I run a small youtube Channel.....
https://www.youtube.com/user/cuteEevee
... so feel free to pass by and take a look.

So far i am doing Homeworld and World of Tanks Let's Play's. Homeworld will be done sooner or later though.

Suggestions etc. are very welcome.

It's  MStuarn 's bday so make sure to give him a hug and browse through his scraps for old times' sake!

Happy Birthday my love.

So since i had "No EF this year." As Journal oin here for over a year, it's time to write something new.
We'll be at the EF next year, at least that's the standing so far. Since i can't efford to go to the EF, the EF decided to move here right next to were i live. :P Hotel will be 15minutes away from out home, so there's no excuse not to be there.
See you there!

So many 'no's this year. ... we just can't efford it and we're too addicted to other stuff to make comission or something. Also if you want someone to pay to build some ikea furniture for you be my guest!..... yes i'm mostly kidding here.

My point is, we won't make it to the EF. Sadsad thing.

... even thou i had the time i just didnt make one that year and i'm sorry for those of you who were maybe looking for one. :/ Dog took away what was left of my motivation. >.>

Merry christmas to you anyway, have a nice time!

...for the person you love?

I try to make that short:

I won't give into your Suicide crap, i have that from more than 1 person in the last month(s) and i somhow have to get that off my chest.
I won't tell you you are oh so valuable, i won't tell you i will care for you so much more now, i won't tell you i will have sex with you now to make you feel better, i won't tell you i will visit you to make you feel like i care so much for you.

What i will do is tell you that peoiple who actually suicide are full of shit and are stupid fucks. Everyone with a slight touch of intelligence will notice that that so called 'solution' is just a stupid way off attantion seeking, at least here in the furry community. Look around you, and you'll notice you have a roof over your head, and food in your fridge. Why do i know that? Because you are whining at me on the Internet, and that means you actually have a connection to it, and you don't get that if you're a hobo.

So you better shut up with your stupid crap, go out and maybe realise you can spend your time way better than with thinking it's all better when you're dead. Maybe you'll see that people, that you try to tell yourself don't care, would actually be pretty sad when you suddenly disappear.



Erm and sorry if that may sound a bit hard, i am just a bit tired of the whole topic. If you want to get into bed with me, there are easier ways to get that, or at least ways that have a chance of that. And yes i know i'm rather egoistic right now.

One more thing: People who really want to do suicide don't tell anyone.

So hey... my lovely mate had birthday today, so please give him a hug over htere. :) ==>
So long, cuteEevee

# We'll be at the EF this year. :)

Really...... does nobody ever got the idea and just go down by bending their knee's instead of bending over face down ass up?! It's not so hard if you don't want to get raped for a change.

Just asking because i saw this: http://inkbunny.net///files/full/0/.....esrawesome.jpg ... is it allowed to post Inkbunny links, am i doing anything wrong?! (*looks around paranoid*)

And i am just reffering to those who don't want to get butthumped, of course i know there are dozens of those around who TOTALLY ACCIDENTLY let her soap slip. :P

Oh and P.S. guys, you can wash with water just fine as well. ;)

Also Merry Christmas!

Interesting... i chat with someone and he sais "I wish i could be like you and Teddi." (Teddi = MStuarn of course)
and while i wait for an explanation for that i read a note stating: "Teddi and you are a good working couple, and i often think how good it must be to know what the other one really likes [...]"
...

it's interesting from my point of view, it has been a really... REALLY tough year.... when it was december 2009 i planned 2010 being a great year, not as sucking as 2009, i wanted a raise, i wanted Teddi to find a jobb quickly, i wanted to buy a dog from the money for the raise, i wanted my own office at work, and i got a spourtscoupe that i loved...... instead i got fired, i had to sell my car, i never got around getting a dog, Teddi denied himself from every application or afford to find a job... In his defence: This is the hard look on the whole thing, i know he fought a lot about it, i know he cared, but even with his medicin he couldn't get himself to do it, it's not entierely his fault, it's a sickness and we're still working on it....

my point being? From the outside you really only know whats going on in a couples life when they break up, until then it may be from deep love to "nearly crash landing" everything and you won't notice a thing if the couple doesnt want to, of course you may notice some arguments, you may have one of them crying on your shoulder (that's mostly me, the crybaby), but not very much people will admit that they are about to break up as long as it's not decided, and that decision is most of the times made only shortly before it's actually done.

Another thing..... If you're wondering... yes Teddi will be online to chat with you sometimes again, just be patient and give him time, it's not that he doenst like you, he still has a hard time sorting his things out.

So summed up for those who know us: I am happy i can tell you it is going uphill again, we've been through some really rough times, mostly financial, wich sadly have a direct way of influencing my mood and my wellbeing. We've been without work before but this time it was way better than last time. By now we are on a level were i know when i better keep my mouth shut, or the other way around, we know most of the other one's kinks and flaws and can deal with them. And we talk about stuff, we say sorry when we hurt each other, we know what small things count if we need to cheer the other one up. (Like Marzipan *g*) ... or get the otherone horny 0:). Also the whole sex thing still needs work, but it's also going uphill there. Yes i know you pervs want to know more... but i won't tell you here. :P

So thanks for sticking around. And i am flattered and honored that 'so many' (It's more than those 2) people look at 'us' like that.

I hope we can stay living prove that furrycouples can work. :)
It's been 7 years by now.

Teddi, i love you. <3

How furry you are?

Taken from Racnel-24 on deviantart

1. Have you ever howled at the moon? Nope
2. Have you ever barked at someone? Yes
3. Have you ever found yourself drawing or scribbling furry art when you're supposed to be doing something else? Yes, I did.
4. Have you ever worn an animal costume or tail as a child and pretended to be an animal? Yes
5. Have you ever eaten out of a dog bowl? Yes >.>
6. Have you been to at least one furry con? Yes
7. Do you like to look at furry porn all the time? "all the time" is relativ but yes
8. Do you RP or play second life as a furry character? rarely but yes
9. Do you own a fursuit or at least a tail? Yes, cat ears.
10. Do you know what all these words mean or have used them at least once? yes
11. Do you have at least 5 videos of you acting or doing something furry on youtube? haha, no.
12. Has your anthropersona/character been drawn in a furry porn type manner? yes
13. Are you well known in the furry fandom? no
14. Do you dream furry while you sleep? rarely but yes
15. Would you transform into your character/fursona if you were given the chance to live like that for the rest of your life? yes i would, just would need some time to pick wich charater to be.
16. Have you ever worn a collar? yes
17. Do you own more than 20 art badges of your fursonas or characters? no
18. Have you been to more than 20 furry cons in your lifetime? no
19. Do you think that deep down you have the spirit of an animal within you? no
20. Do you enjoy hanging out with other furries? Yes
21. Do you think we should have a furry run for president of the USA? A president can have whatever interest he wants as long asit doesnt influence his judgement. So basically yes, why not.
22. If you ever became rich would you own a room in your house that was just to display your fursuits or furry art? Yes why not.
23. Is your best friend furry? Yes, They both are.
24. Do your furry friends call you by your furry name in public? Yes, Even my normal friends do.
25. Have you been in the furry fandom for at least 5 years? Yes

1 to 5 = Furry wannabe.
6 to 10 = Furry newbie.
11 to 15 = Furry.
16 to 20 = Hardened Furry.
21 to 25 = Hardcore Furry.

Taken from  curator


I seem to be a Hardened Furry, thats good, hardcore would tend to go in the direction of "fanatic" and thats never good. *G*

I notice cockvore becoming more and more rare... and cuntboys and guys with boobs getting more and more. I won't judge what's good or bad, i just notice that.
Vore seems to be totally common by now. Not the "eww how can you draw / like that!?" it was some years ago.

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

I wrote a lemon, when i wrote it when i was in the tub (yes IN the tub, with my EeePC), in the tub because only there (well, and at work sometimes) i really get in weird moods, mostly for voilence and hard kinks and so i grab the (V)EeePC and type it down as long as it lasts....... now it's .... uff what? 4 month later and since i can't type everything while i am in the tub i make notes, like "he gets beaten, he gets raped, humphumphump" and then go on with what i have in mind precisely, like the surroundings or whatever...

Now i have a 80% finished Story, that in my eyes is good, but the damn sex szene is missing and i just can't get into 'that' mood again, i feel kinda ashamed or awkward when i try to type it down, it's really annoying. *sigh*

Also about one quarter would need to be re-read and maybe corrected but thats all not a huge problem.

......................... how un-furry of me that whole thing. >.>

... well it can't get much worse by now, after i lost my IT part of the job and became a storage worker i had to sell my car to keep the income above zero, or above a minimum of money to spend, last week i got completely fired. So now my mate and me are without work (again) and i can't get rid of the feeling that this year just hates me. I want to visit someone, but if it goes on like it does at the moment we won't make it there in the end since you can't just travel across half the world with a 1 week preparation time, it just doesnt work. Also i may just get the required papers and immunizations at the mere hope that it still may work out somehow.

Other than that..... i'm trying to finish up a story i wrote months ago but it's not easy to come up with inspiration, and i was never good with Sex szenes, or writing in general, but i try. At least i'll have time at hand soon.

The normal... "nobody really reads it anyway" thought comes to mind, but oh well...

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[x] You own a credit card.
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[ ] You show up for school late a lot.
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[ ] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[ ] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up. (i had to translate it thou)
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week. (Cola, yes)

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language. (i am writing in english here...)
[x] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[x] You can mow the lawn.
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 14 (uhh catching up now)

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up. (i do, also it's hard to try if it's written here already)
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need. (i CAN, i just don't always want to)
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] You have realised that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job. (i have realised that age has nothing to do with it, neither does your job)
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[x] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[ ] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL SO FAR: 22

[x] You have filed a tax return
[x] You have used a pay phone
[x] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd
[x] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store
[ ] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[ ] You still have and use a VCR

Total = 26

Who would've guessed. 1 year short on how old i actually am.

I havent read much about it yet, i just stole it from my mate... shamelessly i have to add.
"I guess it's pretty much the "Ask me everything" meme, only permanent." he sais. :P

http://www.formspring.me/cuteEevee

And now, on to bed!

I am so goddamn tired and done for. I could go to bed and sleep. But then my wonderful free time would be voided. You know the dilemma, and regret your decision to stay up when you sit at work the next day at 8am (or sooner) and are smashed tired.

... right now, i have absolutely no goals for 2010, wich sucks, i like to look forward to something but right now i can't. Maybe get the carnevals season behind me so that it gets a bit more queit at work again, the next 2 1/2 month will be a real pain in the ass.
I work at a online store for costumes and everything that you need to disguise yourself, may it be for fun or with movie quality products.

The thing is, we normally haven't got SO many packages, but in the next 3 month we expect about 70 000 deliverys that need to be send out, and to get them all out will be really hard. Compare for you: Next 3 month: ~23300 per month. Normally: ~3000 - 5000 per month. ;_; <.< >.< x.x

and christmas is dealt with. Is that good? Is it bad? It was relatively harmless, at leat i didnt visit parents this year, that saved me a lot of trouble. I have sweets here, some cake. Just need to get over to thursay and the next long weekend will come.

After that..... more stress coming with the carnevals season will be incoming at work... baah, i am really not looking forward to that. For those who don't know, i work at an online costume shop. And you can imagine that sales go up by THOUSANDS of percent at carneval.

Hi folks, thats just a quick rant about how stressfull your life can be.

I'm tired, and don't want to go to work tomorrow. Blargh. Yes you've heard that before i am sure, if not by me, then by a lot of other people. :P
I am in the lucky position that i don't get fired for being sick sometimes, i even can take 1 day off without reporting to the doctor and get it on paper, yet i am a proud....... well and sometimes icecold calculating guy, and i don't want to use that too much, also maybe i should... here and there a day off can't hurt.

I am happy Mr.Mate & Me managed to clean the flat up this weekend (because of a visitor), yet i still havent cleaned the breakfast table and didnt bring down the trash, and i wanted to do that... i just do it now............

have a good start into the week everyone, keep your head up, i try to do the same.

I just do this because my mate has done so... for the witty comments (that are indeed true) go see his journal at http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1033442

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Just check the boxes with X, and count your points. For every 'YES', check +7 points. For every 'NO', it's +0 points. Check the results at the bottom.
And DON'T TAKE THIS TOO SERIOUSLY. It's just for fun. ;3

You have more than 500 watchers.
[x] Yes
[ ] No

no..... yes!? wait what the hell. o.O Watchbacks kicked me up 70 watches in 5 months. Hmm okay that way it sounds not so weird.
Also depending on the rapidly increasing numbers of furrs here 500 isnt hard to manage anymore.

You get more than 30 comments per art.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

...and if so it's giftart from someone like my mate. And thats no problem.

You have more than 20 000 pageviews.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

13k... but considering the time i took for that it's more like 2000 in the same time 'others' needed to get 20k *G*.

Popular/Well known artist has commented and/or faved your art.
[x] Yes
[ ] No

Popular/Well known artist is watching you.
[x] Yes
[ ] No

You get A LOT of fan/gift-arts.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

Someone has copied and/or claimed your art as their own.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

Someone has pretended as you (in forums, etc).
[ ] Yes
[x] No

Many, many people has asked you for an art-trade.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

When you take commissions, there's a flood of people trying to get a spot.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

Never did so far. Also since nobody asked i see no reason to think much about it. :)

(FurAffinity only->) Your art has been used on the banner, or Administrator has used an avatar of your art.
[ ] Yes
[x] No

You only watch people, who are better than you. (inspires you to draw better)
[ ] Yes (but also good friends)
[x] No

Do you comment a lot? (clever way to get attention!)
[x] Yes
[ ] No



EQUALS TO: 28.


RESULTS:
68 to 98 points:___ HOLY CRAP! You really are one fabulous artist! No wonder you're so well known... *thumbs up*
40 to 67 points:_42_ Hang in there, and make more comments! You're pretty good, my man. Many have saw your art but there's many many more that haven't still seen it.
20 to 39 points:___ Weellll....how to say this. You're kinda' good. Heheh. There's a few really great images, but... Keep going! There's lots of stuff to do. *hug*
0 to 19 points:___ ...........Oh my god, you're terrib--- I MEAN! Ermmm.....You've got A LOT of stuff to do. Oh man, go to a drawing-school or some shit.... Damn... *swetdrop*

... so go ahead, and ask what you want.

Everything is going up and down at the moment, it's stressing me out, and irritating me.
Oh only my FA submissions they only o up... counting 32000 by now, i will hopefully take the time for them when i have off a few days next time.

After finally deciding i would like to have a Buck as 'not Pokemon Avatar' i noticed it became rather common for Furrs to choose one of these lovely Antlered creatures.

At least it's way more easy to find art of them. Which is good of course.

Also, back from EF 15, i made exactly *thinks* 2 new friends, so at least 1 out of 400. At least my mate got some people dropping by saying "i know you from FA!"

Well, let's see what happens next year if we have time/money/holidays to go there.