I want to go...but i don't know if i'll be able to. Is there anyone else who might be going?

I'm a little frustrated as of late with FA. I've posted a lot of new stuff and I haven't even gotten any constructive comments or anything at all...no input at all. I kind of have a feeling that its because I haven't posted any porn, and if thats the case i'm more than mildly irritated. I understand that this website revolves around porn and 'sex sells' but really...I would just like to know if you like it or not.

especially on my recent music that i posted

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a sketch, free. However, in return, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal.

If you've already done 10 Free Sketches, simply link the journal entry in your comment... You still qualify.

If you want a specific character, make sure you include their name and the series they are from. If it is an original character, please link to reference. Thank you!


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I happen to be a very busy person so I can't promise that these will get to you quickly, and don't get upset if its a while. I do too many free things as it is.

my teeth still really friggen hurt all the time, making it hard to draw very much stuff. I've been hanging out with new people and I'm dating someone I don't want to anymore =/ I don't know what to do about it, or how to do it nicely but I'm going to have to.

Not much is up since my last journal, i haven't been feeling a hundred percent since my surgery, the drugs made me sick and now i'm actually feeling a lot of pain.

Pretty much it...yo

I don't do well with drugs and stuff, but i'm actually handling it fairly well. Waking up from surgery didn't go well and I was freaking out and kept pulling the gause out of my mouth, but after that i've been ok. It hurts but not too bad, since i've got good drugs.

Just so everyone knew, its all good and i'll be fine, but i'm not in the happiest of moods XD

when i first tried to drink I ended up spitting out all the water onto my jeans, making them very bloody, and I had to eat my ice cream looking in a mirror so I could see if i was actually getting it in my mouth or not lol, i missed more than I actually got it in.

Like forever ago I designed a few t-shirts on Zazzle.com, and randomly I got a check in the mail, I made $7.32 XD random money is pretty cool, even if its a really small amount.

if you're interested in looking at my stuff, you can at http://www.zazzle.com/GoldEar

also i'm putting prints up there...if you're interested in a print of ANY of my work, let me know

Everyone who reads this, and who would find such a topic interesting, should submit their own Top 10 Albums. The basic rules are:
1) The bands don't have to be insanely popular,
2) The albums don't have to go in order of how good they are. Just list what you like.
3) Also, make sure to list one of each, since this is only a Top 10 list.

1.Bodyrockers-'Bodyrockers (self titled)
2.Bond-'Explosive-the best of Bond'
3.The Clash-'London Calling'
4.Fall Out Boy-'Take this to your grave'
5.Mindless Self Indulgence- 'You'll Rebel to anything'
6.Nine Inch Nails-'The Downward Spiral'
7.Nine Inch Nails-'With Teeth'
8.Sahara Hotnights-'Jennie bomb'
9.The Used-'In love and death'
10.The Used-'Lies for Liars'

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I'm getting over my cold *squee* and I have some new art that I should upload soon (I'm waiting till valentines day for one peice, cause its a suprise) Umm, lets see...thats pretty much it. Maybe I'll post one of my new pictures of myself,  AmayaBunni and I went crazy and took a buttload of pictures.

from all the tissue use. Been pretty miserable the last few days, but i'm feeling a bit better. I had a performance and I was really out of it during the rehersal, and the concert as well. My hearing was all muffled (which isn't good when you're supposed to be playing a musical instrument) and the lights from the stage were really really uncomfortably warm and didn't even get light on my music anyways.  AmayaBunni had a solo and did really good, plus her hair looked amazing (as usual)

Other than that...my living space is a mess, I haven't been picking up after myself because of being sick, and I have a ton of work to do T_T totally sucks.

1. Are you single or taken?
Single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
flowers...I can't eat chocolate

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
no probably not

4.Do you like anyone?
yes

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
yes

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
I don't know...I never found the holiday more than fluff and cards. Since i'll have to be doing normal things on valentines day a few small things slipped in between working would be sweet. Maybe go to a late movie or just go home and watch a movie there

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
I suppose...I love the chance to be able to give all my friends gifts. More than just the whole lover thing, I always get something sweet for all those people who make my life happy.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
no

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
yes, i've done it before too :3

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
no

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
yes, they find it a good opportunity to spoil me since stuffed animals are everywhere and I love stuffed animals. Actually I think this year she'll send me this perfume I really want

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
yes, but sometimes instead just little toys and stuff

13. Do you like candy hearts?
omg yes they taste so good :3

15. Is Valentines depressing?
no, even if I don't have someone special, I love all the candy and stuffed animals and I always like doing stuff for my friends. Plus its an opportunity to hook up with someone too

16. How do you feel about PDA?
I don't like it when people are sucking eachothers faces in public, but i'm absolutely fine with a few cute little kisses, cuddles and hand holding

17. How is your love life?
not really there, partly by my choice partly because of some really weird factors. I'm pretty picky

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope

19. How many roses would you want?
I don't know, the amount doesn't matter

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
I have no idea

Yeah x_x I had to stay home today. I didn't even hear my alarm, and when I did get up I couldn't keep my eyes open. Just one of those wretched head colds. My throat doesn't hurt but everything else does *clutches tissue* I tried to watch a movie and fell asleep during that too. T_T I hate colds.

Things are still kinda topsy turvy, but they're settling a little bit. I did break up with my mate and I plan to stay single...I'm not ready for a relationship yet. My town has a winter celebration that is the bigger than most other holidays, and every year it has a theme. This year it was middle ages ish, and I went to the parade that goes along with it. It was freezing cold, and I made the bad choice to wear converse...which don't do well in the snow, let alone freezing cold. Afterwards I hung out at the local coffee shop with some of my friends that i have LAN parties with and so on, and they preceded to steal my hat at least twenty times (I have a fox hat) and then of course some drama started and I left after that. I've been overly tired lately and its been making it hard for me to stay out late and have fun *grumbles*

Thats pretty much it *nod* i'm going to be really busy the next few weeks, just so you people know.

So I broke up with my boyfriend...I just told him exactly how I felt. He took it really well and I want to be friends with him. Maybe if I end up liking guys in the end (not so likely) then he'll be the first i'll go to. Kinda funny...I was the one breaking up with him and I ended up being the one crying. I hate crying in front of people. For a while I was kinda down but then I realized by day is what I make it. I'll figure things out about myself better if I'm happy, so thats just what I did.

Still figuring things out.

not that anyone on here can help or anything, but i'm having some severe internal battles that are leaving me rather worn out. On top of that my school work has been outrageous and a lot of people are asking a whole bunch out of me at once, and I don't have it in me I fear. I'm dating a guy but I don't even know why, I don't like him and the only way I ever kiss him or get close to him is if he begs for it or I lost a bet or something. A lot of really obvious signs are leading me to think that I don't like guys at all, and that i'm just a lesbian. I've always known i like girls, my first true love was a female and that tender love has been imprinted as what i want in a relationship. Every time that I date a guy he hurts me, physically sometimes or just torturing in my mind. Always something really screwed up. My life was torn away from me, almost every friend left when my last boyfriend did. i'm still trying to pick up the pieces, and it gave me the opportunity to get a clean start on things...but i'm afraid i already screwed up I think. I'm not sure what I want in this world and all i feel is confused. I really do hate men, but how can i make people understand that...especially the man i'm dating. And even if I tell him that, i'm just afraid...i'm lonely. I don't even understand what I feel half the time. I know that I want someone I can't have, but then i'm afraid that even if it ever happened it would ruin the only friendship that really survived through the massacare that was my life a while back. My head hurts from all this wondering and thinking, and still i'm getting nowhere...

I don't know why i'm telling you people this, the only one i've talked to doesn't feel comfortable around me because of it. I'm losing friends because of all this...and i'm not sure if I can handle losing anymore friends. I don't even know if there is any advice people can give me...I just needed to write this down somewhere. I don't really want sympathy..this is just an update. Just me trying to figure things out.

So I went to a party on saturday, and usually I don't have caffine or sugar (I don't drink alcohol) and I had eight or nine mountain dews, which is way too much. There was about 98 mountain dews and every single one of them was consumed during the party. It was a kickin lan, though I didn't bring my computer since I have a mac and its a really fancy computer so i'm afraid to take it anywhere. So the girls played a bit of games but mostly we raved about as best we could, though we sadly didn't have a strobe light. I didn't get to bed till about two in the morning, which is hella late for me.

I had the biggest dew hangover (yes its possible lol) since I never have caffine and suff. So i'm a pretty prude person, but in the morning I stumbled out of bed (finding myself sleeping in the same bed as my boyfriend who didn't go to bed till about five and scared the crap out of me when he did climb in) I walked out into the main room where there was at least six guys wearing a tiny tank top without a bra and my belt still undone XD I realized that they were all staring at me and retreated into the wall. So i won't be hearing the end of how funny that was. It was enjoyable though, and now i'm going through detox of icky dew (I don't even like it that much)

end of lovely story. Oh yeah one girl got stoned and they were chasing her with a vacuum, and it was funny. And another girl kept tickling me with this huge feather...it was arousing. :P

1. Would you be in control?

2. Would you pull my hair?

3. Would you whisper in my ear?

4. Would you talk dirty to me?

5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?

6. Would you say my name?

7. Would you go down on me?

8. Would you let me give you a hickie?

9. How many rounds would we go?

10. What would you wanna do afterwards?

11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?

12. Would you lick and bite me all over?

13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?

14. Would you want me to take my time?

15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10?

16. Would you want fast or slow?

17. Where would you wanna "do it"?

18. Would you be loud or quiet?

19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet?

20. Would you mind if i liked you?

21. Do you like me?

22. Would you call me the next day?

23. Would you scratch me?

24. Would you let me scratch you?

25. Would you have to be drunk?

26. Would you date me?

27. Would you do it today?

28. Would you do it tomorrow?

29. Do you think that we would go any further then just sex?

30. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you?

31. Would you make love to me or fuck me?

Repost as "If we had sex"

Has picked a name. We are the Beethoven Branch Assasins, and we have everyone we need to start *wiggles* though our drummer is kinda a beginner, we're awsome. So give us love. When we get a song ready i'll post it here if I can so you can worship our coolness.

peace.

1) Imigine yourself as an up and coming musician.
2) You are in a interview, and have to answer these questions.
3) Be honest and creative.
4) Enjoy yourself

Okay now for the questions.

1: Hello we are here with, you know what why don't you introduce yourself and your stage name.

Im dapples the fox of course!

2: Well we are here to interview you, so what insturment do you play?

string bass, and electric bass

3: I see, so what kind of insturment do you own?

I own a very nice bass from Romania, imported into the US. The maker only makes a few every year, so its very valuable.

4: Well that is interesting, so what kind of music do you play?

Mostly classical in a string orchestra or a full orchestra. I enjoy a full orchestra best (symphony) but I also play rock/punk/alternative

5: Cool! So what is the hardest part of being a musician?

practicing...a lot

6: I see, so do you swear by any brands?

Fall out boy, Nine inch Nails, Sahara Hotnight, Nevada Tan

8: Interesting. So what inspired you to go into music?

I'm not really sure...I just always had a gift for it and went off that

9: So what was your musical goal in life?

be in a big time rock band lol. No actually, get into a good symphony somewhere probably, and maybe do some teaching. I just want to be as good as I can possibly be

10: Thank you for coming today, is there anyone that you would like to invite to the show?

everyone who loves me *Poses* lol

I want more people to chat with on yahoo...because I get lonely. My username is Dapples_The_Fox and i'll add ya ^_^

Lets see...finally got my stuff back from my ex friend, which is good because she had my really old classical guitar, and my favorite mini skirt. I might be getting a job soon (i've been saying that forever lol) which will be good because i've been taking money out of my bank account I shouldn't, there isn't very much in there.

Oh yeah, I do most of my drawing on the weekends so sit tight for your free stuff k?

you're imagining this24/7 (Total Power Exchange)? - what?
Abasiophilia (Casts, Braces, Wheelchairs) - eww my sister is like that lol
Age Play? - no
Adult Baby/AB Parent? - no
Algolagnia (Pleasure derived from physical pain)? - a little bit
Amputee Fetishism (Amputation/Deformity)? - newwwww ewww
Anal Sex? - umm, exit only please
Andromimetophilia (Androgeny)? - Androwhat?
Arse (Ass Play, Worship)? - eww I don't like butts
Asphyxiaphilia (Breath Play, Choking)? - wtf no
Balloons? - ...strange and no
Bestiality/Zoophilia? - ew
Beating (Flogs, Whips, Canes, etc.)? - maybe a bit
Biastophilia (Committing Rape/Sexual Assault)? - NO!
Biting/Teeth? - very much so
Blood (Drawing Blood, Cutting, etc.)? - interested a bit, but not really
Body Hair? - I don't like really hairy people, I mean, its gross if your shaved down there but I like people with little body hair
Body Modification (Tattoos, Branding, Piercings, Scarification, etc.)? - piercings to some extent are attractive, but none of the other stuff
Bondage (Blind folds, Gags, Restraints)? - yeah, I guess I'd try that
Breast/Nipple Torture, Clamps, etc.? - owie! no
Candle Wax? - Yes :3
Chains? - yes :3
Chastity Devices? - Nope
Chinese Balls/Ben Wa Balls/Anal Beads? - eww no
Cling Film/Plastic Wrap? - ...um...weird?
Cock and Ball Torture, Clamps, etc.? - lol no
Collar and Lead/Leash? -absolute fetish to extreme extent
Confinement/Caging? - no
Coprophilia (Shit Play/Scat)? - EWWWW
Costumes (Period, Fetish, etc.)? - YES!!!
Cross Dressing? - yeah ^_^ thats pretty cute
Cupping (Suction of the Skin)? - thats creepy
Dacryphilia (Arousal from Tears)? - i've never even heard of that one
Defilement (Seeing a partner dirty or wet)? - no
Denim? - lol thats a fetish?
Depilation/Shaving? - eww
Diapers/Diaper Lover? - EWWWW
Dildos (Hand-held & Strap-ons)? - never done it, not that interested but if someone suggested it i'd try it
Discipline? - "bend down now bish!' (yes)
Doctor/Nurse Fetish? - not really but it doesn't bother me either
Domination? - very much so
Ears? - I don't like my ears being touched
Electrotorture (EMS TENS units)? - why would that be funn?
Emetophilia (Vomit, Regurgitation)? - ewwwwwww
Erotic Photography? - eh no
Exhibitionism/Sex In Public? - not at all
Feathers? - yay for tickles
Pyrophilia (Fire Play)? - fire hurts when it burns you o.o
Fisting? - NO! could you imagine what that would do to me...its not even physically possible
Food Play? - honey, whipped cream, candy...sure ^^
Fuck Machines/Robots? - no...weird
Furry/Fur Fetishism? - umm DUH!
Gangbangs? - i'd rather eat a puppy
Genital Worship? - *bows down to the cooter* no lol
Guns (Gun Play, Worship)? - huh? no way
Hair Pulling? - don't pull my pretty hair *strokes it*
Handcuffs/Shackles? - yes
Harnesses? - yes
High Heels/Stilettos? - not if I have to wear them
Humiliation? - NO!
Infantilism (Pacifiers/Bottles, etc.)? - NO!
Kidnapping Play? - ugh no
Klismaphilia (Douching/Enema)? - omg so gross *dies* no
Knives (Razors, Swords, other blades)? - heck no!
Lace/Lingerie? - YES!
Latex? -eww latex
Leather? - eh
Making Home "Movies"? - no thats gross
Masks (Erotic/Gas Masks, etc.)? - No
Masochism? - a little
Massage? - absolutely, I love getting and giving
Master/Slave? - A little bit
Masturbation (Mutual or Forced)? -sure but not forced
Medical Scenes/Equipment? - No!
Menstruation (Sex During, Eating, etc.)? - EWWW
Murder Fetishism? - SCARY
Military Fetish/Uniforms? - eh no
Milk Fetishism/Lactation? - lol no
Necrophilia (Death, Corpses)? - NO!
Nipples? - what about them?
Oral Fixations? - ? youve got a pretty mouth lol
Oral Sex? - ech no either way for men, but girls with me...ok!
Pain (Giving/Receiving)? - in small amounts
Piercings? - not really
Pinching? - not too hard
Play Piercing/Needle Play? - NO!
Plushophilia (Stuffed animals, Plushies)? - *shrugs*
Podophilia (Foot Fetish)? - Nope
Power Exchange? - huh?
Pregnancy Fetishism? - No!
Punishment? - No
The Rack/Medieval Devices? - no
Raptophilia (Sexual arousal from being raped)? - NOOOO
Religious (Nunplay, Priestplay)? - I hate religions
Retifism (Shoes or Boots)? - shoes are stinky
Rimming? - EW!
Role Playing? - Yep!
Rubber? - No
Sadism? - No
Scent? - depends on what scent
Sensory Deprivation? - NO!
Smoking Fetishism? - NO!
Spanking/Paddling? - a little bit
Statuephilia (Mannequins, Dolls, etc.)? - eww, they're scary
Stockings/Fishnets/Pantyhose? - yay! *dances*
Talking Dirty/Verbal Humiliation/Abuse? - no
Tickling? - I like to tickle but it doesn't turn me on
Tongue Fetish? - *sticks tongue out*
Toys (Buttplugs, Vibrators, etc.)? - no
Transvestism? - no
Urolagnia (Water Sports/Urine)? - ...
Violence/Physical Injury? - no
Voyeurism? -no
Wrestling/Fighting? - NO
Zombies/Gore? - eww no

So i'm just keeping myself busy with school mostly, but I think i'm going to break up with my boyfriend soon, I just feel terrible about it in some ways. He bought me a playstation for christmas and we've only been dating for a few weeks. I don't feel anything for him. I'm irritated around him, I just flat out don't like guys I think. My last mate was the only man who has ever arroused me in the least, let alone really actually loved or liked. I don't like men, so somehow i've just got to break that to him. Love is a lie, love is a piece of crap. I don't believe in love, its as unreal as talking microbes or something. And its not like i'm lonely or anything. I had love and I don't need any more of it, and thats the end of it. I don't even really miss a sexual relationship *shrugs*

Chinese is hard, just to throw that out there, and rosetta stone isn't as great as they make it out to be. End of stupid update of my life *waves*

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Yes

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
night and sometimes the afternoon, but I hate mornings

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
My bed is too small to consider a side, and I sleep in a ball sort of in the middle I guess?

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?
beef *wiggles*

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
Not since I was a little kid

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
Not that I remember lol

7. Shower or bath?
bath *plays with bubbles*

8. Do you pee in the shower?
I don't take showers

9. Mexican or Chinese?
Chinese

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
depends, girls I like aggressive and boys I like passive

11. Do you love someone on your friend list?
Mebe..

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
not even close

13. Love or money?
money, love doesn't last

14. Credit cards or cash?
Cash. they can't track you that way

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
yes *glares at them* weird peoples

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
I dunno, depends on my mood

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?
not anywhere very weird, on the floor I suppose

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?
no, I love my hair *is vain about it*

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
lol there isn't even a strip club in our town

20. Ever been to a bar?
yes, I drank rootbeer though

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?
no I don't cause trouble

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?
Nope.

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
yes of course

24. Favorite drink?
root beer lol

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
no, i'd never be able to do something like that, i'm shy :3

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
eww no

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
no

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
no lol

29. Bought something from an adult store?
yes (don't ask how I could do that and never been in one)

30. Have you been caught having sex?
lol sort of

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
*embarrased* yes

32. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
most people.

I'm so damned bored (snowing) and so I'll do five free headshots for people. I never get to draw other peoples characters, and i never get commisioned even though I think my art is ok to look at, so i'm doing this for my watchers, because you guys are really cool. Comment with your interest, first five will get a picture. Note me or link in comment to ref pages.

1.yamon
2.Eddily
3.Deatzh
4.LeonSarambi
5.

my dog max has something wrong with him :( I was on a walk with him and he peed blood, which could mean a variety of things. We took him to the vet and there are a few things that it could be, but before the vet can get the right one he had to perscribe antibiotics because max also had an infection. Stressful, max hates going to the vet. I just hope it isn't cancer.

Anyways, I think people have liked my new art ^_^ i'm happy to be posting again. Just know i'm always open for commisions

So I have a sweet ravin party for new years. It was awsome, even though it was a small group of people. I have very big speakers and we rocked out with glow sticks and mountain dew. Five minutes till midnight exactly we played the song by Boys Like Girls, and they we lit off illegal fireworks. I slept funny now so my neck and back hurts, of course I did dance crazy dirty all night too *evil grin* so maybe that could be part of it. I'm so out of shape T_T

I couldn't really think of a new years resolution, other than to forget whats in the past more. I do plan to get back into shape but I don't find that a priority other than just making myself happy. Well yeah, here goes the new year ^_^ I hope it will be better than last year.

I haven't really advertised my artwork very much, and I haven't actually had my commisions open lately due to life problems. Now i'm stable again and I would like to make a bit of moolah. Or I would also be thrilled to do trades or OC (i do have a tablet)

Other than that i'm just enjoying my holiday break ^^ I'll upload some of my newer drawings soon. I went snowboarding for the first time and loved it as usual, I plan to go more often than I did last year.