It's been a while I made a bigger journal entry and I can't say that a lot has happened since I'm still waiting for confirmation about my insurance and I also feel that I don’t have a lot to talk about since I don't have the resources to continue working with Heavenly Kyuubi or get back into streaming. I also wish to try and do other stuff with a computer like trying to develop a game, but I can’t promise much about that for now.

I just want to be sure, how many are interested in reading the Heavenly Kyuubi pilot comic when it comes out despite how long it has been since I worked on it?

And you might also be aware of it (and may be why you're not interested in my journals) but I'm trying to make my Patreon into something more than a glorified tipping jar, since I haven’t found a job that works for me it would be good for me to have a form of secondary income and I think I'm doing well with it and I hope you may consider supporting me on that site considering how I don't always have the time to do commission work (but commissions can still be nice).
https://www.patreon.com/CyborgLucario

And another thing I plan on doing when I get the computer and access to the files is to post the first chapter of Magus Doe on Newgrounds to let everyone see the start of it for free and maybe be interested in buying the other chapters. I also hope to get some feedback and maybe I'll get the motivation to continue with that story again.

Who knows what will happen, but I really hope that I will get my insurance and maybe I will get extra amount of cash which can help me get a computer (because I doubt that I will get anything back in tax returns this year, I'm j6st glad that I won't have to pay for any from what I have seen) and start working as soon as I can on those stuff.
But in the meanwhile I have resumed work on Journey of the Gnoll Queen which includes fixing grammatical mistakes I did in orevious chapters.

If nothing else I hope that you will all have be doing your best and until next time, see ya!

I made a new poll on Patreon for my supporters to help me out with future drawings. Feel free to join and take part to:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/what-will-i-draw-80087883?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link

So far this year it's going well, but I hope things can get better this year. I didn't manage to buy a new computer last year and while it's good that got a tablet that I can browse the internet on and draw digitally but I would still like to buy a new computer since I won't be able to finish the Heavenly Kyuubi pilot comic.
I have no idea how long that will take, but I really hope Ibcan get it, because not only do I want to finish the comic, but I also want to get back to streaming again.

On a lesser news, I did update my Patreon by changing the currency for pledges/subscriptions from American dollars to euros and edited the description for each tier.
If you want to help me out being able to save up for a computer (in case I can't get the funds any other way), or help out with bills.
You can find my Patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/CyborgLucario

If nothing else, I hope you're all having a good day and see ya!

Hello there. It's now New Years Eve and time for reflection and let me say that 2022 has been a rough year for me as at the start of the year I had problems with priorities and as someone who's brain makes me focus more on work or taking care of myself, I don't always take the initiative to start conversations with friends, which may have caused issues that should have been avoided.

Later when spring started I began to work on the pilot comic for Heavenly Kyuubi and the scripting actually went well and motivation was great, but later I got to be part of a friendship test by an irl friend that for some reason went on longer than anticipated due to certain factors and took away time that we all could use for other things, like my comic and designing characters for another friend's own project.
I somehow went on despite my other friends telling me that I shouldn't go through something that just exhaust, takes time, and receiving little positive feedback in comparison to bashing and being told I wasted my time with my drawings until I finally told them that I quit.
Sure, it might have been due to a reactive action of someone I had to tell that they shouldn't feel bad since they still have respect for me even though I haven't hung around with them for a long time now.
But despite the respect I still couldn't keep the computer I was borrowing which I had until I could afford a new one of my own.

And so, months went and I even started a few donation drives to buy a tablet to finally colour my drawings again. I also got to with the help of an administrator of the organisation that helps me out to get my life on tract with getting a stable economy and possibly a job, to sign up to get fundings to buy a new computer (and possibly a graphic tablet like a Wacom or Huion) which I would likely be getting around the 13th December.
Unfortunately... as the year is ending soon I never got it and have to try again next year, and I won't be able to finish the Heavenly Kyuubi comic until I have one.

It may be hard to please everyone and it's a lesson I seem to need to relearn a lot of times, but for those who still choose to be my friends and support me despite my flaws and I hope that next year will be better and that I will be able to make a difference.

Of course, there was also all the wordly problems going around that made it hard for everyone. Let's make the future better alright?

I know it's kind of late for an update journal, but it feels like I could talk about these now.

First off, I managed to buy a tablet two weeks ago on a Singles Day Sale, but when I got it, they sent me the wrong tablet meaning I had to call costumer service to return it and now I'm awaiting for it again.

I have also been raising the prices for my commissions again due to the economy in Sweden and how expensive food is getting, as well as expenses I really need to take care of.

You can see the new prices here (will make a new graphic sheet once I got the new computer): https://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario/commissions

But in other news, the latest visit to the doctor went really well and according to him, all the papers and documents regarding my periods at work training shows without a doubt that while I'm not incompetent that I still have issues on getting started on things at work (which also happens at home sometimes).
I will hopefully be able to get a stable income soon, though I'm still well aware that having a job that works for me would give me an even more stable income, but hey, one step at a time (even if one of the steps took a lot of time).
Let's hope that will work out for me this time.

And December is fast approaching as well, so I hope the rest of November will work out for you all and until next time, see ya!

UPDATE: Forgot to mention yesterday, but I got The correct tablet yesterday afternoon, hours after writing the journal. So far I like it, look forward to coloured drawings soon!

Well, I'm trying out a new option for clients to commission me.
Also includes new prices to test the grounds a little, which I'm doing because of the economic state of our world (at least in Europe).
I haven't put any new prices on flat colours or colours with shading due to the fact I still haven't gotten a tablet (I'm waiting on Black Friday for that), but I will update those prices when it gets active.

https://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario/commissions

I hope to make a new price sheet too since I don't know how many are reading journals.

I'm waiting for a sale to happen while I'm doing my absolute best in saving the money I have gotten to make sure I can get that tablet I want.
And drawing daily is going really well, I just hope that any other drawing can be finished digitally later on.

What else can I say... As I know, there won't be any Halloween party this year, therefor I won't be dressing up this year... Reminds me how I should go out and meet new people, I mean despite being shy and introverted, I'm not that much of those and can talk with people.

Another thing it reminds me of is how I haven't dressed up as much as Roy in years, and while I don't plan on abandoning him, I do plan to make a new improved head when I'm capable to and will be selling the old head.
For more info, see here: https://twitter.com/CyborgLucario/status/1584468972103405570?t=9NPMXkDm6bEPc3LxgOMQ0Q&s=19

I haven't made a journal this whole month as I didn't know what would happen this month, but I can say that while I was worried that the money I got so far from the WG donation drive will be going to taxes instead of the tablet I need, it turned out I read it wrong and I will be paying the taxes later, but I do wonder if I can afford the tablet.

You can still donate to the drive if you want to see me make digital art again. If you want to that is.

This week is also my last week at my work training location.
I have no idea if I will be at a different location or whatever else will happen. I really hope the next meeting I will be at will lead to somewhere good as I'd rather want a real job rather than more work training or whatever else they got for activities.
Moments like this makes me wish that I got a computer again and I could make money out of streaming (my main reason for streaming would still be to play more games).
But after the last week I will probably get some kind of long break which I could need.

I really hope October can make things better for me.

It's August and I'm still without a working computer, but the weight gain drive I'm running is going well, but I haven't reached the goal yet of this drive or gotten up to the €250 needed for the tablet I need to start drawing and colouring digitally again, but you can help that make it a possibilty if you want, plus you get to fatten up Cyborg-Lucario and his girlfriend, Roxane. X3

The current deadline is the seventh of August, this Sunday. Let's see how big they will be by the end of it. :3

Anything else? On a more personal level, I have been on meetings regarding work and I'm still unsure if they count as real work, but showing my artwork to them (not ALL of them) they did say that we can come up with how much I want to be at whatever workplace I would go to so I can focus more on drawings and writing.
I also don't think I have said it here, but I have gotten help with signing up for fundings to buy a new computer, but I will only know what's happening with that in October or December, you know, bureaucracy takes such a long time.
Other than that I don't know what's gonna happen this month, hopefully it will go well.

Hi, I would just like to remind people that my weight gain drive for Cyborg-Lucario and Roxane is still ongoing over at Twitter.
I do post the progress on other places like here.

And I may have posted the link to my Ko-fi page on each part, but I may have forgotten to say that to say that if you're gonna donate, tell me in the donation message for who should be gaining weight from each cup. Or if you buy an even number it you could make both gain weight from them. It all depends on whether you want a larger Lucario or a larger Cinderace.

Original tweets: https://twitter.com/BigGnollQueen/status/1545457974969262080?t=3Sn0bwmqNkfqMbvVg42RyQ&s=19
https://twitter.com/BigGnollQueen/status/1546888268263866371?t=g34oRTKONJSH2PSwXdzF_A&s=19
https://twitter.com/BigGnollQueen/status/1547299545993838592?t=94ok6tneGu6ERQChgJtxwg&s=19

Donation link here: https://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario

The deadline is July 31st, let's see how large this lovely couple will be.

I want to get straight to the point, after months of being part of a friend activity that stressed everyone, making me finally jump out of mt IRL friend group yesterday (July 3rd).
Despite everything, we still parted on good terms, but it also meant I had to hand back the computer I was borrowing, meaning I won't be able ro digitise my drawings, but I can still sketch and ink digitally, which means I can do those for commissions.
I also try to find a good way to raise money for a tablet that was recommended to me. I need to raise at least €200 for it, but I really need to think of a good way to do it, aside from commissions, Patreon and my merch stores.
I hope to announce something to later that could help help raising enough for that tablet, with getting a new computer coming later.

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/CyborgLucario?ty=h

Ko-fi: http://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario

Gumroad: https://gumroad.com/jackalland

Redbubble: https://www.redbubble.com/people/Cy.....rio/shop?asc=u

Teepublic: http://tee.pub/lic/0PMOekCYlSQ

I hope you will all have a good day my friends.

Hello everybody, Happy Pride month, make sure to keep yourselves safe as well as be respectful to each others.

Though the month is nearing it's end and there's a reason why I haven't made this journal earlier is due to something that started last month, something I have mentioned on Twitter and some friends, but let me say that in my irl friendgroup, the one in charge of our Discord server and the one who organize most of the things we're part of, but he felt like he still felt lonely and didn't get what he want (in general) and therefor put us all on tasks to see how good we are as friends, through methods that others I personally told to said was either very weird or came off as that friend is an assholem because I end up being in long calls where nothing is going forward, which is not helped by me freezing in places or doing something wrong.
Recently I we did at least came up with a deal where I didn't have to be in any calls and I can actually focus on my own projects, as long as I do something with the tasks.
He said that I'm free to suggest better benefitting deals, but the tricky part is to make sure it actually benefits both of us.

I do get why people would feel sorry for me, but I'm not the only one going through stuff.

It's gonna be Midsummer too, which hopefully means something fun. Maybe I'll be invited to the family for something fun?

Oh right, the Heavenly Kyuubi comic is starting to pick up again and I only got a few pages left and find a place to host it (again, it will be available for free) and I hope you will all like it once it's out.

And I may not have mentioned it earlier, but I got a Retrospring page where you're all free to ask me about any of my characters. https://retrospring.net/CyborgLucario

I hope what remains of June will be going well for me, and that eventually, the book I finished will finally get accepted by a publisher.

How are you all doing?

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Good morning or day everybody. It's now the 1st of May which means it's my birthday today!
Who could believe that this Lucario/Feraligatr/jackal/gnoll/robot animal would be 33 years old?

I don't know what to expect from today, good things I guess since I have already gotten a really cool drawing from a friend who commissioned someone to draw, as well as another who wrote me a short story.

The Heavenly Kyuubi comic is still in the process and hopefully I will get that one finished this month unless something happens that delays it further (something I hope won't happen).

With that said, I wish you all a good day today!

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I didn't think I would need to do another update journal this month, but... I'm having some expensive fees this month and will have to do some commission works. This may push the comic process further, but hey, as long as I'm able to afford vaccinations for my cat despite the fees and bills, I should be doing fine.

And when it comes to my birthday, I'm not sure what to expect, but it could turn out fine, as long as I get something I will be fine. (And if the eason finale releases on my birthday, then that would make that day awesome. X3 )

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An artist friend of mine needs some help with a VRchat avatar and will draw in exchange. You can see more details in his own journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10195306/

I hope he gets the help he wants. His idea for an avatar sounds cool and you can also give him ideas on what to draw in exchange, I would consider that a win-win (if you know how to make models for VRchat that is)! ^w^

(If there's any more that needs plugging I might update this journal)

I know it's late for a monthly update journal, but here it is.

First off, work training/practice at the city farm is going well though it did remind me how little time I got at home to work on my own projects, which is why I have been slow with the Heavenly Kyuubi comic (I do usually make updates on that project over at Twitter).
Another reason is that I have taken part in Helluva Loona Week, which you may have noticed, which I enjoyed as I love Loona.

I still hope that I might finish the comic before the end of April, but I will apologise if that doesn't happen.

I have no plans for an easter pic, mostly due to a backlot of drawings that I need to also finish, but it might be fun to make one.

As for other things... my birthday is as usual on the 1st of May, but I have no ideas what to expect for it, probably the usual with people visiting me, or lately, having to go to a limited garden party because too many people in my apartment can't be good during these times.
But if I at least get something nice for my birthday, then it should be a good one I guess?

Returning to the topic of Heavenly Kyuubi, I'm interested to hear what you think of that setting and characters? I do hope you will like the comic pilot once it comes out.

There's also lots of games that's out which I want, but my budget won't allow me to buy them all, though I guess I still got games to finish, I just need to find the time and prioritise myself better.

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Good day, it's in the middle of March (or close to it) and there's a few things I'd like to say.

First off, while I may admit work on the Heavenly Kyuubi comic is slow, I have still managed to draw several pages for it, but there's still more to come. Expect it to likely be released sometime in April.

Another thing is that it's possible I will be paying a lot in taxes, I may need to do some more commission works to ensure me and my cat will have enough to manage after I get to pay for my bills.
Contact me if interested in one.

On a lighter news, me and my irl friends have finally started playing D&D again on the weekends, while I may not be working on the comic on these days of the week, it's good to take a break from drawing and hang out with friends.

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A new month has arrived, and while the flowers haven't gotten to bloom yet, there's still other things to talk about. Like how I'm currently drawing the pages for the Heavenly Kyuubi comic pilot, something I hope to finish before this month ends, otherwise, expect it to come out sometime in April.

The comic will feature the robot family at the Heavenly Kyuubi corporation, but some do have more focus than others, that's something I can tell right now.

I may have gotten more time to work on it as today was my last day at work training/practice (still unsure what word to use) after two years and I will say that while I will miss my co-workers it's still something that had to happen after spending two years on it, making cards while also getting the chance to work on posters for myself and animations.
I know that sounds unbelievable but the fact is that we didn't get that many job requests after it first closed down due to the pandemic, which has made it hard to determine how much work I can handle, but I can say whenever I did get the job to make something for the work locale, then I did my best.
So what will happend next? They did say I may get a position at a library, but they also said it will take a few days after today for me to hear anything regarding that or if they got something else for me.

Other than that, I may hopefully get the time to work a little on my books on the side, hopefully get one of them published. The book was something I haven't talked about in a while, but I will see if I can get Tales of Brehnna published this year.

I may have time for commissions, though buying things from my Redbubble store may help too, I'm still trying to save for a computer, something you all might know is hard to get due to CERTAIN people hoarding all the good graphic cards.
Maybe I'll also be able to have money for other things as well, but we'll see about that.

Also, while I did wish Pokémon Legends: Arceus got some time to breathe, I'm still looking forward to Pokémon Scarlet and Violet. It's complex but I do look forward to new Pokémon games whenever they're announced. :3

With all that said, I hope you're all doing well.

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I was originally gonna work some more on the deer art pack, but I think my focus will primarly be on a comic project that stars my robot characters from the Heavenly Kyuubi setting, it's gonna be an issue 0/pilot episode to see what people think of it.


All the pages will be released on a dedicated site (if anyone got any recommendations, please tell me).


I don't usually bring up politics but you may have heard of the situation between Ukraina and Russia? I mean, it was already bad when Russia attacked other countries further down, but since Ukraina is closer to Sweden I have to be cautious. I just hope that the people in Ukraina can get the help they need.


Sorry to bring the mood down.

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It's the second month of 2022 and there's been some things that has happened.

First off, I got Metroid Dread from my big brother's wife and played the game on the weekends since that's when I got enough free time. And I know it may sound cliché when it comes to the latest title of any game series, but Dread may be the best Metroid ever.
Sure it's weird how you get the morphball and bombs near the half-way point, but the gameplay is still good and fluid.
I did originally want to stream it, but since my capture card makes the computer I'm using blue screen (for some reason), I haven't been able to stream, but at the bright side, when I do manage to get a new computer, I will be able to stream Dread and I won't be doing it blind!

And work practice is going well and this month is my last there, which I hope will be going well and help to lead me somewhere good. Okay, the exact date is the first of March, but to be technical, that would make it exactly one month of time.
I'm not done with the animation project I'm doingm which means I'll have to ask for a trusted link to a pirated Adobe Animate since I don't agree with Adobe's business practices like expensive fees for cancelling subscriptions and their support of NFTs (I would like to remind you all that NFT sucks, I will not go into more details since I'm tired of talking about every bad point about it).
When it's done, it will be uploaded to Newgrounds and Youtube. Or maybe just on Newgrounds since my videos on Youtube are gaming related and it would be weird for my subscribers there if they saw a video after years of no new videos that has nothing to do with games.

What will happen when my time at work practice is over? I don't expect to suddenly get a job right after I leave, so while looking for a job that works with me, I will also be able to spend more time writing my stories and scripts for a comic that I hope will be done in March.
The comic itself would be a pilot featuring my characters from the Heavenly Kyuubi setting, I would like to see what people will think about it, it's gonna be action based, like Magus Doe (for those who have read it), but unlike Magus Doe, this pilot comic (issue zero) will be published for free, just got to fix someplace for it to be posted.

I do hope I will be able to get some books finished and get a publisher interested in them, but we'll have to see when that will happen.

When it comes to art I have heard there's a new site named Buzzly, a site that I hope will not be dying like Weasyl, but I'm pretty sure it will be a lot better than what Deviantart currently is. XD
So far I'm just considering joining it, there's nothing confirmed yet.

Thank you all for reading, if you have gotten to this point then do tell me if there's anything you want to see more from me.

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I didn't make a journal yesterday as my mind was on other things, but happy new year everybody!
Let's hope this year will be good and maybe I will be able to afford a new PC.

I don't have that many plans for the year, other than push my works further and try to actually get my books published.

I have been working on a short animation starring my kickboxing cat Tabitha while at work training which has been going slowly as animation takes time and it feels like I can't focus on it too long but I can't say for certain if I got ADHD. I do hope to get it done this year at least.
I do wish I could be able to hire a voice actress for her, but the way my budget looks, my chances of hiring one is quite low.

Back to the new PC. If I'm able to buy a new one, then I will hopefully get to stream more regularly again. Maybe just one day per week due to work training and how they really want to test my limits for how much work I can take in a week (I'm thankfully free on weekends).
I may like to shift between my fursonas, but I'm still Alexis on streams (Cyborg-Lucario is still appearing as notifications, so he's not entirely gone from Twitch).

You all are already aware of ways to help me save up for a new computer considering I'm plugging them all the time. ;3

I hope you all have plans for this new year and I will see you later!

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Happy holidays everyone, especially to my jewish friends and followers since Hanukkah is this week, how are you all doing?

Work training has been going like usual though with the animation project I'm doing starring Tabitha, I would need a voice actress to play her, but sadly I'm unsure if I could afford hiring a voice actress and I feel awkward having to ask my friends if they can play her for free or cheap (also, it would not be fair to their time), which makes it even more uncertain when I will be finished with it, but when it is finished, it will be up on Youtube and Newgrounds.
I will of course tell you all in advance on Twitter when I will put it up to prepare you all for it.

Other than that I will still be working on my ongoing story, Journey of the Gnoll Queen. How do you all like it so far? If there's anything you'd like to tell me regarding it, please go ahead and tell me.
I will go as long as it needs, trust me, I don't seek to fill it with fillers but at the same time I don't want it to go too fast with the pacing.

And I'm also working on Magus Doe from time to time, and funnily enough I got ideas for another comic, more of a pilot that is that I will post on it's own site (Tumblr perhaps?), but don't expect it to come out soon considering everything else I'm doing.
Some of those things being holiday related, which you will also find as merchandise on my RedBubble and Teepublic stores.

Other than that? I hope you all will have a fun and safe December, especially if it's constant snowstorms. Have fun everybody and I will see you in the next journal, which will be next month unless I decided to write another journal.

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Hello everyone, I got some things to tell.
First off it's Gnollvember and therefor I will be doing stories about my fursona Alexis Strype and her backstory. I hope to release more than one once per week, but depending on the time I may have to continue the series even after November is over, just trying to keep things realistic.
I hope you all look forward to those stories, and don't worry, there's gonna be images accompanying them.


Something not related to gnolls or hyenas is my work training which puts me on more hours, which means I will be coming home later, unless I get a day off.
And as you can understand so does that give me less time to work on my projects, I hope you understand that will make my drawings take longer to get done, especially when I'm writing stories for them.
I may still find time for commissions, though I may limit it to four slots to manage my time better.

Wow, and I'm also trying to work some more on Magus Doe as well, which if I'm lucky will be finished before 2022.

That's all for me right now, I hope you will have a good day and remember to hug your hyena, especially a certain big one. ;3

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Originally written on Twitter, but I thought I needed to put it here as well.

I want to apologize for being so slow with the fourth issue of Magus Doe. Maybe I should release the first three issues for free? It may be I have no motivation since people seem like they don't want to pay for comics. I can only hope whatever people say will make me feel better.

I have no idea where to post them. The first place I hosted the comics had a monthly fee but since no one apparently didn't want to buy it then so did I look for an alternative and found Gumroad which doesn't have a monthly fee. Posting it somewhere for free is another thing.

I'll keep my ears and eyes open for any advice you may have.

If you somehow have missed out on my comics, you can find them here: https://app.gumroad.com/jackalland

If you like action, magic, superheroes and cute anthro girls then Magical Guardian Magus Doe might be the right one for you!

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When I prepared for my stream today so did the computer crash, twice!
This killed my mood in streaming and therefor it's cancelled.

This makes me want to get a new computer even more, but I also need a new phone, and trust me I'm trying to find a job even though it's hard.

In the meantime so do I have to survive with just the little money I get which is all going to bills and food, and also occasionally commission money.
For those who commission me, thank you so very much, you're of much help.

I could ask you all to commission me, but I may not have the time to do all of your commissions, though you may still ask if you want.
Some other options is to buy my merchandise on Redbubble or Teepublic: https://www.redbubble.com/people/Cyborg-Lucario/shop?asc=u
http://tee.pub/lic/0PMOekCYlSQ

I have thought about making some kind of themed donation drive, whether it's about weight gain or something other fetishy, maybe it's not gonna have anything fetishy at all?
The only reason I haven't done it earlier is because I have no idea if any of you, my watchers, would be interested in such a thing.
Would you be interested in donating to see a character of mine grow bigger?
Could you please answer that?
You would be donating using Ko-fi in that case.

I do have a patreon as well, which I mostly treat as a tip jar of some kind, but it's still something to consider at least. If you like my art and want to support me, you can do that in whatever way you want. It's the thought that counts after all.

Trust me, I didn't plan on this kind of journal, I just wanted to stream Deltarune and battling Jevil for everyone to see, but I guess I wasn't allowed to do that.

Do with it however you like, I hope you at least have a good day my friends.

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