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A return to my ranting days
Posted 12 years agoOK, so this is not really a 'rant'. It's more a recording of a rather interesting realization I've come across as I took the over-abundance of time to think, while doing my mind-numbing job. A job I've come to be able to do [at least on Saturdays] practically in my sleep. So you can see how an 8 hour shift gave me lots of thinking time.
So, I thought about the people I know with various fetishes. And because I've always been intrigued by the psychological side of the human nature, I started noticing a common factor in some of their sexual fantasies, and real life problems or oddities. Allow me to note here, this is common among them, but this is not always the case. this documentation holds no legal strength, nor has any ACTUAL Psychiatrist's input. This is all my own thoughts, so take them how you will. there are exceptions to every rule I put here. And I am part of the equation in some of these cases, too, so do not feel I am claiming any better than anyone else for calling out these faults.
BDSM : Starting on a more complex fetish group, allow me to separate it into sections.
Submissive/Masochist : The submissive group I've noticed comes with a very odd history. Many cases they come from a background that has offered them too much control over their past...while some may deny it, many of them secretly crave that....loss of control. Addicted to the need to feel like someone else is in charge once in a while...or even on a constant bases. Also common among this group is those come from controlling, or abusive background. Unfortunately, or fortunately [depending on how you look at it], they become addicted to the loss of control from an early age, finding joy in their lack of command in things.
Dominate/Sadist : this group I find most often to hold insecurities. For that reason, I have to further bracket this.
Master/Owner : These groups, often seen as the most acceptable type of dom, only keeps one...sometimes two pets/slaves. They often spur from a strong family home, but this usually comes with the 'man of the house' holding all control. For this reason, many form a kind of 'alpha complex'. Where they think they need to be in control. And those without a family...or gay in some cases...Keep pets, or slaves, to feel that control over their home.
The 'collector' : In most BDSM groups, this is the type of owner most looked down upon. These often coming from abusive homes, or bully victims in school. these sort often taking up several...in some cases, dozens....of slaves or pets. Usually preferring the term 'slave'. These 'doms' in the community seek command of a harem, usually, but many settle for a simple groups of servants...rarely less than 3 pets/slaves. They feel insecure in their past, and inability to command things, so they now seek to command anyone they can, to make up for the lack there of in their youth.
The Sadist : These near always victims of abuse in youth, they can come in either of the prior groups. Usually preferring to rule by an iron fist, so to speak. these doms are not always cruel, but often feel a strong need for the use of force, if only to feel that form of command in their hands. Though, while not always the case, I've seen this to be usually true...and I would not be one to say to avoid or approach these sorts. They are unpredictable.
Youth : this section dedicated to pre-teen or 'cub' types, This section is not so varied in responses. Usually, from what I've seen of these sort, they suffer a lack of....well, youth. They feel older than they are, or feel they never had a real childhood. Perhaps maturing much faster than their piers, or just were reluctant to leave it behind as they matured, and thus fall back to them. While the REASONS for the need of that 'inner child to be let out' is beyond my ability to number, one thing is almost ALWAYS the case....they want to feel young again. Be it for sexual desire, or casual conduct, they want to feel like they are children again...to regain that lost innocence. Or relive it the way they wish they could have.
Fat fetishes : While some watching me wonder what this is, others may be cringing for the thought of it. others, still, who may read this will know the interest, or even have the fetish. These are people who find sexual attraction to very....sizely people. now, we aren't talking Ms. 10inch waist who thinks she's fat, we're talking the guys in 50+ pants sizes. some even desire bigger. I've found that while I only know a half-dozen 'chubby chasers' at BEST, they share common signs of a similar insecurity. Larger people like that are considered 'less attractive' by modern society. These people often feel they cannot keep a partner they way they are, unless the other was not considered an option by those around them. For this reason, they seek these people as a way to feel secure in their relationship. Knowing that none will try to take their partner from them. Of course, again, there are exceptions to the rule, this is just what I see as the most common trait.
'Furry' : By the 'humans' this can be considered a 'fetish' or a 'disease' based on who you ask. those of us in the fandom often refer to it as a 'lifestyle'. But no matter what you say about this group...and yes, I know I'm posting it on a furry site....WE love animals. Near about every fur you meet...be it dragons, otters, dogs, or cats, most furs are highly attracted to some animal or another. often times sharing a common factor in their 'fursona'. Myself being more known by my draco-fox form, I am personally enthralled by the concept of dragons. And my partner, being a Neko [feline-human hybrid, not quite like most furs], loves cats. And while this seems obvious, it's not just furs like this...The furs have a different level of interest in their animals of choice. Some sexual....ok, most sexual....But some just like the image of them. some for what they stood for to olden people, like Native American's. while this isn't a 'flaw', it is an odd aspect that seems shared among most furs.
Feet : Now, I know about half my watchers who bothered to read this probably just gagged a little...But yes, face it, some people get off on feet. These people are a hard group to pin. But if anything is 'common' about them, it's that they are mostly having issues with...well, I call it the 'doormat syndrom'. Either feeling like they've been walked on so long it's their natural place, or feeling that they have not earned the respect they have...they often desire the feet as a sort of way of being 'under' someone else. In case of doms interested in feet, they sometimes feel that desire, while maintaining control of the situation.
'Size Queens' : You know who you are. No matter if it's a realistic 10 inch nockout, or wanting meats the size of buildings, these people love it BIG. But why? now, that's the thing. it's been the hardest for me to pin down....Some feel unsatisfied with their own material, while others want to be shamed. Some wanting the image of just how big their partner's rod is, others just seem to think it's natural. Whatever the reason, fact is, they want the BIG boys. Though, if I were to connect one specific common denominator, it'd be sex. More specifically, the surplus of it. Some have had so much, it takes something big to 'fill them'. it's the most common trend. Either way, these guys won't be happy till you could hospitalize them with your shaft. thankfully, very few seem dumb enough to actually get themselves severely hurt in this pursuit, but they can still dream.
Agree with my diagnosis? Have different theories? I'm not afraid to discuss separate ideas, just leave a comment. I just wonder how much more can be discovered about fetishes...and their link to the human mind.
So, I thought about the people I know with various fetishes. And because I've always been intrigued by the psychological side of the human nature, I started noticing a common factor in some of their sexual fantasies, and real life problems or oddities. Allow me to note here, this is common among them, but this is not always the case. this documentation holds no legal strength, nor has any ACTUAL Psychiatrist's input. This is all my own thoughts, so take them how you will. there are exceptions to every rule I put here. And I am part of the equation in some of these cases, too, so do not feel I am claiming any better than anyone else for calling out these faults.
BDSM : Starting on a more complex fetish group, allow me to separate it into sections.
Submissive/Masochist : The submissive group I've noticed comes with a very odd history. Many cases they come from a background that has offered them too much control over their past...while some may deny it, many of them secretly crave that....loss of control. Addicted to the need to feel like someone else is in charge once in a while...or even on a constant bases. Also common among this group is those come from controlling, or abusive background. Unfortunately, or fortunately [depending on how you look at it], they become addicted to the loss of control from an early age, finding joy in their lack of command in things.
Dominate/Sadist : this group I find most often to hold insecurities. For that reason, I have to further bracket this.
Master/Owner : These groups, often seen as the most acceptable type of dom, only keeps one...sometimes two pets/slaves. They often spur from a strong family home, but this usually comes with the 'man of the house' holding all control. For this reason, many form a kind of 'alpha complex'. Where they think they need to be in control. And those without a family...or gay in some cases...Keep pets, or slaves, to feel that control over their home.
The 'collector' : In most BDSM groups, this is the type of owner most looked down upon. These often coming from abusive homes, or bully victims in school. these sort often taking up several...in some cases, dozens....of slaves or pets. Usually preferring the term 'slave'. These 'doms' in the community seek command of a harem, usually, but many settle for a simple groups of servants...rarely less than 3 pets/slaves. They feel insecure in their past, and inability to command things, so they now seek to command anyone they can, to make up for the lack there of in their youth.
The Sadist : These near always victims of abuse in youth, they can come in either of the prior groups. Usually preferring to rule by an iron fist, so to speak. these doms are not always cruel, but often feel a strong need for the use of force, if only to feel that form of command in their hands. Though, while not always the case, I've seen this to be usually true...and I would not be one to say to avoid or approach these sorts. They are unpredictable.
Youth : this section dedicated to pre-teen or 'cub' types, This section is not so varied in responses. Usually, from what I've seen of these sort, they suffer a lack of....well, youth. They feel older than they are, or feel they never had a real childhood. Perhaps maturing much faster than their piers, or just were reluctant to leave it behind as they matured, and thus fall back to them. While the REASONS for the need of that 'inner child to be let out' is beyond my ability to number, one thing is almost ALWAYS the case....they want to feel young again. Be it for sexual desire, or casual conduct, they want to feel like they are children again...to regain that lost innocence. Or relive it the way they wish they could have.
Fat fetishes : While some watching me wonder what this is, others may be cringing for the thought of it. others, still, who may read this will know the interest, or even have the fetish. These are people who find sexual attraction to very....sizely people. now, we aren't talking Ms. 10inch waist who thinks she's fat, we're talking the guys in 50+ pants sizes. some even desire bigger. I've found that while I only know a half-dozen 'chubby chasers' at BEST, they share common signs of a similar insecurity. Larger people like that are considered 'less attractive' by modern society. These people often feel they cannot keep a partner they way they are, unless the other was not considered an option by those around them. For this reason, they seek these people as a way to feel secure in their relationship. Knowing that none will try to take their partner from them. Of course, again, there are exceptions to the rule, this is just what I see as the most common trait.
'Furry' : By the 'humans' this can be considered a 'fetish' or a 'disease' based on who you ask. those of us in the fandom often refer to it as a 'lifestyle'. But no matter what you say about this group...and yes, I know I'm posting it on a furry site....WE love animals. Near about every fur you meet...be it dragons, otters, dogs, or cats, most furs are highly attracted to some animal or another. often times sharing a common factor in their 'fursona'. Myself being more known by my draco-fox form, I am personally enthralled by the concept of dragons. And my partner, being a Neko [feline-human hybrid, not quite like most furs], loves cats. And while this seems obvious, it's not just furs like this...The furs have a different level of interest in their animals of choice. Some sexual....ok, most sexual....But some just like the image of them. some for what they stood for to olden people, like Native American's. while this isn't a 'flaw', it is an odd aspect that seems shared among most furs.
Feet : Now, I know about half my watchers who bothered to read this probably just gagged a little...But yes, face it, some people get off on feet. These people are a hard group to pin. But if anything is 'common' about them, it's that they are mostly having issues with...well, I call it the 'doormat syndrom'. Either feeling like they've been walked on so long it's their natural place, or feeling that they have not earned the respect they have...they often desire the feet as a sort of way of being 'under' someone else. In case of doms interested in feet, they sometimes feel that desire, while maintaining control of the situation.
'Size Queens' : You know who you are. No matter if it's a realistic 10 inch nockout, or wanting meats the size of buildings, these people love it BIG. But why? now, that's the thing. it's been the hardest for me to pin down....Some feel unsatisfied with their own material, while others want to be shamed. Some wanting the image of just how big their partner's rod is, others just seem to think it's natural. Whatever the reason, fact is, they want the BIG boys. Though, if I were to connect one specific common denominator, it'd be sex. More specifically, the surplus of it. Some have had so much, it takes something big to 'fill them'. it's the most common trend. Either way, these guys won't be happy till you could hospitalize them with your shaft. thankfully, very few seem dumb enough to actually get themselves severely hurt in this pursuit, but they can still dream.
Agree with my diagnosis? Have different theories? I'm not afraid to discuss separate ideas, just leave a comment. I just wonder how much more can be discovered about fetishes...and their link to the human mind.
What is joy? A rant? no...something more
Posted 12 years agoSo, I found myself asking recently....'What is Joy'?
To some? It's icecream on a hot day. It's getting to go to a water park in summer, or getting to see snow for your first time. It's being an artist finally gotten good enough that you can make a decent income on commissions alone. It's a day off, where you can just relax, and do NOTHING.
I thought these things fit the bill, till now. Now? I learned the real meaning of joy, and I want you guys to just bare with me, and let me paint a picture of TRUE joy.
Imagine...almost 6 years ago today, you worked at a poor job, being overworked and underpaid. A day off is a godsend, and you spend each day off either at the bottom of a bottle, or in your choice of addictions, just to make the week you'll have to endure for that one day off a little less hellish. Managers bare down on you, co-workers half treat you like shit, Customers are rude and unappreciative of your work...only to go home to a landlord or renter who is more than happy to drain you of nearly every dollar you make, leaving you with little to your name. In my case, every extra dime I had to spare I shared with my friends, because half of them were worse off than me in money.
Suddenly....the job is gone. Something goes wrong...someone dies, or the term of a temp job is over, or whatever reason you can relate to. For some reason, nwo you are unemployed. But you have a bit of cash left over, right? I mean, you didn't even have time to spend your own money most times, anyways. But then you realize that use of this money comes at a price...you're funds drain out in a matter of weeks. In my case....days. Now, back to living with you're parents, broke, living on hand-outs again, like you were some child. You look for a new job, but the economy seems to have taken a bad hit while you worked too much to keep track. Getting a job...well, it wasn't as easy as you thought it'd be. No...the first few weeks go by...no luck. A month or two, and you're loosing hope.
Lets fast forward this story a bit. 3 years later, still no job. By this point, you've been being insulted, degraded, and undermined by your family, even. The few good gems in the family helping you can only help you so far. As you grasp for sanity, you turn to your friends you've made in the years, to escape once in a while. when they can't aid, you dig yourself into a video game, when not looking for a job, where in these games you've now become important. It's the only place you matter, anymore. Nobody cares. You feel more alone than you have in your whole life.
Once more, we push ahead. Lets go to just a few months ago. You've started your someteenth dozenth online relationship, since nobody in real life seems to want you, or the ones that do, you keep your distance, as you feel it's not right that you'd drag them down with you. Now you are looking at moving...leaving the few good relatives you have behind, and having to turn your back on your friends...all in hopes that something will finally go right. You arrive in a new town, hundreds, if not thousands of miles away from all you've ever known, only to find that the town is little different. You've your new partner, and hope this works out than the last several. But that's about it. Still begging your way through life, living on the funds of others just to get by. you have become nothing but a leech. A parasite. one more slip of bad luck....and you'll be on the streets, left to die. No friends. no family. Nobody. Forgotten and left to rot. this is all your life has come down to. this is your reward for 6 long years of fighting...of hunting...hopeing...praying...Begging for anything to go your way. this is all you amount to, now. By this point...you are grasping at fine threads to hold any memory of your sanity. Sure that your time to die is comeing...your time in this world, as far as the rest of the world matters, is done. You've all but given up.
you are nothing.
Nobody cares.
You have nothing
You will never amount to anything
why do you even bother fighting, even to just stay alive?
Suddenly...things look up. The relationship....it's...it's coming together in a way you dared not even dream. You meet people...sure a bit of a rag-tag bunch, everything from those unwilling to touch a beer, to drunks and addicts. But once you get to know them...they are actually a very amazing group...reminding you of home...every good thing about it, anyways. Without any of the bad. You're old addictions...these people want to help you break them. Then...as if just being able to feel at home, and happy again, wasn't enough....The bomb drops.
You land an interview. First one in years. it don't pan out. you land another, same week. get a second one from that, but it don't work out. finally, a third place pulls you in for an interview....then the second...and they ask you to come in Monday, that they are willing to give you a chance, despite your 6 years of hell.
A new home. A loving mate. New friends. Pushing free of you crutches. And now a job? And yet, this is only the beginning. 6 years of bad luck has finally broken.
This, my friends....This is Joy. this isn't just joy, but the type to bring tears to my eyes. I was beside myself in joy when the owner said he'd give me a chance. How the years have strained me...they nearly broke me. I don't know what I'd have done if my track record kept up. You see, THIS is the meaning of joy. this is joy in it's truest form.
Let nobody say a bowl of ice-cream could ever even look at this and call itself joy. No day off from work is joy. I've fought 6 years for this. Finally...finally my time has come. Finally, it looks like I'll get to stop leeching from my friends and loved ones...and able to show the world that these last 6 years have not rendered my useless.
To some? It's icecream on a hot day. It's getting to go to a water park in summer, or getting to see snow for your first time. It's being an artist finally gotten good enough that you can make a decent income on commissions alone. It's a day off, where you can just relax, and do NOTHING.
I thought these things fit the bill, till now. Now? I learned the real meaning of joy, and I want you guys to just bare with me, and let me paint a picture of TRUE joy.
Imagine...almost 6 years ago today, you worked at a poor job, being overworked and underpaid. A day off is a godsend, and you spend each day off either at the bottom of a bottle, or in your choice of addictions, just to make the week you'll have to endure for that one day off a little less hellish. Managers bare down on you, co-workers half treat you like shit, Customers are rude and unappreciative of your work...only to go home to a landlord or renter who is more than happy to drain you of nearly every dollar you make, leaving you with little to your name. In my case, every extra dime I had to spare I shared with my friends, because half of them were worse off than me in money.
Suddenly....the job is gone. Something goes wrong...someone dies, or the term of a temp job is over, or whatever reason you can relate to. For some reason, nwo you are unemployed. But you have a bit of cash left over, right? I mean, you didn't even have time to spend your own money most times, anyways. But then you realize that use of this money comes at a price...you're funds drain out in a matter of weeks. In my case....days. Now, back to living with you're parents, broke, living on hand-outs again, like you were some child. You look for a new job, but the economy seems to have taken a bad hit while you worked too much to keep track. Getting a job...well, it wasn't as easy as you thought it'd be. No...the first few weeks go by...no luck. A month or two, and you're loosing hope.
Lets fast forward this story a bit. 3 years later, still no job. By this point, you've been being insulted, degraded, and undermined by your family, even. The few good gems in the family helping you can only help you so far. As you grasp for sanity, you turn to your friends you've made in the years, to escape once in a while. when they can't aid, you dig yourself into a video game, when not looking for a job, where in these games you've now become important. It's the only place you matter, anymore. Nobody cares. You feel more alone than you have in your whole life.
Once more, we push ahead. Lets go to just a few months ago. You've started your someteenth dozenth online relationship, since nobody in real life seems to want you, or the ones that do, you keep your distance, as you feel it's not right that you'd drag them down with you. Now you are looking at moving...leaving the few good relatives you have behind, and having to turn your back on your friends...all in hopes that something will finally go right. You arrive in a new town, hundreds, if not thousands of miles away from all you've ever known, only to find that the town is little different. You've your new partner, and hope this works out than the last several. But that's about it. Still begging your way through life, living on the funds of others just to get by. you have become nothing but a leech. A parasite. one more slip of bad luck....and you'll be on the streets, left to die. No friends. no family. Nobody. Forgotten and left to rot. this is all your life has come down to. this is your reward for 6 long years of fighting...of hunting...hopeing...praying...Begging for anything to go your way. this is all you amount to, now. By this point...you are grasping at fine threads to hold any memory of your sanity. Sure that your time to die is comeing...your time in this world, as far as the rest of the world matters, is done. You've all but given up.
you are nothing.
Nobody cares.
You have nothing
You will never amount to anything
why do you even bother fighting, even to just stay alive?
Suddenly...things look up. The relationship....it's...it's coming together in a way you dared not even dream. You meet people...sure a bit of a rag-tag bunch, everything from those unwilling to touch a beer, to drunks and addicts. But once you get to know them...they are actually a very amazing group...reminding you of home...every good thing about it, anyways. Without any of the bad. You're old addictions...these people want to help you break them. Then...as if just being able to feel at home, and happy again, wasn't enough....The bomb drops.
You land an interview. First one in years. it don't pan out. you land another, same week. get a second one from that, but it don't work out. finally, a third place pulls you in for an interview....then the second...and they ask you to come in Monday, that they are willing to give you a chance, despite your 6 years of hell.
A new home. A loving mate. New friends. Pushing free of you crutches. And now a job? And yet, this is only the beginning. 6 years of bad luck has finally broken.
This, my friends....This is Joy. this isn't just joy, but the type to bring tears to my eyes. I was beside myself in joy when the owner said he'd give me a chance. How the years have strained me...they nearly broke me. I don't know what I'd have done if my track record kept up. You see, THIS is the meaning of joy. this is joy in it's truest form.
Let nobody say a bowl of ice-cream could ever even look at this and call itself joy. No day off from work is joy. I've fought 6 years for this. Finally...finally my time has come. Finally, it looks like I'll get to stop leeching from my friends and loved ones...and able to show the world that these last 6 years have not rendered my useless.
Healthy once more!
Posted 13 years agook, so finally kicked that illness in the bud, and finally back up to socializing and stuff. ^_^
that said, I know there are those who wanted to hang out when i made my last post...well, now I'm better, and can hang out. hopefully i've enough time before I leave to see everyone one last time before I go.
that said, I know there are those who wanted to hang out when i made my last post...well, now I'm better, and can hang out. hopefully i've enough time before I leave to see everyone one last time before I go.
Another rant...who's the target this time? Read to learn!
Posted 13 years agoSo, it's been a while since I posted anything up here...let alone any of my rants...and to top it off? I'm sick. I feel halfway between barfing, and passing out at most all times. Reason I don't? Havn't eaten anything, and coughing that rattles my ribs stops any sleep. So? Time to expose and 'enlighten' people to another dose of reality.
So lately, I'm sure many of you have noticed, there is these groups all about 'stop bullying'. Now, I'll admit, I agree. This bullying crap is old, and it needs to come to a screaming halt, and anyone not ready to stop falling off a huge freaking cliff! But I was bullied as a child. No friends, just wanting to be left alone...Get through the days, one day at a time. I understand. But I realized that there is a side of this tale that isn't being told, and points not being made.
So, you notice we live in a world where our own government seeks to rule us through fear....yet we seek to remove that from schools? I'll agree, the one's responsible for this bullying..and I'm not talking about just schools...Need to get a baseball bat upside the head, but my point? Why do we care about at schools? these immature wanna-be muscle-heads will eventualy pick on a nerd with too many friends, they will get together and beat the crap out of them, and they'll realize 'oh right, THAT is why I shouldn't do that'. Stop worrying abotu the 'school bullies'. Personally? being Bullied is what helped me grow as a strong-willed, stubborn bastard, who will never be forced to cower in fear of some mindless oaf. BULLYS IN SCHOOL TEACH LESSONS! They teach courage, strength, and unity of those who've been outcasted. To face what may be pain or humiliation, and learn that that's just a phase, and face their tormenters head-on! I did, once. One swing, and I didn't even hit. but the bully in question never messed with me again, because unlike the rest of the class...I stood up to him.
one of the aspect connected to this, which makes me have an issue, is the 'every child is special' mentality. Well, you weren't born with a third leg, a pair of wings, or some super-natural talent, then I'm sorry...your NOT special! Special Ed, at best. This 'everyone is special' treatment is what fuel these bullies! they each think they are special, and an exception to the rules. so they think they can laugh at anyone who's different, and use humiliation and violence to assert themselves as the better. Ya know? Like the human race has been doing for thousands of years? A system that has proven, time and again, to be flawed? I'll be the first to tell people that violence has a place, and a time. There is a time and place when you have to stop talking, and take action. But this isn't it. and these kids that think they are 'special', some of them? they are acting different trying to prove they ARE when they are NOT. One of my best friends in high school...kid who thought it was funny to run head-first into steel beams...I'm shocked he wasn't getting his butt kicked every day, because he honestly was a freak. He was my friend, but that didn't make him any less a freak. I knew that back then, just as I do now. These are what we should NOT be teaching our kids!
The other aspect is the misdirected action. Why are we cracking down on children? If the parents didn't fail their kids in raising them, this wouldn't be a problem. and there are a lot worse people out there that need a hard bat upside the head! What about our politicians? As if anyone with two braincells can't tell they are lieing out their rears to get votes. Businessmen? Ya know, the ones who'll milk you for every dime they can get, and never offer a helping hand to one in need? What about the managers hireing people? Or should I say, hireing if you are overqualified, and are willing to go underpaid? THESE are the modern day, real world bullies! THESE are the people causeing REAL impact on the REAL world!
I'm not saying stopping school bullying is bad. I'm just saying, people....we are fighting the wrong fight. And it's high time someone started fighting the right one.
So lately, I'm sure many of you have noticed, there is these groups all about 'stop bullying'. Now, I'll admit, I agree. This bullying crap is old, and it needs to come to a screaming halt, and anyone not ready to stop falling off a huge freaking cliff! But I was bullied as a child. No friends, just wanting to be left alone...Get through the days, one day at a time. I understand. But I realized that there is a side of this tale that isn't being told, and points not being made.
So, you notice we live in a world where our own government seeks to rule us through fear....yet we seek to remove that from schools? I'll agree, the one's responsible for this bullying..and I'm not talking about just schools...Need to get a baseball bat upside the head, but my point? Why do we care about at schools? these immature wanna-be muscle-heads will eventualy pick on a nerd with too many friends, they will get together and beat the crap out of them, and they'll realize 'oh right, THAT is why I shouldn't do that'. Stop worrying abotu the 'school bullies'. Personally? being Bullied is what helped me grow as a strong-willed, stubborn bastard, who will never be forced to cower in fear of some mindless oaf. BULLYS IN SCHOOL TEACH LESSONS! They teach courage, strength, and unity of those who've been outcasted. To face what may be pain or humiliation, and learn that that's just a phase, and face their tormenters head-on! I did, once. One swing, and I didn't even hit. but the bully in question never messed with me again, because unlike the rest of the class...I stood up to him.
one of the aspect connected to this, which makes me have an issue, is the 'every child is special' mentality. Well, you weren't born with a third leg, a pair of wings, or some super-natural talent, then I'm sorry...your NOT special! Special Ed, at best. This 'everyone is special' treatment is what fuel these bullies! they each think they are special, and an exception to the rules. so they think they can laugh at anyone who's different, and use humiliation and violence to assert themselves as the better. Ya know? Like the human race has been doing for thousands of years? A system that has proven, time and again, to be flawed? I'll be the first to tell people that violence has a place, and a time. There is a time and place when you have to stop talking, and take action. But this isn't it. and these kids that think they are 'special', some of them? they are acting different trying to prove they ARE when they are NOT. One of my best friends in high school...kid who thought it was funny to run head-first into steel beams...I'm shocked he wasn't getting his butt kicked every day, because he honestly was a freak. He was my friend, but that didn't make him any less a freak. I knew that back then, just as I do now. These are what we should NOT be teaching our kids!
The other aspect is the misdirected action. Why are we cracking down on children? If the parents didn't fail their kids in raising them, this wouldn't be a problem. and there are a lot worse people out there that need a hard bat upside the head! What about our politicians? As if anyone with two braincells can't tell they are lieing out their rears to get votes. Businessmen? Ya know, the ones who'll milk you for every dime they can get, and never offer a helping hand to one in need? What about the managers hireing people? Or should I say, hireing if you are overqualified, and are willing to go underpaid? THESE are the modern day, real world bullies! THESE are the people causeing REAL impact on the REAL world!
I'm not saying stopping school bullying is bad. I'm just saying, people....we are fighting the wrong fight. And it's high time someone started fighting the right one.
here we go again! [Important to those local to me]
Posted 13 years agoSo, after several months of planning, and romancing, and more planning...Once more I'm making my attempt to abandon this dead-end town. while I value every one of my friends here, the town is sinking, and my heart is singing me to another land.
This time? Well, of course, I speak of Michigan. where my beloved kitten awaits me to be at his side.
I depart on the 15th of November. of course, this comes at the price of me not being present for Christmas, or any other holiday after that point. I will be hard at work trying to find work once I arrive, when i'm not spending time with my lover, so I may be a bit spiratic in my communications with the outside world. But thus is the cycle of moving my lazy rump accross the country.
So, to all my friends here in Florida, please....feel free to contact me, and plan time to hang out before I depart, if you wish. Otherwise, I should be somewhat able to be reached here on FA. Or on World of Warcraft, for those who play it. I /may/ be returning to SL at some point once I get situated, assuming things work out. Though, I've been away from it for quite a while now, due to the planning of this ordeal, and other destractions and obligations. But that is neither here nor there.
The important thing? I'm moving to live with my love. And hopefully something of use will come to pass from this ordeal. My hopes are high, and time will say how this turns out.
This time? Well, of course, I speak of Michigan. where my beloved kitten awaits me to be at his side.
I depart on the 15th of November. of course, this comes at the price of me not being present for Christmas, or any other holiday after that point. I will be hard at work trying to find work once I arrive, when i'm not spending time with my lover, so I may be a bit spiratic in my communications with the outside world. But thus is the cycle of moving my lazy rump accross the country.
So, to all my friends here in Florida, please....feel free to contact me, and plan time to hang out before I depart, if you wish. Otherwise, I should be somewhat able to be reached here on FA. Or on World of Warcraft, for those who play it. I /may/ be returning to SL at some point once I get situated, assuming things work out. Though, I've been away from it for quite a while now, due to the planning of this ordeal, and other destractions and obligations. But that is neither here nor there.
The important thing? I'm moving to live with my love. And hopefully something of use will come to pass from this ordeal. My hopes are high, and time will say how this turns out.
important update for those that know me
Posted 13 years agoOh wow, this has been one heck of a long weekend. DX And I spent it internet-less. so, time to update people who may have been wondering where I was, what happend, and why I was otu of touch for 3 long, painful days....I think seeing as most of today I was out of touch, too, that makes 4.
Anyways, I was not warned our internet hadn't been payed, or that we may loose the net soon, so when the net went out I had NO idea what was happening. For anyone curious, yes, being without internet about drove me insane. on the plus side, I was glad I downloaded a couple doofus games as a joke, that were offline. And now making note to delete them, and download actual games in the event this may happen again...Anyone with a collection of movies or something they can spare, please PLEASE skype me, and send me some spare movies...I watched all the ones I have that I found worth watching at the time in oen bloody day. Spent the rest of it realizing that Star wars actually makes a decent Warcraft nock-off...i'm talking old warcraft, not World of warcraft.
that all said, Yes, I am fine. i've managed to survive a few days with 0 social interaction, games that could entertain me for long periods of time, and even putting up with my step dad...who was [for the most of the time], unusually tolerable for most of the time I had no net. ...No, i am not doing that intentionally any time soon. If I have any sa in it, never again. DX god that drove me nuts.
I will be returning to Second life soon enough, as well as Warcraft, and regularly showing on Facebook, and Kongregate, as early as the morning. net is being slow tonight, so not expecting to be too active internet-wise tonight, but i'm also getting tired after spending the day pleeding with the router to get the net working after the bill was payed. What a long day.
Anyways, I was not warned our internet hadn't been payed, or that we may loose the net soon, so when the net went out I had NO idea what was happening. For anyone curious, yes, being without internet about drove me insane. on the plus side, I was glad I downloaded a couple doofus games as a joke, that were offline. And now making note to delete them, and download actual games in the event this may happen again...Anyone with a collection of movies or something they can spare, please PLEASE skype me, and send me some spare movies...I watched all the ones I have that I found worth watching at the time in oen bloody day. Spent the rest of it realizing that Star wars actually makes a decent Warcraft nock-off...i'm talking old warcraft, not World of warcraft.
that all said, Yes, I am fine. i've managed to survive a few days with 0 social interaction, games that could entertain me for long periods of time, and even putting up with my step dad...who was [for the most of the time], unusually tolerable for most of the time I had no net. ...No, i am not doing that intentionally any time soon. If I have any sa in it, never again. DX god that drove me nuts.
I will be returning to Second life soon enough, as well as Warcraft, and regularly showing on Facebook, and Kongregate, as early as the morning. net is being slow tonight, so not expecting to be too active internet-wise tonight, but i'm also getting tired after spending the day pleeding with the router to get the net working after the bill was payed. What a long day.
Eh...a slight change of plans
Posted 13 years agowell, seems a complication has arisen....And looking like the move is off, until further notice.
And it BEGINS!
Posted 13 years agoSo, as people have noticed, I stopped doing my rants on FA. something about a rousing lack of people giving two shits, but that's not the point
The IMPORTANT thing is this....i'm moving, again.
Ok, yea, I know, I know, I've said this a dozen times and I always come back. but here is the facts...I am not getting a job in Pensacola. I've tried, and been trying for years, and it just won't happen. So, I've finally found a way to get out of this town for good.
So, those who have been keeping track of my facebook know I have officially become mates with my lovely Neko. He's a darling, and has made arrangements that will have me moving in with him in the near future. Since I have a Family reunion in the middle of July, it won't be till then that I leave. only because of the reunion. Anyways, moving on.
Anyways, so now I'm sure some of you are thinking 'yea, here we go again', or 'and lets give it 2 months, he'll be back'....well, this time I have my usual back-up plans, and they are much more reliable to ensure I will not be returning. Namely, I will be moving to Wyoming, Michagan, and My eldest sister lives less than 3 hours away, right accross the great lake. and then other siblings, at most, 5 hours away. short drives, all thigns considered. And if things fall out with him, I'll be pulling strings to live with one of them. My eldest sister able to hook me up wiht a job, no problem. At least theoretically. Anyways, not the point, with redundent backup plans, that rely on family I know I can rely on, this ensures that there is little to no chance of my returning, and little is on vacation.
so, that said, once more I am looking to leave, and this time I've planned everything out. I should not be returning to this town.
The IMPORTANT thing is this....i'm moving, again.
Ok, yea, I know, I know, I've said this a dozen times and I always come back. but here is the facts...I am not getting a job in Pensacola. I've tried, and been trying for years, and it just won't happen. So, I've finally found a way to get out of this town for good.
So, those who have been keeping track of my facebook know I have officially become mates with my lovely Neko. He's a darling, and has made arrangements that will have me moving in with him in the near future. Since I have a Family reunion in the middle of July, it won't be till then that I leave. only because of the reunion. Anyways, moving on.
Anyways, so now I'm sure some of you are thinking 'yea, here we go again', or 'and lets give it 2 months, he'll be back'....well, this time I have my usual back-up plans, and they are much more reliable to ensure I will not be returning. Namely, I will be moving to Wyoming, Michagan, and My eldest sister lives less than 3 hours away, right accross the great lake. and then other siblings, at most, 5 hours away. short drives, all thigns considered. And if things fall out with him, I'll be pulling strings to live with one of them. My eldest sister able to hook me up wiht a job, no problem. At least theoretically. Anyways, not the point, with redundent backup plans, that rely on family I know I can rely on, this ensures that there is little to no chance of my returning, and little is on vacation.
so, that said, once more I am looking to leave, and this time I've planned everything out. I should not be returning to this town.
Drivers on the road
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CuVb.....ature=youtu.be
Figured keep you guys posted on the rants. Yes, I am looking into ways to improve....early work, bare with me.
Figured keep you guys posted on the rants. Yes, I am looking into ways to improve....early work, bare with me.
A danger only to yourself
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LVc.....ature=youtu.be
So I have gone live to Youtube, now, and started ranting on video. A) It takes less time to rant on video [when I do like I did this time, anyways], and B) more people are willing to watch a little 3-6 minute video than they are to read a little page and a half rant.
That said, I will have to consult someoen about fixing this stuff up and having it as just audio file, rather than video file, as I don't know how to do that, and I'm going to start putting my rants on here as normal submissions, so that you guys can just listen to me in the background, while you do....whatever it is you are doing.
So I have gone live to Youtube, now, and started ranting on video. A) It takes less time to rant on video [when I do like I did this time, anyways], and B) more people are willing to watch a little 3-6 minute video than they are to read a little page and a half rant.
That said, I will have to consult someoen about fixing this stuff up and having it as just audio file, rather than video file, as I don't know how to do that, and I'm going to start putting my rants on here as normal submissions, so that you guys can just listen to me in the background, while you do....whatever it is you are doing.
Ya like having something to hate? COME GET A TASTE! ^_^
Posted 13 years agoOK, first off, I want to say my 'child abuse' rant may have gone a bit over the top, and was not nearly as well executed as my prior rants, as several people have pointed out to me, already. that said, I do believe in corporal punishment, but I believe my mentality on the matter has been horribly warped in image. Someday I will redo that rant, and try to do things a little more reasonable....little easier to understand my stance on the matter.
THAT SAID! OK, ladies and gents, I got a lot of you guys out there who were asking me yesterday about 'whats your next rant going to be about?'. And ya know what? one of you had a REALLY FREAKING GOOD idea!
You ever meet these people who seem to just LOVE to BITCH?! Everything from double standards, to REACHING for shit to complain about! Well, today, THEY are the target. 'OH well, I'm not one of those people'....at least 3 people taht are capable of reading this rant are those kind of people....2 of which are liable to have the patience to ACTUALLY read it. And that's just that I know about.
Ok, so we start shit off with actual grounds...complaining about shit that has actually happened. Ok, I left my chair away from the table, i didn't do the dishes, when they were piling over, or take the trash out when it's spilling into the floor...This is your run of the mill complainer. They might do so to a nagging degree, but their complaints are legit.
Then we have the ones that start picking at simple stuff....My shoes aren't where YOU say they should be. A chair is moved a quarter inch. Something isn't plugged up the WAY you want it, and WHERE you want it. These are the people whom are just nit-picking. They are just LOOKING for something to grumble about, And usually, though, they are a little more realistic about why they grumble...it may not effect anything around the house, let alone the world, but it at least sets off some kind of OCD in them, or something. These are the nit-pickers. Some of the more acceptable complainers out there, to be honest.
Then we have the ones whom complain about shit that HASN'T HAPPENED. Thins assumed to have been done, or wouldn't be done. You bitch because you ASSUME I drank the last of the tea...you ASSUME I knew a task had to be done, when I hadn't even been out there, to see the grass got too high. You ASSUME I am so attentive....These are the bitchers. And Assumptive bitchers, at that. They are the ones that start pushing my nerves.
Then we have the ones I HATE! The out right 'Live to Bitch' people! Don't think you are one? Ok, if you have EVER gone through someone elses trash, and then bitched said person out for what they threw away? Yea, your one of these. I'm talking the people whom take all 3 above this, and TAKE IT TO THE NEXT LEVEL!
OK, a message for you people whom can say they have ever done something that wild before. And a couple of you, have done exactly that. GET A FUCKING LIFE! Do you LIKE being PISSED OFF all the time? I mean, don't get me wrong, when you have something REAL to bitch about, that's one thing, but you fucks out there who GO OUT OF YOUR WAY to find something to bitch about? You know what you are doing? You are only pissing YOURSELF off, and making everyone around you MISERABLE!
Do you think people like me, and the people I know, like to live every waking minute of their lives being bitched at about BULLSHIT?! FUCK NO! Stop going through my trash, stop getting up in the middle of the night to see what I'm doing, stop going around and LOOKING FOR SHIT TO BITCH AT ME ABOUT! You think I'm fooled? I'm not, I see what you are doing! Alright? And this goes to all the people I DON'T KNOW, TOO! you know someoen who does this shit? Give them a link to this rant, I'll set them straight! You want to act like some immature little CHILD who has NOTHING better to do than stick your nose in OTHER PEOPLE'S business? GROW THE FUCK UP! 90% of you people doing this are ADULTS! STOP ACTING LIKE LITTLE CHILDREN! You do this to people, when they are growing up, all you are doing is destroying any sense of self-worth, and crushing their self-esteem. this is the shit that leaves people like me FUCKED UP FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES!
But while I'm at it? Lets stab this double-standard stuff, since that rant was so short, and this applies to many of you!
So what is this shit line 'Do as I say, not as I do'? Or, 'Well, it's my house, so I can do this, but don't you dare do it!'? You know what this is? THIS IS BULLSHIT! I'm sorry, So you go around leaving something out all night, but I have to clean up my corner of a single room in the entire house, that usually has nothing on it but what I use DAILY, just to satisfy your interests? FUCK THAT!
I'm sorry, this shit flies in a WORK place, because guess what? I get PAID to do what I'm told. just like my managers get PAID to tell me to do shit. But at home? or a stranger? NO! You want me to do something? PROVE TO ME YOUR WILLING TO SET THE EXAMPLE! If you aren't doing it, WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I?! That's HYPOCRISY! You people are being FUCKING HYPOCRITES, and that's ALL THERE IS TO IT! What? Ok, lets set an example I hear regularly...'my house, my rules'....well guess what? Just because I don't like moving something a hundred fucking times is not grounds to KICK ME OUT! If I was actually HURTING someone? Sure. But 99% of the time, these kind of people are bitching about shit that only hurts OURSELVES! You wouldn't threaten to kick us out because we are playing sports, and that has a LARGE record of injury, would you? So why does it matter if we do something that isn't hurting anyone?!
And you think that a double-standard only applies to HYPOCRITES?! NO! You fucks who do shit like 'Oh, it's ok for two girls to be lez, but two guys shouldn't be gay'......THAT IS BULLSHIT! Sorry our manly bodies don't fulfill some wet dream for ya, but that is NOT GROUNDS TO TELL US WHAT WE CAN AND CANNOT DO! 'oh, it's ok for this group to do this, but you can't', is what it all comes down to, and it's BULLSHIT! YOU DO NOT CONTROL ME, AND YOU DO NOT SET THE RULES, SO YOU CAN SHUT THE FUCK UP! This double-standard BULLSHIT is just that! BULLSHIT! You either hate ANYONE doing this shit, or are against the ACT, or whatever, but you do not dictate WHO it's ok to do this stuff! It's these double standards that have kept Gay rights from being fulfilled, it's this shit that has kept some groups from finding good jobs. it's this shit that LIMITS OUR DEVELOPMENT AS A RACE! AS A HUMAN RACE! And you people need to fucking learn that you are being FUCKING STUPID, and SHUT THE FUCK UP!
this has been another rant by our beloved Crimson Knight, saying STOP ACTING LIKE CHILDREN, OR GO BACK TO FUCKING MIDDLE SCHOOL!
THAT SAID! OK, ladies and gents, I got a lot of you guys out there who were asking me yesterday about 'whats your next rant going to be about?'. And ya know what? one of you had a REALLY FREAKING GOOD idea!
You ever meet these people who seem to just LOVE to BITCH?! Everything from double standards, to REACHING for shit to complain about! Well, today, THEY are the target. 'OH well, I'm not one of those people'....at least 3 people taht are capable of reading this rant are those kind of people....2 of which are liable to have the patience to ACTUALLY read it. And that's just that I know about.
Ok, so we start shit off with actual grounds...complaining about shit that has actually happened. Ok, I left my chair away from the table, i didn't do the dishes, when they were piling over, or take the trash out when it's spilling into the floor...This is your run of the mill complainer. They might do so to a nagging degree, but their complaints are legit.
Then we have the ones that start picking at simple stuff....My shoes aren't where YOU say they should be. A chair is moved a quarter inch. Something isn't plugged up the WAY you want it, and WHERE you want it. These are the people whom are just nit-picking. They are just LOOKING for something to grumble about, And usually, though, they are a little more realistic about why they grumble...it may not effect anything around the house, let alone the world, but it at least sets off some kind of OCD in them, or something. These are the nit-pickers. Some of the more acceptable complainers out there, to be honest.
Then we have the ones whom complain about shit that HASN'T HAPPENED. Thins assumed to have been done, or wouldn't be done. You bitch because you ASSUME I drank the last of the tea...you ASSUME I knew a task had to be done, when I hadn't even been out there, to see the grass got too high. You ASSUME I am so attentive....These are the bitchers. And Assumptive bitchers, at that. They are the ones that start pushing my nerves.
Then we have the ones I HATE! The out right 'Live to Bitch' people! Don't think you are one? Ok, if you have EVER gone through someone elses trash, and then bitched said person out for what they threw away? Yea, your one of these. I'm talking the people whom take all 3 above this, and TAKE IT TO THE NEXT LEVEL!
OK, a message for you people whom can say they have ever done something that wild before. And a couple of you, have done exactly that. GET A FUCKING LIFE! Do you LIKE being PISSED OFF all the time? I mean, don't get me wrong, when you have something REAL to bitch about, that's one thing, but you fucks out there who GO OUT OF YOUR WAY to find something to bitch about? You know what you are doing? You are only pissing YOURSELF off, and making everyone around you MISERABLE!
Do you think people like me, and the people I know, like to live every waking minute of their lives being bitched at about BULLSHIT?! FUCK NO! Stop going through my trash, stop getting up in the middle of the night to see what I'm doing, stop going around and LOOKING FOR SHIT TO BITCH AT ME ABOUT! You think I'm fooled? I'm not, I see what you are doing! Alright? And this goes to all the people I DON'T KNOW, TOO! you know someoen who does this shit? Give them a link to this rant, I'll set them straight! You want to act like some immature little CHILD who has NOTHING better to do than stick your nose in OTHER PEOPLE'S business? GROW THE FUCK UP! 90% of you people doing this are ADULTS! STOP ACTING LIKE LITTLE CHILDREN! You do this to people, when they are growing up, all you are doing is destroying any sense of self-worth, and crushing their self-esteem. this is the shit that leaves people like me FUCKED UP FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES!
But while I'm at it? Lets stab this double-standard stuff, since that rant was so short, and this applies to many of you!
So what is this shit line 'Do as I say, not as I do'? Or, 'Well, it's my house, so I can do this, but don't you dare do it!'? You know what this is? THIS IS BULLSHIT! I'm sorry, So you go around leaving something out all night, but I have to clean up my corner of a single room in the entire house, that usually has nothing on it but what I use DAILY, just to satisfy your interests? FUCK THAT!
I'm sorry, this shit flies in a WORK place, because guess what? I get PAID to do what I'm told. just like my managers get PAID to tell me to do shit. But at home? or a stranger? NO! You want me to do something? PROVE TO ME YOUR WILLING TO SET THE EXAMPLE! If you aren't doing it, WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I?! That's HYPOCRISY! You people are being FUCKING HYPOCRITES, and that's ALL THERE IS TO IT! What? Ok, lets set an example I hear regularly...'my house, my rules'....well guess what? Just because I don't like moving something a hundred fucking times is not grounds to KICK ME OUT! If I was actually HURTING someone? Sure. But 99% of the time, these kind of people are bitching about shit that only hurts OURSELVES! You wouldn't threaten to kick us out because we are playing sports, and that has a LARGE record of injury, would you? So why does it matter if we do something that isn't hurting anyone?!
And you think that a double-standard only applies to HYPOCRITES?! NO! You fucks who do shit like 'Oh, it's ok for two girls to be lez, but two guys shouldn't be gay'......THAT IS BULLSHIT! Sorry our manly bodies don't fulfill some wet dream for ya, but that is NOT GROUNDS TO TELL US WHAT WE CAN AND CANNOT DO! 'oh, it's ok for this group to do this, but you can't', is what it all comes down to, and it's BULLSHIT! YOU DO NOT CONTROL ME, AND YOU DO NOT SET THE RULES, SO YOU CAN SHUT THE FUCK UP! This double-standard BULLSHIT is just that! BULLSHIT! You either hate ANYONE doing this shit, or are against the ACT, or whatever, but you do not dictate WHO it's ok to do this stuff! It's these double standards that have kept Gay rights from being fulfilled, it's this shit that has kept some groups from finding good jobs. it's this shit that LIMITS OUR DEVELOPMENT AS A RACE! AS A HUMAN RACE! And you people need to fucking learn that you are being FUCKING STUPID, and SHUT THE FUCK UP!
this has been another rant by our beloved Crimson Knight, saying STOP ACTING LIKE CHILDREN, OR GO BACK TO FUCKING MIDDLE SCHOOL!
Child Abuse!
Posted 13 years agoOk, I know I said in the last rant that I'm doing 'one a day', but I just thought of something absolutely horrid, that really DOES PISS ME OFF! And what reminded me of this? A nice song on Youtube. Located right
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And a little mix of seeing someone say 'Spare the rod and spoil the child'.................YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID!
Here, let me give you the other side of the BIBLE QUOTE! 'AND HE SHAL BRING THE MOTHER SHAME'!
Ok, all you 'oh, don't spank my kid' types out there...the BIBLE says to whip their asses!
You know what you are teaching your kids these days? You are teaching them that 'mommy and daddy will always protect me, and I'll never get in trouble', THAT'S WHAT! I'm sorry, kid goes coloring on the walls? Take the Crayons, whip their asses, and then tell them to go play with other toys, because they ain't getting the crayons back till they learn not to draw on the walls! you don't? THINK ABOUT IT! YOU ARE TEACHING THEM VANDALISM! your kid goes up and hits another kid on the playground? WEAR THEIR LITTLE ASSES OUT, AND MAKE THEM APOLOGIZE! You ain't doing that? Well, you are encouraging SPOUSAL ABUSE, Violence, assault, and possibly MURDER! Kid is throwing a fit because [s]he was told 'no'? Put their asses in time out till they stop crying! Don't? Oh, wow, didn't know you were the type that wanted your kid to know that all they have to do is cry loud enough, and they'll get anything they fucking WANT! THINK ABOUT THE PENALTY TO YOUR ACTIONS!
You wonder why we have little kids all over the place, growing up with smoking, weed, drugs, booze, and this shit? Lets not forget graffiti, violence, backtalking, and rebellion against the authority. You people wonder why our jails are packed with little shits like this. You wonder why violence in schools is becomming common? Used to be we could go to school, and not have to worry, as it was a safe place to learn. Now? You gotta worry who's hiding a gun in their pant, who's got drugs, and who was the prick who put spray paint all over the building! why? BECAUSE YOU STUPID PARENTS OUT THERE ARE TOO SCARED TO DISCIPLINE YOUR CHILDREN!
Ok, now that I have your attention, I got a one time deal for you folks. GIVE ME A WEEK WITH THE LITTLE FUCKING PRICKS! Ya know what I'd do with them? You tell ME 'no'? Well, here's the soap. Start chewing you little fuck! You going to swing on me? I'M BIGGER, AND I SWING BACK! You going to trash the house? Well, you get to CLEAN THE SHIT UP! You just being a little brat, and crying for no reason? HOW ABOUT I GIVE YOU A REASON TO CRY?! By the end of the week? Their asses are probably going to be soar as shit, but ya know what? They'll LISTEN!
Now, don't get me wrong...I don't agree with child abuse. but as the song says 'if they deserve the ass whopin' ......No bruise? You didn't do anything wrong. And in some children I met, you didn't do enough! Look, don't abuse your kid, but STOP BEING SCARED OF THEM! I was whipped as a kid, MY PARENTS where whipped as kids, MY GRANDPARENTS were whipped as kids.....And you know what? We all came out pretty FUCKING GOOD! I'll be honest....I should have gotten my ass TORE UP more than I did! I'm still a rebel. But Because my mom wasn't afraid to leave my ass red? My dad wasn't afraid to take that switch after me? I learned fast that you RESPECT your elders, when they have earned it, and I learned there is a PRICE TO PAY IF YOU WANT TO CAUSE TROUBLE! Don't see me out shoplifting, do ya? That's because I wasn't allowed to just take shit from other kids! Even my siblings! You don't see me swinging on anyone I don't like, do ya? That's because I was taught that if I swing, I better BE READY TO PAY THE PRICE! I'm the second youngest of 8 children, and ya know what? All my siblings learned like I did! Some learned better than me, I admit....I've always been stubborn. But Lets look at my family, THANKS TO HOW WE WERE RAISED!
Eldest sister? Husband, kids, a house, a job, very stable. She's living a life I envy every day of my life, because she has FUCKING EVERYTHING I COULD WANT! And ya know what? She's well behaved, an absolute sweetheart, and as sharp as a whip! She was a rebel as a kid, don't get me wrong....she ain't no angel, but she came out pretty good, didn't she?
Two step-sisters? happy with their partners and kids, and making it out on their own! Damn proud seeing how they manage to stand on their own feet, more or less. And they have respect for their father, unlike some of these ungreatful brats out there!
Older step-brother? Just like his dad...my step-dad....but he learned to be strong, stand for what he believes in. He'll protect his father, our mother, his kids, and girlfriend WITH HIS LIFE! Open minded, with a great sense of humor....yea, it can be insulting at times, but we are family, and we know at the end of the day, it's all in good fun....sometimes I wonder about his dad's comments, though...but that's a rant for another time. Point is, he's a moral, upstanding man, who works his ass off to supply for his children and family in any way he can.
Older blood-brother? well off, living on his own, didn't have a kid till he knew he could handle it, as he knew not to bring another life into the world unless he could take the responsibility. He's a little out of touch these days, but he's still my brother. And every time I see him, he's always the same goof I grew up with....albeit a little less ready to bury me in the yard, lol.
I think my point is made clear here, and I don'thave to bring up the adopted brother, or my kid brother, whom both also have jobs, partners, and children.
So, THIS is what a childhood with a healthy ass-whipping brings up. Oh, it's such a HORRIBLE way to be raised, isn't it?
The reason I am against abuse? Lets face it, you should NEVER make your children honestly afraid of you all the time! It is better to rule through love than fear....that's an old saying, and I belive in it strongly. But knowing when they did wrong? Yea, that's a lesson they NEED. don't abuse....but damn well teach them a lesson! Because I SWEAR IF I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ANY MORE FUCKING SCREAMING CHILDREN NOT BEING DISCIPLINED, I'M GOING TO BEND THEIR PARENTS OVER MY KNEE AND TEACH THEM WHAT THEY SHOULD DO TO THEIR KIDS! It's BULLSHIT, how our kids are being raised in a world where they are taught no penalty for their actions! They are the rulers of tomorrow! Our parents ruled yesterday, we are starting to take control today, THEY ARE NEXT! Are these the kind of people we want ruling our world? IT IS UP TO US TO ENSURE THE FUTURE FOR OUR GRANDKIDS!
And the bad part? Some of you offenders are IN MY FUCKING FAMILY!
This has been a SECOND rant in one day, by you beloved Crimson Knight, saying ......hold up, I hear a little child screaming because she has to share....*stomps off, and even more screaming ensues*
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And a little mix of seeing someone say 'Spare the rod and spoil the child'.................YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID!
Here, let me give you the other side of the BIBLE QUOTE! 'AND HE SHAL BRING THE MOTHER SHAME'!
Ok, all you 'oh, don't spank my kid' types out there...the BIBLE says to whip their asses!
You know what you are teaching your kids these days? You are teaching them that 'mommy and daddy will always protect me, and I'll never get in trouble', THAT'S WHAT! I'm sorry, kid goes coloring on the walls? Take the Crayons, whip their asses, and then tell them to go play with other toys, because they ain't getting the crayons back till they learn not to draw on the walls! you don't? THINK ABOUT IT! YOU ARE TEACHING THEM VANDALISM! your kid goes up and hits another kid on the playground? WEAR THEIR LITTLE ASSES OUT, AND MAKE THEM APOLOGIZE! You ain't doing that? Well, you are encouraging SPOUSAL ABUSE, Violence, assault, and possibly MURDER! Kid is throwing a fit because [s]he was told 'no'? Put their asses in time out till they stop crying! Don't? Oh, wow, didn't know you were the type that wanted your kid to know that all they have to do is cry loud enough, and they'll get anything they fucking WANT! THINK ABOUT THE PENALTY TO YOUR ACTIONS!
You wonder why we have little kids all over the place, growing up with smoking, weed, drugs, booze, and this shit? Lets not forget graffiti, violence, backtalking, and rebellion against the authority. You people wonder why our jails are packed with little shits like this. You wonder why violence in schools is becomming common? Used to be we could go to school, and not have to worry, as it was a safe place to learn. Now? You gotta worry who's hiding a gun in their pant, who's got drugs, and who was the prick who put spray paint all over the building! why? BECAUSE YOU STUPID PARENTS OUT THERE ARE TOO SCARED TO DISCIPLINE YOUR CHILDREN!
Ok, now that I have your attention, I got a one time deal for you folks. GIVE ME A WEEK WITH THE LITTLE FUCKING PRICKS! Ya know what I'd do with them? You tell ME 'no'? Well, here's the soap. Start chewing you little fuck! You going to swing on me? I'M BIGGER, AND I SWING BACK! You going to trash the house? Well, you get to CLEAN THE SHIT UP! You just being a little brat, and crying for no reason? HOW ABOUT I GIVE YOU A REASON TO CRY?! By the end of the week? Their asses are probably going to be soar as shit, but ya know what? They'll LISTEN!
Now, don't get me wrong...I don't agree with child abuse. but as the song says 'if they deserve the ass whopin' ......No bruise? You didn't do anything wrong. And in some children I met, you didn't do enough! Look, don't abuse your kid, but STOP BEING SCARED OF THEM! I was whipped as a kid, MY PARENTS where whipped as kids, MY GRANDPARENTS were whipped as kids.....And you know what? We all came out pretty FUCKING GOOD! I'll be honest....I should have gotten my ass TORE UP more than I did! I'm still a rebel. But Because my mom wasn't afraid to leave my ass red? My dad wasn't afraid to take that switch after me? I learned fast that you RESPECT your elders, when they have earned it, and I learned there is a PRICE TO PAY IF YOU WANT TO CAUSE TROUBLE! Don't see me out shoplifting, do ya? That's because I wasn't allowed to just take shit from other kids! Even my siblings! You don't see me swinging on anyone I don't like, do ya? That's because I was taught that if I swing, I better BE READY TO PAY THE PRICE! I'm the second youngest of 8 children, and ya know what? All my siblings learned like I did! Some learned better than me, I admit....I've always been stubborn. But Lets look at my family, THANKS TO HOW WE WERE RAISED!
Eldest sister? Husband, kids, a house, a job, very stable. She's living a life I envy every day of my life, because she has FUCKING EVERYTHING I COULD WANT! And ya know what? She's well behaved, an absolute sweetheart, and as sharp as a whip! She was a rebel as a kid, don't get me wrong....she ain't no angel, but she came out pretty good, didn't she?
Two step-sisters? happy with their partners and kids, and making it out on their own! Damn proud seeing how they manage to stand on their own feet, more or less. And they have respect for their father, unlike some of these ungreatful brats out there!
Older step-brother? Just like his dad...my step-dad....but he learned to be strong, stand for what he believes in. He'll protect his father, our mother, his kids, and girlfriend WITH HIS LIFE! Open minded, with a great sense of humor....yea, it can be insulting at times, but we are family, and we know at the end of the day, it's all in good fun....sometimes I wonder about his dad's comments, though...but that's a rant for another time. Point is, he's a moral, upstanding man, who works his ass off to supply for his children and family in any way he can.
Older blood-brother? well off, living on his own, didn't have a kid till he knew he could handle it, as he knew not to bring another life into the world unless he could take the responsibility. He's a little out of touch these days, but he's still my brother. And every time I see him, he's always the same goof I grew up with....albeit a little less ready to bury me in the yard, lol.
I think my point is made clear here, and I don'thave to bring up the adopted brother, or my kid brother, whom both also have jobs, partners, and children.
So, THIS is what a childhood with a healthy ass-whipping brings up. Oh, it's such a HORRIBLE way to be raised, isn't it?
The reason I am against abuse? Lets face it, you should NEVER make your children honestly afraid of you all the time! It is better to rule through love than fear....that's an old saying, and I belive in it strongly. But knowing when they did wrong? Yea, that's a lesson they NEED. don't abuse....but damn well teach them a lesson! Because I SWEAR IF I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ANY MORE FUCKING SCREAMING CHILDREN NOT BEING DISCIPLINED, I'M GOING TO BEND THEIR PARENTS OVER MY KNEE AND TEACH THEM WHAT THEY SHOULD DO TO THEIR KIDS! It's BULLSHIT, how our kids are being raised in a world where they are taught no penalty for their actions! They are the rulers of tomorrow! Our parents ruled yesterday, we are starting to take control today, THEY ARE NEXT! Are these the kind of people we want ruling our world? IT IS UP TO US TO ENSURE THE FUTURE FOR OUR GRANDKIDS!
And the bad part? Some of you offenders are IN MY FUCKING FAMILY!
This has been a SECOND rant in one day, by you beloved Crimson Knight, saying ......hold up, I hear a little child screaming because she has to share....*stomps off, and even more screaming ensues*
Equality! ....or is it?
Posted 13 years agoIf you guys havn't figured out by now, a friend realized doing this relaxes me, and has advised that I do one daily till I've ran out of topics, or at least weekly, and then just do a new one with each new topic to rant on I come up with as they come to me, as it helps me vent out pent up anger and frustration. Especially at times when sometimes I don't sleep well, and am just cranky at stuff that often shouldn't upset me. ^_^ So, take none of my rants too seriously...yes, they are my view, but no, I'm not as pissed off as I seem about them...but it makes a GREAT vent to get out my aggression.
Today's topic? EQUALITY! OR the joke that is CALLED equality! And this one could be LONG, because there are SO many groups who have saught 'equality' and think they have it, but don't. They have an insulting JOKE of equality, so I'm going to mark each with a kind of pinpoint, which is a pre-made chart to help me make sure I don't leave ANYONE out! So, if you are looking for a spicific section of my rant? Look for the type of prejeduce it is originally, and then a lable. Such as our FIRST section....THE AFRICAN AMERICANS! AKA? Black folks! Let the ranting.....BEGIN!
Racism [blacks]
So, Here's something that just realy burns my ass! Yep, I'm a white american. So lets take a trip to the past....a few generations ago, quite a long time back, the US, as it was forming, was a member of the slave trade. And Trust me, the decedents of these slaves are happy to let you know ALL about it. In this time, Africans were taken, and turned into slaves to serve the new growing land, and helped us grow even after we became our own nation! A milestone in our history, of tyranny and oppression, but it helped build who we are!
But here we are, in the modern day. Slaves no longer in bonds, but recently, in the last generation or two, we've had to get rid of some things to treat everyone 'fair'. Such as!
Ok, things we can call, to tell the difference between races...because sometimes it's actually important to classify between race...such as a crime scene investigation! So....we can't call them 'black'. Can't call them 'darker people'. And my fav? WE sure as HELL can't call them NIGGERS! Except for them! Oh no, they GREET each other with 'Whats up, nigga'?'. Lets look into it's MEANING! In case you guys didn't know, it just means 'Dark person'. OR, in some explanations for it's meaning, it's a bastardization of the Spanish word 'negro', which directly means, 'Black'. So we can't call you guys BLACK, but you guys argue about 'who's blacker'....weather you wanna be more black, or less black, depends on the argument's reason. ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED?!? THIS is what you are worried about? For people who want 'equality', you guys sure are acting like you want to stand out!
Oh, but wait! There is more! So, the 'politically correct' title is 'African American'....so, how many of you have ACTUALLY been to Africa? Let alone were BORN there? What? Nearly none of ya? THEN YOUR NOT AFRICAN ANYTHING! You'r a fucking BLACK AMERICAN! I'm from English decent, but you don't see me callign myself an 'English American', do ya? Check this! A group ACTUALLY went to Africa, and asked them their view on the matter, too...ya know what they said? AFRICA IS ASHAMED TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH YOU FUCKS! Why? Because you're pointlessly bitching about pointless shit! And you aren't letting go of the past!
Which brings me to my Next portion! ok, so a lot of BLACK people, and no, I'm not going to call you african. I've done so enough to prove my point. But a lot of BLACK people seem to think that WHITE people OWE them something. Because of the old slave trade days. SO! Lets clear something up NOW! My Great Great Great GRANDFATHER owes YOUR Great Great Great GRANDFATHER something, because They owned 'your people' as slaves back then. But I don't owe YOU a DAMNED THING! I never owned a slave...my father never owned a slave....So I AM NOT PART OF THIS LITTLE RACIST WORRY! OH, and YOU were never a slave! I can pretty well promise that if your alive to even READ this, you were not owned as a slave, because all of them, just about, have DIED OFF! I'm sure there is one still alive that might still remember, somewhere....but that's so far in the past IT WOULDN'T MATTER IF THEY ARE! The mistake was made! It's done and Gone! LET IT DIE!
Which gets me to the part of the 'equality' that has supposedly been given. So! We don't openly insult you....you aren't slaves...you live your own lives, just like us....but you also have....college funds exclusive to you? This is just the TIP OF THE ICEBURG! Ok, you want to be 'equal'....but you also want exclusive benefits over us? That's NOT EQUALITY! That's you being BETTER than us! And worse yet? YOUR STILL BITCHING!
What about now? OF course, Stereotypes! So, black folks are stereotyped to be druggies, criminals, and dress like street thugs...and usually be in gangs. Well, lets look at SCIENTIFIC FACT! Majority of street gangs? Majority BLACK! the 'bad neighborhoods' where drugs are very common? Hmml....oh, right...in most cities, they are MAJORITY BLACK! Jails? I know at least the one in my town, it's inmates are MAJORITY BLACK. And I don't see many white folk, or any other nationality, for that matter, wearing their cloths like this! I'm sorry, you think it's COOL to wear your pants around your fucking thighs?!? Some of you as bold to go as far as your KNEES?! Btw, this trend started in prison...AS A SIGN THE QUEER BOTTOMS WERE OPEN! Hmm...Ya know, if you guys hate these stereotypes SOOOOOOOO much, you sure have a FUNNY WAY OF SHOWING IT! You want to stop being seen like this, THEN STOP PROVING THE LABELS AND STEREOTYPES RIGHT!
So, to recap...you guys bitch about slavery...that none of you have any clue about. You bitch about Stereotypes, which you keep proving right. And you bit about labels, when you don't even know what they mean! And you bitch about 'equality', when being black means you get MORE LIBERTY THAN US! I'm failing to see where you have ANY room to talk! Your not even a minority anymore! In fact, your quickly turning into the MAJORITY! SO SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU FUCKING NIGGERS!
Racism [aliens]
For the lesser side of my argument...the REST of the races out there! So, I'm going to dedicate, or try to, at least one paragraph to each race I can think of as fitting here. I only did so much for black people, because it's THERE argument that i know most about, comparatively, as opposed to these ones.
MEXICANS! OK, so a lot of you actually come from Mexico. So your title is RIGHT! So you don't like being labeled, but a lot of you start going around here calling us GRINGOS! Yes, I know what you call us, and yes, I know what it means, and no, it's not really an insult, but it's still a racist slur, and you don't see US calling EACH OTHER this title, like you see with 'nigger' and black people. So WTF!? You come to OUR country, you take up OUR jobs....And you bitch because you are labeled whenever too many people are staying in a place and it gets condemned? I got a house next door that proves the point....Something like 10 people living in a 2-3 bedroom house, and they have FUCKING LIVESTOCK in their back yard, when I live IN TOWN! Oh, and the 'mother' of the household...oh she is one MEAN bitch. Do I NEED to say ANY more on where you people have NO room to talk?
The Orientals! I'd say Chinese/Japanese, but lets be real....I can't tell the difference, and neither can half of YOU. You act all better than us, because your smarter. I ADMIT THAT! you guys are fucking smarter than us! You get the BETTER jobs, you guys pretty much OWN California! And you guys are STILL crying 'equality'? How about one of you guys give ME a FUCKING JOB, which I keep loosing to you, or the mexicans, or the black people, and THEN we will talk! PREFERABLY IN ENGLISH! What? you don't think I studied Japanese? I don't know it real well, but I know enough to tell when you people are talking trash to me behind my back! For fucks sake, you people have RESTRAUNTS THAT ONLY YOU CAN GET A JOB IN, ALL OVER THE NATION, AND YOU WAVE IT OVER US! So you know what? QUITE YOUR BITCHING! I only WISH I was part of a minority group that has a slew of jobs just WAITING for me. Maybe THEN, I wouldn't be 24, living in my mother's house, because there are no JOBS! Yes, I'm blameing YOU for my lack of jobs....Well, and the black people because they are 'higher priority' bullshit...and yes, I did have a manager tell me that I was the last race on the list of people they need to worry about hiring!
Sexists [Women]
Ok, now this one isn't NEARLY as commonly a problem, or as bad. but look at what I'm comparing it to, and that really isn't saying much. And btw...yes, my mother is going to be reading this, and the bad part? Some of my argument on this I GOT FROM HER!
'Oh, just because we are women, don't mean we are weaker'
HAHAHAHA! YES IT DOES! News flash, you dumb bitches! Look at SCIENCE! And guess whaaaat! SCIENTIFIC FACT! THE FEMALE BODY IS NATURALLY WEAKER THAN THE MALE BODY! Does this mean this is ALWAYS the case? NO! But most the time you guys are just going OUT OF YOUR WAY to prove that you ARE weaker than us! Having the men do the heavy lifting, and the tough jobs...Some of you don't. And THOSE some are the ones I respect. The ones who actually BELIEVE themselves just as good as a man, and ACT just as good as a man, and don't expect PRIVILEGES! Have you SEEN the shit around here calling themselves women? Some of these bitches aren't even fit to call HUMAN with how pampered up they are these days!
"That's why we burned our bras back in the'.....was it the 60's? Or 70's? I think that was the time...
Not the point! but the whole shpeel about 'equality'....ok, you can now serve in the military. most of you INSIST on a comfy job, while the MEN carry the guns! Hmmm....oh that's just SOOOOOO 'equal'. You get the plush desk job, we get to die....Great 'equality' there, ladies. Where are my construction women? home repair women? Our soldiers that are female on the fields? Not many of them, I'll tell ya that! So what is 'equal' here? You dumb bitches want to cry 'equality', but you don't want EQUALITY! You want the man to do everything for you, and you don't have to hardly do SHIT!
All the while? I got several bitches in my OWN FUCKING FAMILY that are key examples of the BULLSHIT! OK, you want makeup, you want nail polish, you want the easy jobs, you don't want to have to ACTUALLY watch the kids you are so EAGER to have, you want the top line newest phones, and cloths, and cars, and want to be pampered, and stuck up, but you don't want to have to do ANY of the work? yea, in the past, a lot of women were treated pretty bad, but now a days? Hell, you guys are getting treated a HUNDRED TIMES BETTER THAN US, and you STILL bitch about 'equality'.
Oh, and one more note, here....FIGHTING! OK, yes, fighting is the last resort to solve a problem, but half you BITCHES want to SLAP US then hide behind 'oh, you wouldn't hit a woman, would you?' and expect us not to strike back. I'm sorry, I'm a good southern man, And believe you treat a woman right, but you strike me? YOU JUST PUT YOURSELF IN A MAN'S POSITION, AND I WILL HIT BACK! But you don't expect us to strike back, even though YOU start the violence? Because you are a woman? What's 'equal' about THAT?!?
Now, keep in mind, this is coming from a man whom half his temper is because he don't have a job, and has to listen to his step-dad constantly treat him like he's not looking, because I WANT WORK! This is coming from someone who wants a partner...and if they are female? then I will pamper them...I will spoil her rotten...Praise her like the goddess she would be to me. but even I am saying this IS BULLSHIT! this telling you people something, yet? so maybe you BITCHES need to BACK THE FUCK OFF, and accept the place you are ACTUALLY ASKING FOR, and not the place you ACT like you are asking for! Because it wouldn't PISS ME OFF so much, if you weren't saying 'well we just want to be treated equal'. BECAUSE THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU WANT! YOU WANT TO BE BETTER BECAUSE YOU HAVE TITS!
And the bad part? I haven't touched even HALF of the groups that need a good grinding into the dirt! these are just the POPULAR ones! I've already hit the gay-bashers, and the gays. now I've hit blacks, orients, Mexicans, and women. I still gotta hit the rednecks, the furrys, the violent teenagers, the gamers, the trannies, the 'master/sub' partners, And about a THOUSAND other groups! Oh, and lets not forget big business! Yea, I'm looking at YOU OIL COMPANIES! No, I'm not running otu of shit to rant about ANYTIME SOON!
This has been your CRIMSON-FUCKING-KNIGHT saying GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR OWN ASSES FOR ONCE!
Today's topic? EQUALITY! OR the joke that is CALLED equality! And this one could be LONG, because there are SO many groups who have saught 'equality' and think they have it, but don't. They have an insulting JOKE of equality, so I'm going to mark each with a kind of pinpoint, which is a pre-made chart to help me make sure I don't leave ANYONE out! So, if you are looking for a spicific section of my rant? Look for the type of prejeduce it is originally, and then a lable. Such as our FIRST section....THE AFRICAN AMERICANS! AKA? Black folks! Let the ranting.....BEGIN!
Racism [blacks]
So, Here's something that just realy burns my ass! Yep, I'm a white american. So lets take a trip to the past....a few generations ago, quite a long time back, the US, as it was forming, was a member of the slave trade. And Trust me, the decedents of these slaves are happy to let you know ALL about it. In this time, Africans were taken, and turned into slaves to serve the new growing land, and helped us grow even after we became our own nation! A milestone in our history, of tyranny and oppression, but it helped build who we are!
But here we are, in the modern day. Slaves no longer in bonds, but recently, in the last generation or two, we've had to get rid of some things to treat everyone 'fair'. Such as!
Ok, things we can call, to tell the difference between races...because sometimes it's actually important to classify between race...such as a crime scene investigation! So....we can't call them 'black'. Can't call them 'darker people'. And my fav? WE sure as HELL can't call them NIGGERS! Except for them! Oh no, they GREET each other with 'Whats up, nigga'?'. Lets look into it's MEANING! In case you guys didn't know, it just means 'Dark person'. OR, in some explanations for it's meaning, it's a bastardization of the Spanish word 'negro', which directly means, 'Black'. So we can't call you guys BLACK, but you guys argue about 'who's blacker'....weather you wanna be more black, or less black, depends on the argument's reason. ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED?!? THIS is what you are worried about? For people who want 'equality', you guys sure are acting like you want to stand out!
Oh, but wait! There is more! So, the 'politically correct' title is 'African American'....so, how many of you have ACTUALLY been to Africa? Let alone were BORN there? What? Nearly none of ya? THEN YOUR NOT AFRICAN ANYTHING! You'r a fucking BLACK AMERICAN! I'm from English decent, but you don't see me callign myself an 'English American', do ya? Check this! A group ACTUALLY went to Africa, and asked them their view on the matter, too...ya know what they said? AFRICA IS ASHAMED TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH YOU FUCKS! Why? Because you're pointlessly bitching about pointless shit! And you aren't letting go of the past!
Which brings me to my Next portion! ok, so a lot of BLACK people, and no, I'm not going to call you african. I've done so enough to prove my point. But a lot of BLACK people seem to think that WHITE people OWE them something. Because of the old slave trade days. SO! Lets clear something up NOW! My Great Great Great GRANDFATHER owes YOUR Great Great Great GRANDFATHER something, because They owned 'your people' as slaves back then. But I don't owe YOU a DAMNED THING! I never owned a slave...my father never owned a slave....So I AM NOT PART OF THIS LITTLE RACIST WORRY! OH, and YOU were never a slave! I can pretty well promise that if your alive to even READ this, you were not owned as a slave, because all of them, just about, have DIED OFF! I'm sure there is one still alive that might still remember, somewhere....but that's so far in the past IT WOULDN'T MATTER IF THEY ARE! The mistake was made! It's done and Gone! LET IT DIE!
Which gets me to the part of the 'equality' that has supposedly been given. So! We don't openly insult you....you aren't slaves...you live your own lives, just like us....but you also have....college funds exclusive to you? This is just the TIP OF THE ICEBURG! Ok, you want to be 'equal'....but you also want exclusive benefits over us? That's NOT EQUALITY! That's you being BETTER than us! And worse yet? YOUR STILL BITCHING!
What about now? OF course, Stereotypes! So, black folks are stereotyped to be druggies, criminals, and dress like street thugs...and usually be in gangs. Well, lets look at SCIENTIFIC FACT! Majority of street gangs? Majority BLACK! the 'bad neighborhoods' where drugs are very common? Hmml....oh, right...in most cities, they are MAJORITY BLACK! Jails? I know at least the one in my town, it's inmates are MAJORITY BLACK. And I don't see many white folk, or any other nationality, for that matter, wearing their cloths like this! I'm sorry, you think it's COOL to wear your pants around your fucking thighs?!? Some of you as bold to go as far as your KNEES?! Btw, this trend started in prison...AS A SIGN THE QUEER BOTTOMS WERE OPEN! Hmm...Ya know, if you guys hate these stereotypes SOOOOOOOO much, you sure have a FUNNY WAY OF SHOWING IT! You want to stop being seen like this, THEN STOP PROVING THE LABELS AND STEREOTYPES RIGHT!
So, to recap...you guys bitch about slavery...that none of you have any clue about. You bitch about Stereotypes, which you keep proving right. And you bit about labels, when you don't even know what they mean! And you bitch about 'equality', when being black means you get MORE LIBERTY THAN US! I'm failing to see where you have ANY room to talk! Your not even a minority anymore! In fact, your quickly turning into the MAJORITY! SO SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU FUCKING NIGGERS!
Racism [aliens]
For the lesser side of my argument...the REST of the races out there! So, I'm going to dedicate, or try to, at least one paragraph to each race I can think of as fitting here. I only did so much for black people, because it's THERE argument that i know most about, comparatively, as opposed to these ones.
MEXICANS! OK, so a lot of you actually come from Mexico. So your title is RIGHT! So you don't like being labeled, but a lot of you start going around here calling us GRINGOS! Yes, I know what you call us, and yes, I know what it means, and no, it's not really an insult, but it's still a racist slur, and you don't see US calling EACH OTHER this title, like you see with 'nigger' and black people. So WTF!? You come to OUR country, you take up OUR jobs....And you bitch because you are labeled whenever too many people are staying in a place and it gets condemned? I got a house next door that proves the point....Something like 10 people living in a 2-3 bedroom house, and they have FUCKING LIVESTOCK in their back yard, when I live IN TOWN! Oh, and the 'mother' of the household...oh she is one MEAN bitch. Do I NEED to say ANY more on where you people have NO room to talk?
The Orientals! I'd say Chinese/Japanese, but lets be real....I can't tell the difference, and neither can half of YOU. You act all better than us, because your smarter. I ADMIT THAT! you guys are fucking smarter than us! You get the BETTER jobs, you guys pretty much OWN California! And you guys are STILL crying 'equality'? How about one of you guys give ME a FUCKING JOB, which I keep loosing to you, or the mexicans, or the black people, and THEN we will talk! PREFERABLY IN ENGLISH! What? you don't think I studied Japanese? I don't know it real well, but I know enough to tell when you people are talking trash to me behind my back! For fucks sake, you people have RESTRAUNTS THAT ONLY YOU CAN GET A JOB IN, ALL OVER THE NATION, AND YOU WAVE IT OVER US! So you know what? QUITE YOUR BITCHING! I only WISH I was part of a minority group that has a slew of jobs just WAITING for me. Maybe THEN, I wouldn't be 24, living in my mother's house, because there are no JOBS! Yes, I'm blameing YOU for my lack of jobs....Well, and the black people because they are 'higher priority' bullshit...and yes, I did have a manager tell me that I was the last race on the list of people they need to worry about hiring!
Sexists [Women]
Ok, now this one isn't NEARLY as commonly a problem, or as bad. but look at what I'm comparing it to, and that really isn't saying much. And btw...yes, my mother is going to be reading this, and the bad part? Some of my argument on this I GOT FROM HER!
'Oh, just because we are women, don't mean we are weaker'
HAHAHAHA! YES IT DOES! News flash, you dumb bitches! Look at SCIENCE! And guess whaaaat! SCIENTIFIC FACT! THE FEMALE BODY IS NATURALLY WEAKER THAN THE MALE BODY! Does this mean this is ALWAYS the case? NO! But most the time you guys are just going OUT OF YOUR WAY to prove that you ARE weaker than us! Having the men do the heavy lifting, and the tough jobs...Some of you don't. And THOSE some are the ones I respect. The ones who actually BELIEVE themselves just as good as a man, and ACT just as good as a man, and don't expect PRIVILEGES! Have you SEEN the shit around here calling themselves women? Some of these bitches aren't even fit to call HUMAN with how pampered up they are these days!
"That's why we burned our bras back in the'.....was it the 60's? Or 70's? I think that was the time...
Not the point! but the whole shpeel about 'equality'....ok, you can now serve in the military. most of you INSIST on a comfy job, while the MEN carry the guns! Hmmm....oh that's just SOOOOOO 'equal'. You get the plush desk job, we get to die....Great 'equality' there, ladies. Where are my construction women? home repair women? Our soldiers that are female on the fields? Not many of them, I'll tell ya that! So what is 'equal' here? You dumb bitches want to cry 'equality', but you don't want EQUALITY! You want the man to do everything for you, and you don't have to hardly do SHIT!
All the while? I got several bitches in my OWN FUCKING FAMILY that are key examples of the BULLSHIT! OK, you want makeup, you want nail polish, you want the easy jobs, you don't want to have to ACTUALLY watch the kids you are so EAGER to have, you want the top line newest phones, and cloths, and cars, and want to be pampered, and stuck up, but you don't want to have to do ANY of the work? yea, in the past, a lot of women were treated pretty bad, but now a days? Hell, you guys are getting treated a HUNDRED TIMES BETTER THAN US, and you STILL bitch about 'equality'.
Oh, and one more note, here....FIGHTING! OK, yes, fighting is the last resort to solve a problem, but half you BITCHES want to SLAP US then hide behind 'oh, you wouldn't hit a woman, would you?' and expect us not to strike back. I'm sorry, I'm a good southern man, And believe you treat a woman right, but you strike me? YOU JUST PUT YOURSELF IN A MAN'S POSITION, AND I WILL HIT BACK! But you don't expect us to strike back, even though YOU start the violence? Because you are a woman? What's 'equal' about THAT?!?
Now, keep in mind, this is coming from a man whom half his temper is because he don't have a job, and has to listen to his step-dad constantly treat him like he's not looking, because I WANT WORK! This is coming from someone who wants a partner...and if they are female? then I will pamper them...I will spoil her rotten...Praise her like the goddess she would be to me. but even I am saying this IS BULLSHIT! this telling you people something, yet? so maybe you BITCHES need to BACK THE FUCK OFF, and accept the place you are ACTUALLY ASKING FOR, and not the place you ACT like you are asking for! Because it wouldn't PISS ME OFF so much, if you weren't saying 'well we just want to be treated equal'. BECAUSE THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU WANT! YOU WANT TO BE BETTER BECAUSE YOU HAVE TITS!
And the bad part? I haven't touched even HALF of the groups that need a good grinding into the dirt! these are just the POPULAR ones! I've already hit the gay-bashers, and the gays. now I've hit blacks, orients, Mexicans, and women. I still gotta hit the rednecks, the furrys, the violent teenagers, the gamers, the trannies, the 'master/sub' partners, And about a THOUSAND other groups! Oh, and lets not forget big business! Yea, I'm looking at YOU OIL COMPANIES! No, I'm not running otu of shit to rant about ANYTIME SOON!
This has been your CRIMSON-FUCKING-KNIGHT saying GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR OWN ASSES FOR ONCE!
Time to follow up, because I'm a fair ass-hole
Posted 13 years agook, for those who may not recall, I just recently ranted about the gay-bashers. If you don't recall...then you probably didn't see it. Look at the prior journal to this.
anyways, you could call this part 2 of that rant, because now I'm going to point out why they are not PURELY at fault here, YOU BUNCH OF IDIOTS!
First off, yes, some view our lifestyle as a mental illness. Well, maybe if you cowardly fucks didn't hide behind 'OH, well, Its not like I had a choice in the matter, boo hoo'....Fucking grow up! YEa, ya know what? I can't help that I like guys, either, but you don't see ME crying about it, like I was forced to by some almighty figure! We aren't sick, and the deceptive image that we ARE is started by YOU IDIOTS! Because you make it out to be like it's some tragic state of existence, when it's nothing that big a deal! though, you might actually be sick, but it's nto this 'gay gene' bullshit, you just need to get your favorite toy taken away from you, then your ass kicked, and realized 'oh wait, this is just part of life'.
Then we have the 'choice' mentality. Again, not purely the gay-basher's fault. You morons who can't decide if you want to admit being gay, or being straight, or somewhere between...those bouncing between male partner and female partner, then telling them 'oh, I only go for such and such gender'....YOU BISEXUAL FUCK-TARDS ARE MESSING IT UP FOR THE REST OF US! I'm sorry, it's not a GOD DAMNED CHOICE that we can just bounce between, it's part of WHO WE ARE! Stop trying to identify yourself by some trend for your friends, and find out who you REALLY are, and learn to be happy with it! Instead of making EVERYONE ashamed to be around your ass!
'oh, but what about the image we have....we must be true to our image'....
Go burry yourself in a set of tits, and come up when you need air bad enough to come to your senses! Image? Ok, lets start talking 'image'....A.K.A. stereotypes! Because that's the only 'image' we have to worry about.
''Well, your gay, so you probably have AIDS'....
Here's our start. do we all have AIDS? no. But maybe we wouldn't have this image if you fuck-offs weren't so fucking warried about your next lay, under some false-centered biased to rebel against your parents, or whatever your reasons are, and start actually looking for the SIGNS! Ya know, maybe ask paperwork, get tested frequently. Oh, and maybe you ASSHOLES OUT THERE WHO HAVE IT, STOP PASSING IT AROUND! And anyone out there reading this? You get it, and they guy who gave it to you knew he had it? START SUING! I'm sorry, that's called PER-MEDITATED MURDER! Yes, by law, giving another person AIDS intentionally, is MURDER! Not to mention the several hundreds of thousands of dollars having to then be shelled out in medical expenses! go ahead, one of you assholes, give it to me...you'll be milked for every dime you, or your family has ever had, until they stick you in the grave! Maybe then you'll learn a fucking lesson, and stop this god-damned STEREOTYPE!
'Well, your gay, but I'm straight, so I can't be comfortable around you'
this one is easy to nail on, and I don't even have to get long-winded. Why is this image out there? BECAUSE YOU DUMB-FUCKS don't want to accept that there are people out there NOT like us! And too fucking many of you are all gropey and shit the moment a straight man gets a few drinks in them, and not giving a shit that their girlfriend will find out! What? don't think that chicks get this much dick, too? Trust me....She'll find out. Maybe if you idiots can see the sexuality past the 'sex' word, and start seeing it as just part of who you are, and not act like some sex-crazed fucktard, we'd all be better off!
'Well, you're gay, so you can't be religious'
OH this one is 90% OUR FAULT! 'Oh no, the church kicked me out, so I'm just going to give up on faith'.....how fucking stupid can you be?! What? With your realization that you like dick, did you realize you weren't religious anymore? No? Then WHY THE FUCK do you care what some preacher has to say about who you are? Sorry, dumb-ass, but that don't fly with me! I'll tell anyone now, yes, I believe in the Christian faith, and yes, I beleive in Jesus Christ, and yes, I know what I do behidn closed doors is seen as a sin...but ya know what? I'LL TAKE IT UP WITH THE BIG MAN IN THE AFTERLIFE! STAY OUT OF MY BUSINESS! THAT is how you idiots should look at it. Stop acting all anti-faith when your kicked out of a church! Face it...there are more out there that are more than ok with us. Just find what faith you find is fitting to your beliefs, and STICK WITH IT!
'Well, your gay, so you must act all feminine, with a lisp, and cross-dressing...'...not even going to continue there.
Yes, I just copied this from my prior rant to post there. Well, we wouldn't have this image if it wasn't for you morons out there who have to go out and make a FUCKING SCENE OF IT! Yes, we are different....BUT WE DON'T NEED TO FUCKING ADVERTISE LIKE A BUNCH OF CHILDREN! GROW UP! 'oh, but like, this is how I am.'.....no it's fucking not. Those 15 year old vally girls aren't 'naturally' like that, and neither are you! that lisp? Trained. That pitch? Fake. the dressing attire and shit? You telling me you really can't be fine with a pair of blue jeans and a t-shirt? Yea, if you wanna say you can't, then your more female than most females! This isn't some child's game, dressing how you know your parents would hate to stand out! This is the REAL WORLD, and you guys are just making the REST OF US LOOK BAD! Have a job as a drag-queen? Great, do that shit on the clock, but be a FUCKING NORMAL PERSON OUTSIDE OF YOUR WORK! Because your turning us into a fucking side-show JOKE! SOME of us want TRUELY equal treatment...not the joke that the black people call 'equal' and the females, too. But THAT is a rant for another time. But I want equality...to be able to go out in public, hold hands with my boyfriend, just like anyone else would their partners, and have a nice dinner on a date, and not be fucking judged! But you MORONS OUT THERE are making that IMPOSIBLE! Hell, Starbucks has stood up for us....maybe we should take that as a sign? They've seen us for what the REAL ones of us are, and learned to see we are normal people fighting to be treated like normal people! START ACTING LIKE A NORMAL FUCKING PERSON!
now, with THAT done, if I can get some true, quality time with you guys? Look, I don't want to be an ass about all this, but can you really say i'm wrong? If you can pose a logical, rational conversation with me, and explain how I'm wrong, knowing both this and the prior rant against the gay-bashers, and show me your point of view, I'll be more than happy to say I'm wrong...if you can show me a reason to think I'm wrong. But time for you guys to see what I have wrong with you that has nothing to do with the image we've been given.
GAY MARRIAGES!
Do I think it should be legal and permitted in all states? HELL YES! Do I think we need them? FUCK NO! Lets face it, people! Gay relationships are like a mage's fireball in D&D! We start up fast, we burn hot, powerful a love as any....but we also fizzle out way to FUCKING FAST! I know a LOT of gay couples out there....seen many a friend go in and out of love....the longest lived one? Among the ones I know, the LONGEST is still going hot, and their love like nothing I've ever seen....devoted even over miles apart....The second longest? just burnt out. But you know what the average gay-relationship life-span is among those I know? 4 months! Yea, ok, we want marriages, even though we can't even hold a normal relationship? Man, you people are fighting the WRONG FUCKING FIGHT! Worry about making our way of life socially acceptable, BEFORE you worry about THIS SHIT! When ONE of you fuck-heads out there can show me a loyal, loving relationship that stands for at least a decade, without a break, and to the end of it, loyal with love to match any straight couple, then I'll think otherwise, but right now? Us getting married is just a DISASTER WAITING TO HAPPEN! Hell, my own relationships I've had? Only one I'd say might have made it as a marriage...and SHE isn't with me anymore. Yea, a straight relationship! Swallow THOSE pills, you dipshits!
GAY PRIDE!
Pride? ok, this one might turn into a two-parter. But First of all, WHEN DID YOUR SEXUALITY BECOME SOMETHING TO BE 'PROUD' OF?!? I'm PROUD to be an american, even with our fucked up economy. I'm PROUD to be a man who stands for what's right, and listens to reason, and adapts to the times. I'm PROUD of my family, because they are some of the best people I know! i'm PROUD of my friends, because I know they will be here for me, even when I have nothing to give, and need everything to survive. But being Gay? No, i'm not proud of that shit! No more than anyone else should be 'proud' to be straight. This isn't somethign to be PROUD of. It's just who we are!
BUT! To make matters worse? We have parades? Oh yes! Lets show how much of NORMAL PEOPLE we are, by having a parade to do....what? CROSS-DRESSERS ON FLOATS? US IN SPEEDOS? GUYS KISSING OUT IN THE OPEN?! Umm....What?! OH yes, we want to be seen as 'normal people' and accepted...so we show the worst of us? The very reason that we are OUTCASTS?! We parade it about like this is what we are proud of? YOU PEOPLE MAKE ME FUCKING SICK! So, not only are we fighting the WRONG FIGHT! But we're doing it in the WRONG WAYS! churches protest us for a REASON! Mother's shelter their children from us FOR A REASON! Just act like normal people! Dress up, perhaps, if your going to the club, or going out on a nice date, but not doing this shit in normal life is a BLESSING! We will NEVER be accepted until we STOP FLAUNTING! AND THAT IS FACT!
This has been another rant from the CRIMSON FUCKING KNIGHT, and I just stabbed yet another dead horse...and will keep stabbing it till you IDIOTS REALIZE IT'S DEAD!
anyways, you could call this part 2 of that rant, because now I'm going to point out why they are not PURELY at fault here, YOU BUNCH OF IDIOTS!
First off, yes, some view our lifestyle as a mental illness. Well, maybe if you cowardly fucks didn't hide behind 'OH, well, Its not like I had a choice in the matter, boo hoo'....Fucking grow up! YEa, ya know what? I can't help that I like guys, either, but you don't see ME crying about it, like I was forced to by some almighty figure! We aren't sick, and the deceptive image that we ARE is started by YOU IDIOTS! Because you make it out to be like it's some tragic state of existence, when it's nothing that big a deal! though, you might actually be sick, but it's nto this 'gay gene' bullshit, you just need to get your favorite toy taken away from you, then your ass kicked, and realized 'oh wait, this is just part of life'.
Then we have the 'choice' mentality. Again, not purely the gay-basher's fault. You morons who can't decide if you want to admit being gay, or being straight, or somewhere between...those bouncing between male partner and female partner, then telling them 'oh, I only go for such and such gender'....YOU BISEXUAL FUCK-TARDS ARE MESSING IT UP FOR THE REST OF US! I'm sorry, it's not a GOD DAMNED CHOICE that we can just bounce between, it's part of WHO WE ARE! Stop trying to identify yourself by some trend for your friends, and find out who you REALLY are, and learn to be happy with it! Instead of making EVERYONE ashamed to be around your ass!
'oh, but what about the image we have....we must be true to our image'....
Go burry yourself in a set of tits, and come up when you need air bad enough to come to your senses! Image? Ok, lets start talking 'image'....A.K.A. stereotypes! Because that's the only 'image' we have to worry about.
''Well, your gay, so you probably have AIDS'....
Here's our start. do we all have AIDS? no. But maybe we wouldn't have this image if you fuck-offs weren't so fucking warried about your next lay, under some false-centered biased to rebel against your parents, or whatever your reasons are, and start actually looking for the SIGNS! Ya know, maybe ask paperwork, get tested frequently. Oh, and maybe you ASSHOLES OUT THERE WHO HAVE IT, STOP PASSING IT AROUND! And anyone out there reading this? You get it, and they guy who gave it to you knew he had it? START SUING! I'm sorry, that's called PER-MEDITATED MURDER! Yes, by law, giving another person AIDS intentionally, is MURDER! Not to mention the several hundreds of thousands of dollars having to then be shelled out in medical expenses! go ahead, one of you assholes, give it to me...you'll be milked for every dime you, or your family has ever had, until they stick you in the grave! Maybe then you'll learn a fucking lesson, and stop this god-damned STEREOTYPE!
'Well, your gay, but I'm straight, so I can't be comfortable around you'
this one is easy to nail on, and I don't even have to get long-winded. Why is this image out there? BECAUSE YOU DUMB-FUCKS don't want to accept that there are people out there NOT like us! And too fucking many of you are all gropey and shit the moment a straight man gets a few drinks in them, and not giving a shit that their girlfriend will find out! What? don't think that chicks get this much dick, too? Trust me....She'll find out. Maybe if you idiots can see the sexuality past the 'sex' word, and start seeing it as just part of who you are, and not act like some sex-crazed fucktard, we'd all be better off!
'Well, you're gay, so you can't be religious'
OH this one is 90% OUR FAULT! 'Oh no, the church kicked me out, so I'm just going to give up on faith'.....how fucking stupid can you be?! What? With your realization that you like dick, did you realize you weren't religious anymore? No? Then WHY THE FUCK do you care what some preacher has to say about who you are? Sorry, dumb-ass, but that don't fly with me! I'll tell anyone now, yes, I believe in the Christian faith, and yes, I beleive in Jesus Christ, and yes, I know what I do behidn closed doors is seen as a sin...but ya know what? I'LL TAKE IT UP WITH THE BIG MAN IN THE AFTERLIFE! STAY OUT OF MY BUSINESS! THAT is how you idiots should look at it. Stop acting all anti-faith when your kicked out of a church! Face it...there are more out there that are more than ok with us. Just find what faith you find is fitting to your beliefs, and STICK WITH IT!
'Well, your gay, so you must act all feminine, with a lisp, and cross-dressing...'...not even going to continue there.
Yes, I just copied this from my prior rant to post there. Well, we wouldn't have this image if it wasn't for you morons out there who have to go out and make a FUCKING SCENE OF IT! Yes, we are different....BUT WE DON'T NEED TO FUCKING ADVERTISE LIKE A BUNCH OF CHILDREN! GROW UP! 'oh, but like, this is how I am.'.....no it's fucking not. Those 15 year old vally girls aren't 'naturally' like that, and neither are you! that lisp? Trained. That pitch? Fake. the dressing attire and shit? You telling me you really can't be fine with a pair of blue jeans and a t-shirt? Yea, if you wanna say you can't, then your more female than most females! This isn't some child's game, dressing how you know your parents would hate to stand out! This is the REAL WORLD, and you guys are just making the REST OF US LOOK BAD! Have a job as a drag-queen? Great, do that shit on the clock, but be a FUCKING NORMAL PERSON OUTSIDE OF YOUR WORK! Because your turning us into a fucking side-show JOKE! SOME of us want TRUELY equal treatment...not the joke that the black people call 'equal' and the females, too. But THAT is a rant for another time. But I want equality...to be able to go out in public, hold hands with my boyfriend, just like anyone else would their partners, and have a nice dinner on a date, and not be fucking judged! But you MORONS OUT THERE are making that IMPOSIBLE! Hell, Starbucks has stood up for us....maybe we should take that as a sign? They've seen us for what the REAL ones of us are, and learned to see we are normal people fighting to be treated like normal people! START ACTING LIKE A NORMAL FUCKING PERSON!
now, with THAT done, if I can get some true, quality time with you guys? Look, I don't want to be an ass about all this, but can you really say i'm wrong? If you can pose a logical, rational conversation with me, and explain how I'm wrong, knowing both this and the prior rant against the gay-bashers, and show me your point of view, I'll be more than happy to say I'm wrong...if you can show me a reason to think I'm wrong. But time for you guys to see what I have wrong with you that has nothing to do with the image we've been given.
GAY MARRIAGES!
Do I think it should be legal and permitted in all states? HELL YES! Do I think we need them? FUCK NO! Lets face it, people! Gay relationships are like a mage's fireball in D&D! We start up fast, we burn hot, powerful a love as any....but we also fizzle out way to FUCKING FAST! I know a LOT of gay couples out there....seen many a friend go in and out of love....the longest lived one? Among the ones I know, the LONGEST is still going hot, and their love like nothing I've ever seen....devoted even over miles apart....The second longest? just burnt out. But you know what the average gay-relationship life-span is among those I know? 4 months! Yea, ok, we want marriages, even though we can't even hold a normal relationship? Man, you people are fighting the WRONG FUCKING FIGHT! Worry about making our way of life socially acceptable, BEFORE you worry about THIS SHIT! When ONE of you fuck-heads out there can show me a loyal, loving relationship that stands for at least a decade, without a break, and to the end of it, loyal with love to match any straight couple, then I'll think otherwise, but right now? Us getting married is just a DISASTER WAITING TO HAPPEN! Hell, my own relationships I've had? Only one I'd say might have made it as a marriage...and SHE isn't with me anymore. Yea, a straight relationship! Swallow THOSE pills, you dipshits!
GAY PRIDE!
Pride? ok, this one might turn into a two-parter. But First of all, WHEN DID YOUR SEXUALITY BECOME SOMETHING TO BE 'PROUD' OF?!? I'm PROUD to be an american, even with our fucked up economy. I'm PROUD to be a man who stands for what's right, and listens to reason, and adapts to the times. I'm PROUD of my family, because they are some of the best people I know! i'm PROUD of my friends, because I know they will be here for me, even when I have nothing to give, and need everything to survive. But being Gay? No, i'm not proud of that shit! No more than anyone else should be 'proud' to be straight. This isn't somethign to be PROUD of. It's just who we are!
BUT! To make matters worse? We have parades? Oh yes! Lets show how much of NORMAL PEOPLE we are, by having a parade to do....what? CROSS-DRESSERS ON FLOATS? US IN SPEEDOS? GUYS KISSING OUT IN THE OPEN?! Umm....What?! OH yes, we want to be seen as 'normal people' and accepted...so we show the worst of us? The very reason that we are OUTCASTS?! We parade it about like this is what we are proud of? YOU PEOPLE MAKE ME FUCKING SICK! So, not only are we fighting the WRONG FIGHT! But we're doing it in the WRONG WAYS! churches protest us for a REASON! Mother's shelter their children from us FOR A REASON! Just act like normal people! Dress up, perhaps, if your going to the club, or going out on a nice date, but not doing this shit in normal life is a BLESSING! We will NEVER be accepted until we STOP FLAUNTING! AND THAT IS FACT!
This has been another rant from the CRIMSON FUCKING KNIGHT, and I just stabbed yet another dead horse...and will keep stabbing it till you IDIOTS REALIZE IT'S DEAD!
a TINY note on homosexuality, and the public view.
Posted 13 years agoI'll say here that no, this message isn't going out for the reviews, or any shit like that. No, if you are going to violate one of the things I'm about to say here, I'm not going to listen to you, and you will likely find those who think like I do will let you know ALL about it. Yes, I am just a TINY bit irritated by something someone talked to me recently about. So I'm voicing it. Why? Well, best way for me to get my aggression out, as one of my ex's taught me very well, is to do a journal where others can see it, and get this off my chest.
So, earlier, I said I don't agree that gay marrages should be allowed. Not because I don't like guys, by any imagination. But for personal reasons. Yes, I am Bi-Sexual, as far as common titling goes. I sleep with both genders, and with a rather decided male preference. But This went on into a conversation, where I got the 'pleasure' to hear every reason why people say we are wrong.
First off....QUITE TREATING IT LIKE A GOD-DAMNED MENTAL ILLNESS! You think we are SICK?! No, what is SICK is you fucks out there telling us we are wrong because we are like we are, and creating fucking REHAB GROUPS?!? OH HELL NO! And any fucker I find in one of those groups...your a fucking coward! Do they change people? Maybe. But we aren't fucking sick! We are just as healthy as the rest of you fucks out there, so stop acting like we are fucking SICK! Some of us are pretty PISSED OFF, but look at what we deal with....CONSTANTLY!
Second of all, DON'T CALL IT A FUCKING 'CHOICE'! Yea, ya know what? I could be 'straight'....but that's not who I am. Gamers out there...can you help you like Halo? Portal? God of War? Those drivers on the road...can you help you like to go a little faster than you probably should when you drive? What about our craftsmen? Can you help you like to sew, or knit, or work with metal or leather, or whatever craft you enjoy? I'll bet more than 95% of you ou there can't honestly say it...and half of you who try, show me someone who can, and I'll show you someone who's lieing to themselves! Ya know what? Yea, I could be straight,...could 'choose' to be straight....but then I'd be lieing. To you, to myself, to my partner...I'd rather be who I am, admit what I like, and be accepted by the ones who matter in my life for it. BEsides if it was just a 'choice'....Yes, I CHOSE to be one of the single most discriminated against groups in the world. I CHOSE to have family members who hate me for it, and some who havn't talked to me since I admitted to myself, and them, that I like men. I CHOSE to be frowned on by the churches, as I am a religious man....To be kicked out of a church or two for who I am. to be lectured at every turn by every bible-fucking-thumper out there. Really good thinking there, dumb asses!
Ok, now that I covered the bullshit of 'why I'm gay'....lets go with the stereotypes.
'Well, your gay, so you probably have AIDS'....
....
...
...FUCKING REALLY?! Yea, ya know what? The majority of AIDS patients ARE gay. Ya know why? BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING EASIER TO PASS IT BETWEEN A MAN AND A MAN, THAN BETWEEN MALE AND FEMALE! That's SCIENTIFIC FACT! Does that mean being gay promises you to have AIDS? NO! I, for one, am quite picky of those I sleep with, and I don't drop the pants till I am sure they are clean. And so far? Not even a close shave. And ironically....most of the gay guys I've ever known I've slept with, if I met them in RL. And I went through quite a slutty phase. not as bad as some, but I've had my share. And, in a way, still am. But ya know what? My test papers...yes, I do get tested from time to time...Well, the most recent ones say I'm clean as a fucking whistle. Ok...not entirely true...my body is frequently pushing Mal-nutrition, thanks to only eating once a day, which is also effecting my energy levels, and making loosing weight hard...I'll rant about that another time.
'Well, your gay, but I'm straight, so I can't be comfortable around you'
....Depends, you got a secret I should know? Just say ya don't swing that way, and I ain't gonna push. Nobody I know would. It's that stereotype that has long sense been dead, but people keep alive with fears. Ok? Unless you are unsure, yourself, I shouldn't intimidate you, in any way. Because aside from what I do behind closed doors, I'm just a normal person. I wake up, I eat food, I play video games, I have friends of both genders, and I like to spar, and do martial arts....I'm just a normal guy. So if you can't be comfortable around me....look in the mirror for who's at fault for that. Because I don't see anything wrong with a gay man and a straight man hanging out like friends do...do you?
'Well, you're gay, so you can't be religious'
*BUZZER* WRONG! Guess whaaaaaaaat! Look, yea, it makes it hard to be Christian, when you enjoy the man's body as much as the woman's. OR more. But that don't mean I CAN'T be religious, and have accepted Christ as my lord and savior. That's a rant for another time, but lets stay on topic. Each and every one of you sin....99% of you sin on a DAILY basis. The ONLY part of my way that is a sin is to 'lay with another man as though a woman', and the SODOMY! Guess whaaaaaat...I've read the bible, and had plenty of preachers out there try to tell me I'm wrong, but I don't recall it saying you cannot be faithful and in love with another man....though our anal sex is a sin, but I know more females into that than men. So you do the math. So basically, I sin each time I get laid....oh wait, it's also a sin to sleep with someone outside of marriage, guess that rules out most of the straight couples I know, too, because most of them fucked before the ring got on, too. Some of you out there are having sex with people you barely know. At least the ones I screw I know pretty well. And those of you not already guilty by this point....Well, where is your booze cabinet? that just knocked out a few more of ya...trust me, I come from straight parents, just like you, and know what some of you are like. how often do you go to church? Well, I know what Church REALLY is, in GOD'S supposed eyes, as per the book....and ya know what? I'm talking faith, with countless others...so I'm doing it right now. Yea, I'm in church, because i'm discussing my faith with other people. though, usually I do it in person, with my family and friends, right in my living room. But those who don't? Ouch....looks like your sinning, too. So....All of a sudden, my sinning by having gay sex twice a year...some years I get REALLY lucky, and might do it all of 4-6 times a year, don't sound so bad, does it? Oh, and just a little pointer here on the end....there are plenty of faiths that are fine with it, or just have no opinion....You Christians aren't the only fucking people with a strong faith, assholes! I'm ashamed to even be one of you guys...we are alike in the sense of who we see lord, that's about the size of it.
'Well, your gay, so you must act all feminine, with a lisp, and cross-dressing...'...not even going to continue there.
OK! Eye opener for you dumb-fucks! MY voice is just LITTLE higher than most guys my build...not femme...No stupid lisp....But that has NOTHING t odo with sexuality. It's my natural voice. The whole gambit? We got names for folks who do that...they're called DRAG-QUEENS! Those who do it out of that setting? Even I don't like them. Sooner shoot half of them than talk to them, usually. Annoying pricks. Yea, I got a pair of panties. Pink lace thong. I admit that. Ya know what? That has nothing to do with sexuality...I got that because one of my ex GIRLFRIENDS thought it was hot. Yea, the chick wanted to see me in it. I might know 2 guys who actually think that's hot. MAYBE! I don't like to be all prissy like a princess...I get out in the yard, wrestle, geek out over D&D....tell me, how much different am I from a normal guy? Only thing I 'must' do different...is what I do behind closed doors. and unless your the same, that's not your business to judge me on!
Now that we have covered THAT part....one more. The 'Judgement'. Oh, my absolute fav of them all.
'Being gay was once grounds for stoning...to death'
Ouch...good thing it's not anymore. and for the religious freaks out there....I quote the bible. 'Let he who is without sin cast the first stone'. I'll let you go back and read my prior portion of my rant for THAT one. Face it...that is a system of judgement that died back in the DARK AGES! Start throwing stone, bitches...I throw back. And I promise...I can take a hit better than most of you. I'm a masochist. I've learned to love pain. And no...that's not a sin, less you can provide proof otherwise.
'All you fucking queers should just be killed off'
Oh, yes, lets prove you are better than us....by acting like a fucking brain dead barbarian who can't think with more than violence. That'll teach us! How DARE we be different? Like Malcolm X, and Gandhi. Oh wait....they lived on after death as legendary figures of our history....but they were different. for their times. Oh, so was Jesus Christ! We see how far violence and murder has really proved your points through the ages.
Those are the only two that come to mind, but ya know what? I don't think I need more.
So this is to all you judgmental fucks out there! GROW UP, GROW A PAIR, AND FACE ME LIKE A FUCKING HUMAN BEING! You got a problem with who I am? then sort it out with me like a human, and discuss it, don't fucking tell me how 'wrong I am' and treat me like there is no hope for me to be right...I'm a human, not some fucking sheep you can tell how to act, and what to do!
Oh, and don't think you are exempt, gay community. I'm not like YOU, either...because I looked in the mirror, and saw that the hate isn't just one way. Next rant? I plan it to be against you guys, YOU FUCKING QUEERS! Grow a pair, 'cause I ain't no angel! And I ain't gonna act like they are the only ones at fault here! YOUR NEXT!
This is the Crimson Knight, saying this shit is going on Facebook, and Myspace, if I can pull it off right, too. 'cause I ain't being fucking lectured on this shit without my stance being made clear, anymore. soon as I get a mic and a suitable recording program that match my standards. And then you all are going to hear my voice! I WILL NOT BE SILENCED!
So, earlier, I said I don't agree that gay marrages should be allowed. Not because I don't like guys, by any imagination. But for personal reasons. Yes, I am Bi-Sexual, as far as common titling goes. I sleep with both genders, and with a rather decided male preference. But This went on into a conversation, where I got the 'pleasure' to hear every reason why people say we are wrong.
First off....QUITE TREATING IT LIKE A GOD-DAMNED MENTAL ILLNESS! You think we are SICK?! No, what is SICK is you fucks out there telling us we are wrong because we are like we are, and creating fucking REHAB GROUPS?!? OH HELL NO! And any fucker I find in one of those groups...your a fucking coward! Do they change people? Maybe. But we aren't fucking sick! We are just as healthy as the rest of you fucks out there, so stop acting like we are fucking SICK! Some of us are pretty PISSED OFF, but look at what we deal with....CONSTANTLY!
Second of all, DON'T CALL IT A FUCKING 'CHOICE'! Yea, ya know what? I could be 'straight'....but that's not who I am. Gamers out there...can you help you like Halo? Portal? God of War? Those drivers on the road...can you help you like to go a little faster than you probably should when you drive? What about our craftsmen? Can you help you like to sew, or knit, or work with metal or leather, or whatever craft you enjoy? I'll bet more than 95% of you ou there can't honestly say it...and half of you who try, show me someone who can, and I'll show you someone who's lieing to themselves! Ya know what? Yea, I could be straight,...could 'choose' to be straight....but then I'd be lieing. To you, to myself, to my partner...I'd rather be who I am, admit what I like, and be accepted by the ones who matter in my life for it. BEsides if it was just a 'choice'....Yes, I CHOSE to be one of the single most discriminated against groups in the world. I CHOSE to have family members who hate me for it, and some who havn't talked to me since I admitted to myself, and them, that I like men. I CHOSE to be frowned on by the churches, as I am a religious man....To be kicked out of a church or two for who I am. to be lectured at every turn by every bible-fucking-thumper out there. Really good thinking there, dumb asses!
Ok, now that I covered the bullshit of 'why I'm gay'....lets go with the stereotypes.
'Well, your gay, so you probably have AIDS'....
....
...
...FUCKING REALLY?! Yea, ya know what? The majority of AIDS patients ARE gay. Ya know why? BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING EASIER TO PASS IT BETWEEN A MAN AND A MAN, THAN BETWEEN MALE AND FEMALE! That's SCIENTIFIC FACT! Does that mean being gay promises you to have AIDS? NO! I, for one, am quite picky of those I sleep with, and I don't drop the pants till I am sure they are clean. And so far? Not even a close shave. And ironically....most of the gay guys I've ever known I've slept with, if I met them in RL. And I went through quite a slutty phase. not as bad as some, but I've had my share. And, in a way, still am. But ya know what? My test papers...yes, I do get tested from time to time...Well, the most recent ones say I'm clean as a fucking whistle. Ok...not entirely true...my body is frequently pushing Mal-nutrition, thanks to only eating once a day, which is also effecting my energy levels, and making loosing weight hard...I'll rant about that another time.
'Well, your gay, but I'm straight, so I can't be comfortable around you'
....Depends, you got a secret I should know? Just say ya don't swing that way, and I ain't gonna push. Nobody I know would. It's that stereotype that has long sense been dead, but people keep alive with fears. Ok? Unless you are unsure, yourself, I shouldn't intimidate you, in any way. Because aside from what I do behind closed doors, I'm just a normal person. I wake up, I eat food, I play video games, I have friends of both genders, and I like to spar, and do martial arts....I'm just a normal guy. So if you can't be comfortable around me....look in the mirror for who's at fault for that. Because I don't see anything wrong with a gay man and a straight man hanging out like friends do...do you?
'Well, you're gay, so you can't be religious'
*BUZZER* WRONG! Guess whaaaaaaaat! Look, yea, it makes it hard to be Christian, when you enjoy the man's body as much as the woman's. OR more. But that don't mean I CAN'T be religious, and have accepted Christ as my lord and savior. That's a rant for another time, but lets stay on topic. Each and every one of you sin....99% of you sin on a DAILY basis. The ONLY part of my way that is a sin is to 'lay with another man as though a woman', and the SODOMY! Guess whaaaaaat...I've read the bible, and had plenty of preachers out there try to tell me I'm wrong, but I don't recall it saying you cannot be faithful and in love with another man....though our anal sex is a sin, but I know more females into that than men. So you do the math. So basically, I sin each time I get laid....oh wait, it's also a sin to sleep with someone outside of marriage, guess that rules out most of the straight couples I know, too, because most of them fucked before the ring got on, too. Some of you out there are having sex with people you barely know. At least the ones I screw I know pretty well. And those of you not already guilty by this point....Well, where is your booze cabinet? that just knocked out a few more of ya...trust me, I come from straight parents, just like you, and know what some of you are like. how often do you go to church? Well, I know what Church REALLY is, in GOD'S supposed eyes, as per the book....and ya know what? I'm talking faith, with countless others...so I'm doing it right now. Yea, I'm in church, because i'm discussing my faith with other people. though, usually I do it in person, with my family and friends, right in my living room. But those who don't? Ouch....looks like your sinning, too. So....All of a sudden, my sinning by having gay sex twice a year...some years I get REALLY lucky, and might do it all of 4-6 times a year, don't sound so bad, does it? Oh, and just a little pointer here on the end....there are plenty of faiths that are fine with it, or just have no opinion....You Christians aren't the only fucking people with a strong faith, assholes! I'm ashamed to even be one of you guys...we are alike in the sense of who we see lord, that's about the size of it.
'Well, your gay, so you must act all feminine, with a lisp, and cross-dressing...'...not even going to continue there.
OK! Eye opener for you dumb-fucks! MY voice is just LITTLE higher than most guys my build...not femme...No stupid lisp....But that has NOTHING t odo with sexuality. It's my natural voice. The whole gambit? We got names for folks who do that...they're called DRAG-QUEENS! Those who do it out of that setting? Even I don't like them. Sooner shoot half of them than talk to them, usually. Annoying pricks. Yea, I got a pair of panties. Pink lace thong. I admit that. Ya know what? That has nothing to do with sexuality...I got that because one of my ex GIRLFRIENDS thought it was hot. Yea, the chick wanted to see me in it. I might know 2 guys who actually think that's hot. MAYBE! I don't like to be all prissy like a princess...I get out in the yard, wrestle, geek out over D&D....tell me, how much different am I from a normal guy? Only thing I 'must' do different...is what I do behind closed doors. and unless your the same, that's not your business to judge me on!
Now that we have covered THAT part....one more. The 'Judgement'. Oh, my absolute fav of them all.
'Being gay was once grounds for stoning...to death'
Ouch...good thing it's not anymore. and for the religious freaks out there....I quote the bible. 'Let he who is without sin cast the first stone'. I'll let you go back and read my prior portion of my rant for THAT one. Face it...that is a system of judgement that died back in the DARK AGES! Start throwing stone, bitches...I throw back. And I promise...I can take a hit better than most of you. I'm a masochist. I've learned to love pain. And no...that's not a sin, less you can provide proof otherwise.
'All you fucking queers should just be killed off'
Oh, yes, lets prove you are better than us....by acting like a fucking brain dead barbarian who can't think with more than violence. That'll teach us! How DARE we be different? Like Malcolm X, and Gandhi. Oh wait....they lived on after death as legendary figures of our history....but they were different. for their times. Oh, so was Jesus Christ! We see how far violence and murder has really proved your points through the ages.
Those are the only two that come to mind, but ya know what? I don't think I need more.
So this is to all you judgmental fucks out there! GROW UP, GROW A PAIR, AND FACE ME LIKE A FUCKING HUMAN BEING! You got a problem with who I am? then sort it out with me like a human, and discuss it, don't fucking tell me how 'wrong I am' and treat me like there is no hope for me to be right...I'm a human, not some fucking sheep you can tell how to act, and what to do!
Oh, and don't think you are exempt, gay community. I'm not like YOU, either...because I looked in the mirror, and saw that the hate isn't just one way. Next rant? I plan it to be against you guys, YOU FUCKING QUEERS! Grow a pair, 'cause I ain't no angel! And I ain't gonna act like they are the only ones at fault here! YOUR NEXT!
This is the Crimson Knight, saying this shit is going on Facebook, and Myspace, if I can pull it off right, too. 'cause I ain't being fucking lectured on this shit without my stance being made clear, anymore. soon as I get a mic and a suitable recording program that match my standards. And then you all are going to hear my voice! I WILL NOT BE SILENCED!
10 day meme revival, day 3
Posted 13 years agoDay One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
*Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
1)Connect with me not only on a gamer view, but intellectually, too.
2)Don't try to act like you understand me better than I do...Unless you have a good reason to say you actually do.
3)Show me you are not only willing to push things forward, but take your time when it's needed.
4)Be with me when I'm laughing
5)Be with me when I'm crying
6)Don't expect me to wait forever.
7)If you want me to do something, or go somewhere, make plans...show me you can be erratic, but well planned, too.
8)Don't be afraid of those 3 special words that every man loves to hear. Lets get food! XD
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
*Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
1)Connect with me not only on a gamer view, but intellectually, too.
2)Don't try to act like you understand me better than I do...Unless you have a good reason to say you actually do.
3)Show me you are not only willing to push things forward, but take your time when it's needed.
4)Be with me when I'm laughing
5)Be with me when I'm crying
6)Don't expect me to wait forever.
7)If you want me to do something, or go somewhere, make plans...show me you can be erratic, but well planned, too.
8)Don't be afraid of those 3 special words that every man loves to hear. Lets get food! XD
10 day meme revival, day 2
Posted 13 years agoDay One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
*Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
1) I am harder to read then people think, because sometimes I'M not even sure what I show is actually me.
2)I am easily distracted by children's cartoons
3)I don't actually get along well with kids...even though I seem to be a favored family babysitter.
4)I have crews in 3 games I have to balance, even when RL isn't occupying every waking moment.
5)I'm a poet, yet without spell-check, I can't spell for my life.
6)I'm increadably hard to keep motivated.
7)Most the nice thigns I have, someone else bought for me as a gift...
8)I remember who bought me everything, and feel I owe them for every dime.
9)I am a very cuddly, and affectionate person.
*Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
1) I am harder to read then people think, because sometimes I'M not even sure what I show is actually me.
2)I am easily distracted by children's cartoons
3)I don't actually get along well with kids...even though I seem to be a favored family babysitter.
4)I have crews in 3 games I have to balance, even when RL isn't occupying every waking moment.
5)I'm a poet, yet without spell-check, I can't spell for my life.
6)I'm increadably hard to keep motivated.
7)Most the nice thigns I have, someone else bought for me as a gift...
8)I remember who bought me everything, and feel I owe them for every dime.
9)I am a very cuddly, and affectionate person.
10 day meme revival, Day 1
Posted 13 years ago*Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
I'm reviving an old meme as advise from a friend. going through how I answer these next 10 days, And then I'll go back, compare to how I answered them back then, and see the true development of my life after all this time.
Mom : I still Envy you. You've Turned into less my mother, and more an idol to look up to as the times have gotten worse.
Step-Dad : Things have gotten bad...I'm still waiting for you to listen to me. You'll never understand me till you do.
Little Brother : I'm proud of you, bro. You've finally changed from that hot-headed school bully, to the man I knew you could be.
Saki : Make up your mind. Do you want to be my friend, or my enemy? Because lately, you seem to not know, yourself.
Shal : Stop messaging me on Yahoo....Face it....I'm gone. I let you go. Now let me.
Snowie : I'm sorry I stopped talking to you. Now I'm afraid to start again...I don't knwo how much I've missed.
Sensai : I think I lost my way, teacher. Somewhere along the way, I feel I forgot all you taught me. now I think I need help getting back to who I was.
Mjern : Be happy. I hope you find what you were looking for. But now I need to find out what it was I was looking for all along.
Kyra : You are making a mistake. The only one who hasn't seen this, though, is you. And you won't listen.
The local furs [mass message] : Hey, just because I stopped being part of the local fun, don't mean i'm not still around. You people CAN contact me, you know?
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
I'm reviving an old meme as advise from a friend. going through how I answer these next 10 days, And then I'll go back, compare to how I answered them back then, and see the true development of my life after all this time.
Mom : I still Envy you. You've Turned into less my mother, and more an idol to look up to as the times have gotten worse.
Step-Dad : Things have gotten bad...I'm still waiting for you to listen to me. You'll never understand me till you do.
Little Brother : I'm proud of you, bro. You've finally changed from that hot-headed school bully, to the man I knew you could be.
Saki : Make up your mind. Do you want to be my friend, or my enemy? Because lately, you seem to not know, yourself.
Shal : Stop messaging me on Yahoo....Face it....I'm gone. I let you go. Now let me.
Snowie : I'm sorry I stopped talking to you. Now I'm afraid to start again...I don't knwo how much I've missed.
Sensai : I think I lost my way, teacher. Somewhere along the way, I feel I forgot all you taught me. now I think I need help getting back to who I was.
Mjern : Be happy. I hope you find what you were looking for. But now I need to find out what it was I was looking for all along.
Kyra : You are making a mistake. The only one who hasn't seen this, though, is you. And you won't listen.
The local furs [mass message] : Hey, just because I stopped being part of the local fun, don't mean i'm not still around. You people CAN contact me, you know?
complications and issues
Posted 13 years agoSo, It's 1AM....I should have been in bed an hour ago. But I felt something was on my mind...something that needed saying, or at least an outlet for what has been troubling me....
AS many read in my last journal, I recently had a visit from two very dear friends. one of which I had deeply hoped to call my mate after the visit. It was a fun-filled week, with nothing but smiles and excitement at every turn. Would I have done thigns different given the chance, and relived that week to fix a few blunders? Yea, i guess I would. There are some things I wanted to happen different, but nothing so bad I feel they really derailed the joy of the trip. Still...
Lately I have realized my life consists of a game called Vindictus, World of Warcraft, Second life, and doing whatever my family [and occationally my friends] tell me to do. It sounds worse than it is, I assure you. But there is also the social aspect on Skype, where recently...something was told to me that I feel has effected my emotions, and posibly to a degree, my physical ability.
The one whom I desired to be my mate recently informed me that the distance was too great [not that that stopped him back when we were just Master/pet...but I respect his choice in this, and knowing of what he wants and needs]. As such...I put my all into that...Every ounce of who I am...I put into the hope of that relationship. I pushed away a few posible partners, even, in deep devotion to him. A regretable mistake, even if it had worked out, as I realize only now that I put too much into a chance. I gambled. And it was foolish to assume something that had yet to come, and to leave those whom desired me with hurt emotions all over this. But I saught whom I wanted....and that was him. But ever sense the news of this recently...I have found I am sleeping less, smoking more, and feel exausted....all the time. Defeated, even.
I have told this to an RL friend, trying to solve the riddle...and he asked 'Do you blame him?'. No...I regret much, and I wish he'd chosen to agree with my desires...but I do not blame him. He proceeded to ask many more questions. 'Do you know who to turn to now?' 'Do you know what you will do?' 'Did you ever plan incase this didn't go as planned?'....Each one, I answered as the last....'No'...
But then he asked me a few questions I couldn't answer....'Do you know what you really wanted all along? Are you sure it was him you wanted, and not the idea? This isn't easy, and I don't mean to make it sound like it is...but do you even know who YOU are, that you'd ask another to accept you?' Roughly phrased this way, not a perfect quote....but it made me pause. think.
Truth is? I don't know. I don'tk nwo if he was what I really wanted...or if it was the idea...who I am...who I want..what I want...I'm not sure. But doing this...gonig through this phase of giving everything to someone...only to have them hand it back to me...saying they won't take me...It's really hit me. hard. It's made me second guess a lot of things. And...whoever I am...whoever I'm looking for...this much became clear after much thoguht and meditation. I don'tk now for sure who I am. Who would accept me, knowing this, or who it is I want to do so.
What I do know? I know I am me. Whoever that is, it's the only person that I can be. That i can truely be. And I want someone...who? Don't know. But I want someoen in my life...to accept me for who I am, and all my strange, silly quirks. Who will understand I am sheltered...At the same time, have a hero complex. I WANT to be that man..the stranger who saved someone, without asking a name, or a reasno...without asking a price, or reward. I want someone to accept me knowing that I am not selfless...But I try not to be selfish. But most of all....
....I want someone to love me...as deeply, and purely as I am willing to love them. Because...I know I'm not at my last legs of love...nor will I be for a logn time, I'm sure....but each time I give my heart to someone...I give them everythign that makes me who I am. Even the parts I don't understand, yet. I give them everything, and lay myself at their mercy....And each time I have been rejected...misplaced...even dropped more than once. Broken....shattered once or twice...I still remember leaving an ex-owner of mine...and crying for almost a week straight...but that's who I am. Part of it. I want someone to accept that, and love me for it....and....
...stop dropping me.
I am not a fragile china dish...but I am no moutain of strength...I am weak. Alone...I will die. Alone...I will suffer a slow, and painful death, filled with lonliness and sorrow...I don't want that. I do not think it is my fate, though. I think someone out there is waiting to find me...someone I can truely love and truely be with for the rest of my life. But...the search for who I am meant to be with...and the waiting, when I don't look...for them to find me...its....hard.
this is me saying how I feel, too tired to lie...too tired to beg...too tired to question beyond what my limited mind can within reason, and expect any answer. And how I feel? Is sad. Lonely. Many things. But most of all? desperate...for the pain, and lonliness to end.
AS many read in my last journal, I recently had a visit from two very dear friends. one of which I had deeply hoped to call my mate after the visit. It was a fun-filled week, with nothing but smiles and excitement at every turn. Would I have done thigns different given the chance, and relived that week to fix a few blunders? Yea, i guess I would. There are some things I wanted to happen different, but nothing so bad I feel they really derailed the joy of the trip. Still...
Lately I have realized my life consists of a game called Vindictus, World of Warcraft, Second life, and doing whatever my family [and occationally my friends] tell me to do. It sounds worse than it is, I assure you. But there is also the social aspect on Skype, where recently...something was told to me that I feel has effected my emotions, and posibly to a degree, my physical ability.
The one whom I desired to be my mate recently informed me that the distance was too great [not that that stopped him back when we were just Master/pet...but I respect his choice in this, and knowing of what he wants and needs]. As such...I put my all into that...Every ounce of who I am...I put into the hope of that relationship. I pushed away a few posible partners, even, in deep devotion to him. A regretable mistake, even if it had worked out, as I realize only now that I put too much into a chance. I gambled. And it was foolish to assume something that had yet to come, and to leave those whom desired me with hurt emotions all over this. But I saught whom I wanted....and that was him. But ever sense the news of this recently...I have found I am sleeping less, smoking more, and feel exausted....all the time. Defeated, even.
I have told this to an RL friend, trying to solve the riddle...and he asked 'Do you blame him?'. No...I regret much, and I wish he'd chosen to agree with my desires...but I do not blame him. He proceeded to ask many more questions. 'Do you know who to turn to now?' 'Do you know what you will do?' 'Did you ever plan incase this didn't go as planned?'....Each one, I answered as the last....'No'...
But then he asked me a few questions I couldn't answer....'Do you know what you really wanted all along? Are you sure it was him you wanted, and not the idea? This isn't easy, and I don't mean to make it sound like it is...but do you even know who YOU are, that you'd ask another to accept you?' Roughly phrased this way, not a perfect quote....but it made me pause. think.
Truth is? I don't know. I don'tk nwo if he was what I really wanted...or if it was the idea...who I am...who I want..what I want...I'm not sure. But doing this...gonig through this phase of giving everything to someone...only to have them hand it back to me...saying they won't take me...It's really hit me. hard. It's made me second guess a lot of things. And...whoever I am...whoever I'm looking for...this much became clear after much thoguht and meditation. I don'tk now for sure who I am. Who would accept me, knowing this, or who it is I want to do so.
What I do know? I know I am me. Whoever that is, it's the only person that I can be. That i can truely be. And I want someone...who? Don't know. But I want someoen in my life...to accept me for who I am, and all my strange, silly quirks. Who will understand I am sheltered...At the same time, have a hero complex. I WANT to be that man..the stranger who saved someone, without asking a name, or a reasno...without asking a price, or reward. I want someone to accept me knowing that I am not selfless...But I try not to be selfish. But most of all....
....I want someone to love me...as deeply, and purely as I am willing to love them. Because...I know I'm not at my last legs of love...nor will I be for a logn time, I'm sure....but each time I give my heart to someone...I give them everythign that makes me who I am. Even the parts I don't understand, yet. I give them everything, and lay myself at their mercy....And each time I have been rejected...misplaced...even dropped more than once. Broken....shattered once or twice...I still remember leaving an ex-owner of mine...and crying for almost a week straight...but that's who I am. Part of it. I want someone to accept that, and love me for it....and....
...stop dropping me.
I am not a fragile china dish...but I am no moutain of strength...I am weak. Alone...I will die. Alone...I will suffer a slow, and painful death, filled with lonliness and sorrow...I don't want that. I do not think it is my fate, though. I think someone out there is waiting to find me...someone I can truely love and truely be with for the rest of my life. But...the search for who I am meant to be with...and the waiting, when I don't look...for them to find me...its....hard.
this is me saying how I feel, too tired to lie...too tired to beg...too tired to question beyond what my limited mind can within reason, and expect any answer. And how I feel? Is sad. Lonely. Many things. But most of all? desperate...for the pain, and lonliness to end.
Back to my old...dull...but simple life.
Posted 13 years agoSo, The two sexy men whom have graced me with their compony...given me someone to cuddle and show my affectionate side to...And have spoiled me absolutely rotten....have left. Off to go home, and get back to the day to day life. I'll miss them...A lot...but time comes in every amazing visit where we must part ways. that's why it's called a 'visit'. But for all you folks out there? Well, looks like I'm going back to my own day to day. ^_^ Looking forward to relaxing and spending time with all yous!
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Posted 13 years agoYea, don't make much sense? Well, I have a couple absolutely wonderful people here with me today, ladies and gents
That's right, the visit from Mjern and the Koopa I've been talking about has come to pass. Now, we'll only be in town for a few more days, before we make off for Disney land, and well be gone for 3 more days. ^_~ common, folks!
So, if you know me in RL, and wanna drop on by to say hi to me, Mjern, and Erick, before we wisk away out of town, and will be hard to catch after returning before they leave....drop me a line on here~! We got a plan that is still up to them if we do to go to EC on the 4th, too~! so those who can make it, meet us there. On the roof, as always. Other than that, I'll give ya a number you can call if you contact me, and we can arrange you guys meet these two. XD totally worth the visit, even if it wasn't to come see me :PP
Until then? Well, I got a fellow Fox-dragon here kicking ass in Kingdom hearts....I think I'm gonna go watch over his shoudler and cling, hehe. Hear from you guys soon, I hope~!
That's right, the visit from Mjern and the Koopa I've been talking about has come to pass. Now, we'll only be in town for a few more days, before we make off for Disney land, and well be gone for 3 more days. ^_~ common, folks!
So, if you know me in RL, and wanna drop on by to say hi to me, Mjern, and Erick, before we wisk away out of town, and will be hard to catch after returning before they leave....drop me a line on here~! We got a plan that is still up to them if we do to go to EC on the 4th, too~! so those who can make it, meet us there. On the roof, as always. Other than that, I'll give ya a number you can call if you contact me, and we can arrange you guys meet these two. XD totally worth the visit, even if it wasn't to come see me :PP
Until then? Well, I got a fellow Fox-dragon here kicking ass in Kingdom hearts....I think I'm gonna go watch over his shoudler and cling, hehe. Hear from you guys soon, I hope~!
My new years resolution...late, but here.
Posted 14 years agoAs I have seen, there are people who say they will 'work harder', 'love stronger', who will forgive, who will forget, who will do things they've never done before, or more of the things they love to do. To stop what they've done before that was not wise, and many other promises.
I make no such resolution. No such promise. Because I know it will not come to pass, just as my resolution for last year never came to pass. I choose, myself, to resolve to finish what I have started, instead.
My resolutions:
1) I will do my best to capture the heart of the one I've been so captured by, that we may be one.
2) I will learn patience, more so than I have in prior years, for I have already been working to learn, and I wish to learn more.
3) I will continue, as I have for nearly 5 years now, to seek employment. But this year, I will not do so alone, and any whom would lead me to false home, or make me stray from the path any further than I do myself, will be put to the side, themselves.
4) I will continue my training as a warrior, and as a servant of man. Learning my craft in combat, that I might better protect those who cannot protect themselves.
5) I will not pretend I assume what I want to happen will happen. Only that I will do my part to do my best, and hope that anyone else needed for my success in my resolution will find it as much in their desires to do their part as I do.
With luck, this will be the first year I have ever made resolutions that I kept. Hopefully, come the end of december, I will be a better man for it. And the new year that we now live in will prove to have made me someone I am proud to be, not someone whom I see so many flaws in.
I make no such resolution. No such promise. Because I know it will not come to pass, just as my resolution for last year never came to pass. I choose, myself, to resolve to finish what I have started, instead.
My resolutions:
1) I will do my best to capture the heart of the one I've been so captured by, that we may be one.
2) I will learn patience, more so than I have in prior years, for I have already been working to learn, and I wish to learn more.
3) I will continue, as I have for nearly 5 years now, to seek employment. But this year, I will not do so alone, and any whom would lead me to false home, or make me stray from the path any further than I do myself, will be put to the side, themselves.
4) I will continue my training as a warrior, and as a servant of man. Learning my craft in combat, that I might better protect those who cannot protect themselves.
5) I will not pretend I assume what I want to happen will happen. Only that I will do my part to do my best, and hope that anyone else needed for my success in my resolution will find it as much in their desires to do their part as I do.
With luck, this will be the first year I have ever made resolutions that I kept. Hopefully, come the end of december, I will be a better man for it. And the new year that we now live in will prove to have made me someone I am proud to be, not someone whom I see so many flaws in.
SO! Lately things have been a bit...odd...
Posted 14 years agoAlright, as I've announced recently, I moved back home. Of course, to find my step-father diagnosed with an incurable illness. And The house on the edge of forclosure, due to a lack of my step-dad's income. This is, of course, not counting in the violent implotion of what I considered a relationship with my prior owner, and a good friend moving away, near about the same time prior to all the other stuff.
Now, for the flip side. My step-dad is stable, if not a bit bitchy, but I expected that. Thanks to my little bro moving back in with his gf and their kid, they brought in some income, and thus saved the house. And food back on the table in our old, regular portions, which my stomach is thankful for. the holidays seem to be back on track, and our lives back to normal. and, after months of mourning the loss of my owner, and a bit of selfish gratitude that he lost his mate...I will admit, a strong part of me is glad. because, in my opinion, his mate didn't treat him right, and was probably one of the biggest reasons I left him. though, obvious by my mourning, it was not a choice I made lightly...after all this time, I have been considering taking apon another lover. this time, however, i'm intent to be much more picky, and try to avoid the prior mistakes. anyways, my brother's job shows promise that [once he gets settled in] will allow him to pull strings to put me to work. thus, both of us employed. Oh, and lets not forget that my parents have a plan to go visit my step-dad's mom at some point, and leave me and my brother home alone to fend for ourselves for a week....my brother being rather open minded, means I may [for the first time in a very long time] be able to have 'compony' over, so to speak....enjoy things in my own bed, for once.
now, for the other side of the coin, involving relationship issues... I have, currently, 2 prospects in my mind that are very high on my list of desired men. Problem? One has dropped off the face of the earth, even going as far as to stop responding to my messages on this very site. the other? living in New Mexico with his mom. Sweet guy, but tie in long distance and the whole 'living with your mom' problem...I live with mine, It's gonna be harder with two sets of parents involved. while there are a few others in consideration, the rest have matters that render considering them a prospect highly illogical, such as having a mate already [strained relationship or not, still a no-go bar for me] or being the type to be uninterested in me unless I'm willing to cross a few lines....that i'm not willing to cross.
So yea, ladies and gents, this has been my little update on my life, and my troubles, and [in a way] just letting you guys know I'm still alive, and lurking the web, as always.
Now, for the flip side. My step-dad is stable, if not a bit bitchy, but I expected that. Thanks to my little bro moving back in with his gf and their kid, they brought in some income, and thus saved the house. And food back on the table in our old, regular portions, which my stomach is thankful for. the holidays seem to be back on track, and our lives back to normal. and, after months of mourning the loss of my owner, and a bit of selfish gratitude that he lost his mate...I will admit, a strong part of me is glad. because, in my opinion, his mate didn't treat him right, and was probably one of the biggest reasons I left him. though, obvious by my mourning, it was not a choice I made lightly...after all this time, I have been considering taking apon another lover. this time, however, i'm intent to be much more picky, and try to avoid the prior mistakes. anyways, my brother's job shows promise that [once he gets settled in] will allow him to pull strings to put me to work. thus, both of us employed. Oh, and lets not forget that my parents have a plan to go visit my step-dad's mom at some point, and leave me and my brother home alone to fend for ourselves for a week....my brother being rather open minded, means I may [for the first time in a very long time] be able to have 'compony' over, so to speak....enjoy things in my own bed, for once.
now, for the other side of the coin, involving relationship issues... I have, currently, 2 prospects in my mind that are very high on my list of desired men. Problem? One has dropped off the face of the earth, even going as far as to stop responding to my messages on this very site. the other? living in New Mexico with his mom. Sweet guy, but tie in long distance and the whole 'living with your mom' problem...I live with mine, It's gonna be harder with two sets of parents involved. while there are a few others in consideration, the rest have matters that render considering them a prospect highly illogical, such as having a mate already [strained relationship or not, still a no-go bar for me] or being the type to be uninterested in me unless I'm willing to cross a few lines....that i'm not willing to cross.
So yea, ladies and gents, this has been my little update on my life, and my troubles, and [in a way] just letting you guys know I'm still alive, and lurking the web, as always.
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Posted 14 years agoAn eye opener
Posted 14 years agoJust so people know the context...every year, this weekend...weekend after thanksgiving...we put up the Christmas lights and tree. decorate the house, and get ready for the biggest holiday of the year. And we play music my mom has saved. And we ran accross a song I had to find on Youtube. So my eyes where opened as me and my mom both broke into tears hearing a song we believe is appropriate to the times.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWRWiEaSHXY
this is my dedication. A reminder. Not to those whom this song hits worst, because they can't see this. But to those who can see it, the ones that got lucky. Be thankful. as this song tells, and you can see around the world...everywhere you look...there are those who didn't get lucky this year. there are people who've lost their homes, have lost EVERYTHING. My family came dangerously close to being one of them a few times this year. We're not even sure we'll make it to the new years. but we've made it by the skin of our teeth.
So to those who have been so lucky as to be able to see this message...Be thankful. Because this year, this is what I am thankful for. Hard as times are, we have made it so far. Unlike so many others, I can make this posting.
Pray for those who didn't. the ones on the street, and the ones who have died. For the children who won't have a real home to be in this holiday. Next year, it could be you on those cold streets.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWRWiEaSHXY
this is my dedication. A reminder. Not to those whom this song hits worst, because they can't see this. But to those who can see it, the ones that got lucky. Be thankful. as this song tells, and you can see around the world...everywhere you look...there are those who didn't get lucky this year. there are people who've lost their homes, have lost EVERYTHING. My family came dangerously close to being one of them a few times this year. We're not even sure we'll make it to the new years. but we've made it by the skin of our teeth.
So to those who have been so lucky as to be able to see this message...Be thankful. Because this year, this is what I am thankful for. Hard as times are, we have made it so far. Unlike so many others, I can make this posting.
Pray for those who didn't. the ones on the street, and the ones who have died. For the children who won't have a real home to be in this holiday. Next year, it could be you on those cold streets.
