Things are kind of crap with me and my brother, his desktop is fried because he spilled a drink on it and was talking about get me a new computer so he could take mine... but mine is crap and have had issues with it for quite a while, but he is also taking care of me now by buying me food and drink and stuff since I have not been doing art (which makes me feel guilty as heck)

Thing is is he is trying to get this all done by working two jobs... just yesterday he left for work around 10:30pm and will not be back home from both of his jobs till 6-7pm tonight... ugh...

So after all that crap with that jack-ass threatening me and my sis's Paypal I was not sure if I could take commissions anymore, but from what it seems like from various sources (including some one who tried to shut some one else's Paypal at great lengths and never being able to do it) I guess I am safe to and have reactivated my Paypal account.

I did try a game stream, it is possible that it was because it was so early this morning was the reason why I did not get a lot of people in and donating, but I think trying to get money that way seems to not be the way for me I guess (might try again later)

So I guess I am gonna try to do art streams again, I don't know if I am ready to or not, my vision is not back to the way it was before the bleed yet and I am still scared as hell about having pains or dizziness but I am gonna have to give it a go!

My paypal is still DamnEvilDog[at]gmail.com (I got it up and running again without any problems) still open for help if anyone wants to give me any.

Thanks for reading, maybe I will catch you guys in a game or art stream *hugs* <3

Hey gauys! my brother got Mario Kart 8 (like a lot of you) and I entred the code for my Nintendo account, well as some of ya know you get a code to get a free game, I choose Wind Waker HD

Was wondering if anyone wanted to buy the code from me? I am not arting so it would be nice to have a bit of money >>; post below and if I make a deal with some one I will note ya wilth a paypal address I am using now.

Other stuff:

The blood in my left eye is starting to clear up nice, still get blurryness at times and still have ribbons of blood that float around when I move my head or look around too fast though.

Still far from doing art, but maybe instead of next year maybe... next month? maybe I will celebrate my birthday on Augest 2nd by trying art again in a stream, but for now I am still scared about making my self really dizzy and having eye pains from trying to do art, we'll see ^^;

On a cosmetic note relating to my page... I don't like all the space the icons are taking up :| so I will ether get rid of them all, leave only the people that I am the super closest to (people that have been by my side and make sure I am not alone <3) or maybe do the text link thing once I figure out how xD

Anyhoo that is it, been pretty happy as of late cause of seeing better (even got to up my rez on my computers to 1600 x 900! woo more space!) so a good journal for once xD.

Thanks for reading and sticking by me *hugs* <3

Ok so I tried to reply to everyone, but my eyes hurt and my fingers are numb, so I am making this journal in thanks.

Looking at the suggestions of other payment types that have been thrown out there (thank you guys for that)

My paypal is now disabled, I will ether make a new one in the future or just not, I dunno, I do like my paypal card, but if I get SS I can just use my bank card to pay for things.

If I do commissions in the future I guess I will be doing invoices also you will have to agree to a TOS or something to protect my self, which is sad because most of the peiople who commissions me are amazing.

I will ether pass the info on to  firefly8083 or just have her read the other journal comments.

I will say this, I will not be blackmailed by people, I got scared last night and deleted my first journal, now I could give two fucks because what this guy was trying to do is horrible and I doubt any one will stand by his side if they knew the truth of what he is trying to do.

Again thank you for all the comments and support, just hope we can at least find a way to let  firefly8083 to continue to be able to do commissions, she is not just making money for fun, it's for bills, rent, her kids, her life is crap right now and this is not something she deserves.

Thanks for reading *hugs*

I just emptied my paypal for what lil bit of money I had left and sent it to my brothers account.

This is all based on the previous journal I posted that is now deleted, I am certian my account will get called out on and shut down and all because some one could not get fetish art from  firefly8083 or my self.

She is also planing on takiing the money out of her account as well, she will have to find some other way of getting money to pay bills and stuff...

So I guess that would be it for me, if I were able to do art again I won't be able to take commissions

Keeping my fingers crossed that I will get SS, it's the only hope I have left, as for sis... I wish I could do something for her...

Thanks for reading *hugs*

EDIT: Oh I don't want to be done with art... I still have hope my eyes will get better, I just will be drawing stuff for my self, or maybe in trades of some kind.

I am not sure fully how that whole twitch thing works, I just wanted to stream games for fun, but people are making a living out of it.

Would anyone care about watching me stream games? seems to be all I do besides sleep because of my issues... which sounds weird cause my eyes are crap, but I can handle running around a video game just fine (well somewhat, I get killed a lot) and yet because I have to look at two different screens and then my keyboard I get dizzy, ill and have eye pains when I draw.

Just wondering I guess cause I have been trying to watch E3 covrage on Twitch on my Xbox and randomly clicked some guys stream and he said he makes a living just doing that... I would not mind possibly going after that instead of relying on my brother or have people donate to me out of pity ^^;

Anyway, that is all I had, want to say I am doing better now since last week, some people really hit some points I never even considered in comments in those journals, I am still filled with a lot of guilt even though I can't help my situation, but I am coming to terms with it... slowly...

Love you guys *hugs* ^^

I am sorry for all the journals, I pour my guts out here cause I don't have some one there 24/7 when I have break downs and need to vent, I have lots of friends that I love, I hate to burden them, they put up with a lot <3

That is out of the way I am sorry for yesterdays journal, I was in a deep depression about the art I owe and my vision constantly being an issue, my plan still seems like the best, if I get SS I want to refund people and just take it easy till my eyes are well enough to do art again, so for now I am just a guy on the next that is very glad that I have people who still care about me even though I am not an artist anymore at the moment.

Alright the thank you part finally starts here:

I want to send thanks out to everyone who posted yesterday in that journal, art is important to me, it feels like who I am and now that I can't I don't know who I am, I would have never met all my friends or my chosen family if it was not for art, but I now know you all are still there.

Want to thanks those people who have gotten me or have done gift art for me to cheer me up, it was a nice lil boost.

I have also been given a lot of donations, I would love to list the people here to let them know how much I appreciate it, but I don't want them exposed as some one to hit up for cash, you know who you are and I want you to know that you have helped me a lot... on a side note I thought about using some of the donation money I got to pay some of the commissioners back, but I was told that it was a bad idea so I won't...

Of course want to thank all my friends that have made the effort to deal with me and comfort me, some of the comments yesterday in the journal really opened my eyes to some things.

Also anyone that is not considered a close friend gets thanks too, you post to cheer me on, you fave and comment and still watch me and wade through my journals, may not seem like a lot to you possibly, but it means a lot to me when I know I am being heard.

Anyway, that is it, will try not to post things like I did yesterday, but I can't promise because I am depressed... Love you guys so much and thank you once again for being so understanding *hugs* <3

What do you see when you look in the mirror? do you need to shave? fix your hair for a date? what do I see? I see a blurry piece of crap clinging to life with all the prescriptions I have to dose my self multiple times a day.

I also see what is left of my heart and it's barley beating cause I have given up, I just spend time trying to play games and be with my friends while sleeping the rest of the time and eating once a day.

I have a lot of self loathing, I don't know what other artists are like when they get ill and disappear because of it, with me you get the truth even if it makes me look bad, so please don't think for a moment that I don't feel bad, I have tried multiple times through the last few weeks to get back to art, I just can't.

I guess it is time to have people hate me more, after waiting so long and are willing to wait longer I am gonna give up all my commissions, I can't do them, I will refund the people who have paid me once I get on to Social Security, I WILL give out sketches to the people I have screwed over because even though I am being worthless I have to do SOMETHING, again won't be a long time because I am not reduced to a worthless pile of crap who has to be taken care of by my brother.

That is it I guess, I totally understand if I get people who unwatch me or want to put me on artists beware, I am not even an artists anymore and I have hurt people... so I am sorry, so very sorry and don't know how else to express it enough... I hope you will forgive me...

---MEDICAL STUFF---

Went to the eye doctors today as a follow up to last weeks appointment, they had to inject Avastin in my left eye to hopfully prevent any more bleeds and did lasers in my right eye to open a hole so it can drain properly.

Well it seems my eye pressure has been fine... because my right eye is not bothering to make moisture or something, so now I have to go back on an onitment to keep in hydrated.

Goods news is no more appointments for the rest of the month! yay x3

---SAD THINGS---

I had like $26 left in my paypal, decided to just spend it all up today at a fast food place and to get snacks at Krogers, my brother is now buying me food and drinks so I will take what I can I guess, but now I am officially and totaly broke, at least I was able to trade enough things in to be able to get Diablo III as a late birthday gift for my self in augest... I just hope SS decides to help me out or things are gonna be bleak.

And finally... I need to cancle my commissions, I have no way of paying anyone back, at all what so ever, I wish I never took those commissions, but I did not know I was gonna be down and out this long... and too be really honest I am tired of trying to bounce back... it's starting to wear thing on me, I have little fight left in me, I will still try to draw in the future maybe, but I am calling it right now, I am finished and will not punish my self with eye pains and dizzyness just to make tid bits of money to do art.

Jjust want to make sure again I am not done being an artist, I just may be not gonna force my self anymore this year or something, I will do my best to get my commissions done that I owe unless some one can help me out with dealing with them... I am really, really sorry...

Thank you for readin and sticking by me, hope I will recover at some point so I can hang with you guys in streams again, love all of you *hugs* <3

I hate to even post this, but this is for my Kitty  keika

She is wanting to sell off her old character design to make money to be able to afford to get a new ref done of her current design.

The reason I hate this is because I don't have money to give her because I really really want the character, but in my current situation I can't afford it (Can't get Murdered: Soul Suspects on Xbox One ether xD) so posting a journal about it.

Here is a link for ya:
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/13619158/

Not only will you get the character. but you will get all the arts done of her wich includes things I have drawn (maybe this will be inciting if you like my art a lot? ^^;)

So please go have a look, if nothing else please maybe spread the word?

Figured I would post a journal since I really have not been around much anymore because of my problems, so here I am!

My vision is improving, at first it was slow, but then the more the blood get absorbed it feels like it gets clearer faster and etc (which is nice) I did ask my eye doctor at one point what I could do to speed things along... he told me to sit up right... so I did that playing Mass Effect (mostly the MP in the 3rd game till my vision cleared enough to enjoy the story)

Right now I am playing more Xbox One since my brother was nice enough to buy me Wolfenstien: The new ordered and Watch_Dogs my god both games are flipping amazing! addicted to them as hell. also took some old controllers and games and traded it for Last of US, not very far in it, but my god it's a dark game...

Speaking of my brother being awesome about getting me those games, he has also been buying me Diet Coke and getting me food, so a big thanks goes out to him cause I know he can't really afford much but is doing it anyway... he got a second job to try to make more money to fix the house and pay down bills, so he is gone like 20hours a days sometimes, so I am very appreciative.

Others have also been helping me, random amounts of money have been hitting my paypal just because people are far to nice to me... and I can't tell you how much that means to me because the cheap-o frozen meals I have been eating have been getting on my nerves, it's not real food and being able to go and get some take out and pizza here and there from donations is just, I dunno... thank you <3 I may not have enough to live on from what I get, but it is nice to treat my self to real food ;u;

Special mention of my ferret  yoon buying me boxes of food and sending me money even though she has been going through a lot of crap right now, if you could please help her and me out by checking out her YCH, thank you <3

Want to close up this journal with some apologies, sorry to my friends for not being around much anymore, I am sick and since looking at the screen was hard I have been on less. Want to say I am SO SO sorry to the people I owe art to, I feel like scum but there was not much I could do because I could not see well enough to draw, I see better now and can and have drawn few days ago, but I am still a bit off from doing commission work (especially anything that is inked or colored)

Anyhoo that is all I got for now, got a eye appointment today (laser in the right eye and needle in the left) if I am not dialated I may try to stream again (trying to get back into the groove again if I can see well enough) so take care of your selves and see you there if Iable to stream *hugs*

I wanted to let you guys know some stuff, hopefiuly for people who do not know fully what is going on.

First off my medical issues, I have type II diabeties, Hypertention, stage III kidney diseas, sleep apnia and arthritis, I have nerve damage in my legs, well from the waist down pretty much, also have damage in my eyes, my right eye does not work well and has oil in it, so I dont know if it will ever work right, we'll see, left eye had a bleed like a month ago? (feels like forever) and when I move around too much the blood sloshes around, looking down at the keyboard right now is causing the blood to stream down, so unless I stay still and look forward or lay down in one spot I am unable to see well.

I am getting medical help fom the university of Cincinnati and am covred by Medicare under Molina. I don't have any doctor appointments till like june I think, I cant go to the hospital unless my brother dries me because it is 20mins away and I cant aford to use a taxi or bus cause I have not a lot of money and have not worked in many many years (at this point I think 6 years?)

Speaking about money, I have money right now, two amazing people sent me some money even though they are waiting on commissions from me (which I hope to finish, I sort of wish I could cancle the commissions, I hate feeling like I owe something....) but consiering my vision is so flipant I don't know when I will be able to draw again so I am being carful with money, so that is why I am forceing my self to only eat once a day, not out of want to be thin, but because I feel like I need to be careful.

Some thought that I am doing a crazy thing to get thin, but yeah just money issues, some thought that I am seeking a girlfriend... no my days of looking for that perfect girl are done, I am lonly because I sit in my room alone all day long and sometimes go days without talking to anyone, so that stems the fear of dying without no one knowing. I do live with my brother, but he keeps to him self and gets annoyed when I want something, so I am done asking him if I can help it, he is tired of me, I am a burden and a waste of time.

One last thing, I have been trying to keep up with checking my blood when I can see well enough, my numbers are good thanfully, sometimes I cant fill my syringes with my insulin and missed a few days thisweek, but my numbers were so low it did not matter, it's because I am eating one frozen dinner meal a day and a few granola bars to keep my sugar up, the pains in my tummy are from pills, I am not a pill popper though, everything I am taking is perscribed, only thing that is not is my vitamin, so don't think that I am going down some weird direction of drugs and weightloss.

Sorry about the length of the journal, I hope I hit on all the points peopleare worried abut, also sorry if things are mispelled and just general brokeness of the journal, its far too damn hard to spell check...

In closing I want to thank you all for reading, for being there for me, when ever my end comes just know that you guys made a difference in my life... and if you are on my skype send me a call some time, I do need the company if I am online.

Take care of your selves, don't end up like me *hugs*

I need help, I usless and need help that I am not getting.

I need to fill out my SS papers but I don't want to ask my brother again cause I can not stand his reactions.

My stomach is always in pain, probably because I eat once a day and I guess I am constantly dropping pills into a nearly empty stomach... at least my weight is doen by a lot, I am at 274lbs, so that is good.

At least I have my games, if I sit still and let the blood settle I can play games pretty ok as long as they are not too bright... still, I wish I had some one around...

I feel like I am at the end of my life, like one day I will just die in my little hole of a room, no one will know, that is my biggest fear and I think it may happen.

I am venting again, sorry about all that, just know at least I apprciate all the people I have met online... wish you guys were closer... thanks for reading *hugs* (hopfully it looks right)

I have usable vision right now so I am posting an update while I can.

Just went through all the submissions I had backed up and what not, I did not bother with the journals so I nuked them.

Been pretty quiet for what feels like a lifetime, I can hardly see most of the time unless I stay very still for long periods of time, so I have been playing Mass Effect 3 MP on my PS3 cause I was really good at the game on the Xbox 360 and kicked ass even though I was half blind end of last year when my left eye did the bleed thing then.

The doctors want me to come back in a few months for a checkup and if I need it I will have surgery in my left eye to remove the blood, unless it gets absorbed and flushed out by then.

Right eye I am currently in que for a surgery to get the oil that was put in there out, if my vision seems like it might be good I will get a lens put in.

I have a lot of pain going on right now, random leg pains, lower back pains and neck pains from trying to stay still so I can see...

Also been having stomach pains... probably from only eating once a day at 7pm... I have like $70 in my paypal and am trying to stretch it out for as long as I possibly can while I am a broken piece of crap, not much else I can do right now about it, I am losing weight though, I am down to 274.6lbs... but aside from the pain I am dizzy all the time and starving.

Got my application thing I need to fill out to get Social Security... when I asked my brother if he would help me with it he got irritated and say "what now?" so I told him never mind... I can't read the papers too well, but gonna try to get the filled out soon as I can so I can get hopfully get money to feed my self things that won't kill my kidneys (I am stage III right now)

Sorry for such a gloomy journal, but I needed to sound off cause I am suffering pretty badly and need to vent, not helping that I was treated to an idiot who made him self look like a victim while posting a lot of lies about some one I care about... then his girlfriend jumping in and making stupid comments on a journal of hers without knowing a damn thing about what was going on or what the person I care about is really like... both are unwatched, let them rot.

Need to thank Bioware for the Mass Effect games cause they are helping me out massively right now when I see well enough to play them and more importantly I need to thank  yoon for being there, for the phone calls, for listening to me, for worrying about me and buying me food that is being sent to me in the mail... she care so much for me right now and is so selfless even now... her great grand mother just died... yet she is at work doing what she needs to do and still looking out for me.

Go to  yoon's page and give her some love, she deserves it, also give her a watch will you?

Thanks for reading, again sorry this journal is so dark... and long had to vent... take care of your selves *hugs*

Just gonna prefront this with that it is me finally, but I still can't see very well so this journal will be filled with mistakes and crap >>;

Well after 12 days of hell I am posting for my self for once, I am well enough to draw it seems though I had to reduce all my screen resolutions to 720p and invert my colors in Picarto to even be able to read the chat on my own, but it works on my stream (although dead tonight) went well.

I gotta say I am still Fed up, sometimes I see pretty decent, but if I move too much the blood in my left eye starts to swhirl, stain and just hang in my eye and prevents me from normal vision, at least now that I have a PS3 and the Mass Effect trillogy I am playing ME3's MP again which I can seem to play even with my reduced sight (although it REALLY feels like PS people I have run into SUCK at the game... I have lost so many matches on Silver...)

Anyway ways I dont know what else to say, I had only streamed tonight cause I need money for things, will stream again tomorrow and then just rest till I can see without so much difficulty then I will jump on my commission list... I am really sorry that you guys have to wait so long, I really hate my life -_-

Last thing is as I touched on up there, I now have a PS3, a private account and a public one (PSN: DamnEvilDog) so go ahead and add me ^^ might take some old games as payment for art once I am better x3

That is all I have, hope that made sense and was not too hard to read... want to thank everyone who has been helping me in one of my horrible times once again, my friends and people whop call me fans are the best people in the world, I wish you all good health <333333333333333

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Hey guys ♥

This is  firefly8083 , Ded's sis... and I am posting this journal on his behalf

DeD called me this morning and needed to talk to someone. Last night when he went to bed, everything seemed okay. During the night, as he slept, another blood vessel had ruptured in his left eye, causing streaks of blood in his eye coming from the bottom right hand corner and impairing his vision drastically. The top left corner of his eye has a large red spot thats thick and he cant see through it. This also causes a halo effect on his vision, just adding to the difficulties.

He did call the doctors to try to see what he needs to do, when he can come in to get it fixed, cause likely they will have to laser the vessel shut to stop the bleeding. He is currently waiting on the nurse to call him back, but that could take up to 48 hours. -.-

If all else fails... he has a doctors appointment with the clinic for his eye at 11am Thursday... so he will try to make it till then if he cant get seen prior.

Anyhow... he still fully plans to finish the commissions that he currently has, I just ask that you be patient with him please <33 as I know you guys are ♥ DeD's health is whats important to me, and once he feels he can, he will continue with his art. I will keep you all updated with any information as I hear from him ♥

Thanks so much for reading, and thank you for your patience.

much loves,
Kimmy


EDIT!!!!
Bubba has his skype turned on on his phone all the time right now so I have a way to reach him to check in on him and all... he cannot read messages, so be aware that he cant respond either. So if you message him, he currently is not able to reply. Didnt want anyone to think it was intentional. ♥


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Hey guys! wanted to post a few things:

First off I just found out a few days ago that I can "Family share" most of my Steam games on my main account with my second account! that is awesome!

My computer is... well rotting? lol it's kind of junk, but I would like to play more games with people, hit me up on Steam and I dunno maybe I will do some setting up for some co-op or multiplayer games.

Steam: DamnEvilDog

Next is... the weather, it has gotten warm and I feel so tired. the most art I have done is basically help my sis best I can so she can get her emergency commissions done a bit quicker then she normally would.

I am really sorry for that because it means my commissioners are suffering a delay in thier wanted art, but I am gonna get these done at least by the end of next week.

I hope you understand, I am very sorry =\

Finally, aside from the weather messing with my health, I am doing ok right now in my eye, I am so sick of the 5 different eye drops I have to keep using everyday... some up to 4 times a day... also I got my CPAP machine today, I feel really terrible about the thing because I don't want to use it, there seems to be a lot of things I need to do like I need distilled water and keep the filter clean and wearing the mask is SO irritating... sigh I hate being a worthless sick dog... will be trying it tonight if I can get distilled water (they sell that at stores right?)

That is all I have, gonna be slugish and gaming mostly right now, but I am planing on streaming later on in the day.. by the way, what the hell is a good time to stream for you guys? :o I never know when to stream so I can talk with as many people as possible, let me know please! ^^

Thanks for reading, love you guys *hugs* ^^

Wanted to thank anyone who helped  firefly8083 ether by word of mouth or getting a commission from me or what have you.

I sent her a total of $150 along with others that have helped she is gonna be able to swing her bills... and now I can stop worrying... at least a little ^^;

Wanted to also let people know that I am helping her with her emergency commissions so I might be slow on the ones I took, I hope you understand and won't be too cross if I get them done next week... also I have been thrown under the bus by the weather, so I am a bloody tired slug xD;;

Anyway that is all I wanted to say, thanks again for any and all of the help, you guys are awesome <3

Thanks for reading ^^

 firefly8083 is having a lot of money issues right now and I want to open up for commissions.

If I could get 5-10 $60 colored commission so I can help her would be amazing, she has a huge amount of bills that she needs to take care of by this Friday and I really, really want to help.

So if you are interested please post a character below and let me know what kind of commission you want (I am not just taking colored commissions, but those would help me get her a lot of money) please check my commission sheet:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/

Once I accept I will need a note and payment sent to damnevildog[at]gmail.com

If you can, at all, even if it is a little bit... if you don't want my art or something, please, please donate to her or me, I will be getting the money to her.

Please guys I am worried about her, so what ever you can do would be great, at least maybe spread the word?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5628947/

She is in bad shape right now, need around $300 for bills and such, please go over and see if you would like to get one of her awesome $40 flat color commissions <3

If nothing else, could you maybe donate to her?

I will be streaming again tomorrow and I will be giving any money I make to her, so expect a donation doodle/sketch stream at some point.

Thank you for reading and if you help at all ^^ *hugs*

So I had gone in for a doctors appointment on Wednesday (which was a follow up to my emergency visit to the ER on Sunday) and the doctor there thought I was doing ok but was a bit worried because my eye pressure was up to 34 (I think it was, it was over 30 at least) and wanted me to come back today for a visit.

Went in today, enjoying the hell out of Zelda on my 3DS till the doctor came in and started pressing on my right eye, guess what? it was over 50 again in pressure which prompted them to do want to do an unscheduled laser operation, well two of them... after both of them were completed it was the worst pain I have EVER had in my life, or at least in recent history. The amount of pain in my head and eye was so bad it felt surreal, about 10-15mins later it lifted and I was just disorientated and sitting there, mostly sobbing to my self.

Some time later the doctor came back in and took a look at my eye was please, what had happened was the hole they punched into the back of my eye somewhere to let fluid drain closed up and since the oil was preventing normal drainage my eye pressure went up, the pressure was still high but he could see the extra fluid so he took a very small syringe and removed it, dropping the pressure from 50 something to 13

Before I was allowed to leave they placed what was called a "band-aid contact lens" because the aberration on the front of my eye had gotten worse, no one is sure why it did other then just a build up of pressure, but the temp lens is there to shield it and hopefully let it heal. I was prescribed extra meds:

Vigamox: an anti-biotic and Lantanopost and was taken off the ointment I was on before (thank god I hated putting that stuff in) I am to come back on Friday next week to see how I am doing and maybe get the lens out if I am healing ok, on the 24th (which is a normal non-emergency visit) they are gonna talk to me about getting that damn oil out of my eye.

Feels sort of like Karma I guess...

Yesterday I asked for help getting a PS3, I figured for once I am just gonna be a bit greedy and ask... I ended up getting an elgato game capture device instead at Bestbuy cause it was on sale and I had rewards certificates built up, had a very fun night streaming a game... feels like I am paying for it today for being so greedy, so I wanted to apologize for the journal and me even asking, I think I at least need to at least do that... if I want a PS3 again I will just have to try and earn the money on my own like a good person.

I don't deserve help like that, I should not have asked...

Anyhoo sorry about the length, it was quite an ordeal, gonna relax next few days because my eye is gonna ache for that long, might get back to art tomorrow, but fow now I am gonna game and probably stream it.

Thanks for reading and please, please if you can, keep on your own health, don't let it go till it is too late... (hugs)

Some one lend me $200! or let me do $200 worth of art or something, I want to get Kingdom Hearts HD and Final Fantasy X HD really bad.

Also I can download all my old games.

If anyone is interested my paypal is damnevildog[at]gmail.com I promise I will try to pay you back soon as I can (or do art) <3

Sorry for this journal in advance, I am just being straight up and I know it sounds greedy, but I am always poor and only get a decent chunk sometime from my brothers tax return.

Thanks for reading and feel free to ignore this journal >>;

https://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.....ch=DamnEvilDog

Just want to preface that I am not dying or in a spot where I can't do art for money right now, I just need to start making money cause I need to get a new computer built since my desktop has seen better days.

Also want to get some kind of HDMI video capture card IF I can get one.

And of course can always use money for food, so hop on in if you would like some art ^^

For people who are not in stream please leave a comment below with your character so I can see if I would like to try to draw them, if I accept I would need a note again and money sent to my PayPal for what ever type of commission you are after: Damnevildog[at]gmail.com

My price sheet is:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12823417/

Hey folks, I'm alive.

My brother took me up to the emergency room yesterday when he got off of work and I got checked out.

I had some really long wait times, but the eye doctor showed up and took a look at me and said that the inside of my eye seems fine, my eye pressure in my right eye was 22, the doctor feels that it might be an infection so I got prescribed an ointment to replace one I was using before and an antibiotic.

So that is a relief if that is what is going on, he wants me to go to the hospital on Wednesday for a follow up so we will see how things go.

The visit went pretty smooth over all, they gave me Vikoden, I gotta say that stuff is pretty nice cause it reduced my pains so much I went from a 148 blood pressure to like 128 (my blood pressure is a bit higher then it needs to be because of my leg pains)

I played The Legend of Zelda: A Link Between Worlds while I was there, god it's like playing Link to the past but also new at the same time ^^

So That is what happened, I have to go to my Kroger around 10am (5 hours from now) and put in the prescription for my my ointment and antibiotics, I have to walk cause I have no way of getting there otherwise, but will only take me an hour up and back all together, well longer depending on how long it takes them to fill the script and if I decide to look around.

That is all I have, I am not dead at least, still in a slight bit of discomfort, but doing better, thanks for reading, take care ^^

It's been hurting bad, watering up and is red, it is the eye I had surgery in Jan.

I tried to ask my brother to go to the emergency room when he got home and he said "what now?" after talking to him a bit I said never mind and tried to sleep.

Pain is bad right now, I told him this morning I really need to go to the emergency room, he says "what is causing it?" I said I don't know, he says "we'll go after I get off work, you better be ready"

Fuck my life... I know he does not know better, he is a bit off, but fuck me this hurts bad and no one I am super close to is up right now... gonna be off the net for awhile till I get fixed... if I get fixed before it's too late.

Bye.