To anyone who still bothers reading journals other than for commission purposes and the random ideas: Hi there! Sorry I haven't been too social online with the furs I know and love, and even talk to on occasion. Life keeps getting in the way these days, now more than ever. It does that. Baking school is fun but not as exciting as it should be. Not while balancing chef work and a relationship.

YES, I'm a chef now. Or at least qualified enough to be one under the current situation. Doesn't make me get too fancy or excellent with meals but I still try to make it fast and pretty. Couple that with a baker/pastry chef job soon and I'm one happy rhinobear for life. If only I could snag weekends like everyone else. The industry can be so cruel sometimes.

So many things happened even before the new year. And recovering from a break-up was especially intense. Not so much the initial shock but the reason why it even happened. I'd like to think me and my once-special lazy fox are still good as friends but some maturing might be in order for us both. Moving on... I traded in for a very special bear! He's so sweet and caring and clingy and funny. All of the above and more. And he gives the greatest cuddles! I officially have a life/fur handler who's just as crazy as me. And I love him so much for that.

And that's the gist of it for now. More to come with more time and maybe some graphic details on things. Excuse me while I go back to the ceiling and watch everything else happen before I decide to come back.

Started collecting the cards again after those years, and quite frankly I feel good about playing the game and winning. Sure there were losses, especially with hardcore players. Learning through their strategies makes it all the more interesting and fun to battle with. Certainly easier with just the set cards than training up the actual pokemon. LOL


If you guys wanna battle online lemme know. I think the online version can leave messages as well. And yeah my username is still dazer_dude.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5739376/

Go check out the commissions. Because publicity is hard sometimes. Heh.

Heyo! Finally got time to write something here again since my summer vacation. That was one month of awesomeness mixed with bitter realizations and thankfulness at how I won't have to live in my homeland anymore. That place looked and felt even worse than when I was living there for most of my current life.


I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays. I know I... kinda did. Celebrating New Year in a rather quiet town wasn't part of the plan but that's because I should've brought the fun with me all the while. At least it gave me time to realize I need to reinvent myself and my lifestyle this year. A few things to consider would be:


*Going to the gym again (which I already started yesterday and still have slight sores to prove it)
*Get a new, fun job while waiting for the chance at a student loan
*Find info on a baking/pastry class to attend for qualifications
*Practice more firedancing and poi skills (and maybe get paid for performing while I'm at it)
*Furcons!! (gonna be in the one here in NZ by next month. Can't wait!)
*Be more frugal with money
*Taiko drumming and kung fu classes, maybe?
*Be happy with myself all the while! Depression sucks and it's not conducive to healthy living



But yeah, I still have some ways to go. I', glad I can always count on all the bonds I've gained, both here and IRL. I'll always do my best for them. Welp, let's start this year with a positive outlook!

Since it'll be that season here by next month, I planned a whole month's worth of PAID leave on the 19th til December 15 back to my homeland and visit the  furrypinos! Whoo! Oh, and also visit my relatives or whatever, even though I've only been gone for a year. Ah well, might as well do what I can since I won't be able to come back for a while.






1st week:
Gonna see  cheezypb and everyone in the capital, plus a swim meet. After the last one they had, I was really excited to arrange one myself. Will also be bunking in with  sYnister for a while and talk about how different life is between New Zealand and Australia. Might be a bit of a tight squeeze trying to balance meets and boyfriend moments, but I'll make it work.




2nd week:
Gonna check out my frequently-visited city in the central country, Cebu. I'll see all my friends, and especially  serov and  cursedhand. I'm sure everyone needs a bit of cheering up after all that storm nonsense.




3rd week:
Back to my hometown, and to get my teeth fixed for a really good price (what costs only one tooth here can get me a full operation there. lmao). It'll be nice to be back to see the place I've gotten used to for so long. Blending in would be a problem since that place tends to hate my kind of style.




4th week:
One last hurrah in the capital. This will be more on furmeets, parties (particularly dance and bear-related), and maybe the pride parade. I'll be with  burbarbeers and  daelmacro a lot by then.





If any of you guys are there by then, just let me know. I'll do my best to be online on Facebook and Skype regularly. One more week of work and it'll be smooth sailing for a whole month. Hoo hah!

Already got my preorder (despite a rather irritating problem during the midnight launch) and still on my way to that city out of the forest. Names are too new to memorize at the moment. I'm loving the many functions this game provides so much, it seems like I'm on standby just to train and pet my pokemon. Definitely gonna do more on this game at this point.

Anyone who wants to interact with this rhinobear in-game can just add me up: 2079-6272-8714. See ya on the the Kalos grounds. ;)

Man, has it already been a year since I first registered here in FA? Time sure flies when you're having fun with new friends. Sure did get to do quite a lot in that time I've been here, and I intend to go through more as the years go by. For now I feel I want to reminisce about what happened since then.





The first few days after getting my account set, I was already part of  furrypinos and getting to know everyone there through online chatting. The first real friend who got around to noticing me a lot was  cheezypb, and til now we're still randomly chatting away. Everyone in the group was so lively and unique in their own way; sure enough they made me feel welcome and eager to show my own whimsical side. There were some bumps here and there, but I believe those taught me to be more tolerable and accepting of everyone's quirks to an extent. Moreso than IRL, TBH. From then on, I decided I'd try my hand at seeking out and meeting the closest furs I could possible find in my country before I had to move overseas. That's when I had my very first furmeet with  serov,  cursedhand, and  kiskisaryu. I gotta say, that was the time I wish I could've been serious enough to get into the fandom earlier. There were so many others I wanted to meet in places I've always been in all this time.






Two months later, I arrived in New Zealand and started getting used to the new life. Everything was so fresh and breezy here... and I loved every minute of it! After starting to move around the place a bit more, I got the drive to join  nzfurs and had my first Auckland furmeet. Complete with the fursuiting  odstmordecai and his flatmates who ended up being my first three friends here (dunno their FA).
In just a short while after that I got to seeing more of the many furs on this city, which apparently is one of the major areas for us to live in other than Christchurch and Wellington. Seeing all those random people interacting with each other really got me feeling excited to be part of the group. Since then, I've always managed to see them, one-on-one or in bunches. I was especially proud that I got to gather some of them for my first birthday celebration here.






In the time I've spent here on FA, I managed to become a part of different cliques and groups I got interested in. I believe the first livestream I ever joined was from  jarpanda. Man, the craziness that went on there back in the day. It was because of him that I met up some amazing dudes, most of them I still managed to catch up with regularly. Thinking of cliques, I was never too particular with the idea of a "furry family" back then. Friends were only friends for me, and I didn't wanna consider them brothers/uncles/fathers/sons/whatever... that is, until I got to meet my first furry brother  rayjmaster. He's kind and considerate, and we share so many similarities & interests. Plus it's easy to be myself around him despite being so far away from each other. I suppose it was because of him that I realized it wasn't so bad to share kinship with someone you can relate to. Heck, I somehow ended up with  currytiger as a son. Not that I'm complaining, though.






From then on, I met  arkanian. This guy is so friendly and enthusiastic and just came at me like the aggressive dragon/bullbear he is. It was because of him I got to meet so many other furs I'm happily chatting with as my bros. All the silliness that ensues... lmao.






Locally, I do think I'm rather fond of  burbarbeers and  daelmacro. And along with everyone I've befriended back in my home country, I do hope that meeting them all will make us that much closer. Especially the other burrs, both current and upcoming. It'll be a challenge to see how much they can eat and do physical activities compared to me. Heh.







Each of these people and everyone I've come to recognize as friends make me a part of who I am today. Even those I've only briefly communicated with have made an impact in some form. I'm so happy with how this whole year has treated me, and I hope I can still keep on changing myself for the better, while still keeping my own positive personality intact. Also a big THANK YOU to FurAffinity, who made this all possible for me. I'll be here for as long as it takes.

Already a week since I got Animal Crossing: A New Leaf, and it's really taken a shine on me. Lotsa fun stuff to see and do, plus I get to change my style how I want to. Still not too far ahead in the game, but hopefully I'll get to meet some rhino characters. Meanwhile, I still find it funny how I managed to find a Super Toilet and Lunch Tray while shaking trees.

I'd love to visit towns and have some fun on the island, so just add me up for that or just to say hi on Letter Box.
2079-6272-8714

I'd like to give a big rhinober thank you to everyone who sent me such good wishes, and really good artworks. You guys are so awesome and I'm glad I know you all. *bows*


Last night was definitely tons of fun. First was a Japanese dinner with the family, of which I had my first cake. Next was a rollerskating furmeet, and the second cake (I love cake! XD). The last party involved me and two furs out to town dancing in three different clubs. First night I got to try that since I arrived here, too.


The guys I met here in  nzfurs from when I arrived were so warm and welcoming, and I'm especially glad to have two of the three I met on my first NZ furmeet:  odstmordecai and MJ, whose furry account or even fursona I haven't seen yet. LOL. Lotsa trips and falls, but it was still fun to see them all having fun and enjoying the time. I hope I can meet up with the others soon.


The dancing and nightlife was kind of a letdown, mostly because this is the time for students to study for exams. So glad I'm done with that! At least there were plenty of exciting things to see and do, and of course the company wasn't bad to say the least. I'd love to have something like that again, especially on a night when things get really exhilarating.


All in all, it was all worth the one day of leave from work to enjoy what my new life has led me to. I'm so happy, and I hope to have more fun times like this in-between working hard for a good future. <3

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Just got the one for 3DS. Forums say the European version still has glitches and the patch is in the making to correct that, so that should be a welcome. For now I'm just glad they have actual voices and the extra 8th Day, along with the Demon Compendium (Finally!) for better gameplay. The Tower of Babel shall be mine once again!

Just got myself the game and already looking forward to enjoying hours of gameplay on the successor to an old fave of mine: Harvest Moon. Looking good so far, until I saw this kooky character and thought to myself. "Really, Japan? You STILL went there?". Oh how I'm gonna enjoy playing this from now on. :D

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From when I wrote the last journal, I've done some thinking. Not exactly the best experience I've had, but I suppose I had to go through what happened to understand more about myself. I'll spare anyone the boring details, but let's just say it was rather immature of me to be jealous of someone else's way of friendship. I have my own way of interacting with people and I'll always treasure the friends I've made, especially from here.

Thank you for the ones who helped me out. And for those who wish it, I look forward to a good friendship. Meanwhile, here's a song to uplift your spirits:

If you would, please indulge me in a selfish and one-sided piece.

All this time, I've been so caught up in an illusion that everything would be great all the time. Until then, all the troubles seemed minor and only hard work and smiles would help; that even during a lot of trying times all that's ever needed is to shrug them all off and keep on moving forward. Of course, for most times they worked along with frequent rest and weekends with friends.

But of course, nothing could prepare me for this. When my source of grief would come from my source of inspiration. And that made it all the more unbearable; drove the hammer right into a presumably harmless crack in the glass.

When you think enthusiasm can mask life's hardships, having it backfire in a most unusual way just makes it even more painful to accept. Makes you think what the point was in even thinking such an absurd idea. And seeing reality for what it really is becomes too hard to accept. That these feelings I've been harboring were more than occasional ugly tendencies.

Of course, the natural way to handle this would be to keep on moving forward and accept that I have to deal with such burdens. Even I'm capable of such a rational thought. But it still doesn't help ease this heavy feeling in my heart. And human as we are still, emotions will keep dwelling within. Picking up the broken fragments will take time, and even when pieced together, it might not end up looking the same. The canvas that is my world will never be what I saw all this time.

I suppose at some point I could slowly learn to deal with it. Learn from what happened and make it my own reality. But I think I'll always look back to the world I once had. One of the many I've had to reform to fit my life as it is now. Would it be so bad to yearn for the past, even while moving towards the future?


It sure has been a while since I dug through my old writing habit, and I'm glad I don't anymore. Not when it's about being so weak-willed. At this point I think I'll just stay off the radar for a bit. Here's hoping I could still be bright and enthusiastic soon. Sigh

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4487500/

This guy,  lyin, is having a raffle in commemoration of 10K pageviews. Share the love and hopefully get lucky. ;)

Just received the Bjorn To Be Wild viking bear print shirt I got from  keto today. Man it looks so awesome and badass! Along with the Lumbearjack shirt I got from  grisser last time, I actually have two legit bear shirts from two artists. Hoo hah!!

I'm really glad I made the purchase for them. Sure I can buy from a store, or heck, even make them myself! But looking for that one good shirt among a thousand lousy ones takes too much time. Not to mention it wouldn't be as epic or brag-worthy to just make it myself. I suppose this is why lots of people still end up buying their stuff online rather than just hitting a clothes shop and tear thru selections.

I am definitely gonna bring along both these shirts to cons, meets, and just anything furry-related. And hopefully everyone will still continue to support the artists in their works. Ah, how cool it is to be part of this amazing fandom.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4414325/

I hope you can help him out. I know I will. And hopefully life will turn around. :3

After seeing , , and do this, I decided to make one for myself. Do with the info as you see fit.

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?

Yeah... I'd rather you guys still call me Izzy. Friends call me "Mats", while my family calls me by a horrible nickname. You can ask for my real name, but I'd probably deny using it. >_>

2. How tall are you?
5ft 8in. So yeah, not too tall

3. Natural hair color?

I'd like to say it's an incredibly dark brown, but I think it's just plain black now

4. What about eye color?

Brown

5. What orientation are you?

Gay and content to be

6. Are you single, taken, or undecided?

Very much taken. <3

7. What do you do in your spare time?

Video games, exploring the town, poi, hanging out with friends both IRL and online, etc.

8. What's your job?

Basically a steward at a hotel

9. What's one thing you like about yourself?

I'd like to think I'm enthusiastic over the things I like, and when I know friends, I tend to ignore their negative sides and accept them as they are

10. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?

I get too jealous of others, and sometimes think too little of myself. Sigh

11. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?

Not too sure. Maybe that I'm too loud?

12. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)

Agnostic

13. Do you drink?

Depends. But I'd rather not

14. Do you smoke?

Heck no!

15. What are your fears?

Heights, cramped spaces, and getting lost at sea

16. What are your dreams/goals?

To be one swell pastry chef, and to be in control of my own time

17. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?

A few, I guess. Some were memorable, some are dead to me. And there will always be crushes.

18. Who's your best bud?

Not to sound too corny, but I'd say my boyfriend. We were like that long before we got together

19. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?

Gummy candy. Or just about any sweets

20. Favorite drink?

Milk. I never tire of the stuff, in any variant

21. Favorite color?

Dark blue. But I like black and orange too

22. If you had any super power, what would it be?

Waterbending!

23. Favorite movie?

Not too sure. I like a lotta movies

24. Least favorite food?

Seafood

25. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?

Rather grim, but I guess blueberry cheesecake

26. What do you drive/wish you drove?

No idea. I don't want to drive

27. Most disliked bug?

Scorpion

28. Most hated pet peeves?

I don't even know what that means! Someone tell me

29. Dislike in life?

I hate being forced into doing or saying something I know I won't like, especially if it's in a condescending tone.

30. Most annoying?

Obnoxious and pathetic people who can't seem to grasp how much you hate their guts

31. Most disliked TV show?

I hate a lot of shows, but maybe my most hated kinds are soap operas

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4363186/
Ooh, a raffle. Y'all gotta check this guy out. :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:30959474

Hopefully I can cheer up the 4 people I get tagged in. And you guys can totally join in too! :3

Hehey! Finally managed to get myself a 3DS XL, with a Kingdom Hearts 3D to boot. So looking forward to playing as many games as I can with this thing. If anyone wants to add me, my friend code is 2079-6272-8714.

See you guys there! :D

Just managed to settle down in our house here in Auckland. Quite amazed by the weather, environment, and all the food we can manage to buy here. Next on my agenda will be getting my 18+ card and tax number, so getting a job next week will be a cinch.


I hope I'll get to chat and see lotsa furries here. Share the love, talk about fun stuff, and scare the non-furries with talks about yiffing. XD

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3921323/

Hey y'all. Helping out my good pal  cheezypb on his ad for commissions. Lemme tell ya, he works FAST and well-detailed imho. Be sure to check it out.

A friend of mine wants to teach me how to play Magic The Gathering soon, but I'm still rather reluctant on it. Lotsa people say it's really hard to understand and master, and the cards look confusing. Maybe I've gotten used to the old Pokemon and Yugioh TCGs from back then. The game does sound interesting though.

Anyone got any helpful views on this currently-ongoing card game? Might as well get some insight and advice while I'm at it.

Yay, I'm finally here! Wow, it feels a little nerve-wracking being here at first, not to mention all the settings I have to get used to after not getting in a forum-like site for so long. But who cares? After all that procrastinating, I'm actually here in FA. Whee!! ^_^

Let's see, where to start? Basically I've been watching (and even fapping to. XD) furry art alongside bara, as these two are my main genres for art and porn. Oh sure, I still enjoy real stuff as much as the next gay dude, but it tends to get too messy and imperfect. Call it escapism if you will. But 2-D definitely has it's hold on me as compared to 3-D. And for that I am thankful to the artists who have captured my attention. You guys rock!

As an artist my level would have to be novice. Only ever drew human characters, and they were, um, mediocre. Of course I'm a writer by interest, but mostly just poems and prose that took place of my voice as I was collecting myself. I'll post some, but maybe just for Scraps.

I'm a gamer as well, more on RPGs and Adventure/Mystery (why they put horror games in this genre I'll never know), with a bit of Action and Rhythm on the side. DDR and Dance Maniacs are fun and I love moving around to a good beat. Typical Azn trait huh? X-P

Well that's about the best I can come up with as in intro to myself. If I can think up some more, I'll be sure to put em here. I'm rather expressive after all. Thanks for those reading this, and I'll do my best from here on out. Yoroshiku onegai-shimasu, senpai-tachi! *bows*