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It's my birthday ^-^
Posted a year agoToday's my birthday :3. Having a better birthday than I thought I'd have :3.
Also got a surprise birthday drawing :3. You can view it here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56975741
Also got a surprise birthday drawing :3. You can view it here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56975741
Birthday Next Week :3
Posted a year agoMy birthday is next Tuesday (the 11th) :3. Though I'm inching ever closer to 40 so not looking forward to that .-.
This fluff is going to Japan soon ^-^
Posted 2 years agoMy friend just bought tickets for me and him to go on vacation to Japan for two weeks between September 16th (arriving the 17th in Japan) to October 1st 0-0. The first week will be in Tokyo and the second week we'll be going to other places such as Sendai and Kyoto (still working on that). I'm happy as visiting Japan is something I've always wanted to do since I was a kid :3. Also, this is only the 2nd time I've been outside of the US in my life (first being going to the UK in 2018). I want to visit many places such as Akihabra and it's many tech and retro shops, the many great places in Shinjuku (as well as the LGBTQIA+ hub that is Shinjuku Ni-Chrome (新宿二丁目)/Shinjuku District 2), Tokyo Skytree, and many, many others. And on the second week, I hope to go to places like Fox Village (キツネ村) and Tashirojima (田代島) aka Cat Island (猫島) :3, and the many shrines and onsens :3.
The language barrier scares me abit, I know some VERY basic and broken Japanese (as Japanese grammar always trips me up), maybe enough to get by in certain situations like asking where things are (Xはどこですか? / X wa doko desu ka?) such as the restroom (トーレ/ to(u)re) and train station (駅 / Eki) , "How much is that?" (いくらですか？/ Ikura desu ka?), "What time is it?" (何時？/ Nanji?), "Where am I?" (ここはどこ? / Koko wa doko?), "HELP!" (助けるて！/ Tasukerute!), the standard time-of-day greetings, the numbers, and what-have-you. But ordering things might be daunting, as well as my biggest enemy: Kanji, making it a pain to figure things out... Thankfully in most of Tokyo, the signs also have English transcriptions printed on them and many hotels and ATMs have kiosks with English options, but many places don't have English menus or have any staff that speak English ^^;. I am sure though there will be people there that can help :3
Either way, I can already tell it's going to be super fun ^-^
The language barrier scares me abit, I know some VERY basic and broken Japanese (as Japanese grammar always trips me up), maybe enough to get by in certain situations like asking where things are (Xはどこですか? / X wa doko desu ka?) such as the restroom (トーレ/ to(u)re) and train station (駅 / Eki) , "How much is that?" (いくらですか？/ Ikura desu ka?), "What time is it?" (何時？/ Nanji?), "Where am I?" (ここはどこ? / Koko wa doko?), "HELP!" (助けるて！/ Tasukerute!), the standard time-of-day greetings, the numbers, and what-have-you. But ordering things might be daunting, as well as my biggest enemy: Kanji, making it a pain to figure things out... Thankfully in most of Tokyo, the signs also have English transcriptions printed on them and many hotels and ATMs have kiosks with English options, but many places don't have English menus or have any staff that speak English ^^;. I am sure though there will be people there that can help :3
Either way, I can already tell it's going to be super fun ^-^
Well, I got COVID ;-;
Posted 3 years agoWell, it finally happend. I caught COVID-19 ;-;. Feeling quite weak, shivering, sneezing and coughing, and whatnot :(. I just hope it goes away soon.
Almost my birthday :3
Posted 3 years agoMy birthday is on Saturday (the 11th) :3. Still not looking forward to getting older though ^-^;
Almost my birthday :3
Posted 4 years agoMy birthday is coming in 2 days :3. Though not looking forward to getting older .-.
Coming out as Non-Binary
Posted 4 years agoWell... I figured out I'm non-binary... I wish to use they/them pronouns if possible.
To be honest, I've been having mixed feelings of my gender a long, long time but I've always been scared to death to ever express it >_<. Mainly because things like being an asexual and aromantic only affects myself and is something that almost never comes up unless asked. But my gender expression? That's a whole other can of worms... I live in an area that is VERY much not LGBT friendly, especially to trans and non-binary people. So I was and still very much AM afraid if I ever present as anything other than a cis looking man that I'll be called homophobic and transphobic slurs, kicked out of places, potentially lose my job or the apartment I live in, or worst of all, assaulted.
I was born as male (AMAB). I always got feminine thoughts, and experience dysphoria (especially when feminine topics came up) and pondered things like "I'd look good in a skirt", "I wish I could have my nails done", "I want to curl my lashes", etc. But I always batted them off. Always kept it in the back of my head. Mainly out of fear of anyone ever finding out. I have social anxiety and this was very much on the top of the charts for it. This plus the dysphoria I was feeling from time to time has also been one of many sources of depression for me as well, but again, I kept quiet about it. Again, out of fear. Even lying to everyone I knew saying it's "out of the blue" (which I feel ashamed of).
I identify as non-binary as I never fully wanted to be a women. Such as I don't want breasts or curves, but I did like the feminine appearance and I always imagined myself doing feminine things at times. Even though with both genders, I don't really have much of a fashion sense ^-^;. I feel partially but never fully felt like a man. Several aspects of it never sit right in my head. I always hated machismo culture and the whole "being manly" thing. In fact, I hate gender roles and gendering things in general. I also don't want a bulky, wide shouldered manly body. I also hated having body hair on my arms and legs but usually prevented shaving it off out of fear of what others would think. I do have interests and hobbies that tend to be (as much as I HATE gender norms and gendering interests) labeled as "masculine" by some such as computers and tech, and gaming which I'll never give up. What I really always wanted to be right in the center. Androgynous. Thankfully, it seemed genetics were kind to me at least in one area here as I have a pretty thin shouldered, almost androgynous body. I've seen some who are non-binary start HRT (hormone replacement therapy) and my mind has pondered about it but since, as mentioned, I don't want breasts or curves and my dysphoria wasn't centered around my core of my body (outside of body hair which I can shave off and well, disliking my downstairs area at times but like I said, I don't like either genders), I decided against it as I can alter my appearance in other ways that are more fitting to me (not to mention HRT would have major and permanent affects to my body).
Non-binary... I knew of the term but didn't really read into it or searched people's experience about it. Once I did, I found: THIS is what I am. Feeling like a mix of the two genders... That's me! They also described sometimes feeling like they have no gender at all (agender), and hey, I feel that way sometimes too! It felt like a huge relief when I kept reading. It reminded the first time I read articles sent to me by my friend about Asperger's Syndrome and the great feeling of "this explains so much" I had. However, again, I kept quiet about it.
However, the last two weeks the dysphoria and the thoughts for some reason have went from about a volume of 5-6 in my head all the way up to 11. It might be possible things like depression medication might have done this. However, I eventually head a breaking point and finally thought, "I'm fucking kidding myself... Why am I doing this?! I have to finally tell someone". So eventually I did, to my best friend. He super close to me, like brotherly close, and has always accepted me for who I am. Even all the diaper and furry stuff. It was however, hard as hell for me to do. I only told him I was questioning some things about gender, and even that was hard to say. I paced around the room like crazy as he started to guess what it was. I was in my head, panicking like fucking crazy. He eventually said, "Non-binary?" and I nodded my head. He response was, "That's all? You don't need to be worried, you know I'll always accept you". He even asked "What should I call you?" I just smiled abit but in my head, I was jumping for joy. The walls in my head that was keeping this bottled up for over 12 years have finally crumbled.
I then told my internet friends on Telegram, and some on Discord. Almost all congratulated me for coming out and were very supportive. I couldn't be happier...
I'm just glad I can at least be myself. However, sadly, not publicly. Because again where I live, I can't express myself in real life how I want other than in my apartment with the blinds closed because as I mentioned, I live in a state and area that is not LGBT friendly at all, especially to trans and non-binary people. I also am still afraid to mention this to my family and where I work as I fear being shunned by my family or fired from my job. Only reprieve I might have if I ever wanted to express this beyond my apartment is a neighborhood of the major city here that's known to be LGBT friendly.
To be honest, I've been having mixed feelings of my gender a long, long time but I've always been scared to death to ever express it >_<. Mainly because things like being an asexual and aromantic only affects myself and is something that almost never comes up unless asked. But my gender expression? That's a whole other can of worms... I live in an area that is VERY much not LGBT friendly, especially to trans and non-binary people. So I was and still very much AM afraid if I ever present as anything other than a cis looking man that I'll be called homophobic and transphobic slurs, kicked out of places, potentially lose my job or the apartment I live in, or worst of all, assaulted.
I was born as male (AMAB). I always got feminine thoughts, and experience dysphoria (especially when feminine topics came up) and pondered things like "I'd look good in a skirt", "I wish I could have my nails done", "I want to curl my lashes", etc. But I always batted them off. Always kept it in the back of my head. Mainly out of fear of anyone ever finding out. I have social anxiety and this was very much on the top of the charts for it. This plus the dysphoria I was feeling from time to time has also been one of many sources of depression for me as well, but again, I kept quiet about it. Again, out of fear. Even lying to everyone I knew saying it's "out of the blue" (which I feel ashamed of).
I identify as non-binary as I never fully wanted to be a women. Such as I don't want breasts or curves, but I did like the feminine appearance and I always imagined myself doing feminine things at times. Even though with both genders, I don't really have much of a fashion sense ^-^;. I feel partially but never fully felt like a man. Several aspects of it never sit right in my head. I always hated machismo culture and the whole "being manly" thing. In fact, I hate gender roles and gendering things in general. I also don't want a bulky, wide shouldered manly body. I also hated having body hair on my arms and legs but usually prevented shaving it off out of fear of what others would think. I do have interests and hobbies that tend to be (as much as I HATE gender norms and gendering interests) labeled as "masculine" by some such as computers and tech, and gaming which I'll never give up. What I really always wanted to be right in the center. Androgynous. Thankfully, it seemed genetics were kind to me at least in one area here as I have a pretty thin shouldered, almost androgynous body. I've seen some who are non-binary start HRT (hormone replacement therapy) and my mind has pondered about it but since, as mentioned, I don't want breasts or curves and my dysphoria wasn't centered around my core of my body (outside of body hair which I can shave off and well, disliking my downstairs area at times but like I said, I don't like either genders), I decided against it as I can alter my appearance in other ways that are more fitting to me (not to mention HRT would have major and permanent affects to my body).
Non-binary... I knew of the term but didn't really read into it or searched people's experience about it. Once I did, I found: THIS is what I am. Feeling like a mix of the two genders... That's me! They also described sometimes feeling like they have no gender at all (agender), and hey, I feel that way sometimes too! It felt like a huge relief when I kept reading. It reminded the first time I read articles sent to me by my friend about Asperger's Syndrome and the great feeling of "this explains so much" I had. However, again, I kept quiet about it.
However, the last two weeks the dysphoria and the thoughts for some reason have went from about a volume of 5-6 in my head all the way up to 11. It might be possible things like depression medication might have done this. However, I eventually head a breaking point and finally thought, "I'm fucking kidding myself... Why am I doing this?! I have to finally tell someone". So eventually I did, to my best friend. He super close to me, like brotherly close, and has always accepted me for who I am. Even all the diaper and furry stuff. It was however, hard as hell for me to do. I only told him I was questioning some things about gender, and even that was hard to say. I paced around the room like crazy as he started to guess what it was. I was in my head, panicking like fucking crazy. He eventually said, "Non-binary?" and I nodded my head. He response was, "That's all? You don't need to be worried, you know I'll always accept you". He even asked "What should I call you?" I just smiled abit but in my head, I was jumping for joy. The walls in my head that was keeping this bottled up for over 12 years have finally crumbled.
I then told my internet friends on Telegram, and some on Discord. Almost all congratulated me for coming out and were very supportive. I couldn't be happier...
I'm just glad I can at least be myself. However, sadly, not publicly. Because again where I live, I can't express myself in real life how I want other than in my apartment with the blinds closed because as I mentioned, I live in a state and area that is not LGBT friendly at all, especially to trans and non-binary people. I also am still afraid to mention this to my family and where I work as I fear being shunned by my family or fired from my job. Only reprieve I might have if I ever wanted to express this beyond my apartment is a neighborhood of the major city here that's known to be LGBT friendly.
Today's my birthday! ^-^
Posted 5 years agoIt's my birthday today :3.
Almost my birthday :3
Posted 5 years agoMy birthday is in 3 days :3. I hope it goes well, especially with the all the stuff with the virus going on lately.
Today's my birthday
Posted 6 years agoIt's my birthday today! :3
Almost my birthday :3
Posted 6 years agoIt's going to be my birthday in 2 days :3. Though sadly I have to work most of that day :(
One week until I go to the UK
Posted 7 years agoI am going on vacation (holiday) to the UK next week and I'll be there for just over a week. I've never been on a plane, much less outside of the United States so I'm excited to go ^-^.
It's this big fox's birthday! :3
Posted 7 years agoToday is my birthday! I've had a really good birthday so far :3
Almost my birthday :3
Posted 7 years agoMy birthday is only 10 days away :3. Seems like the time went by so quickly ^-^;
It's my birthday ^-^
Posted 8 years agoToday's my birthday ^-^
Birthday is tommrow :3
Posted 8 years agoMy birthday is tomorrow ^-^. I hope it will be a great one this year :3.
Got a Switch :3
Posted 8 years agoI just got a Switch as a early birthday gift with Mario Kart 8 Deluxe. I'm enjoying it quite abit so far ^-^.
Happy New Year! ^-^
Posted 9 years agoHappy New Year! ^-^ I hope everyone has a great 2017 :3.
It's my birthday ^-^
Posted 9 years agoToday's my birthday ^-^
Birthday tomorrow :3
Posted 9 years agoMy birthday is tomorrow ^-^. I hope it ends up being a great day :3
Happy New Year ^-^
Posted 10 years agoI just wanted to wish everyone a happy new year ^_^. I hope you all have a great year :3
Merry Christmas from a non-believing padded macro fox :3
Posted 10 years agoI just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holidays :3.
I am an Atheist and you might think it's strange for me, an Atheist, to say this or to celebrate Christmas in any way. But it's actually very common for Atheists to celebrate Christmas. The reason for this is because the vast majority of us enjoy the secular and cultural celebrations around Christmas and we enjoy being with friends and family, gift giving and just having a good time during the Christmas season. For me, being with friends and family is a huge part of why I celebrate Christmas.
Majority of the modern Christmas traditions in our culture are secular with no relation to Christianity or Christ at all. Such as Gift giving, mistletoe, reefs, Christmas trees, yule logs, Christmas dinner, Santa, and many others. In fact, all but Santa have roots in the traditions of the ancient Pagan cultures in Europe based around the celebration winter solstice and as they saw it, the "rebirth" of the sun with longer, warmer days coming soon. The biggest celebrations that influence modern Christmas celebrations are Yule and Saturnalia. Yule is even still the word in some cultures (such as in Swedish and Norwegian the word is Jul, pronounced the same as Yule in English) and is used in some Christmas songs, such as the phrase "Yuletide Carols". In fact, the old beliefs and traditions of Pagan-based cultures shaped much of the elements of Western culture such as the name of our days and months being named after Pagan gods and goddesses (such as March coming from Mars and Thursday coming from Thor) as well as most of the names of the planets.
Hanukkah also just occurred as well and there are many secular Jewish people (aka Jewish people who don't believe in a god but follow Jewish traditions) who also celebrate Hanukkah for the same reason we Atheists do: For the cultural reasons and for friends and family.
This video here does a great job explaining why we Atheists celebrate Christmas and some of the history of the holiday. As well as slapping down some arguments against Atheists celebrating Christmas and the whole manufactured "War on Christmas" BS that happens every year:
http://youtu.be/kenbgMjRvlY
Despite the reason you celebrate this holiday, rather it be secular or religious, have a great Christmas and I hope everyone enjoys time with their families and gets some great gifts :3
I am an Atheist and you might think it's strange for me, an Atheist, to say this or to celebrate Christmas in any way. But it's actually very common for Atheists to celebrate Christmas. The reason for this is because the vast majority of us enjoy the secular and cultural celebrations around Christmas and we enjoy being with friends and family, gift giving and just having a good time during the Christmas season. For me, being with friends and family is a huge part of why I celebrate Christmas.
Majority of the modern Christmas traditions in our culture are secular with no relation to Christianity or Christ at all. Such as Gift giving, mistletoe, reefs, Christmas trees, yule logs, Christmas dinner, Santa, and many others. In fact, all but Santa have roots in the traditions of the ancient Pagan cultures in Europe based around the celebration winter solstice and as they saw it, the "rebirth" of the sun with longer, warmer days coming soon. The biggest celebrations that influence modern Christmas celebrations are Yule and Saturnalia. Yule is even still the word in some cultures (such as in Swedish and Norwegian the word is Jul, pronounced the same as Yule in English) and is used in some Christmas songs, such as the phrase "Yuletide Carols". In fact, the old beliefs and traditions of Pagan-based cultures shaped much of the elements of Western culture such as the name of our days and months being named after Pagan gods and goddesses (such as March coming from Mars and Thursday coming from Thor) as well as most of the names of the planets.
Hanukkah also just occurred as well and there are many secular Jewish people (aka Jewish people who don't believe in a god but follow Jewish traditions) who also celebrate Hanukkah for the same reason we Atheists do: For the cultural reasons and for friends and family.
This video here does a great job explaining why we Atheists celebrate Christmas and some of the history of the holiday. As well as slapping down some arguments against Atheists celebrating Christmas and the whole manufactured "War on Christmas" BS that happens every year:
http://youtu.be/kenbgMjRvlY
Despite the reason you celebrate this holiday, rather it be secular or religious, have a great Christmas and I hope everyone enjoys time with their families and gets some great gifts :3
Its my birthday ^-^
Posted 10 years agoIt's my birthday today ^-^. I hope it ends up being a great one =3
Birthday is only afew days away :3
Posted 10 years agoIt's going to be my birthday on Thursday :3. I just hope it ends up being a great day, even if I have to work on it ^^: (I got the day after off though)
Only two weeks until my birthday :3
Posted 10 years agoMy birthday is only two weeks away ^_^. I hope I have a good birthday :3.
