all like it! =3

Sorry about the long absence. Monster Hunter owns my soul. it does. I ritualistically killed hundreds of Yian Kut Ku like Voodoo practitioners slay chickens. Good thing Kut Ku's act (and sound, somewhat) like chickens rofl. When I get bored of them I kill Gypceros, which i think act like turkeys lol

Anywho. I have unloaded an image of gratuitous smut for your viewing pleasure. Also. SIREN is being drawn! Yes! Its True! I have pages 1, 2, and 3 penciled. I'm not entirely sure if i want to ink or color them yet, i think i want to establish the comic a little first. Then I'll take gradual steps, into inking, then coloring, then crazy.

Expect more updates from here on out, as I am now successfully fending off urges to play MHFU. Although, once i get an ethernet cable long enough to reach my PS3, I may dissapear for a while again, as I will be able to use Ad Hoc Party to play online with my PSP *girlish squee* I so hope that app comes to the North American market officially, so i won't have to sift through dozens of japanese to find a couple english speakers to play with rofl.

I soooooooooo wanna learn japanese =( (wants to play Monster Hunter Frontier Online sooooooooo bad lol)

well, would you look at that, i live. But why do I smell like bacon??

As many can see, I've posted a slew of new images in the near month that I've been dilly dallying.

I have more images to post, 4 to be specific, but i really wanna color these and redo they text before I post them. Anyone who's watched me for a while will recognize them well XD

I also have a fifth image, a color version of my Jasmine ref, that i wanna do. It needs colors, (probably gonna be flats) and all the text needs to be NOT MY HANDWRITTING as it is horrible, atrocious, and *cues all the bad stuff from the Grinch Who Stole Xmas song* and it shouldnt be touched with a ten and half foot pole.

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Join please! The community is still small, and is friendly. If you need help, Look for a character name ending with -fennec. It will be me rofl. although my wife  angelfennec has a few -fennecs in there too, but she mostly plays Marshmallow lol

Seems the rare and elusive creature known as " Lintu" is being threatened by dark, and diabolical Forces. These forces are also dutch business that clearly have no idea what they are doing.

This is Lintu's journal explaining her distress in more seriously, and far less silly, terms.

Very important! also prizes.

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in other news:

I have failed to kick the MMO habit. (not a surprise)
I found the Ragnarok Online server that my sis is playing on, and have since sunk into a dark hole of depravity that RO brings.

Here is the website for the server i play. Please join, as it is still a small community that needs your support!

Seriously, Almost everyone there is awesome and friendly, especially Tiger, who is awesome enough to let us play on his server. it's fun (read: horrifically addicting) and my guild Space Cadets could always use new members! especially members that can play during WoE hours, since I can't always be there to break emps =\ work sucks.

More other News: I have a large handful of images i need to scan and upload, i just havn't gotten around to it because i am fail. expect them in the next week or so, i got Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday off, so i should have them up on ONE of those days.

Yeah... ya heard right. ¬_¬

Finally toning down the frequency I play MMOs.

Because they eat my -soooooooooooooooooooooooul- °⌂°

I still want to play MMOs, especially the new square-enix MMO, FFXIV, because I'm a hopeless fanboy. However, I restrict myself to play only when my wife,  angelfennec, plays.

She plays, but sparingly, so I will have time to get stuff done (ZOMGWTF!!1!!!1one!!!1!11!!!eleven!two) and still play a little.

WIP: 3 images

2 images: traditional line art: 100%; digital inking: 0%
1 image: traditional line art: 100%; digital inking: 40% approximate as of press time. (lol, always wanted to say that [/dork])

If you want the traditional lines posted, leave a reply. I'm going to check in the morning before I mow the lawn. I skipped last week and Its beginning to look like the yard is going to eat our house. =þ

EDIT: I have made my TRADE status OPEN. If you would like to trade, Note me if you would like a trade!

Got on today and saw this on  Accelo's journal.

Yes, i know, its been ages, but after a few reworkings, I think I've finally settled on something I can stick with.

Main cast has shifted some. Lead roles will be filled by the Triplets: Lina, Mina, and Nina. Jasmine and Lillian have taken a back seat, becoming supporting roles. Rosemary, Vincent, and ...
... ... ...
I have yet to upload a pic of vincent don't I.
...
*slams face into keyboard*

I'll get something of him up, most probably the poster series I bombed out on... *sigh* They suck anyway.

... ... ... I'm a GODS awful slacker, aren't I? Probably need to kick my MMORPG habit altogether. Not like I really stick with one. I get mid way through one, and begin another once the "Grind" sets in. I think thats why I played RO free servers for so many years. EXP rates on most are astronomical. level 1/1 Novice walks outside and stabs a poring (sterotypical goo drop monster) a few times and BAM, level 23/10. Go change jobs. Go out and stab a few poporing (sterotypical alternate color goo monster) and BAM, level 60/50, Change jobs again. then spend a few hours on various monsters of increasing dificulty and your level 255/100 (or 255/120, or 255/150, depending on server)

yeah... sidetracked much.

Rosemary Vincent and Jace will still be support.

New SIREN will follow their exploits through college and careers, maybe saving the universe here and there. Who knows, all sorts of stuff happens when a member of the Cursedwing Family is around. That's mostly coincidence, they swear. Backstory of how Jas and Lil meet, the times when Vincent, Rosemary, and the triplets were born, their eccentric Uncle Beau, and the great multitude of creatures Jas and Lil deal with on a seemingly hourly basis and why they do so will be peppered in. You'll also eventually learn why Jasmine is categorized under "transgender" when pics of her are uploaded. I've probably already given it away in the descriptions of older pics, but oh well.

A very big thank you to everyone who has continued to watch me, despite the long darkness I left this place in for a while. Any upcoming material will probably look a little experimental, as I try new things (like BACKGROUNDS hohshitznoes!) so bear with me. Or I'll chicken out and it will be the same crap over again, who knows.

been suuuuuuuuuuuuuper busy lately.
Work.
House.
School.
Baby.

yup.

BABY!

Born February 17, at 2:57 am EST. we estimate he was approximately 8 lbs when born, but the scale in the room was wonky, so we don't know what he actually was, lol.

getting close to 2 months old at this point, and is already turning into as big of a butthead as me XD

sorry for a lack of updates, I really haven't been drawing lately T_T big art block right now... nothin but really crappy rough sketches, and not many of those. But i do have internet now, and as long as i can keep myself away from my MMORPG addiction, i should produce SOMETHING. eventually. someday. Soon might be too strong a word >_>

I really need to pick up a pencil again <_<

well, its a new year, and yet more procrastination from me. Video Games' are a siren song I find hard to resist...

But damn, though... only a month away from a HUGE life change...
Expecting to be a Daddy around February 6.

Scariest.
Shit.
EVER.

I am working on the new comic. though. Slowly. despite an update for my tablet, its still very hit and miss with the pressure sensitivity. So, I can only do so much before Vista's non-compatability with, well, EVERYTHING buggers the hel outta me and I begin to cry in a corner over the dissapearance of XP and its working with everything I ever wanted it to, other than REALLY old PC games lol.

Holy f$%*ing asscrackers! I live! And I have more arts!
Sorry peeps, lately I've had barely any internet access, sometimes none for weeks, and lately my urge to draw is been dead. I'll try to update when I can.