It has been a few rough years for me. Has it been for the good more or less. basically I have been through the rough part but still trying to rebuild what needs to be. Recap I lost my life's work in a fire and got screwed over for compensation. My parents threw me in the middle of a frustrating separation only stopped because my doctor told my parents to stop using me as a go between. I went back into depression and suffered to find a job causing finical stress.

In the past year I have gone back to school, and am top of my class. I have taken on projects some small some massively daunting. I am chair of my schools mental heath organization. Planing and am head of my cities makerspace project along with a few other small projects. Sadly I am still struggling with he job hunt i get great paying short term contracts but all full time position I interview with I get beat out by sob stories who they feel could benefit from the money and experience more even though I am the person best for the job. It just seems so frustrating that I try so hard to be the best choice but I always seem to lose out.

I guess right now I figured I would be further ahead in life then I am. I know that things change but it is still hard not to feel like I am missing things, and wanting more out of life. Oh well something to work on in the future.

Well this weekend had a few up and a lot of downs. A lot of emotional crap. To start on Friday my father basically said he remembered my birthday but could not be bothered to talk time out of his day to see me. My birthday was spent going through my childhood home and picking what from my childhood I wish to keep. It is very emotionally draining it is a lot for me to take I have been the go between my parents all summer. Mondays conversation with my father where he stated the divorce was the whole families fault. I come home and basically get all the blame piled on me. I feel as if all I do is not good enough and the stress is really hard on me. It be nice if my efforts could be looked at as helpful instead of never good enough. I just wish I Gould have one nice thing happen to me this year I don't think that is to much to ask. Everyone keeps telling me I should be proud of what I have done but it so hard when no one wants to help. I really just would like it if someone tries to prove they believe in me. Honestly I am really starting to question if I believe in me.

I was 9 years old the first time depression hit me. It took years before I was finally able to get to a point where I was really happy. Since then I have had relapses where i feel like I will never feel better again, but not like this year. Over the past 8 months I have lost so much I don't know what to do with myself anymore. To start I lost my dream job and business all in the same day. In march there was a fire in one of the other offices that structurally destroyed my office. What makes is worse is that no charges were laid on the person who caused it even though it was neglect on their part that almost killed 3 people. in fact what hurts the most is the owner got a benefit for his loss and the rest of us got stuck fighting with our service providers so they would stop charging us for services they were not providing.

My next big loss came in June I lost my home. My parents are getting divorced, and it seems I am left being the shoulder everyone needs to cry on. Now my childhood home a safe place for me is gone, and I find myself alone in one of my darkest hours.

Next comes my hunt for a job. I have been looking for anything yet it seems I never get an interview, never get a chance to show that I can do the work. It has been really hard to see myself as anything good when no one wants to even give me a chance at a job.

Lately I even feel like my friends are drifting a way from me some claiming I have a negative attitude, others just are drifting. I got another roommate and to be truthful now when I am home I feel more alone then ever. This really feeds my dark thoughts.

In the end what is really hurting me the most is that every time something good happens to me it has to be ripped away. It just hurts so much when the simplest thing I want is apparently way to much for me to ask for. All I really want is to be happy but everyone else seems to think differently. I try and try to help people to make myself feel better, but every time it seems what I am doing is not good enough. It would be nice if I had someone believe in me so maybe I can once again believe in myself.

Hello Everyone.

In march my rental studio had a fire that has shut us down for months, then this month I have decided to move due to an unresolved flooding issue. that being said my income has been hurt some what due to not having a studio to work and teach in and an apartment that sucks. so i thought I would put this up as a way for me to make some money well I wait for my studio to be repaired.

I am offering photo lessons over Skype. each video lesson will be one hour and I can cover one topic you have been interested in, or you can ask me questions about photography, or give you a critique. I am also a Photoshop instructor and can explain how to use tools and give you full demos of how to use Photoshop.

Photography classes are $25 an hour and Photoshop is $35 an hour.

How to book First email me at danielcsns[at]gmail.com with the fallowing
- what you want to know
- what time/s are good for you
- what camera you have
- your Skype name
-, and if applicable how meany sessions you would like.

basic photography intro can be taught in about 4 hours (best broken up into 4 one hour sessions)
basic Photoshop is 4-5 hours depending on the person. (again best broken up into 4 one hour sessions)

I hope to have some fun times teaching people about something I am so passionate about.

So I am working on a project that I would love to have 2-3 people join me on. I am creating a furry board game called Con Dash. I am doing all the rules, cards, marketing, and concept work. However building a board game requires more then that. I need a few people who can draw, bounce ideas off of and all that fun stuff. In addition to it being a furry I game I hope if it can be put in to production that a fursut sized version can be made. If you are interested please send me a message .

0/1200 paper fund.

Hi all

My secound office has been converted into a print lab. Along with printing photos I am open for printing artwork.

Rules

- All prints must be proper size and 300 dpi (you will be charged and extra $5 if i have to fix this)

- I will print adult material but it will be charged and extra $10 known as the after dark fee.

- Printing will begin once I have the paper arrive you will receive an email when your work will be printed.

- All digital files must be submitted to me via drop box (any email attachment will be ignored)

- All work must be released by the creator for print.

Papers

- Hot press
- Cold press
- Exhibition canvas satin
- Exhibition canvas gloss
- Exhibition fiber
- Ultrasmooth fine art


Cost
cost is determined by paper and size below is the base cost of one inch of height with a width of 17" currently the widest we can print. so to figure out your price is cost x height ex: 2.50 x 10 = 25

- Hot press $2.50
- Cold press $2.50
- Exhibition canvas satin $3.25
- Exhibition canvas gloss $3.75
- Exhibition fiber $3.50
- Ultrasmooth fine art $3.00

Shipping there is a base $10 shipping cost that i will only wave if you are local.

All my fist set is going to fund the first big paper order.

So the day has finally come. Tomorrow my rental studio opens it's doors to the public. It has been a long almost 4 years of work planing, and an even longer week and a half to get it ready. but now all is done my office and the media lab and furnished, the studios are painted. Vast piles of equipment are running late hopefully they will be here soon. Now everything is ready to go tours start at one. The official party is at 5. this party is not just to celebrate opening, but also the fact that I get two new titles form it. The first is that I am Canada's smallest rental studio. The other is just chalking up an other youngest title.

warning this is a rant about people i am forced to deal with not anyone I chose to deal with.

This week so far has sucked. I spend all my time trying to get things done only to be yelled at, belittled, accused, and insulted, Then given more work. Monday and today I have spent fixing other peoples mistakes. I am under lots of stress right now opening my business but Monday's problem just put it over the top. It started Friday. IT WAS MADE CLEAR to all people who I was working with that I would not be dealing with anything unless it involved me getting funding. At quarter to four I get an email from my business adviser telling me that my secound year financials is not done and is beyond past due. Having already told her more then once where it was she had the nerve to say it was late. So Monday I went in first thing in the morning had a meeting with her and behold there it was right where I said it was. What do I get after being so rudely treated nothing but an oops. Is it that hard to apologize to me. If this is not bad enough I get told that it is unprofessional to go in and help fix someones mistake as it is acting arrogant like I can do no wrong.

The next thing was my new mail person sent a parcel to the wrong post office. It was 2kms away from me and I had to walk up to get it. Thankfully it was small, but this is not my problem when I got the parcel the person behind the desk told me that this was the wrong post office for my mail and I quote "don't let it happen again" when asking how it could be my fault it was sent to the wrong place I was met with a nasty look. As I left they said to their coworker some people think they are always in the right. Now this is twice in one day both times not my fault. Both times I get the blame.

Then today I got a letter for the tax center saying that they where declining my claim for a tax credit. Well I was on the phone with them asking them about it my IQ was brought up saying that I was two smart for the tax credit (it is for people with disabilities ) they said I was to smart to have any real disability and that my nerve problems where not good enough to count. They told me I could appeal but my time was better spent not trying to take advantage of a government program. This was highly insulting my argument and questions over the terms and definitions they used in the letter to me. Showed off my intelligence and I get told that.

What kinda world do I live in that it is deemed fair that I be penalized for being smart. I go to fix a mistake that was made that involves me not only do I get blamed I get treated like a jerk because people seem to think me dealing with the problem is making me the superior arrogant person causing trouble. I admit I carry a confident and smart personality that is who I am. I can't help being smart I worked hard to be I put in the hours and studied. I don't think that makes me superior I think that makes me driven and determined. Right now I feel so bad about myself I could just cry. Between the blame and the mean treatment it is hard to see what other path I could have taken to deal with this all these things deal directly with me, and have nothing to really do with everyone else I was trying to make sure things worked with as little trouble as possible.

This brings up another point as I am working closer to opening my business I get a lot of praise for what I am doing and a lot of really strong putdowns as well. These people like to put it as giving me advice, but in reality telling me that I am to young and inexperienced, or that my idea is stupid is not advice that is just being mean to me. I don't like having people tell me those things it really hurts when I am trying to do something good. I am just feeling really hurt right now as it seems through action or inaction I am going to get hurt.

so i have made it around this planet another time.

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
see no point in doing it in the first place.

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
kinda single hard telling where my relationship stands

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
i would blush and think you are sweet.

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
yes

5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
a few people. i would love to get the chance to connect with them better.

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
working on opening my studio.

7: Do you want to be single?
no at this point in my life i wish i had someone to be with for cuddleing, loving (not sex), talking to, and enjoying their company.

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
Stayed in.

9: How late did you stay up last night?
about 12:30am.

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
it has all hitting me at once with a few people.

11: Last three things you had to drink?
water

12: Have you ever pretended to like someone?
i don't like to but i have to sometimes

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
No.

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
yes.

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Yes.

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
yes

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
building a bbq. fingers crossed it will not blow up.

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
no.

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Yes.

20: What would you name your future daughter?
hard to say i would have to meet her first to know.

21: Do you miss anyone?
yes.

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
no.

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
yes

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
depends. i try and keep in constant zen.

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
yes.

26: Who did you last see in person?
my mother

27: Are you listening to music right now?
no i should be going to bed.

28: What is something you currently want right now?
personally no. business lots.

29: What is the last thing you said out loud?
go to bed.

30: How is your heart lately?
non existant

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
yes

32: Are you wearing socks?
taking them off now. doing it with my feet is not very easy.

33: What do people call you?
Daniel
Dan
God of Photoshop (a joke among some of my students)

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
no sadly

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
yes lots of idiots i have to put up with.

36: Who did you last share a bed with?
juno.

37: Did you do something bad today?
no i am always good.

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
tonight.

39: Do you get stressed out easily?
not overly it is normally been pushed.

40: Will you sing today?
odds are.

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
yes yes and yes.

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
it is hard to talk to people about some of my problems as the are just so different.

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
No.

44: What are you listening to right now?
the voice in my head saying go to bed you idiot

45: What is wrong with you right now?
i am still awake.

46: What is on your wrists right now?
hair

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
not wearing it right now but today's is from winners

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
depends on the cider.

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
no

50: Are you a good artist?
i am creative.

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
okay.

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
no as my life was not that great back then.

53: Ever been on a golf cart?
yes.

54: Do you have trust issues?
Yes

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
yes rioclaw
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
no what is that anyway?

57: Do you use chap stick?
yes

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
yes

59: Do you have a little sister?
Yes.

60: Have you ever been to New York?
no

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
i have never been told that by anyone other then family.

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
Yes.

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
i should have been sleeping

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
no.

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
yes.

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
i think so.

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
no

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
i would like someone to cuddle it could involve sex it could not i just would like to not sleep alone.

69: Will next Friday be a good one?
should be.

So it has been two years since I finish college. Now I am working on getting more schooling. The hard part is finding out if I can finish off the remaining credits I Ned to finish my BA. This will also make my masters a real masters instead of me being a freak who took his masters courses as I took my college courses. I truthfully is hard to put up with sometimes. The trick is handling my course along with opening my business. So far I have to take a business course, an accounting course, basic electronics, some teaching workshops, and an current media course. The joys of doing these courses online or at night is I can take them where ever I want. There are a few more courses I would like to take, but on top of this I am still going through phase one training plus I will be starting gigapan training sometime in the next year. I knew getting into this it would take to things: courage to do it, and a good resaon to do it.

For almost three years I have been working on my business plan. It has gone through countless rewrites, three trips out the window, and caused a mental breakdown or two. Now it is finally coming together meetings with investors are going well and they are excited to have the studio opening here. The complex part of all this is that my studio is the first of it's kind. The challenges are numerous as there is a lot to do and figure out. One of the major issues is that my studio is made to be cheap so I am basically undercutting everyone else in an attempt to help more start outs.

The next challenge is having the equipment I want in the studio I have already impressed the suppliers and company's of the equipment now it is the investors I have to explain it to. Not an easy task.

All this work charming people has brought a lot of attention on myself as people are watching me some calling me the next great visionary of my industry others going the a new Steve Jobs route (ya right) it just seems to be adding to the pressure i am under to get this done. with things getting close i am getting more excited and more stressed only time will tell how my plans unfold.

So Monday marked the end of my work with CCOPE. It has been a wild ride I have met so many fascinating people who believe that I am on my right path. I got to talk with industry reps may have a partnership deal with one got to try the phase one and play with one of their really high end models (only three in North America and I got to hold one.)

The compliments we got on how the convention was run were beyond amazing. I felt really lucky to have experienced this, but even more so to have helped. There is on complement I hold above all the rest it was one I got the day before the convention started. It was from my instructor we had gone out for a drink after they kicked us out of the college( this happened a lot during the weekend) he got a message from someone and wrote back "I am out having a drink with a coworker" this means so much to me as my teachers are my mentors.

The other job I did for this convention was organize the national student showcase. This was a job I had to do in one day. It turned out amazing it was great to see all the work people put in. It was the first all digital showcase, and I was asked if I could help do next years if I go.

The last bit is about the keynote speakers both where beyond amazing speakers who gave me so much motivation. They both stayed for the entire convention this is a wonderful example to me if I am ever a keynote speaker I will stay for the full convention. On the last day we had a portfolio review both of them told me that they really wanted to see my work as I was this totally odd and a amazing person. This made me worried to if I was good enough in the end they both told me my work was impressive and to keep on learning.

The con may be over but the lessons have been taken to heart. I leave with more passion, insperation, and vision to move forward in what I love to do.

How do you accept being one of the only people in world with your certifications. it sounds amazing to most, but in reality it is kinda a pain in the ass. It might have to do with the fact that I got it at a young age. I often believe that i just fell in to this. Now as I am moving into opening my own business I have three new certifications to get once i get them I will officially be one of top people in my field. The problem I see with this is that I already feel that my qualification all ready separate me from normal people with this the gap is just going to get bigger.

A - Age: 22

B - Bed size: queen

C - Chore you hate: i really can't think of any i hate.

D - Dog's name: N/A

E - Essential start your day item: alarm going off helps.

F - Favorite color: i like all colours equally

G - Gold or Silver: Silver is it really a contest.

H - Height: 6'7"

I - Ireland or Italy: Italy

J - Job title: Studio Head

K - Kid(s): n the cloning process

L - Living arrangements: two bedroom apartment with a roommate

M - Mom's name: Faye

N - Nicknames: can't think of any. i normally just get refereed to by description

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: once when i was 13

P - Pet Peeve(s): people who think they know my life, and are dead wrong.

Q - Quote from a movie: "i don't want to be a good man. i want to be a great one"

R - Righty or Lefty: both

S - Siblings: sadly

T - Time you wake up: 7:30 followed by half an hour waiting for my arms to work.

U - Underwear: something sexy

V - Vegetables you dislike: it all depends on how they are prepared, but i am not overly fond of pepers.

W - Water or land: both

X - X-rated or PG: *grins evilly*

Y - Yesterday's best moment: bed time.

Z - Zoo favorite: giraffes

So 2013 has been really good to me so far. First I became an accredited teacher. Meaning I can finally teach at the college level. Next up is that my business is getting in to the end phase of planing, and I will hopefully be opening up shop soon. Finally after about two years of being on pounced my add is getting hits. Over the last month I have met some really awesome people. It is nice to be able to chat with people on Skype all the time. Anyway 2013 is off to a fantastic start, and will hopefully keep on moving forward.

So i am hoping if everything goes according to plan i will be going to Fur Fright 2013. Today i was wondering that if while i am at the convention would people like me to give a lecture on photography (this is something i would like to do as it would give me more experience lecturing at conventions.) i just would like to get an idea of how many people would like to attend. if someone knows how i could get a hold of someone who could give me an idea of how to go about this it would be great (i am sick of having to hunt down peoples contact info i have had to do that for the convention i am planing).

my qualification are:

Canadian Photo Educator

Photoshop ACE, ACI, Forensics

Adobe Inspiration Gallery

Still Life Expert

2011 Graduate of Holland College Photography & Digital Imaging Program.

i teach at the local community school right now, and have been well liked by the program. i also teach Privet Photoshop lessons, small workshops.

just throwing the idea out there it is something i would love to try.

It is hard to plan overly far into the future. Even for someone like me who plans almost everything that happens in my life. I know that not every move is going to play out as planned some come out better others fall apart. Normally I always have a backup plan in case something goes wrong. even with all my planning, and determination looking at where I want to be in ten years is a scary.

In ten years I will be 32 right there is the first scary part starts. That is almost a third of my life. A lot can happen in that time. It has been a long road to get this far in my life to look forward, and try to plan for something that just seems so far away.

I think the best way to look at this is what do I want in life, and work towards setting that into a plan. I have done a lot, but there is still lots I would love to do. If I break it down to what I want personally, in my career, my education, and what I would like to have. It seems to get a lot easier.

I will tackle education first. I love to learn it is a big world full of fun facts, and cool skills. I am always studying, or trying to teach myself something new. I would like to have finished my bachelor's degree. I don’t see myself going back to school for this as I feel as I have moved on from that part of my life. I will most likely finish it online as I can work at it on my time, and work on other aspects of my life.

Next up is my career. I have spent the last two years planning my own business as my plans move closer I still feel as if I am unready. I would like in the next ten years for my business to succeed, and expand from advertising, rental, and teaching to include supply as well. If that is not enough I would also like to have a second studio open on the mainland.

The things I want seem to be the next thing on my list. In ten years I want to have my own house. I don’t mind renting an apartment, but I have been subject to a lot of the crap that can happen when renting. I really do enjoy that renting provides me with a safety net in some ways when things go wrong, but far too often I am subject to other peoples problems affecting where I live. If I had my own house yes things will most likely still go wrong but it will not be caused by the people who live around me.

Last up is what I want personally. I have lived the lonely isolated life, and it really does not bother me that much. Tho lately when I look at it I feel as if there is something missing. Loneliness, and isolation might be great for working, but my life does need someone to fill in the void. In ten years I would like to have at least found that person.

So the people who know me know that I have wanted to teach for a long time. Last year I got a chance to do so with the local community school. Most people thought I was insane for taking 40 students yet I pulled through, and achieved my goals for the class. My instructors were very impressed with how I handled my class, and the work my students produced. I had so much fun I told the community school that I was a going to teach the 2013 class as well. This year I have 70 students that is ruffly 1/3 of all the students in the school this year. I have been really enjoying myself this year as the improvements I have made to my course are really working well. This only partly has to do with my big news. As you all know I have been working with my instructors to help plan the upcoming CCOPE convention in may. To get into this group two things have to happen one you must teach photography, and two you must be approved by the heads of the organization. After reviewing my lesson plans, and work it was made official I am the newest member of the Canadian Photo Educators. This means that I am now a real teacher, and a recommendation for post secondary photography teaching positions.

, or i have an endorphin secreting tumor in my brain. this week has been awesome start to finish . Monday was the start of my new exercise program that is going fantastic. i also got some really awesome news (has to wait still people i want to tell in person). Tuesday was very laid back got the apartment clean again after the weekend. Wednesday i was teaching having a blast with my students. Thursday i went out and got a new hoodie then headed to my parents for a few days. Friday was an appointment with my doctor to see if new blood test will yield any answers that evening i worked out a new recipe for a cookie one of my favorite shows made up. it has got some attention from a few foodie blogs so i might have to do some more work with this. Saturday i got news that the convention i have been working on finally has a keynote speaker. this is a huge wait off my shoulders now i just have to get ready for the major influx of registration.

1. Are you single or taken?
Single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
I only get one?

3. Will you do anything special for Valentine’s Day?
Orders for my business.

4. Do you like anyone?
I like a lot of people some go beyond that others just maintain an annoying, but can't kill status.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
My bed.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
If I had someone I would.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
No. psychotic stockers too many.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Do emails count?

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Why yes I currently have him held hostage in my living room.

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
No

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
Waste of time.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Gross.

14. What is something you got last Valentines?
Fat.

15. Is Valentines depressing?
Pass the booze and ice cream please.

16. How is your love life?
*pokes with stick* dead.

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
No.

18. How many roses would you want to receive?
Depends on the roses? Am I being payed to photograph them?

19. Will you have a girlfriend this Valentines day?
No. I would just like someone to cuddle with.

20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
Not overly.

21. Who was your last Valentine from?
I have no clue.

22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
Not expecting any. Be nice if a certain something I ordered came in.

23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
I don't know at the moment.

24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
One for my mom

25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
Yes

26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
I can remember some time in elementary school.

27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
No

28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
No.

29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
No I don't think so

30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
None

31. What was the worst?
See up.

32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
No

I do writing exercise to help me write my business plan. with valentines day coming up it seemed that i was cursed to draw write a dating profile for yourself. to put it lightly i hate writing about myself. i am boring at least in my opinion. i believe anyone can do what i have it they put their mind to it. it was how i did it. anyway here is the end result.

Describe myself? That is a difficult question for me to answer I really am still trying to find that out for myself. I could go with the general description I get being that big tall guy, but there is so much more behind me then just my size. People often refer to me as an over achiever, impulsive, and a know it all.

None of this sounds right to me. I am not an over achiever I am extremely determined to meet my goals. I am not impulsive it is just people don’t see the countless hours I spend thinking, and planning out what I do. I am not a know it all I have a thirst for knowledge, and a passion to share it. Other than the misconceptions of me there is still way more.

I love to learn new things, and be creative it is a rare time I do not have a project on the go. With my love of learning is my love of school I teach a photography course at the local community school, and enjoy every minute of it. Not just for the wonderful energy, and passion my students have for what I have to teach them, but for what they teach me as well.

I know I am not without my flaws, and I do work to improve the ones I can. The rest I have been slowly coming to except the fact they are just hard wired in to me. It is just what keeps me as me. I may be a bleak realist, an insane nut case, and a tall accident prone klutz. It is just who I am.

At this point in my life all I really would like is to have someone to be with. Someone who I could be there for when they needed me, and vice versa. Someone who I could spend time with just cuddled together reading, or watching a movie. I know this someone exists now all we have to do is find each other.

My name is Daniel Cousins I am A: creative, insane, kind, passionate, hard working, ambitious, foodie, photographer, lifelong learner, student, teacher, and so much more, but the most important thing is that I am me.

So after finding out that running a photoshop night course at holland college requires a few very kind investors before they will even think about it. I have moved on, and am now offering privet lessons. The thing I find is that I could get a better market is I taught online. I just need to find a way to do it. So if anyone has any idea of how I can pull this off that would be great.

So over the past two weeks I have been busy with a ton of work from my two non paying jobs. My work with the ccope convention is really starting to pick up, and we are now looking for keynote speakers this has been very taxing on me as I am the one hunting down all the contact information. You think that would be easy, but it is really hard to track down people's assistants. Second is the teaching I now have 70 students so it. Is a lot of work just too keep up with reviewing assignments, and answering questions. It is totalling between 25-30 hours a week just for these two things. I have been working very hard on other things on top of all this as I am racking to finally get my business plan finished. Will all this I had a little mental break down. It was scary to go through as I have not had a real mental break down in almost five years. So I have got to start taking it easy or these break downs are going to start getting more frequent again. So in short I need to stress less, and relax more.

So I seem to be on a bit of a sci-fi kick so here are some random science fiction questions I would kinda like to what people will answer.

1. If you could live in any fictional universe what would it be?

2. If you could time travel forward or backward to any time when would it be?

3. What fictional piece of technology would you like to have.

4. What superpower would you like to have?

5. What fictional creature would you like to own?

My answers

1. Have to be Asimov's fiction I would love to live among robots.

2. I would go forward, not really sure on the date either to a time of peace in the human races rule of earth, or after we royally screw up and earth is left alone to recover. I think it would be really cool to go to a time when earth is restored back to a before human state.

3. Hard decision I would love to have virtual reality, but there is a temptation to have a neuralizer. I think I would go for exoneural robotic amplification.

4. Flying would be nice, but I think I would go for controls over electromagnetism that way I could fly and move objects (even if it is only metal ones)

5. Hard one to answer I would have to go with a centaur.