For as long as I can remember I have wanted to draw good pictures. I have always favored the cartoony type of images and then I discovered Furry. I have tried, then stopped and then tried again to improve my drawings. With my hectic work schedule I am not always in the mood to draw. I am hoping to make time this year and just have fun.

I have posted a few of my older stuff, have a couple more which I will add. Started a new piece, will post it when finished, hopefully there will be an improvement in quality.

I have been venting my fustrations about my boss and his tight ass not giving me a raise, now....oh it gets better.

You won't believe this, today his nibs called me aside and tells me that I have been given a raise. I mean WTF?

One minute I am useless and not worth an increase now here it is have a nice day. I am not complaining, well not any more. Thank you sir!

Today I heard form a very reliable source at work that my boss, the one who says I am useless etc is going to be dropping my wages. His reasons do not make sense to me so i am now having to wait to find out when and if so how much am i going to loose.

I get paid hourly, and i have signed a contract till march 2011. I have worked for the company for 4 years now and no one has had any issues with what i earn. I started in one factory then I was asked to transfer to another factory some 700 kilometers away. With the move came more money as the work was harder, the responsibilities were more.

In 3 years at the new factory I have had one increase as per inflation. Now this new fucker pitches up and wants me to earn the same as the other draughtsman who have been there for 1 year and who's rates were negotiated deliberately low as they were desperate for work.

So I have to accept this with a smile and be happy, should I challenge the drop in pay I could very well have my contract cancelled and be told to piss off.

I feel as if i have been kicked in the teeth, now i have deadlines to reach in 3 weeks as we have a huge international team visiting to do an audit. How am i supposed to be motivated to work knowing no matter how i perform i am going to be screwed.

Well its that time again, the calender has rolled over and we are supposed to remember to write 2011 instead of 2010. The amount of times i have had to scratch out the date and rewrite it is pathetic an its only the second week of the new year.

As usual there are many resolutions which I will no doubt fail to keep or not even bother to attempt. The first of which is to continue with my transition. For those of you who have read anything I have put op on this site and don't know me, I am a transsexual (God I hate that word) and I am and have been trying to change my life for what seems like forever.

This year I want to go all out and just live my life the way i want to, fuck family, fuck co-workers and fuck anyone who has an issue with who and what i am. Thing is, things are not so simple. Work is a bastard, I spend my day surrounded my homophobic fuckers who would just love to beat me to a pulp and run me out of my job and the town where I stay.

I tried to emigrate to Australia but I found out today that my ignant ass does not qualify for a visa. I thought South Africa was part of the so called commonwealth. Doesn't that mean i am a trusted ally? Why do i have to be some kind of genius with multiple degrees to be allowed to enter the country? Maybe when my sister becomes an Australian citizen that will help, who knows.

Back to work, on friday I was told that my boss isn't happy with my performance and that i am not getting an increase. I have not had an increase for 2 years now. All around me prices are increasing, my rent went up as did petrol and now i am struggling. I have to work my ass off now to prove to him i deserve an increase. I have been with the company for 4 years now and he has only transfered to our factory. Last year i pulled many a long night to save other people in the company from looking stoopid and now i am told that my performance is substandard. "Fuck you!!"

There are 5 other people who work with me. One never arrives to work on time and his work is always late, the other is hardly at his desk, he cannot enter his password properly to access his PC and he can never find his drawings. I have to find them for him. The youngest of us is piss ass slow and prefers spending time dreaming and chatting that actually working.

Now I am not the best at what I do, I survive on what little brains I was given and by pure dumb luck but all conceptual drawings, flow sheets and tender drawings are given to me to complete. Every one who wants drawings, information, sketches etc come to me to do the work. Surely this tells my boss that I am worth an increase?

Apologies for the ranting but in truth I just don't care.

I finally got a commission done for my Furry Muck and Tapestries Character Death.

It came out just as I had imagined so I am one very happy fur.

Thank you to RubinRedPanda

Image at http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4779346

Heyhey

Belated Happy New Year to everyone. I hope that 2009 is a good year for all of you.

It was a rough start to the year, work is scarey busy with a lot of responcibility on my shoulders with regard to the volume of drawings required for this years projects.

Other than that, not much to report.

Take care

I decided to post one of my old story's to FA over the weekend. To be honest I was a bit nervous in doing so. It wasn't a very good story, it was written on a "spur of the moment" late one nite.

I am busy reworking another old story, "Chronicles of the North Star" I currently have about 12 chapters completed. I will post them once I have gone thru each page and updated the plots.

I abandoned it 5 years ago but the other day I was going thru an old backup when I came across it. I realised that it still had potential so I am going to try and salvage it.

It has been a good week. Work has been great, the weather great and in general things have gone rather smoothly.....so why am I having these feelings of dread?

I have started to draw again. Actually I should say started to learn how to draw. I have dozens of self help books, you know the ones where they show you step by step how to draw something. Well I am following the steps, but I don't think it is helping much. I get very fustrated when my picture does not look exactly like what is shown. I know practice makes purfect, I just wish there was someone nearby who I could take lessons with.

I will post some of the images on the site as I progress


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Yesterday was a good day.

For years I have been wanting find more South African based Furs, and yesterday I was pointed to a website with plenty members.

Its great, can tick that off the todo list (Tick)

So to all the members who will hopefully make their way here......HI!!!

I am still trying to figure out what exactly to put on this site. I am by no means an idiot but I am useless when it comes to sites such as Facebook, myspace and well this place.

I am still trying to fine an image to use as an Avatar. I want it to be original, but since my scanner and printers are sitting at my old place (folk's house) I need to make a plan to get them delivered to where I am now staying.

I have thought about displaying some art, perhaps some of my old sandings (Mirrors and glasses) as well as some of my stories.

As for any personal updates.....not much has happened. The sun has risen every morning and set each night.

Later

Hello

Okay lets get this started.

I am never good at maintaining things like this. Firstly my life is boring so frequent updates will be far and few.

Hopefully I will be able to open up a little bit and let you into my world. Be warned, it isn't pretty.

Okay enough of that.

Chat later

PS> I can be found on Furrymuck or Taps. Character name: Death.