I don't know how it came to this... I had friends with whom I used to confide everything and I thought they were my best friends, even after I lost my best friend...

But now those people I thought I mattered with seem like I'm just a distant memory of what I used to be, I know times change you find another group of friends that are more in tune with your tastes and little by little you move away from those that maybe aren't, but even though I understand it I can't help but think what did it mean now for that person?

I know that no matter how much I love him/her I will never be more than a distant friend or maybe just an acquaintance, maybe that person feels sorry for me and that's why he hasn't finished distancing himself from me even though he doesn't care anymore....

I don't know, I would like to know or have the strength to confront him and tell him to his face that I am for him? But I'm afraid of losing what I have left of him, so I guess I will make this diary addressed to an anonymous person, that person will know, I want to imagine, if it is her/him I mean,

I for my part will be fine I just need some time to move on but it still hurts a little to see how something we had with strong ties has faded as if nothing and today is only a memory of what we were in our days of "glory" even if it was not those good times.

Merpy Christmas! :3

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I was thinking about whether I should write this but I think that while it is still 2020 I want to leave it in this year so as not to put it in 2021.

Yesterday I found out that my best friend who I had not heard from since November 25th and that the last thing I knew was that she and the family she was living with had contracted covid19... yesterday I found out and was able to confirm that she had passed away a little over a month ago, now, at least I know that she is resting in peace.

I wanted to get this out of my system because I needed it and because I don't know if I am being selfish but also because I would like to hear her words of support for those who are willing to give them.

Thank you for your time. And sorry for the inconvenience.

Spanish:

Estuve pensando en si debeira de escribir esto pero creo que mientras aun es 2020 quiero dejarlo en este año para no ponerlo en 2021.

Ayer me entere que mi mejor amiga de la que ya no sabia nada de ella desde el 25 de noviembre y que lo ultimo que supe es que ella y la familia su familia con la que vivia contrageron covid19... ayer me entere y pude confirmar que ella habia fallecido hace un poco mas de un mes, ahora, almenos se que descansa en paz.

Quería sacar esto de mi por una parte por que lo necesitaba y por otra por que no se si estoy siendo egoista pero tambien por que me gustaria escuchar sus palabras de apoyo para los que esten dispuestos a darlas.

Gracias por su tiempo. Y perdon por las molestias.

I don't usually do this almost never, but after reading that artist's wages I understand what is happening and it is something I live on a daily basis but much more minimized... however... I need anyone who can help this person and want to do it, do it... I know that what that artist is living is horrible... and dangerous... and that is why I want to help her by dinning.

https://www.deviantart.com/klownych.....hare-809977899

Spanish:

Yo no suelo hacer esto casi nunca, pero luego de leer el jornal de esa artista comprendo bien por lo que está pasando y es algo que vivo a diario pero mucho más minimizado... como sea... necesito que cualquiera que pueda ayudar a esta persona y quiera hacerlo, lo haga... se que lo que esa artista esta viviendo es horrible... y peligroso... y es por eso que quiero ayudarla dinfundiendo.

https://www.deviantart.com/klownych.....hare-809977899

Half an hour ago, I learned that there was a leak of data on email accounts of 700 million accounts, as almost technical that I am and why it is my duty as a person I will leave a link where they can verify if your email was affected. If that were the case, the page will tell you the steps to follow.

https://haveibeenpwned.com

I found out about this from a YouTube that I still talk about technology,... I would pass the news link but the only thing is that it is in Spanish and I doubt most of you understand it. :v

Well some time ago I wanted to try doing this in a day's work... So here we go...

This way of making a poem... was developed in the Dadaist artistic movement... it is about each participant writing the first phrase that comes to mind on a piece of paper and folding it so that the next person can not see it and write your sentence... then when you put it together everything would be created a relatively interesting and funny poem at least for me.

then since it would be very cumbersome to do it that way on a website... it occurs to me the following way... everyone who wants to participate send me a note with your spontaneous phrase and I will put them all in one in order of arrival and post it as a Jornal... :3

You can put the subject of the note "Dada + the username" so that it is easier for me to find the names and that.

I've been absent with art because I'm very busy with school... but I just wanted to say that I did not leave... when I have more time maybe I can upload a doodle or something more dedicated... So be patient.

However I hope you enjoy the result of this... a Sincerely Bruno. :3

PS: have time until tomorrow. :'3

Well it's my birthday so happy birthday to me. X'D

Bueno... Hoy se cumple un año desde que conoción a mi mejor amiga... solo queria agradecer a algunos miembros del Fandom por despertar mi curiosidad y ganas de investigarlo por que si no fuera por éso... quizás no la hubiera conocido.

Primero que nada a Zukaro_Travon por la gran y interesante historia que tiene su personaje en su hoja de referencia en una pagina que no puedo linkear... Este me hizo pensar que este fandom no es lo que parece por fuera... y me hizo investigar...

También a ZorroRe más que nada por sus motos y dramas en el Fandom aprendí mucho sobre como deberíamos tratar a los amigos... y como se supone que debería de ser la amistad verdadera.

Y creo que por ultimo a GatoGris su cuento titulado "una amistad de verano" me gustó mucho... y en algunas partes me sentía identificado.

Y pues nada... gracias a todos por que si no fuera por ellos no hubiera conocido a mi mejor amiga. :3

in English:

Well ... Today is a year since I met my best friend ... I just wanted to thank some members of Fandom for arousing my curiosity and desire to investigate it because if it was not for that ... I might not have known .

First of all to Zukaro_Travon for the great and interesting story that has his character in his reference sheet on a page that I can not link ... This made me think that this fandom is not what it seems out ... and made me investigate ...

Also to ZorroRe mostly for his motos and dramas in Fandom I learned a lot about how we should treat friends ... and how it should be true friendship.

And I think finally GatoGris his tale entitled "a friendship of summer" I really liked ... and in some places I felt identified.

And then nothing ... thank you all because if it was not for them I would not have met my best friend. :3

Después de pensar un tiempo, creo que dejare mis investigaciones acerca del mundo furry, pues simplemente ya perdi el interes, creo que ya se todo lo que tengo que saber, y e aprendido leyendo, y hablando con algunos furrys que almito aver investigado a fondo, supongo que la moraleja aqui es: "hay personas que no nesesitan que la comprendan, solo que la respeten" y supongo que eso esta bien para mi. durante el pasado año gracias a mis investigaciones pude habrir un poco mas mi mente y con eso ser mejor persona de lo que ya soy.:3.

ahora me dedicare a publicar mi arte y esas cosas, como un hobby supongo. ademas voy a empesar con mi primer cómic, así que vere como lo hago. tambien modificare proximamente mi informacion de perfil, ya que planeo empezar a hacer algunas comisiones pequeñas por un bajo precio, y eso. y supongo que eso es todo..

un agradecimiento especial a la gente que conoci aquí y que me apoyo para que avanzará como persona y en mi arte. :3

in English:

After thinking for a while, I think I'll leave my inquiries about the furry world, I simply have lost interest, I think I know everything I have to know, and I learned by reading, and talking to some furrys I hope to see investigated thoroughly, I guess the moral here is: "there are people who do not need to understand it, just respect it" and I guess that is fine for me. During the past year thanks to my research I could speak a little more my mind and with that to be a better person than I already am.:3.

Now I dedicate to publish my art and those things, as a hobby I suppose. I'm going to start with my first comic, so I'll see how I do it. I will also modify my profile information soon, since I plan to start making some small commissions for a low price, and that. And I guess that's all ..

A special thanks to the people I met here and that I support for you to advance as a person and in my art :3

I'm trying to make a character who believes art online with my cousin. But ... who will not ask your advice ... be honest ... I'm afraid to ask for advice in this community .. why I think by not belonging to their sub-culture .. I'm afraid I .. I .. discriminate I never wanted to hide anything from anyone ... But ... I'm not a fursona because obviously I'm not related to those things ... I had the idea of ​​making a character that I thought would be fun and maybe I can make a story or Comic ... I hope to understand that this daily wage .. it just a question not want to offend anyone .. If they did not know me .. I'm sorry .. for having been led to believe it was another. ; ~;

Quería escribir este journal para disculparme nuevamente.

Porque al final por problemas en la planeación de nuestro encuentro con mi familiar, no pudo ser este domingo. es por esto que planee para mañana ósea octubre 10, que nos encontremos y así al fin poder darle color a mis FanArt.

Espero sepa disculparme mi buen amiga   Dazed-Faux pero no puedo predecir si también este lunes podre o no hacerlo.

;~; ojalad que si pueda,

y bueno nada tan solo quería infórmale a usted y a quien sea que le halla interesado mi FanArt que esta situaciones están fuera de mi control y no siempre puedo hacerles frente.
*abrazos* y lo siento. más que nada siento fallarte   Dazed-Faux ;~;

in English

I wanted to write this journal to apologize again.

Because in the end because of problems in planning our encounter with my family. could not be this Sunday.
It is why bone plan for tomorrow October 10, we meet and so finally able to give color to my FanArt.

I hope my good friend know apologize.   Dazed-Faux but I can not predict whether I can also Monday or not.. ;~; hopefully if you can, and nothing good I just wanted to inform him you and whoever finds him interested my FanArt that these situations are out of my control and I can not always cope.
* Hugs * and sorry, more than anything I feel let you down.   Dazed-Faux ;~;

Hola, lamentablemente debo informar que probablemente tenga que ser este domingo la subida de mi primer y posiblemente segundo FanArt coloreado ya que mi familiar no puede encontrarse con migo para trabajar juntos en eso, en verdad lo siento mucho y espero puedan perdonarme, pero lo algo por lo que necesito que mi familiar pueda estar con migo para que queda excelente por que quiero que lo puedan disfrutar y que no sea un trabajo a medias.

Personalmente debo disculparme con mi buen amiga   Dazed-Faux ya que siento que le falla a ella también. Lo siento amiga espero puedas disculparme y esperar un poco mas ;-;

in English:

Hello, unfortunately I must report that will probably have to be this Sunday uploading my first and possibly second FanArt colored because my family can not meet with me to work together on that, I'm really sorry lot and I hope you can forgive me, but something so I need my family to be with me so that is good because I want him to enjoy and that is not a job half done.

I personally apologize to my good friend   Dazed-Faux as I feel that it fails too. Sorry friend, I hope you can apologize and wait a little longer ;-;

Bueno quería informar porque voy a quitar mis sumisiones de anónimas de mi cuenta.

Debido a que por casualidad pude notar q uno de mis compañeros era el artista del dibujo del pony y posiblemente de esa especie de dragón, para n o afrontarlo y llegar a dramas personales en mi vida decidí en vez de hablarlo con el quitarlas para no pasar a mayores dramas. Bueno podría decir que yo tengo mis razones para hacer esto más allá de lo que dije pero creo que es la mejor decisión que puedo tomar. Lamento si a alguien le molesta que los quite.

in English:

Well I wanted to report that I will remove my submissions from anonymous my account.

Because by chance I noticed q one of my classmates was the artist drawing pony and possibly the kind of dragon, not to confront and reach personal dramas in my life decided instead to speak with remove to not pass major dramas. Well you could say that I have my reasons for doing this beyond what I said but I think it is the best decision I can take. Sorry if someone bothers to remove them.