It'll include some stuff I may not add to FA for one reason or another. Be it that it isn't my own artwork or if I just don't want to share it here. That or if I wanna try and get myself out there a bit more for some self-confidence building. By all means, go check it out, I'd appreciate it.

I had planned on uploading more often. Heck, I'd planned on drawing a little more often. But a couple of things have been happening.

Lack of motivation
Drawing, for some reason, has been a mental nightmare for me. I haven't been able to finish anything right now, which I suppose is a relief that I haven't had any commissions, means there's nobody waiting for something that may end up never coming to fruition if things continue like that. That isn't to say I'm outright stopping though! I'm doing my best to draw more art, including some more things with Circuit, and even more emotes of my Tatsugiri, Teal, which I may have to see about uploading here just so people have an idea of "who the heck is Teal?"

More activity from older siblings
I have full trust in my younger sister and my brother in law, but when it comes to my other two siblings- my older brothers- I want to hide the fact I'm using a furry channel to upload stuff like vore or whatever, because I never want them to know I'm into vore. One of them IS a furry, but I would rather not associate him with anyone I talk to on the regular, while the other brother I imagine would never stop making jokes about it to the point I'd just lose interest in it altogether.

A death in the family
This is the most recent one. On March 10th, just two days ago, I lost my father incredibly suddenly. I'm still struggling a little with my emotions, because I miss him a lot. He was a great man. We have no idea what killed him, we're still waiting for a report from a coroner, as my town doesn't have one we had to talk to the police about the details to be sent to a coroner to assess what happened. Though the rest of my family thought he was just sleeping, I knew that he was suffering in his final hours, and the doctors tried for a good half hour to resuscitate him when his heart stopped, but the tragic fact is that he wasn't able to be revived. Just thinking about the noises he made is making me feel like I could have done something to save him, but I shouldn't be blaming myself when the reason definitely has to do with an ongoing issue with his health. I already struggled to believe he was gone until we were allowed to see him for one last time, and... well, he looked like a different person entirely. Just seeing him in that state was so painful. I miss him so much man.

But... yeah. I plan to try and work some more on drawing, and in the meantime I may see about adding some artwork of my Tatsugiri to flesh out my character roster a little. I do hope to try and get more art of them, but the fact is with my financial situation, the only ways that will happen is through either being fortunate enough to get gift art, or (the most likely option because I'm TERRIFIED to ask others for art) trying to draw them myself.

Until next time though, do take care. I'm doing my best to. o/

Technically I'm like 20 minutes early to it but as of August 13th 2024, I turn 27.

Not much else to say, really, other than that I'm slowly trying to build up my confidence in opening up again and sharing things I work on from time to time.

Apologies for how I've been this past month. I've been in a really shit place and I think I'd better update with something less charged with self-destruction and moreso with some common sense. A lot has happened in my life and for several years I've been in a massive pit of despair where everything felt like it was my fault. Well, some things a hundred percent was my fault. For those, I apologise. However, let's get into the meat and potato of this update. What's been happening with me?

Well, near the end of January, I suffered a stroke. I'm doing alright, but I'm keeping close tabs just in case another one happens. My body has been sore and fatigued, and it's my own fault. For the people who know me closest, they know why I'm in this state and that I refuse to see a doctor despite living in the UK. To keep it simple, it's just because the doctors in my town are a bunch of dismissive quacks who will literally not even amuse my concern. It's fine, though. I'm made of tougher stuff, and I'm not gonna let a stroke be the cause of my untimely demise.

As for my pixel art? Well, given I've been occasionally uploading again, it's safe to say I'm getting back into drawing and sharing things again rather than remaining reclined to a few private servers. This doesn't mean I'll be sharing EVERYTHING I've done, but it DOES mean that I might make a habit of uploading more in the future. However, I will need to make one thing clear: I will NOT be taking commissions or requests. To put it simply, I will draw something if I want to draw it. You're welcome to ask, but the friends who have been my greatest support over the past few years will have a better chance of me taking them up on this. Do not send me money as an "advanced payment" for your "commission." This is your warning, I will just pocket it and treat it as a donation from a kind benefactor helping someone struggling with constant financial problems, because I am not dealing with the stresses that come with not being listened to in the first place. I'm sorry.

So, what's next for me in the future? Well... I don't know. I do know one thing though: I'm not about to just sit around any longer and let my emotions start to get the better of me. I'm gonna let myself cry them all out, and I'm gonna fucking FIGHT.
New year, new me, bitch.