The fact everyone is blowing a fuse isn't helping anything right now. If I could refund you all right now, I would. If I could do anything for you guys right now, I would. I can't make money appear out of thin air, no matter how many angry notes you send. I am just one person, and I'm all alone in this situation right now. It's really hard for me to read some of the cruel things I've been sent. I'm being accused of scamming, when I was taking commissions for years and doing just fine, it was only recently that things started falling apart. I didn't want to take money and run, I was just not making enough to get by, made some very irresponsible choices, and now I'm really paying for it.

The fact everyone is blowing a fuse isn't helping anything right now. If I could refund you all right now, I would. If I could do anything for you guys right now, I would. I can't make money appear out of thin air, no matter how many angry notes you send. I am just one person, and I'm all alone in this situation right now. It's really hard for me to read some of the cruel things I've been sent. I'm being accused of scamming, when I was taking commissions for years and doing just fine, it was only recently that things started falling apart. I didn't want to take money and run, I was just not making enough to get by, made some very irresponsible choices, and now I'm really paying for it.

EDIT-Already Cleaned

I'm cleaning out my gallery so if you want to save anything before it's gone go ahead! :0

Alright so it came a little late to my attention that no has a clue what's going on and why I'm just suddenly not here anymore.

Almost a year ago now I quit my job thinking I could be successful living off of my commissions, and at first it was working out wonderfully. It didn't last for more than 4 months before I realized I would have to take on way more commissions and lower my prices to get by and before I know it I had way more than I could handle. That was kind of the biggest mistake I made and now I'm really paying for it, and some of my commissioners are now too... I thought things were going to turn around for me after I was offered a job at the local tattoo shop, but after some training they never called me back and I became so depressed that and I was and still am entirely sure it's because they didn't care for my artwork or me. And now I really don't either.

I didn't mean for things to get this far out of hand, but obviously now I have some work to do and a reputation to work on... Well I actually probably won't even be working on that, I will probably just payback my commissioners and take off to be honest.

For those of you worried about your refunds, I apologize, but I don't have the money to give yet, but I am working on it. Please don't yell at me, I've already heard it all. You have every right to be angry, there's no denying that, but biting at my heels isn't going to help us at all.

*PS- Someone still owes me $250 and that will go towards refunds.

A scumbag, and any other brilliant names you can think of :(

I apologize for not keeping you guys updated, I'm sorry for letting everything get out of hand, I'm sorry for being a failure. I didn't deserve whatever talent I had...

But I miss you guys... I don't know why I did this to myself... the pressure took me down and I've just lost all confidence with my work and myself...

If it makes any of you feel any better, I've been suffering a lot lately, as my friends know. I put on my happy face, but I'm just so tired, I feel sick...

I don't want to be the bad guy... I need help...

Things have took an unfortunate turn for me as they always seem to do just when things start to look up for me. Not even going to go in to it.

I've been very irresponsible and careless. I took way too many commissions and in the end I couldn't handle it. Especially the adult themed commissions which in the end I realized I couldn't mentally handle because some of them made me feel uncomfortable. I gave myself unrealistic expectations and I probably should of set myself due dates. Most of this I admit was because of desperation. I wasn't getting enough money to get by, and now I'm in the negatives and my fiance is taking care of me which is stressing him out.

I just can't do this anymore.

To anyone I owe artwork to, Please send me a note with your paypal email and the full amount that you paid me.

I won't be able to refund everyone instantly because I literally have no money right now, and paying bills comes first.

I already realize how unhappy this is going to make a few people... but I'm done... I'm sorry...

Sorry about my recent and sudden disappearance. I haven't touched my computer in about a week or so, but I wasn't on a vacation or anything. I was actually offered a job that I couldn't refuse so I've been using my time to do everything I can to keep this job. It means the world to me and I've been waiting my whole life for this opportunity. I'm going to keep quiet about what it is until it's a sure thing. Only a few of my close friends know what it is.

Because of this I will no longer be taking casual commissions, probably ever actually. Unless this whole thing doesn't work out, but then I may be too depressed to draw anyway. If I need to make money on the side I'll probably run auctions or sell designs from time to time. For the mean time I'll only be working on the art that I currently owe.

Anyways, hope all is well.

I'm looking for a relatively affordable badge($15-45), semi-realistic to realistic, of this character:
http://daexmos.deviantart.com/art/R.....Dusk-333085072

I need it to be laminated and shipped as well so please keep that in mind.

I'd appreciate any offers :)

Thank you.