Commissions Open!! [Autumn]
Posted 2 weeks agoWelcome to Zyther Dark Commissions! Let's go over the basics, shall we?
-Requesting Process-
Right now FurAffinity DMs seems like a Solid line for Communication. In your Message plz include "Comm Request" in the title. Or you might be considered a SpamBot and deleted. Keep in Mind as the artist I may decline your request. But Beggars cannot be Choosers, so maybe we can come to a compromise. I will also accept Discord DM's (for now). As long as we are of the understanding, a "Green" Online status on Discord DOES NOT mean you can inquire about the status of your Commission every 60 minutes. I have NO qualms refunding your money (minus processing fees) and blocking you on Discord. Please do not abuse this privilege!! As the Artist I need at most 3 References of your OC. As well as a brief description of the Situation you want illustrated. Forewarning, I operate two Jobs outside of Commission Work. Please allow at minimum 2 Weeks for me to Complete these Transactions (maybe longer).
-PRICING-
Plain and Simple, $25 via Paypal (Or Donation on Ko-Fi) This will get you a Traditional Sketch which will be SCANNED at 600dpi. I WILL NOT be Mailing these Sketches out!! If you need examples of what Sketches will look like. I have Plenty from the last Year posted here on FA. Keep in mind. I will NOT accept funds until the Illustration request is explained, and accepted. If a Refund is given, processing fees from payment processors maybe included.
-Will Draw-
Bipedal OC's, Bondage, Encasement Bondage, Sticky Bondage, Stationary Bondage, Transformations, Expansions, Quicksand, WAM Scenarios, Kronos Unveiled (Tar Blobs), Hypnotism, & Snake Bondage (Coiling).
IF there are questions you have about a Fetish or Kink you're interested in, just Ask! Feel free to DM me, or comment below.
-Will NOT Draw-
Complex Creature OC's, Feral, Gore, Scat, Diapers, Watersports, or Vore.
IF under any circumstances I, as the Artist, do not feel comfortable drawing the Subject matter. I will decline and not accept your Commission Request.
I am not accepting a LOT of these. BUT, if I am overburdened I will Close Temporarily to complete the Commissions I have accepted. Then, reopen accordingly. IF you have any questions, Comments, Concerns, plz ask'em. Other may be wondering the same thing.
~ZD~
-Requesting Process-
Right now FurAffinity DMs seems like a Solid line for Communication. In your Message plz include "Comm Request" in the title. Or you might be considered a SpamBot and deleted. Keep in Mind as the artist I may decline your request. But Beggars cannot be Choosers, so maybe we can come to a compromise. I will also accept Discord DM's (for now). As long as we are of the understanding, a "Green" Online status on Discord DOES NOT mean you can inquire about the status of your Commission every 60 minutes. I have NO qualms refunding your money (minus processing fees) and blocking you on Discord. Please do not abuse this privilege!! As the Artist I need at most 3 References of your OC. As well as a brief description of the Situation you want illustrated. Forewarning, I operate two Jobs outside of Commission Work. Please allow at minimum 2 Weeks for me to Complete these Transactions (maybe longer).
-PRICING-
Plain and Simple, $25 via Paypal (Or Donation on Ko-Fi) This will get you a Traditional Sketch which will be SCANNED at 600dpi. I WILL NOT be Mailing these Sketches out!! If you need examples of what Sketches will look like. I have Plenty from the last Year posted here on FA. Keep in mind. I will NOT accept funds until the Illustration request is explained, and accepted. If a Refund is given, processing fees from payment processors maybe included.
-Will Draw-
Bipedal OC's, Bondage, Encasement Bondage, Sticky Bondage, Stationary Bondage, Transformations, Expansions, Quicksand, WAM Scenarios, Kronos Unveiled (Tar Blobs), Hypnotism, & Snake Bondage (Coiling).
IF there are questions you have about a Fetish or Kink you're interested in, just Ask! Feel free to DM me, or comment below.
-Will NOT Draw-
Complex Creature OC's, Feral, Gore, Scat, Diapers, Watersports, or Vore.
IF under any circumstances I, as the Artist, do not feel comfortable drawing the Subject matter. I will decline and not accept your Commission Request.
I am not accepting a LOT of these. BUT, if I am overburdened I will Close Temporarily to complete the Commissions I have accepted. Then, reopen accordingly. IF you have any questions, Comments, Concerns, plz ask'em. Other may be wondering the same thing.
~ZD~
Mini-Hiatus: Update 4
Posted a month agoI keep trying to Drum up excitement for Commissions coming up but I will ultimately psyche myself out and plunge myself into a Mental Spiral and accomplish nothing. So, I am just going to simply give some Guidelines for Commissions this Fall. I'm not expecting to fill up quickly. But if I do fill up, I hope not to stay Closed for long. If the ideas are good and my schedule is fair with all the things I am juggling. I hope to open in 1~2 weeks upon closing. Real life is a major factor.
My Prices will be $25 for a Rough Sketch. (I call them rough but if you see my bluesky you have a VERY good idea of what to expect) By other artist standards they should be called Final Sketches. I will be exercising my rights as an Artist to decline Commission Request. Sorry but not sorry. If you're Original Character or Theme isn't clicking with me, I'm saving you from a shitty Commission. I have done commissions I did not Jive with in the past, and long story short, I was NOT proud of some works I charged for. But that's the curse of an Artist. We are our own WORST Critics.
Themes I want to see requested should include a Woman. I mean, I'll draw men or any combination of Anatomies, but my forte is plain women. For Themes though, I am flexible with Sexy Poses & Perils across its many forms. The more references you offer me, the better. But which Perils you ask? Ah, now that's a good question. My Perils rotate with my Mood. And recently my Buddies have been putting Expansion, Spherical TF/Inflation, and Kronos Unveiled ideas in my head. So if you have OC's need those Treatments, definitely send a Commission Request my way.
The No-No's themes are, Children/Cubs, Diapers, Scat/Watersports, Gore, Vore, Grim Endings, Complicated OC's, and if you manage to find something I haven't explained here. I will decline your request and update the list. The Message I want to promote here is, if YOU'VE seen me draw it before, chances are extremely good I will draw it again. Examples like Coiling, BDSM, Shibari, Sticky Restraints, Buried in Wall, and Rougatame are all incredible favored by me but I don't draw enough to claim I am good at. Same could be said with Plushie TF and Pooltoy TF. But, if you want to take a $25 gamble and let me do that to your OC, I would love to try.
In conclusion. I will be opening Commissions to learn newer Kinks to better my craft. As well as Draw my favorites interest to Master those beloved Kinks. "But Zyther what about Inking? Where's those options? Aren't you trying to learn Inking via your Huion Tablet?" I am trying to learn Inking on my tablet. But, I say encourage me to Ink my owns works on Streams first, then we can talk about Digital Ink options in the future. For now, let's break ground with Commissions this Fall and see how many I can get, okay? I will be devastated if I don't manage at least 2 commissions before Halloween.
That's enough yapping from me. If you're interested in Commissioning me comment below. And wait for a Special Journal Entry around the 22nd or 23rd this month with instructions and an Email to Request a Slot. Until then, Zyther out!
~ZD~
My Prices will be $25 for a Rough Sketch. (I call them rough but if you see my bluesky you have a VERY good idea of what to expect) By other artist standards they should be called Final Sketches. I will be exercising my rights as an Artist to decline Commission Request. Sorry but not sorry. If you're Original Character or Theme isn't clicking with me, I'm saving you from a shitty Commission. I have done commissions I did not Jive with in the past, and long story short, I was NOT proud of some works I charged for. But that's the curse of an Artist. We are our own WORST Critics.
Themes I want to see requested should include a Woman. I mean, I'll draw men or any combination of Anatomies, but my forte is plain women. For Themes though, I am flexible with Sexy Poses & Perils across its many forms. The more references you offer me, the better. But which Perils you ask? Ah, now that's a good question. My Perils rotate with my Mood. And recently my Buddies have been putting Expansion, Spherical TF/Inflation, and Kronos Unveiled ideas in my head. So if you have OC's need those Treatments, definitely send a Commission Request my way.
The No-No's themes are, Children/Cubs, Diapers, Scat/Watersports, Gore, Vore, Grim Endings, Complicated OC's, and if you manage to find something I haven't explained here. I will decline your request and update the list. The Message I want to promote here is, if YOU'VE seen me draw it before, chances are extremely good I will draw it again. Examples like Coiling, BDSM, Shibari, Sticky Restraints, Buried in Wall, and Rougatame are all incredible favored by me but I don't draw enough to claim I am good at. Same could be said with Plushie TF and Pooltoy TF. But, if you want to take a $25 gamble and let me do that to your OC, I would love to try.
In conclusion. I will be opening Commissions to learn newer Kinks to better my craft. As well as Draw my favorites interest to Master those beloved Kinks. "But Zyther what about Inking? Where's those options? Aren't you trying to learn Inking via your Huion Tablet?" I am trying to learn Inking on my tablet. But, I say encourage me to Ink my owns works on Streams first, then we can talk about Digital Ink options in the future. For now, let's break ground with Commissions this Fall and see how many I can get, okay? I will be devastated if I don't manage at least 2 commissions before Halloween.
That's enough yapping from me. If you're interested in Commissioning me comment below. And wait for a Special Journal Entry around the 22nd or 23rd this month with instructions and an Email to Request a Slot. Until then, Zyther out!
~ZD~
Mini-Hiatus: Update 3, Commissions
Posted 2 months agoHere again writing another Journal. *sighs* Been Sketching more & more lately. Trying to find my Groove. Same psychological barriers from 2024 slowing me down. The constant anxiety of my 'troublesome' lifestyle gives me the 'shaky legs' so much so it distracts me from drawing. But, with Bills stacking up high and dreams fueled by energy drinks. I need to come up with a method for "Commissions" soon. The Major questions is, "What should I charge folks for Sketch Commissions?" Should I charge a lot? Should undercut myself to compete against Digital Artist? What about doing Digital Works myself and use customers to train? All I can say now is, when I do open up it will Be Sketch Commissions at first. Also, need to go ahead and mention My household is not filled with any praise and inspiration for the Arts. It's a pretty demoralizing home. Not to mention the constant juggling of my SFW endeavors. Art only gets so much time, then it has to compete with this annoying anxiety. I could definitely use the money. I just don't like disappointing people, that's all. Especially if you disappoint the WRONG person, they can cause practically months of harassment. Just really nervous. I want to sketch peoples characters and fun kinks but I am just one guy. With an outdated style going up against the world to make a dollar to have a roof over my head. *sighs* It's a bit overwhelming.
~ZD~
~ZD~
Mini-Hiatus: Update 2
Posted 2 months agoWelp... August is here. My Chronic Pain is getting better. But due to some unexpected events, eagerness to become Debt-Free, and some Conventions coming up. I'm strongly considering Sketch Commissions in Fall. For the Record, the Autumnal Equinox is September 22nd. I will post more information as we get closer to that date. I am NOT confident, at the writing of this Journal, about taking commission. But I can assure you they will be Sketch Commissions with a high DPI scan. That's honestly the best I can offer with my current Skillset.
As my Chronic Pain improves I hope to start Sketching and Doodling soon. Meaning my Posting Schedule should resume around Fall too. Hopefully you're excited to see my Raccoon OC, as well as other B.R.I.N.K. shenanigans. I hope to revisit all the earlier scenarios as well. Not to mention finish off the Kronos Unveiled sequence I started in Spring.
Apologies for the Short Journal. But it's Late, and fatigue hit me quite quickly tonight. If you are interested in Commissions I would Comment "Interested". This will encourage me to create Rules & Guideline for Commission in the Future. Because I have a strange feeling I will need it. Signing off for now. If you want to see Archive Stuff on Socials I post primarily on Bluesky. And also Twitter. Zyther Out!
~ZD~
As my Chronic Pain improves I hope to start Sketching and Doodling soon. Meaning my Posting Schedule should resume around Fall too. Hopefully you're excited to see my Raccoon OC, as well as other B.R.I.N.K. shenanigans. I hope to revisit all the earlier scenarios as well. Not to mention finish off the Kronos Unveiled sequence I started in Spring.
Apologies for the Short Journal. But it's Late, and fatigue hit me quite quickly tonight. If you are interested in Commissions I would Comment "Interested". This will encourage me to create Rules & Guideline for Commission in the Future. Because I have a strange feeling I will need it. Signing off for now. If you want to see Archive Stuff on Socials I post primarily on Bluesky. And also Twitter. Zyther Out!
~ZD~
Mini-Hiatus: Update
Posted 3 months agoSo the Equipment came in. Got Assembled. And has been in routine use for roughly 2 weeks. The Chronic Pain in my Lower Back and Hips is dissipating. So that part went as planned. I have a convention coming up next weekend. And I only plan on attending One Day. (The convention center is in a shitty spot and commuting to it is a royal pain in the ass.) Another convention is later in August and THAT will be the TRUE testing grounds. But something is amiss as I prepare to get back into the swing of things in August. The Mindset. The Mentality. The Motivation.
Which leads me to the NEXT hurdle. How do I get my groove back? Over the months I have landed into some gnarly discord servers. The Quicksand and KU Blob communities in particular have been mega-supportive. And I even have consistent reactions from folks on Socials, like Bluesky. But the mental demons keep dragging me back into negativity. And my financial situation keeps getting dimmer and dimmer. My only hope is finding income through art. But I don't have enough Private Material for a Subscribestar/Patreon scheme. And Commissions... *snort* I heard a LOT of horror stories. And I still feel my works never impressed previous clients enough to be return customers. *sighs*
Financial struggles aside I just feel I can never be good enough to Digitally Ink or Color. I would love a NSFW Coach to help me navigate and learn "Clip Studio". But all I can find is SFW folks who have no idea I draw Boobs, Damsels, and Butts. Well some of them know the Boobs & Butts. But only ONE knows my secret identity and they are certainly not coach material. More so support, than anything else. I also need to cease this charade of keep my SFW and NSFW folks separate. I just think Degenerates will flood my SFW world with "Draw more Boobs". And my SFW world wouldn't know what to do. And if I flip the coin and tell my SFW world about my Dark Fantasies and Passions in NSFW art they'll just stick their nose up and leave. Or worse yet cost me a job or something.
So to recap. My physicality is improving. My Finances are failing. And my mentality is in a Cross-Fire as I juggle SFW/NSFW problems. *sighs* Did I leave anything out?
PS...
If you ARE interested in Traditional Commissions. Scanned in at 600dpi. Shout "Traditional? Yes, PLZ." on my FA Profile. And if I get enough interest. I will make a follow Up journal discussing signing up for some Commissions. Fair?
~ZD~
Which leads me to the NEXT hurdle. How do I get my groove back? Over the months I have landed into some gnarly discord servers. The Quicksand and KU Blob communities in particular have been mega-supportive. And I even have consistent reactions from folks on Socials, like Bluesky. But the mental demons keep dragging me back into negativity. And my financial situation keeps getting dimmer and dimmer. My only hope is finding income through art. But I don't have enough Private Material for a Subscribestar/Patreon scheme. And Commissions... *snort* I heard a LOT of horror stories. And I still feel my works never impressed previous clients enough to be return customers. *sighs*
Financial struggles aside I just feel I can never be good enough to Digitally Ink or Color. I would love a NSFW Coach to help me navigate and learn "Clip Studio". But all I can find is SFW folks who have no idea I draw Boobs, Damsels, and Butts. Well some of them know the Boobs & Butts. But only ONE knows my secret identity and they are certainly not coach material. More so support, than anything else. I also need to cease this charade of keep my SFW and NSFW folks separate. I just think Degenerates will flood my SFW world with "Draw more Boobs". And my SFW world wouldn't know what to do. And if I flip the coin and tell my SFW world about my Dark Fantasies and Passions in NSFW art they'll just stick their nose up and leave. Or worse yet cost me a job or something.
So to recap. My physicality is improving. My Finances are failing. And my mentality is in a Cross-Fire as I juggle SFW/NSFW problems. *sighs* Did I leave anything out?
PS...
If you ARE interested in Traditional Commissions. Scanned in at 600dpi. Shout "Traditional? Yes, PLZ." on my FA Profile. And if I get enough interest. I will make a follow Up journal discussing signing up for some Commissions. Fair?
~ZD~
Mini-Hiatus: Coming Up
Posted 4 months agoGreetings Folks. Yes, the title is correct. I'm in need of a Mini-Hiatus. Why? You may ask. Well to be perfectly honest. I'm out of New Sketches to share after the "KU Part 2" sketch. But my reasoning needs a little bit of retelling on HOW I whipped up so many sketches from Oct~April in the first place.
*Cues Flashback*
In October '24 I was instructed to do Physical Therapy for my Chronic Lower Back Pain. At first I was not impressed with the appointments. Then around Week 3 I was feeling results. The Chronic Pain was steadily melting away. Since 2015 I have been experiencing this chronic pain. Mostly during long walks, extended physical activity, and Conventions. And the Therapists all said the Smaller Muscles play a HUGE part in my Posture and Maneuverability. And for years my muscles were neglected and had shrunk over time. Bouncing between standing on Feet for long periods of time then, sitting down for long periods of time, was NOT helping either. With my weakened muscles I was continuously pulling and agitating these smaller weaker muscle groups daily. So, by the end of November the Pain was GONE! I was Healed! This period of No pain lifted a HUGE mental burden off me, and I found myself getting back into hobbies like Art.
*Returns from Flashback*
Sadly the PT appointments came to an end. The lack of Gym Equipment and proper discipline eventually returned me to my feeble form. Lifestyle hasn't changed enough and eventually my muscles became weak again. And I found myself in the same pain around February. So instead of buying a Fun Console, and Over priced Games. I found some Gym Equipment online and saved enough money to Buy it. Unfortunately the Cost of this Equipment costed me my Rainy Day Savings. So the Equipment will get here soon'ish and I'm giving myself some strict rules and guidelines to abide by. My SFW endeavors will mostly likely hate it the most. But you guys are the NSFW-side, so don't worry. So, in the coming months you guys will love it. Because when I'm Pain-Free I'll will be Arting again. I just need some time to establish a routine.
"How long will you be on Hiatus for?"
The Equipment arrives soon. And my New Routine starts after I get it assembled. So my guesstimate is maybe August...? I don't know. But I won't be absent from Discord, just from posting New Art regularly. Because as it stands now, I have nothing else to share after this recent Post I made. But if you WANT to support my now depleted savings, My Ko-Fi is still available in the linktree below. So it would mean a lot if I could payback those Savings quickly. Then once I return to a Pain-free lifestyle, I want to re-evaluate my position on Revenue. Because over the months apparently you nerds like my Kinky Ideas. And I would LOVE to draw more. So August will be the Earliest I return. But let's plan for Fall around September 22nd for my Return, okay? I will definitely be in touch via Journals during that time. And I'll be in touch on Discord as well. Be sure to look out for me in the Quicksand & Kronos Unveiled servers. Those guys are mega inspiring and fun to share art with. And If I am allowed to share their invite Links, I'll let ya know. But that's pretty much it. My last Submission was posted. The much anticipated Part 2 of my "Kronos Unveiled Sequence" is out there. And I Hope you guys like it. Ciao!
~ZD~
*Cues Flashback*
In October '24 I was instructed to do Physical Therapy for my Chronic Lower Back Pain. At first I was not impressed with the appointments. Then around Week 3 I was feeling results. The Chronic Pain was steadily melting away. Since 2015 I have been experiencing this chronic pain. Mostly during long walks, extended physical activity, and Conventions. And the Therapists all said the Smaller Muscles play a HUGE part in my Posture and Maneuverability. And for years my muscles were neglected and had shrunk over time. Bouncing between standing on Feet for long periods of time then, sitting down for long periods of time, was NOT helping either. With my weakened muscles I was continuously pulling and agitating these smaller weaker muscle groups daily. So, by the end of November the Pain was GONE! I was Healed! This period of No pain lifted a HUGE mental burden off me, and I found myself getting back into hobbies like Art.
*Returns from Flashback*
Sadly the PT appointments came to an end. The lack of Gym Equipment and proper discipline eventually returned me to my feeble form. Lifestyle hasn't changed enough and eventually my muscles became weak again. And I found myself in the same pain around February. So instead of buying a Fun Console, and Over priced Games. I found some Gym Equipment online and saved enough money to Buy it. Unfortunately the Cost of this Equipment costed me my Rainy Day Savings. So the Equipment will get here soon'ish and I'm giving myself some strict rules and guidelines to abide by. My SFW endeavors will mostly likely hate it the most. But you guys are the NSFW-side, so don't worry. So, in the coming months you guys will love it. Because when I'm Pain-Free I'll will be Arting again. I just need some time to establish a routine.
"How long will you be on Hiatus for?"
The Equipment arrives soon. And my New Routine starts after I get it assembled. So my guesstimate is maybe August...? I don't know. But I won't be absent from Discord, just from posting New Art regularly. Because as it stands now, I have nothing else to share after this recent Post I made. But if you WANT to support my now depleted savings, My Ko-Fi is still available in the linktree below. So it would mean a lot if I could payback those Savings quickly. Then once I return to a Pain-free lifestyle, I want to re-evaluate my position on Revenue. Because over the months apparently you nerds like my Kinky Ideas. And I would LOVE to draw more. So August will be the Earliest I return. But let's plan for Fall around September 22nd for my Return, okay? I will definitely be in touch via Journals during that time. And I'll be in touch on Discord as well. Be sure to look out for me in the Quicksand & Kronos Unveiled servers. Those guys are mega inspiring and fun to share art with. And If I am allowed to share their invite Links, I'll let ya know. But that's pretty much it. My last Submission was posted. The much anticipated Part 2 of my "Kronos Unveiled Sequence" is out there. And I Hope you guys like it. Ciao!
~ZD~
Your Socials. Why all the Old Art?
Posted 4 months agoGreetings. I don't know if folks are asking this. But...
"Why all the Old Art, Zyther? Where is the New Stuff!?"
Please understand that some Artist require "conditions" to be met to allow the maximum energy to be poured into their work. You don't expect an Artist to Draw in an Eighty Degree room with poor A/C ventilation. Or ask them to Draw in the middle of a Busy House surrounded by people who think Art is a complete waste of time if you're not get paid for it. No, you wouldn't. But those are a few of my work conditions. Another easy to understand answer would be, my life is far from perfect. My best works were from a brief period where I had accomplished independence. Back then, I was able to illustrate my weirdest Dreams in an A/C apartment with no Family or Friends to pass judgement on me. In 2025, I do not have these luxuries anymore. I am "by definition" homeless. And struggle to make ends meet. My headspace Today is in a much darker place than it was back then. And getting motivated to sketch an idea is a gruelingly long process. To make it easy to Understand, I am NOT in a happy place. And it's okay explaining this to everyone.
My plans to Fix this lack of Happiness is multi-step process:
Step One: NETWORK!! In 2010's I made the horrible mistake of thinking I only needed a DA/FA account to grow. *BUZZER* Wrong!! You need to network with others. To Share works. Bounce Ideas off one another. To confirm you're still active. The Kink communities have been MEGA supportive over the months since I got back into things.
Step Two: And most importantly, REMAINING CONSISTENT! Lotta folks screw up this part. So, in an attempt to mirror TV Programming. I Post the NEW stuff once a Week. And I am to do it around the same time of the week, Weekends. Then, throughout the week I shower Social Media and Discords with my Older Works. To remind others know, "Hey, I draw stuff!"
Step Three: HEALTH!! Older artist understand this more. But a Healthier Body can lead to a Healthier Mind. I struggle with Chronic Muscle pains from lack of activity (Trust me, it took it's toll on me after 10 years). After trying out Physical Therapy I felt like a NEW MAN. Sadly those appointments are done and I am striving to afford some Exercise equipment to simulate those appointments. And sadly those equipments wont be Free. And if you were paying attention I am struggling to make Ends Meet.
So what's the Move? Well we Network, Remain Consistent, and Take Care of My Body. Most importantly we wait. Something will happen. Might not be Tomorrow. Might not be Next Week. But something will tip the scales in my favor. I just got to wait it out. If you want to help me get that Exercise Equipment I have a Ko-Fi up to accept Tips toward my Goal. If you cannot afford to Tip, please consider sharing your favorite work of mine. That helps more than you can possibly imagine. Either way thanks for your TIme, I'll see you guys next post.
~ZD~
"Why all the Old Art, Zyther? Where is the New Stuff!?"
Please understand that some Artist require "conditions" to be met to allow the maximum energy to be poured into their work. You don't expect an Artist to Draw in an Eighty Degree room with poor A/C ventilation. Or ask them to Draw in the middle of a Busy House surrounded by people who think Art is a complete waste of time if you're not get paid for it. No, you wouldn't. But those are a few of my work conditions. Another easy to understand answer would be, my life is far from perfect. My best works were from a brief period where I had accomplished independence. Back then, I was able to illustrate my weirdest Dreams in an A/C apartment with no Family or Friends to pass judgement on me. In 2025, I do not have these luxuries anymore. I am "by definition" homeless. And struggle to make ends meet. My headspace Today is in a much darker place than it was back then. And getting motivated to sketch an idea is a gruelingly long process. To make it easy to Understand, I am NOT in a happy place. And it's okay explaining this to everyone.
My plans to Fix this lack of Happiness is multi-step process:
Step One: NETWORK!! In 2010's I made the horrible mistake of thinking I only needed a DA/FA account to grow. *BUZZER* Wrong!! You need to network with others. To Share works. Bounce Ideas off one another. To confirm you're still active. The Kink communities have been MEGA supportive over the months since I got back into things.
Step Two: And most importantly, REMAINING CONSISTENT! Lotta folks screw up this part. So, in an attempt to mirror TV Programming. I Post the NEW stuff once a Week. And I am to do it around the same time of the week, Weekends. Then, throughout the week I shower Social Media and Discords with my Older Works. To remind others know, "Hey, I draw stuff!"
Step Three: HEALTH!! Older artist understand this more. But a Healthier Body can lead to a Healthier Mind. I struggle with Chronic Muscle pains from lack of activity (Trust me, it took it's toll on me after 10 years). After trying out Physical Therapy I felt like a NEW MAN. Sadly those appointments are done and I am striving to afford some Exercise equipment to simulate those appointments. And sadly those equipments wont be Free. And if you were paying attention I am struggling to make Ends Meet.
So what's the Move? Well we Network, Remain Consistent, and Take Care of My Body. Most importantly we wait. Something will happen. Might not be Tomorrow. Might not be Next Week. But something will tip the scales in my favor. I just got to wait it out. If you want to help me get that Exercise Equipment I have a Ko-Fi up to accept Tips toward my Goal. If you cannot afford to Tip, please consider sharing your favorite work of mine. That helps more than you can possibly imagine. Either way thanks for your TIme, I'll see you guys next post.
~ZD~
Discord Server Ideas
Posted 5 months agoDiscord!! Some folks use them. Many Special Interest focus and celebrate their Kinks their. Some even make Servers where Fans will flock to the server and praise Artist and their work. But back in January I reached out to some Art Buddies. Told them hey I was into Kinks X, Y, & Z. They in turn showed me a bunch of Servers they knew relating to those Kinks. I even found some Servers on my own, out of Curiosity. Almost every community I entered was welcoming. My only complaint ist it Drains me to Post Kink-X in the X server, And Kink-Z in the Z server, etc. I also avoid Artist-Specific Servers. Those places often Center themselves around ONE artist. And its Rude to share works in those servers because people often get feelings hurt. But for the Kink-Specific servers that I have visited, most have a "Misc-Kink" gallery somewhere in their Server. And it's that channel where I thrive. Because I illustrate COUNTLESS Kinks!! In fact, let's name a few I've drawn since November '24: Quicksand, Encasement, Blobs (KU), Bondage, Inflation, Expansion, & Transformation. That's not even covering their Sub-Genres!!
What I'm getting at is. If Folks like the B.R.I.N.K. Universe I'm building. Maybe somewhere down the line when I amass more Followers I could make a Server Housing all the Kinks I've listed above (and more! Trust me I want to illustrate more Kinks). And someday Structure a Server like a Laboratory. With each Kink having their own Sub-Category within the server. *shrugs* I'm just thinking all of this stuff on an exhausted brain late at night. But I would like to take the things I liked from other Servers, and fold those ideas and Kinks into my own MEGA server. And perhaps one day inviting the Friends I've made along the way to be Technicians in a B.R.I.N.K. themed Server.
Or maybe I should sleep on it and Delete this Journal in a few days LMAO.
What I'm getting at is. If Folks like the B.R.I.N.K. Universe I'm building. Maybe somewhere down the line when I amass more Followers I could make a Server Housing all the Kinks I've listed above (and more! Trust me I want to illustrate more Kinks). And someday Structure a Server like a Laboratory. With each Kink having their own Sub-Category within the server. *shrugs* I'm just thinking all of this stuff on an exhausted brain late at night. But I would like to take the things I liked from other Servers, and fold those ideas and Kinks into my own MEGA server. And perhaps one day inviting the Friends I've made along the way to be Technicians in a B.R.I.N.K. themed Server.
Or maybe I should sleep on it and Delete this Journal in a few days LMAO.
B.R.I.N.K. Labs [Q&A] v1
Posted 6 months agoSo over the Weeks I've been posting these Ideas. About a Thick Raccoon Woman. Experimenting on all sorts of Kinks and Sexual Interest. Are they all connected? Is there a Story? Who is she. What is BRINK stand for? So here's just a Public post on the Lore of B.R.I.N.K. Labs and the Misadventures of Abigail.
"What does B.R.I.N.K. stand for?"
B.R.I.N.K. stands for Brilliant Research Into Niche Kinks
"What does B.R.I.N.K. do?"
Precisely what the acronym says!! They Test and Research Various Kinks and Sexual Interest for Science.
"Who is the Raccoon Babe?"
Her name is Abigail. She prefers Abby though. Her story starts when she got laid off from her Old Job and struggles to find a new one. All this and Days before her Apartment Evicted Her. One Morning while grabbing a morning coffee at the Local Shop. She bumped into this gorgeous women who also frequented the same Coffee shop as she does. More on this "gorgeous" woman later. The Woman suggested Abby should apply at BRINK and she'd throw in a good word for her.
"Did Abby know what she was getting into with B.R.I.N.K.?"
Yes, and No. When applying the Job she had little options but to accept whatever offer B.R.I.N.K. gave her. She was a bit hesitant when they explained that the position that recently opened was basically a Lab Rat for Niche Kinks and Sexual interest. The Interviewer used Bondage as an example. Explaining the Techs would administer various methods of Restraining or Arousing the subject and as the Test goes on, they'll ask questions about the 'experience' all while monitoring vitals. Abby was still on the fence until they mentioned the Salary and Benefits of the Position offers. Those perks easily washed away any concerns she had. Not to mention, Experimenting with sexual stuff sounded really hot at the time.
"What Kind of Kinks and Sexual Interest are we talking here?"
Let's keep this Simple. It's at ZytherDarks discretion. If ZytherDark wants to Draw it, He's gonna draw it with Abby and Friends. And for the Record. No Guro, No Scat, No WaterSports, No Diapers, No Weird shit!! Whatever Kinks I, the Artist, want to Experiment with, I will be experimenting with THIS universe of B.R.I.N.K. Labs. So it's 100% safe to say, whatever ZD wants to see, you're gonna see it.
"Will this eventually be a Comic Series or a Web Comic?"
Maaaaaaaaaybe *shrugs*
"Is B.R.I.N.K. hiring?"
Haha, No! Not anymore. But When I do open up Commissions. I'm willing to negotiate illustrating some of the Kinks demonstrated at the B.R.I.N.K. Labs. Unless I classify the Experiment as a failure, and don't wish to Illustrate the Kink or Sexual Interest anymore. As the Artist I do have the right to refuse Commissions.
"Will we see more Co-Workers from B.R.I.N.K.?"
Yes. My immediate plans are to show the Women who offered Abby the job at the Coffee Shop. Because (Spoiler Alert!) she use to be the B.R.I.N.K. Lab Rat until one Experiment had unexpected Side Effects on her. Opening her to a New position within B.R.I.N.K. *wink* Just stay tuned guys. Trust me.
I will Elaborate more on B.R.I.N.K. Lore and Updates as time continues. But I just wanted to put this down quickly for any folks asking Basic Questions regarding the Raccoon Girl and how she's finding herself in ALL of these Kinky situations. Trust me, they're all connected, and all under the B.R.I.N.K. Labs roof. Please stay tuned and consider perhaps consider Tipping via the Ko-Fi link in my LinkTree. There's a LOT more ideas coming and all the $$$ will help the Artist in so many ways. Trust me. Until more questions pop up this is ZD signing off. *waves*
~ZD~
"What does B.R.I.N.K. stand for?"
B.R.I.N.K. stands for Brilliant Research Into Niche Kinks
"What does B.R.I.N.K. do?"
Precisely what the acronym says!! They Test and Research Various Kinks and Sexual Interest for Science.
"Who is the Raccoon Babe?"
Her name is Abigail. She prefers Abby though. Her story starts when she got laid off from her Old Job and struggles to find a new one. All this and Days before her Apartment Evicted Her. One Morning while grabbing a morning coffee at the Local Shop. She bumped into this gorgeous women who also frequented the same Coffee shop as she does. More on this "gorgeous" woman later. The Woman suggested Abby should apply at BRINK and she'd throw in a good word for her.
"Did Abby know what she was getting into with B.R.I.N.K.?"
Yes, and No. When applying the Job she had little options but to accept whatever offer B.R.I.N.K. gave her. She was a bit hesitant when they explained that the position that recently opened was basically a Lab Rat for Niche Kinks and Sexual interest. The Interviewer used Bondage as an example. Explaining the Techs would administer various methods of Restraining or Arousing the subject and as the Test goes on, they'll ask questions about the 'experience' all while monitoring vitals. Abby was still on the fence until they mentioned the Salary and Benefits of the Position offers. Those perks easily washed away any concerns she had. Not to mention, Experimenting with sexual stuff sounded really hot at the time.
"What Kind of Kinks and Sexual Interest are we talking here?"
Let's keep this Simple. It's at ZytherDarks discretion. If ZytherDark wants to Draw it, He's gonna draw it with Abby and Friends. And for the Record. No Guro, No Scat, No WaterSports, No Diapers, No Weird shit!! Whatever Kinks I, the Artist, want to Experiment with, I will be experimenting with THIS universe of B.R.I.N.K. Labs. So it's 100% safe to say, whatever ZD wants to see, you're gonna see it.
"Will this eventually be a Comic Series or a Web Comic?"
Maaaaaaaaaybe *shrugs*
"Is B.R.I.N.K. hiring?"
Haha, No! Not anymore. But When I do open up Commissions. I'm willing to negotiate illustrating some of the Kinks demonstrated at the B.R.I.N.K. Labs. Unless I classify the Experiment as a failure, and don't wish to Illustrate the Kink or Sexual Interest anymore. As the Artist I do have the right to refuse Commissions.
"Will we see more Co-Workers from B.R.I.N.K.?"
Yes. My immediate plans are to show the Women who offered Abby the job at the Coffee Shop. Because (Spoiler Alert!) she use to be the B.R.I.N.K. Lab Rat until one Experiment had unexpected Side Effects on her. Opening her to a New position within B.R.I.N.K. *wink* Just stay tuned guys. Trust me.
I will Elaborate more on B.R.I.N.K. Lore and Updates as time continues. But I just wanted to put this down quickly for any folks asking Basic Questions regarding the Raccoon Girl and how she's finding herself in ALL of these Kinky situations. Trust me, they're all connected, and all under the B.R.I.N.K. Labs roof. Please stay tuned and consider perhaps consider Tipping via the Ko-Fi link in my LinkTree. There's a LOT more ideas coming and all the $$$ will help the Artist in so many ways. Trust me. Until more questions pop up this is ZD signing off. *waves*
~ZD~
Commissions, The Ongoing Discussion
Posted 6 months agoThe Commission Question gets asked. A lot! So, if I had some Debts that I wanted to erase, or wanted to invest in my Future. How Upset, Excited, Disappointed, would everyone be if I opened for Commissions? Is the Sketch Quality I am pumping out in my Gallery worth it to You? I know I suck as Hands and Feet. But for my personal works I can practice that in the Line Art Phase.
Because, I put a LOT of thought into these Debts, my Time, & Pricing. And... until I'm MORE comfortable doing Linework/Ink Commissions. I would be limiting myself to Sketch Commissions for about, let's say, $20. I came to this price because I'm confident I Can crunch out a Sketch in about an Hour. (With proper References and Description) And I think $20/hr is justified. Because artist should consider their Value on an Hourly rate. Time to them is Money, right? So if I ever do pull the trigger on Sketch Commissions, I'll be leaning towards a $20 price tag for ONE Sketched Character.
I just need to get over this Mental Slump based on my Living Situation. Or be financially in a corner. I just wish my Family was more understanding about Creative Means of Income. *sighs* What do you Think? I would love some Feedback now that I've surpassed 100 Followers on Fur Affinity. (Remember I'm aiming to Surpass my old Account of 800 one day).
Because, I put a LOT of thought into these Debts, my Time, & Pricing. And... until I'm MORE comfortable doing Linework/Ink Commissions. I would be limiting myself to Sketch Commissions for about, let's say, $20. I came to this price because I'm confident I Can crunch out a Sketch in about an Hour. (With proper References and Description) And I think $20/hr is justified. Because artist should consider their Value on an Hourly rate. Time to them is Money, right? So if I ever do pull the trigger on Sketch Commissions, I'll be leaning towards a $20 price tag for ONE Sketched Character.
I just need to get over this Mental Slump based on my Living Situation. Or be financially in a corner. I just wish my Family was more understanding about Creative Means of Income. *sighs* What do you Think? I would love some Feedback now that I've surpassed 100 Followers on Fur Affinity. (Remember I'm aiming to Surpass my old Account of 800 one day).
We Achieved 100 Followers!!
Posted 6 months ago*Ding* We're one step closer to Achieving a small Goal I have for this Account. The Goal is Simple, get more followers than my previous account which was 804 strong!! But I will admit the odds are against me. Because I shared Commissions on my previous account, and folks followed me because of the Commissioned Artist, not my Art. So I have a lot of Growing to do. My biggest hurdle by far is Motivation and Anxiety for Drawing. Getting in the mindset to rub pencil on paper is the HARDEST thing for me. My Soul loves it when I draw, but my Brain wants to be a perfectionist about EVERYTHING! This causes my Anxiety to skyrocket and I often find myself too paralyzed to start anything.
Another Hurdle I have is Inking. I was never good at Traditional Inking in the past. I was never good at accepting failure either. So I'm trying to learn the Basics of Inking before I start Streaming seriously. Because ultimately my Streams will be consisting of Inking Classics to practice. Then later this year, I want to tackle my more recent projects that I started in Late 2024.
"But what about the Follower Goal, Zyther!?!"
Heh, oh yeah. For the Follower Goal of 100, I already had a planned Art Idea for it a few weeks back. And I aim to come up with more ideas for 200 & 300 as well. And if we ever surpass 800, I do have a plans for big 1000 as well. So to help me reach new viewers I am dabbling in new discord servers that relate to my interest. But I'm also trying to work on implementing a schedule to share my Works via BlueSky and Twitter. All my links can be found via my Linktree in the footer of my Submissions and Journals below. So if you're on social media please take a look and consider Following and Requoting your favorites. Favoriting Works you like spreads the Love. You have no idea how many works I get inspired by, just by finding them in someone ELSES favorites. So here's to the Journey for 800 and beyond 🍻
~ZD~
Another Hurdle I have is Inking. I was never good at Traditional Inking in the past. I was never good at accepting failure either. So I'm trying to learn the Basics of Inking before I start Streaming seriously. Because ultimately my Streams will be consisting of Inking Classics to practice. Then later this year, I want to tackle my more recent projects that I started in Late 2024.
"But what about the Follower Goal, Zyther!?!"
Heh, oh yeah. For the Follower Goal of 100, I already had a planned Art Idea for it a few weeks back. And I aim to come up with more ideas for 200 & 300 as well. And if we ever surpass 800, I do have a plans for big 1000 as well. So to help me reach new viewers I am dabbling in new discord servers that relate to my interest. But I'm also trying to work on implementing a schedule to share my Works via BlueSky and Twitter. All my links can be found via my Linktree in the footer of my Submissions and Journals below. So if you're on social media please take a look and consider Following and Requoting your favorites. Favoriting Works you like spreads the Love. You have no idea how many works I get inspired by, just by finding them in someone ELSES favorites. So here's to the Journey for 800 and beyond 🍻
~ZD~
Streaming Possibilities for 2025
Posted 7 months agoSo, the other day my SFW-half wanted to experiment with something. So, I took some Coloring Pages, my Tablet, and, a pngTUBER a buddy scrapped together for me. And Streamed for roughly 4hrs doing nothing but Art & Show n' Tell. And, I'm NOT going to lie, It was fun! This opens a HUGE door for Digitally Inking my Older Works and putting some color onto my Galleries in the future. But, to be honest, I did it ultimately because I would prefer to Stream my NSFW Art. And one Purple Platform has a ToS that makes it almost impossible to Stream it on their Site. So I'm left with either Piczel or Picarto as my Streaming options. (I have Accounts on Both)
Now, I'm planning to do a few more SFW Streams to get the hang of some things. And when I do. I want to Stream NSFW content on the regular. Maybe Once a Week or something. My goal is to be ready by the Beginning of April. But the only catch is I'm Extroverted. I'm also incredibly shy, and self conscious about plethora of stuff. Being Extroverted basically means I gather energy and hype from others. Luckily for my SFW experiments my buddies were VERY curious about my skills as an Artist. So I had a bunch of viewers and chatters in Chat. But, if nobody is around to vibe with, ultimately I won't want to stream anymore and probably purge the thought of ever doing it again for a while. So I have to ask, is there any interest in watching ME ink my older works?
~ZD~
Now, I'm planning to do a few more SFW Streams to get the hang of some things. And when I do. I want to Stream NSFW content on the regular. Maybe Once a Week or something. My goal is to be ready by the Beginning of April. But the only catch is I'm Extroverted. I'm also incredibly shy, and self conscious about plethora of stuff. Being Extroverted basically means I gather energy and hype from others. Luckily for my SFW experiments my buddies were VERY curious about my skills as an Artist. So I had a bunch of viewers and chatters in Chat. But, if nobody is around to vibe with, ultimately I won't want to stream anymore and probably purge the thought of ever doing it again for a while. So I have to ask, is there any interest in watching ME ink my older works?
~ZD~
2025, The 45 Day Check-In
Posted 8 months agoHolidays have officially ended for me!! Let me Explain. From about October 31st ~ February 14th, I am on Holiday High Alert. But with Valentines Day now complete. I can take this time to look back, decompress, and evaluate stuff. Like how the Holidays were NUTS for me! We had: Halloween, The (U.S.) Election, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, My Birthday, then Valentines Day. If that wasn't already hectic enough I told myself I wanted to get back into Art in Late 2024. Not just get back into it, but to "Own It". Unlike I did back before 2015. Which then, I was at around 800 Watches here on Fur Affinity alone. So, I've looked back and I've made some observations comparing myself back then, to now. Like My Style, My Audience, and My Presence.
My Style seems to have been effected from the long term absence. Expressions seem duller. And Shapes don't flow onto paper how I imagine them. Especially compared to my older works. Mentality could be effecting me performance, because I have more anxiety today in 2025 than I did back in 2015. My Age might also play a small factor too but, I would say Age = Experience, thus my age should be benefiting me more so than hindering me. But going back to Mentality. I'm not in the best mindscapes in 2025. Poverty and Medical issue plague me. And I think, a Happy Artist makes Happy Illustrations. And I'm seeing the results from the Artist Perspective. I am working on stuff behind the scenes to help assists in those departments, but we'll have to wait and see.
My Audience is an amusing category. To explain, I post a variety of themes and kinks. I post Lengthy Descriptions and Set-Up Pieces for my more Kinkier Pin-Ups. And the numbers show it all via "Stats". Like how Non-Watchers DON'T "click" those Build-Up illustrations. Compared to the BDSM, WAM, Kinkier Images. I always get more Favorites on my more Fetishy works compared to the tamer illustrations. All this considering I have NOT Inked or Colored any of my works. This tells me I should double down on Inking and Coloring, before delving too much deeper into the numbers. But keep in mind audience, I am keeping my eyes on those "Stats" for roughly 2 weeks after an illustration is posted.
Lastly, my Presence has been GREATLY expanded on the Internet, compared to my pre-2015 days. I have created Socials, rebuilt Galleries, and a established a Discord Handle, all to better interact with fellow Artist and Fans. I just need to follow up with doing more with my art before Expecting more viewership in return. Overall though, I feel like I may be hitting a tad below par all things considered. But not burning myself out is VERY good thing in this business. In conclusion, this self assessment was average. It let's me keep myself in check. But it also reminds me I need to maintain my efforts and keep trying new things even though I might be uncomfortable doing them at first. We'll be continuing my Weekly Post schedule unless TOO MUCH art is being backlogged and I need the excuse to post more. I have some Fanarts in cue to share soon. Oh, oh!! I also want to share I have Brainstormed my "Thanks for 100" post. But that's enough rambling for now. Ciao!
~ZD~
My Style seems to have been effected from the long term absence. Expressions seem duller. And Shapes don't flow onto paper how I imagine them. Especially compared to my older works. Mentality could be effecting me performance, because I have more anxiety today in 2025 than I did back in 2015. My Age might also play a small factor too but, I would say Age = Experience, thus my age should be benefiting me more so than hindering me. But going back to Mentality. I'm not in the best mindscapes in 2025. Poverty and Medical issue plague me. And I think, a Happy Artist makes Happy Illustrations. And I'm seeing the results from the Artist Perspective. I am working on stuff behind the scenes to help assists in those departments, but we'll have to wait and see.
My Audience is an amusing category. To explain, I post a variety of themes and kinks. I post Lengthy Descriptions and Set-Up Pieces for my more Kinkier Pin-Ups. And the numbers show it all via "Stats". Like how Non-Watchers DON'T "click" those Build-Up illustrations. Compared to the BDSM, WAM, Kinkier Images. I always get more Favorites on my more Fetishy works compared to the tamer illustrations. All this considering I have NOT Inked or Colored any of my works. This tells me I should double down on Inking and Coloring, before delving too much deeper into the numbers. But keep in mind audience, I am keeping my eyes on those "Stats" for roughly 2 weeks after an illustration is posted.
Lastly, my Presence has been GREATLY expanded on the Internet, compared to my pre-2015 days. I have created Socials, rebuilt Galleries, and a established a Discord Handle, all to better interact with fellow Artist and Fans. I just need to follow up with doing more with my art before Expecting more viewership in return. Overall though, I feel like I may be hitting a tad below par all things considered. But not burning myself out is VERY good thing in this business. In conclusion, this self assessment was average. It let's me keep myself in check. But it also reminds me I need to maintain my efforts and keep trying new things even though I might be uncomfortable doing them at first. We'll be continuing my Weekly Post schedule unless TOO MUCH art is being backlogged and I need the excuse to post more. I have some Fanarts in cue to share soon. Oh, oh!! I also want to share I have Brainstormed my "Thanks for 100" post. But that's enough rambling for now. Ciao!
~ZD~
Another Orbit Around the Sun [Birthday]
Posted 8 months agoA smidge early. Birthday is actually the 7th. But I wanted to Post something today because tomorrow I will be playing with a Birthday present I bought over 5 years ago. For those that follow the LORE. I'm talking about my Kamvas Pro 16 Surface Tablet. Back then, I had issues with Motherboards and Graphics Cards. But I think I have enough hardware to plug this thing up, and actually USE it!! This has made me stupidly excited.
The whole initiative of being more active as this NSFW-sona is paying off Mentally. I am more productive. Ideas are being Properly Noted and Logged. My Digital organization has increased like 300%. Still broke as Fuck though, LOL!! But it all starts with the Mindset. And this Mindset of getting out there on Twitter, Bluesky, & Discord is helping me immensely on a Mental Health standpoint. Sure I still have Anxiety drawing during the Day (when I can draw). And Motivation doesn't always line up right at Night when buds want to play games. *sighs* The juggling act between SFW and NSFW is still NOT second nature to me. But I have made more baby steps these last 4 months then I did the last 5 years!! So I am pumping my chest this Birthday.
Daily life is Weird. Day Job has cut my hours WAY back. And I still have Bills to Pay off and Dreams to fulfill. This isn't the "Cry for Financial Help". But for folks that do show up in the Comments and Favorites, if this Tablet thing works for Personal Projects. (I mean really works out). I would be more willing to discuss monetization options with my Art. Ubb bup bup bup!! Calm down! I know there's like a handful of folks excited to read that. But please allow me time to feel out this Journey. I DON'T want to do a SubscribeStar. (Fuck Patreon.) But I have a Ko-Fi page in my link page underneath these journals and submissions. Someone did proved it worked!! (Thank You again!) THAT is the BEST way to throw $$$ at my face. Just Buy me Ko-Fi's and encourage me to post more Goals. Because I got Financial Goals trust me!! Not just Bills either. I want to Upgrade Equipment, Buy Software, Acquire Toys, & Buy Commissions!!
Whew... Listen. It's my birthday (soon). And I am excited to be back into ART. Let's just enjoy the weekend. (might splurge and post 2~4 works this week). Thanks for visiting these journals. My Journey to 800 Followers continues!
~ZD~
Update: [2/11/2025]
Birthday is done. But we'll be celebrating for the rest of the month anyway. Excited to announce The Kamvas Pro works!! I also found the Cable I thought I lost!! So to the individual(s) who donated towards the missing cable, rest assured your donation will now be rerouted to Coloring Books to learn how to Ink and Color with the Surface Tablet. We did post a bunch of Artwork over the past few days and looking back through everything I've posted so far, I'm learning what folks like. But that observation will be the topic of another journal. Just wanted to update folks looking back that the Birthday went well. And some changes will be slowly happening to the Gallery. In time though... In time. ZytherDark, signing off.
The whole initiative of being more active as this NSFW-sona is paying off Mentally. I am more productive. Ideas are being Properly Noted and Logged. My Digital organization has increased like 300%. Still broke as Fuck though, LOL!! But it all starts with the Mindset. And this Mindset of getting out there on Twitter, Bluesky, & Discord is helping me immensely on a Mental Health standpoint. Sure I still have Anxiety drawing during the Day (when I can draw). And Motivation doesn't always line up right at Night when buds want to play games. *sighs* The juggling act between SFW and NSFW is still NOT second nature to me. But I have made more baby steps these last 4 months then I did the last 5 years!! So I am pumping my chest this Birthday.
Daily life is Weird. Day Job has cut my hours WAY back. And I still have Bills to Pay off and Dreams to fulfill. This isn't the "Cry for Financial Help". But for folks that do show up in the Comments and Favorites, if this Tablet thing works for Personal Projects. (I mean really works out). I would be more willing to discuss monetization options with my Art. Ubb bup bup bup!! Calm down! I know there's like a handful of folks excited to read that. But please allow me time to feel out this Journey. I DON'T want to do a SubscribeStar. (Fuck Patreon.) But I have a Ko-Fi page in my link page underneath these journals and submissions. Someone did proved it worked!! (Thank You again!) THAT is the BEST way to throw $$$ at my face. Just Buy me Ko-Fi's and encourage me to post more Goals. Because I got Financial Goals trust me!! Not just Bills either. I want to Upgrade Equipment, Buy Software, Acquire Toys, & Buy Commissions!!
Whew... Listen. It's my birthday (soon). And I am excited to be back into ART. Let's just enjoy the weekend. (might splurge and post 2~4 works this week). Thanks for visiting these journals. My Journey to 800 Followers continues!
~ZD~
Update: [2/11/2025]
Birthday is done. But we'll be celebrating for the rest of the month anyway. Excited to announce The Kamvas Pro works!! I also found the Cable I thought I lost!! So to the individual(s) who donated towards the missing cable, rest assured your donation will now be rerouted to Coloring Books to learn how to Ink and Color with the Surface Tablet. We did post a bunch of Artwork over the past few days and looking back through everything I've posted so far, I'm learning what folks like. But that observation will be the topic of another journal. Just wanted to update folks looking back that the Birthday went well. And some changes will be slowly happening to the Gallery. In time though... In time. ZytherDark, signing off.
Old Art, What Do?
Posted 8 months agoI have tried to write this Journal three different times now. And each time my ADHD did me dirty!! Anywho! This past week I have been scanning 90% of the Physical Art I have found. "Why only 90%?" Because the remaining works are Sketches, or just Traced Copies of works to practice Traditional Inking. Not everything needs to be scanned. Trust me. But Now I am sitting on an approximated 300 scans in 600dpi and in greyscale. And I DON'T know what I want to do with them.
Wait. Okay. I know one thing I want to do, I want to use a LOT of these scans for Inking and Coloring Practice with my Kamvas Tablet. But I here's the issue with this plan. I have misplaced an important cable used to connect this surface tablet to my PC. And the replacement is $40 *crys* and Money is extremely tight for February. And If I were to make a Patreon, I have no system in place to reward supporters and retain patrons. My ONLY for for accepting money for this Community I am Trying to form is Ko-Fi and I am STILL on the fence with them too. This also assumes I have the PC hardware to run 3 displays! So I am throwing myself into anxiety breakdowns trying to think of what to do. I want to get this train moving. But it needs funds. And my normal income just ain't cutting it. It's sad.
After thinking about it though. The best move is probably "Stay the Course". Continue Posting New Art in steady intervals. Grow my Fanbase. Then find a Way to Monetize my Art in a way that excites me, and encourages me to Draw more and more. (The Commission format does NOT do that, BTW.) I do have some Fun ideas regarding Community interaction and a d20. I just have to fine-tune it some more so it's an enjoyable experience. Just remember folks if you like something in my Gallery, Say it! Share it! Favorite it! Artist do take notice what catches Likes and Interactions. And we do lean towards what makes fans happy, especially if it makes the Artist happy too.
Well I've expressed my problem. I guess I'll go back to brainstorming ways to place Damsels in Distress. Thanks for hearing me out.
~ZD~
Wait. Okay. I know one thing I want to do, I want to use a LOT of these scans for Inking and Coloring Practice with my Kamvas Tablet. But I here's the issue with this plan. I have misplaced an important cable used to connect this surface tablet to my PC. And the replacement is $40 *crys* and Money is extremely tight for February. And If I were to make a Patreon, I have no system in place to reward supporters and retain patrons. My ONLY for for accepting money for this Community I am Trying to form is Ko-Fi and I am STILL on the fence with them too. This also assumes I have the PC hardware to run 3 displays! So I am throwing myself into anxiety breakdowns trying to think of what to do. I want to get this train moving. But it needs funds. And my normal income just ain't cutting it. It's sad.
After thinking about it though. The best move is probably "Stay the Course". Continue Posting New Art in steady intervals. Grow my Fanbase. Then find a Way to Monetize my Art in a way that excites me, and encourages me to Draw more and more. (The Commission format does NOT do that, BTW.) I do have some Fun ideas regarding Community interaction and a d20. I just have to fine-tune it some more so it's an enjoyable experience. Just remember folks if you like something in my Gallery, Say it! Share it! Favorite it! Artist do take notice what catches Likes and Interactions. And we do lean towards what makes fans happy, especially if it makes the Artist happy too.
Well I've expressed my problem. I guess I'll go back to brainstorming ways to place Damsels in Distress. Thanks for hearing me out.
~ZD~
My Mental Journey for 2025
Posted 9 months ago*Wipes Sweat from Brow*
The pressure of bringing Art back into my life and getting out of Hiatus-Mode has been intense! Why? Well, let's look back. In the past, I was a Hermit. I just wanted to Draw Damsels in Distress and share them to the world and hoped the world would embrace me. Buuuut the universe had different plans. Back then my Family was not so supporting of the filth and smut they stumbled upon in my room. This traumatized me into arting in secret. It sucked. It sucked a LOT! Luckily, in the Late 2000's I was finally able to get my own place and I drew like a MAD MAN while working in telemarketing. After about 4 years a crippling unemployment streak landed me back with Family. *sighs* And in 2015 I decided to drop numerous hobbies as a side-effect of depression including Art and Fabrication. Around 2018, I made decision to erase my old Handle. My Mental Health floundered for years since I landed back home. Nothing seemed to work for finances and happiness. But I wasn't a quitter, I was a survivor.
Other those years in survivor-mode I learned the importance of Networking and Discussing Hobbies. And in Q4 2023, I decided to start good habits surrounding Hobbies and Scheduling when I did them. Thankfully a majority of them suck with me throughout the year. And in Q4 2024 I decided to say, "Fuck the Haters! I'm drawing Damsel in Distress again!" I had plenty of ideas but my ADHD was a hindrance and my skills were mega rusty. But here we are 2025! The rust is mostly gone but the Anxiety and Mental Health issues never left. I am also on this journey with NO PEERS to chat, discuss, or bounce ideas off of. And this is where the Mental Health for 2025 is gonna be key.
My anxiety sky rockets when I try to draw during the day. I just can't! I don't live by myself and the Family has NEVER supported anything but, "going to work and getting paid". They are not Creatives like me. They sit down and are quick to judge and never listen to what others have to say. So the practice of Arting Secretly is still a thing in 2025 *sighs* But now I am encountering the OTHER problems of being a Lone Artist. Being my own Worst Critic. And without peers cheering you on, providing constructive criticism, the critics in my head are hindering me from lifting my pencil. To prevent myself from quitting early I am reaching out on Twitter, Bluesky, and Discord. Joining Groups relative to my Kinks and Interest. And trying to NOT sound like a pompous new guy, flooding servers with my crusty old works from early 2010's. Remembering what I learned about spacing posts out, and patience. I'm trying to Grow my circle in Art. But I neglected to mention my Double-Life. I can't parade around as Me with all these Kinky Illustrations. I wanted to keep my normal life pure and untainted. So, I created this NSFW handle ZytherDark. (Well, I had it since 2018). And got all my socials, email, and accounts lined up. Now it's up to Time. And whether or not my Mentality can handle Drawing again in the shadows of Family. Not to mention getting out of my own head.
So if you're reading this. I would love to hear your words of encouragement and praise in the comments. Even those emoji-reactions in the Discord servers I'm in truly fuels my Extroverted Soul. Please follow my Socials in the Linktr.ee link. Share my Works. And if you're a fellow artist please tell me what you think. I love communicating about Art. Looking at How to Draw Tutorials, Surfing through Galleries, and learning all I can to improve my style. If things go smoothly. In Q2 of 2025 I would like to play with this Kamvas Pro 16 I have and learn to digitally Ink and Color my works. Both Old and New. But it all rides on the Mental Health Journey I am on. Thank you so much for listening. I'll see you guys in the comments.
~ZD~
The pressure of bringing Art back into my life and getting out of Hiatus-Mode has been intense! Why? Well, let's look back. In the past, I was a Hermit. I just wanted to Draw Damsels in Distress and share them to the world and hoped the world would embrace me. Buuuut the universe had different plans. Back then my Family was not so supporting of the filth and smut they stumbled upon in my room. This traumatized me into arting in secret. It sucked. It sucked a LOT! Luckily, in the Late 2000's I was finally able to get my own place and I drew like a MAD MAN while working in telemarketing. After about 4 years a crippling unemployment streak landed me back with Family. *sighs* And in 2015 I decided to drop numerous hobbies as a side-effect of depression including Art and Fabrication. Around 2018, I made decision to erase my old Handle. My Mental Health floundered for years since I landed back home. Nothing seemed to work for finances and happiness. But I wasn't a quitter, I was a survivor.
Other those years in survivor-mode I learned the importance of Networking and Discussing Hobbies. And in Q4 2023, I decided to start good habits surrounding Hobbies and Scheduling when I did them. Thankfully a majority of them suck with me throughout the year. And in Q4 2024 I decided to say, "Fuck the Haters! I'm drawing Damsel in Distress again!" I had plenty of ideas but my ADHD was a hindrance and my skills were mega rusty. But here we are 2025! The rust is mostly gone but the Anxiety and Mental Health issues never left. I am also on this journey with NO PEERS to chat, discuss, or bounce ideas off of. And this is where the Mental Health for 2025 is gonna be key.
My anxiety sky rockets when I try to draw during the day. I just can't! I don't live by myself and the Family has NEVER supported anything but, "going to work and getting paid". They are not Creatives like me. They sit down and are quick to judge and never listen to what others have to say. So the practice of Arting Secretly is still a thing in 2025 *sighs* But now I am encountering the OTHER problems of being a Lone Artist. Being my own Worst Critic. And without peers cheering you on, providing constructive criticism, the critics in my head are hindering me from lifting my pencil. To prevent myself from quitting early I am reaching out on Twitter, Bluesky, and Discord. Joining Groups relative to my Kinks and Interest. And trying to NOT sound like a pompous new guy, flooding servers with my crusty old works from early 2010's. Remembering what I learned about spacing posts out, and patience. I'm trying to Grow my circle in Art. But I neglected to mention my Double-Life. I can't parade around as Me with all these Kinky Illustrations. I wanted to keep my normal life pure and untainted. So, I created this NSFW handle ZytherDark. (Well, I had it since 2018). And got all my socials, email, and accounts lined up. Now it's up to Time. And whether or not my Mentality can handle Drawing again in the shadows of Family. Not to mention getting out of my own head.
So if you're reading this. I would love to hear your words of encouragement and praise in the comments. Even those emoji-reactions in the Discord servers I'm in truly fuels my Extroverted Soul. Please follow my Socials in the Linktr.ee link. Share my Works. And if you're a fellow artist please tell me what you think. I love communicating about Art. Looking at How to Draw Tutorials, Surfing through Galleries, and learning all I can to improve my style. If things go smoothly. In Q2 of 2025 I would like to play with this Kamvas Pro 16 I have and learn to digitally Ink and Color my works. Both Old and New. But it all rides on the Mental Health Journey I am on. Thank you so much for listening. I'll see you guys in the comments.
~ZD~
Ask Me Anything! / FAQ v2025.4
Posted 9 months agoFor 2025 I am limiting how much Art I post in a given week. This helps with consistency. So while everyone waits for Art, folks can enjoy this Journal with FAQs I have received or FAQs I could think of before you ask. I will do my best to answer Questions in the replies as quickly as I can. Enjoy!
"Just how often DO you plan to post Here on FurAffinity? And When?"
ZD: Guess I should've clarified this sooner, Haha. In an effort to stay on a schedule, Expect me to Post here on FA on Weekends. With at least One Work a Week. Now, if you check my Bluesky/Twitter accounts (via the Linktree below). I've been posting Older Works and would love the support on those platforms as well. I am attempting to Post the same content across Both services.
"Are you Accepting Commissions?"
ZD: *UPDATED*Uh, No. Yes. Maybe...? Commissions can be a Mentally Draining process for the Artist. But I would approach Commissions with the Professionalism I would want as a Commissioner. To be completely honest, Economic Times SUCK! I got bills to pay and a mouth to feed. But I am not trained enough on Digital Media to put myself out there. But if you're interested in 600dpi Traditional Commissions scanned, Shout "Traditional? Yes, PLZ." on my Profile. If I get enough shouts. I will make a follow Up journal discussing signing up for Commissions. Fair?
"Are you Taking Request or Suggestions?"
ZD: No. I have PLENTY of ideas on my own. I frequent many discords oozing with funtastic Ideas. So many ideas I am forced to jot them down because I WILL forget them. I also have ideas for User Prompted Ideas for Streams in the far future. But first, I need a steady Arting Schedule. Next question.
"Are you Accepting Trades?"
ZD: Hmmm. I love getting art of my OC's. (Especially of Abby now) But I try to Pay for works I really want to see in others Style. But I understand about "getting your name out there" and "practicing" yada yada yada. So, how about this. If you have an OC of mine you want to draw, just ask me. We can TRY to work something out in the DM's.
"Why No New Artwork involving your Snow Leopard OC?
ZD: Wow! Haha. First off, Thank you for asking that. Second, If you know about her then you must be a true OG. The reason I don't draw her on this Handle much anymore is because that OC was NEVER made to be a part of this Darker Kinkier side of my Imagination. She was meant for better things that NEVER came to fruition. So, with that being said, she sits dormant in my Mind-Brain until the time is right. Thanks for asking about her though *wink* She misses the attention.
"What other Kinks/Fetishes are you brainstorming about in 2025?"
ZD: *blinks* Uh. Well. This answer changes a lot in the course of a Week. But recently, the Black Blobs from the Film "Incredibles" have caught my eye. The loyalist call'em "Kronos Unveiled" of KU Blobs for short. Transformations are still on the back of my mind too. Oh and plenty of BDSM ideas have been brewing in my rotting brain as well, Haha! So stay tuned to see what Experiments my Raccoon OC will be trying out. She's in for QUITE the year.
"Do you Stream? Where else can we find your works?"
ZD: I have plans to Stream, someday. But I am VERY new to Digital Inking and Coloring. Got this ole Huion Kamvas I bought years ago and I want to learn how to use it. I'm hoping to start Streaming when I find the time. As for where else you can find my works. I would definitely check out my Linktree link in the Journal Footer (below). All of my links are in there: Twitter[X], BlueSky, Ko-Fi, Piczel, and even my Deviant Art Page. (Warning about DA, I do not update as much. I just use it to watch support Artist and gather Ideas.)
~ZD~
"Just how often DO you plan to post Here on FurAffinity? And When?"
ZD: Guess I should've clarified this sooner, Haha. In an effort to stay on a schedule, Expect me to Post here on FA on Weekends. With at least One Work a Week. Now, if you check my Bluesky/Twitter accounts (via the Linktree below). I've been posting Older Works and would love the support on those platforms as well. I am attempting to Post the same content across Both services.
"Are you Accepting Commissions?"
ZD: *UPDATED*Uh, No. Yes. Maybe...? Commissions can be a Mentally Draining process for the Artist. But I would approach Commissions with the Professionalism I would want as a Commissioner. To be completely honest, Economic Times SUCK! I got bills to pay and a mouth to feed. But I am not trained enough on Digital Media to put myself out there. But if you're interested in 600dpi Traditional Commissions scanned, Shout "Traditional? Yes, PLZ." on my Profile. If I get enough shouts. I will make a follow Up journal discussing signing up for Commissions. Fair?
"Are you Taking Request or Suggestions?"
ZD: No. I have PLENTY of ideas on my own. I frequent many discords oozing with funtastic Ideas. So many ideas I am forced to jot them down because I WILL forget them. I also have ideas for User Prompted Ideas for Streams in the far future. But first, I need a steady Arting Schedule. Next question.
"Are you Accepting Trades?"
ZD: Hmmm. I love getting art of my OC's. (Especially of Abby now) But I try to Pay for works I really want to see in others Style. But I understand about "getting your name out there" and "practicing" yada yada yada. So, how about this. If you have an OC of mine you want to draw, just ask me. We can TRY to work something out in the DM's.
"Why No New Artwork involving your Snow Leopard OC?
ZD: Wow! Haha. First off, Thank you for asking that. Second, If you know about her then you must be a true OG. The reason I don't draw her on this Handle much anymore is because that OC was NEVER made to be a part of this Darker Kinkier side of my Imagination. She was meant for better things that NEVER came to fruition. So, with that being said, she sits dormant in my Mind-Brain until the time is right. Thanks for asking about her though *wink* She misses the attention.
"What other Kinks/Fetishes are you brainstorming about in 2025?"
ZD: *blinks* Uh. Well. This answer changes a lot in the course of a Week. But recently, the Black Blobs from the Film "Incredibles" have caught my eye. The loyalist call'em "Kronos Unveiled" of KU Blobs for short. Transformations are still on the back of my mind too. Oh and plenty of BDSM ideas have been brewing in my rotting brain as well, Haha! So stay tuned to see what Experiments my Raccoon OC will be trying out. She's in for QUITE the year.
"Do you Stream? Where else can we find your works?"
ZD: I have plans to Stream, someday. But I am VERY new to Digital Inking and Coloring. Got this ole Huion Kamvas I bought years ago and I want to learn how to use it. I'm hoping to start Streaming when I find the time. As for where else you can find my works. I would definitely check out my Linktree link in the Journal Footer (below). All of my links are in there: Twitter[X], BlueSky, Ko-Fi, Piczel, and even my Deviant Art Page. (Warning about DA, I do not update as much. I just use it to watch support Artist and gather Ideas.)
~ZD~
New Year, New Me?
Posted 9 months agoMerry Holidays everyone! Hope everyone had some sort of Peace this Season. Whether it was alone or with family, I hope you are in good mental health. So 2025 is days away and I want to set some goals for Art this Year. Over the last two decades, family has thwarted me! They've judged, they've interfered, they've never supported the Erotic Arts. And that has hindered a LOT of my progress over the years. I also financially struggle in life and so I am constantly in their shadow. I truly want to form habits for Art as I have with other aspects of my life. So I want to create a Schedule for Posting. Only Problem is, Art hits me in spurts. And sometimes these spurts come at BAD times... *Rambles about a LOT of personal problems and their boring solutions* ...and so I'm going to try posting something Once a Week at first. I know it's not much. But believe me I am already stressing out over it. I would like to start this around Early January. If I have too much art I will try to post more but for Habits-Sake let's aim for Once a Week.
I also want to dabble in Digital Art. The Art from the past is 99.5% Traditional. I would like to digitize my older works and maybe one day color them. Or flat out redraw them with the techniques and speed I've acquired. I have this "Kamvas Pro 13" ( I think ) and I NEVER properly installed it before. Still trying to find a Stand so I can practice proper posture when I use it. It's just a matter of time. And I hope to turn my Room/Office into a work station of many medias. But forming habits is always the tough part. So we'll get to posting first. Then we may rearrange this Gallery of mine. It's old and outdated. But that's about it from me. Have a safe and Happy New Year, and I look forward to posting these sketches I have been working on soon!
~ZD~
PS: [Update 12/31/24]
Today I've managed to Scan ALL my Sketches and Finished Roughs. Also looking back at Stats for this NSFW account. Less than 100 Followers on FA by 2024's End. I wonder how high I can get with a regular posting regime? For any and all wondering. I HAVE made changes to my Ko-Fi account. Updated my avatar to highlight my Darker Sinister half. I would LOVE to accept Tips and Contributions to my NSFW arts but Ko-Fi insist on Paypal. Which continues to use my SFW info which I don't want to taint with my NSFW endeavors. Should I just make another Paypal? Or is there another way? Open to suggestions. (if you are HELL bent on supporting me. I will accept CashApp on rare circumstances. But there's a level of trust from me you must attain first!)
And since I managed to scan everything I will try my best to Organize and prep my existing Gallery to better prepare for newer Works. "Am I taking Commissions?" NO I may allow suggestions but only in specific journals when I specifically ask!! (Unless you're a name I know from my previous years. You OG's can suggest away, and I will consider them.) With my ADHD, my inspiration comes and goes quickly. And Motivation is a long process of mental manipulation and preparation. I WILL be constructing a NSFW Bluesky account for my Sketches in Q1 2025. But I have NO intentions of posting my Experimental Colorings on there. Those Colorings will be a FA exclusive for now.
I also want to dabble in Digital Art. The Art from the past is 99.5% Traditional. I would like to digitize my older works and maybe one day color them. Or flat out redraw them with the techniques and speed I've acquired. I have this "Kamvas Pro 13" ( I think ) and I NEVER properly installed it before. Still trying to find a Stand so I can practice proper posture when I use it. It's just a matter of time. And I hope to turn my Room/Office into a work station of many medias. But forming habits is always the tough part. So we'll get to posting first. Then we may rearrange this Gallery of mine. It's old and outdated. But that's about it from me. Have a safe and Happy New Year, and I look forward to posting these sketches I have been working on soon!
~ZD~
PS: [Update 12/31/24]
Today I've managed to Scan ALL my Sketches and Finished Roughs. Also looking back at Stats for this NSFW account. Less than 100 Followers on FA by 2024's End. I wonder how high I can get with a regular posting regime? For any and all wondering. I HAVE made changes to my Ko-Fi account. Updated my avatar to highlight my Darker Sinister half. I would LOVE to accept Tips and Contributions to my NSFW arts but Ko-Fi insist on Paypal. Which continues to use my SFW info which I don't want to taint with my NSFW endeavors. Should I just make another Paypal? Or is there another way? Open to suggestions. (if you are HELL bent on supporting me. I will accept CashApp on rare circumstances. But there's a level of trust from me you must attain first!)
And since I managed to scan everything I will try my best to Organize and prep my existing Gallery to better prepare for newer Works. "Am I taking Commissions?" NO I may allow suggestions but only in specific journals when I specifically ask!! (Unless you're a name I know from my previous years. You OG's can suggest away, and I will consider them.) With my ADHD, my inspiration comes and goes quickly. And Motivation is a long process of mental manipulation and preparation. I WILL be constructing a NSFW Bluesky account for my Sketches in Q1 2025. But I have NO intentions of posting my Experimental Colorings on there. Those Colorings will be a FA exclusive for now.
F.T.D.
Posted 10 months agoIn a Era where I'm avoiding putting my OC's in Kinky situations. (Unless I've committed them to it!) I need a representative to assist me with Kinks of all shapes and forms! Introducing my Fetish Test Dummy, F.T.D. for short. She will be a Raccoon Gal. We've seen her a few times before but I forgot her name. Most likely I will retcon it from whatever I called her. I intend to utilize her for experimental Kinks that have teased my curiosity. Kinks like: Tentacles, Lactation, Transformation(s), or flat out Hentai. This WON'T exclude her from my Favorite kinks either.
As of this Journal I've been TRYING to draw Muzzles via Kitsunes. And "Thiccness" via my Were-Bears. Once I get comfortable with both, I'll need to work on a plethora of techniques. Varying from Posing, Foreshortening, CLOTHES, and Angles. So there's a lot of Progress to be made. Psychological issues still plague me though. I still struggle thinking up SFW ideas (Cheesecake, Clothed Posese, etc.) Because they do NOT sustain my interest for long. Meaning they'll be sloppy and/or abandoned more easily. Those SFW sketches are easier to share with "Normal" people. What's worse is I am loosing Steam from drawing all the NSFW ideas. Heaven Forbid I get bored drawing MY interest! So a LOT of work is still ahead. While writing this journal I am struggling to come up with Ideas/Perils. But I hoping it's just temporary.
Hoping to Post another Journal closer to Christmas with actual counts of all the works I've complete. Mind you they're gonna be sketches. Hoping that someday I can Digitally Ink and Color them. But that's down the line. I need to focus on Art first. That's my Update for now. See y'all next Journal! 👋
~ZD~
As of this Journal I've been TRYING to draw Muzzles via Kitsunes. And "Thiccness" via my Were-Bears. Once I get comfortable with both, I'll need to work on a plethora of techniques. Varying from Posing, Foreshortening, CLOTHES, and Angles. So there's a lot of Progress to be made. Psychological issues still plague me though. I still struggle thinking up SFW ideas (Cheesecake, Clothed Posese, etc.) Because they do NOT sustain my interest for long. Meaning they'll be sloppy and/or abandoned more easily. Those SFW sketches are easier to share with "Normal" people. What's worse is I am loosing Steam from drawing all the NSFW ideas. Heaven Forbid I get bored drawing MY interest! So a LOT of work is still ahead. While writing this journal I am struggling to come up with Ideas/Perils. But I hoping it's just temporary.
Hoping to Post another Journal closer to Christmas with actual counts of all the works I've complete. Mind you they're gonna be sketches. Hoping that someday I can Digitally Ink and Color them. But that's down the line. I need to focus on Art first. That's my Update for now. See y'all next Journal! 👋
~ZD~
Progress & Complications
Posted 10 months agoSo two weeks after from the LAST journal. I sat my ass down and said no distractions, we're gonna draw!! I've done this a few times now and sadly this has led to some complications. First, The Anxiety. We're getting more comfortable drawing at Night. Which sucks! Because I have various responsibilities that occur on Weeknights. Thus I have to decide what's better in the long run. Next complication is, when I start drawing the LEWD ideas flood my brain. Lewd stuff like Damsels. Damsels in Distress. *groans* So nothing benefiting my SFW endeavors is being accomplished!! And I have FORCED myself to draw TWICE!! Each time ending in a complete Rough Sketch! Like, these drawings are ready for Ink Practice and Colors on my "Kamvas Pro". Unfortunately scanning these Sketches WILL take time because the Scanner I have doesn't work. And the Family Scanner Requires secrecy and moving the scanner entirely (Unless I purchase a 50ft usb-cable. Sooooo. If you're watching these Journal with baited breath for Post soon, don't hold your breath!
But Progress is being made!! It's just, now I have to figure out how to get my Brain to NOT draw LEWD things when I sit down to force myself to draw. Sadly, this will need more time to figure that out. I am happy to announce I drew my Were-Bear and my Kitsune OC's though. Well, their shapes at least, heh heh. I know for a fact Drawing Lewd concepts does NOTHING for my NSFW handle. I mean I don't intend to do commissions and Patreon (Paywalling) is not something I like to do unless I draw 5~7 times a week. So I have to Dig Deep with the Psychology of why I draw lewd things and try to UNDO that mentality to help my situation. But don't worry once I learn to Focus correctly this can benefit Posting here as well. So let me survive the Holidays and we'll see what how my Training turns out.
This is just a journal reflecting my Journey. Technically this is only 2 weeks since the start and I am identifying what needs work. So I guess that's good. But that's all for now. I'll probably Post Holiday Wishes with another Report in about 4~5 weeks. Until then...
-ZD-
But Progress is being made!! It's just, now I have to figure out how to get my Brain to NOT draw LEWD things when I sit down to force myself to draw. Sadly, this will need more time to figure that out. I am happy to announce I drew my Were-Bear and my Kitsune OC's though. Well, their shapes at least, heh heh. I know for a fact Drawing Lewd concepts does NOTHING for my NSFW handle. I mean I don't intend to do commissions and Patreon (Paywalling) is not something I like to do unless I draw 5~7 times a week. So I have to Dig Deep with the Psychology of why I draw lewd things and try to UNDO that mentality to help my situation. But don't worry once I learn to Focus correctly this can benefit Posting here as well. So let me survive the Holidays and we'll see what how my Training turns out.
This is just a journal reflecting my Journey. Technically this is only 2 weeks since the start and I am identifying what needs work. So I guess that's good. But that's all for now. I'll probably Post Holiday Wishes with another Report in about 4~5 weeks. Until then...
-ZD-
Judgement & Acceptance
Posted 11 months agoOver the last two decades I have hardly drawn ANYTHING. But today I forced myself to draw!! For my mental healths sake. And I learned a lot in the 10 minutes I sketched. First, what was I sketching!? It's important I mention this! I was sketching my Were-Bear Gal in a base pose for a Wax over coat. And when I got to her Chest/Breast my anxiety skyrocketed!! So I stopped myself and walked around my EMPTY house!! (Family went off on Errands. Also important to mention) And I realized. I wasn't anxious about the content of my Art. I was wrecking myself mentally because, if family came home to see I was drawing I'd be ridiculed for ages!! For Context, when my art was found in my youth NOBODY understood the kinks swirling in my head. "Smut", "Filth", "Dumb" they all said. They didn't understand Kinks like: Huge Tits, Furries, or anything NSFW. They were all "boomers". The Lewdest thing they ever knew was Playboy Magazines from the 80's. The Adult Art Scene has expanded. And with mental insecurities aplenty in the 90's and Cartoons running rampant. A fetish grafted itself into my Brain. BDSM, Bondage, Perils, Non-Consent! Sailor Moon, Totally Spies, Penelope Pitstop!! Damsels in Distress excited me in my youth and NOBODY understood. Not even me!! And so I was judged, mocked, teased by some family members. And with my the Family your mistakes were often thrown back in your face. 😢
So I need to start considering finding my own place. Or Consider Drawing in the Late Hours of the night. *sighs* One Option requires a SHIT TON of money to afford housing. The other cuts into my Work. But I am writing this Journal to vocalize that I accept WHY I haven't drawn in Years. I can't find the solitude to draw my desires. And it SUCKS!! I could've honed my skills over the years!! But my Employer, Health, & Situation these past few years have absolutely SUCKED. And I refuse to put Paywalls like Patreon to Gate my mediocre art. Because as a Creative, Art should be shared!! Or at least Time-Gated!! And a lot of Artist are VERY poor at this concept!! But that's for another Journal 😤
I just need to Accept and Adapt now. Sadly "Day Job" is soon, so I will NOT be able to finish the rough sketch I was cooking up. I might be able to finish the Pose and return to it another day. But I need to push myself to Draw at Night more, rather than Doom Scrolling on the internet. Uuugh! I need to Wrap this up. I love the Support from the few that have Replied to my Art Submissions and Journals. It truly gets me through these Mental Walls to Draw knowing you guys are weird like me. I genuinely want to find other Kinky Artist so I can share my ideas and Concepts so I can learn Acceptance. Because I think I am extroverted. Meaning I get energy from interactions and mingling with others. But ironically I am incredibly Shy, thus tons of Trust issues *sighs* Let me know your thoughts and give me your energy so I can finish and post that sketch someday. And pray for me as I fight my demons in my pursuit of happiness.
~ZD~
So I need to start considering finding my own place. Or Consider Drawing in the Late Hours of the night. *sighs* One Option requires a SHIT TON of money to afford housing. The other cuts into my Work. But I am writing this Journal to vocalize that I accept WHY I haven't drawn in Years. I can't find the solitude to draw my desires. And it SUCKS!! I could've honed my skills over the years!! But my Employer, Health, & Situation these past few years have absolutely SUCKED. And I refuse to put Paywalls like Patreon to Gate my mediocre art. Because as a Creative, Art should be shared!! Or at least Time-Gated!! And a lot of Artist are VERY poor at this concept!! But that's for another Journal 😤
I just need to Accept and Adapt now. Sadly "Day Job" is soon, so I will NOT be able to finish the rough sketch I was cooking up. I might be able to finish the Pose and return to it another day. But I need to push myself to Draw at Night more, rather than Doom Scrolling on the internet. Uuugh! I need to Wrap this up. I love the Support from the few that have Replied to my Art Submissions and Journals. It truly gets me through these Mental Walls to Draw knowing you guys are weird like me. I genuinely want to find other Kinky Artist so I can share my ideas and Concepts so I can learn Acceptance. Because I think I am extroverted. Meaning I get energy from interactions and mingling with others. But ironically I am incredibly Shy, thus tons of Trust issues *sighs* Let me know your thoughts and give me your energy so I can finish and post that sketch someday. And pray for me as I fight my demons in my pursuit of happiness.
~ZD~
Forgive me A.I.!!
Posted 11 months agoI don't know how I lead algorithms astray. But A.I. plz forgive me!! Recently socials have been gathering that I like the cartoon series "Helluva Boss". I only recently discovered it and I think it's peak for Cartoons in the 2020's. But with my appreciation of the series, the algorithms are showing me more of the things that I loath! And it's Fangroups that Over Sexualized the characters!! And seeing how I am stating my disgust for Oversexualized Fanart here on FA you can probably guess where I am going from here. Fans of the series probably know of "Loona". The Hell Hound Secretary of the Helluva Boss show. And I personally think she is a cool character. One that I would love to learn more background about. But folks love making her the Broodmare of Hound Brothels or Oversexualizing her. And I hate it!!
So A.I. understands I think Helluva Boss is cool. So now Socials show me similar content, they show me FanGroups with FanArt. And wow!! Now, some Toons get a pass on being Oversexualized because they're already sexy! Case and Point: Peg Pete, Julie Bruin, Louis Griffin, Dexter's Mom, Elastigirl, Minerva Mink, etc etc... I can go on. But these females are depicted as Women!! Grown ass Females!! But Loona!!? *shivers* Loona is written as an older Teen. And seeing Pin-Ups of her make me gag. But the A.I. think I am into Helluva Boss like that! And it makes me cry. Becuse I love the Lore and Fan Theories surrounding Helluva Boss. But the Fanart or Fan-Couples? No thank you! Where do I re-train the A.I. with a rolled up newpaper and spray bottle!? Because a "Hell Hound Breeding Ground" poster with Loona as the pin-up girl made me just loose my shit and Vent about this!
I'm sorry A.I. that I've taught you wrong. Can we start over? Plz!!
~ZD~
So A.I. understands I think Helluva Boss is cool. So now Socials show me similar content, they show me FanGroups with FanArt. And wow!! Now, some Toons get a pass on being Oversexualized because they're already sexy! Case and Point: Peg Pete, Julie Bruin, Louis Griffin, Dexter's Mom, Elastigirl, Minerva Mink, etc etc... I can go on. But these females are depicted as Women!! Grown ass Females!! But Loona!!? *shivers* Loona is written as an older Teen. And seeing Pin-Ups of her make me gag. But the A.I. think I am into Helluva Boss like that! And it makes me cry. Becuse I love the Lore and Fan Theories surrounding Helluva Boss. But the Fanart or Fan-Couples? No thank you! Where do I re-train the A.I. with a rolled up newpaper and spray bottle!? Because a "Hell Hound Breeding Ground" poster with Loona as the pin-up girl made me just loose my shit and Vent about this!
I'm sorry A.I. that I've taught you wrong. Can we start over? Plz!!
~ZD~
Kink-Tober is coming...
Posted a year agoTemperatures are Falling, Leaves are turning colors, Holiday Merchandise is strolling out into Stores. It's almost Spooky season. And while people do the Spooks and Thrills I have a Darker side in my brain that appreciates this time of year. Yes, Kinktober. A lot of talented Artist parade their OC's in Kinks and Perils to brush up on Kinks not commonly commissioned. Because almost all these Artist will draw your Kinks for a buck or two. But during Kintober you'd see Chains, Webs, and sometimes my personal favorites, Stationary Bondage. Wax, Ice, Muck, and Concrete are my favorites of course, but I have been out of the Art Game for a while now. Funds aren't even good or else I would have other talented Artist draw my OC's is all sorts of Trouble. *sighs* It's not like I don't want to draw. I get the urges and ideas all the damn time. But in this world Time = $$$. And drawing for a Hobby just isn't worth it to me. Sure you all would oogle the hell out of my works but that doesn't help me out of Poverty.
With that said. I do look forward to all the delicious art being posted over the next 45 days or so. Who knows maybe someone will cook up Kinky Themes for Novermber & December. And Valentines Day is always delightful for Chocolate Encasement. So let the kinky times roll artist. And perhaps one day I can accomplish peace of mind and draw my Kinks to my hearts content. Happy Kinktober!!
~ZD~
With that said. I do look forward to all the delicious art being posted over the next 45 days or so. Who knows maybe someone will cook up Kinky Themes for Novermber & December. And Valentines Day is always delightful for Chocolate Encasement. So let the kinky times roll artist. And perhaps one day I can accomplish peace of mind and draw my Kinks to my hearts content. Happy Kinktober!!
~ZD~
Caveman Etchings
Posted a year agoLately, I have been watching the right Animes. And watching the right artist. To the point I am gonna chisel the rust off these decaying fingers of mine and attempt Art soon. I face many problems going forward though. Insecurity is #1, Motivation is #2, Indecision is #3. Of the three, two of them are based on Me. While the third one, Indecision, can be influenced by you, the *counts* +70 folks watching me. What I want to hear is, what do YOU guys like that I draw? (Please spare me the Free Art gimmicks) What themes do YOU like of mine the most? What Body Types should I etch first? Maybe I can etch Kinky things? Maybe Reference things? Do you like the Fantasy genre? Hmmm, I just blurted out too many questions there. Let's make it simple, shall we?
- Favorite Theme I've Drawn?
- Favorite Character/Species I've Drawn?
- Do you like Pin-Ups or Damsels?
Three Simple questions. The third questions mostly dictates Pose and Expression. But I have been watching a load of Isekai's and Fantasy Anime. And recently I found a Discord where I can discuss and Share things revolving around the Comic "Gold Digger" by Fred Perry. And after viewing and sharing a bunch of stories and artwork with like minded people. I remembered why I learned How to Draw. Because not many Draw what I Drew. So if you appreciate the Artist I was, and want to Support the caveman etchings you're about to witness in the future. Some input would be great. And trust me, We're calling these caveman etchings because I have not drawn in over 8 years. Maybe longer. Anatomy will be awkward, and proportions will be out of whack while I try to tune my fingers into the rhythm once again. You may even see some Emotes and Emojis for Broadcasting efforts as well. *wink* That'll be all for now. Back to the Shadows!
-DarkZyther-
- Favorite Theme I've Drawn?
- Favorite Character/Species I've Drawn?
- Do you like Pin-Ups or Damsels?
Three Simple questions. The third questions mostly dictates Pose and Expression. But I have been watching a load of Isekai's and Fantasy Anime. And recently I found a Discord where I can discuss and Share things revolving around the Comic "Gold Digger" by Fred Perry. And after viewing and sharing a bunch of stories and artwork with like minded people. I remembered why I learned How to Draw. Because not many Draw what I Drew. So if you appreciate the Artist I was, and want to Support the caveman etchings you're about to witness in the future. Some input would be great. And trust me, We're calling these caveman etchings because I have not drawn in over 8 years. Maybe longer. Anatomy will be awkward, and proportions will be out of whack while I try to tune my fingers into the rhythm once again. You may even see some Emotes and Emojis for Broadcasting efforts as well. *wink* That'll be all for now. Back to the Shadows!
-DarkZyther-
Another Lap around the Sun...
Posted a year agoOne more Lap around the Sun indeed. It's Birthday Cake time. Not to mention reminders from all sorts of social media. Yes, the beginning of February is when I celebrate the Anniversary of my Birth. How old am I? Heh heh. Old enough to say the 80's & 90's rocked!! If anyone has any Snow Leopard Art please share. I do miss my character Ri'anna (in peril). *cough cough* Anywho just wanted to share I am still alive. Gaming... Plotting... Being mischievous 😈 Just remember I'm always lurking and browsing for inspiring Art. Farewell!!
-DZ-
-DZ-