To all of my closest, best and dear friends

I have come to realise after a long and emotional discussion with various people that I have no fucking clue as what to do with my life. I ended up yelling at my mother that I have no idea what I am doing or what I want to do with my life, that I don't know why I am here.

I realised I was not ready for college or anything, and am still unsure, I have realised I've had various influences that haven't helped my mental state.

Due to past things that have gone on in my life, I am not in the best mental state, I have no experienced things I should have and therefore do not behave with respect or love round my family, even though I think I am.

That is the basics of what I'm feeling

So I need a good long break from FA, and various others (Of which shall remain nameless) and so that these people don't panic it isn't

 vash-leon
 kikicocokitty and her sister
 Shushikitty
 Zencas
 atemal99

Please if you do contact me do not expect replies for a good long time, about a month or so I guess, not hundred percent sure

I apologise to one in particular, not wanting to scare him or upset him, and I will always love him no matter what

Good bye my friends, I'll see you in the near future

~Damien/Lucious/Finn

Here we go!

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.

3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!

Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- Yes
Been arrested? --- No
Kissed someone you didn't like? --- No
Slept in until 5 PM? --- No
Fallen asleep at work/school? --- Yes
Ran a red light? --- No
Been suspended from school? --- No
Experienced love at first sight? --- Yes
Totalled your car in an accident? --- No
Been fired from a job? --- No
Fired somebody? --- No
Sang karaoke? --- Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? --- Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- Yes
Kissed in the rain? --- Yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- Yes
Seen someone die? --- No
Played spin-the-bottle? --- Yes
Sang in the shower? --- Yes
Smoked a cigar? --- No
Sat on a rooftop? --- Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- Yes
Skipped school? --- Yes
Eaten a bug? --- No
Sleepwalked? --- Yes
Walked a moonlit beach? --- Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? --- No
Dumped someone? --- Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? --- No
Lied to avoid a ticket? --- No
Ridden on a helicopter? --- No
Shaved your head? --- No
Blacked out from drinking? --- No
Played a prank on someone? --- Yes
Hit a home run? --- No
Felt like killing someone? --- Yes
Cross-dressed? --- Yes
Been falling-down drunk? --- No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? --- Yes
Eaten snake? --- No
Marched/Protested? --- Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- No
Puked on an amusement ride? --- No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- No
Been in a band? --- Yes
Knitted? --- Yes
Been on TV? --- No
Shot a gun? --- Yes
Skinny-dipped? --- Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? --- No
Ridden a surfboard? --- Yes
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- Yes
Had surgery? --- Yes
Streaked? --- No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- Yes
Passed out when not drinking? --- Yes
Peed on a bush? --- Yes
Donated Blood? --- No
Grabbed electric fence? --- Yes
Eaten alligator meat? --- No
Eaten cheesecake? --- Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- Yes
Peed your pants in public? --- Yes
Written graffiti? --- No
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- No
Think about the future? --- Yes
Been in handcuffs? --- Yes
Believe in love? --- Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? --- Yes

Been a while since I've done one of these~


AM I...
[] Cute?
[] Funny?
[] Oblivious?
[] Amazing?
[] Sexy?
[] Weird?
[] Annoying?
[] Addicting?
[] Inspiring?
[] Scary?
[] A bitch?
[] Selfish?
[] A sweetheart?
[] A disturbance?
[] A good friend?
[] Your best friend?
[] The reason you get out of bed every morning?
[] A failure at life?

HAVE YOU...
[] Cried from missing me so much?
[] Laughed at me?
[] Wanted to hold me?
[] Wanted to kiss me?
[] Wanted to slap me?
[] Tried to avoid me?
[] Thought about me?
[] Had a dream about me?
[] Gotten mad at me over something silly?
[] Talked about me behind my back?
[] Thought there might be an us?

DO I...
[] Make you smile?
[] Make you laugh?
[] Make you sick?
[] Make you sad?
[] Turn you on?
[] Make you blush?
[] Make you lol at how retarded I am?

WOULD YOU...
[] Carry me?
[] Kiss me?
[] Hug me?
[] Make out with me?
[] Make me watch something with you?
[] Take advantage of me?
[] Snuggle with me?
[] Cry on my shoulder?
[] Slap me?
[] Shake hands with me?
[] Sleep in the same bed with me?
[] Instant message me/text me?
[] Talk to me on the phone?
[] Dance with me?
[] Slap me on the ass?

You and I are...
[] Enemies
[] Complete strangers
[] Acquaintances
[] Friends
[] Best friends
[] In love
[] In a relationship
[] Engaged
[] Married
[] Aliens

ARE YOU...
[] Glad you know me?
[] Gonna ask me to be yours one day?
[] Afraid of me?
[] Gonna ignore this?
[] Gonna pass this on so I can fill this out for you?

Hehe a good friend ish doing a raffle

 Lupeyroo so go have a look and watch him too~

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3054346/

This journal that you are reading will look like this:
As we all know, there is talk of a bill that is in hopes to pass... and that aursed bill is called "Stop Online Piracy Act". This bill will destroy our ability to express ourselves creatively, and it will damage the GLOBAL Rights to Freedom of Speech, Freedom of Expression, Freedom of Thought. If Passed, this bill will cripple our very foundation of Information and learning: The Internet. The Internet cannot be owned by anybody, but it seem's to me that the United States Government is trying to show power and control by imposing this bill through congress.

We Cannot Allow This To Happen!!! My Brothers and Sisters, We all must unite as One to bring this bill to an end before it goes through. We Must Sva ethe Internet.

For the Sake of Learning.
For the Sake of our Rights.
For the Sake of our Freedom.

The Globe will be affected by this, This bill will cripple our world if we allow it to pass. We Cannot Allow This To Happen.

Spread the Word friends, Spread it like wildfire so that it can be made aware of here on FA. Do it. For your Freedom.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJIu.....p;feature=plcp
Check out this Video, Show your support. Link this to anywhere that you can

I don't even live in the states and I want this bill to stop, I don't want the possibility of losing the internet if this is as bad as it sounds :s

Heya guys go on press F5

Check out my new icon, awesome ain't it ^_^

Well go check out  tigerprascire

You must do it I command it

 Zoeyskunk is doing a raffle to improve her drawing skills

If you want a chance at some free art have a lookie at this --> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2973296/

Check out the rest of her art too it's good

A little Update

I am doing a bit of a different order,

1) Amerika
2) Nihon
3) Roshia
4) Chūgoku
5) Furansu
6) Osutoria
7) Hangarī
8) Romano
9) Girisha
10) Toruko
11) Finrando
12) Suweiden
13) Supein

That ish it for now

I will be doing these as soon as I can, everything else I have been doing and what I said to people I would do is on hold but don't yew guys worry I will get that done, yew just need to be patient that ish all

 Shushikitty Ish doing a halloweenie Raffle ^^

Now there ish going to be 10 winners unless she gets 50 entries where upon it will go up to 15 winners, and if she gets 100 it will go to 20 etc.

So go have a lookie the wolf pup demands it X3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2842384/

 Shushikitty bless her sweet soul ish doing $5 sketches/doodles for the next 2 hours

Now why is it different this time?

well a few days ago her brother had a seizure, which left her really scared for her brothers well being, but thankfully he is alright now, now what kitty wants to do is to get her brother a hoodie that he really wants, and so she is going to try and get it

I personally think this is a really generous and sweet thing for any sibling to do for another

So please go join her on her stream, please if you can ask for one of these sketches yew will be making one boy who was scared for his life, very happy ^^

Thank yew~

https://join.me/853-997-453

(some more details are here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2800073/ )

Though I'd let yew guys know my Birthday ish coming up on Tuesday

Nothing else all that special about this journal, just wanted to let yew guys know this puppy ish getting older ><

wow I've come to realise I really need to put something in my header and footer of my journals x3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2790257/

Raffle prize ish a $50 piece of art ^^

Just something I found ^^



1. Who eats more?
Probably me, yet I am slimmer

2. Who said “I love you” first?
If I recall I think I did, I can't remember a lot went on that night

3. Who is the morning person?
I'm not sure, I reckon its me but I may be wrong x3

4. Who sings better?
We both sing and both have faults with our singing but as for who's is better is debatable

5. Who’s older?
That would be me by just under a year x3

6. Who’s smarter?
That depends on what subject as we have a variety of knowledge combined

7. Whose temper is worse?
that's me, I'm not proud of it

8. Who does the laundry?
We don't live together yet so neither of us, but I guess we'd both do it at some point

9. Who does the dishes?
atm I probably do it more than Zuzu

10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
I generally sleep on the left side of the bed, Zuzu has the right

11. Whose feet are bigger?
Zuzu I think x3

12. Whose hair is longer?
That varies

13. Who’s better with the computer?
Me I'd say

14. Do you have pets?
We both a pets

15. Who pays the bills?
neither as we don't live together =(

16. Who cooks dinner?
We are both capable of cooking

17. Who drives when you are together?
Neither of us can drive legally, but Zuzu is a better driver than i am

18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
Haven't gone out to dinner before

19. Who’s the most stubborn?
We both have levels of Stubbornness, but I'd say I am more stubborn

20. Who is the first one to admit when they’re wrong?
I hardly ever admit that I am wrong and sometimes I hate admitting it

21. Whose family do you see more?
Mine more, his parents are usually working and Zuzu comes down to me more often than I go to him

22. Who named your pet?
We don't own a pet together

23. Who kissed who first?
I honestly cannot remember as I have said previously a lot went on that night, I think it may have been me kissing him on the cheek

24. Who asked who out?
Over what has been going on I'd say I asked him

25. What did you do on your first date?
We haven't really been on a date before, when we planned one there were threats of riots going on in the town so it never happened

26. Who’s more sensitive?
I am in general, but we are both sensitive people

27. Who’s taller?
I am but not by much

28. Who has more friends?
Zuzu does

29. Who has more siblings?
Zuzu does, I only have a Bro

30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
Hehe that would be Zuzu by far *giggles*

Go here for the chance for some free arts ^^
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2765338/

Homophobia means:

* I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

* I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

* I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

* We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

* I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

* I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

* I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

* I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

* We are the couple who had the Realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

* I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

* I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

* I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

* I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

* I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

* I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

* I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

* I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

* I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

* I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

* I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.



Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

Goes here to get a chance fer a crotch shot ^^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2649198/

I'm gonna be streaming shortly, colouring some work done by  citrusfreebies and hopefully one or two by  kittyfreebies

I am also going to be stream some vids and maybe a film or a TV series called "Bottom"

cos of that my stream will be a 18+ one

but please do come and visit me
http://www.livestream.com/sourflamer345

 tigerskitten is doing a raffle with some amazing prizes

all yew guys need to do is give  tigerskitten a watch and read their journal which is here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2634695/

Go on have a go, it will be worth it ^^

Go have a lookie here at  kittyfreebies raffle

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2631604

I am going to be streaming some more colouring work


All line art I am using are done by  citrusfreebies

I have had permission to use them by both Citrus and the characters owners

come join to chat watch enjoy my music choice X3

http://wwww.livestream.com/sourflamer345

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2593896/

She has a strong valid point, go here and read it