Today is my birthday and I am twenty two as of now. I've always liked double digits so maybe this will be a lucky year. Also thanks for the birthday wishes everyone on skype, steam, facebook etc. I've lost count as to how many wished me such. <3

Moving back to the surfer state as most call it. I've had my time in Texas and it was fun. However I guess things change from time to time. I will miss all you local furs and the wonderful friends I've made here at the furmeets, around the area, and those outside of the fandom as well.

Going to be riding the plane back to California today. Hopefully it goes well.

Okay so I thought on something about myself today and came to a realization that, although the mistakes I make are small, it's something that happens constantly and my folks often get a tad upset with me due to it.

I'll explain. I have a case of ADHD -Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder- which causes me to lose sight of things easily sometimes along with some forgetfulness. I usually have a problem remembering where I put stuff after only about one or two minutes and my mind usually wanders quite a bit. It's hard for me to focus on anything unless I am reading or on a computer and I believe that has to due with it being a physical object that grabs my attention.

However today I went and finished a bottle of juice. Instead of throwing it in the trash can I threw it in the sink because I was in a rush to get something. Also like sometimes I will be looking for something and it will be right there in my pocket or sometimes even in my hand if I am really feeling lost.

It honestly scares me because I often feel I am doing something bad by not remembering these simple things or screwing up so much. Even at the con I misplaced quite a few things and it stressed me out since I had to search to find them. Sometimes I really really have to consciously try and focus just so I can get one thing done right, if I don't then odds are I will forget something. Trying to focus like that is never relaxing.

This is part of the reason I don't drive. Sometimes when I do focus on one thing it's too much and I lose sight of what's around me and usually it takes someone telling me and when I try to explain myself I get chastised.

From simple things as forgetting to turn the shower setting to bath or misplacing a small item I just had, then just not being able to focus correctly....I don't know what's wrong with me.

I ask myself " What is it? What's wrong with me?"

The mix of lacking focus, forgetfulness, and clumsiness make me a rather different individual understandably. But it's something I feel I need to take care of and perhaps find a way to help with some of my issues.

I should be talking to a doctor about this but...I guess this is just me wanting to express. Does anyone else go through things like this?

I'll be there from Thursday/Friday all the way until Monday morning or afternoon.

I'll be staying with two friends in their hotel and most of the time I will be walking around, exploring as usual. Sadly I won't have any defining badges or features to tell me apart in a crowd. However, if you want to hang out I would love to :3.

See you all there ^_^.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4317812/

Check it out. : )

I recently bought it for myself due to being quite a fan of the GW series. Is there a certain server most furries go to and who else plays it?

Conversation with friends:

Vertigo: "Hey I was talking with SK about subs and I said this about you Danny.

" There's Doms. There's Subs. Then there's you."

Implying I am below subby.

The hell? -.- Yes this is a journal is of no significant value but how do I even respond to that?

The view my friends have of me u.u.

Yay. I'm 21 now. I really don't know what to do with myself though. I have work on my birthday though sadly and the days after. Maybe I'll find some time to celebrate? In any case, I've not much been a fan of drinking and, seeing as this is the staple age to go buck-wild with alcohol, perhaps I'll find something to do. Now if I had a lot of friends around me, maybe =P. But then again, I don't want to know what I would do if I was drunk.

In any case, perhaps this year will be the start of something new and exciting. : )

I got hired to Wal-Mart today and this means I will be working at both Sixflags and Wal-Mart now, juggling between the two.

Six-flags is a nice job but, since it's seasonal, it was really lacking on some crucial hours I needed for a few months and wasn't enough to help fully provide for bills or even to save up for anything personal.

After five to seven interviews with different companies, one finally came through and suddenly the thought of being a burden on my family diminished. Of course I know I wasn't but I tend to be harsh with myself is all. But finally my hard work has come to a satisfying conclusion and I only hope that I'll be able to perform to the best of my abilities at this job. Many may take such for granted, however in this day and age, a job is a blessing and very hard to come by. Competition is high and many are desperately seeking employment such as myself, so my heart goes out to them.

In any case, ironically today was a day I sat down and took a while to pray to god, asking him for his help. I've always been a believer in him, but I usually don't pray unless I feel like it's truly warranted. That's just me though.

However, good things will come of this and I'm just happy someone decided to finally give me a chance. Now, I can actually help my family and help myself. I'll be doing a front cashier and enjoy the fact I am employed, rather then sitting at home and wasting my time.

If anyone out there is currently looking for a job, don't get discouraged. Keep applying and putting your best effort forward. Something will pull through and hard work is always rewarded in one way or another.

I'm asking just a favor of my friends/watchers that could perhaps link me to some good artists (Those who wouldn't mind some text descriptions and detail) who do ref-sheets. I don't know that many artists and well, I find a hard time locating one for some reason. Friend is buying one for me.

Price Range is anything to a cap of $80.

Thanks : ).

This may be a tad late on posting but I was quite tired after the con had ended and needed to rest. Running on two hours of sleep isn't the best way to spend the last day of a con.

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So starting out, Furry Fiesta was indeed my first con and it was quite enjoyable overall. I've had the pleasure to meet many friends in person whom I've known just online previously while, at the same time, getting to know them. I also seen many of the local furs that I hang out at the meets with and it was nice to chat with them as well. I would mention names but that would take much too long due to the fact I ran into countless furs.

Most of my time was spent mingling to be honest, running around from group to group and chatting with them or I sat down with an individual and took a bit of time to know them. I do regret that I only made two/three panels but that was due to the fact that I was so worried I'd miss someone and thus miss meeting them. However, oh god that " It does not bend that way!" Panel....I've learned so much about the canine cock anatomy and fetishes I didn't know even existed -.-. However "Fuzzy Logic" was quite funny : ). Also Fursuit Parade was nice ^^ so many fursuitsssss.

I also did have the honor of meeting Kyell Gold and purchasing a book from him named " Out of Position." It was signed by both him and the artists who make up Blotch.

On a more negative note I was indeed subject to some drama here and there. I am sure most people are in some form or way anyways at a furcon. I wasn't directly involved in any of it thank god. But most of my friends/associates were so I was either told about it, or dragged into it. However all I can say is this. Cut the bullshit, leave grudges at the door, and have fun. There is always time for drama, hardly any time to enjoy a con ><. Then again, it's a side effect of knowing so many friends who know each other.

Alas, I would love to end this on a positive note since the vast majority of my experience was indeed enjoyable. I had a good time, met so many nice and kind furs, and had a blast just enjoying the whole con in general. It opened my eyes to much of the furry community and let me appreciate the fandom much more in general. I cannot wait to go to another con and experience it all over again.

PS: To all the friends that gave me snuggles thank you! I loveeee hugs! ^_^

PSS: That Rave man.....was first time Rave Dancing and that wore me outtttt! So much fun though.

Apparently I am going to it thanks to a friend taking me this year n.n.

....It will be my first con so I am not sure what to expect really. I am sure it will be fun though.

See you all there well whoever is going anyways =P.

Merry Christmas everyone. Hope you are enjoying time with your loved ones and having a wonderful time. Much cheer to you all : ).