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ps4 furs?
Posted 11 years agoso my brothers patrick and robby have told me they are getting me a ps4 for my birthday and im really exited so im just wondering who are my ps4 furry friends?
need a room at rainfurrest
Posted 11 years agoi have a awesome friend helping me to get to rainfurrest but i sadly don't have a room and was wondering if any furr would be nice enough to open their room for me
need a room at rainfurrest
Posted 11 years agoi have a awesome friend helping me to get to rainfurrest but i sadly don't have a room and was wondering if any furr would be nice enough to open their room for me
foot ball fan?
Posted 11 years agowell come and join the fun for the first game of the season and possibly win free art^^
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:42119323
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:42119323
The Rhyme....
Posted 11 years agoHold your breath, while you watch me fall.
It's easier to say nothing at all.
I need a friend, playing pretend's not working.
These pills are useless and the shadows keep lurking.
Let me go, there's nothing left inside.
To run and hide is all I know to survive.
The nightmare won't end, this life grows colder.
Come wake me up when it's all over.
Some of us made it, but no one deserved it.
I'm silent, I'm screaming. Sticks and stones was the
rhyme that they taught us to fight off our monsters,
to help numb the darkness. But what they forgot was
is you don't need to break my bones for you to break me.
The voices won't stop, don't let me be alone.
Please someone, I just wanna' go back home.
Lock the door, I'm rotting in my room.
I hope tomorrow doesn't come too soon.
My tears ran dry, my heart's suffocating.
The bruises and I are slowly fading.
Make it stop, there's whispers in my head.
The mirrors echo everything they've said.
To rise and shine is so hard to do
when all the light has been taken from you.
Some of us made it, but no one deserved it.
I'm silent, I'm screaming. Sticks and stones was the
rhyme that they taught us to fight off our monsters,
to help numb the darkness. But what they forgot was
is you don't need to break my bones for you to break me.
The voices won't stop, don't let me be alone.
Please someone, I just wanna' go back home.
I remember every story they wrote on my back.
Bruises like words tattooed into my skin in blue and black ink.
I remember every kitchen sink surgery where family had to stitch me back together.
I remember every happily ever after that never came to pass.
We didn't go to school in fairy tales.
We went to school in all the gory details of a horror story while monsters made us victims of their comedy
We, the recipients of their punch lines they hung insults around our necks like signs inviting anyone to join in.
Their words were invisible ink that they tattooed upon our skin.
Some of us made it, but no one deserved it.
I'm silent, I'm screaming. Sticks and stones was the
rhyme that they taught us to fight off our monsters,
to help numb the darkness. But what they forgot was
is you don't need to break my bones for you to break me.
The voices won't stop, don't let me be alone.
Please someone, I just wanna' go back -.
I know that I'm stronger, broken heart of a fighter.
My scars remind me that I'm a survivor.
This life is a tough game and I don't wanna' play it.
I'm reaching for a hand, help me make it.
But it's too much, so I give up,
just please don't hate me.
My letter's on the pillow, with a kiss goodbye.
I'm sorry, Mom. But I promise that I tried.
.........https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOkXqM3c0qA
It's easier to say nothing at all.
I need a friend, playing pretend's not working.
These pills are useless and the shadows keep lurking.
Let me go, there's nothing left inside.
To run and hide is all I know to survive.
The nightmare won't end, this life grows colder.
Come wake me up when it's all over.
Some of us made it, but no one deserved it.
I'm silent, I'm screaming. Sticks and stones was the
rhyme that they taught us to fight off our monsters,
to help numb the darkness. But what they forgot was
is you don't need to break my bones for you to break me.
The voices won't stop, don't let me be alone.
Please someone, I just wanna' go back home.
Lock the door, I'm rotting in my room.
I hope tomorrow doesn't come too soon.
My tears ran dry, my heart's suffocating.
The bruises and I are slowly fading.
Make it stop, there's whispers in my head.
The mirrors echo everything they've said.
To rise and shine is so hard to do
when all the light has been taken from you.
Some of us made it, but no one deserved it.
I'm silent, I'm screaming. Sticks and stones was the
rhyme that they taught us to fight off our monsters,
to help numb the darkness. But what they forgot was
is you don't need to break my bones for you to break me.
The voices won't stop, don't let me be alone.
Please someone, I just wanna' go back home.
I remember every story they wrote on my back.
Bruises like words tattooed into my skin in blue and black ink.
I remember every kitchen sink surgery where family had to stitch me back together.
I remember every happily ever after that never came to pass.
We didn't go to school in fairy tales.
We went to school in all the gory details of a horror story while monsters made us victims of their comedy
We, the recipients of their punch lines they hung insults around our necks like signs inviting anyone to join in.
Their words were invisible ink that they tattooed upon our skin.
Some of us made it, but no one deserved it.
I'm silent, I'm screaming. Sticks and stones was the
rhyme that they taught us to fight off our monsters,
to help numb the darkness. But what they forgot was
is you don't need to break my bones for you to break me.
The voices won't stop, don't let me be alone.
Please someone, I just wanna' go back -.
I know that I'm stronger, broken heart of a fighter.
My scars remind me that I'm a survivor.
This life is a tough game and I don't wanna' play it.
I'm reaching for a hand, help me make it.
But it's too much, so I give up,
just please don't hate me.
My letter's on the pillow, with a kiss goodbye.
I'm sorry, Mom. But I promise that I tried.
.........https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOkXqM3c0qA
kelsey's purfume...
Posted 11 years agoDo I imagine it, or do I see your stare?
Is there still longing there?
Oh I hate myself, and I feel crazy
Such a classic tale
I wanna fill the room when she’s in it with you
Please don’t forget me
Do I imagine it, or catch these moments?
I know you got history
But I’m your girlfriend, now I’m your girlfriend trying to be cool
I hope I’m paranoid, that I’m just seeing things, that I’m just insecure
I want to believe
It’s just you and me
Sometimes it feels like there’s three of us in here, baby
So I wait for you to call
And I try to act natural
Have you been thinking ’bout her or about me?
And while I wait I put on my perfume,
Yeah, I want it all over you
I'm gonna mark my territory
I’ll never tell, tell on myself but I hope she smells my perfume
I hide it well, hope you can’t tell but I hope she smells my perfume
i just hope he dosn't leave me.....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsO1UsFMuaY
Is there still longing there?
Oh I hate myself, and I feel crazy
Such a classic tale
I wanna fill the room when she’s in it with you
Please don’t forget me
Do I imagine it, or catch these moments?
I know you got history
But I’m your girlfriend, now I’m your girlfriend trying to be cool
I hope I’m paranoid, that I’m just seeing things, that I’m just insecure
I want to believe
It’s just you and me
Sometimes it feels like there’s three of us in here, baby
So I wait for you to call
And I try to act natural
Have you been thinking ’bout her or about me?
And while I wait I put on my perfume,
Yeah, I want it all over you
I'm gonna mark my territory
I’ll never tell, tell on myself but I hope she smells my perfume
I hide it well, hope you can’t tell but I hope she smells my perfume
i just hope he dosn't leave me.....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsO1UsFMuaY
None of my business
Posted 11 years agoi always see ppl posting journals about how these hoes ain't loyal crying that your bae cheated on you but you got 16 pets and 9 different masters...... thats none of my business
sighs...
Posted 11 years agoi feel like nothing i ever do is right and i just want to crawl under a rock and hide away from the world..sighs..and relationships that were once there feel distant and strained...i just need a huge hug and a shoulder to cry on for awhile...ill be ok im gonna go hide....bye...
he just walked away
Why didn't he tell me?
And where do I go tonight?
This isn't happening to me
This can't be happening to me
he didn't say a word
Just walked away
You were the first to say
That we were not okay
You were the first to lie
When we were not alright
this was my first love
he was the first to go
And when he left me for you
I was the last to know
Why didn't she tell me
Where to go tonight?
he didn't say word
he just walked away
You were the first to say
That we were not okay
You were the first to lie
When we were not alright
this was my first love
he was the first to go
And when he left me for you
I was the last to know
I'll be the first to say
That now I'm okay
And for the first time
I've opened up my eyes
This was my worst love
You'll be the first to go
And when he leaves you for dead
You'll be the last to know ....
Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...
So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight
So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a saint...
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away - you're all the same...
It all goes back to the first kiss
It was the one I thought I'd never miss
Maybe we were one of the lucky ones
Maybe I'm just not quite strong enough
This was supposed to be the easy part
But breaking down is what I found hard
Now I'm wearing this smile that I don't believe in
Inside I feel like screaming
She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one
But my doubts somehow they sold me out
I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away
I'm finding out in the hardest way
The consequence of every mistake I've ever made
Baby what's it like to be alone?
(Baby, what's it like to be alone)
I don't want to know, I don't want to know
She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one
But my doubts somehow they sold me out
I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away
So baby be honest
Is this what you wanted?
We lost what we started
And found out much more than we want to know
(More than we want to know)
About how we're letting go
(About how we're letting go)
So baby be honest
Is this what you wanted?
We lost what we started
And found out much more than we want to know
I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away.....
Torn in two she lies awake
The moon lights up the room like day
Another night she spends alone
Without his touch her skin so cold
The blood that's running through her veins
With every beat there's no escape
Lost in everything she trusts
Still can't seem to get enough
Even though the world she loved
It won't ever be the way it was
And his heart of stone left her's breaking.
Every night she cries
And dies a little more each time
Say you love me
Nothing left inside
Say you love me
And the silence will set her free
Memories they take her back
Every moment fades to black
Every kiss and every taste
She wishes time would ease the pain
Even though the world she loved
It won't ever be the way it was
And her heart is weak her hands are shaking
Every night she cries
And dies a little more each time
Say you love me
Nothing left inside
Say you love me
And the silence will set her free
And every night she cries
I don't know if I'll ever make this right
Cause I am just so broken by the bitterness of loneliness
And I'm so scared of this
I don't know if I'll ever make this right
Cause I am just so broken by the bitterness of loneliness
And I'm so scared
Even though the world she loved
It won't ever be the way it was
And his heart of stone left her's breaking
Every night she cries
And dies a little more each time
Say you love me
Nothing left inside
Say you love me
And the silence will set her free
..idk if i'll ever be free...
he just walked away
Why didn't he tell me?
And where do I go tonight?
This isn't happening to me
This can't be happening to me
he didn't say a word
Just walked away
You were the first to say
That we were not okay
You were the first to lie
When we were not alright
this was my first love
he was the first to go
And when he left me for you
I was the last to know
Why didn't she tell me
Where to go tonight?
he didn't say word
he just walked away
You were the first to say
That we were not okay
You were the first to lie
When we were not alright
this was my first love
he was the first to go
And when he left me for you
I was the last to know
I'll be the first to say
That now I'm okay
And for the first time
I've opened up my eyes
This was my worst love
You'll be the first to go
And when he leaves you for dead
You'll be the last to know ....
Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...
So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight
So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a saint...
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away - you're all the same...
It all goes back to the first kiss
It was the one I thought I'd never miss
Maybe we were one of the lucky ones
Maybe I'm just not quite strong enough
This was supposed to be the easy part
But breaking down is what I found hard
Now I'm wearing this smile that I don't believe in
Inside I feel like screaming
She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one
But my doubts somehow they sold me out
I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away
I'm finding out in the hardest way
The consequence of every mistake I've ever made
Baby what's it like to be alone?
(Baby, what's it like to be alone)
I don't want to know, I don't want to know
She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one
But my doubts somehow they sold me out
I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away
So baby be honest
Is this what you wanted?
We lost what we started
And found out much more than we want to know
(More than we want to know)
About how we're letting go
(About how we're letting go)
So baby be honest
Is this what you wanted?
We lost what we started
And found out much more than we want to know
I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away.....
Torn in two she lies awake
The moon lights up the room like day
Another night she spends alone
Without his touch her skin so cold
The blood that's running through her veins
With every beat there's no escape
Lost in everything she trusts
Still can't seem to get enough
Even though the world she loved
It won't ever be the way it was
And his heart of stone left her's breaking.
Every night she cries
And dies a little more each time
Say you love me
Nothing left inside
Say you love me
And the silence will set her free
Memories they take her back
Every moment fades to black
Every kiss and every taste
She wishes time would ease the pain
Even though the world she loved
It won't ever be the way it was
And her heart is weak her hands are shaking
Every night she cries
And dies a little more each time
Say you love me
Nothing left inside
Say you love me
And the silence will set her free
And every night she cries
I don't know if I'll ever make this right
Cause I am just so broken by the bitterness of loneliness
And I'm so scared of this
I don't know if I'll ever make this right
Cause I am just so broken by the bitterness of loneliness
And I'm so scared
Even though the world she loved
It won't ever be the way it was
And his heart of stone left her's breaking
Every night she cries
And dies a little more each time
Say you love me
Nothing left inside
Say you love me
And the silence will set her free
..idk if i'll ever be free...
shatter me!!!!!!!
Posted 11 years agoI pirouette in the dark
I see the stars through me
Tired mechanical heart
Beats until the song disappears
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Shatter me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
If only the clockwork could speak
I wouldn't be so alone
We burn every magnet and spring
And spiral into the unknown
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Shatter me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
If i break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's no one to catch me if I take a dive
I'm scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in vain
If I break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's no one to catch me if I take a dive
I'm scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in vain
(Hold me)
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Shatter me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
..only my closest friends will understand...
on my flight out
Posted 11 years agoim headed out the door and on my plane so wish me a safe trip^^
just broken..to jamie from jasper
Posted 11 years agoI wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
i hope your ok jamie...
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
i hope your ok jamie...
i want to let go...but cant......
Posted 11 years agoLithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.
Darling, I forgive you... After all,
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with you.
I'm gonna let it go.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.
Darling, I forgive you... After all,
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with you.
I'm gonna let it go.
sighs
Posted 11 years agoNot feeling the best a little hurt.. buet eh.. im just a pet so i guess im just gonna stay silent...
thank you..
Posted 11 years agoso for that past i wanna say 4 months i have been talking with a fur and sharing a lot of personal details with him but the more i talked to him (even though he was straight) i fell for him pretty hard and he considers me his best friend and maybe more but hes so uncomferble with the whole being gay senario that i feel hes been distancing himself and i have noticed it and not said anything cause i dont by any means want to change him but i just love him so damn much and.. i cant let it go no matter how hard i have tried..i even brought the idea up as usoing my female chara's for rp and he found it ok i guess but i think he was still seeing me so it wasn't anything special like i wanted it to be .. but anyway im just at a lose.. why do all the nice guys have to be straight.. i mean alot of the gays i know are just in it for a fuck and go... not a relationship.. sighs.. idk what to do but be his friend and love him silently and afar... so with that i say thank you.. this song from celine dion describes it..
Down and out, all alone
Sitting here, sad and ooh
The sun is now going down
It's kinda cold, seeking refuge
I trust a friendly face
Or maybe just a smile
Someone that understands
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…
Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am
Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
For the real sacrifice and the truth
Behind your giving heart
And how you'd never judge or faulted me
Helped me 'cause you wanted to
And for your friendly face
And for just your smiles
Simply understanding that
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…
Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am
Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
'Cause when no one else would care you did
And when no one else was there you were
Now I am so aware
You're a blessing to me
What did I do to deserve…
To deserve you…
There's no words
That could describe
That could describe
How much I…
Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
For everything I am
Thank you… Thank you… Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
i mean it.. thank you....
Down and out, all alone
Sitting here, sad and ooh
The sun is now going down
It's kinda cold, seeking refuge
I trust a friendly face
Or maybe just a smile
Someone that understands
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…
Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am
Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
For the real sacrifice and the truth
Behind your giving heart
And how you'd never judge or faulted me
Helped me 'cause you wanted to
And for your friendly face
And for just your smiles
Simply understanding that
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…
Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am
Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
'Cause when no one else would care you did
And when no one else was there you were
Now I am so aware
You're a blessing to me
What did I do to deserve…
To deserve you…
There's no words
That could describe
That could describe
How much I…
Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
For everything I am
Thank you… Thank you… Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…
i mean it.. thank you....
game of thrones
Posted 11 years agoi just started watching season 1 and i have to say i regret putting it off for so long
game of thrones
Posted 11 years agoi just started watching season 1 and i have to say i regret putting it off for so long
poison apple
Posted 11 years agoNow I've got you where I want
thoughts of love,
I will haunt.
Now I've got you where I want
Baby burn burn with my sexual desire
Turning up the heat till we fucking in the fire
Ripe like an apple, if my body is the temple
I'll seduce you with my chapel, make it violent like a battle
Oh my fuck, dripping with my sin
Take a bite, Snow White, and let the sorcery begin
I'll wrap myself around you
Constricting as I sink deep into you
Take a bite of my apple, let me poison you
Which one of these sins do you choose?
You were after me like a moth to the flame
When you should have never ever loved a snake
I'm the poison apple
Your final death rattle
Snuffing out the candle
Your life becomes unravelled
Your violent dreams will come true
If you want it come and get it
This is the moment of your life
And you hate it, you try to fight it
But you're giving in tonight
I'm a trail blazer
I'm a hell raiser
I'm a freak of nature
Malificent behaviour
It's just the apple, it is just for you
Your violent dreams will come true
Now I've got you where I want...
botdf
i dedicate this song to someone verry special to me^^
thoughts of love,
I will haunt.
Now I've got you where I want
Baby burn burn with my sexual desire
Turning up the heat till we fucking in the fire
Ripe like an apple, if my body is the temple
I'll seduce you with my chapel, make it violent like a battle
Oh my fuck, dripping with my sin
Take a bite, Snow White, and let the sorcery begin
I'll wrap myself around you
Constricting as I sink deep into you
Take a bite of my apple, let me poison you
Which one of these sins do you choose?
You were after me like a moth to the flame
When you should have never ever loved a snake
I'm the poison apple
Your final death rattle
Snuffing out the candle
Your life becomes unravelled
Your violent dreams will come true
If you want it come and get it
This is the moment of your life
And you hate it, you try to fight it
But you're giving in tonight
I'm a trail blazer
I'm a hell raiser
I'm a freak of nature
Malificent behaviour
It's just the apple, it is just for you
Your violent dreams will come true
Now I've got you where I want...
botdf
i dedicate this song to someone verry special to me^^
you're mine...time machine..where's my wonderland?....
Posted 11 years agoI can't seem to live without your love
Suffocating here by myself dying for your touch
Springtime eyes that get you every time
And I just can't seem to give you up
You're mine
Summer days and summer nights
When I felt you in my arms
Didn't I want you badly
Wanted to let you have me
Autumn days and stormy nights
When you crush me with your charms
Didn't I need you madly
Now I'm lying falling apart
Oh
You make me feel
Like love would never end
Tell me how can I forget that
My baby we were the best
I suffer dreams of you all through the night
And baby I can't seem to
Give you up
You're mine..
at least thats what i thought
but i lost you because of all the jealiously i brought..
i drove you away and ive hurt myself and most importantly you
i thought my actions were right but i was the fool...
now i lay in my bed curled up in a ball
crying so hard i want to punch a hole in the wall..
but what sense would that make
when all along i was acting fake..
i hated that you got her and brought her into our life
but i wanted you to be happy and not cause any strife...
and now your gone and its my fault
and im tearing up as my wounds get filled with salt...
i just wish i acted better and more understanding
but i blew up and caused this horrible thing...
now all i wish is to be held by you..
but i pissed you off and pushed you away and thinking it will happen any time soon would make me a fool...
is there is anything i wish it would be to turn back time and stop myself.. maybe then things would be better.. you would still be my daddy and i'd be your good boy.. i just hope things will blow over because truth be told.. i miss you more then you may know..im truely sorry for everything and i love you so much i just want to talk and have everything be back to normal.. please talk to me daddy.. please... i miss you...
Remembering when we were so perfect
And now it's so broken; words left unspoken
Remembering when we laughed for for hours
And now it's so silent, decayed like a flower
I am a ship lost at sea
Forever is what you mean to me
All the time I feel guilty
For leaving you behind; I feel so empty
And now in due time, I just stay high
And try to forgot that you're not on the mind
Time's too slow for those who wait
Time's too fast even if you hesitate
Time's too short for regrets
Funny how they say it helps you forget
If I could build a time machine
I'd take it back to you
If I could build a time machine
I know what I would do
I'd take it back to the past
And I would make us last
If I could build a time machine
I'd take it back to you
I'd rewind the time when you were mine
And relive those moments with you..
please come back... i know this probably wont help you take me back but all i can do is try because i cant take this... my heart has been in shambles since you left. please help me put it back together...
Down you fell, deep into your mind
Off to wonderland, leaving what's real behind
You're a riddle I can't seem to read
Your love a fairytale, too hard to believe
Your cup runs over with emptiness
Chasing the hare of your innocence
Hide behind your cheshire smile
Once was vivid, was gray all the while
Broken and sad as the tarnish on your crown
Nowhere to go but down
Caught up in yourself, nowhere to be found
No other way but down
Down, down, down
Down, down, down
Say your farewell too what's real
Like the pain that you feel
Welcome to Wonderland (It's dead)
Eat me or drink me
Seeing is believing
Wonderland, baby,
It's all my your head...
i know where it went.. i killed it.. my jealiously like the plague destroyed it bit by bit till all i know see is a decayed and baren land.. i want to put life back into it.. but with my heart in shambles its imposible.. can you help me repare my wonderland....
a broken boy...
Suffocating here by myself dying for your touch
Springtime eyes that get you every time
And I just can't seem to give you up
You're mine
Summer days and summer nights
When I felt you in my arms
Didn't I want you badly
Wanted to let you have me
Autumn days and stormy nights
When you crush me with your charms
Didn't I need you madly
Now I'm lying falling apart
Oh
You make me feel
Like love would never end
Tell me how can I forget that
My baby we were the best
I suffer dreams of you all through the night
And baby I can't seem to
Give you up
You're mine..
at least thats what i thought
but i lost you because of all the jealiously i brought..
i drove you away and ive hurt myself and most importantly you
i thought my actions were right but i was the fool...
now i lay in my bed curled up in a ball
crying so hard i want to punch a hole in the wall..
but what sense would that make
when all along i was acting fake..
i hated that you got her and brought her into our life
but i wanted you to be happy and not cause any strife...
and now your gone and its my fault
and im tearing up as my wounds get filled with salt...
i just wish i acted better and more understanding
but i blew up and caused this horrible thing...
now all i wish is to be held by you..
but i pissed you off and pushed you away and thinking it will happen any time soon would make me a fool...
is there is anything i wish it would be to turn back time and stop myself.. maybe then things would be better.. you would still be my daddy and i'd be your good boy.. i just hope things will blow over because truth be told.. i miss you more then you may know..im truely sorry for everything and i love you so much i just want to talk and have everything be back to normal.. please talk to me daddy.. please... i miss you...
Remembering when we were so perfect
And now it's so broken; words left unspoken
Remembering when we laughed for for hours
And now it's so silent, decayed like a flower
I am a ship lost at sea
Forever is what you mean to me
All the time I feel guilty
For leaving you behind; I feel so empty
And now in due time, I just stay high
And try to forgot that you're not on the mind
Time's too slow for those who wait
Time's too fast even if you hesitate
Time's too short for regrets
Funny how they say it helps you forget
If I could build a time machine
I'd take it back to you
If I could build a time machine
I know what I would do
I'd take it back to the past
And I would make us last
If I could build a time machine
I'd take it back to you
I'd rewind the time when you were mine
And relive those moments with you..
please come back... i know this probably wont help you take me back but all i can do is try because i cant take this... my heart has been in shambles since you left. please help me put it back together...
Down you fell, deep into your mind
Off to wonderland, leaving what's real behind
You're a riddle I can't seem to read
Your love a fairytale, too hard to believe
Your cup runs over with emptiness
Chasing the hare of your innocence
Hide behind your cheshire smile
Once was vivid, was gray all the while
Broken and sad as the tarnish on your crown
Nowhere to go but down
Caught up in yourself, nowhere to be found
No other way but down
Down, down, down
Down, down, down
Say your farewell too what's real
Like the pain that you feel
Welcome to Wonderland (It's dead)
Eat me or drink me
Seeing is believing
Wonderland, baby,
It's all my your head...
i know where it went.. i killed it.. my jealiously like the plague destroyed it bit by bit till all i know see is a decayed and baren land.. i want to put life back into it.. but with my heart in shambles its imposible.. can you help me repare my wonderland....
a broken boy...
please forgive me
Posted 11 years agoOne day i woke up and you weren't there, I looked around frantically and then i realized life's not fair. I fucked up my future with you,Now I'm so lost I don't know what to do.I pull my knees to my chest as I let my head fall onto them and I start to cry.My chest hurts cause I realize you will never ever again want to be mine.May be if I didn't bitch and nag you about what you do and how we lived,You might have stayed with me and showed me how much love you had to give . But NO! I drove you away,Into the arms of another and I hurt when I saw how much you two loved each other.I tried to move on and cover my emotions but you saw right through me and the one you were with exploited them and rubbed it in my face.Making me feel so worthless.I distanced myself from you.Hoping I would get over it and it worked slightly. Just as I thought I moved on I realized i started listening to the music you always liked. One day with some friends we saw you at the park and we met up.Felling confident that I could just see you as a friend stood well and my walls sturdy.We all went to your house where I used to stay and all of the nostalgia of our old relationship hit me and broke my walls..I did the best I could to keep up my mask but before i left you made me smile like I did way back when As you hugged me I shattered like a crystal on a concrete floor. On my way home I did the best to hold my tears back,When I went I crawled into bed they streamed down my face and started soaking my pillows.. They continued without any sigh of letting up. So I curled into my ball and cried more as I lay there picking up my shattered self and make mask after mask to hide my true self. All I want is to rewind time so I can fix what I broke.But sadly the world dose not work that way and I don't want to remove you from my life and I hope between us there is no strife.I hope one day to get past this so we can become friends.. But until then I will be here making my masks until I find the one who will love me so I don't have to.......
Please,Forgive Me....
an old poem that i wrote about an ex..
Please,Forgive Me....
an old poem that i wrote about an ex..
tiger's curse series
Posted 12 years agook so i just got done reading the tiger's curse series and its a great action romance novel and i'll post a like to the site but if any other furs out there have read it please feel free to note me i'd love to have a conversation about the series and i encurage furs to go out and pick it up its an amazing read^^
http://www.tigerscursebook.com/
http://www.tigerscursebook.com/
angels & airwaves
Posted 12 years agoSo don't get lost tonight
Never let the ignorance cost ya life
You can make it, keep ya fingers crossed tonight
Put your headphones on and turn off the lights....
If you’re contemplating suicide, this is for you
See this is for the moments when ya alone and with emotion
So fucking bored leaves you mentally frozen
When ya cold and alone heart open and broken
When that loves outta sight and your hearts into focus
When ya floating in oceans hopeless soaking in misery
Headphones on you link yourself with the synergy
When you watch your mind and ya lost in a song, be strong
You are not alone, I just want you to know you are not alone
There's angels in the airwaves tonight
And I've been running all of my life
And I need you to stay, I need you to stay
Angels in the airwaves tonight
This for all the moments when your weakness is your cloak
And people you love most just beat you to a pulp
When you cut open your wrist looking for loving and slits
But find nothing but self hate cause nothing exists
See this for all the moments when they don't understand
And they ain't where you stand
And they can't comprehend
They just staring from the outside
And then they judging your in, when they
Kick you and beat you and hurt you then leave you
Laying on the ground like you half and they equal
Gladly defeat you then laugh to your face
When you feel all alone, when ya so outta place
They can't relate to this pain
They don't feel how I feel
So don't get lost tonight
Never let the ignorance cost ya life
You can make it, keep ya fingers crossed tonight
Put your headphones on and turn off the lights....
When the girl that you love won't look in your direction
When the guy you like adds you to his fucking collection
When you all dressed in black
And they whisper and snicker
When they make you feel wrong for being so different
This for everybody who knows what it is
To feel like nothing but a memory that won't be relived
That this the fucking shit that everyone forgets
The words on the tip of tongues that gets swallowed with the spit
See I know how it feels
I've been there before
I had head in my hands and my heart on the floor
I've been worthless and shattered
I've been nothing to people
I know what it is to have to force them to see you
I've been running now
I'm outta here today
I've been running now
Questioning my faith
There's angels in the...
So when you feel so invisible you're not even sure you exist
So you cut yourself open just to see if you real
You numb yourself with drugs just to hide what you feel
You drink the washed up pain in hopes of rejecting it afterwards
You live everyday wishing you could rewind your life backwards
Because you wanna figure out where the fuck you went wrong
Cause everything in your world ain't been right for so long
I know how it feels
So this is for you
If you're thinking it now
If you're wanting to die
If you're thinking it out
You are so much more than you are in this moment
You never know how great you can be
Don't give up on you
I didn't gave up on me
Angel Haze
ive been going though a really bad rough patch with family and work irl and something in me snapped.. i wanted to just crawl in a corner and be forgotten and i heard this song by angel haze.. and i swear she has saved me..from my depression at times..i just thank everything for her music..he really is a true artist.. thank you angle haze..
Never let the ignorance cost ya life
You can make it, keep ya fingers crossed tonight
Put your headphones on and turn off the lights....
If you’re contemplating suicide, this is for you
See this is for the moments when ya alone and with emotion
So fucking bored leaves you mentally frozen
When ya cold and alone heart open and broken
When that loves outta sight and your hearts into focus
When ya floating in oceans hopeless soaking in misery
Headphones on you link yourself with the synergy
When you watch your mind and ya lost in a song, be strong
You are not alone, I just want you to know you are not alone
There's angels in the airwaves tonight
And I've been running all of my life
And I need you to stay, I need you to stay
Angels in the airwaves tonight
This for all the moments when your weakness is your cloak
And people you love most just beat you to a pulp
When you cut open your wrist looking for loving and slits
But find nothing but self hate cause nothing exists
See this for all the moments when they don't understand
And they ain't where you stand
And they can't comprehend
They just staring from the outside
And then they judging your in, when they
Kick you and beat you and hurt you then leave you
Laying on the ground like you half and they equal
Gladly defeat you then laugh to your face
When you feel all alone, when ya so outta place
They can't relate to this pain
They don't feel how I feel
So don't get lost tonight
Never let the ignorance cost ya life
You can make it, keep ya fingers crossed tonight
Put your headphones on and turn off the lights....
When the girl that you love won't look in your direction
When the guy you like adds you to his fucking collection
When you all dressed in black
And they whisper and snicker
When they make you feel wrong for being so different
This for everybody who knows what it is
To feel like nothing but a memory that won't be relived
That this the fucking shit that everyone forgets
The words on the tip of tongues that gets swallowed with the spit
See I know how it feels
I've been there before
I had head in my hands and my heart on the floor
I've been worthless and shattered
I've been nothing to people
I know what it is to have to force them to see you
I've been running now
I'm outta here today
I've been running now
Questioning my faith
There's angels in the...
So when you feel so invisible you're not even sure you exist
So you cut yourself open just to see if you real
You numb yourself with drugs just to hide what you feel
You drink the washed up pain in hopes of rejecting it afterwards
You live everyday wishing you could rewind your life backwards
Because you wanna figure out where the fuck you went wrong
Cause everything in your world ain't been right for so long
I know how it feels
So this is for you
If you're thinking it now
If you're wanting to die
If you're thinking it out
You are so much more than you are in this moment
You never know how great you can be
Don't give up on you
I didn't gave up on me
Angel Haze
ive been going though a really bad rough patch with family and work irl and something in me snapped.. i wanted to just crawl in a corner and be forgotten and i heard this song by angel haze.. and i swear she has saved me..from my depression at times..i just thank everything for her music..he really is a true artist.. thank you angle haze..
fall for your typre
Posted 12 years agoYou are an oceans breeze, I am a title wave
You every paragraph, I'm just the tittle page
You have the heart I hold exactly where you desire it
It's all so effortless, like what you did to acquire it
Each time I find it harder just to keep my composure
I'm tryina show you all of me like indecent exposure
Look, I'll be the gun
You be my holster
I need your love, I need you closer
Seems like forever when only an hour past
We fallin' slower then grains of salt in an hour glass
Emotions runnin' wild
You are who tames them
My only means for tranquility, you my sanctum
And if I could I'd take your eyes and make them blend in with the stars
So whenever we ain't together I'll see still them from afar
But that's insane
I'll do whatever just to feel you
Even all of that don't come close to what I will do
They say love hole the power to
Fulfill you, heal you, kill you, hurt and abuse you
Take away from what you use to
I'm tryina paint a picture, like a canvas plain
To try to put together words like a scrabble game
Look, I poured my heart out in an effort just to win you
And I defy my actions solely so they won't offend you
I mean I would wrestle time, even if it get re-winded
Everything you lookin' for, in me is where you find it
So you can stop your searchin' baby
I know you hurtin' baby
Your self-esteem so low sometimes that you feel worthless baby
Okay, you hide it well
But you know I can tell
I see right threw that bullshit that you be tryina sell
So let it drop, let it fall
Let it blow with the wind
I told you once, I told you twice and I'm a tell you once again
That I'll be here, yeah said I'll be here
And, if love is blind, then my mental clear
And all we have is time
And good intentions
Fuck you brake, fuck your suspensions
Put your foot up on that gas
And drive 'till you don't see your past
I said drive 'till your vision blurs
And let my voice tell our story
[Spoken words:]
Fuck let them hate we where they never was
And fuckin' Shakespeare couldn't of wrote a better love
But people tell me that I'm trippin, I say you different
And when they ask me how, I can't provide a description, you don't need one
I would disconnect them all, like a broken joint
Just to prove I only see you like a focal point
I know that the distances, may cause complications
But you make me feel good, fucked up, exonerated
Still I wonder what you like beneath the shackles that you wearin'
I've been longin' to release you from a load that's overbearin'
Tell me, are you protected by your guard boo?
Or could I blow and make it fall like cards do
And I ain't interested 'till it involves you
You got your doors locked and I just saw through
You reached the height of loneliness, cause we all do
But everything that goes up gotta fall to
I always fall for your type, yeah, for your type
Tell me why I always fall for your type, for your type
I just can't explain this shit at all, fall for your type
I just can't explain this shit at all, fall for your type
I believe in people like you
angel haze
You every paragraph, I'm just the tittle page
You have the heart I hold exactly where you desire it
It's all so effortless, like what you did to acquire it
Each time I find it harder just to keep my composure
I'm tryina show you all of me like indecent exposure
Look, I'll be the gun
You be my holster
I need your love, I need you closer
Seems like forever when only an hour past
We fallin' slower then grains of salt in an hour glass
Emotions runnin' wild
You are who tames them
My only means for tranquility, you my sanctum
And if I could I'd take your eyes and make them blend in with the stars
So whenever we ain't together I'll see still them from afar
But that's insane
I'll do whatever just to feel you
Even all of that don't come close to what I will do
They say love hole the power to
Fulfill you, heal you, kill you, hurt and abuse you
Take away from what you use to
I'm tryina paint a picture, like a canvas plain
To try to put together words like a scrabble game
Look, I poured my heart out in an effort just to win you
And I defy my actions solely so they won't offend you
I mean I would wrestle time, even if it get re-winded
Everything you lookin' for, in me is where you find it
So you can stop your searchin' baby
I know you hurtin' baby
Your self-esteem so low sometimes that you feel worthless baby
Okay, you hide it well
But you know I can tell
I see right threw that bullshit that you be tryina sell
So let it drop, let it fall
Let it blow with the wind
I told you once, I told you twice and I'm a tell you once again
That I'll be here, yeah said I'll be here
And, if love is blind, then my mental clear
And all we have is time
And good intentions
Fuck you brake, fuck your suspensions
Put your foot up on that gas
And drive 'till you don't see your past
I said drive 'till your vision blurs
And let my voice tell our story
[Spoken words:]
Fuck let them hate we where they never was
And fuckin' Shakespeare couldn't of wrote a better love
But people tell me that I'm trippin, I say you different
And when they ask me how, I can't provide a description, you don't need one
I would disconnect them all, like a broken joint
Just to prove I only see you like a focal point
I know that the distances, may cause complications
But you make me feel good, fucked up, exonerated
Still I wonder what you like beneath the shackles that you wearin'
I've been longin' to release you from a load that's overbearin'
Tell me, are you protected by your guard boo?
Or could I blow and make it fall like cards do
And I ain't interested 'till it involves you
You got your doors locked and I just saw through
You reached the height of loneliness, cause we all do
But everything that goes up gotta fall to
I always fall for your type, yeah, for your type
Tell me why I always fall for your type, for your type
I just can't explain this shit at all, fall for your type
I just can't explain this shit at all, fall for your type
I believe in people like you
angel haze
dream forever
Posted 12 years agoYour the only girl that never disrespected me
You always know how to bring out the best of me
Cupid shot us separately
Then we came together, it was destiny
I love until there ain't no loving left in me
Definitely
Our souls will ride together, even when the stars die
And when parted, my heart cries
It's angels like you, who make it hard why?
It's cause you beautiful
Outgoing and smart
And shit you really set the bar high
All you bring to me is happy moments
You make me feel like I'm cute
Even though my face got all this acne on it
The way I feel for you, you can't revoke it
Cause it changed me, and my family knows it
Damn, we both just kind of just fell into this
You gave me proof that heaven exist
But tell me, what is love without a headache or twist?
You come taunting, every night after twelve
When I'm unconscious
You never come out when the suns watching
Baby, I need you
I wake up in the morning
With this sensational pain
It goes straight to the brain
Then my day is invaded with rain
Engraved in my veins is your name
This ain't gonna change
It is staying remain
Unless my heart is deflated and drained
Your love is magic
Daydreaming about you is such a habit
Thought I saw you when I was driving
But I was stuck in traffic
If other girls flirt they're sadly mistaken
I tell em' scram
Cause they need to know I'm happily taken
You see my love life
It wasn't going well till I found you
Fellas get jealous and doubtful
When I tell em' about you
I know we had our fair share
In the past, with selfish lust
But once we came together
We sealed it and nailed it shut
Your touch is that of a goddess
When we kiss, I'm at a lack of words
Especially when we pull away
And then you smile afterwards
In our hearts, we're no different in color
We live for each other
I'm glad you're my significant other
I love you
Baby it saddens me to know you only exist in dreams
I sit an theme for you when I'm awake
And it seems like I'll never be happy unless I sleep
I failed to see the point in living without you
It got me thinking death is sweet
I'll never know unless I leap
I guess I reach for the stars cause girl I'm in love with you oh so desperately
But I'm about to do is discreet
I rest the cheek on the pillow as I'm counting sheep
Take me to ecstasy
I tried to get you out my head, the pains a lot worse
I love you more than anything! I won't even put God first!
You're the reason I sleep so often
I'm hurting the night I don't see you
I just keep on tossing and turning
I feel so lost and deserted
You made my life good
I told you if I had to take a bullet for you
I would
So baby [cocks gun putting it to my head] here I go with the proof
This is it
The moment of truth
Only for you. [Gunshot]
[falls lifeless to the floor]
Where are you?
Are you only in my dreams?
Only when the moon is shining
That's when you are beside me
Girl, I need you
And that's real
I don't wanna wake up
I'll stay asleep (You know baby)
Your love is all I need
I'm really hoping I find you....
Hopsin
You always know how to bring out the best of me
Cupid shot us separately
Then we came together, it was destiny
I love until there ain't no loving left in me
Definitely
Our souls will ride together, even when the stars die
And when parted, my heart cries
It's angels like you, who make it hard why?
It's cause you beautiful
Outgoing and smart
And shit you really set the bar high
All you bring to me is happy moments
You make me feel like I'm cute
Even though my face got all this acne on it
The way I feel for you, you can't revoke it
Cause it changed me, and my family knows it
Damn, we both just kind of just fell into this
You gave me proof that heaven exist
But tell me, what is love without a headache or twist?
You come taunting, every night after twelve
When I'm unconscious
You never come out when the suns watching
Baby, I need you
I wake up in the morning
With this sensational pain
It goes straight to the brain
Then my day is invaded with rain
Engraved in my veins is your name
This ain't gonna change
It is staying remain
Unless my heart is deflated and drained
Your love is magic
Daydreaming about you is such a habit
Thought I saw you when I was driving
But I was stuck in traffic
If other girls flirt they're sadly mistaken
I tell em' scram
Cause they need to know I'm happily taken
You see my love life
It wasn't going well till I found you
Fellas get jealous and doubtful
When I tell em' about you
I know we had our fair share
In the past, with selfish lust
But once we came together
We sealed it and nailed it shut
Your touch is that of a goddess
When we kiss, I'm at a lack of words
Especially when we pull away
And then you smile afterwards
In our hearts, we're no different in color
We live for each other
I'm glad you're my significant other
I love you
Baby it saddens me to know you only exist in dreams
I sit an theme for you when I'm awake
And it seems like I'll never be happy unless I sleep
I failed to see the point in living without you
It got me thinking death is sweet
I'll never know unless I leap
I guess I reach for the stars cause girl I'm in love with you oh so desperately
But I'm about to do is discreet
I rest the cheek on the pillow as I'm counting sheep
Take me to ecstasy
I tried to get you out my head, the pains a lot worse
I love you more than anything! I won't even put God first!
You're the reason I sleep so often
I'm hurting the night I don't see you
I just keep on tossing and turning
I feel so lost and deserted
You made my life good
I told you if I had to take a bullet for you
I would
So baby [cocks gun putting it to my head] here I go with the proof
This is it
The moment of truth
Only for you. [Gunshot]
[falls lifeless to the floor]
Where are you?
Are you only in my dreams?
Only when the moon is shining
That's when you are beside me
Girl, I need you
And that's real
I don't wanna wake up
I'll stay asleep (You know baby)
Your love is all I need
I'm really hoping I find you....
Hopsin
You Broke My Heart....
Posted 12 years agoYou Broke My Heart . .
You broke my heart and I think you should know. I cant say it to your face so i wrote it in a poem.
Bitch. I’ve spent nights rendered helpless damn near breathless beneath the weight of your touch. Every time you exhaled, I felt a ligament crush. I spent hours and hours beneath the heat from your lips and every time your tongue slipped through I felt my earth axis tilt; shift. your eyes like fire in the furnace of hell how I’ve fallen so deeply within them the inferno that is you. You burn me alive in your head.
You never loved me all along, Did you? I was never the one, I was only convenient. But why? Didn’t I treat you as a queen should be treated. Didn’t I serenade you with all that I’m gifted. Didn’t I give you my heart from the sleeve that I stitched it? I wanted to write a poem about you and call it “The Coldest Winter Ever.” I wanted it to be reflected so that when you read it you feel the rage running rampage throughout my veins. I wanted to tell you of all those nights that I longed for your cool breeze to interrupt heated sleep with fucking tension headaches so strong they could knock God off his throne. I wanted you to break them; to make them go away, but instead you choose to fade away. Like basketball players after midrange to three point shots they were certain would hit the net and then the floor. Like distant memories like the endings of songs we love the most.
Do you remember the day we met? It was like perfection; like my nervousness at its peak, my eyes lower than my feet, my shivering vocals when we’d speak. You knew you could break me, you made me weak. And I’m afraid its almost too cliche to say that the day that you left felt like the day that my sun refused to shine and ever since then I’ve been feeling like less than I actually am. And I just wanted to be every day of the rest of your life. I wanted to be like the time you first learned to walk. You know, the memory you don’t actually remember but something you’ve learned that you can never forget. I wanna be your tongue and the reason for every word that you’ve spoken out of anger, pain, happiness. I wanted to be an everyday reminder to you that love was real. You didn’t want that.
You broke my heart and I think you should know, I can’t say it to your face so i wrote it in a poem. I think you should know that one day I’m able to move on but other guys are just nothing like you. They’re nothing like you.
Psych!!
You’re nothing but wasted time you stupid bitch. I’m glad I’m free of all your drama and your useless shit. I hate bitches like you. Never know what you have ‘til it’s gone so long that I actually wanna mourn and resent the day that I met you but cherish the day the very day that we died. You stupid bitch. How could it have not been apparent? You don’t deserve me. I can do better than you. I’m glad that I know that. So while some new guy is sleeping in my bed on top of your space in our memories defacing all that you are I hope to you I become a permanent scare, one cocoa butter cant rid you of. I hope every time you see me you ache. Tv’s, magazines. I hope to become the reason you’re never able to love again. I hope you regret all of this. But most importantly, I hope you’re happy and I wish you the best.
Angel Haze
You broke my heart and I think you should know. I cant say it to your face so i wrote it in a poem.
Bitch. I’ve spent nights rendered helpless damn near breathless beneath the weight of your touch. Every time you exhaled, I felt a ligament crush. I spent hours and hours beneath the heat from your lips and every time your tongue slipped through I felt my earth axis tilt; shift. your eyes like fire in the furnace of hell how I’ve fallen so deeply within them the inferno that is you. You burn me alive in your head.
You never loved me all along, Did you? I was never the one, I was only convenient. But why? Didn’t I treat you as a queen should be treated. Didn’t I serenade you with all that I’m gifted. Didn’t I give you my heart from the sleeve that I stitched it? I wanted to write a poem about you and call it “The Coldest Winter Ever.” I wanted it to be reflected so that when you read it you feel the rage running rampage throughout my veins. I wanted to tell you of all those nights that I longed for your cool breeze to interrupt heated sleep with fucking tension headaches so strong they could knock God off his throne. I wanted you to break them; to make them go away, but instead you choose to fade away. Like basketball players after midrange to three point shots they were certain would hit the net and then the floor. Like distant memories like the endings of songs we love the most.
Do you remember the day we met? It was like perfection; like my nervousness at its peak, my eyes lower than my feet, my shivering vocals when we’d speak. You knew you could break me, you made me weak. And I’m afraid its almost too cliche to say that the day that you left felt like the day that my sun refused to shine and ever since then I’ve been feeling like less than I actually am. And I just wanted to be every day of the rest of your life. I wanted to be like the time you first learned to walk. You know, the memory you don’t actually remember but something you’ve learned that you can never forget. I wanna be your tongue and the reason for every word that you’ve spoken out of anger, pain, happiness. I wanted to be an everyday reminder to you that love was real. You didn’t want that.
You broke my heart and I think you should know, I can’t say it to your face so i wrote it in a poem. I think you should know that one day I’m able to move on but other guys are just nothing like you. They’re nothing like you.
Psych!!
You’re nothing but wasted time you stupid bitch. I’m glad I’m free of all your drama and your useless shit. I hate bitches like you. Never know what you have ‘til it’s gone so long that I actually wanna mourn and resent the day that I met you but cherish the day the very day that we died. You stupid bitch. How could it have not been apparent? You don’t deserve me. I can do better than you. I’m glad that I know that. So while some new guy is sleeping in my bed on top of your space in our memories defacing all that you are I hope to you I become a permanent scare, one cocoa butter cant rid you of. I hope every time you see me you ache. Tv’s, magazines. I hope to become the reason you’re never able to love again. I hope you regret all of this. But most importantly, I hope you’re happy and I wish you the best.
Angel Haze
same love....
Posted 12 years agoHi Mom
I’m really scared right now, but I have to..
At age thirteen, my mom knew I wasn’t straight
She didn’t understand, but she had so much to say
She sat me on the couch, looked me straight in my face
And said you’ll burn in hell or probably die of AIDS
It’s funny now, but at thirteen it was pain
To be almost sure of who you are and have it ripped away
And I’m sorry if it’s too real for some of you to fathom
But hate for who you love is not exactly what you’d imagine
And I guess it was disastrous
Because everything that happened afterwards was just madness
Locked away for two years to keep me on the inside
Because she’d rather see a part of me die than me thrive
And it’s tougher when it’s something you can’t deny
And ignorance teaches us it’s something you decide
You’re driven by your choices, an optical illusion
Here’s to understanding it’s not always confusion
I’ve walked the halls of my school
And I’ve seen kids hide behind walls and footballs and things like pride
I’ve seen innocent children suffer beneath bruises
Suffer beneath every single hand that chooses
Ignorance, fuck your religion
Fuck constitutions, fuck superstitions
There are no lakes of fire; they’re here on earth
And the only thing to do is put love first
And so I stand for the boy who died by his hand
To the sound of his father screaming “woman loves man”
This is Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve
And I stand for the girl with the cuts up her sleeve
And the heart in her hand and a chip on her shoulder
And I stand for it all until ignorance is over
This is for you, for knowing who you are
For never letting your magic outside of your heart
Be you, be brave and understand that things do change
I accept you for you when I don’t understand
And I love you for you cause this is who I am
I accepted you for you when I didn’t understand
Now love me for me cause this is who I am
Here’s a message to the people who just don’t get it
Love is love, there is no difference
Not a medication to fix it
There is no prescription
No rehab to visit, it is not an addiction
It’s love and it’s selfless
It’s yours and everybody else’s
So don’t badger and abuse the solemnly defenseless
See us as yourself, there’s no equality in difference
Until we all get it, we’ll be drowning in the same blood
Despite orientation, we all feel the same love
We’ll be drowning in the same blood
Despite orientation, we all feel the same love
]
We are boxed in and labeled
Before we're ever able to speak who we believe we are
Or who we dream we'll become
Like drum beats forever changing their rhythm
I am living today as someone I had not yet become yesterday
And tonight I'll only borrow pieces of who I am today
To carry with me to tomorrow
No, I'm not gay
No, I'm not straight
And I sure as hell am not bisexual
Damn it I am whoever I am when I am it
Loving whoever you are when the stars shine
And whoever you'll be when the sun rises
So here's to being able
Here's to love
Here's to loving just because
Here’s to acceptance
Here’s to never fearing the fear of rejection
Here’s to love and never neglecting who you feel you are
Here’s to bullies because beatings cannot last forever
Heres’ to the moment you realize things do get better
Here’s to the parents who will get it when its too late
Here’s to second chances
Here’s to new fate
Here’s to every single moment you’ve ever had to hide you
Here’s to the single star shining bright inside you, asking you to guide you
Here’s to who you’ll be when you figure it all out
Here’s to momentary doubt
Here’s to feeling, because we all feel it the same
Here’s to the moment that things will change
Because we all feel love, we all feel it the same
Here’s to love, here’s to change
And I can’t change even if I tried, even if I wanted to
And I can’t change even if I tried, even if I wanted to
My love, my love, my love
She keeps me warm, she keeps me warm
She keeps me warm, she keeps me warm
by angel haze
I’m really scared right now, but I have to..
At age thirteen, my mom knew I wasn’t straight
She didn’t understand, but she had so much to say
She sat me on the couch, looked me straight in my face
And said you’ll burn in hell or probably die of AIDS
It’s funny now, but at thirteen it was pain
To be almost sure of who you are and have it ripped away
And I’m sorry if it’s too real for some of you to fathom
But hate for who you love is not exactly what you’d imagine
And I guess it was disastrous
Because everything that happened afterwards was just madness
Locked away for two years to keep me on the inside
Because she’d rather see a part of me die than me thrive
And it’s tougher when it’s something you can’t deny
And ignorance teaches us it’s something you decide
You’re driven by your choices, an optical illusion
Here’s to understanding it’s not always confusion
I’ve walked the halls of my school
And I’ve seen kids hide behind walls and footballs and things like pride
I’ve seen innocent children suffer beneath bruises
Suffer beneath every single hand that chooses
Ignorance, fuck your religion
Fuck constitutions, fuck superstitions
There are no lakes of fire; they’re here on earth
And the only thing to do is put love first
And so I stand for the boy who died by his hand
To the sound of his father screaming “woman loves man”
This is Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve
And I stand for the girl with the cuts up her sleeve
And the heart in her hand and a chip on her shoulder
And I stand for it all until ignorance is over
This is for you, for knowing who you are
For never letting your magic outside of your heart
Be you, be brave and understand that things do change
I accept you for you when I don’t understand
And I love you for you cause this is who I am
I accepted you for you when I didn’t understand
Now love me for me cause this is who I am
Here’s a message to the people who just don’t get it
Love is love, there is no difference
Not a medication to fix it
There is no prescription
No rehab to visit, it is not an addiction
It’s love and it’s selfless
It’s yours and everybody else’s
So don’t badger and abuse the solemnly defenseless
See us as yourself, there’s no equality in difference
Until we all get it, we’ll be drowning in the same blood
Despite orientation, we all feel the same love
We’ll be drowning in the same blood
Despite orientation, we all feel the same love
]
We are boxed in and labeled
Before we're ever able to speak who we believe we are
Or who we dream we'll become
Like drum beats forever changing their rhythm
I am living today as someone I had not yet become yesterday
And tonight I'll only borrow pieces of who I am today
To carry with me to tomorrow
No, I'm not gay
No, I'm not straight
And I sure as hell am not bisexual
Damn it I am whoever I am when I am it
Loving whoever you are when the stars shine
And whoever you'll be when the sun rises
So here's to being able
Here's to love
Here's to loving just because
Here’s to acceptance
Here’s to never fearing the fear of rejection
Here’s to love and never neglecting who you feel you are
Here’s to bullies because beatings cannot last forever
Heres’ to the moment you realize things do get better
Here’s to the parents who will get it when its too late
Here’s to second chances
Here’s to new fate
Here’s to every single moment you’ve ever had to hide you
Here’s to the single star shining bright inside you, asking you to guide you
Here’s to who you’ll be when you figure it all out
Here’s to momentary doubt
Here’s to feeling, because we all feel it the same
Here’s to the moment that things will change
Because we all feel love, we all feel it the same
Here’s to love, here’s to change
And I can’t change even if I tried, even if I wanted to
And I can’t change even if I tried, even if I wanted to
My love, my love, my love
She keeps me warm, she keeps me warm
She keeps me warm, she keeps me warm
by angel haze
