Made plans to visit Mace but had to cancel do to a !dead battery! only me right? anyway got a FurFriend to come look at it, after another Friend tryed to jump it off.. and had time to worry about the starter (that the Furry Gods, thats not the problem.
heading back to mcminnville

This is a depressive post so if you have feelin that hurt easily then go read a happy journal, and i not putting this up for people to coment on, i dont really care what you think. i just need to get it off my chest.

I feel worthless, not good enough for anyone to love. i have tryed to fill the empty feelin in my heart with yiff and that just makes it worest. i have not ablities, for years i was taken care of and told to stay home and take care of children, it the point i have failed on every job interview.. so not only worthless, but useless. I hate being alone, and i hate the polar bear who decided i wasnt worth keepin.

guess it best to remember that the stuffie you tossed under the bed needs love to..

Well, got my Corp. deer john letter, Yea thanks for meeting with us but your not what we are lookin for.. what the hell? they could have told me friday in the office. guess they dont own any Big Furry Balls or i just not a kid at heart. ill have to think about it.

ok, lets get the bad out the way frist. I am broke, my head hurts, and jobless.. yea thats enough whimming for now

on the other hand i got a call wend. from toy-r-us hunstville for a interview.. so i packed up what i thought i would need if i got the job (basicaly all my clothes) and drove from Mcminnville Tn to Huntsville Al for a friday interview.. You things arent going good when other walk out with a job and get but in the line for a 2nd interview (i am not going to think this was a wasted trip) so.. being the disapointed kitty i call my best friend and cryed. then when to another friend and watched a panda bear get toasted. in all it turned to a good night.

another good note.. i am ready to take ear and tail commissons again, maybe its that i need to start taking commisson again..
so far i have been working on yard tails, i not sure what to charge for them.. so if anyone had any idea please feel free to tell

FurasonCreation, How dose one come to be? i personally feel that it starts in the heart and soul.. Honey was found by someone very special, he looked into my heart and found her hiding scared and alone.

so lets meet Honey.. she is a young savanh lion of 10 or 12 years,

**work in Progress**

I got to spend a nice day with a local fur, it was nice got to figure out why my computer keeps restarting.. its just gets over heated.. lucky computer, guess ill have to restrict its porn prilvages *lol*

The meet and greet was great, loved seeing haystack and meet many others. I would do it again
we watched 2 movies Fur regance and water ship down, i enjoyed both even though the bunny movie was sad.
in all it was a good night

i was really excited but the longer the day goes the scareder i get.. what if i dont fit in and they dont like me or once again i make a ass of my self or worest i could embarrass evo. i dont want to to that.

been dealin with the ex all day i am sure thats not helping.. hes so happy and cheerful and wants to stop in to talk to me, yea i know bad idea.. although hes is leaving her in the truck (he drives a 18 wheeler) i think she is to scared to face me.

so to meet and greet or not? theres my delima

I meet a very nice local fur name evo, at least he seemed nice we are going to a nafm i not sure about the letters anyway its a meet and greet here in hunsville i so excited its nice to be able to go out and meet people. although i a little worried about not taking my car since i really dont know him but what the hell heres to a little danger.

ill tell you how it goes tomorrow

well i am glad to be here, need a new home *s* although i am not really sure what to do, ill try to update once a week more if a think about it.
hey you maybe we can even build that fursuit, well you can watch and laugh at the screw ups *lol* i guess now would be that best time to say i have a head i built, well kinda its my ex-husbands and well i did stab its a few times and kicked, stomp it but for learning to put the fur on it will still work. ill have to run back to tennessee and pick it up.. we could make a god awful color... something like puk green.. lmao think of that puk green polar bear

I really hate that man, but thers a whole nother story and right now its just easlier on my broken heart to be mad at him.

anyway, my friend went on a camping try... good thing is a get to play on his computer (yay.. EQ time) and sleep in his comfy bed unders the so soft furry blankets. the bad thing is being all alone, to much thinking time..

thats about all i have to say with out husband bashing... broken hearts suck