At least for every one who celebrate it ^^" but I wish a wonderful day to everyone, easter or not :3

I don't even know how I manage to dig even deeper down after my fall. Even when trying to do something good, I end up screwing up.

I'll manage to go back up after some time and effort, it was just... not my best time these last days. Things can only get better eventually, right ... ?

After reaching one of the highest amount of happiness in my own life, it is only natural that the fall is hard. Maybe it is some curse, to not be able to be happy with what I have, only seeing what I'd like to possess. At least I realize how precious some people can be, and how it hurts to know I disappointed them when they tried to help.

Now I feel just pathetic, complaining and whining about my problems without even trying to fix things. Maybe I'm just good at giving things up... Sorry, but I'm not someone special, and I don't have the strength to go on. I'm just a selfish person trying to get a little piece of freedom. I found a piece of paradise, and yet can't be happy enough with it. I don't deserve the love some people give me, and I don't even know how to thank them for everything. All I do is complaining about everything, but that's all I know to do, and I don't know how to change this. I'm scared, and angry, and sad, and I'm an idiot for refusing others help.

I'll try to go on and stay strong.

And yet I keep falling, and I keep losing what's precious to me. Now I know how it feels to be hurt by feelings, I just hope I can fix my mistakes... And if I can't, maybe won't I be able to move on this time. Maybe, just maybe, will I be able to have a heart for once...

A wish of change, when everything is stuck and there is nothing you can do except wait for something to change. Feeling full of ideas but empty at the same time knowing none of them can change your situation. I feel the world moving on, but is stuck at the same point, and struggling is useless.
A wish, a last hope, or just a way of showing weakness.
Nothing will change anyway, because wishes don't come true, not when they concern the real world.

EDIT : I did wish for something to change... now my laptop is dead... I don't even know how should I take it...

that moment when you have to say goodbye to the one you love, to let him go away and knowing you won't see him for months. The feeling that feel like a knife stabbing you again and again when you say the last goodbye and close the door, and everything turns into silence and emptiness while you turn the key and lock the door. And then... nothing, just an empty home and no one to hug, play with, laugh with, or even cry with... Just loneliness and silence... and this unstoppable pain that keeps burning inside. Hope it'll get better soon, I guess I'll just have to get used to not have my wolf around anymore, at least for the next months.

Thanks for taking the time to read, I wish all of you a good day

Best wishes to all of you ! let's hope 2018 will be a great year ^^

PS : BOOOOOOOOORED !!!

As the tittle says, merry Christmas, happy holidays, merry whatever you celebrate ! Best wishes to all of you :D

Like the title says, might be weird for other but I was always very shy and lacks confidence so never did anything public, but here I am, writing something everyone can see.

Anyway, I just wanted to introduce myself to the community :)

You can call me Lucky, I'm 23 but don't let my age fool you, it's just a number.
If you're reading this, that means you've read my profile, so you know I'm a male, I live in France, and I'm gay. You also know I happily found a lovely werewolf that became my mate, but I would still be glad to make some friends.

Now lets speak about my personality...

Where do I start ? (by the begging, might be a good idea)
I'm a really nervous guy, a kind of nerd who hates to get out. Never smoked anything and don't drink any alcohol. Have some troublesome phobia (but I'm working on it).
I'm stubborn but in th right way, I can't do something I find unfair, even if it causes me trouble. I can't let a friend down and won't ever abandon the people I love, whatever I have to endure.
I also have a perception of this world which is ... uncommon. It gets me sick to have to find a work just for the sake of surviving, for me this world would be better without, it's just a way to feed the darkest part of our heart. This point of view makes my life hard... But that's maybe a little too personal for now.
If it was only for myself, I would dedicate my life to take care of the ones I love... But alas can't afford to do so, but it doesn't stop me to give a hand to everyone who needs it :)

What I'm looking for ?

Friends. Just don't be afraid to be yourself around me, I won't judge you for what or who you are. Everyone is unique and interesting to me, and you never know before you try, right ?


Thank you for the time you spent reading this.