Howdy howdy!!!

Looks like it's been a little over a month now since I last made the journal about being burned out and moving.

I took the time to get everything together that I needed and focus on the move instead of having my focus split in a ton of different directions. I didn't know how badly I needed that time, I'm glad I took it. Now that the dust is beginning to settle I feel like I can start working on projects again!

Super excited to start working in the new space, it's a bit larger than my last one. Not to mention that everything is nice neat and organized now!

I've got some ideas in mind but I just need to knock the rust off and get back in the groove again. Regardless, I'm back at it again!!!

Much love <3

Howdy howdy again, didn't think I'd be writing a journal so soon.

I think I need to take a break. I'm just not feeling "it" right now and it feels like I'm trying to force myself into making art at the moment (aka: its turning into Burnout bebe).

I'm chalking it up to work stress, moving really soon, keeping up with family matters, etc. (ya get the picture). Just lots of factors chewing at me all at once. Art is supposed to be my escape from these things but it's starting to feel like a chore because I don't have any time to relax. Don't get me wrong I love working on new projects and sketching but when my head is running 24/7 the mental fatigue starts to kick in hard.

This has happened before when I worked at a papermill and just didn't have anytime to myself for decompressing. With that being said I'm not sure how long of a break I'll be taking. Might be a week or maybe a month or so, just want to be transparent so people don't think I just disappear off the face of the earth.

Regardless, I'll be back. Art has been in my life so long that I don't think I could imagine my world without it.

See y'all soon, much love <3

Howdy howdy again, long time no journal.

We're already halfway through January I can tell it's already going to be a busy one for me! I'm in the process of getting things ready for moving out of my current place and into a slightly bigger one soonish (probably in a few months).
It's always a process trying to get everything lined up and somethings never go according to plan but I'm excited to say the least. Biggest reason for the excitement is there's a small "shop" area that should be big enough for my screen printing press and I can finally get it out of storage!!! I'm really hoping to start doing shirts and prints again soon~
But that's a work in-progress in the background for the time being I have a few projects this year I want to try and complete:

• 5 short comics based around folklore/legends (I'm a sucker for myths)
• 10 Comics/pieces with Redd in them (I've got some ideas based around videogames)
• 3 Physical pieces of art (really wanna try and do sculpture)
• [Bonus] Learning Godot as a game engine and making a demo

This is my soft goal for the year and I feel like it's very doable. I kinda stressed myself out last year trying to finish a sketchbook, even though it was only like 76 pages. Regardless, this is my goal for this year. Just gotta stay focused and take it one step at a time.

Hope everyone is having a good day, stay safe and keep it up!

Much love <3

[Mild rant and tangent post, please feel free to ignore.]

I wish I could figure out why I feel like my art sucks one minute and then is on par with my skill level the next. Like, I fully understand and can get behind the "Art is a journey" spill but I don't understand why it never feels like I'm consistently happy with my art. (I've been drawing traditionally for close to +16 years now and digitally for +4.)

I can't even tell if I have a style like other artist do. Looking at other artist, I can instantly tell who did it because the way they do lineart/color/shading/composition is so distinctive. Me, I vary so much between things I can't tell. My lineart switches between being thick and thin constantly, my color theory is absurd, the shading techniques I use are all over the place, and my compositions never follow the same pattern.

I know comparing myself to other people isn't helpful because everyone is different, but it just feels like I'm doing something wrong. This is what I'm seeing though, so I have no idea what it looks like from the outside. Legit just stuck in the fishbowl of my skull. Maybe it's a good thing because I can be whatever I need to be, but the inconsistent nature of my art makes it feel off. I have no idea how to fix it beside making an instruction guide for myself and refer to it every single time I make a piece. Because, just like in real life, if I don't have a script I'm just going to wing it and see what happens.

I just like so many different things and have so many different ideas that they all leak out into one another. It's like a collage of random ideas, theories, and knowledge that just gets thrown into a blender but instead of putting it on "~puree~" it's set to "crush ice". I have no idea if I even "have" to be consistent with my art and maybe I can have multiple styles but "something" in me keeps telling me I have to have a style. If I didn't have a buzz cut I'd be pulling my hair out at this point.

I can tell that my art has changed over the years and I've grown as an artist but it's just been nagging at me more and more. Looking at art I did back in highschool and now I'm a completely different person. Looking at my art from 3 months ago and now I should be able to tell some sort of similarities, right???

Maybe I just can't tell. Maybe it's like reading the same word multiple times and then thinking the spelling is wrong even though everything is fine. I'm sure other people have this same issue and I'm not the only one but man is it disheartening.

If ya made it to the end of this ramble congratz, you deserve a star. Me, I need ibuprofen for the headache this is giving me.

Commissions are open again!!!

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Howdy howdy everyone!!!
It's been a minute since I've opened up commissions but work has slowed down enough for me to start taking a few!!!
I'll be opening up 3 slots, it'll be first come first serve~

I have a Terms of Service with a Form at the bottom of the TOS that can be filled out to reserve a slot. Here's the link:
Terms of Service - Read First before filling out the form

Slots may open back up if people fall through so I will keep my Furaffinity page updated along with my BlueSky

If you're interested after reading the Terms of Service, fill out the Form or email me any question you might have at deedossart@gmail.com, I might miss notes here so email is the best contact method for me. I will try my best to respond to everyone in a timely manner so I can begin working on art pieces~

Welcome to my FIRST ever commission opening!!!

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Howdy howdy everyone!!!
I'm super excited to finally be opening up commissions for the first time! I won't lie I'm a bit nervous but in a good way~
I'll be opening up 3 slots, it'll be first come first serve~

I have a Terms of Service and a Form that can be filled out to start the process that I can link below:
Terms of Service - Read First
Form - Fill out Second

Slots may open back up if people fall through so I will keep my Furaffinity page updated along with my Twitter

If you're interested after reading the Terms of Service you can fill out the Form or email me any question you might have at deedossart@gmail.com, I might miss notes here so email is the best contact method for me. I will try my best to respond to everyone in a timely manner so I can begin working on art pieces~