So another transition update for those who care:

For the last 3 years Ive been taking estrogen and anti androgens for my MtF transition and despite being out of the perfect age range for transition they worked! I got the boobs and the hips...however I'm not 100% satisfied, I want more! so I'm taking the initiative of start using Progesterone capsules without my doctor's knowledge.

"You have a endocrinologist, why not just ask her for it?" well, I asked and even insisted to my doctor for her to give me a progesterone prescription but she refused, because its not the national standart for HRT and there is no brazilian made studies confirming its efficacy, so even if she wanted she could not give me the prescription, so once again I'm choosing to take the reins of the situation and decided I will take it regardless of her approval.


I will keep a close eye on the effects and give another update on it in the upcoming months.

I've been silent about my transition stuff for the last months, for those who dont know I'm a very supersticious person and I avoid celebrating before ensuring victory to not jinx it, but int the last months I began to frequent a public trans research center to get professional support for my transition , the process was slow and tiresome but finally yesterday I had my first apointment with the endocrinologist, it was a long and exaustive session to start and I had my body measured in several embarassing ways, but it was worth it in the end, I'm now eligible to receive my hormones entirely for free in through the public healthcare system!I've been doing DIY hrt for the last two years but now I have proper assistance and health monitoring, and plus since I'm doing it through a research center all my experience turns into scientific data that can help the comunity, its really a win win situation!

But of course not everything is sunshine and rainbows, I'm still having to shoulder a lot of expenses with transition stuff like laser sessions, clothing and psychologist appointments and so on, my money is draining at an alarming rate, so I feel I will need to lock in the commissions to stay afloat, but there will be no price increases I feel my prices are already fair enough for what I can deliver.

I may offer pride month ychs but pride month commissions are out of possibility because time constraints,but I will of course make my own pride art for this month, now more than ever is important to promote a strong community presence and most importat of all, remind the enemy that we are here and we gonna continue here despite their cowardly efforts to erase us.

So as a measure to increase my productivity I decided to publish my commissions current progress on my personal server: https://discord.gg/XtkAvp3kM3

it will be mostly wips and stuff.

If you are interested in joining be sure to READ the rules.

As we reach the final hours of 2024 I have very little to say,it was not the worst year of my life but it was surely not great, but regardless I persist.

I'm not very hopeful for 2025 nor the other next 3 years, I think it will be a time of resistance and survival for many queer folks, and I predict I may have financial struggles depending of the decisions of a certain worm in power.

Any art directions for the next year? I feel I need to commit to something, the message behind my drawings usually aren't very clear, I know if I be more direct I will step on many toes and surely get some stress, so I'm divided between having peace or spreading a message, I dont know what to do to be honest,I may talk more about it later.

Regardless let's go into the new year ready for everything, whatever happens happens, I hope for many trans rights victories and dead CEO's!

Happy new year for those who deserve it!

I recently heard about the massive exodus of artists and watchers to Bluesky, which is very funny and fuck twitter by the way , but I would like to remind everyone that I have a bluesky account :U

https://bsky.app/profile/danadriel.bsky.social

So, I've been very slow with my art/commissions lately and I wanted to give some clarification for anyone who cares.

I kept it private but I been struggling with suicidal thoughts in the last months (wow how original a suicidal trans girl!) and they were reaching a critical point, I had to seek help and I did, thanks to public healthcare system now I'm receiving treatment with light anti depressants.

The suicidal thoughts are gone and I'm feeling much better...however, the antidepressants make me sleepy and energy drained, I'm sleeping 12 hours a day and only being really wake after drinking at least 3 cups of strong coffe...as consequence my art productivity decreased significantly, I used to draw everyday now I'm drawing each 3 days more or less, this is very frustrating,but it's the price to pay to keep living I guess.

To mitigate my lack of motivation for commissions I'm planning to start streaming the drawing process on my server (if you dont know about my server: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57614423/ ) I still thinking about the best time of the day to stream and stuff, It may take some time.

So, I heard there was a ongoing mass report campaign on babyfur drawings , and now FA updated its rules, anyone you know if it was an organized campaign?by a specific group or something? I dont use social medias so I'm totaly in the dark, if someone knows the fulls story I would like to know. >_O

I had some serious expenses with meds and HRT these last months and I need to stabilize my finances, so I offering this unique opportunity.

the only rule for the discount is that the at least one character in the scene must look visibly pregnant. (all genders and species accepted)


if you are interested check out my trello for more details: https://trello.com/b/LDkkjqEI/current-commissions

At this point everyone is aware of the death of Furaffinity owner, which is not just tragic by itself but also may mean negative changes regarding the site, I have no idea if they already have the papers ready or if it will be a burocratic mess, but what I know is that the site may change to less caring hands or disapear entirely, regardless I'm preparing for the worst as always, so here as list of places you can find me:

Tumblr : https://www.tumblr.com/blog/danadriel

Bluesky : https://bsky.app/profile/danadriel.bsky.social

Inkbunny: https://inkbunny.net/DanadrielsLair

Itaku: https://itaku.ee/profile/danadriel

I've been noticing I'm running low on places to hangout online and to meet new people, so I was considering creating my own discord server, it would not have a specific theme but it would be around furry art and stories of course.

I don't know if many people would join or if it will die in less than a week but I'm willing to try it,if anyone has tips and suggestions I'm all ears

Its just me, or most LGBTQ+ or "LGBTQ+ friendly" artists on this site are not putting biological sex on the drawing tags anymore? I think I've been noticing this for quite a while, yes I know big artists don't even bother to put any tags because their name is already enough for people to find their art, but I've been noticing this trend on smaller artists who use the tag system, they will tag everything on the drawing except the biological sex of the character, to be honest I started doing the same, my doubt is: is this natural or is it like influenced campaing? I've been out from social medias for more than a year already I have no idea what is happening. >_o

I think its cool to leave the shackles of biological sex behind and le the characters just be...but at the same time I have the suspicion it may harm the audience of small queer artists in the long run, because alot of people when they are looking for specific themes/kinks they will put biological sex tags in their search.

anyone noticed this too or has any thoughts on this?

Today I celebrate my first year on MtF HRT, what a roller coaster it has been, its easy to read text about how things happen and have the impresion you understand, but the things actually happen its quite dramatic.

Starting with the bad things, the mood swings are abysmal, I don't know if it's a coincidence of bad things happening during my therapy but the moments I'm down, I get really down, several moments I felt a genuine will to die, like every single drop of hope was drained of my body, thankfully the peak of it only lasts few days but its a lingering shadow over me that never goes away, sadly I have no way to know if its entirely due the hormones or a mix of things, since I'm doing it by myself without any medical help,and I'm glad I started hrt by myself, if I waited for medical help I would still be waiting, there is only one hospital that deal with transitions in my state, so I'm waiting in a imense line that may take years, yes I'm strugling but I glad I did it.

Still speaking of emotions, one thing I noticed is that now is much easier to make me cry, I'm not saying I was any tough before, but now its really easy, which is kinda funny.Another change that I was suposed to expect is a change in personal interests, and it happened in a weird way, I noticed lost entirely my interest for warfare stuff, be it historical or modern it, any media related to war became a boring and depressing for me, when anyone around me starts talking about modern conflics and speculation about geopolitics I just dismiss the topic and move the conversation to another thing, otherwise it ruins my mood, same for firearms, I used to care about them but nowadays they are just all the same unintersting lead spilling boxes, and people being entusiatic about them make me laugh to be honest....the only interest I feel I earned during this time is about camp food, I see some campfire made recipes on youtube and I get really curious to try them, but I aint exactly the type of person that goes camping so it will not happen very soon.

Now speaking of body, since I started so late with hormones I was fearing I would see no results, thankfully I was wrong, they worked, not as well as if I started it around my early twenties but they worked, I now have a fairly androgenous body, I have breasts and relatively wide hips, with proper clothing my passing is decent, I also feel the hormones changed something on my face, yet I can't pinpoint exactly what, but it is more feminine than before...so yeah, if you cracking your egg in your later twenties like me, there is still hope! I began to buy some feminine clothes here and there, but I cant use all of them in public, at least I don't feel comfortable doing it , I live in a small city full of smooth brain conservatives, and because of that I feel the need to achieve the perfect passing before going outside in girl mode, otherwise I know I will meet trouble.

Another weird body and mind thing that changed is that I lost my libido almost entirely, if you been observant you may notice the only sex scenes I drew in the last year were commissions, I dont feel the drive to make it for myself, its not exactly a pleasing sensation, I feel numb, but overal is a minor drawback, to be honest I kinda interesting to see the world without sexual atraction, but I want to fix it in the future if possible.

I feel I have so much more to say but it simply don't come to mind, I should have written this text through several days so it would be richer, but whatever I needed to mark this date with something.if you expecting a conclusion here it is, I don't regret starting my transition I feel better about myself now, I only regret starting it so late! if you are on the fence about yourself, try some new stuff, discover more of yourself, this world gets bleeker and bleeker at each passing day, dont wait for tomorrow to make your life better.

I hate to have to praise Games Workshop, but this sudden decision of making female adeptus custodes canon its absolutely great, I'm almost tempted to say that its even better than the idea of female astartes, custodes are way cooler than regular marines...altought female astartes would have a much bigger impact in the story because space marines are the spine of WH40k marketing,maybe this is just a consolation prize, or maybe a testing ground to include female marines in a further advancement of the story,they should had added female marines with the primaris to be honest but regardless, sometimes you have to accept small victories.

Just to imagine the rage of a "certain demographic" of warhammer community fills me with joy, anything that makes hobbies unpalatable to chuds and other similar worms is great! XD

Different from previous years, I think I can conclude 2023 on a high note, nothing particularly nasty happened on my personal life and meaningful things actually happened for once! When it comes to art ,I feel I could have drawn more in the last months, but sadly we can't make energy from nowhere, I still have plenty of mixed ideas I would like to draw and try and I hope I find energy to draw them in the new year.

commissions will be reopened this week, I just want to rest few more days, same prices same rules, nothing has changed.

I don't think I have anything more dramatic to add this year, so yeah Happy New Year. :U

This is a journal about trans experience and stuff, if you not interested on it feel free to skip it.

For those unaware, I'm currently on the 7th month of my DIY MtF hormonal replacement therapy, and things are going way better than expecting, I will not give details about my body for privacy sake, but I'm seeing changes that were not expected for someone of my age, I'm trhilled!

One of the changes I was expecting were the emotional ones, I was afraid I would change so much I would not recognize myself anymore, in the first months I felt the ups and downs of the hormones, some of the downs were particularly nasty and I had to struggle to keep going, but as time passed I got used to it, but recently something really changed on my mind, a switched was flipped out of the sudden.I became a tad more irritable, and sensitive to some topics, specially discussions involving sexual violence and stuff, it feels like sudden sting now its weird, not just that but also feel a growing regret involving some non/dubious consent pieces I drew in the past and recently...I feel a bit of an asshole for drawing/writing them to be 100% honest and that the watchers that left because of said pieces had a good point, I like my edgy stuff, I love to write about Danadriel being a violent,petty and spiteful bitch...but I feel like I went tone deaf in certain topics, Im not sure yet.

Another curious change I recently had in my life is that I essentially don't have libido anymore, my mind is not clouded by horny stuff anymore...wich is interesting, I had fear it would remove the spice from my art, yet my style is unchanged, I draw my curvy characters in dubiously crafted outfits as I always did, I just have no interest on drawing them having sex, wich is fine it was never my strong suit anyway.

Yet I feel something is really different on my art, yet I can't pinpoint what exactly! I keep comparing pieces and so on but I never find it, if you noticed something different please tell me!

I feel like didn't conclude anything with this text, but I was feeling the need to write about it somewhere.

Here, I made an Blue Sky account, mostly to reserve my name and to test some waters:

https://bsky.app/profile/danadriel.bsky.social

I hope it's a better alternative, but my hopes are not high, facebook experience drained alot my desire to use social medias, in the end they are all designed to cause stress and useless conflict.

My main gallery will remain here, EVERYTHING I produced of arts and stories is here and will remain here on Furaffinity.

Just a reminder to anyone maybe eying a slot for christmas drawings, my commissions are currently open, and I want to take a small vacation from 15 to 31 of december, so if you are interested in someting christmas themed from me I recomend ordering it as soon as posible so I can deliver it in time! nwn''

all info can be found here: https://trello.com/b/LDkkjqEI/current-commissions

Today I got a surprise call from the center I go for psychiatric attention, after quite a while waiting, finally I got the chance to speak to a group of doctors about my transition, I mean doctors that could actually help me, the session began with them asking my pronouns social name and stuff, I got baffled! I never seen that in real life, part of me wanted to laugh XD
Jokes aside, they told a lot of things that could help me, and now I m getting closer to get an appointment with a endocrinologist, if things go well I will finally get hormones in the proper way, and perhaps even get the hormones for free trough the public health care system!

Another small step on the journey, but it came in good time, I was feeling quite down lately regarding the entire "trans existence", I don't exactly why but I've been bombarded by all sorts of transphobic memes and propaganda lately, I curate my social medias very well to ensure I'm not friends with shitty people or pages, but seems like nowadays EVERYONE has some opinion on trans people, and it often is not a nice one, I'm seeing even pages that have no reason to say anything about it posting flat out cruel anti-trans material, like by example, some days ago I saw a page about kaijus a dinosaurs making posts mocking trans suicide...like really!?why?Some years ago, back when I was drinking "enlightened centrist" sewage on the internet, I used to see trans people and other sorts of queer as bitter and unreasonable, but now living in the other side of the mirror I completely understand this rage and I say with certainty its entirely justified, our enemies literaly want us dead and they talk about it like it was a casual thing...how to not get upset about it?

But I know there is a silver lining, this increase in transphobic propaganda is a symptom of the reactionary desperation, people told me about it several times but I refused to belive, now I see it, they are loosing ground, politicaly and culturaly, trans representation is hitting the mainstream in all sides, and for the people who see it as threat, must be really scary and anxiety inducing, like a strong grip slowly crushing their necks...I almost feel empathy for them, but since they want me dead, fuck them! :U

Now I see the best artistic decision I made recently was to end my main canon, now I feel so free to try new things.

Lately I've been cooking a lot of new ideas in my head, new concepts for stories and scenes, but they usually don't fit each other well to make a single story, so I've drawing and writing several single scene stories to test it.this is why some of my posts recently oscillate between vibes, themes and tech levels, I'm experimenting to see what is more fun to draw.

I even have like "scripts" for several entire comics, sadly I don't have the energy or dedication to bring them to life, some of them are way too niche to make the work worth, some were way too disturbing or unsavory for the public in general, and I probably lack the skill to make them really impactful on paper anyway.

so yeah, if my next drawings look way too disconnect from anything, its because of that :U

This ramble will fall on that category of things that is utterly useless to complain, but I need to externalize it.

I'm drawing a lot lately, my head is working at full steam, I'm having some crazy and bold ideas...but they all require a comic like structure to be done...otherwise they will fall flat like the candy drawing I did recently, where people got the wrong idea about it because of the lack of context outside the written text bellow.
"Why don't you just draw a comic then?" because I'm pathologic lazy and I dont know why! this is why I rarely take large commissions or projects because I feel the need finish the piece in less than 3 days otherwise it gets scrapped or undefinitively delayed, it s strange and annoying mix of lazy and anxiety!
by example, right now Im having an amazing idea for a really dark comic where Danadriel tells a bunch of soldiers about the macabre succubite witches, it would be amazing, but just to imagine drawing all those characters multiple time already drains my energy completly....AAAARRRGH THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING! I want to scream! XD

I didn't decide the theme yet,but it will be a single character piece ,if you are interested stay tuned!

This journal is about a random stuff that was floating in my mind for a while.(also very rambly)

If you been my watcher for at least a week you probably noticed I like to draw my fursona ALOT, if you click any of my galleries you will notice the sea of black and gold, lately this is bothering me a little more than usual, part of me feels like Danadriel became a bit of a creativity drain, I spend almost every single Idea I have on him, and when it's an idea involving other characters I keep bending and twisting it until I can make him fit on the scene, its almost an obscession.

"Why don't you just draw other characters?" if the solution was this simple I would not be writing this, as I said it's a bit of an obsession,and to be honest I'm probably the only one that seem to care about it, no one ever complained, and several fairly successful artists draw like the same character the whole year every single day.What ties directly in my next point, I think he represents perfectly the strange art niche I involved myself, I'm not really clean since my art have alot of curves, muscles and bulges, but Im not super horny either,in fact I hate the idea of making characters/poses and stuff that are just eye candy whores for the audience, I think its cheap and atracts alot of brain dead coomers,and when it comes to that, I took special care when drawing my sona, if you noticed his poses/scenes are not the typical "thicc dommy mommy" stuff you find everywhere, and I'm proud of that, I do it because I like this way...but living in this limbo probably has steep cost in terms of popularity in the long run...I truly walk in the edge of the razor, too clean to be horny, too horny to be clean...omg the struggle is real! :U

Another thing that was bothering me some months ago but I come to terms about it, is the idea my art lost its bite when it comes to risque themes like explicit noncon stuff and so on, part of me was fearing I was getting washed away by the sanitazation of the fandom, but after a lot of pondering about it I realized its a natural internal thing, my edgy art of previous years had alot of repressed teenager rage in the mixture and as I got older it just disapeared, or at least morphed in to something more elegant, if you still reading my stories you probably noticed some still grim as fuck,and I'm ok with it, confining the really bad parts of a scene to the story its ok for me.

I'm sometimes reconsidering is the idea of creating a discord server, the idea of having a place to post art and discuss stories and stuff seems neat...but I know myself, I'm a dictator when it comes to these things, its my way or the highway, would not exactly be a fair place, also would be pretty annoying to have randos joining and spamming their unfunny memes or worse shit like gore and stuff, so these are some of the reasons I'm avoiding doing it.

Finally, about the new job, it's easy, kinda boring, I can draw during most of it so I will probably reopen commissions soon.

Art has been slow last days because I've been busy with paperwork, an acquaintance of mine got me a job, home office for a big company, and in a world where people struggle to find jobs I think it would be very ungratefull of me to not take it, commissions and stuff were going well but I cant pass such well paying opportunity,I dont know how long art in general will be economically viable, and since my country find itself in a very delicate diplomatic situation in the midst of the global turmoil I can't guarantee that one day paypal and other payment systems will not just disapear here overnight...not to mention that as a person in process of transition in a ridiculously transphobic country is almost a bless to have a stable job, so I have all the reasons to take it.

For this reason I will not take new commissions or make ychs until further notice, first I need to get the feel of this job to see if I can draw while working hours, if posible I will try it, otherwise they are permanently closed, because I will dedicate my free time solely for my personal projects.

Its just me that noticed a trend among some older furry artists, when they lose their steam and cant create anything good anymore, they only post half assed (usually political) drawings once every several months to stoke anger and foment engagement trough hate involving a currently relevant theme? I'm noticing it here and there lately it is remarkably pitiful, I can only point and laugh. :U