So, I know I'm not very active but I hope y'all are doing fine, even if we have a pandemic on our hands.

Schools are closed but we're still getting work to do, luckily though none of that online classes bullcrap for us. Though I do wish the teachers actually did their job, instead they just tell us what to get done without even explaining anything... Also some are sending the work whenever they wish, including late in the evening which I mean, okay. I'm sure most are going to bed late now anyway but, come on. Makes the situation a bit of a joke, considering that the principal told us to keep a school daily schedule, that is waking up early etc. but what's the point lol, even the teachers themselves don't do that.

I'll try to get some art done , hopefully I can even though I'm really unmotivated to do anything (I've just been playing games mostly and watching YT.. I'm a mess I know)


Also, my neighbor is supposed to be in quarantine because he's been travelling around Europe, but my dad went and did work with him anyway?? I hope neither of them will get the virus, my grandpa is old and not doing very good, the virus will actually end his life if he gets it. I have no idea what my dad was thinking.


Anyway enough of me rambling, be safe you guys. And remember to wash your hands, let's make sure those with poor health can get through this unharmed.

welp, schools officially have been closed for now. Free time I guess..?

actually not really we'll still be getting lectures and schoolwork with mail, or so we were told.

https://oceanhero.today/

Just gonna put this here

So, I got my leg cast off today, aaah finally my leg felt so restricted. But it's all thin and weak now, I'll have to slowly exercise it (for now I can only bend it 90 degrees until I feel pain and can't really go further). And I gotta wear a knee stabilizer, I think until the next visit which will be 30th of march.

Also gotta be really careful not to make a wrong move and mess it up again.

But hey, at least I don't have to go to PE class until the end of april, lmao

Welp I'm off for a week long trip to the mountains, to experience winter and go skiing. Also gonna meet up with my bestie at the end of the week, I'm excited

Though after that school starts again for me. But anyways, I'll be back in a week

Welp, it's finally over. Thankfully the RTG scan didn't show any bent roots or anything so it didn't take too long to get the tooth out, but it was definitely unpleasant. I had to get 2 injections of painkillers because the 1st one didn't work in the right area, yet I still felt everything afterwards and it was painful, pulling out permanent teeth ain't fun.

The surgeon said that we should come next week to get the stitches out, but luckily later said we can do it ourselves too (that's when we're going on our trip to the mountains)

Now just gotta be careful the next couple of days not to cause myself more pain due to an open wound.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34761603/

Spreading the word because it's just sad and horrible. The two have been managing somehow but it sounds like it's really hard for them. I hope they'll be able to gather enough money for the surgery.

Even if you can't pay it'd be great if you guys could spread it too.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9385519/ <-- This amazing artist is doing an art raffle, check it out!

So a bit random but.. Mine and 's anniversary is on 2 different days for us (probably because of time zones)

So we'll probably make it last 2 days or something xd I dunno why I made a journal but it just seems funny to me lmao

welp- so on 29th I'll have surgery to remove one of my permanent teeth, the one that's been causing me pain sometimes since june. Hopefully it'll go okay, many things could go wrong with how messed up the tooth is.

Today I had an antibiotic put into it after some drilling, hopefully it'll last until then and lessen the pain (I couldn't sleep for 2 days now because of it)


A little update: the antibiotic in my tooth seems to be working, I'm in way less pain now and the inflammation has gone down. Thankfully I can sleep normally again sheesh.

Just wishing you all a Happy New Years, whatever timezone you're in. Hope 2020 will be great for you all!

To all people who are celebrating it (or something else, I don't know y'all's cultures)


Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, happily spent with your families and people close to you <3

Take it easy today, since today is a day for happiness ^^

today is 20th of December, that is the end of the raffle! Thank you all for joining and for all the new watches, I appreciate it a lot!


The winning numbers are:
1st place - number 30
2nd place - number 38
_{generated in random number generator}

I'll be contacting the 2 winners shortly, congratulations!



Also just adding, there will definitely be more raffles in the future, they're fun and it's nice to gift people stuff sometimes (as I gain more watchers, next most likely at 500, also maybe when I'll do YCH's or other occasions)

So I've just been through the most pain I've ever been because of sickness--


It started at school and didn't think much of it but good GOD it got awful quick. Thankfully I feel better now because I managed to sleep through it a bit but damn. I had the worst headache I've ever had, I couldn't speak because of the pain and add to that constant vomiting, even if I didn't eat anything, also silent screams are really fucking terrifying.

I feel really bad for my dad for having to see that though he had to deal with my worst state, I couldn't answer any of his questions because all that came out from me were cries and jumbles of letters.


Don't worry though I'm better. My boyfriend was worried because where he is something similar is happening but people are getting kidney failures, though it's not that thankfully, I think I got it from my mom when she was sick last thursday.

Any of you ever had something similar? For those who didn't, i hope you don't, it's freaking awful.

so I'm going through a moment of hating my art and my artstyle I think? I dunno I just feel uncomfortable and I cringe inwardly when I look at some of my stuff.


I'll still be posting some random art but, it'll be really frustrating for me because I want to change how I draw things and the process will probably be hard since I've stuck with the same style for like at least a year now. So yeah, I'm sorry you guys.


_{This is also one of the reasons why I don't want to do commissions, I just feel like a disappointment and I don't want to waste people's money.}

Hey guys. Imma straight away apologize for the minimal activity- school's getting pretty tough to handle for me and just egh stuff.. This is the most exhausted I've been in a long time. This week really sucked too, and it ended off with my aunt's mother's death, which is just wonderful. (no need to worry about me though. I hope my aunt and her family will be okay, it's bad for them right now)



Anyways enough of that, about my commissions. So I was really hoping I could finally open them soon, if not that at least during Christmas break, but I really don't think I'll be able to. I don't think I'd be able to handle doing school work, and then when I get some time for myself only do more work. I mean sure, technically I could accept only like 1 commission at a time when I feel like it or something, but the stress of making people wait only because I can't handle it would still be there. I know I might sound like really selfish and lazy/comfy or whatever, and I'm sorry. I really don't want a repeat of what happened a while back, so I don't want to ignore my mental health any more after that.



So sorry again for that, you're mostly gonna see personal art/some gifts and other stuff from me, at least for now. Maybe sometime I'll try doing commission slots or something? Who knows.


Also yes, I do realize I just reached 100 watchers (103 now, *ScReAms InTeRnALLY*) And like I promised, I'll open a raffle for y'all wonderful people who tolerate me enough to watch me.

Hope you all have a wonderful day/night.

Sorry for the art spam guys xD

I just realized that I had a lot of stuff I haven't uploaded so I decided to just get it done all at once

hope I didn't bother y'all or anything



Anyway now I'll go to bed because it's 3:30 am. I lost track of time

I think the sd card my dad bought for me was poor quality-- I kept finding my drawings in the phone gallery corrupted and I couldn't move things to or from that card which was frustrating. I just copied all the files that were fine to my pc and I'm unmounting the card from my phone, I'll try to find and buy a good one.


Also it was the first time I've experienced corruption and it was scary. Once I plugged in my phone to my pc I found over 120 corrupted files.


_{and sorry if I sound dead inside I'm on my period and having really bad cramps and this week is busy as hell I'm on caffeine}

EDIT: forgot to update it, but my pen works again. I'm back on track though very slow because I'm busy with school x-x





So uh- yesterday I accidentally got my pen wet and it stopped working. I set it to dry and I wasn't that worried because it doesn't have any electricity in it (at least it said so on the box) but after a day it still doesn't work at all. Changing the nibs doesn't work either.


I looked it up if other people had an issue like that and most answers were to just leave it out to dry for a couple days or the rice trick.

I'll try a few things but I'm kinda freaking out right now because I couldn't find any offers online where they sell the pen separately so if it's broken for good I'll have to get a new tablet entirely, but the thing is only my pen is broken my tablet works well... *sigh*


..I guess it's an excuse to finally start using my sketchbook though..? haha......




Update: talked about it with my dad and we pulled the pen apart and now I see how it all works. I tried using the inner pieces with the nib on the tablet and it kinda works? The buttons don't but they're not really necessary, I can just use my laptop keyboard instead. Now I set it all aside to hopefully dry off faster, really hope it works fine again.

So my class was supposed to go to the forest today but suddenly principal cancelled it because it was drizzling, not even raining (right as we were about to go, by the way) so nobody brought anything for classes and after sitting 1 lesson not doing anything we decided to just go home, but oh boy xD


We went all over the school looking for our homeroom teacher so that she could dismiss us to go home so that we didn't have consequences but she told us she can't do that, so we went downstairs to just get out but we were caught and were made to go back to class, BUT we went downstairs to the underground level to wait till he's gone. But then we ran into our teacher that we were supposed to have class with and all, though I told her that I'm dismissed so that I can go and someone else was actually dismissed. When we were walking to the door we ran into that teacher from before again and he got mad but again told him I'm dismissed (I wasn't, by the way but he didn't question for a paper or anything thankfully) and he let me and the other student go. xD this was fun lmao never expected anything like that to happen in my nerd class


Also, if we didn't get out we'd have to stay for 8 hours because on thursday we have a lot of classes and thanks I ain't doing nothing for 8 hours at school-

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32950271/


sharing this here because I'm entering myself, their art is really good ^^ feel free to enter as well

Today was the first day of my new school and, I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought, actually it all seemed pretty nice.

I hope the next few years here will be okay, and hopefully I will have enough free time considering that everyone says the class I chose is really difficult.. ^^; I'm really worried but yeah.

also I plan to open my commissions again soon(ish), I just need to fix the prices and rewrite the info but idrk when I'll finally do it. xD should be this month hopefully


also school means that I'll be less active online unfortunately, but I'll still try to get on at least a few times a week.

so, got a redesign of his character and he really wanted our characters to match more so we made an alternate design for Darkey.


I'm still sticking to her original design because I just can't part with it, so now Darkey has 2 designs I guess :v

here it is: https://sta.sh/02ckydvqofqe

it's also gonna be in the description of her reference sheet

I'm back home! Spent a wonderful time with my bestie. Meeting online friends is amazing and we're planning to meet more often and do stuff together.


Now that I'm back I should catch up on things though aaand unfortunately prepare for school as it starts again very soon.... *sigh*

also random fact, my class will have 27 students and only 5 guys oof

So tomorrow I'm going over to my online bestie who I met up with before and I'll spend about a week with her, having fun and all

(both excited and stressed, but I'd say mostly excited)