I really hope everyone has been doing good. Life has been very hard for us all and unfortunately I couldn't handle it and dropped off the face of the earth. To keep ot brief over the years my mental illness has declined and I've struggled to find places to live and lived In my car for a year. In August I felt like it was all too much and attempted to take my own life. I overdosed on pills and cant remember anytime during the event and the days after. I can happily say after almost 3 months within inpatient at the hospital I was released last week. All that time in the hospital helped me really reflect on what made me happy and how I can do things to make me happy and one thing was to get back into the fandom because I've missed the aura and the great people who I had the honor of befriending but sadly I could have been a better friend for them. But I have reflected a lot on myself and I am not the same a****** as I was whenever I was on here last but I do hope everyone can forgive me for Vanishing I truly feel awful about leaving people with unfinished commissions and other things which I will be getting to at and later time I've barely been drawing at all the last 3 years but I hope you guys can accept me back into the community because I'm going to try my best to make everything up and prove I am a better loving fluff butt than I was before thank you guys so much for your support and concern if you would like to talk and catch up or just chat in general send me a note the first thing I did was make sure that they were up and running because they were not before luckily now I am open for chats I really hope we can all catch up and get back to where things were I love you all

Totally my homeboy's birthday  timthewolf today and i hope it is special. He's one of the first people i have EVER talked to on here and probably one I've been friends with the longest. Love you dude, happy birthday from me and TJ <3 *Big deer and little puppy hugs*

My internet has been shit all day so i can't stream, I'm sorry you guys, ill try to stream tomorrow.

I got a little batch of doodles that i want to complete tonight just in time for vore day, so there will be a stream sometime this after\noon to celebrate! Hope you guys will come! <3

Come join the shortness :V

https://picarto.tv/TJtheDeer
https://picarto.tv/TJtheDeer
https://picarto.tv/TJtheDeer


Still setting up

Finally reached 500 stalker- ER i mean watchers *giggles* <3 Thank you all, love you my boobies -w- <3

Today was a very bad day. I woke up to immense pain in my head this morning and turns out i was having a migraine. I was hoping that it would blow over but it didn't and sadly... I had another seizure...

Ive had problems with seizures for three years now but they haven't shown up in over a year until now. My dad walked into my room hearing me vomiting really loudly and then my body started to seize.

I was in the emergency room since 10:30 am and i just now got home. My head is in so much pain that i cannot look down, nor can i even see straight, my vision is blurred and drowsy. I can't eat or sleep and I'm trying to ice my head but its not working My face and hands are also numb..

But thankfully I'm alright. My seizures don't last long. Im going to have to take it easy for the next three days and stuff. I just hope i never have to deal with another one anytime soon.

Ive had tendonitis since september of last year, and it has its flaring times and its times of calm, but as of late (thanks to my internship) My wrist is in severe pain constantly. My whole hand aches in utter excruciation whenever i move it. I wake up in pain almost every night because i might sleep wrong and twist my hand around.

I decided to take a little break from drawing because i can't even maneuver my hand in directions where i need it to go. Im sorry you guys, that means no more streams for a little while.

Ill try to get back on my feet soon with all of this, I'm just going to take it easy for the next few weeks. Also going to try to see a doctor about it soon because the swelling is huge compared to any other time.

Love you guys, hope you're summer is going great.

Totally got back into mine craft on Ps3 and wanted to know if anyone wanted to play sometime x3 <3

I love you guys, a lot. I know that i don't talk to every one of my watchers or anything but i want you all to know that i really appreciate all your support and help over these last few years. I lost someone important to me tonight and i want to make sure i keep the rest of my friends closer from now on.

Seriosuly you guys, i want to give you all a hug. thank you for everything you've done.

Thank you guys <3 y'all have stalked me 10,000 times! X3

Im sorry that one asshole had to ruin it all for everyone, and made the feelings within it sour. If anyone does anything of that sort it will be an instantaneous ban from my channel. My streams are for people to come enjoy each others company all the while enjoying some arts too.

For those who left because of it I'm so sorry, i assure you that bullshit wont happen again.

I love you guys <3

 Shwoopy-Cat is doing an adorable Vore YCH for a very low price! Give it a gander!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20199663/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20199663/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20199663/

Also  carlosdafox Is open for free line art requests, you should go take a slot because his stuff is cute and phatttttt

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7622490/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7622490/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7622490/

https://picarto.tv/TJtheDeer
https://picarto.tv/TJtheDeer
https://picarto.tv/TJtheDeer

Setting up right now, possible sketch requests!

Its amazing, to think that my freshman year of college is over. I have one more class tonight but its literally just a pizza party so it doesn't count.

Don't you guys remember when i was announcing my departure to college? How excited i was? Its just hard to believe that this year is over, and I'm moving back home tomorrow for the summer.

ITs almost surreal actually, but i do look forward to being a sophomore and out of foundation(freshman) year, in an actual department studio (For those of you who don't know, I'm majoring in sculpture).

I do have awesome news though for this summer: My sculpture professor for these last 2 months saw the spark in me whilst doing my final project in his class. He said that my brainstorming drawings were incredibly beautiful and were extremely fine art. He even said if i made smaller framed scales i could sell them for thousands because they were executed so well and it made me happy. But the best part was not when he told me I got a full blown A+ on my final project which is worth 65% of our final grade, but it was when he offered me a summer internship to work with him and a few fellow students at his studio.

Im actually going to be a curator for his exhibitions and art shows all the while helping him build his sculptures, and its though not a paid internship it IS accredited, so i have credits coming for me for my college grades and he pays me in food lol

So i want to thank you all for being here for me in this very stressful yet fulfilling year and its time to get back home, start to slowly get back into the furry community by drawing long over due commissions that people have purchased from me lol

I start work on the 17th i believe, so i hope you all can wish me luck, and ill try to be in touch more now that I'm out of school for the summer.

<3 thanks you guys

Thanks guys, even though I've been inactive for some time you guys still show your love with happy birthday messages n' stuff <3 you're all awesome

Im open for cheap line art commissions! Need some extra money for Anthrocon and school supplies!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19456068/

I was thinking about probably streaming again, since i have a great computer now that i can finally do art on and its clean, i can stream without issues.

Would anyone even come watch? Im just curious because i don't want to stream without anyone coming, and i was thinking about probably doing in stream doodles/sketches or whatever too, if any of you guys are interested.

Leave a comment so i can see who would even watch lol

Yesterday was my Snow mew  Zyyphelze 's birthday and i didn't get him enough love <3

Happy belated birthday my awesome and special LuLu ;3

C'mon, today is the day for loves, snuggles, licks, and kisses <3 Hope you guys get your valentines today <3

I love you all ^w^

Well now that I'm back in school I've been bombarded with more books and supplies that I need to purchase but of course I have nothing to my name so I had to make a charity fundraiser.

I would greatly appreciate if people donated, it would go to a good cause to help me succeed in college and pass all my classes with the necessary materials. Thank you all for your time.

The link to my fundraiser is below.

https://www.gofundme.com/snm8r8fy

Fuckk im so dumb DX i forgot i only rented one of my school text books and the rental date is at a close. I only have 3 days to pay it off.

I was thinking of doing paper sketchmissions for commissions again so i ccan afford to pay it off.

Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18658963/

Price would be between 10-16$ for complexity but i really need to pay this off DX

I need 95$ to pay it off.

Donations would be incredibly amazing. My paypal is Shoesweskate97[at]yahoo.com

thanks guys

Its christmas timmeeeeeeee, lets get in front of the fire, warm our pawsies, and munch on all the candy canes and bad children -w-

I hope you all have a great christmas <3 Love ya guise

You better watch out whats coming down the chimney though, a giant big gutted deer might have gotten stuck X3 *snorts*

Tagged by bae, must obey x3 <3


1.) Real Name: Brandon
2.) Nicknames: B. Leo, B-Dub
3.) Zodiac Sign: Taurus
4.) Gender: Male
5.) Nursery: I have no idea
6.) Primary School: Southwood
7.) Secondary School: Raytown Sr. High School
8.) Hair Color: Brown/ Dirty Blond
9.) Long or Short: It varies, i have an undercut, the sides of my head are shaved and the top is left untouched, so long I suppose? x3
10.) Loud or Quiet: Quiet, because people sometimes aren't worth talking to.
11.) Sweats or Jeans: Jeans fosho
12.) Phone or Camera: Camera to document my artwork c:
13.) Health Freak: Absolutely, mainly for my hair.
14.) Drink or Smoke: I do drink but only when I'm depressed or at a party or a holiday.
15.) Do You Have A Crush On Someone: My right paw~
16.) Political orientation: I do not care, things are too shitty to fix
17.) Piercings: Most likely not
18.) Tattoos: At least one meaningful, personally designed one!

HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:
19.) Airplane: practically grew up in one.
20.) Car Accident: Yes, caused me to lose my memory for quite a long time and now have a visible scar on the bridge of my nose ^^;
21.) Fist Fight: Jumped plenty of times, never been in a legitimate fight that I've wanted to be in.

FIRSTS:
22.) First piercing: On deez nuts (don't have one)
23.) First Best Friend: My brother~
24.) First Instrument played: Piano!
25.) First award: Oral Language award, could recite poetry like a god l3
26.) First Crush: I don't even remember
27.) First Language: English
28.) First Big Vacation: Sea World! X3

LASTS:
29.) Last Person you talked to: My dog, she counts as a person ;^;
30.) Last Person You Texted: Phone hasn't let me text since september so i assume my red panda friend, Dain.
31.) Last Person You Watched: Too lazy to go and look
32.) Last Food You Ate: Pepperoni Pizza and my bro Jose ewe *burp*
32.) Last Movie You Watched: Wreck it Ralph
34.) Last Song You listened to: Obstacles from the game Life is Strange <3
35.) Last Thing You Bought: Mcdonalds xP
36.) Last Person You Hugged: My cheetah friend Sean
FAVES:
37.) Food: Orange Chicken
38.) Drinks: Water, Strawberry Kiwi Capri suns and Mnt. Dew
39.) Clothing: Skinny Jeans, hoodie/over jacket unzipped with a design T shirt underneath
40.) Book: Series of Unfortunate Events....series owo
41.) Color: Silver, grey, maroon, crimson, ya know, anything depressing and blood related ;3 OH and cyan blue x3
42.) Flower: Wallflower, cause shyness is cute x3
43.) Music: Fall Out Boy and eally just any song i like, not totally preferenced on one genre
44.) Movie: Silence of the Lambs for sure. Krampus was badass but Night of the Living Dead would be my oldest classic fav
46.) Subjects: Fine/Visual Arts, mainly Sculpture

IN THE PAST YEAR YOU...
47.) [ ] Kissed in the rain
48.) [x] Celebrated Halloween.
49.) [] Had Your Heart Broken
50.) [ ] Went Over the Minutes on Your Cell Phone
51.) [x] Someone Questioned Your Sexual Orientation.
52.) [X] Used a Weapon
53.) [ ] Breathed fire
54.) [ ] Had an Abortion.
55.) [X] Done something you've Regretted
56.) [X] Broke a Promise
57.) [X] Kept a Secret
58.) [X] Pretended To Be Happy
59.) [xFuckYes<3x] Met Someone Who Changed Your Life
60.) [X] Pretended To Be Sick
61.) [x] Left The Country
62.) [X] Tried something you normally wouldn't like, and liked it.
63.) [X] Cried Over The Silliest Thing
64.) [x] Ran a Mile
65.) [x] Went To the Beach
66.) [ ] Stayed Single

CURRENTLY:
67.) Eating: Well I'm digesting the pizza and brother i just mentioned ;3
68) Drinking: Water
69.) Getting Ready To: Finally socialize with the outside world for the first time in a week.
70.) Listening To: My fan
71.) Plans For Tomorrow/Today: Hang out with my friends and go mini golfing, might go to sky zone with a certain fat red panda ewe
72.) Waiting For: To move out with my beloved bf~ which we've been talking about for quite some time.

YOUR FUTURE:
73.) Want Kids: A hesitant yes x3
74.) Want To Get Married: Definetly
75.) Careers in minds: Well, considering i went from wanting to be a storyboard artist to a sculptor, i have no idea what jobs they have within sculpting, i gotta research!

WHICH IS BETTER ON A GIRL/GUY:
76.) Lips or Eyes: Eyes
77.) Shorter or Taller: Taller but short is cute too; I'm usually the shorter one XD
78.) Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontaneously romantic, had to copy boy babes
79.) Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Both? I want a nice pair of arms to hug me to a nice cute stomach >w<
80.) Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive
81.) Hook-up Or Relationship: Relationship <3
82.) Troublemaker or Hesitant: Hesitantly a troublemaker ;3

HAVE YOU EVER:
83.) Lost Glasses/Contacts: Nah
84.) Ran Away From Home: No
85.) Held A Weapon, For Self Defense: Do my fists count?
86.) Killed Somebody: My old self
87.) Broken Someone's Heart: Yes, but my heart comes first. This is cause of too much heartbreak.
88.) Been Arrested: Ohhhhh boy yes ^^;
89.) Have you ever Texted something personal to a wrong number: Yea ^^;
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90.) Yourself: Constantly question myself everyday but yes
91.) Miracles: When do those happen.
92.) Love at First Sight: Not exactly, did happen quite quickly with my babe though! x3
93.) Heaven: Being with my special someone is heaven so yes.
94.) Santa Claus: I chose to for my younger cousins.
96.) Magic: No o3o

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97.) Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now: Absolutely
98.) Are You Seriously Happy With Where You Are, In Life: Im more happy about things than sad or upset so yes
99.) Are You Happy With The Person You're With: Fuck yes <3
100.) Post as 100 Truths and Tag five People: yes i did six cause I'm a thug

https://twitter.com/ThatSculptorPup You should follow me if you want to see updates on my portfolio work c: more than likely post my little furry doodles that do on there too but its majority for announcing my portfolio art.

Folllowww meeh x3 ill follow you back