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Anything Helps: ($120, at least $50 due Oct 2nd)
Posted a year agoI hate that I have to keep doing this. I don't wanna keep doing this. I wanna have my own income.
But I'm gonna be blunt and simple. The job hunt has not been successful. The movie theater turned me down. The two shops across the street turned me down. The grocery store turned me down. I have no income, and not from lack of trying. I have been trying, but no one's hiring. And I still need to pay my $50 phone bill.
But now I have more expenses I need to take care of. I had a meeting with a neuropsychiatrist, and he set me up with two prescriptions, one for ADHD and one for anxiety and depression. They're both about 20 bucks each, one's $21.53 and the other's a flat $20 but I'm almost positive tax will bring that up. I've got a sampler of the ADHD meds and I'm trying that out right now, but they'll only hold my fluoxetine for two weeks.
And on top of that, I'm running REALLY low on funds for my bus pass. I'm usually able to stretch it quite a bit, cuz I've been able to make $30 work for two whole months, but I'm down to my last couple dollars. Each trip is $2 ($1 on the trip there, $1 on the return trip) and I'm down to my last 8 or so dollars.
So, all together, that ends up being about $120: 50 for the phone bill, 30 for the bus pass, 40 and some change for the medication. ...there's also another 10 that I need to keep my email inbox open, but I won't hold out hope for that one.
Anything helps, I hate that I keep doing this...
Crazy to think it's been a year since I started asking for donations to help me get out of this house, and now... now I'm just asking to help pay my bills and I'm nowhere closer to getting out of this hell I'm living in.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
But I'm gonna be blunt and simple. The job hunt has not been successful. The movie theater turned me down. The two shops across the street turned me down. The grocery store turned me down. I have no income, and not from lack of trying. I have been trying, but no one's hiring. And I still need to pay my $50 phone bill.
But now I have more expenses I need to take care of. I had a meeting with a neuropsychiatrist, and he set me up with two prescriptions, one for ADHD and one for anxiety and depression. They're both about 20 bucks each, one's $21.53 and the other's a flat $20 but I'm almost positive tax will bring that up. I've got a sampler of the ADHD meds and I'm trying that out right now, but they'll only hold my fluoxetine for two weeks.
And on top of that, I'm running REALLY low on funds for my bus pass. I'm usually able to stretch it quite a bit, cuz I've been able to make $30 work for two whole months, but I'm down to my last couple dollars. Each trip is $2 ($1 on the trip there, $1 on the return trip) and I'm down to my last 8 or so dollars.
So, all together, that ends up being about $120: 50 for the phone bill, 30 for the bus pass, 40 and some change for the medication. ...there's also another 10 that I need to keep my email inbox open, but I won't hold out hope for that one.
Anything helps, I hate that I keep doing this...
Crazy to think it's been a year since I started asking for donations to help me get out of this house, and now... now I'm just asking to help pay my bills and I'm nowhere closer to getting out of this hell I'm living in.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
Anything Helps: Phone Bill ($45 due Sept 2nd)
Posted a year agoHeyyyy... so, remember when I said last month that that'd be the last time I'd do crowdfunding for my phone bill... yeah, unfortunately that job at the Cinemark never got back to me, and while there IS one other movie theater I could work at that's hiring soon, even if I was hired by them right this second, I wouldn't be paid soon enough to be able to pay my phone bill.
So, unfortunately, I do need to ask for help with my phone bill again. I'm really hoping that this month will be the last month I need to ask for sure, cuz I am really banking on getting that movie theater job. I've worked there before, the staff knows me and likes me, and getting hired there again is almost guaranteed.
But even if I don't get hired there, I'm also gonna talk to my case manager about getting a boring, low-stress customer service job. A boring job fosters creativity, and I'd like to get back to being creative and having the desire to draw and stuffs.
So, yeah, I'm really banking on getting a job in September and being able to pay my own bills, rather than relying on crowdfunding month after month... but unfortunately, I do still need help for one more month.
So, yeah, if you can give even a little, that'd help a lot. I just need $45 by the 2nd of the month... I am admittedly in the negative on PayPal by about $10, so that sets me back a little further, but I really hope this will be the last month I need to do this.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
So, unfortunately, I do need to ask for help with my phone bill again. I'm really hoping that this month will be the last month I need to ask for sure, cuz I am really banking on getting that movie theater job. I've worked there before, the staff knows me and likes me, and getting hired there again is almost guaranteed.
But even if I don't get hired there, I'm also gonna talk to my case manager about getting a boring, low-stress customer service job. A boring job fosters creativity, and I'd like to get back to being creative and having the desire to draw and stuffs.
So, yeah, I'm really banking on getting a job in September and being able to pay my own bills, rather than relying on crowdfunding month after month... but unfortunately, I do still need help for one more month.
So, yeah, if you can give even a little, that'd help a lot. I just need $45 by the 2nd of the month... I am admittedly in the negative on PayPal by about $10, so that sets me back a little further, but I really hope this will be the last month I need to do this.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
Anything Helps: Phone Bill ($47 due Aug 3rd)
Posted a year agoNot gonna go into too much detail this time. My phone bill is due again. I hate doing this, month after month after month. But with dad being out of a job as long as he has, and with the struggles I and my case manager have had to get me financial aid, I don't have a choice.
I've said before, I would get a job, but none of the job applications I've put out have been successful. I've either been ignored or rejected because of the arrest, but thankfully that should be removed once I'm done with clinic. It'll be nice to get even a part-time job again (there's a movie theater down the street, I'd love to work there).
But that's still a ways out. I still need to complete clinic, and I still need to correspond with the court... and for that, I need my phone. I need to keep my phone active so I can stay in contact with the court and with the clinic, and to be able to access the internet at home. I've explained this before.
But that being said, my dad did finally get a job again. We'll have rent again, and I can go back to getting phone payments from him for next month, and I can stop feeling guilty for crowdfunding. Hell, if I can get this off my record, I might even be able to pay my bill on my OWN.
In the meantime though, I would really appreciate the help. I need $47 by the 3rd of this month. Now, I do have an app called MoneyLion, which can help with about $25 of it, and I also have an extra $10 in Cashapp from last month, which would bring what I need down to a mere $12, but that's still not enough to pay the bill. If I can just get some help for one last month, I should be able to secure a more permanent means of income by next month. I'm really hoping the movie theater job pans out.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
I've said before, I would get a job, but none of the job applications I've put out have been successful. I've either been ignored or rejected because of the arrest, but thankfully that should be removed once I'm done with clinic. It'll be nice to get even a part-time job again (there's a movie theater down the street, I'd love to work there).
But that's still a ways out. I still need to complete clinic, and I still need to correspond with the court... and for that, I need my phone. I need to keep my phone active so I can stay in contact with the court and with the clinic, and to be able to access the internet at home. I've explained this before.
But that being said, my dad did finally get a job again. We'll have rent again, and I can go back to getting phone payments from him for next month, and I can stop feeling guilty for crowdfunding. Hell, if I can get this off my record, I might even be able to pay my bill on my OWN.
In the meantime though, I would really appreciate the help. I need $47 by the 3rd of this month. Now, I do have an app called MoneyLion, which can help with about $25 of it, and I also have an extra $10 in Cashapp from last month, which would bring what I need down to a mere $12, but that's still not enough to pay the bill. If I can just get some help for one last month, I should be able to secure a more permanent means of income by next month. I'm really hoping the movie theater job pans out.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
Anything Helps: Phone Bill ($27) Due July 4th
Posted a year agoSo a couple things have happened. My application into Transitional Housing was declined. I haven't heard back from DWS about financial aid. I've made several job applications and I've either heard nothing or been outright denied.
And worst of all, my wallet got stolen... AGAIN.
It had my bus pass, it had my bank card, it had my Food Stamps, it had my expired ID, any and all money I had was in that wallet.
Thankfully, it's not nearly as bad as when I lost my phone, not only because I'm able to freeze cards if need be, and I have my case manager to help me.
But unfortunately, I still need help paying my phone bill again. I was hoping I'd have some way of paying my phone bill this month, but I don't. Unfortunately, I gotta turn to crowdfunding again. I hate doing this... but it seems to work every time.
Thankfully, I don't need nearly as much this time. I was able to get some help earlier last month, and so I only need $27 for my phone bill this month rather than a whole $50. $30 is a good round number, and it's not much, but it'll help me get by for another month, help me stay in contact with the court and stay connected as needed.
I'm really hoping that, within the next month or so, I'll be able to get into Transitional Housing, and either a job or some kind of financial aid, but in the meantime, this is all I can do. Thank you in advance, and I'm sorry for repeatedly doing this...
One day, I want to give back to everyone who has given to me...
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
And worst of all, my wallet got stolen... AGAIN.
It had my bus pass, it had my bank card, it had my Food Stamps, it had my expired ID, any and all money I had was in that wallet.
Thankfully, it's not nearly as bad as when I lost my phone, not only because I'm able to freeze cards if need be, and I have my case manager to help me.
But unfortunately, I still need help paying my phone bill again. I was hoping I'd have some way of paying my phone bill this month, but I don't. Unfortunately, I gotta turn to crowdfunding again. I hate doing this... but it seems to work every time.
Thankfully, I don't need nearly as much this time. I was able to get some help earlier last month, and so I only need $27 for my phone bill this month rather than a whole $50. $30 is a good round number, and it's not much, but it'll help me get by for another month, help me stay in contact with the court and stay connected as needed.
I'm really hoping that, within the next month or so, I'll be able to get into Transitional Housing, and either a job or some kind of financial aid, but in the meantime, this is all I can do. Thank you in advance, and I'm sorry for repeatedly doing this...
One day, I want to give back to everyone who has given to me...
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
Anything Helps: Phone Bill ($50) Due Tuesday
Posted a year agoSo... you know I hate doing this. But I need help again.
You all were able to help me when my phone fell in the bath and I had to get it fixed. That was a godsend, I could never thank you enough for that. But now I'm in another bad financial situation.
My dad just quit his job. For the past year and a half or so, he has been the sole source of income between the two of us, because I have an arrest on my record and no one is willing to hire me. But now he's quit, which means he has no income, which means we don't have the means to pay for rent for the two of us, which means my housing situation is fucked. Now, I'm working with my case manager to get some kind of transitional housing situation sorted out, but there's a bigger problem;
My phone bill is due tomorrow. As I made it clear in the last post I had to make like this, my phone is my whole life. It's the way I keep in communication with the courts and the rehab clinic I've been court-ordered to attend. Because my uncle literally HIDES the wifi password from me and my dad, it's my ONLY access to the internet apart from going to the library, which closes early on Fridays and Saturdays and is closed on Sundays, meaning without my phone I have NO internet connection on those days. But not only that, it is the ONLY access I have to my ridesharing app, which I use to be able to get around town, most importantly it gets me to the train station so I can attend my drug tests. Without access to my ridesharing app, it's an HOUR from my house to the train station, and being disabled, that is not a trek I can just make every day. I made that trek ONCE when my phone was broken, and it fucked up my whole week, physically.
Normally, my dad, who has been supporting himself and me for the past year, is able to pay for my phone bill, but like I said, he just quit his job, which not only means he has no income, which means we have no rent, but it also means I can no longer pay my phone bill.
Without my phone bill being paid, I cannot make calls or receive texts, meaning I can't contact the court or the clinic. Without my phone bill, I can't access the internet, meaning I can't coordinate my schedule or stay in touch with my social circle. Without my phone bill, I can't access my ridesharing app, so I can't make it to the train station or to other areas I use to access the internet.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
My phone bill is $50 and some change. Thank goodness the taxes are relatively low. If I can just get $50 by tomorrow, I'll be able to stay in touch with the court, I'll be able to access the internet, and I'll be able to access my only means of transportation.
I hate that I have to keep doing this. I hate that I'm in this situation where I keep having to depend on the kindness of strangers. I feel like a leech every time I do it. But I also am surprised every time that, somehow, this actually works, and I can't thank you enough for your kindness.
One day, when I'm in better financial waters and I can afford to give back, I want to give back to all the people who have helped me over the years. I want to be the person who gives to people in need... cuz I know what it's like to be in need... and it sucks.
You all were able to help me when my phone fell in the bath and I had to get it fixed. That was a godsend, I could never thank you enough for that. But now I'm in another bad financial situation.
My dad just quit his job. For the past year and a half or so, he has been the sole source of income between the two of us, because I have an arrest on my record and no one is willing to hire me. But now he's quit, which means he has no income, which means we don't have the means to pay for rent for the two of us, which means my housing situation is fucked. Now, I'm working with my case manager to get some kind of transitional housing situation sorted out, but there's a bigger problem;
My phone bill is due tomorrow. As I made it clear in the last post I had to make like this, my phone is my whole life. It's the way I keep in communication with the courts and the rehab clinic I've been court-ordered to attend. Because my uncle literally HIDES the wifi password from me and my dad, it's my ONLY access to the internet apart from going to the library, which closes early on Fridays and Saturdays and is closed on Sundays, meaning without my phone I have NO internet connection on those days. But not only that, it is the ONLY access I have to my ridesharing app, which I use to be able to get around town, most importantly it gets me to the train station so I can attend my drug tests. Without access to my ridesharing app, it's an HOUR from my house to the train station, and being disabled, that is not a trek I can just make every day. I made that trek ONCE when my phone was broken, and it fucked up my whole week, physically.
Normally, my dad, who has been supporting himself and me for the past year, is able to pay for my phone bill, but like I said, he just quit his job, which not only means he has no income, which means we have no rent, but it also means I can no longer pay my phone bill.
Without my phone bill being paid, I cannot make calls or receive texts, meaning I can't contact the court or the clinic. Without my phone bill, I can't access the internet, meaning I can't coordinate my schedule or stay in touch with my social circle. Without my phone bill, I can't access my ridesharing app, so I can't make it to the train station or to other areas I use to access the internet.
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
My phone bill is $50 and some change. Thank goodness the taxes are relatively low. If I can just get $50 by tomorrow, I'll be able to stay in touch with the court, I'll be able to access the internet, and I'll be able to access my only means of transportation.
I hate that I have to keep doing this. I hate that I'm in this situation where I keep having to depend on the kindness of strangers. I feel like a leech every time I do it. But I also am surprised every time that, somehow, this actually works, and I can't thank you enough for your kindness.
One day, when I'm in better financial waters and I can afford to give back, I want to give back to all the people who have helped me over the years. I want to be the person who gives to people in need... cuz I know what it's like to be in need... and it sucks.
Car Accident
Posted 2 years agoI was in a car accident the other day
I could have died, but I didn't.
People say how lucky I am.
I feel unlucky.
I closed my eyes when the truck hit me, hoping for silence and darkness.
Instead, I woke up unharmed with my dad's car damaged.
Such rotten, rotten luck.
I could have died, but I didn't.
People say how lucky I am.
I feel unlucky.
I closed my eyes when the truck hit me, hoping for silence and darkness.
Instead, I woke up unharmed with my dad's car damaged.
Such rotten, rotten luck.
Update: Adoptables?
Posted 2 years agoSo, donations have slowed, I figured this would happen. A friend of mine and her artist friend got together and suggested the idea of creating a couple adoptables to auction; specifically some spooky Phobia-themed adoptables. It was a really cute idea, and it might help raise some money so I can get away from my bad living situation. I don't want to overcharge though, so I thought I'd set the starting bid at 20 and autobuy at 100 for each? I hate hate hate asking for money like this but... damn it, I need help.
So I'm gonna post the two adoptables, and the artist and friend have been asked to be credited as Bundew Arts, whom you can find on Instagram at this link https://instagram.com/bundew_art?ig.....VhN2U2NjQ0Yg==
Dunno what to hope for but I'm doing it.
So I'm gonna post the two adoptables, and the artist and friend have been asked to be credited as Bundew Arts, whom you can find on Instagram at this link https://instagram.com/bundew_art?ig.....VhN2U2NjQ0Yg==
Dunno what to hope for but I'm doing it.
I can't stay here anymore; Anything Helps
Posted 2 years agoI’m in a toxic household. My dad is transphobic, and does not accept me for who I am. He’s had his thoughts warped by bigots, but more importantly than that he is emotionally immature, INFANTILE even with his emotions. He is toxic, he is abusive, and though he tries his best to help me, his idea of help… isn’t.
I have suicidal ideations, and they get stronger every day, especially days when dad is home on the weekends. We keep several guns in the house. I think about ending it a lot, but I don’t want to want to kill myself. But the more time I spend here in this hellhole house with my NIGHTMARE PSYCHO dad, the more I lose the strength to hang on.
If I stay here with my dad too much longer, I am going to take my own life.
But I don’t want to do that.
I need to get away from my dad. I need to get out of here. But last time I tried, I had no money, and I ended up homeless, had to come back home. Fact is, I’m mentally disabled; I’m autistic, and I am dependent on help from someone else in my life to, for the time being, move on with my life.
Please, I’m not asking for much, just enough so I can get far away from this place and maybe find shelter somewhere. Maybe in the Pacific Northwest, maybe California… I don’t know anyone, I don’t have any friends… family, they’re sick of me.
$500 seems like a lot to ask of people, but it’s what I was able to live on the last time I was homeless, so if there’s some way I can collect that much I might be able to get out of here. I don’t even know if I need that much, it feels high…
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
I really hesitated to put this up on my tumblr, and I hesitate again to put this up here…
EDIT: OH MY GOD THANK YOU TO GCREEP for the big donation, it means more than you know. I've got a lil spark of hope thanks to you.
UPDATE: Update: So, donations have slowed, and I've decided to take what I can get and run. I'm gonna buy a bus ticket away from here, maybe the Seattle area or something, and go. I'm trying to get a ticket for the lowest price possible, but they keep fluctuating in price, and I probably could have gotten one for less than a hundred if I hadn't hesitated.
I don't have anyone to take me in anywhere, but that's okay. I'm hoping I can at least stay at the homeless shelter a while... maybe.
Bus tickets get cheaper if you buy them a couple weeks out, maybe that'll give me time to plan out what I'm gonna do when I get there.
I have suicidal ideations, and they get stronger every day, especially days when dad is home on the weekends. We keep several guns in the house. I think about ending it a lot, but I don’t want to want to kill myself. But the more time I spend here in this hellhole house with my NIGHTMARE PSYCHO dad, the more I lose the strength to hang on.
If I stay here with my dad too much longer, I am going to take my own life.
But I don’t want to do that.
I need to get away from my dad. I need to get out of here. But last time I tried, I had no money, and I ended up homeless, had to come back home. Fact is, I’m mentally disabled; I’m autistic, and I am dependent on help from someone else in my life to, for the time being, move on with my life.
Please, I’m not asking for much, just enough so I can get far away from this place and maybe find shelter somewhere. Maybe in the Pacific Northwest, maybe California… I don’t know anyone, I don’t have any friends… family, they’re sick of me.
$500 seems like a lot to ask of people, but it’s what I was able to live on the last time I was homeless, so if there’s some way I can collect that much I might be able to get out of here. I don’t even know if I need that much, it feels high…
https://ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
I really hesitated to put this up on my tumblr, and I hesitate again to put this up here…
EDIT: OH MY GOD THANK YOU TO GCREEP for the big donation, it means more than you know. I've got a lil spark of hope thanks to you.
UPDATE: Update: So, donations have slowed, and I've decided to take what I can get and run. I'm gonna buy a bus ticket away from here, maybe the Seattle area or something, and go. I'm trying to get a ticket for the lowest price possible, but they keep fluctuating in price, and I probably could have gotten one for less than a hundred if I hadn't hesitated.
I don't have anyone to take me in anywhere, but that's okay. I'm hoping I can at least stay at the homeless shelter a while... maybe.
Bus tickets get cheaper if you buy them a couple weeks out, maybe that'll give me time to plan out what I'm gonna do when I get there.
I might be trans? (Update: Confirmed. I am trans)
Posted 3 years agoWell, I mean... I don't know yet. I've been questioning it for the past couple years, what with my desire to get pregnant and all that stuff.
I'm a little too baked to put my feelings into words right now, so I'm just gonna say I'm gonna be trying on the label here for a couple days, to see if it feels right. Today was Trans Visibility Day so it seemed like an appropriate time.
I don't know if I'll commit, but we'll see.
UPDATE: I am, in fact, trans. As soon as I tried out the label, it felt right. As soon as I did that, I started remembering a bunch of warning signs from when I was a kid. I'm a girl in a man's body, and it's taken me this long to realize. But while I'm not happy about my current situation, living in a transphobic home, I know in the long run I'll be happier as a girl when I can get to a safe place
UPDATE 2: This is a safe place now. My dad and I had a good, long talk. He realized the error of his ways, and I came out to him about how much he hurt me, saying the things he said and doing the things he did. He acknowledged that what he did was wrong, and he's made it clear to me that he's trying to be as accepting as possible. With his acceptance, I was able to come out to the whole family, and I can start socially transitioning now, if I'd like.
Now here's hoping I'm not fired this morning XD
I'm a little too baked to put my feelings into words right now, so I'm just gonna say I'm gonna be trying on the label here for a couple days, to see if it feels right. Today was Trans Visibility Day so it seemed like an appropriate time.
I don't know if I'll commit, but we'll see.
UPDATE: I am, in fact, trans. As soon as I tried out the label, it felt right. As soon as I did that, I started remembering a bunch of warning signs from when I was a kid. I'm a girl in a man's body, and it's taken me this long to realize. But while I'm not happy about my current situation, living in a transphobic home, I know in the long run I'll be happier as a girl when I can get to a safe place
UPDATE 2: This is a safe place now. My dad and I had a good, long talk. He realized the error of his ways, and I came out to him about how much he hurt me, saying the things he said and doing the things he did. He acknowledged that what he did was wrong, and he's made it clear to me that he's trying to be as accepting as possible. With his acceptance, I was able to come out to the whole family, and I can start socially transitioning now, if I'd like.
Now here's hoping I'm not fired this morning XD
Streaming?
Posted 4 years agoHey, so... I play Among Us a lot.
If I started streaming Among Us, and maybe letting you guys play, would you be interested in watching? Let me know in the comments below.
If I started streaming Among Us, and maybe letting you guys play, would you be interested in watching? Let me know in the comments below.
Health Update (THANK YOU SO MUCH)
Posted 4 years agoAn update on my medical situation: My doctor was able to prescribe me some medication that, seemingly, has taken care of my speech issue. It's only been two days, but ever since I started taking it, my speech has gone back to normal... I don't know how permanent that is, but a month ought to be okay for me
I'm going back to work on Monday... if they even want me to still work there for how long I was off.
Thank you so much to DracoRogue1218, Tnargraef, Jaden298, and of course PharaohSauron, for sending me donations in my time of financial need. With your support, I was able to pay for my internet bill, my phone bill, various other life-related bills, and kept me fed while I waited on this stupid voice thing to pan out.
I promised you all that I'd be drawing something for you as a token of my appreciation, and while all of you said that wasn't necessary because these were donations, I'd still like to do them because I like repaying kindnesses.
I'm posting this journal, not only as an update on my status health-wise, but also as a reminder to myself to actually draw this time, cuz I made some promises in the past that I didn't keep. I still need to get to those drawings at some point
I'm going back to work on Monday... if they even want me to still work there for how long I was off.
Thank you so much to DracoRogue1218, Tnargraef, Jaden298, and of course PharaohSauron, for sending me donations in my time of financial need. With your support, I was able to pay for my internet bill, my phone bill, various other life-related bills, and kept me fed while I waited on this stupid voice thing to pan out.
I promised you all that I'd be drawing something for you as a token of my appreciation, and while all of you said that wasn't necessary because these were donations, I'd still like to do them because I like repaying kindnesses.
I'm posting this journal, not only as an update on my status health-wise, but also as a reminder to myself to actually draw this time, cuz I made some promises in the past that I didn't keep. I still need to get to those drawings at some point
Please Help (if you can)
Posted 4 years agoHi. So, I'll cut to the point.
tl;dr, I have lost my ability to speak normally, I have autism, and I can't qualify for disability for a couple months, meaning I will have no income in the interim. I don't like doing this, and I never have, but... I need help. If you can donate to my kofi here, you'll be saving my ass and I'll be eternally grateful: Ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
Here's the situation.
I am in need of financial assistance due to medical issues that have recently come up. I've been on sick leave from my job for the past month, and I just learned they are not paying me for my time off. I'm looking to apply for disability, not only for the condition I describe below, but also because I've been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder and have struggled with holding down a stable job for my entire working career. I also have Centralized Anxiety, Mild Depression, and I was diagnosed ADHD as a child; any one of those on their own is bad enough, but all of those together is a nasty combo. Thus, I applied for disability, but I won't have an appointment till the 16th, and I won't be approved for 2 to 4 months after that, if I am even approved at all. Let me explain.
A month ago as of yesterday at the time of writing this long-tweet, I lost my ability to speak normally. While I was on the phone at work, I suddenly felt a switch being turned off in my brain, and instantly felt a heaviness in my head, akin to there being what I've described as "a rock inside my skull", a fog inside my brain, and my speech became slurred. It has not improved since that day. I've seen 3 different doctors, I've had blood tests, I've had a CT scan, I'm scheduled for an MRI this Thursday, I've been given medication, and nothing has worked; doctors can't make heads or tails of it. The fog has remained, my head still feels heavy, and I cannot speak normally. This has prevented me from working at my call center job, and I've been off sick this whole time... and unfortunately, I am not being paid for my sick leave.
There is a distinct possibility that this newly developed speech impediment is permanent, and thus I won't be able to work at this job anymore. I'm in a position where I'm not able to work, but I can't be on disability either, not for some time. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I have no source of income for some time. I have rent and bills to pay, and I have no insurance, which means these medical bills are also gonna hit me hard, leaving me with even more debt than I already have.
If you can donate whatever you can spare to my kofi, link above, I'll be able to pay rent, my internet bill, my phone bill, and others, while I wait in the interim to apply for disability.
My rent is 450 a month, my phone bill is 40, my internet is 70, my budget for groceries is 400 a month, and an extra 200 for other expenses would keep me afloat. I know that's a lot to ask, but hopefully it won't be long; hopefully I can qualify for disability and go back to the independence I've enjoyed for months before now.
Thank you to anyone and everyone who can donate. It means the world to me
tl;dr, I have lost my ability to speak normally, I have autism, and I can't qualify for disability for a couple months, meaning I will have no income in the interim. I don't like doing this, and I never have, but... I need help. If you can donate to my kofi here, you'll be saving my ass and I'll be eternally grateful: Ko-fi.com/P5P5CVMJ
Here's the situation.
I am in need of financial assistance due to medical issues that have recently come up. I've been on sick leave from my job for the past month, and I just learned they are not paying me for my time off. I'm looking to apply for disability, not only for the condition I describe below, but also because I've been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder and have struggled with holding down a stable job for my entire working career. I also have Centralized Anxiety, Mild Depression, and I was diagnosed ADHD as a child; any one of those on their own is bad enough, but all of those together is a nasty combo. Thus, I applied for disability, but I won't have an appointment till the 16th, and I won't be approved for 2 to 4 months after that, if I am even approved at all. Let me explain.
A month ago as of yesterday at the time of writing this long-tweet, I lost my ability to speak normally. While I was on the phone at work, I suddenly felt a switch being turned off in my brain, and instantly felt a heaviness in my head, akin to there being what I've described as "a rock inside my skull", a fog inside my brain, and my speech became slurred. It has not improved since that day. I've seen 3 different doctors, I've had blood tests, I've had a CT scan, I'm scheduled for an MRI this Thursday, I've been given medication, and nothing has worked; doctors can't make heads or tails of it. The fog has remained, my head still feels heavy, and I cannot speak normally. This has prevented me from working at my call center job, and I've been off sick this whole time... and unfortunately, I am not being paid for my sick leave.
There is a distinct possibility that this newly developed speech impediment is permanent, and thus I won't be able to work at this job anymore. I'm in a position where I'm not able to work, but I can't be on disability either, not for some time. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I have no source of income for some time. I have rent and bills to pay, and I have no insurance, which means these medical bills are also gonna hit me hard, leaving me with even more debt than I already have.
If you can donate whatever you can spare to my kofi, link above, I'll be able to pay rent, my internet bill, my phone bill, and others, while I wait in the interim to apply for disability.
My rent is 450 a month, my phone bill is 40, my internet is 70, my budget for groceries is 400 a month, and an extra 200 for other expenses would keep me afloat. I know that's a lot to ask, but hopefully it won't be long; hopefully I can qualify for disability and go back to the independence I've enjoyed for months before now.
Thank you to anyone and everyone who can donate. It means the world to me
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Hey, so...I owe some people some drawings, huh?
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The Covid disaster really took a lot out of me, but I've decided I need to stop making excuses and just do the things I set out to do.
I'll update this as I go.
The Covid disaster really took a lot out of me, but I've decided I need to stop making excuses and just do the things I set out to do.
I'll update this as I go.
