i've decided that i will clean up my gallery a bit.
i've also update my Ko-fi and Linktree.
i'll likely use
posty birb to start uploading again.

ope, still here. remembered my password ;w;

honestly i am tempted to clear out a lot of old art. i have it archived on my PC, but i kinda wanna clean up.

i have all the art baked up on my PC if people want the files for the work they commissioned/traded for.

i was in Philadelphia for 2 months being gay and trans as fuck.

i just kinda hate this site

i'll upload here and there but you're gonna find more from me on other sites

https://linktr.ee/d6016

(you'll find more content from me on cohost where i've been doing daily drawings and uploading them every 4 or so days, and also twitter)

sorry for being flaky
time have been tough!
you might know specifics if you've seen my twitter

anyhow... i'll try to be back to art an commissions in a while

decision made, gonna stick around to this account. i just might prune the old personal art with names on it and edit the comissions and gifts with my normal tag

lately i have been thinking of starting a new account here...
why though? i have such a history here and on other sites, i have built my base around these accounts.

but ever since i started transitioning, i have found it hard to... associate with who i was? i feel so separate from that person, even though it's my history.
it's kinda disarming to see a name i no longer associate with myself on my old art.
i've been thinking of just, leaving this page as an archive of my work and starting fresh with another account?
i have too many pictures to just, go back and edit my name out of every single one...

i'm not gonna take down or deactivate this, just... setting it aside.
i would appreciate the thoughts of other trans folks on this, how did you deal with this?

yeah i'm there too

https://www.pillowfort.social/D6016

all types welcome, bonus points to queer stuff

gosh, felt like i needed an update, it's been a few months huh?

so like, some realness, i am absolutely struggling with art while dealing with HRT!
but I'm still in a nice "i don't hate myself as much anymore"
i actually smile when i look in the mirror now :>
i have not done that in YEARS!

I've met some really cool queer people locally and was seeing a lovely someone for the first time in 9 years!
then they moved for work (I MISS THEM SO MUCH ESPECIALLY NOW) , but i am still in contact with them and i cherish what time i had with them :>
I've opened up to dating again, as i've gotten over some of my issues with affection and relationships, it's great!

I've been working hard to fight my anxiety and depression via therapy and hard work, it feels like i've been making a little progress, which is good!
oh i did a book cover for a friend, i'll let y'all know when that's up and ready for purchase :>

i picked up guitar, i'm slowly learning it's fun! i ordered a fuzz peddle... buuuuuut the pandemic like, has our shipping closed so most of us are not getting mail on the island... yay...

i finally got my hands on estrogen a month ago or so.

don't think i'm gonna go back, this feels right.

tl:dr at bottom


going through your old journals is a good way to to hate yourself, or to recognize how much you have changed.


i held a lot of flawed views, i didn't have a lot of worldly experience and i was making due with what i had.
i held some under the surface sexist and lgbt phobic views and shitty views on equality... and it shouldn't have taken nearly kicking the bucket to examine said views.

also i started talking to a trans friend about things back in 2016 and came to the conclusion, i'm more than likely transgendered.
the more trans folks i talked to the more i found people i identify with on some level i didn't really understand before.


so hi I'm Dee...or DeeDee if you prefer.

and who i was before is essentially dead, because i no longer... recognize that person? it feels like a completely different person and i don't know how to explain that better than that.

i mean i'm still confused as fuck about a lot of things regarding who i am, but eh.

TL;DR

i'm gonna transition into a lady
i'm sorry for any dumb shit views i held in the past, i was a kid with no world experience who thought thew knew more than they actually did, also the me from that time is dead :>

 deestraction

yeah i draw it sporadically but you can find it, it might be a while before i post anything there again but w/e it's there for you to enjoyyy