But it's been a rough few years.

Another update; I've got a few commissions I'm picking at slowly but my chronic hand pain is getting to the point where drawing at the computer for more than 5 minutes renders my arm literally useless for 2 days, which is....not really a good time. I have a physio appointment next week and hopefully they can help me start getting stuff moving.

Life has been pretty stressful still, I've been trying to help support my partner through a very difficult time. It's eating into my savings, my currency is depreciating rapidly against the USD and she needs help really bad, so if you can spare some money (even a few dollars) please consider helping us out! http://herpresence.tumblr.com/post/.....a-mentally-ill

Just letting you guys know I'm still taking commissions, my to-do-list is clean and lonely and I'm also now taking small sketch commissions again! I've also begun streaming again on occassion and you can see when I do this by checking my Weasyl:

See here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16221132/
And here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6602165/

For more information!

If you want to know what kind of stuff I like to depict and draw, this has a list of several likes/dislikes (these apply to sexual and nonsexual themes where relevant!), I am also very open to discussing depictions of my characters with others in some cases. For drawing things in my 'no' list, just ask because some of the stuff I won't mind drawing even if they aren't my personal kink.

https://www.f-list.net/c/chicken%20scratch/

I'm still polishing off the last of my list, but I am also going to be opening up for some Big slots. I am opening 2 big painting slots (like the serene sensuality) piece, because australian summer heat and a broken down air conditioning unit have made an electricity bill of stupendous proportions.

I am also open to offers of other commission types, just note me or comment here. The bigger ones are gonna take priority, though.

To make a gentle reminder that I'm also on https://www.weasyl.com/~laughingdove

I FINALLY. GODDAMN HAVE IT. I AM GONNA BE WORKING ON GETTING MY WORKFLOW BACK, I've already started back up on old commissions but I need to....re-learn what all the buttons in the art program do. I have completely forgotten. BUT I HAVE THE PEN STYLUS SO I CAN DO STUFF NOW!!!

Hi everyone, some news. I've been moved into the new place for a few months now and it is such a vast improvement in my life it's hard to describe. The only problem is I can't get a replacement for my damned tablet stylus. Trying to find one shipping to Brisbane Australia is fresh hell, and I've been trying to get one off amazon since damn october. They keep 'shipping' and mysteriously never turning up at my door. If anyone can give me a hand looking for somewhere selling it that will ship to me, I can start drawing again seriously.

This http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0.....UTF8&psc=1 is what I am looking for, that particular pen. This is the link that I've been trying to order from since october. I can pay for the damned thing just fine, I need to find it first though. Can anyone give me a hand?

Signal boosting for http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6403466/ ! go check it out and help out this rad person u3u

FA management is unbelievable, seriously. I've mostly just been waiting for the weasyl traffic to rise. Anyway I'm sitting here https://www.weasyl.com/~laughingdove, and I'll probably be hosting special offers for draws and stuff on there to try and entice the fencesitters over :>

Or that they actually work at all. They put down this...impression of things that is pure candy and they fidget until it presses their buttons. Butts are hard.

I have been fucking unable to draw lately because of heat, pill troubles and depression issues. I cannot go outside during the day and walking outside at night even often leaves my body temperature soaring. Being cooped up is stifling. I am most just...waiting until the temperature reaches tolerable levels...I cannot see myself living in this country any longer than I have to, I desperately need to move up somewhere north and get to a climate where I am not incapacitated for at least 6 months of the year and heavily restricted in my lifestyle and movements for at least 3 more. I cannot think in this weather. I stick my head in the freezer and suddenly I get a glimpse of what I'm ACTUALLY like, everything about my thinking sharpens, I can -see- better, breathe better, I'm more aware and more alive and then the cold wears off and I'm just a depressed lump of uselessness again. it is very suck.

Those who I owe commissions, I promise you I am literally working as fast as I can. But there is not a lot I can do right now. Even if I bought an air conditioner (I can't afford) there is no room in this house which can be sealed for it's use...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?featur.....;v=qgZ6fFVIGlo JUST. SCREAMING. SCREAMING FOREVER. SCREAMS OF RAGE. ANGER. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

http://blogs.scientificamerican.com.....cs-and-gators/ COOOOL

How do you prefer to do them? Would you take on a commission to collaberate with another artist? Would you be comfortable being 'hired' for a time as a sort of consultant for brainstorming designs with someone? Do you enjoy doing these things?

I'd love to have some other people to work on creatures with. I love suggestions, I love ideas, I love talking about characters and stories. Tell me about your weird little biological mechanisms. Tell me about something odd you've come up with that maybe doesn't have a character attached. Tell me about a fantasy landscape you'
ve treasured for years. Tell me about all these things and more. I cannot be the only who sits around coming up with random crap.

Does anyone know who's good at drawing them? I am attempting to expand my collection of non-creatury-critters. I have a fewwwww, I'm hoping to find some folks to draw them because I suck at references. Also who here has feral characters that are not dogs or wolves, who do you get to draw them?

IT IS FINALLY MANGO SEASON I HAVE WAITED ALL YEAR FOR YOU MY SWEET PRECIOUS DELICIOUS BABIES OF GLORIOUS GOLDEN JOY

Desk is still made of poo and still fucking up my hand. Tried changing chairs and it is a temporary solution for some things, but frankly the pain of sitting at my desk all day coupled with my legs and feet swelling up like angry balloons no matter how much I jig, exercise, stretch and massage them while at the desk is making it very, very hard to work on things.

I am going to try giving this crap another few days and continue with my hand exercises (it is slowly, very slowly, starting to get to the point where it is actually not in 24/7 pain) and the more time I take away from the computer is sadly the better. This frustrates me. I am wondering if I should try moving this to the other room and trying to see if I can use some of my books to make a crappy standing desk setup, but I have no idea if I'd be able to draw like that.

If not, I will experiment with laying it on the floor and drawing while sitting or laying on my bed. I'm sorry about all this stuff, it's been fucking unpredictable and driving me absolutely fucking crazy. This on top of the oppressively humid and hot weather has made me highly antisocial and very disinclined to talk or draw, and mostly I just sit either in the cold bath reading or wriggling around on my fucking bed trying to do floor exercises and stay in the fan without spontaniously combusting.

TMI TIEM

In other news, I have come into possession of a "SMALL" (see; larger around than my fucking wrist) bad dragon toy, the uncut studded dragon. Oh jeez. Oh dang. I cannot take more than 2 inches on my own, but my friend managed to get the whole fucking thing into me the other night and wow. woooow. dang. good feels. big stretch. It is good shit. Why the actual fuck is a small that humongous though, holy fucking crap. The head is probably the best part, I got it with a cumtube and having the open urethra is just fab for someone with a sounding fetish. The toy has become 'my' dick, it sits on my crotch all the time and leers at my housemate. It suits me I reckon. Big fat cock for a big fat man.

Also I am swearing because after having had to go to the fucking hospital for menstrual pain and 8 months straight of bleeding, a month after the doctor's appointment it has finally stopped bleeding and randomly stabbing me with excruciating pain and now is mysteriously well behaved. All before the gynocologist has gotten back to me. FML. I guess for now I'm just going to enjoy not bleeding from the crotch all the time and going through a fortune of tampons. For now.

I am very disappoint. There is no variety, so little choice in way of style, by god what is wrong with people. It's all the most exceedingly boring colours save for a few splashes of interesting things. This is a dark age of aesthetics. Please tell me there's something out there. I may have to learn to fucking sew at this rate.

OMG I want the big black dildo so bad http://www.wildsecrets.com.au/p/150.....tured-strap-on I need it. i love the fucking XL share it's amazing and I wanna stick it in EVERYONE so much fucking fun

because I am very tempted to keep hiiiiim ;;

CRYINNNGGGGGG http://fodwocket.tumblr.com/post/66.....ather-tries-to

It makes me sad that folks seem to have such trouble framing males as vulnerable creatures. Because I love that. I wanna see pinup men who are soft and vulnerable and cushy--I don't mean effeminate, I mean -vulnerable-. Blahblah /draws it

Gonna be pretty short and careful with my hand, so will mostly work on my own stuff unless folks have really easy $10-15 sketches they're after.

Turns out it's my desk setup that's fucking over my hand and I need to figure out something better. not sure what I should look for in a desk, input would be very welcome. Might try some light drawing tomorrow. I'm in pain from both hand and my ovaries hating me and the gynocologist hasn't sent me the letter yet. I feel very miserable and cranky and antisocial and have spent pretty much most of my time watching documentaries. Not to mention I broke my kindle too, so I need a new one of those...forgot my pill yesterday so I'm feeling like complete worthless trash right now and am crawling around hating myself.

/bitchesssss and whinggggeeeeees

on the plus side I did go and do something like actual work the other day! I was doing bar at a fet event and it was great, and I did really well. Then someone decided to enlist me in a prank and I got super triggery and cry-y and I may not get to go back to do that thing again because the person was a manager and me and the friend who helped me get the work there are not really interested in keeping on doing it if she's still there being an asshat, but I'm glad I did a little, because maybe I'm not so useless? I just want to be able to function in normal society...

Turns out it's my desk setup that's fucking over my hand and I need to figure out something better. not sure what I should look for in a desk, input would be very welcome. Might try some light drawing tomorrow. I'm in pain from both hand and my ovaries hating me and the gynocologist hasn't sent me the letter yet. I feel very miserable and cranky and antisocial and have spent pretty much most of my time watching documentaries. Not to mention I broke my kindle too, so I need a new one of those...forgot my pill yesterday so I'm feeling like complete worthless trash right now and am crawling around hating myself.

/bitchesssss and whinggggeeeeees

on the plus side I did go and do something like actual work the other day! I was doing bar at a fet event and it was great, and I did really well. Then someone decided to enlist me in a prank and I got super triggery and cry-y and I may not get to go back to do that thing again, but I'm glad I did a little, because maybe I'm not so useless? I just want to be able to function in normal society...

Bored and antsy and wanting to go for a walk but I can't because fucking australian weather makes me pass out. What's everyone else up to?

Going across the road to buy a brace :/ No stream today, apparently...andddddd of course, now my abdominal cramps and abnormal haemoragging fucking hell