Honestly how i can even put this into words just recently got a refund from a one of my artists that I had commissioned honestly I'm not so sure if I want to buy commissions anymore I wait too long I understand everyone has a bad time in life, but in honesty don't tell someone you're going to do something then turn around and not do it it makes you look bad as an artist itself and as a person so just do yourself a favor don't commission if you can't uphold a promise just take care of your issues first then worry about art like that later this journal is not directed at anyone rightfully they can be directed to the world I don't care as much as I love the fandom as much as I love the artwork, I just think hell I'm just going to be blunt I think I'm going to deactivate my fa account and be done with it because recently it's been nothing but drama lies I just think it's time to let go honestly I don't know for a fact if I will or not but I'm taking a break from furaffinty deviantART all the websites really I've got too much on my plate and being even more disappointed from artist and well everything it's just not really worth the effort no more I'm sorry

My buddy an bro  NekoStar offically started his comic today an you can find the first page on his Website http://mako.nekostar.net/ and even on his furafffinity page GET PUMPED AN EXCITED!!! Cause its gonna be a long journey from here an i wish him luck an HE has my support 100% So give him support too !

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6828357/  Vexstacy is having a free art raffle to celebrate 10k watchers Go enter an have fun! GOOD LUCK to EVERYONE AN TO YOU VEX!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16879099
GO check it out !!!

My new friend  Chirri is in Dire need of some money an offering cheep thigh ups and even some Full body couple pics

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6797292/ GO TO HER AN CHECK IT OUT!

OK!!! Once this last commission Batch is finished Ill post the artwork and then once i do so ill be Working on something Special...i seen alot of Adopts for sale And i figured id join the fun...so...maybe ill sell some My Prices will Range from 20 to 30$ depending on detail ect ect But the adopts will be fairly cheap Ive seen some adopts an some i like but...Ive seen some ppl have bought an Honestly Questioned but..this is my personal thoughts and will not go into detail cause im not one to hurt someones fe....Wtf am i saying i dont care whos feelings i hurt...Ive seen some adopts being sold using a waitress base an they been selling between 35 to litterally hundreds and ive seen some thats made me scratch my head an Question...WHY???....i wont name names nor will i But the adopts i will be working on i will be pouring my soul into and even Remake some of my old Characters into Adopts cause they need a new home...and i can no longer care for them sadly...i guess we will see what happens

ok i Found this by Random chance....honestly Reminds me of Doom or Serious Sam...Seriously...i want this to happen

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....-fps?ref=video

CHECK IT OUT!!!

Well letting alot of artists i have spoken to about possibly commissioning you..I am DEEPLY sad to inform you i wont be able to keep my word to all of you...car payment an credit card is due tomarrow an thats slamming me pretty hard with a 726.37 bill with just those 2...mine an my fiance's cells are gonna be another 100 so...and i only make 380 take taxes into this...and you got a 260$ check every week...and thats not covering gas food ect ect... Point is...ive gotten some of your hopes up and only for me to come Baring with bad news...Its goin to be a few months before i can honestly buy or pay for any artwork right now...Life...Seriously...Sucks right now...and i am deeply sorry..

ok so the news to start with IS i finally GOT full time And a 1.25 Raise although it was suppose to be a $2 raise then led to believe it was $1.50 " seriously Assholes fucking get your information right before telling me something then blowing my hopes to hell!!"

additional News I will be getting Married on October 31st!!! " why that day?" Well it was the week of halloween we offically met so we Decided why not? my parents rather me get married when they was suppose to years back when they did on december 17th...but the choice is ours not theirs so yea... anyways!!!

so ill be able to buy more commissions in time

ok i have been getting watches lately ( thank you all btw ) but i just seen that 3 ppl removed me recently an im wondering Wtf??? yes i know i dont update regularly but it cant be helped due to work an other life stuff goin on...i plan on updating more but CMON!!!! i did nada wrong >:U!!!!

anyways update is i got my armor making on hold for awhile
works being a dick to me ( what else is new -,- )
but everything is working out slowly...so ...Stop it...STOP removin me DX

alright springs here so NOW its time to get back into workin on the armor" bout time i say!!!"...anyways im workin on 2 projects
1st: my halo Reach armor
2nd: Darkfox's Tech armor
3rd:...Destroy the 4 acres of non stop HEDGES!!!
4th:...get Kura a Ref sheet by  Faeora an a offical pic Commissioners in mind for the pic is  madeena8521 or  faeora and even  llucario least im hoping so...
5th:...getting my ass back into Drawing...or least try...
6th: SAVE MONEY!!!!...an sell Stuff
but the first thing i DO need to get done...GET THIS AND my second Room CLEANED AN TIDY so i cna even work on 1 an 2!!!

anyways if you know someone whos open so i can get my girls brung into life more PLEASE inform me x.x

Ok i know i said i would post some art but sadly Not happening but i have begun practicing a lil but im still beyond stressed...i been workin anywhere from 40 to 70 hours a week for 7.50 a hour...honestly...i perfer least Freaking 8.25 or 8.50... but i can't complain...i barley have time for anything no more...not even my mate...fuck my mates job hasn't worked her for 2 weeks an shes still on the Time sheets...but Seriously...shes not pregnant shes not disabled nor Hurt so why is she not workin at all...Cause her jobs an ass...Damn $ tree to hell i swear...anyways shes applying at another job an im going to as well i maybe getting many hours but its not enough money especially with the kind of Taxes thats being yanked outta my ass... im gonna be opening a checking account or savings idk yet...we're gonna be tryin to move out soon as we FREAKIN can..tired of payin 400 a month an being called a lazy no good peice of shit when im breaking my back...my mate is sick an tired of the shit an so have i...we pay our own way pay my parents rent an yet its gone unappreciated an Frankly...we're done... so we found a place but since my parents been swimming in my money...we still aint Got enough for a down payment an considering a room mate or 2...things will work out in the end hopefully

ok i know a few ppl doin raffles so here XP
one being done by meer  Meer_darksight http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4489556/
another done by Raven  Ravensmoon666 https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4476812/

i have 3 jobs now...construction...grocery..an now a theme park...ill be honest...the theme park might not be worth it...its Freaking stict as hell the orientation was 8 hours long X___x an the way they say 1 thing but leads to another makes ya questen it though...they want ya to have fun yet its so strict an so stressful...id be better off at freaking walmart but im giving it a shot reguardless...they will either fire me or lemme go...im not gonna quit...but the uniform is 40$ an i gotta have a food licence to cook there...HONESTLY?! the hell shit is that....its not hard to cook a burger or a hot dog or chicken tenders...LET ALONE FRIES...its common sense...i understand some ppl dont have that knowing but if your to live on ya own or something....learn fast

needless to say...im gonna be a very busy fox/wolf demon hybrid x.x

alright first of all i got my licence ( yay clappin for myself...-,- ) also i have some commissions i want from certain artists an they know who they are...
full mint sheet from  zoruvee...
i owe  zyote 105$ on commissions...haven't heard from him in over a month starting to worry about him
 kampaisuchi a commission of the scene i gave to you...
 neko-maya i have a idea but its on hault for now sadly...
i also have to buy 2 car tags an pay my cell bill which is a total of 110...
i have to replace my Computer since it fried on me ( for those wondering wtfh has happend to me an why im not replyin or anything) thats another $540
my 2 spares dont even work even after checkin everything i have a feelin someone tampered with my stuff =-=...no shock to me honestly...
and im JOB hunting....yes freakin hell i am hunting a mother f***ing job...my job worked me for 4 days in several months...im finished with it so im hunting another...im 21 an i can't be sitting here depending on my parents to provide for me...the economy needs to straighten up an fast cause im a lil tired of havin to hunt an hunt for a job an being told no so much...some of us wanna work to make money to FREAKIN LIVE...so yeah current status...also im on a 98 model laptop....when i buy a new pc or laptop....dear goddess im breakin this mother fuckin thing... its litterally...KILLIN ME...ill try an get back on soon as im able to...

Well my cars Finally Fixed an workin like it should now i have no more worries with it im saving my money for a decent cell phone my drawing is...slightly ...very slightly improveing... blah x.x my digital works an skills are decent but drawing wise is....it needs some tips tricks an help really also i may get to fangcon I honestly have no freakin idea

your able to send money to other ppl on the dot but when its refunded it has to take a few days or so just to get the money back on your debit card or some crap....honestly what kind of bullshit is that...if you paid for something an then it was refunded on the spot then the money should return to the card when it says the refund is complete so really ....GIMME MY FUCKIN MONEY! im freakin poor i don't need to deal with this crap

alright alright i been slacking but im gonna post the rest of the RCFM pics up...yeah i been busy with car repairs an very lil time...heck i've started to draw but...not much since i started back =___='; anyways i got...6 pics imma post an about another 20 RCFM pics to post just bare with me everyone...thnx

i've started back drawing an honestly...the art block is still gnawing on me* literally*
with the fact i barley hear form my Gf* we haven't officially broken apart...*
was sick* for a week*
my immune system seems to of gotten slightly weaker... im honestly undsure how happy i can stay at the rate things continue...
oh an parents fighting* what else is new =_=*
i've started back drawing along with workin on my halo armor an weapon props...things are slow...no motivation at all no money income...
job hunting has been a bust so things are the same...
somewhat im gonna keep practicing drawing an workin on things i like but...i just feel empty alot of times...
i always wanted a sister..found out she died before even given a chance to live an recently for the last few months i been having these visions or dreams of her...
as if she is alive an out there...buti try an not think too deep cause its just a dream an all...all i can do is wish for those around me to have a good life an enjoy it ^^ i just wish i could figure out why im empty so much =/ oh well anyways
good news im workin on stuff an keepin busy an chatting with all the new friends i made
bad news: duh no job BOO! =,= i wanna work an make something of myself...it sucks im having to sit on my butt now...bleh -,- lifes a pain in the ASS

i got home from the con on sunday night an monday rolled around an about night time i started to have a very light cough on tuesday....
i couldn't talk i was in terrible pain still am btw X_x an i don't think i got sick at the con but from an ass of a friend whom i cant consider to be a friend right now cause of the hurtful stuff he said,
he looked at it as if it was jokin an being funny when really its not...
how did i enjoy my time with all them furries?
how was it in the rump?
an all that shit to the point i told him i was not putting up with him insulting anyone that i was with at the con cause there was MANY nice an very caring an loving souls, he got all pissy tellin me that he was jokin an messin with me when really if he'd been there...he'd been disliked within an hour with how he is..
idk how i put up with him honestly...later that night while we was out he was bothering another friend cause she was asking what the ghetto was like... an the area he was takin us was nothing of a ghetto just an area of poor ppl who are struggling in life,
i told him to get pushin it an stop this damn bullshit lyin an i lightly popped him in the back of the head next thing i know i got sucker punched an him tellin me "mother fucker come on! i goddamn dare you hit me you mother fuckin animal fuckin fur fag"* to that point i couldn't belive what he had said...all i did was lightly popped in in the head like ya mom would do to get ya attention Not to a hurting point,
i basicly asked her to turn around an take us back home she turned an drove us back home an he was tellin her to turn the fuck around we're not done,
an she snapped up tellin him shes not putting up with this shit she got pissed at both of us really,
idk why me considering all i told him to stop his fuckin lying but she later told me she wasn't mad at me just mad at what happend an in all honesty for a friend since kindergarden who couldnt handle the fact i was bisexual acted different an found out i was a furry got to the point he wasn't himself around me...
more of a assholish prick that would get punched...i honestly hate fighting an when i was sucker punched i was tempted to snap back...but i knew it wasn't worth it so i backed off an ignored him,
he doesn't understand who i am nor truly accepted me for who i am...which honestly hurts...i also lost my gf of 6 years an i didn't know anything till i confronted her about it...so really i got home form the con to some bad stuff...

im uploadin all the pics an videos im able to videos will be on my youtube channel pics will be here an on facebook an if you wish to have the pics that i've taken please inform me im more then happy to send you the pics an videos myself ^^

i didnt expect to actually make as many friends as i did at the con it was my first con an i felt like an outsider at first for awhile it seemed that way till furries an ppl started comin to me an talkin an i started to actually open up an soon saw that i was more then welcome i've been used to being put down an considered an outsider that i never felt welcome no where up till the con...i soon started to actually enjoy myself an open completely up i felt like myself for the first time in years...the new friends i made i'll never forget any of them...because of them an many others i felt at home an welcomed...i actually didn't wanna leave..i wanted to cry *coughs* anyways! i had a blast at RCFM an i hope to see everyone again at the next con though im not sure when the next con will be...or when i'll have work an money again =_=

[x] you meow/bark to get attention
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[x] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[x] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[ ] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 5

[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat
[ ] you like to stick your head out through the window of a moving car.
[ ] you like when people pet your head
[ ] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper (never had newspaper XD)
[x] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 3

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime
[x] you enjoy scaring birds (:3 ooo flying )
[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you
[x] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[x] milk or water is your favorite drink (millllkkkkkkkkk)
Total: 4

[x] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[x] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[x] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 3

[x] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 5

[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[x] you meow or bark very often
[x] you hide when you get scared
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[x] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 6

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[x] you refer to yourself as an animal
[x] your username has something to do with animals
[x] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[x] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better ( i like blood :3 )
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 6

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[ ] you like to say hi to strangers
[ ] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[x] people think you act like a pet
[x] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[x] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 3

Final total: 70%

Take your score and multiply it by 2
Put your title as "I'm _% Furry"

Selling video games from Ps2 wii 360 gamecube Ds selling yugioh cards an pokemon cards gonna do what i can to sell sell sell but i need buyers note me or comment me if there is something you want or items you want...i will give you decent prices an do my best...i need this money HINCE the word NEED! this is for buying my family an friends Christmas this year an things are not lookin good...im also working on Halo armor an other armor builds for money as well i can work on it for you an make items for you at the cheap i know most armor sells for jack shit prices like helmets from plaster dip an all that from 350 to 500* but im ranging my prices from 50 to 200 so im doin cheap prices for alot of work...my family means alot so please...any one....help me
you can find my Deviantart here with some pics of the cards games an all its not all of my stuff keep that in mind everyone
http://darkfoxprojectx.deviantart.com/ also see some of the armor i've pepped up as well...

i seen the article about how AlertPay dropped furaffinity an said it was cause of the cub art...im honestly going wtfh ...all cause ppl don't listen to warnings an look then go off bitching off an complaining about it...ppl have posted thumbnail warnings LEFT AND RIGHT saying you been warned its cub art but no ppl have gotta be closed minded asses an take away more of our freedom of art...some of you think its wrong ok thats your choice some others have their own thoughts on the whole thing an umm ello its a drawing...its not a real life picture...if it was a real life picture then you can bitch off other then that quit your belly aching about it if i get banned for this journal fine wtfh ever i support cub art not cause its underage sexual art theres clean work i like as well its the passion an work they put into the art NOT CAUSE THEY ARE PEDO'S an most of them are not even fucking pedo's for fucks sake so quit harassing them an saying they are!
in all honestly this sucks big time but can't argue with the ones keeping this site alive...i'll miss the cub art that i see but it'll never die no matter what anyone says or does...so ppl...reality check... ppl draw what they want cause they want to or cause they can why CAUSE ITS OUR CHOICE AS AMERICANS an free spirited minded souls in this world so you can continue to whine an belly ache but its never gonna die no matter what
i support cub art clean or mature an i will die supporting cub art an furries all around... if i lose my account then fine i will find somewhere else to be
furaffinity Live on an may this site forever stay an never be lost an if so...then my god ppl are low life asses for being so damn closed minded -.-

well i got me a new pc for 160$ and come to find out the new pc was installed with every CS4 adobe program ever made and i literally was blown away O_O im able to work on everything now and learn photoshop :3 so woo hoo for me...i just need a graphics card and a tablet now -,- one starcraft2 an 2 MORE ARTWORK!!!