I don't post nearly enough but in all honestly I live a somewhat boring life.

I am currently working at a chocolate factory where I am involved with the install of machinery. I love my job but to be honest I am not good at it. I survive on luck and as with all things it eventually comes to an end. I always try to have a plan A and a plan B, right now I have neither and i am expecting to loose my job in the coming weeks. Things have not gone well despite my trying harder to do the best job possible. I get the feeling I am meant to be doing something else but what I don't know what. I have been working on my first manuscript for a novel and i am 8 chapters away from my first finished draft. I have written 4 children's picture books. I wanted to self publish these but I cannot afford the services of an illustrator to do the illustrations. Also amazon doesn't accept my banking details so I cannot accept payments .

I found an art teacher and i am making small improvements in my drawings, hope to post something soon.

For the past couple of years I have struggled to write. The ideas were in my head but just could not put pen to paper so to speak. Since I relocated across country and started working at a new factory things have improved to a point where it is easier to write.

Bella is a short story that I came up with while visiting the local Aquarium.

The link is here : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53367379/

I hope you like it.

I will be reworking several old stories that i had started but never finished.

Chow for now =0.0=

It has been a long time since I have posted anything.

It has taken a lot to get me where I am today. 8 months ago I left my job after enduring 3 years of emotional abuse by some co-workers. I decided to go public with being Trans. After I walked off the job I was contacted by the company and offered a position in another town across country. I relocated 6 months ago and while it is not easy I am enjoying life a lot more than I used to.

My writing has started to come on in leaps and bounds, so much so that I have written several stories that I want to turn into children's picture books which is the reason for this journal entry. I am looking for an artist to work with on this project. I have no idea where or how to go about doing this. My goal is to self publish on Amazon in an e-book format.

I have tried to do the artwork myself but i am terrible.

Other than that hope everyone who knows me is well......Chow!

Have a wonderful, safe day today.

It has been a very emotional past few days.

Something has happened to me sinch i started taking Hormones. I am changing not just physically but mentaly too.

I have now comw out to my factory engineer (big boss) and he is been very supportive. He says the company will suport me and that he was proud of me.

Now.......how to tell my mother with out been killed and buried in the garden

I cannot believe it has been a year already.

Time sure flys.....

I remember sitting in my car having a zoom call with a Dr who was on the other side of the country. I was so scared and looking back now I wonder why. Yes this is scary and it will end up costing me a lot in funds, friends and family but I honestly believe it was the best decision I have ever made. I finally feel like the true me.

There is a long way to go but like I said time flys. Here's to the next year.......

Where there's a spark there's fire.

Our spark is called Jacob Zuma. Former president of South Africa and looter extraordinaire.

He is in jail for not appearing in court and his so called supporters are now burning and looting.

If this is because he refused to go to court......i dread to see what will happen when he is finally found guilty and sentenced to years in jail.

If you are in South Africa.....stay safe

I started practicing again. I am working thru a vast collection of figure drawing tutorials. I have a long way to go but I am derermined to improve what little skill I have

I have just discovered a cartoon called Helluva Boss. I have not laughed so much in ages. I love it. Totally recomend it.

5 months ago I decided, (with a lot of support from a friend), to find Dr to help with my gender dysphoria. I was afraid and embarrised when i made the call but I got worked up for nothing. My Dr turned out to be extreemly supportive and friendly. Been out in the rural part of the country all consultations are via Zoom.

Having someone who was supportive really helped else I doubt i would be where i am today.

Over the past few years I wasn't living, meerly existing. I retracted into my pwn little world and in doing so many friendships were damaged. If you are reading this I really would like to try and mend things if still possible.

I am starting to practice art again. This time I will improve. I will stay focused.

Hope you all have wonderful 2021

It has been a very long time since I have posted anything....mainly because I have nothing to say.

After years of wanting and not having the courage to act I have finally found a Dr who is willing and capable of treating my Gender Dysphoria.

Now just to deal with my family....

I have finally started to draw using a package I have had for years....Corel Draw. I have a lot to learn but so far I am very proud of the images I am producing. Sure they are only basic MLP's but you have to start somewhere.

If any one actually reads this and you are interested I am offering to draw a limited number of free Mlp versions of furs characters. It will be good practice for me in my quest to grow as an artist. So if you are interested please let me know.

Thanks

Just want to thank everyfur who have liked my artistic attempts, you only inspire me to continue to improve.

So

Thank you

Its been 24 days since i took up the 100 day art challenge. a lot has happened.

1) I am still doing it
2) I have started to ink my sketches
3) I have started to colour then in.

So it has been a very worthwhile endeavor. I honestly believe I am making slow progress and if i continue to put in the time I should only continue to improve.

So please keep watching!

So the challenge continues and I am enjoying it more as each day passes. I have started trying to draw anthro characters now. Yes they have been anthro versions of the MLP crew but you have to start somewhere. I went through some old boxes and finally found my small collection of Manga drawing books. I bought them years ago with the goal of learning to draw but they never got used. Finally its money well spent as I am starting to use them

I have been advised to add some real life drawings to my 100 day challenge. Will defiantly look into the advice.

I am not sure if anyone will read this, usually when i post something its just a mention about some useless crap happening in my life.

Truthfully i only post to keep this site going, like furrymuck. I log on just to keep the character from been deleted.

So imagine my surprise when i actually found something i wanted to talk about, something that is having a positive effect in my life. That is drawing.

I started this 100 day drawing challenge after seeing a youtube video about some guy doing a 6 minute sketch challenge. It looked fun and he was going on about how it really helped his art. So since i have a lot of free time at night i thought "Why not?"

I think i am into day 10, not 100% sure will need to find the first sketch i made and mark the date on a calender. The goal was to do 15 minutes a night just doing doodles, sketches and tutorials. The goal was to get pencil in hand and keep at it until either the challenge ran out or until i started to make such improvements that i wanted to continue.

Lets be honest, i have tried to learn how to draw in the past but i never stuck with it. If i had who knows....you might be wanting me to do artwork for you....who knows

So I am having a lot of fun. At the moment I am doing about 4 sketches a night, alot of it is welll to be blunt....crap but some I like enough to post here.

My Friend once told me to simply find pictures i liked and to try copy them. Find something you like and something that is not to hard to learn to draw and keep at it. Well for once i followed his advice and hopefully i will get better as time goes on.

So in closing, my gallery is only going to get fuller.... Thanks for reading

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Been a while since I have posted anything.

I am finally working, part time job. Pays very little. Although it has been two years of hell it has also been a very positive experience.

I finally managed to loose weight, 43 kilograms!! I am still trying to loose an additional 30 kilograms. Fingers crossed.

I started a challenge 7 days ago. I want to learn how to draw and improve what meager skill I have. So I am drawing for 15 minutes every night. I am just sketching, anything goes. I am going thru tutorials, copying pictures. All with the intent to get me to draw.

I have posted my better sketches in the gallery.

My heart goes out to the families and friends of the people slain yesterday in Orlando Florida.

Once again innocent people died because one person has issues with the way others choose to live their lives.

Its been a while since i wrote anything, actually forgot how to post......

Still unemployed, broke but surprisingly happy?

Sure my debtors are threatening me with blacklisting and repossessions, but it hasn't sent me into depression and panic attacks. I have started a new business....an Organic Lifestyle enterprise. I have two small growing tunnels which I am using to grow seedlings which I hope to start selling soon. I am also making my own organic compost as well as planter boxes from reclaimed pine wood from shipping crates. My wood working skills are far from impressive but sofar so good. Things are growing. Now I just hope I can get people to buy what i am growing.

I am hoping to get some artwork done in the near future, the company is crying out for a furry mascot which i can use to brand things. Thinking of a female farmer type skunk. Company is called Mephit so it would be perfect.

Firstly, Merry Christmas to everyone

Last week I was called into my boss'e office and told come 31 January I will not have my work contract renewed. I asked if i was been Retrenched, but was told that i wasnt. Not having your contract renewed doesn't count as been retrenched.

Then today i wasn't thinking and i have accidentally deleted all my data from the past 7 years. All my downloads everything.

I had a flash disk i used as a backup and it is busted too.


I think I will climb into a cupboard and cry

I am on leave atm, been a long time since work has allowed me to take 2 weeks off. I wanted to take longer but they wont have it. When I get back on the 7th I will still have 3 weeks leave due to me.

I have taken this time to finish off old projects and hopefully begin work on new ones. I am busy building a series of aquaponic systems to grow vegetables to sell to raise much needed funds to make up the short fall of not having received a salary increase for the past five years. The cost of living has increased so much these past five years I am finding it difficult to honor my debts. Hopefully these growing frames will do the job. I am also designing and installing vinyl logos, company details and signage on peoples vehicles. Completed one bakkie today, and very happy to hear I have received an order for another on Saturday.

....Since I have added anything here. Looking back I don't know where all the time went but its been two years, two difficult years.

I am going to try and post stuff regularly but i cannot promise. Today I will begin with a recap of the two years.

My Dad past away from Cancer. He had lost a kidney years ago due to the big C and we thought he was over it. He developed Parkinson's which took its toll. He always remained positive, though you could see how frustrated he became as things got slower and he battled to hide the shakes. He was a very proud man, never shrugged his responsibilities, never complained or procrastinated when doing chores around the house.

I had my mom and dad move in with me so I could help my mom take care of him, also to help take care of my mom. She insisted on doing everything. Life was good, we mended a lot of broken bridges but some wounds were never healed, we just bypassed them and pretended they never existed to begin with.

My job got more and more difficult, I also took on the responsibility of starting and running my own business outside of working hours. It was a disaster. The more I tried to grow the biz the further into dept i got, all this was kept from my folks, then my dad took a turn for the worse. He could not support himself and his Parkinson's went out of control. We rushed him to the hospital some 70 kilometers away in the next town and there we were told he had cancer of the brain. His body's organs were covered with cancer and it was too late. He passed seven days later.

While he was in hospital I was not allowed to take leave. It was work or bye bye, no more job. Thankfully my sister came out from Australia so she could take my mom to the hospital during the day. I traveled at night to see him. That Friday night he passed I was going to see him but I was so tired from working that I put it off for the Saturday. I never got to tell my Dad goodbye.

Not only did my job cost me time to spend with my Dad, it also didnt' allow we time to grieve, I was given one day to attend his funeral, one day to say my goodbyes and then it was work as usual.


I hate my Job, hate my bosses, hate the company. All my free time is now spent building and working towards launching a new company. Hopefully one that will pay me a salary so I can leave this crappy existence behind.

I want to apologize to everyone for not staying in contact. I have missed our conversations and I hope that we can begin anew.

Well after much searching I found a small (140 sq Meter) workshop which I can (Hopefully) afford. It needs a lot of work, the floor is covered with old oil soacked newspaper which has set like concrete and I have to soack the floor with water just to loosen it enough to scrape it off. I have to now fix the doors, add an alarm, put new lights and plugs and then hopefully I can move in. Should be in a months time.

It seems that the company name has been reserved, just waiting for it to be registered.

I am getting readdy to comission a sticker / logo design for the new company. I know what I want just need to find the right artistic style to have it drawn in

Well things taking shape. I applied to register the company name today. I had to choose 4 possible names incase the one I really want cannot be used for some reason.

Also my cool as Ice Intercooler went out for a quote to begin fabriation.