Today at my grandmother's birthday as we were talking it somehow got to the subject of sexual orientation, and my dad started talking about how homosexual people are sick and how it's just wrong and that they need to be fixed etc. etc. and hearing that honestly just made me snap. I was basically yelling a bit and saying stuff like they can't change who they are, they should be respected as much as others, people should be allowed to love who they have feelings for y'know, that kinda stuff.. So it turned into a nasty argument between me and my dad and it lasted until my mom interrupted yelling at me that I can't raise my voice at a table like that so I just got up and walked off to another room.

Usually me and my dad agree when it comes to a lot of things, but this little situation made me hate him a bit for this.
But seriously, it drives me absolutely crazy when I hear someone judging people because of their orientation.
Just wanted to rant because I was pretty angry for the rest of the day after this

I'm bored so decided to do this cuz why nooot


1. I have never used make up and I don't want to

2. I love meat, I'm not a fruit/vegetable person at all yet I'm skinny af

3. I dyed my hair violet permanently ignoring the school rules and my teachers were okay with it

4. As a kid I wanted to be a boy not a girl

5. I have A TON of secrets I don't tell anyone

6. I'm not great at my own native language, probably better at writing in english more than anything

7. I love my characters to the point where it's probably unhealthy

8. I like to daydream short stories of inserting my fursona, Darkey, into fandoms I like at the time

9. Primal Carnage was the first game I bought on steam and that I was actually into, it pretty much started everything for me

10. My OTP is Thiefshipping that this one Yu-Gi-Oh! friend got me into (they're an awesome person btw uwu)

So recently I found out a lot of things about myself I was never aware of... I'd say it's a good thing I did, I'm not feeling odd for no reason now.
for example, It's likely I have social anxiety. Not the really serious level, but there was always this uneasyness in the back of my mind and I'm glad I know what it is.

....And some other...weird...things I would preferably not talk about....... Yeah. Those will stay secret.

Also another school week is starting again, so yeah no activity from me. But I hope this week won't be as tough and I hope I have more time to draw.

so... yesterday my dad brought my grandfather to the hospital because the entire week his arm hurt and he couldn't move it (he thought it was nothing serious) and it turns out my grandfather might have cancer. it probably attacked his bone and made it fragile, so when he was digging with a shovel his collarbone cracked but he sorta ignored it. I'm really worried about him, he's been having a lot of health issues lately and the doctors aren't willing to help him, I don't really know why. (probably because they don't wanna waste their time on an old person, motherfuckers.) So yeah.. I just.. Don't want to lose him too..

Update: My dad thought a cracked and a broken bone is the same thing. My grandfather actually has a broken collarbone, not just cracked. Also he doesn't actually remember how it happened, he has memory problems.

What a great way to start the day.

I was tired after this week and I wanted to sleep in today so I slept until like 12 pm, but then my mom just barged in like a tornado or something and started yelling at me saying stuff like I can't sit at my fucking box (pc) all day and rot, I have responsibilites, I'm worthless etc. (even though obviously that's not what I do all the time)
after that I was scared to get on my pc because I was terrified of what she might do to me, so I waited until she went out in town. My dad came back by then and of course we started talking about this and then I just suddenly exploded with feelings, I started crying and shouting to leave me alone. Because my bottled up emotions just had to be let out now for fucks sake, not when everyone was asleep and I could cry myself to sleep which would be more convenient.

The thing is that my mother always had problems with her temper and I'm kinda used to being yelled at or even getting hit by doing the tiniest mistakes or forgetting something. I'm scared all the time of doing something wrong, but I guess it's not that bad.. However recently I noticed she's been getting a little bit more abusive.. It might be because soon I'll become and adult (I'm not exactly happy about it and I get anxious whenever I think about it) but I'm not really sure..

You don't need to worry I don't have abusive parents or anything, it's just my mother's temper that kind of traumatizes me and I'm honestly more fond of my father, even though he's not really great at parenting and he's at work most of the time. I just find him more close to me and I can talk to him about anything, because he understands me, perhaps we just have very similar personalities. I still love my mother, but there's just... Things that could be changed to make life easier..


I needed to vent, just ignore me. I know other people might have it worse and I'm sorry.

So tommorow school starts for me again, which means I might be really inactive because I have to focus on my studies.
I'll be submitting way less and not replying immediatly and commissions might take weeks to get done
hooray another year of suffering and stressing out.