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hey life update
General | Posted 9 years agookay i know not a lot of people really follow my stuff here or on any social media for that matter - i kinda cater to all my relationships individually in private - but hey just figured i'd make a big communal post and leave it up for some people over here to see.
i've been better, i've been very depressive lately and i've been diagnosed with scoliosis, but school-wise i'm doing pretty good. more and more lately i've become distant with all of my irl friends, none of us really talk much anymore and we've seemed to take different paths. my online relationships have been great though, i'm headed out to visit some friends in finland this summer and i've been talking with a lot of really great people - though none of them are really from here. sexually i've figured myself out and it feels good. i've been more open about my feelings with people i consider trustworthy.
in school i've been doing good aside from a few courses i'm really struggling in, but i've been doing all my work for once and it feels great. i'm driving and will have my license really soon. will likely be getting a job after i push through all my classes this year. looking into colleges right now, everyone wants me to do something different with myself and i've been under a lot of pressure to make the right choice but i'm afraid i won't and will struggle to pay off my debt forever, unhappily.
art's been stressful, i don't like anything i produce and it hasn't been fun for me recently. people have been showing more and more interest in my work and i've been getting places and winning awards and scholarships with my stuff, but i've been really down on myself about it lately and i want to stop. maybe it's because of my ap art class that's been pushing me too hard. i don't really know.
with furry stuff i've been having a lot of trouble, i don't like drawing furry art anymore and it feels like a chore. nobody appreciates it and i feel i'm no good at it. i'm still very interested in the community and all but i've just been super pessimistic about my involvement with it; nobody seems to care for it and even i don't find myself relating to the community as much as i used to. it's been mostly a private thing me and some friends like, across a few different platforms. idk, i'll see where i go with it, maybe i'll pick it up again when time frees up and i'm no longer a ball of anxiety.
so yeah, that's me. i guess this is more of a vent than i thought it would be, it seems to be pretty negative but that's truthfully just where i'm at right now. from an outside perspective i'm doing great; i've been talking a lot and doing my work and getting places with my art, but internally i've been having some struggles. hope you guys can understand my absence from here and my reserved nature on social media now. i'm always online and up to chatting so gimme a holler if you need anything, i just don't do a lot in terms of promoting myself.
i've been better, i've been very depressive lately and i've been diagnosed with scoliosis, but school-wise i'm doing pretty good. more and more lately i've become distant with all of my irl friends, none of us really talk much anymore and we've seemed to take different paths. my online relationships have been great though, i'm headed out to visit some friends in finland this summer and i've been talking with a lot of really great people - though none of them are really from here. sexually i've figured myself out and it feels good. i've been more open about my feelings with people i consider trustworthy.
in school i've been doing good aside from a few courses i'm really struggling in, but i've been doing all my work for once and it feels great. i'm driving and will have my license really soon. will likely be getting a job after i push through all my classes this year. looking into colleges right now, everyone wants me to do something different with myself and i've been under a lot of pressure to make the right choice but i'm afraid i won't and will struggle to pay off my debt forever, unhappily.
art's been stressful, i don't like anything i produce and it hasn't been fun for me recently. people have been showing more and more interest in my work and i've been getting places and winning awards and scholarships with my stuff, but i've been really down on myself about it lately and i want to stop. maybe it's because of my ap art class that's been pushing me too hard. i don't really know.
with furry stuff i've been having a lot of trouble, i don't like drawing furry art anymore and it feels like a chore. nobody appreciates it and i feel i'm no good at it. i'm still very interested in the community and all but i've just been super pessimistic about my involvement with it; nobody seems to care for it and even i don't find myself relating to the community as much as i used to. it's been mostly a private thing me and some friends like, across a few different platforms. idk, i'll see where i go with it, maybe i'll pick it up again when time frees up and i'm no longer a ball of anxiety.
so yeah, that's me. i guess this is more of a vent than i thought it would be, it seems to be pretty negative but that's truthfully just where i'm at right now. from an outside perspective i'm doing great; i've been talking a lot and doing my work and getting places with my art, but internally i've been having some struggles. hope you guys can understand my absence from here and my reserved nature on social media now. i'm always online and up to chatting so gimme a holler if you need anything, i just don't do a lot in terms of promoting myself.
