hello everyone yesterday went with some friends ro a park for a bbq and swimming cause a new friend i have here thought i needed to get out for abit wellwalking down the trail to the river losat my footing and fell tumbleing 10-15ft down a step rocky trail hitting every rock on the way punctured my skull and had to get my head stappled am in a hospitol in eugene for observation due to minor bleeding of the brain dr said it,s lloking good and i may go home tomorrow

hello everyone yesterday went with some friends ro a park for a bbq and swimming cause a new friend i have here thought i needed to get out for abit wellwalking down the trail to the river losat my footing and fell tumbleing 10-15ft down a step rocky trail hitting every rock on the way punctured my skull and had to get my head stappled am in a hospitol in eugene for observation due to minor bleeding of the brain dr said it,s lloking good and i may go home tomorrow

i,d like to give a heart felt thanks to all my watchers and all who faved my art i,m sorry i haven,t gotten any new art up of late but hope to soon

hello just letting furs know i am still around actually i,ve been feeling better would be doing better still if i could have things go smoother been trying to get my life back in order but seems life is always throwing lil road blocks in my way *sighs* still working on getting my trailer cleaned and rearanged also still trying to find a mate *being alone sucks * i apologise to those i owe art to i will get things done just going to take time. love to all Darkwolfe

been having trouble being on it,s been raining daily here just came on to let all you know i,m still around just with the rain it,s hard to be out behind the trailer where i have to be to access the internet

i need to find someone who can restore plushies my large rita plush had part of one ear damaged seems last time i was was in the hospitol my neighbor jim stayed at my trailer and somehow knocked her over against a lamp melting the fur on the ear the plush was a gift from a friend and is quite rare ,really pissed me off that he was so careless course wasn,t happy to find out he was living in my trailer while i was gone

not been around much lately due to health issues and lack of a good connection ,hopefully things will get better i,ve noot been doing much artwisehopefully that to will change

been out of the hospital for a bit now and am doing ok cept for a winter cold i,m breaking down and getting internet and a phone through charter

been having more heart and brathing trouble so have been back in the hospital will likely be here two maybe three more days making this a five maybe six day stay been having daily chest pain or pressure breathing been difficult and i,ve been feeling dizzy more then normal,sometimes i wonder if i,ll ever full recover ,it,s been very frustrating down in the icu lounge using the computer about to head back up to my room i may be getting out in the next three days but wanted to leave my room number and room ph# in case someone wishs to call and chat while i,m in here room is338 rooms phone is 1 541 375 5338 heading back up now so every one take care be well and have a nice day *hugs and nuzzles*

so i made it to 54 now to work on making it to 55 , going to be a rather boring day but at least i r alive and still the same ole loveable me

figured i,d post something less depressing for once , the only bad thing is not being able to comisson art next year i,,ll be able to though ,i also wish my mother could have made it here this year but i understand why she couldn,t my stepdads in the hospitol ,he,s a pretty cool person when me mum found him she finally found someone to treat her right .

ok last time i got out of the hospital thought i,d recover like i have times before but didn,t went back in only to told that my breathing and heart problems are now concidered chronic and that slower then normal will be the norm and in all likely hood get worse to the point of there being NO recovery i,m trying to figure out how to get back to yakima where i have family ,dr says i need to have someone either close or living with me asap ,not asking for anything this time cept maybe prayers and good wishes ,dr said that the danger of me dieing from stroke or heart attack is much greater then before and to think about how i need to run my life in the future just thought i nshould pass this on to my friends and fans

ok last time i got out of the hospital thought i,d recover like i have times before but didn,t went back in only to told that my breathing and heart problems are now concidered chronic and that slower then normal will be the norm and in all likely hood get worse to the point of there being NO recovery i,m trying to figure out how to get back to yakima where i have family ,dr says i need to have someone either close or living with me asap ,not asking for anything this time cept maybe prayers and good wishes ,dr said that the danger of me dieing from stroke or heart attack is much greater then before and to think about how i need to run my life in the future just thought i nshould pass this on to my friends and fans

just got out of the hospitol *again* this time went in because while taking a shower passed out for around a hour *i know the leangth of time because the shower /bathroom lighting is on a timer* in the hospital was told my heart was operating at 15%-25% it,s back up to 25%-45% but thats still not good i,m in bad need of help to get meds i hate asking like i do but money keeps being a problem needs $50 get what i need ,my heart is causeing most of my trouble breathing,constantly being weak and run down it sucks on so many levels ,also new news on rose the cancers back

when i was younger i never liked my first name *Randall* but sometime back i got to thinking now if i was a lord then it would sound better rather liked *Lord Randall* thought it had a better ring to it so was telling this to my mum and she told me that thats who my dad named me after so recently i looked it up turns out the names from a old folk ballad .

Lord Randall

Anonymous Traditional Folk Ballad (published by Sir Walter Scott in 1803)


1
“O where ha you been, Lord Randal, my son?
And where ha you been, my handsome young man?”
“I ha been at the greenwood; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m wearied wi hunting, and fain wad lie down.”

2
“An wha met ye there, Lord Randal, my son?
An wha met you there, my handsome young man?”
“O I met wi my true-love; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m wearied wi huntin, an fain wad lie down.”

3
“And what did she give you, Lord Randal, my son?
And what did she give you, my handsome young man?”
“Eels fried in a pan; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m wearied with huntin, and fain wad lie down.”

4
“And wha gat your leavins, Lord Randal, my son?
And what gat your leavins, my handsom young man?”
“My hawks and my hounds; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m wearied wi huntin, and fain wad lie down.”

5
“And what becam of them, Lord Randall, my son?
And what became of them, my handsome young man?”
“They stretched their legs out an died; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m wearied wi huntin, and fain wad lie down.”

6
“O I fear you are poisoned, Lord Randal, my son!
I fear you are poisoned, my handsome young man!”
“O yes, I am poisoned; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m sick at the heart, and I fain wad lie down.”

7
“What d’ ye leave to your mother, Lord Randal, my son?
What d’ye leave to your mother, my handsome young man?”
“Four and twenty milk kye; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m sick at the heart, and I fain wad lie down.”

8
“What d’ ye leave to your sister, Lord Randal, my son?
What d’ ye leave to your sister, my handsome young man?”
“My gold and my silver; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m sick at the heart, an I fain wad lie down.”

9
“What d’ ye leave to your brother, Lord Randal, my son?
What d’ ye leave to your brother, my handsome young man?”
“My house and my lands; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m sick at the heart, and I fain wad lie down.”

10
“What d’ ye leave to your true-love, Lord Randal, my son?
What d’ ye leave to your true-love, my handsome young man?”
“I leave her hell and fire; mother, mak my bed soon,
For I’m sick at the heart, and I fain wad lie down.”


just thought i,d share this bit of trivia enjoy

last night while i was unable to sleep my mind turned to thoughts of my father who died in 2007 when i started drawing my art back in the 70,s he was very much against it to the point of destroying it when he found it *which is why i don,t have many examples of my early art* but towards the end of his life he came to accept not only my art but the fandom i belong to and love so much ,,some of the last things he told me was how proud he was of me and how good my art was and he wished he had been more supportive of me back then that i might be even better had he givin support ,the thing most unexpected was him telling me he had secretly followed my art and had been collecting it ,i loved my dad even when he wasn,t there for me and miss him dearly the one thing i never got to do for him was draw him as a coyote shaman *he loved coyotes and i helped him run a rescue for orphaned pups* thank you for listening *hugs and nuzzles* i love you all Darkwolfe Moonchaser

in my life there are several things i,d like 1. to be part of a family,so i could have the feeling of warmth that comes with being able to have people to spend holidays with 2. to have a mate someone to share my life with 3. to have kids i would love to be a father 4.to live closer to where my friends are 5. i,d like to visit alot of those i,ve come to know online and attend a furcon . things is i,m begaining to think none of it will happen given my health keeps getting worse ,if the ever get here i have hope of becoming part of a family in texas and possably have a new mate waitng for me *i hope so * if i make it to texas that will put me closer to a person i care alot for , for now i,m keeping hope alive as well as my dreams for if one doesn,t have those whats the point *hugs*

last night about 4 a.m some homeless person who had been banned from the park broke into my trailer i had just gotten to sleep and heard crashing in the kitchen get up to find him going through things ,he then is like shhhhh come outside quick someones trying to kill you they tried setting your trailer on fire we go outside i,m like where are they he laughs hystarically hugs me repeatedly then asks if i have a cigerette and a lighter, then leave,s needless to say i didn,t get anymore sleep last night, my kitchen was trashed my tower and monitor where on the floor dvds and cds every where ,needless to say was a interesting night

hello all i,m still hanging in there but life just continues to frustrate me got a new general care dr and had hoped this one would get me something for pain but no dr,s here feel that over the counter stuff works as well as px meds but over the counter pain meds don,t touch the pain i get in my back , i,m working on trying to get things done like getting my trailer to be more livable getting rid of fleas inside and outside so maybe i can get rose back *she,s doing better but still at the vets a lady vet there has been taking her home with her and she,s spending time with her dogs thats good though i,m wondering if it,s going to make it harder to get rose back* i,ve been dealing with medical problems that have kept me from working on art mainly i,ve been feeling very weak and tired of late but i promise i,ll be back to doing art again love you all *hugs and nuzzles -Darkwolfe*

sorry i,ve not been around much of late been dealing with heart problems seems my ticker is only operating at 50 % of late been feeling tired alot and having a hell of a time doing much

vet said rose isn,t going to make it between the fleas and tumor she lost alot of blood and they felt she,s better off living the rest of her days there i signed her into their care figuring it,s whats best for her they say i can call to get someone to take me in to see her but i have no way to call them unless i can get time on my phone ,i am very heart sick right now and feel very much alone ,i feel lost

rose went in today wouln,t know how things went untill tomorrow i,m out of funds on my phone so they,ll call my friends in winston or and they,ll come let me know ,i,m hoping things go well also hope with the tumor removed she,ll start gaining weight

took rose into the vet and they say she has a tumor so wed i,m taking her in to get it removed it,s cancerious so i.m praying that when they remove it it takes care of it and it hasn,t spread , though they say theres a chance she may not survive the surgery so pray for her she,s all i have thank you for any support you can give

july is not a pleasent month for me espeacially the 29th i lost my mate to a heart attack in 2008 and my beloved moochie and jenna the following year due negglect on the part of my brother in law

i have a dell inspiron 6000 laptop but the part that the power adaptor/charger plugs into went bad *melted actually* the hard drives still good but i need another laptop to put it in so am trying to find one that everythings good on and just needs a hd