Bills never quit and I am already down to one meal a day.

I have a ton of characters for sale, many of them high quality. https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

And lots of bundle deals.

I'd like to be able to have at least one meal a day this week, but at this point I have exhausted my reserve and may have to reduce my intake even more.

It's fine, I'm fat. I'll maybe get a bag of beef jerky and survive off of a few strips of that a day or something. I dunno. I have lost the ability to give a shit. I'm so fucking tired....

Please help if you can. I'm tired of always having urgent need, but I am just. I am struggling. I am tired. I am tired of struggling. So... tired.

If so... comment and I'll toss you a friend code! I light friend stars daily, and would love to have more buddies to hang with :D


LOOOOVING the game so far xD

https://ko-fi.com/arthademon/shop There are a few bases here too!

The Cuddlebeast and Floofdemons are mystery adopts.

TBH I am getting downright desperate here, with my commissions being so slow.

You can find all my characters for sale over here on my Toyhouse! https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

If you don't have a Toyhouse, you can still buy the character. I can let you save the image then delete it, OR, I can give you an invite code! I have plenty!

There's everything from low priced characters around $5 each, all the way up to very high value characters with sentimental value and extra art for a few hundred and everything in between.

The $10 folder has a special bundle deal. There's TONS of nice wolves and other creatures there.

Reply here with a link/links to the characters you would like to purchase and your Toyhouse name, and once I receive payment, I'll transfer your character to you!

If you don't have a TH, let me know and I'll gladly give you a code or move the character to a "Sold Offsite" folder with your URL in the description as proof of ownership.

So. My stream is failing miserably. Yet again. Honestly, it doesn't even surprise me anymore at this point. I am getting used to it, but being used to my streams failing does not pay bills.

And with a bill coming up (And of course the beginning of next month being when most of my other big bills hit), I am looking at yet another week of barely any food, probably longer because whatever I make over the next weekend will get eaten up by more bills. I don't know what I am going to do. I'm tired.

I have stuff in my freezer, but I have had so many bad weekends lately that I've mostly gone through my stores, and am down to mostly things I can't eat because of my IBD.

I have enough saved to cover the big bill, but after that.... I have nothing left. Not even a cushion. And of course I am going to have to start paying down my credit card. But commissions are getting worse by the week, and I am making far less than I need to survive. If I was doing better on my weekend streams, this wouldn't be a problem but each weekend has been worse than the weekend before and I am. So tired.

I need cat litter. I need food. I need household necessities. Not to mention My wife and I's 10th anniversary is coming up, and I can't even do something nice for her because we are barely surviving.

I am so... so... so tired....


Anyway... this is an urgent cry for help. Yet again. Y'all are probably tired of it by now... I know I am.

I have a ton of characters up for sale. https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525


If you can't buy... maybe spread the news? Help me out? Give me a chance to start to recover expenses? Maybe even start to be able to save towards paying off my credit card after a severe mental breakdown and burnout forced me to refund every single outstanding commission I had....

I dunno. It's a longshot. Nobody is going to read this or care, people don't pay attention to journals really and I'm just another artist in a sea of artists.

I dunno. I'm getting desperate here. But I have nothing left of value to sell other than characters.

Been playing with some friends and if anybody wants a friend code and wants to join me when I am online, lemme know!

I light friend stars daily.

Until further notice, all commissions outside of streams are closed. If you want a commission, you will need to get one in my streams. I will probably start doing streams during the week too, to make up the difference.

Once I recover from this severe burnout, I may bring up some new grids, and open commissions one at a time.

For now, commissions I finish on the spot are the only ones I will accept.

All my grids have been deleted since all incomplete ones were refunded since a lot of characters I had ended up going up for sale and I did not want characters I sold or am selling to end up on the grids. Any future grids will be entirely new.

Expect mystery adopts, other adopts, and stuff in hopes of generating money between streams.

I also have lots of characters up for sale, too. https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

I am so glad I required a form to be filled out for commissions. It allowed me to find them all, and verify how much was owed.

I ran up my credit card, but every single refund has been taken care of. I took care of it quickly, and will be doing extra streams during the week probably. I want to try to pay off the credit card as fast as I can, so I'll be pushing character sales and commission streams so I can make good payments towards it each month while dealing with my other expenses.

The amount budgeted for the loan that fell through will cover interest + a decent payment to lower the balance, so this shouldn't set me back too much.

It's another monthly cost I will need to cover... but... it's worth it to get some of my mental health back and crawl past this burnout.

I physically can not do my queue. Every time I try, it looks like complete shit and sends me into another spiral. And as long as it's hanging over my head, the burnout will continue.

I really am considering using my credit card. For the amount ran up, the interest would be around $35 a month so if I budget $50 to $100 per stream, and pay it off over time it should be fine. I calculated it.

If you would like characters instead, you can look at my sales.
https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

Any aside from tentative goes.

Additionally, I could set up extra week day streams that you can use owed refund for new commissions if prefer that.

Anyway. Let me know. I do plan on reaching out to all commissioners.

So there is a big chance the loan may fall through, so I will not have the money to do refunds. I am sorry, but there's no ETA right now.

What I might be doing instead is special streams during the week where you can use money owed on commissions to get new stream commissions of equal value. If you want me to do that, let me know... I just. I am physically incapable of doing my queue right now. I am under so much stress I don't know how much longer my fragile health is going to hold out. I'm exhausted. I'm burnt the fuck out.

This will be especially needed for bigger commissions... I can't do anything big right now. I just can't.


Please let me know how much I owe you, and I'll try to figure out what to do about that once I know for sure.

Apparently, the company needs tax information, but I didn't really make enough to *have* any tax information so it's probably going to fall through despite having good credit and being approved.

I'm tired.

I am so very tired.

I took out a small loan so I could refund all commissions I have not yet finished.

If I owe you art, send me a note (Or a DM on Discord if you have me on there)

Let me know how much your commission was, and give me your Paypal so I can refund you!

If you prefer, you can choose a character from my sales of equal value instead of a refund https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

The only exception is the tentative folder. But any others can go.

The reason for this loan was because the backed up queue was contributing to my severe burnout, and I just can not muster the motivation to work on them. Commissions will be stream only for a while. At least, until this intense burnout is past.

Refunds will start going out as soon as the funds are deposited in my account.

I am waiting on final verification, but I took out a small personal loan so I could refund all hanging commissions and take a break aside from my weekend streams (And maybe do them during the week on rough weeks)

IF I owe you a commission I never completed, please send me a note, with details about the commission and how much I owe you.

Alternatively, you can pick characters from my sales adding up to the value of your hanging commission, with the exception of Tentative/High Value folder: https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525 instead of a monetary refund.

After that, all commissions OUTSIDE of Stream Commissions will be closed, including character design grids.



Basically, I bit off way more than I could chew out of desperation. This will add another monthly cost to what I am paying, but it's one I can manage. Especially since I am using the loan to take out another monthly cost. I won't have that queue hanging over me stressing me out even more than I already am. I may temporarily extend when I do my commission streams or get some personal work done without guilt to try to find joy in art again.


Anyway! Please let me know if you have a commission hanging! I intend to refund all of them, aside from MAYBE the most recent ones.

View the stream here: https://piczel.tv/watch/Artha

I will waive the NSFW fee if you order something NSFW with one of my characters included! https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/characters

Speedpaints are 1 character no background only for this stream UNLESS I find I have the energy to do more complex ones.

https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525
Buy a character from my sales, get a commission up to $50 value half off! One character only, does not apply to backgrounds or extras. Can be $25 off for higher value commissions.

50% off the second character fee to add in one of my characters! My personal tastes apply for this, however; if the subject being drawn is not a subject I am in to or fully comfortable with, I will not want to see one of my own OCs in it.

View my TOS here: https://artha-cryptid-commissions.w.....y.com/tos.html

See my stream pricing here: https://artha-cryptid-commissions.w.....on-prices.html

Ko-Fi subscribers get a discount! https://ko-fi.com/arthademon

So. I got autobilled for something I completely forgot was due. No email letting me know it was coming up, nothing. And it was expensive. Something I was considering canceling or suspending because as nice as it is, it's very expensive and I have been struggling too much to set funds aside for it. It completely blindsided me and I want to lay down and give up.

And now my ENTIRE food budget AND cushion are gone and I have another payment coming up in 2 days that will sap the rest.

I am still really sick. Covid is KICKING MY ASS. I will stream if I have to but I need rest. I am exhausted and sore and losing hope so fast.

If you can, consider checking out my characters for sale.

https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

Or donating to my PayPal, if you can. Arthademon[at]gmail.com I have managed to keep out of emergency status because I have been very careful with my money. I have budgeted everything, with a cushion for situations like this but this was an autobill that exhausted my cushion and my extra money. I had enough for a small grocery and now I don't even have my safety cushion.

I'm so fucking tired. I am so fucking done with life.

I am still sick, but I am out of money and bills don't stop.

So keep an eye out, and get something if you can.

I took a break to get over my burnout and in the process, I have come down with something really nasty. I think it's covid.

Been coughing up a lung, sore, short of breath, exhausted, barely eating or sleeping.

I need money for this upcoming week. Food, bills, some to save towards the electric bill because I am gonna have to cover more of it because my roomie lost his job and can't contribute as much as he was, cat litter, wife's meds....

The expenses just don't stop and I am stressed to hell on top of being sick off my ass.

I have a lot of high quality characters for sale, if you want to look through them and buy a few. https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

Taking time off wasn’t the smartest thing, but I really needed it.

PayPal is Arthademon[at]gmail.com if you want to donate. It's a long shot, but worth a try.

I was gonna stream this weekend but I was too sick last night and haven't gotten any better today. Trying to nap a little and see if I can, but I am so miserable that I don't have high hopes.

I have a vast array of characters in my sales https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

So to explain, I have two payments left on my Sunbit. Then the needed dental work I got done a bit over a year ago will be paid off in full. One less monthly payment.

I got approved for a good line of credit, like, enough that I can utilize it for emergencies.

Here is my question to my commissioners.

Should I use it to hand out refunds so I can take a real break and start fresh? I know several of you have been waiting for a long while... My burnout has not fully gone away, and I am considering moving on to only stream commissions from now moving forward with more stream days during the week in addition to the weekend.

I do feel like I am close to breaking through... But the backlog is a major point of stress.

I can also offer to let you choose characters from my sales of equal value (I have a few high value ones) to help ease the burden of any refunds if I go that route.

What do you all think? Do you think that's a good use of the resource? I would owe money to the credit card company, but I would also not have a backlog stressing me out so much my creativity shrivels up and dies.

I am gonna make a set of cosmic dragon mystery adopts. Probably start with 5, maybe 10 depending on how well my creative juices flow.

They will likely be around $50 apiece, done in my new Speedpaint style.

I will be basing them on various cosmic anomalies (Black holes, nebulas, different types of stars, stuff like that)

They will not have extra options like the Starbeast adopts, however, because I do not want to put more on my plate for when I get to working on my queue.

If I can make a set and sell enough to build up enough money to take care of my big bills coming up (Internet is $135, I have the last payments for my computer parts when my computer damn near kicked the bucket coming up beginning of the month, and need to cover $150 of the power bill as well as eat and cover household necessities), I should be able to take a real, proper break and reset myself.

That's what I need. I am coming to the end of this burnout, but I need at least a week, preferably two, where I don't have to stress until I am a sick, exhausted mess.

If any of you want to donate (I don't expect anybody too, tbh xD), you can here on my Ko-Fi.

https://ko-fi.com/arthademon

The mystery adopts will be posted there individually, with the image ready to download once you purchase it when they are finished. So no waiting for me to get the files to you!

I also have a LOT of characters for sale on my Toyhouse. Some very high quality.

https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

Anything helps! A moth badly needs a break, and once I can get a break, I should be able to reset and finally get this damn queue knocked out.

I have a new art style I am playing with, a really nice speedpaint.

If you would like your commission to be turned into a Speedpaint instead (Depending on how much you paid), hit me up via notes.

I've actually been having an easier time doing the speed paints lately than my usual sketch style, and honestly I think it looks much nicer.

I think it's FINALLY starting to fade away. I have two stream commissions from the last couple weekends I need to complete, but I'll get those two finished, and then start cracking on my queue again.

IF you are not on my Trello queue, DM me please! I have really bad memory loss, and it's been really, REALLY bad these past few months due to severe unending stress coupled with mental and physical health problems.

PLEASE let me know if I forgot you!

Sorry for all the delays for my commissions of late. I've been sick as hell from the constant stress on top of being burnt out.

I am starting to come out of it, I think, slowly. I am still having trouble getting my motivation up, but I should be able to start working soon. I have some stream commission backlog on top of the backlog I already have, and I am continually having to take on more just to survive. And I feel AWFUL for how much of a wait this is for some of you.

I am still struggling... I figured I might as well let you all know instead of staying silent while still struggling.

One of the stress-induced sicknesses I am dealing with is constant exhaustion. I am so tired... no matter what. Exhausted at all times. Despite caffeine and sleeping. And then I have insomnia, where I have trouble falling asleep.

I ain't doing the best, guys. And I am SO sorry for the delays.

If you wanna help me out, I have TONS of characters for sale https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

Or you can donate here: https://ko-fi.com/arthademon (I imagine nobody will lol... but. Worth a try. xD)

If I can sell enough characters to get a few hundred built up... I can take a week or two off from streaming. I REALLY. REALLY REALLY need a break but I haven't gotten one. Even when I am distracted by other stuff because of how burnt the fuck OUT I am, it's not a rest because I am stressed the entire time.

So I managed to get past most of this burnout, but I kinda got a little rusty because I couldn't really draw anything for a month or so.

SO I am trying to shake off the rust with some sketches and doodles, then I'll get back to work on the queue.

I am SO sorry for the delays, guys! Burnout is a bitch.

Somebody decided to commission me in my stream. I had one in line ahead of theirs, and I hadn't gotten to theirs yet, told them I'd have them pay once I started. Finished the one before theirs, had a wrist stretch break, went to let them know, only to find they'd blocked me and deleted all their messages.

Like. What the fuck, man. If you didn't wanna commission me, you really don't HAVE to but don't like... say you're gonna get a piece, discuss what piece you want, then fucking block me. Sheesh.

A little more juicy tea - They have tried to add me as a friend on Discord several times since this. I have been ignoring it because even if they apologize, I am not taking a commission from them because they seem like the sort who would get the art them chargeback... I don't trust them. But like. WHY.

I need about $300 before the 1st of next month, though around $130 would take care of the biggest of the bills. Any extra goes towards all the bills that like to hit RIGHT at the beginning of the month. If I can get $500, that'd be even better because I won't have to scramble at the last minute to get the internet bill paid, too.

Characters for sale, here! https://toyhou.se/Cryptid-Artha/cha.....folder:5944525

I barely managed to cover the big bills that come at the beginning of the month this month, and this month is already almost over, so any extra will VASTLY help!

I'll be streaming too, because I can't afford to take another week off unless a miracle happens.

I have $985 towards my power bill, which is around $1100... that is the bare minimum I need to pay right now. I am only covering my own needs for food atm, as well as household supplies and staples, and Jori has a full time job now and can pay more of the power bill, but this is hanging over from a month that was extremely rough on all of us, made worse by me crashing and burning hard.

I will also take one full illustration slot for $300, up to two characters, NSFW or SFW, Fully rendered/painted with a full background. I will warn you that turnaround time has been a bit slow lately because I've been SO burnt out, but I do always get things done even if it takes a while and I have to regather my strength before I start.