oof i had a lot done at the dentist today haven't felt dizzy like that in a long time xd
also tasted blood in my mouth for most of the day

yes i had teeth issues don't ask, next and probably last visit is on 8th aug. I was dumb and thought I didn't need help but thankfully it didn't get too bad

Back from my trip, jeez I an exhausted the drive back home took almost the entire day and night.

the weather wasn't exactly the best, but still it was nice. We visited Budapest, swam in the thermal lake in Hungary, also been to Croatia for 4 more days because why not and other stuff. Feels good to be back home though.

gotta go take care of some stuff for now, also maybe draw something ^^;

welp, I'll be leaving for our vacation soon and I'll probably be gone until 18th of july. Just wanted to let all you guys know why I won't be active.


_{and we'll drive about 10 hours to get there oof that'll be a boring 10 hours}

sorry for the art spam guys
I just should really try uploading regularly but I am a terrible procrastinator in everything haha

So like.. is it weird that I'm so obsessed with my sona?
because, I love her and I gave her my personality and whatnot, but I hate myself (lol nothing new) and yet I freaking adore her.

I dunno it's just.. weird to me.
wondering if anyone else has this sorta thing

HAHAHA YESSSS GUESS WHAT I HAVE MY NEW PC NOW
this is amazing;;; I actually have a gaming pc now my older one is so crap compared to this one
I can play games on high settings and it still runs really smooth, doing that would kill the older one aaa
Also I have Windows 10 now, it's so awesome I didn't get the chance to use it before

I wonder if my tablet driver will work on this one though, on my previous pc it thought my tablet was a mouse and I couldn't fix it so I had to draw without pressure senstitivity :/ gonna see

sorry for the short inactivity again, the past few days were crazy. During the weekend when we were on a trip I got a chance to meet one of my best online friends (it was so wonderful <3 I hope we can meet up and spend time together again soon)
We came home at like 1 am though and I couldn't sleep because my tooth started to hurt awfully until I passed out and I slept through my alarm and slept in to school. Haha, I think that was the first time I slept in lol. <s>also I'm having some more personal issues again but let's not talk about that</s>

and about the tooth issue oh my god;;;; my dentist said to come on 4th of june... I doubt I can last a month like this we're gonna have to find an earlier date somehow I can't live on painkillers

I just realized
digital artists give life to so many lines and immediately destroy them while trying to get the perfect one
this is so sad
let's give a moment of silence to all the lines that haven't been given a chance to exist

....I just realised how much vent art there is that I haven't uploaded and I planned to
also I forgot to upload 3 characters
lmaoooo I am so unorganised

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA guess whaaat my drawing tablet finally arrived I'm so happy and exciteeeed aaaaaaaaa I just gotta set it up and install the driver finalllyyyyyyyyyy eeeeee

hah okay now I'm back for real, fixed the issue with Windows ^^' thankfully. I was worried my laptop was broken

Wow
Windows just broke on me
way to ruin a weekend after a hell week am I right

Heyy, the torture-- I mean exams are finally over! I can finally rest and do what I want, hah. I'll still have school obviously but I should be able to chill now and have time to draw.
I have a lot of catching up to do, huh.

Hey so I might have to go away for a couple weeks to try to focus on studying and dealing with my mental issues
my grades have dropped a lot and the exams are soon, I can't write them in my current state, my mind can't concentrate on anything and I have trouble sleeping
so yeah, I might be on occasionally but other than that I'll see you all probably after the exams in april

well this week was absolute shit. And the next one won't be any better, hhh.

at least tomorrow is my irl friend's birthday (I actually made a friend for the first time in years I'm so happy about it) and he invited me to his b-day party so, hell, I'm going for sure. Despite the fact after that I gotta go to another one with my parents because family stuff. but yeah sorry for the inactivity again the amount of work teachers give us is literally stupid.

school is pain right now
so like, our teahcers have rules to follow (obviously) for example they can only do up to 3 tests a week, and they don't. we have tests basically everyday.
One of my teachers was trying to plan a test but when they saw how many tests we had planned she was surprised and counted things, it turns out per 20 school days on 18 of those there are tests. Woah. Even I wasn't aware of that because we're so used to working our asses off
also everything is horrible right now, in 2 weeks I have more practice exams. I can't wait until the final exams in april are over uuugh it's awful

so yeah so
sorry for the inactivity, only weeks left now until I can take a rest and do what I want

heyy so I'm finally back from my trip, I spent a good time away from stress and everything spending time with my family in the mountains and also going skiing a lot (that was great, my dad says I'm great at it now). But on the last day I had to slip on ice obviously and I hit my tailbone and it hurts like shit. I think it'll be fine in a couple days though.
Unfortunately on monday school starts for me again and that means I'll be busy most of the time again egghhh. I wish I had more time for everything.

we're going on a 5 day trip to the mountains, so I'll be gone during these couple of days. Just letting you know

I just realized that I already have 52 watchers, woah that's a lot considering I just started and I'm barely active at all.. ^^'

still, I'm really grateful to you all, so thank you!
I'm planning to do a raffle when we hit 100, so yeah. (feel free to remind me about that, I often tend to forget about the things I'm supposed to do)

an awesome artist is doing a raffle, check them out!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9001954/

happy New Year everyone! Hopefully 2019 will be better than 2018 for all of you

Hey everyone, I'm sorry for the inactivity, preparing for christmas is taking quite a bit of time.
But I just want to wish everyone a merry christmas, I hope you spend this special time of the year happily with your loved ones. <3

finallyyyyy going to school in the year 2018 is over
ooof I really need a break from everything, I'm exhausted both mentally and from lack of sleep

also, today evening my dad brought me along to go bowling with his friends and it was great, we stayed there until 1 am xD (it's 2 am rn if you're wondering). I haven't been bowling in years and I sucked so bad at first, but I managed to get the hang of it, I was still the worst though. But at the end I got an awesome spare (at least they told me it was) and my first strike so yay

hey, sorry for the inactivity but finally this week and the first practice exams are over, I feel kinda dead inside after this week tbh. It was like torture especially the stress and I'm exhausted because somebody thought it was a great idea to have class normally before and after the exams. Like, the fuck? even though they're practice exams, they're still exams, are you gonna make us have class normally after the actual exams too?? The other schools let their students go home which feels just unfair.
uughhh I'm so freaking tired and the next week is packed with tests too, just great. I can't wait for christmas break.

I really wish people weren't so stubborn, especially my dad. I tried talking to him about me being and introvert and trying to explain to him the introvert and extrovert thing, which of course didn't end well. He scolded me for even thinking about this. He said "You shouldn't pay attention to these things, I was shy when I was 8 too." First off- introversion isn't shyness, when he said that I felt like I was going to explode with anger. Then he said I should toughen up and just get through this, he thinks it's that simple. But it's impossible for me without breaking down inside..

I wish they understood or just tried to listen to me.. It's just.. So difficult being the only one and the only people I can talk to about this who would understand are you guys, my online friends. It's all... I don't know... It's too hard... Why won't you listen to me... Why don't you want to understand? It's just so obvious I'm different, if you keep this up my current state will just keep on getting worse, and without your knowledge because I keep everything in all because you w o n ' t u n d e r s t a n d . . . Nobody understanding you is probably one of the worst feelings. I'm just... So sensitive aswell I... I can't..

I wish for everybody out there that you don't have to deal with situations like these and that it gets better for you..