Yep, I do.

If any of my close friends want to see what I look like that have not seen me yet, send me a message.
I dont like having my face on this site so I will show you in private.

I have started drawing for real now, my good bro  Wolf95 thinks im good. Look at his art.
I made a lot of new friends, and I plan to make more. My goal is to get 3000 page views by my one year of being an FA member.

I am back with my love  TravisDarkFox after a unfortunate separation. But I love him so much and I couldnt ever trade him for anyone. I'm glad I got him back. No one else is as good as him.

I am very happy.

Well I made it through another year alive from the day I came out.

Yep it's my birthday tomorrow, guess what my biggest present is!! Guess right and win a prize!!!

Why do the greatest parts of ones life have to end? God, I wish things didn't have to play out the way they did.

Someone told me once they wouldn't ever leave me but sadly they did. A persons world can crash on that. I never gotten over it because this person meant the world to me. Still do in a way. Life won't be the same with out that person.

Love, even when someone is gone, it still is attach to you. I can't see why they left.

Oh, sorry. I'm not a emo and shouldn't be talking about this stuffs on FA but I just saying this had a huge impact on me. The first time I opened up to someone.

Never forget you.

P.S. Birthdays are coming up. I still have a friends birthday in January as well as mine. Can't believe we have to wait for the end.

Some birthday gift>.>

Well, yes, I have a January birthday. This makes me^^ happy.

What I don't understand is why all my other fur friends have thier birthdays in January too!!!

We need order. And a big party. One or the other, I don't really care which.

GREENBAY IS GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL!!!!!

Anyone up for chess? I'm a great player and I'd love to have a game with any of you.

I can't shake this song! American pie by don McLean.

Bye bye miss American pie.
Drove my chevy o the levy but the levy was dry.
And good ol boys were drinking whiskey and rye
Sing this will Bethesda daythe I die...


Sing it and maybe you too can be like me^^


Another word.... I HATE LIGHT BLUE jEANS

Thy make my butt look fat.

I'm insanely bored. I'm lying in bed with nothing to do. ._. need someone to talk to.

I'm soo excited for my birthday coming up. I want nothing but a nice relaxing day. Im getting older. I remember when I was a lot younger. I remember my childhood friends and all the days we used to play outside with. I had such a awesome childhood. It sucks that it's over. No stress, no worries. I miss those days.

Looking forward to a new year of life though! Better days coming ahead!

Something I'd like for my birthday.... Would be 2000 pageviews hehe

FUNNY FUNNY FUNNY

Dana Carvey as president Bush SR.


soooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny I CRY WITH LAUGHTER!

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/40099.....arvey_as_bush/

Puberty sucks!

Even though it's a time of finding ones self and planning for the future it sucks.
I have thought and thought about what I was going to do with this problem when I happened upon a song in my iPod.

Give Peace a Chance by John Lennon.

I must have listens to it about 6 times because I didn't get enough of the message. I used it as a tool to reflect upon myself and asked questions about the overall picture.

Truth is... I have not been happy in a long time. I have tried so long and hard to find answers for myself but I couldnt. If you are religious let me tell you that I prayed and prayed for an answer. All I got was the same phrase "wait, the answers will come to you."

Apparently they did.

First let me provide a public apology to those I have "disturbed" because I was bitchy.

I told myself,"(real name), you need to grow up!" You preach to family and friends about being happy and yet you are not!" I need to provide for myself before I can help others.

Now I feel whole and complete. Thank you everyone.

"love is all you need"

P.s. Puberty sucks

Yes, thats right folks.

I have done some thinking and I have come to a cross road in my life. I have been going through a lot turmoil and confusion in my life lately. I think the fandom is the source of that. Now before you get all hot tempered and blow up, let me tell you why.

I have come to the fandom about less than a year ago looking to explore this "realm." I guess it was a way of escaping real life. I dont want to turn my back on reality. A guy my age cant deal with both real life and a world of friends and people I will never get to meet. Something doesn't add up.

I have made a lot of friends in the fandom, in fact some have become dangerously close to me. Half of them have developed crushes on me because I have shown them kindness and saw a picture of me. I am ashamed of actually liking that and playing along with some of it. Other friends of mine have made me a little disappointed in them and angry. BUT MOST OF ALL, I have badgered people into becoming my friends, which is never a good idea. Those people deserve an apology and I hope they come to understand me in this journal and see that I'm actually a good guy.

I want to tell you the ugly truth about being human... power. We need it. If you are a sub, you want less power , if you are a dom, you want more power. But that is in sex. In all other aspects of any kind of relationship. I have come to the conclusion that I need friends to be comfortable. Of course I have an excess of friends in real life, but in the fandom; it's a "new world." I feel the need for people to trust me. Maybe thats the way I get my power. =( I'd never blackmail anyone, but its just the sense of being able to manipulate someone is exciting. I WOULD NEVER DO THIS!!!
I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS! It's just a subliminal feeling that makes me safe. I'm sure all of you guys feel the same way.

I had the PERFECT childhood. I grew up with two of the best neighbors in the world! We would play outside together everyday. I could tell you stories of all the fun I had. Thinking of those days calms me. Then I started to grow up.

I want to also put in here the way I see people. This is just to make sure you guys dont think I'm a jerk... I love life! People are the most beautiful things in the world. The art behind a persons mind is incredible! WE ARE CAPABLE OF SO MUCH PEACE AND WONDER! I have some friends that have had problems with suicide. You guys have no idea what you are missing out on. I know the pain you guys go through, Life is hard. Just don't ruin the chance of being happy for most of your life by ending it now when you are in a time of darkness. Life is a gift. Humans look at the world and measure reality on the hardships, lets focus on the positive guys!

I know what your thinking by now. "How can you be having a hard time when you are preaching how to see the good in life!?" The truth is, I am having a hard time deciding how to make my life better. Staying in the fandom could mean staying with best friends or can mean knowing that I cant be friends with some really cool guys, and never see the friends I already have. Leaving on the other hand could mean a clean slate, or can mean living with the fact that I threw away a part of my life that I enjoyed.

2011 has come, and so has my time to make a hard choice.

I want to address a few people personally that have been factors in my life that have made me come to this turning point. THIS IS BY NO MEANS A INSULT! I AM, IN FACT, PRAISING ALL OF YOU GUYS.

 TravisDarkFox This guy has been the first genuine love of mine. It was the best time I ever had. I still love him and dont pass a single day without thinking about him.

 Wolf95 This guy is soooooo smart. What a great artist you are! You have been an awesome best friend to me, and one of the main factors of this decision.

 7FoxFire Same as the last one! This guy is one of the sweetest souls you will ever meet. He has great taste in music. A very good friend of mine.

 FurFox4Ever *chuckles* This guy, oh boy, has made an impact on my fandom life. He looks like a super cool dude to hang out with. Only one small problem. It took me hell to get him to notice me! Most of time he had ignored me. This hurt me big time, but it also made me think of what I'm doing in the fandom. I wish I got to know you. DO NOT TROLL THIS GUY! IF I FIND OUT SOMEONE IS, I WILL BE SUPER PISSED.

 LuckyWolfie This guy is a happy wolf pup. I met him back in August. Dude, you have so much potential... dont ever, ever waste it.

There are many more, I just think I have written enough.

To all of you guys who have read this all the way, I thank you so much.
PLEASE SAY WHAT YOU FEEL LIKE SAYING, just please say something, I want to know people actual listen to one voice.

Whatever I decide please respect it, I am open to opinions. I any of you still want to be in contact with me if i decide to go, talk to me about it and I will see what I feel like doing.

God bless, and Happy New Year

Well, here it is, the end of the year. I have been in the fandom for 3/4 of a year. I have met new people and new friends. I didn't get to 2000 page views that I wanted, but got move on.

To my friends, thanks so much for sticking around with me.

I would like to apologize to all of those people I may have wronged (if any).

If you guys have ideas on how I can be better please tell me.
I hope I'll be able to strengthen my friendship with some of you guys. And if you are one of those guys who dot know me that well PLEASE don't be afraid to say hello.

Well I wish you guys a very happy new year and God bless you all.

Take it away please, it hurts.

My mate left.

I'm turning to stone.

IM GOING TO GO AND SEE IT IN 10 MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey guys, whether you're a friend of mine or a stranger looking for a friend let me tell you about myself.

_____________________________________________________________________________________________

I am a christian- but I have chosen that myself, and I have explored other religions. I have in fact kept some beliefs from eastern religions to fill in the blanks.(No religion is perfect, sorry guys). If you are mature enough to handle a religious conversation I would be delighted to have one with any of you.

I love reading- I have read several classic novels from Frank Herbert's Dune to Aldous Huxley's Brave New World. I love conversation about such books and I am open to new books.

I support world peace- "All you need is love."

I am Bi at the moment, almost gay.- not that much to say about that.

I am very friendly- I make friends easily, I'm sure I'd love to be your friend too^^

I love logic- if we do talk, I would try to keep things logical, and I do use the socratic method, so beware! XD

I am into a lot of music. - There is still a lot of stuff I have not heard. I love alternative rock

I LOVE MOVIES!- yes I watch a ton of different movies.

I am a star trek fan- yes that is the nerdy side of me...XD

I am (or try to be) polite.- yep

Well thats about it for now, Thanks^^

I'm better now, guys. Completely.

Having said that, on to great things.
I CAN JUGGLE NOW. All three balls. Took my a while, but I got the hang of it now!
I also have found out that i was ripped off of my phone company. Im switching to virgin mobile. If anyone I know well enough wants my number, just ask. I'll probably give it to you. See ya!

Here's something to think about.

I dont dream a lot. Maybe its because I'm going to bed too late. But all this week I have been waking up in a dreamlike state thinking I have just lost TravisDarkFox(mate). I then become confused with what is reality. I ask questions. Travis says its nothing. Is it. Boredom spreads over us very easily if we are in contact with each other a lot. This is something to ponder over.

I feel like Neo from the matrix.

you heard right folks! this brilliant artist needs cameos for a comic!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1772564/

think ur worthy?

I made it, i made it to a thousand pagrview.

thanks guys, or everything

lets make another 1000

dont ask me why

dont ask me how

dont ask whats wrong

i just am

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1750881/


a very good friend of mine is drawing pictures for people he DOES NOT KNOW.

Sorry i didn't talk for a while.

I jailbroke my ipod....AND IT ROCKS.

One more thing....im more and more bored....if you want to talk to an amazing super cool guy, look for one. LOL Then theres me, I wanna talk to you. You will find my to be a very friendly person.

I need food.

I am going to start drawing. That will hopefully raise me pageviews. The rate of increase for pageviews has dropped. I dont like that. XP Common ppl, lets break a thousand.

No, with all seriousness, you guys who stood by me for this long a time are so good. You know who you are, you are awesome friends.
You guys who dont know me nor these awesome peeps are missing out.



Part 2:



If you need to know basic stuff about me here it is...

I like alternative rock the most.
I am christian
I am a total ladies man(watch out girls)
I am not a total guys man (lol, sorry kiddos)
I am a star trek fan (original series)
I am a Dune Fan (Classic Book series)
I dont get as angry as much as most people (too mature for that XP)
I seem to have a weak lvl of ESP unlike some of my furry friends who are so much cooler at that.
I am learning chinese
I love hugs
I have never kissed anyone before (shut up)
I am a Twilight fan(XP) Go team Jacob

Part 3

It took a while to think of all that stuff XP.

That should show you how smart I am. J/K
Well that's it for now.

Contact me if you want.
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